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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.309238

>>309237
Just stop taking them.

 No.309245

>>309238
I need to wait until I live by myself. My parents will snitch to my doctor if they know I don't take them anymore. And I suck at lying.

 No.309247

>>309245
>My parents will snitch to my doctor
SO
FUCKING
WHAT?!?

 No.309268

>>301262
just take oxy and u will thank me

 No.309422

>>309268
they don't prescribe it anymore
and besides the new "OP" pills produced by (((purdue))) are complete garbage



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 No.308343[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

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 No.309404

>>309403
How often do you go the the gym and get sun?

 No.309406

>>309404
I don't go to gym or go out in sun(I take vitamin D supplements). Part of me thinks that it's too late to go to gym. I have skinny body which makes me look young. But I'm losing my hairs and my skin looks like shit and I have no energy to do anything.

 No.309408

>>309406
>I don't go out in sun
>my skin looks like shit

>I don't go to gym

>I have skinny body

It sounds as if you're purposely trying to make yourself ugly. Not living an active solar lifestyle is the #1 way to make your skin sag and your hair vanish.

 No.309413

>>309408
How much copium did you consume to start believing that sun can save you from balding?

 No.309421

I'm jealous of and resent everybody because I'm a useless piece of junk unable to get anything done.


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 No.306675[Reply]

Lookism has become a public, popular topic lately on the internet and I believe that it affects wizards in very tangible ways.
Being a genetic dead end ugly loser myself I suffer for it even as a now "middle aged" man.
One would think such things are left behind in high school or something, but no.

You queue up for a service, government office for some paperwork, a cash register at a store, post office or hell even medical services.
You can tell the people before you were treated kindly. At worst processed in a neutral way.
Some even receive a cheerful response and the help they need, people go above and beyond for some.
Then it's your turn at the line.

A look of disdain follows immediately. Quiet. No "what can I help do for you" "what can I help you with" "what is the purpose of your visit".
Silence. Faces contort…
Sometimes a sigh, sometimes some snide remark. Clear hostility.

A shift in demeanor so noticeable, so obvious, so visceral… (yet to them likely natural) that even the thickest of autism wont help you stay oblivious to it.
You get mistreated, worse service, denied service you paid for, medical gaslighting, humiliation over and over again.
Networking is impossible for you, who by your mere acquaintance devalue their status.. and without connections, being treated like this, only having the "official route" as an option you soon realize you might not be able to get anything done.

After much pushing, repeated humiliations and humbling yourself, matching your demeanor to that expected of "your ilk" some old lady at the register might take pity and process your request, prescribe your medication, refer you to a proper doctor.
Sometimes the stars do align like that and you make a step towards a slightly less miserable state of being.

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 No.308366

>>307765
>normals
aren't people.

 No.308986

>>307804
the blackpill/i-ncel cult is jewish social engineering to force hopelessness in the young male population, which if embraced leads down to two ends:

1. transgenderism (which is ultimately population reduction)
2. suicide (which is ultimately population reduction)

 No.309010

I've noticed this in myself the few times I have interacted with pretty succubi. I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them. I imagine everywhere they go they get the same reactions from people and the world they live in must be so wildly different than the one a loner like me inhabits. I'm not that ugly but I'm depressed enough that my grooming is completely shit and I look like shit so I get a taste of the negative side of it from society, and I also get a taste of it going away when I groom and dress well.

It really drives home the point that humans are just shallow monkeys. You can use that knowledge to your advantage to manipulate people like some politician or CEO, but personally I just find it depressing and want nothing to do with it.

 No.309061

>>309010
It's just the halo effect. How many jimiko anime succubi are drawn versus the generic standard where everything is flawless?

 No.309411

>>309010
>I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them.

This is weakness that you should not be suffering from. W/omen aren't even human.



 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.308779

>>308693
I've often wondered what my life would have been like if I had grown up without eating wheat.

 No.308983

>>308779
probably very few people have ever done this.

 No.309232

>>308555
I can't remember feeling ill after eating regular store-bought candies/snacks when I was young either but whenever I do now I feel very ill. It's like all the food has been poisoned.

 No.309233

>>309232
"Mexican mix" (carrots, potatoes, beans, some other vegetables)?

Carrots steamed with seasoning?

Eggs with seasoning?

Bananas?

 No.309410

>>309233
Do you have any good recipes you want to share?


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 No.302164[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.309345

>quit alcohol
>now have major cravings for sugar/caffeine to fill the void
At least that's not as bad I guess?

 No.309354

>>309345
Felt the same for a few months. It's OK to focus on junk rather than poison, but just for a while. Careful not to overindulge. The stimuli are mild at best and the crashes are shitty.

 No.309380

>>309345
Try carbonated water instead

 No.309389

>>309345
Caffeine is poison, but sugar is the body's optimal energy source. You should respect your body's desire for sugar.

 No.309397

>>309389
This is only like 10% true. Careful with sugar.


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 No.308855[Reply]

Does anyone else envy those people who say "I have 12\6\4 (etc) month to live"?
Imagine KNOWING for sure -more or less- how many time you have left; all the impunity, courage, quickness and nimbleness, resolution and firmness, with which you would do anything and everything.
I envy such people!
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 No.308886

>>308868
>buried
you DO know japan has made burials illegal, right? they just cremate people and have trouble with space of ashes vases

 No.308887

>>308886
burials, cremation, it's all the same to me, I just don't want my remains to stay in Eur*pe.

 No.308888

yeah would be really good to know how much i have left.

