/dep/ - Depression

I have chronic anal pain, I got it from hemmerhoids although I don't even really know if that's the cause of it anymore, I have a lot of overlapping symptoms with pelvic floor dysfunction as well; I'm wayy too embarrassed to get it checked out and I shit blood on occasion, I don't think it's fatal but I hope it is.

Imagine having enflamed veins in your asshole that gets worse with shitting and masturbation, makes you shit blood on and off and even makes your asshole leak mucus if it's really really bad, worst part? I got this when I was barely 18 years old.

Only thing I've found that's helped is pelvic floor exercises and taking SSRI's to kill sex drive so it gets somewhat better and stops it from getting worse.


0/10 tier experience. I feel robbed and jealous of people without chronic pain.

I really, REALLY hope you eat zero spicy food. If you do, cut it. Even if it's just some paprika - cut it!

>>305715
spicy food spicy life

I have these absolutely awful brain problems, hearing voices, minor hallucinations, nightmares, can barely think. I will hang myself this month.
>>305430
I'm sorry to hear this wizzie. I hope you get better or die, whatever it is you wish for.
>>305541
Congratulations, I hope you are happy, I wish I could say I was jealous, but my life was so empty and painful these brain problems just push me over the edge to end it, I was wishing for the end for a long time.

>>305688
During elementary school I vomited about 6 times in class over the years. Shat my pants twice, and pissed myself atleast 4 times I can remember. Mostly in front of the class, and I still wasn't the most messed up kid there

>>305727
holy fuck was that some kind of high profile special school for wizards?

>>305688
Same. Shit my pants ONCE in elementary and it followed me until I graduated high school.

I can barely believe people have started stigmatising, pathologising and labeling being a quiet person. Quiet people do nothing wrong and this shows what ultimate cancer this society is converging to. I can already see how in some shitholes like the UK you could in the future get police check-ups at home for "being too quiet"

>>305735
woah where. anyway quiet people have always been dislike afaik. "who knows what shit they're thinking"

>>305704
Keep trying, maybe you'll land the next one.

I bombed an interview by dunking on desk jobs once (lady at the hiring desk obviously worked a desk job).

I feel like how in nature there are higher organisms like mammals and birds who survive by using oxygen to metabolise nutrients and there are lower organisms like bacteria, fungi and parasites who survive by fermentation, there are people who actually live and others like me who can only "live" which means slowly rotting and fermenting, I will die soon there is nothing left I want to do

Sorry for blogposting. I've been unemployed for 4 months now and my constant fear and stress about work has turned into fear of death and regret about wasted life. I'll have to return to work before summer. Days are passing like hours.

With gold prices at 5k per ounce, I have decided to take up prospecting for gold on public land as my alternative way to escape from wage slaving. Wish me luck.

>>305734
wanna buy a shovel?

>>305598
Zoomer here, the time period we grew up with was lightning in a bottle. I can't relate to millennials and later Zoomers. It seems as though we're a forethought generation as Zillennials, like the Jones generation.
We're just a blip on the map, something that happened, but quickly forgotten.
It's funny because most modern media is compared to what we grew up with and latter generations, yet we have to live with everything that comes after, and as you know, it's utter garbage.
Everything new that we see isn't meant for us, but the intended demographic doesn't care for it, so it just feels like demoralization propaganda, which it is.
I don't know what to tell you other than you're opinion doesn't matter.

Jokes aside, we were just a microcosm in the grand scheme of things and we're now adults, people expect you to not care and just feel nostalgiac.
There's really nothing to look forward to, unfortunately.

Truth is no one is going to look back nostalgically on the 2020s. It's a time where times are changing for the worst, Zoomer males are living in a scarcity enviorment, and most males are just second class peons not worth more than the occasional glance of disgust that is evoked by passerbys.

I think the Mouse Utopia Experiment tells us clearly that history isn't a linear path of events, we're truly in the end of times here.

>>305721
I'm sorry for my grammar issues fore I am drunk, but it shows that most people are historically illiterate. Zillenials were the original Ipad babies, I'm brainrotted to hell and back.

Gen Alpha will be a fucking plague, and there'll be so many abortions and succubi riding the cock carousel that Gen Beta will be considered a miracle to even be alive.

I’m just so tired of it all. The algorithms, the identity politics, the absolute insanity of it all. I don’t k ow how I’m supposed to just go on normally when the Epstein files confirmed the worst conspiracies we could imagine were all real. When basic reality is secondary to virtual reality. I want to put the phone down and get offline but there is no offline anymore. Unless I go full uncle Ted, everything is connected back to the internet. Every country is being run by social media. The whole internet is either Reddit or 4chan. I just need to vent and scream slurs at people again. I hate faking everything in real life. We’re all living a massive lie and I feel as though we’re coming to the precipice, and either reality will shatter all the delusions we’ve built up or we will all sleep walk together to annihilation.

