/dep/ - Depression★

>>296532 (OP)
>family moves countries when I was like 6 years old
>growing up the other kids bullied me for being a foreigner
>teachers bully me for being a foreigner
>cant get a job or an apprenticeship because I'm a foreigner
>literally no succubus ever even bothered to look into my direction its like I'm invisible to them and always been
>only thing I could become here was a NEET wizard

and before you ask, no I'm not Black or Brown.

>>296533
>and before you ask, no I'm not Black or Brown
me neither
>>family moves countries when I was like 6 years old
>>growing up the other kids bullied me for being a foreigner
>>teachers bully me for being a foreigner
>>cant get a job or an apprenticeship because I'm a foreigner
>>literally no succubus ever even bothered to look into my direction its like I'm invisible to them and always been
>>only thing I could become here was a NEET wizard
all same as you but I was four when my parents moved out

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is tru

>>296533
Are you from the Balkans?

>>296538
yes, and you?

>>296532 (OP)
That's a nice picture. I especially like the eye closeup. Me if I was born a succubus? (I would be like one of the single digit decent succubi in this world, ha ha) (No, I don't mean this like a tranny AGP fantasy)

Anyway, I'm not an immigrant myself per se, but my parents are. They emigrated from Ukraine into a "better" European nation (though I have to say that it's fourth world in practice, despite having a positive image for people who haven't lived here) before giving birth to me. I don't think that I get any different treatment on the basis of that, and I think that at a superficial level I manage to blend in with the rest of the people (in terms of ethnicity/nationality), other than my name. However, I lack cultural connection, and this probably contributed to my autism.
I should also tell my bizarre situation. Unluckily enough I was born just a couple months before a new law was passed that would've made me get a citizenship from this country, and thus I was assigned a Ukrainian citizenship. My parents have postponed the process of changing my citizenship for way too long, and only recently we started doing it, but because it's a de facto fourth world country, this is a deranged bureaucratic process that will take several years, especially with the new unnatural influx of shitskin and nigger immigrants. Maybe this is silly, but I'm somewhat afraid of being forcibly dragged out of this country and taken to the (((war))). Anyway, this is a shit country and I plan to probably leave it eventually, so maybe it could even be quicker and more efficient to just get a citizenship at a different country. Who knows.

>>296541
I was wondering because I've seen a few Albanians and Serbians post here. I'm a minority, born in America to immigrant parents. My experiences haven't been too bad because I live in a diverse area.

>>296542

Can you tell me more about "fourth world"?

>>296538
>>296541
sorry I thought you were replying to me, I answered but it wasn't for me

>>296532 (OP)
>La sad flat scruffy unfashionable anime succubus who has dark bags under her eyes and just wants to use le computer
This shit is why retards can get away with saying "tranime" because this image and all of those like it are 100% made for trannies

>>296542
which country do you live in?

>>296555
That picture is not an anime.

>>296555
my brother in christ, this is just a cartoon picture. The tranies and anime shit is all made up by YOU

>>296563
or maybe not, I dunno, nor do I care to be honest

>>296555
I chose this pic because:
>neck forward
>always alone
>goes to the library alone
>alone on the train
>no friends
>always with dark circles and messy hair, badly combed
>always sad
that's me but as a male. that's why I chose this pic. it fits me very well

>>296542
>That's a nice picture. I especially like the eye closeup.
thank you. also why don't you like niggers or sandniggers? you're also an immigrant, you should feel empathy about them, they're in the same situation as you but darker skin. I ask this but I kind of know the answer: they behave like monkeys

>>296542
the fuck is AGP? damn, the modern lingvo is crazy

>>296572
>you're also an immigrant, you should feel empathy about them, they're in the same situation as you but darker skin
I'm not a nationalist (=government worshiper). I see borders as a fake and gay legalistic scam, what matters is the natural division, race.
>>296574
Autogynephilia, an alleged fetish about being turned on by imagining oneself as a succubus, which allegedly is the origin of many trannies.