 No.308957

Not really, it's a slow death. You should envy those guys who suddenly die from heart attacks or ODs

 No.309374

even when I was more content during the early stages of NEEThood (when I wasn't harrassed daily to find work) I would have liked knowing I had 6 months left. I could have wrapped things up rather nicely. I hate how I could be living shit for decades and then once I find a bit of peace I end up dying. Not so much dying I guess, but the painful process of it, as it usually is.



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 No.309350[Reply]

My mistakes have ruined my life and i dont know how to live with it, i am hated by everyone and therefore i also hate everyone. The government doesnt have my best interests in mind, as a matter of fact it seems to be doing everything to make my already crappy life even worse, thats why i refuse to shake hands with police and government workers, they dont respect me so they dont deserve my respect.

I am still young but that doesnt make anything better, i know for a fact that every day that awaits me in the future will be pure torture so i lack motivation to do anything.

 No.309351

I don't think police hates you, it's more likely that people just vote ignorant and rude individuals in power

 No.309353

yeah people tend to like to make your life worse
I don't see any way out except neeting, drugs or suicide

 No.309355

It's really tough to go through life with no positive reinforcement



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 No.309319[Reply]

I wasted 12 years of my life being stuck in shitty apartment with my in a third world country
This includes all of my teen hood as well as a bit of my adulthood
After realizing this, I got depressed. I just wish I could have done more things that were more important to me, such as starting out drawing earlier and moving out of that shitty apartment. It just hurt how much time I wasted being terminally ill online while being stuck in hell.
I am not sure how to get over this. I have time. I am 23, but still knowing that my life could have been better in the 2010s and the early 2020s hurts me deeply. I wish I was smarter. I wish my mom was not a lazy whore who constantly smokes and eats, and she sold that fucking apartment earlier so we could find somewhere better for life.
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 No.309321

>>309320
>In the end it doesn't even matter
Nihilist Slop Thinking
>think in this way: you could have been homeless and your mom could have disowned you.
Being homeless at least forces you to move around rather than be stuck in one shitty location.

 No.309322

>>309321
Wizbro I gave you my wizdom, if you think you're born to enjoy life and you live in regret because of your past then there is nothing that can help you, because you don't recognize our painful condition as mere human beings, so you will forever be deceived.

 No.309323

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>>309321
>Nihilist Slop Thinking
Pray do tell, oh enlightened one, how it is that you have come to believe this primate hallucination to have any real fundamental anchoring in transcendental meaning. Oh right! You cannot!

>but muh seat of subjectivity

>but muh immediate sensory experience

"You" and "Me" are nothing but the material bodies software. We exist in order to better orient our physical bodies towards items and places that are likely to lead to mating, and away from pain and danger. Nothing that we perceive or experience is consequential in any sense whatsoever. One day the human race will simply go extinct. And matter will continue on without us. Utterly indifferent to out absence.

 No.309328

you're 100 percent right, the only logical thing to do in these situations is to completely despise your life
>>309323
not true, there's an immaterial ghost controlling the bodies of humans and animals

 No.309335

im super bored right now
what are you doing?



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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.308721

I really regret postponing my attempt in april, now it's june and I'm still here

 No.308726

>>308564
They don't need to. They can give you enough proteins, fats and vitamins through IV injection indefinitely.

 No.308806

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Any ideas on how to commit suicide by hanging? I wonder what sort of rope, knot, techique and place would be the best. I heard that with a good arrangement you can snap your neck and die painlessly, but honestly since it seems to involve so much technique I tend to think that just regular hanging could be better. I'm only afraid of fucking that up too and ending up as a veggie or suffocating for two hours before passing out.

 No.308808

>>308806
I have experience in this. I've successfully killed myself several times via hanging. You need to read "The Peaceful Blackpill Handbook", "The Art of Not Living", and "Fun With A Razorblade by Big Gay Andrew Loomis". Once you do that you can ask ChatGPT for the best rope and height configuration for your IQ. Then you'll need to apply for a suicide license and pray to g*d that your therapist hasn't told your psychiatrist anything that would suggest you're only suicidal for a reason that SSRIs could instead cure. There is 0% chance the Demiurge will let you die if you don't hang yourself exactly as prescribed. You'll end up as a vegetable, or worse, a fruit.

 No.309327

How do you set up a timed message to emergency services to collect your body? The hotline doesn't take text messages. I don't want a family member to find me. I really have no idea here; this is the only major hole in my plan.



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 No.309114[Reply]

>The more I seclude myself the more I long for human connection
>The more I interact with the 3D world the more I just want to be left alone
I literally cannot win in this life
I am always worried about doing the wrong thing, I am always lamenting all of my errors of the past
I hardly actually live
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 No.309221

When you are happy being alone they will find other ways to make you suffer

 No.309257

>>309218
I miss those days too, Wiz.
I miss staying in my room, instead of having to work, deal with people and fake smile just to earn "paycheck". Life was never worth it, and it never will be!
That's the truth.
Damn.

 No.309262

>>309201
I used to eyeroll when the vegans or vegetarians talked about their cats and dogs. I realize humans are walking contradictions but giving them a free pass because they are fluffy and cute is just too on point. Good luck on goat goals, I went with birds (parakeets) with similar vibes myself.

 No.309263

>>309262
I was also thinking of getting a bird like a parrot but I don't like to keep animals and especially birds in a cage

Though boundaries are important to keep animals safe, but there's something soul crushing about seeing an animal that is naturally the most free stuck in a cage

 No.309265

>>309263
Somewhat sad in a way, you have to break their spirit. They become excited for food, being let out, and to see you. It's not the natural way but flags the reward centers in their brains. I'm glad I had the experience but probably wouldn't do it again.



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