>>305721
Older zoomer here too. For anyone reading this, I am a zoomer and I'm turning 29 next month. Isn't that something? Anyway I do agree, I'm really sad about how the 2000's were this magical time. I really only got to experience 2002~2015 with some little pleasures, everything else has been nothing short of a nightmare. Even my golden years still had major problems as school bullying was insane. At least there were plenty of good distractions, and a younger and more optimistic mind took them on board.

Card games, hobbies, even the environment around me is just different. I can't enjoy it.

>>305723
God the Epstein stuff pisses me off, normies can't even comprehend it. It's just a political screaming match with them "HAHA YOUR TEAM WAS THERE" they both spit at each other. Meanwhile we have evil incarnate pulling the strings of most of the world. China is perhaps the only threat that isn't compromised, which is why war with them is on the horizon.

We have our leaders and our real leaders worshipping the dark "gods". Bleeding out children, eating them, raping them, putting them in our food. They make fun of us for eating our own babies. The normies will say "(person i don't like) was there, anyway did you watch the new movie???"

We are a prison planet. I hope either God or aliens are real and some punishment, takeover happens. I'd love even mindless space bugs to just wipe us all out

both my wrists hurt now
it is Hell
I can't do anything at all like I used to
there are still fifty years left of this shit
help me

>>304098
Happened to me years ago.
>apply ice until pain and inflammation reduce
>start exercising your wrists, lifting weights in every direction, start with half a kg, increase by little until 2kg
>stretch your wrists daily in every direction
>do something for the rest of your life to keep your wrists strong (or at least not too weak)
It was six months of physical therapy for me until it got "normal".

>>304099
Wrists?

Muscles or joints?

if muscles - >>304099

>>304098
total elimination of all nightshades will help you.

I’m turning 25 next month. No wife, no house, no skills, no college. Honestly, everything feels so dull that even the idea of killing myself seems pointless. I guess I can’t even say I’m sad. I’m nothing. It feels like I’m an observer in my own life.

it seems a succubus rented your head for free op. it's like with jews. learn defensive magic

Let them suffer, they will suffer soon enough.

>>304725
this


you basically need to learn how stuff's done on-site, not how stuff's lined out by some soy-decaf-slurper let alone a special kind of person you "wouldn't seem to understand"

>>304722
Sociophobia? Knowledge?

If you're a responsible adult, you can be trusted with laying bricks and mixing the cement mix. Such a job is requiring you to not be a funny small-time-criminal that would steal random shit to sell for pennies and… that's where many foxes, weasels and rascals flub it up XD

>investing
You meaning demo trading where the brokers let you win?

Tried food delivery? No one cares who you are as long as you can bring the food from point a to point b.

The sad answer is that no job is truly comfortable to do, at least not in the way people imagine when they talk about fulfillment or passion. That is why they are called jobs in the first place. They demand time, energy, and obedience to systems that were not built around individual well being. Even work that starts out tolerable slowly becomes repetitive, stressful, or hollow once it is tied to survival and rent and deadlines. The language around “loving what you do” tends to obscure the reality that most labor exists to generate value for someone else, not meaning for the person doing it. Comfort is the exception, not the rule, and for the majority of people, work is something endured rather than embraced.

Only the top one percent can realistically escape this dynamic, because they are the only ones with enough wealth, autonomy, or power to reshape work around their own desires. They can choose projects instead of obligations, stop when they are tired, and walk away when something becomes draining. For everyone else, the job is not about self expression or joy but about maintaining stability in a system that offers little mercy. Even careers that look glamorous from the outside often conceal long hours, constant pressure, and the quiet erosion of personal time. In that sense, soul draining work is not a personal failure or a lack of ambition, but a structural reality. The system rewards endurance, not comfort, and most people spend their lives paying the cost of that arrangement.