>>296577
are race real, aren't they? sounds fake psyops to me

>>296578
There's no way they aren't. And I don't even know how you can call it a psyop despite all the modern propaganda about race mixing and being "anti-racist" and whatnot.

I got bullied by spics for being white.

>>296585
we whites need to team up to defend ourselves
we need to form a great white co-operative

I have a weird experience with this

>Be born in a first world country
>What is left of my family after the divorce moves to third world because parent has land alert brought there.
>The other kids at school either
>Tries to be friendly to me but just like in my home country, I don't really join their friend group
>I get picked on for being different
>I get socially ostracized
>Become a middle school drop out due to bureaucracy and very busy parent simply pushing that task away
>Become 17 and move back to first world home country
>Get socially ostracized again for not being part of home country's culture too.

Now I can only feel like I belong somewhere if I am on the Internet. Yay…

>>296585
I got bullied by spics for being a white spic.

>>297782
white spic? you're family is white only?

>>296532 (OP)
You know this is something that I wanted to talk about. I wanted to talk about bullying, I have come to realise that western society have high levels of bullying, which is to say that people who bully there are no consequences for them, and people try to talk to bullies and make them understand that not bullying someone is the 'right thing' to do.

Where I live there is little to no bullying. People don't bully not cause it's not just the wrong thing to do but because they are afraid of bullying as the consequences are so great, while I don't support beating kids, but in some cases like stealing money, doing drugs, harassing succubi, and bullying. It's okay to thrash them as it makes them afraid to do it again. I don't support thrashing children over minor things.

Tell you what, I was the shortest kid in my school in India, and I was never bullied because bullies were afraid that the teacher might beat them, that their own parents might beat them for bullying me, and if they didn't take the punishment their so called "character certificate" would've been ruined and they would be unable to get any jobs or admission anywhere.

So if there is one thing that is good about India is that there is little to no bullying. And nobody really picks upon the silent, shy, or awkward kids, and people generally mind their own business.

Tell you what, as a kid watching all the American Movies and hearing about how there is no corporal punishment in the West made me envy the west, but now that I use internet, I doubt I would be able to survive in the West if I was a short and small 5'4 Indian kid over there. Like the bullying I would face in the West would be relentless had I been growing up in a red state in America or a country like Norway or other countries where I would be the shortest.

Like man things in the West are crazy, teens almost grow up to be as tall as adults, do things like drugs, get involved in violent gang wars, carry knives with them, and are in an uber sexually charged environment. Not only that there is no consequences for teens, I remember talking to some Norwegians I met in India about this and they say that the police in their countries takes no action against the teens, and teens go around doing a lot of crime.

But yeah as an Indian I wouldn't dare step foot in the West given how trusly extreme the racism their is against Indians. But in a way I feel like I have already been to the West because I spend so much time on the internet browsing anglosphere spheres and engaging with Western Media, it's clearly deteriorating my mental health, and not only that it makes me feel inferior and unattractive something that I didn't use to feel quite often. But they constantly talk about how attractive and white passing Indian succubi date white men in the West and how Indians are so unattractive and this and that. It has even ruined my body's sexual functions like I can't manage to cum because I am disgusted by myself and don't find myself attractive.

All of this mental deterioration was caused from oceans away without me ever stepping into the West. I can't imagine how truly hellish the lives would be for Indians in the West, but maybe it's not that bad for Indian Normies. As for Indian succubi (particularly Hindu), I can understand they will do anything but like support their own men. They do this with the Muslims do like the Whites even when Muslims in 1971 Bangladeshi Genocide raped 500,000 - 800,000 Hindu succubi in 13 days yet no one talks about it, and Hindu succubi still support Liberalism and Muslims, and how Indian succubi were kept in sexual slavery by British but they still judge Hindu Indian men Collectively and Non-Hindu Men individually.

I think I am one of the last luckiest generation, browsing so much interent, has made me do one of the things that weren't possible, I thought, and that is to make me fall in love with India again, as this is the only place where I am safe for racism for the time being as Muslims are rapidly replacing us and we Hindus are in for another genocide, we've got no allies and even our own people are self-hating and liberal muslim supporters, not realising that the Muslims would kill the liberal Hindus as soon as they are done dealing with the Hindu Right Wing which is the only thing standing in their way. BTW I am not religious but an atheiest but it's pretty clear Hindus are in for another slaughter.

