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 No.253011[Reply]

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What's the most depressing premise for a show you can think of? If someone comes up with an absolutely soul-crushing premise, try to one-up them. Make Nana's Everyday Life look like child's play.


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 No.252204[Reply]

So say i have 1300 in neet money monthly, would that be enough to sustain myself/live off alone.
I really want to move out but my parents say i need to save that money. They are against it. They say it's not enough money to live off anyway.

I've been job searching for over a year now, no luck so far. The worst part is still being stuck at home.
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 No.252978

>>252977
Freedom from abusive parents

 No.252979

>>252977
You really don't enjoy being completely alone? When I was a kid my happiest days were when the rest of my family went on vacation and I got the entire house to myself for a week. I moved out the moment I turned 18.

 No.252990

>>252977
>>252903
I want solitude, i want to be alone, i always have fantasies about living alone in the woods.
I don't like my home city , i want to move to another city. Which also means less obligations and time spend with family.

 No.252995

>>252977
Mostly it's this
>>252978
It gets incredibly tiresome to have to take the same shit everyday for decades. Well, in this economy, I guess next life.

 No.252998

Any of you NEET in countries with no NEET/autismbux?
What's the plan? NEET until parents expire?



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 No.252951[Reply]

I would do so much if it meant a chance to go back to those times, when life was carefree, where I didn't have to do anything to be loved, I simply needed to exist, everyone just treated me like I was so special, a true gift, but now there are so many expectations to live up to, responsibilities, you're expected to either work or starve, or, if you become a NEET like me, a lifestyle where you don't work, but still have your basic necessities taken care of, either by government or parents, you're looked down on and, if you leech off your parents like me, eventually they get sick of it, sick of you, even though none of us asked to be here in the first place. I wasn't suicidal back then, at all.

Perhaps my nostalgia is the reason I live the way I do, doing nothing except staying in my room, endlessly consuming media based on my favorite characters, which haven't changed at all since my childhood, I'll read, watch and most of all play whatever I can to pass the time, as I did all of those years back, and even though it does help distract me from it all, it's just not the same, back then I'd spend all day long playing with my video games and toys, like now I guess, but there weren't any thoughts in the back of my mind, about how I should be doing other activities instead of this, like studying, helping around the house, looking for a job, working, anything to justify my right to exist.

I just enjoyed life, with this odd belief that I was special somehow, that everything would always work out afterall for me. I was wrong, so wrong. I can still feel pleasure, but it's an empty pleasure that doesn't last and is simply replaced by my own despair as soon as I stop to think about everything else, the reality of my own current situation in life. I'll never feel something like the pure joy of my parents buying me a new toy or video game from my beloved franchises, or the excitement of watching a new episode from my favorite cartoon, or the beautiful feelings of being good enough. I miss when I didn't resent life, when it was about pleasure, and I could actually enjoy that pleasure.
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 No.252974

>>252973
Is the author of Neeko an ex-NEET? Some moments from the manga were much too close for comfort.

 No.252988

If I got that chance I would rather never exist in the first place instead.

 No.252991

I liked being a kid but I was always bullied so I’m not sure how I would feel about doing it again

 No.252992

>>252988
SAME

I also hated my childhood as other anon mentioned you was slave of your parents and I hated that.I only miss years of 16-22 when I was more happy now I’m 29 everything is worse but I prefer to not exist or born still

 No.252993

I was only happier because of
>>252955 reasons provided in this post.
Life was always shit.



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 No.252936[Reply]

I've been feeling increasingly empty and despondent. Nothing seems to bring me joy like it used to. I don't love anyone but don't hate them. Is this the last chapter to my life?
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 No.252940

>>252939
Well I only have myself to go off of. I’m not a therapist nor do I work at a suicide call center.

 No.252941

>>252939
Hey, thanks for the response. I have thought a lot about a radical change. Moving out and not being a neet, or just doing everything I've ever wanted to do in my life.

 No.252943

Try to take some medicine and engage in something, if it doesn't work try some other shit, there is literally nothing else you can do about that. Life is suffering, i think this is undeniable, but there's something about living things that keeps them moving forward, it will hardly be different with you.

 No.252944

>>252943
Thank you, anon. I'm on meds btw. I feel like I might be more mentally ill than I thought I was.

 No.252947

>>252946
How am I attention seeking? But thanks for the response. I will try to keep my posts in suicide general.



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 No.250138[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I had always felt like an other online but it wasn't until 2017+ and especially the past two years I feel old online.