>>305678
The worst part about a McJob is the taxes, you literally enrich people who work against you by having a job

idk sry op it's a bit different for me.

basically when i'm depressed i'm very very irritable but otherwise lethargy dominates so i don't feel anxiety or shit.

i'm feeling pretty grounded near the baseline.

anxiety makes what feels like physical holes in my brain when i get above the baseline. idk if it's hypomania cuz i haven't been evaluated but that's how i label it cuz it feels kinda similar to the description of hypomania

oh now that i reread your post it seems your main question is about stress. well gee i don't know? i don't think it's manageable to be honest, cuz depression = brain doesn't work right and in that state you can't do meditation/self-check.

i think if you're really interesting in fixing this shit you should start getting your life back on track somehow. meditate on your complexes, figure out what makes you hates yourself and unless it's succubi just go for it idk. but if it's succubi i'm afraid some rope with some vodka is your way to go.

Are you sure your anxiousness isn't just a result of going stir crazy? How often do you do activities outside of the house?

>>304864
Part of me believes this post is reverse psychology to turn us into future mass shooters 🤔

>>305283
Yep - disregard the premise and manifest your own destiny. It might still suck but it will be your own.

>>304864
You should research and follow the people he's influenced by or sometimes str8 up plagiarizes instead.

You'll get a lot farther.

>>305242
he's a jew puppet; a proud jew puppet. honesty is not discoverable in that line of work. but he is knowledgeable of himself, enough that he works for the jew, so no excusing quarter is owed him.

I like that they turned the concept "if your peers dislike you at age 4, you are doomed for life" into a catchy beat

>>305645
>>305646
I hesitate to make any suggestion, because your situation sounds quite volatile, but it seems to me as though you haven't got much to lose in making an attempt. My two cents: go for it, if you believe you can make it work. I was in a similar position years ago: lots of debt, no income, no degree. I chose to get the degree despite my situation, and haven't regretted it. If you do succeed in completing it, chances are it will pay for itself in the long run, and you might be surprised what kinds of doors it can open for you - not only in your chosen field, but also those mysterious positions that only require a degree, no matter what it's in. It does seem that AI is or will be taking over a lot of jobs, but considered from another angle, couldn't having more credentials rather strengthen your position in the coming years? This especially because some of these AI tools are being used to filter job applications, often based on keyword scanning, and so your application could be saved from the trash bin, or at least "signal boosted," by including mention of your degree. I also get a sense that perhaps you feel you are too old? If so, I don't think that is a significant barrier. I got my degree later in life, and I saw people attending the school who were even older than I was. The health conditions and other details of your specific situation, of course, I cannot speak to.

>>305652
I think I understand. You seem to be stronger than me in a lot of ways. I think I may just be better at self-deception. Congratulations on the weight loss: that is a great achievement. I believe you are capable of more great things. I can certainly relate to the desire to shout into the void from time to time, and to difficulties with emotional state changes. No doubt, this world can keep squeezing us, and kill us off whenever it likes. It hasn't become impossibly bad for me yet, for which I am grateful, although I have had some close calls. At a certain point, perhaps one would welcome the change. I wonder if you like to read history? I hated the subject when I was younger, but it has been growing on me the last few years. I find it comforting to think that many of these problemPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>305653
>You seem to be stronger than me in a lot of ways.
Perhaps, perhaps not. I like to think that each person has their own strengths and weaknesses.

>I wonder if you like to read history?
I do enjoy studying history on rare occasions. There's certainly a lot of good, bad, and morally gray to be found throughout history. From the art, mythology, and philosophies of ancient Greece, to the superstition, fear, and brutality of the Aztecs, history can shed light on the many various aspects of the human condition and the human psyche. One of my favorite figures (though this is likely a predictable and popular answer) is Napoleon Bonaparte. People often focus their attention his achievements as a brilliant military strategist (as warfare is so often viewed as the 'sexy' aspect of world history) but not always on his success as a statesmen, or the positive changes he made for France's economy and the welfare of the middle-class families in that time. A really impressive and fascinating man all around.

>I find it comforting to think that many of these problems occur in cycles. Perhaps you find this too fatalistic.
Not necessarily. The fact that human history is largely cyclical is a bit comforting to me as well, as the current 'low-point' we find ourselves in is indicated by historical patterns to most-likely turn around, sooner or later. My only real gripe with this cycle is that it's indicative of the inability of most humans to evolve beyond their baser instincts, thus repeating the same core mistakes like ignoring wickedness for the sake of personal gain or self-preservation. I really think that if the average person had better pattern-recognition, and placed more importance on things like truth, objectivity, and logic, then we wouldn't keep falling into the same traps and repeating the same mistakes. Where that to happen, civilization might actually start to enjoy some real growth in terms of intellectual and spiritual enlightenment, at which point there's no telling how far humans could go. Maybe some day, I can only hope.

I have $4 in my bank account :(

>>305672
Your $3.99 monthly account fee is due today

nothing but pain in my life, soon I will hang myself