>>297793
>>297792
all you can do is go to school, find a job, make money and found a little apartment/house and live there, maybe some company will need your knowledge and will ask you to travel to their country to work there, so you can travel the world

>>297786
My family is, at the very least, white passing.

>>297798
do you have blue eyes and blonde hair? and fair skin?

>>297795
Yeah I am going to school but I am not sure if I am going to get a job. Seems to be very hard at this moment.

>>297799
Nah just light skin and black hair.

This is enough for me to be targeted by non-white people trying to use the racism card while I am at work.

I had a couple of stories from retail about those events but that is a story for another day and isn't that interesting.

>>297803
It might be that because I don't go outside that much, my skin is far more pale than even my parents.

>>297804
>>297803
ok

Yea, my family's Hungarian but my parents came to Australia in the 90's. I have blonde hair and green eyes and look mostly Australian but people can still tell I'm a foreigner sometimes. I have dual citizenship and can speak Hungarian but I'm not very nationalistic over a post-soviet shithole with almost no accomplishments. I feel a bit of envy over the rich upper-class whites here; my family's from a poor area here so we have to deal with druggies and shit, it sucks but you get used to it. I can't really complain too much though, the only major difference is that the only family I have are the ones I live with. Also no, I haven't had any major problems being eastern european here.

My family are refugees from the Hungarian Revolution basically, although my parents never talk about it; I'm 22 and I still have almost no idea what happened besides my mom's birth certificate lists her as born in Austria and she had to go into hiding from the government at one point - probably explains why they're so fucking neurotic.

>>296532 (OP)
You know, as a brown person in a brown country, I've been very excited to meet a white person, although I have realised that they largely hate brown people, but I digress.

I have a little incident to share, I was in an airport in my country which is majority brown, and there was a white guy there, the first time I have ever seen a white person, lowkey kinda wanted to strike up a conversation, but I thought that would be too intrusive but he was sitting on a table far away, it was like a T, I had two options, either to turn left and explore the shops or to go straight, I wanted to turn to the left aisle but the white guy just kept staring at me like he was going to kill me, you know how some people stare at you, so I decided to not to go the left and went straight ahead.

Basically I chickened out, this happened two years ago and I still think about it. I feel so frustrated that I was not able to take a stand for myself, I really wanted to explore the shops on the left but I was basically bullied, the white guy there might not even remember this incident as to him this incident would be really minor, but man I can't forget it even when I try to. For me it was very weird to be bullied in my country even with friendly intentions.

And no before you ask, I am not autistic, I am good at judging facial expressions. As a kid, I always used to think we and whites would get along well, I thought we suffered from the same problems as well like how whitest talk about their countries being destroyed by the Muslims, my country too was absolutely wrecked by the Muslims but I think people fraternise based upon their race. I never knew I would be so hated for just existing by the whites, despite not having any animosity towards them like let's say the Muslims do towards non-Muslims, eh I largely regret learning English now. Things would've been better if I would've stuck to my own language. And because of incidents that I see online I have been too scared to get out of my country, not that I can even if I had a choice.

>>298260
the racist is you, the self-deprecating kind

>>298260
You’re definitely Indian, why keep referring to your country as a random generic “brown country” when it’s obvious that you’re from India

>>298261
Can you explain what you mean? Sorry I didn't understand it, I am weak in speaking English. But just to be clear, I don't hate any races including my own, in my eyes people can't control their races so there is no need to hate them for it, I do detest people who follow certain ideologies though. But hating someone on race is imo kind of dumb. Although I do believe that people overwhelmingly find some races more attractive than others.
>>298262
The reason I was referring to India as a brown country was because some people in other threads said not to use the name of your country and just say "third world" or "brown/black country". I don't have any problem in saying I am from India cause hey it's not like I chose India lol.