It seems as if my fellow netizens all vanished and everyone is a teenager or talks like one. I do not socialize but when viewing comments on youtube or on other websites including sadly here I will notice strange use of language that is similar to baby babbling and doesn ot express more than a single idea.
>finna mad cap
For example is repeatedly posted on the interweb and I do not understand what any of it means.

I am unsure if age is entirely a factor and it could be the isolation that causes this feeling of being out of touch because I have stumbled across older people talking on reddit getting along fine.

People do not seem to want to have discussions anymore online and instead post a meme or use a few words to express themselves.

I cannot be the only one who is experiencing this phenomenon.
I think social media is the cause because a lot of us have been terminally online for decade(s).
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 No.252895

>>252886
No, you *want* it to be arbitrary. The cut-off year for Gen Z floats around the mid-90s, it never moves beyond that.

 No.252905

>>252895
>>252886
Generations are fucking retarded. So retarded, in fact, that they had to make up a microgeneration called Xennials. Why? Because surprise, surprise, people born in the late 70's to early 80's don't fit neatly into either generation. The same "minor amendment" will happen to the Zennials in 15 years. People who were born in the mid-90s will never quite be millennials or zoomers cuz this cookie cutter boom er bullshit is lame as fuck. Fuck the MSM too for going "hurr durr muhlennial" every 5 seconds, knowing self-important boomers will eat that shit up every time.

 No.252929

>>250138
I am in the same boat. I have no idea what people are talking about a significant amount of the time. So much of what they put out there is pollutive to the mind.

I blame smartphones, the barriers to entry for using the internet being eliminated, and the concentration of interaction to a handful of websites.

 No.252932

>>252895
Look, you can’t even define the cut off yourself.

 No.252933

>>252905
You calling things retarded doesn't make them retarded.

The exact cut-off point may be slightly fuzzy but it's generally situated in the mid-90s and never goes beyond 97. 95 is what most give. Three things that define the millennials are the growth of the internet, 9/11 and entering the workforce as the recession hit. Zoomers have always been online and 9/11 is an unremembered memory for the few zoomers who were alive.

>>252932
You want my cut off date? 92-95 are proto-zoomers and 95 onwards are Gen Z.


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 No.251314[Reply]

I think I've come to the end of the line. I'm 27 years old, almost 28 and I'm currently a college student. I never wanted to attend college, but my parents wouldn't give me any money unless I did. I tried to get a career out of high school but ended up working a bunch of dead end jobs that didn't pay enough to live and made me want to kill myself.

At the same time, I also went to community college to make my parents happy, but didn't have any plans and failed a bunch of classes not attending or doing any work. After my latest career failure, I decided to finish up at community college and transfer to a state university. The reason for this was not that I wanted to attend college, but that I wanted to get away from my parents house, which was a very bad environment as they constantly fight and scream at each other. I couldn't pay for my own housing and have no friends, but knew they would pay for my housing if I went to college.

This was 1 year ago, and the classes were all online because of covid, so I didn't even get to leave my parents home. However, a few months ago they paid for me to have an apartment, since things are dying down and classes might be in person next semester (none of my are, but I didn't tell them that). The classes are a complete waste of time, and I have a 3.9GPA with barely any effort, but I enjoy living alone in my apartment and not working a wageslave job.

My plan was to graduate in the spring, however I realized today that because of my poor planning there are tons of graduation requirements that I haven't filled. There is no way that I'm going to graduate. It would take probably another full year of classes, things I am not interested at all, bullshit classes like racial justice studies and what not. I have no significant work history just a bunch of shitty jobs, no degree, no social connections, and no real special skills that apply to careers.

The conclusion seems to be that I am backed into a corner. In the spring, the money my parents have given me for my apartment will run out, and I will not graduate college with a degree or any career. No job I am qualified for will pay for my living expenses. Unless I somehow find a pot of gold under a rainbow somewhere, I have nowhere to go, except possibly back to my parents who I would prefer to never see again. I think I will have to commit suicide or possibly join all the homeless people who live in the streets, or go to prison. I honestly don'Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.251527

>>251520

I agree with you about not needing much money. When I was still wageslaving I spent about 20k a year, most on unavoidable things like rent and food. Nowadays I am down to 10k. I had thought that owning my own land would be cheaper but it turns out that the privilege of solitude comes with unavoidable tax and insurance burdens. I will hopefully be able to live another 40 years on my current savings like this.

The work in tech is easier than manual labour or customer service, but I don't think it's uniquely well-suited for wizards. I would place it at the same level as any generic white collar office job. With the potential to be a lot worse if you're in the memey startup scene filled with brogrammers and PM Stacies. I was completely burned out after being a code monkey for over two years, but I saved every penny I could because I knew that I couldn't keep it up by any means. They were actually planning on firing me by the end of it, lots of tech companies have this unspoken policy where if you don't get promotion after joining for three years, you're considered a bottom performer who is on the chopping block. And no surprise you have to be a normgroid to get promoted in the first place. I didn't care because the starting salary was already beyond my wildest dreams and let me save for freedom so I did the bare minimum every day since I had no desire to slave away for some rat race promo. Jokes on them that I had banked up nearly 400k by then. I moved back to my home country and told them to eat shit.

I don't know if there ever was a time when tech was the domain of autismmaxxed introverts, but it certainly isn't now.

 No.251536

>>251517
I swear to God I've never gotten a straight answer this learning2code shit.

 No.251541

>>251536
My straight answer is no, it's shit.

 No.251705

>>251520
tru wizard own bling bitches and ferrari

 No.252896

>>251333
Not from US, but I would've personally took military route if not for the problem that I utterly hate waking up and immediately force myself to get prepared to go somewhere and in military you'll do this all the time. And most fun things in military aka. shooting guns is very rare occurrence, mostly you'll just feel dreadful with bunch of other guys who are weird in their own way or absolute monkeys who live only on their instincts



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 No.248819[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Discuss the ways out of our eternal suffering in this thread. Good death to everyone!
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 No.252830

>>252829
hello i didnt think that would work

 No.252892

Sanctioned-Suicide has no method talk so it's absolutely useless, because of this I am going to talk here.
Has anyone ever thought on ODing on 2,4-dinitrophenol? My aunt took 1 a day for 3 days and stopped because she felt like nearly was going to die, I read about other people dying accidentally from it too.
Would death via 2,4-dinitrophenol be painful like drinking bleach or would it be more peaceful, it says online that vomiting might occur if you're posioned but this could be mitigated by taking a benzo + metoclopramide right??

 No.252893

>>252892
Supposedly 36mg per kg is enough to cause 'adverse effects' meaning a normal man weighing 155lb/70kg will need 2520mg to cause "adverse effects" which I am guessing means death, from my research it seems that 2,4-dinitrophenol is sold at 20-100mg so at the lowest you will need 126 tablets/pills to cause death and at its highest you need 25 tablets/pills
If you were lucky to get 100mg 2,4-dinitrophenol could you just get 25 pills, crush them into powder then dissolve in 100ml of water then drink it?

 No.252897

>>252892
>>252893
Would taking Meto and an antihistamine like Diphenhydramine before taking 25x 100mg of 2,4-dinitrophenol be good enough? Or does a benzo need to be used

 No.252923

>>252815
If any of you guys want to buy from pharmabayking, DONT. He is a scamming bitch who postpones your delivery and even your fucking refund, as if you need a lot of time to do a refund


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 No.249763[Reply]

Is living worth it or no?

Sometimes I wish I was never born. Sometimes I hate life so much that the only thing stopping me from killing myself is the thought that my death will make my parents greatly unhappy.

I have now just finished college, having to be among normalfags there was very annoying and ehausting (like in school but slightly better). I don't want to marry or have kids, I don't wanna have a day job which requires a lot of human communication.

I only went to college because my parents wanted me to and encouraged. Studying itself was relatively easy but I hated being forsed into social situations.

Sooner or later parents will force me to find a job (they aren't hurrying though since we are mor or less financially secure). If it leaves a lot of free time and requires little to no communication with people - I'm fine with that. But if it requires both - hell no, I'd better kill myself.

Your thoughts?
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 No.252789

LDAR

 No.252801

>>249930
not the anon you replied to, but…
I didn't ask to be here
as I grew up I continued to show signs that I didn't want to be here
not in an edgy way, just not connecting with people, asking why they wanted another child, sometimes opening up about feeling so very empty and broken
I noticed signs in my parent that let me know that they don't really want to be here as well, in fact they've mentioned that they were depressed before even having me yet they still decided bringing another person into this to experience the pain that they're already going through is what they want in life
the only people that I don't want to hurt with this are my older siblings, they were forced into this as well, found their footing and really tried to steer me in the right direction while our parent at best did nothing and at worst actively hindered anything that could've allowed for a more positive outcome for any of us, sometimes even literally being the catalyst for my siblings to fight between eachother
I just want to stop feeling so broken
weirdly enough the few and fleeting instances of happiness felt far too alien for me to properly appreciate
I just want it all to stop
I'm sure my siblings will be okay as long as I leave a sincere note behind, in fact I think they'd understand why I did it even if I didn't leave a note. they already know the type of person I am.