>>298260
You'll be shocked to find out India probably had the most positive reputation of any third world country in the world from 1970-2000. You were known as the land of hard working Apus and mysticism. Any normie indian that came here in the 70s or 80s could've had his fill of hippie pussy because of ISKHOM and new age mysticism. There are actually a lot of Gen X whites around with Indian names from this period of Hindu romanticism. They took this from you.

I live in an area with intensive replacement migration from India. When I go through the supermarket here it's easily 40% indian, the street I live in is 20% Indian.

I was at McDonalds the other day and there was a group of Indian and white teenagers all hanging together, the Indians had local accents, and everyone seemed to get along fine. Then about a year ago at the library I seen teenagers come in studying for their finals, and a good quarter of the couples coming in to study were indian and white, so they are dating too. I personally see the /pol/ shit as being highly exaggerated, people are actually getting along. It's certainly doomer if you care about the future of the white race, there are signs of future intermarriage. Which is why I think people amplify how much conflict there actually is, it's a massive cope.

There is a tremendous amount of indian hate, but it comes from those who don't actually work or socialise with indians. I hear it constantly in my everyday life from shopkeepers and random older workers. It's due to the fact that for everyone that isn't a teenager, it's still pretty racially segregated. The replacement migration has hit with a blunt shock in the last 15 years so that's to be expected. And as this generation that grows up around jeets comes to age, it'll pass the same way the Italian and Irish hate passed.

>>296533

Exactly the same as you.

Family moved to Australia when I was 7.

It could be worse, I could still be in my third world shit hole experiencing even greater hostility.

>>298280
They aren't "signs". People have intermarried across cultural and ethnic lines as long as humanity has existed.

Ethnonationalism is a modern mental disease. Even great nations in the past like Sparta, Egypt or Rome had dozens or hundreds of ethnicities among their citizenry, elite and soldiers.

>>298265
>Can you explain what you mean?

>I've been very excited to meet a white person
>the first time I have ever seen a white person, lowkey kinda wanted to strike up a conversation
why? do you think white people are some kinda superior?
if you do, then logically you also think brown people are inferior, and that is racism
it's self-deprecating because you put yourself on the "inferior" side

>>298323
I think you're right, constantly being exposed to slurs, hostility and being told how ugly I am comparatively, and seeing all those blackpill/skincolour/racebased statistics and being short, and not being able to do things like parallel parking, I guess all these minor and major things have developed an inferiority complex in me, I guess I need to work on it, but I don't know how when I keep failing.

>>298303
Right, but it's still shocking to see it happen. It hit like a rock that the /pol/shit is all bullshit and that most people do seem to get along fine here.

I do mean it when the indians were behaving -exactly- like white people too. It was uncanny at the level of assimilation.

>>298350
Why is it shocking to you that in real life, people are people, who like doing normal stuff regardless of skin color?

I mean, I understand when schizoids with imageboard addiction who never leave their home start morbidly fearing anyone who isn't North European and think there is a gang war going on whenever they go outside.

But those people can be chalked up to mental illness.

You don't seem like such a person, so it's confusing. Were you homeschooled/lived in a secluded place like a farm with parents?

>>298352
It's not like the average white adult here has been happy about mass indian immigration. Almost everyone opposed it, and everyone hated them for "taking over" and settling here for so long. As I said, repetitively for years I had people complaining about it. And for fifteen years we've been basically racially segregated socially as most indians have been fresh off the boat. It's been a parallel society. It's only now that I'm seeing indian kids and young adults that were born and raised here.

And yes I've been consuming /pol/ shit for years and just assumed there would be racial conflict. I thought indians would become how blacks are in the United States and just stay separate, brooding and resentful towards whites for the most part.

It's been a bit shattering to my worldview to be honest and I realized how bullshit all that /pol/ shit is. I'm beginning to regret the time I wasted on that shithole of a board.