 No.252802

>>249911
that doesn't make their current life more worth living, if anything (just like reincarnation) it would encourage those that are suicidal to go ahead with it because they'll get to hurry up and roll the dice on whether they can experience a life that's less shit.
most people like to gamble and those odds, to someone that already believes that they've had shit luck with this life, are good odds.

 No.252806

>>249763
Have yourself a real adventure, maybe be homeless if you have to.

 No.252875

Death is guaranteed. You can literally just wait for it to happen. Suicide imo is for when you are actively suffering so badly that you can't stand it anymore. If you're not in physical pain then you likely aren't suffering enough to get to that point. Most young people get depressed because they realize they're not going to be successes in life. You get over it. Some old bum living on the streets begging for his supper has fully gotten over it. He has no hope of ever being something approaching the societal ideal. For young people though it is expected that they could still become this ideal if they just try real hard so when they fail they feel like shit. You get over it. You accept being a failure.



 No.252280[Reply]

i have literally never gotten scared about dying. i think it is a huge comfort knowing that i don't have to live forever in this dogshit life. think "i have no mouth and i must scream". however, i noticed that when normalcattle are reminded that they are going to die, they just get ass ravaged. nothing destroys them more than when someone dies. and they have to cope with all these shitty funeral rituals and religion to try and make themselves feel better. what is so scary about it? i mean it is just a natural fact. everybody who ever lived died. even the king of the jews they love so much.

i think the normalcattle of today live in a fantasy like dream world, and they are so detached from reality that they think they can just be young and have sex and consume whatever is popular at the given time and wageslave for their boss for all eternity. i imagine their conception of social roles like small children playing with fisher price "little people" toys. they think people are defined by their social standing and any sort of inequality that makes my life a living hell is justified because people are where they should be and they aren't "entitled" to anything. so it just shatters their narrow worldview when someone dies because it reminds them that they themselves are going to die, and knowing that they are going to die makes all of their life meaningless. all that social stuff just exists in their heads and at the end of the day they are just animals.

i guess it must be easy to love life when you get everything handed to you and the biggest hardship you faced was getting grounded by your parents for drinking at a party in high school or getting cheated on by your girlfriend. these people have never known what its like to be unloved, have actual disabilities, have childhood trauma, or be stuck in abject poverty working jobs you hate. i have lived through plenty of things scarier than just dying lol.
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 No.252735

>>252733
I don't see it that way, for example I'm 25 and I don't even have hair anymore because of my shitty genetics.

They were just born lucky, that's all. They get paid just for being themselves, because they lucked out in the lottery for hair, eye area, cheekbones, jawline, nose, everything.

Sure they do have powder and hair wax on during photoshoots but it's only the icing on the cake, it's not the reason itself why they're so fawned over by society.

 No.252839

>>252280
To live is to suffer. Very few would shoulder the burden of life is there was no reason to. For us, There's very little. For the normgroid, there is very much. This is what as known as the "Will to Live".

 No.252861

Normies are afraid of the afterlife or possible lack of one.

 No.252865

>>252732
Bone structure is just DNA

 No.252866

>>252865
You guys could really benefit from taking a developmental biology class.



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 No.251581[Reply]

The world is just fucking insanity now. The internet has been so warped by memes and AI that it’s just unintelligible noise. And when I get off the computer it doesn’t stop. I have to sit in a room for 8 hours with a mask even though everyone in said room has a vaccine, and every person in said room was tested to make sure they were not sick. Nothing makes sense anymore. Everyone I trusted is a snake. Everything real is a projection, it isn’t really there. I don’t know what to do. I’m waving trying to go to school, but I think I should just drop out and go sell weed. Drugs are my only defense against the insanity of the world because they make me just as insane. My fleeting moments of human connection are becoming so a rare as to be nonexistent. Did everyone lose their mind or did I? Where did the people I used to talk to go?
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 No.252838

>>252837
i'm not going to pass up a chance to get (You)s, move aside

 No.252840

meme and internet culture got hit by normalfags finding out what post irony is, and saying memes from 2007 or whatever like trollface to their friends who are also trying to be ironic and funny. combine that with cancel culture and everyone posting you on twitter or to their discord group when you say hi to them and you got the mess we're in.
as for irl, its always been shit. normalfags have always been cattle who will do whatever they are told while larping as anarchists and counter culture

 No.252842

>>252837
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 No.252843

>>252837
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 No.252846

>>252842
>>252843
*ahem*
I think you missed a post, champ



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