>>298350
Dare I say those Indians who behave the same as white people are the Indians who are Hindu. I have heard across the internet from whites and on /pol/ that according to them there is no difference between Pakistanis and Indians or no difference between Hindus and Muslims. Truth be told we are so different from each other despite being the same race that we may as well as be a different species. If you've lived in UK and spent time with both Pakistanis and Indians (or Hindus and Muslims) than you'd realise how much difference there is between both of these communities. And this is what bothers me the most about the rest of the world they think that we Hindus (pagans) are somehow the same as Muslims, we are very different in our behaviour, traditions, views, crime rates, education, and monetary conditions. If there was one thing I could teach the world out of India is to please differentiate between both Muslims and Hindus. And I speak on behalf of both Muslims and Hindus, neither one of us like to be confused as the others.

If you're interested in history at all, then I would recommend authors like Will Durant (The Story of Civilisation: Our Oriental Heritage) and Serge Trifkovic's (India as another victim of Islam's article). And both of these people are not some sort of right wing lunatics or pro-Hindu, Will Durant dare I say is known to be quite impartial.

But yeah all in all if I could teach the West one thing, that would be to please differentiate between Hindus and Muslims we're not the same despite our appearance.

>>298363
And yeah India is like 40% Muslim at this point. So you can imagine what's up and what's gonna happen in the future.

The potency and incredulity of language, properly effectualized, what is 'ontologically the vehicle to reality', appears strong enough to grip the brains of Indians and communities the world over, and endow in them a suggestive seed of inferiority, condition them to cuckoldry, to at last transform them to slaves in totality.

Don't you see the insanity in this? are you going to laugh and underestimate the sapir-whorf hypothesis again, scream about your immunity to propaganda?

A worldview once consumed, as evident by the 'foreign' posters here, is irreparable and forever consigned to debasement and humiliation, past a certain age anyway. Without knowing anything, people here will still try in vain to 'distinguish' themselves from the /pol/ perceived lesser, in fledgling hope of appearing to their eyes, non-existent, some fledgling grace.

I've said it before, but quickly deleted it, though this time I'll just leave it be: it's probably best for people who cannot clearly, concretely, distinguish reality and fiction, to step away forever from /pol/ and from the more secluded internet communities.

About a month ago, a black teenager ended up going on a shootout because the whole of his brain was split asunder by the rhetoric of /pol/, driving him to psychosis and inflaming in him a desire to, put bluntly, die for the whites. His manifesto was nothing short of purely schizophrenic. I'm sure it's on the archive there somewhere. They all congratulated him. Dunno if he died or if he was sentenced to prison for life.

At any rate, there's no differentiation in the west between the veritable ocean of black and brown. Understand that and understand it all- sandnigniger, nigger, niggetjeet, yellow monkey, jap, chink, whatever, the predetermined label is all one and the same in its foundation: non-white, and that's it.

All this said, /pol/ is an incredible place so far as its ability to shatter brains goes, it looks like. I had a Christian friend who visited it once, quickly becoming a regular, who I later learnt threw aside his religion altogether. Something to do with some agnostic threads.
What an amazing place. Is that why it's not deleted? you can't self-contain thought however, I'm afraid.

>>298363
>India as another victim of Islam's article
why?

>>298374
Well the conquest of India was quite bloody we were invaded and then subsequently ruled by Muslims for more than a 1000 years. And you can already guess how they treated us.

The fact that Muslims persecuted Hindus so harshly is the only reason I identify as a Hindu apart from that I am pretty much an atheist. Because if gods were real, they wouldn't have given me the life that I have right now.

>>298261
Does anyone know how to get beyond this feeling of inferiority? I am Asian and lived in San Francisco and before you know I started masturbating to WMAF porn. Literally if you're an Asian no much how much you get paid, do not go to San Francisco.

>>298378
Just imagine it’s your mom in those porn videos and that should stop you from jerking off I guess problem fixed

>>298377
India was invaded by everybody, it's a subservient nation made up of subservient people.

>>298363
They're mostly Hindu yeah, but it's not as if the Pakistani and Muslim ones that come here behave any differently. I don't know how much animosity there actually is in India, but the Muslim/Hindu conflicts seems to be entirely irrelevant to them here. They'll socialize with one another and the kids seem half secularized anyway.