/dep/ - Depression

>>222709
Can't you get a bit of cash for donating your jizz as well? Might be a bit more comfortable than plasma.

>>223796
It's still not the same thing.

>>223798
They don't take semen from depressed autists.
If they do, it ends up on the news.

>>223798
The requirements are strict

OP It hasn't been that bad. But I'm really peeved since some other guy on /wiz/ said he's getting paid 600 a month for his plasma while the most I can make is like 300-400 at best.

>>223733
>>223735
2 way tricot is the standard for a good daki, you can't really go wrong with it.

>>223736
>>223735
>>223733
>>223727
I guess it's 2 way tricot of some kind for the absolute best fabric

I never liked stuffed animals.
They couldn't stop my father from hitting me and yelling and shouting while banging his hands on the metal kitchen counter from 10 pm to 6 am, preventing me from sleeping at all.
And I had a lot of them, too.

>>222901
Lol

>>222901
Lucky man, the only Footy worldcup mascot I ever had was the Italia'90 one which would have been the lousiest onahole ever. It was also the last world cup I ever followed.

>>223714
And your "eternal peace" is somehow more meaningful others' reasons to live because…?

>>223761
than

>>223614
>then impose it on others
you need to actually quote the relevant passages where you claim that a view was imposed on anyone. vague normalfagisms aren't proof of anything.

>>223763
A tip for you, search for the truth

>>223698
>it's how every day has to be
It doesnt have to be though. It IS but if you put in some effort to get rid of some negative assumptions and train your brain to stop beating itself up it could be better one day.

It's good that you are "plodding away" though. But, you could "plod away" MUCH BETTER if you didn't have the burden of being in mental pain all the time.

Depression while plodding away is like working when you have an injury. You can do it but, its not ideal.

Anyway, I think its good you are focusing on your goals though. Just if you have some spare energy/time you could spend it on addressing the thoughts that are giving you pain as well. At the very least so that you can work more efficiently on your main goals.

It's simple biology.

Chimpanzees will bully a lower ranking chimp when they feel stress, and it will make them feel measurably better.

We do the same shit. It makes sense, if you are scared that something bad might happen to you, fuck over the person beneath you just as much and your "rank" will be secure.

Obviously this is horrible for society, but great for the bulliers so ofc it evolved. The only solution is to murder ppl who do things like this so they don't proliferate.

>>223555
this explains 50% of the posts on wizchan

>>223555
Interesting. However, does this explain anonymous bullying on imageboards and elsewhere on the internet? There is no consistent identity so there shouldn’t be any consistent hierarchy.
Maybe you are right in that the innate chimp instinct still kicks in even though it is not actually securing any real rank in the anonymous online world.

>>223555
Warlock raging in a nutshell
Individuals used to be protected from harsh bullying due to law of the jungle tribes, but now bullies can operate below the radar of retaliation, which compounds the low status male stress, resulting in what we have seen.

>>223643
In real life, it's mediated by laws/expectations of relative politeness, but online people don't face any backlash. It's always weird to think if I've seen any of the more aggressive imageboard people irl and they were just hiding behind a meek facade of civility.

Found rarechems.com

>>223466
Hey NA, stay strong brother, as long as you have people around you that care for you, a way forward will present itself :)

>>223484
No wiz you just unlocked your superpowers

Found
https://darknetlive.com/rcsources/

That's right anon, fight for your life

>>223437

“ It sounds like you have valid moral grounding in your behavior, since you're not actually doing anything wrong it should be easy to defend yourself if you quit fearing her. The worst thing she can do to you is take away your job that you hate, that's not too bad.”

Thank you for explaining it to me like that.

I feel more at ease and relieved, knowing I’ve got nothing to lose.

>>223444

Brother my degree is in engineering.

I don’t even remember applying for this job tbh.

From memory, I only went to the interview because it was in the same location as another job which was for becoming a ticket checker on public transport.

I took this one because it paid more.

I deeply regret my decision. $50 more every week was not worth the price of my sanity.

Why can't you find other places that will treat you better?

Surely if you got hired in one place, an equally good place is better?

I know applying is a huge pain, but so is living in a shitty job over and over.

The trends are changing, theres research that shows being a dick to your employees LOWERS productivity so more and more companies are realizing they have to be nice to their employees. Try to find a better place. Also I think smaller companies are typically better for this reason too, its only the "big old companies" that can survive even though they have a toxic work environment.

>>223432
become a transexual and act like you belong

>>223753
Look at cringe Cafe users, does it seems like counts love mtf transgender? Spoiler:No

>>223620
I like your grammatical errors, they are comfy for some reason

>>223559
>Very limited and arbitrary scale but so be it. This will not work unless you have an exceptional memory and know yourself very well and you are used to dismissing emotional bias as much as you're able to.
You can use more objective scales if your mood experience cannot be tracked easily. There are things like the PANAS and POMS scale which are psychometric tests which have shown some evidence in being able to differentiate between moods, they're worksheets. There's things like https://www.moodscope.com/ which use PANAS measures I believe, ignore the social aspect.

You can also use the behaviour observation idea of that you can't track your mood easily so you observe objective behaviours that indicate a different mood, such as feeling anger, eating more, or something like that. And there are of course phone apps with different features along this line.

I really struggle to track my mood so I made a system to track my "mood" through a 9 category scale, each scale going from 1-6/7, and having 6 questions or so for each category to test specific objective actions/thoughts. Every morning I have to test myself and see where I am, and then respond as necessary. That has helped me go from barely able to move to bottom level of functioning doing chores every day.

>>223665
Well it is guess work in the sense of experimentation but that is acknowledged in the process. If this is your primary focus of trying to identify if there's a cause within your environment that you can effect you record mood for a period. You try to see if there are patterns where the mood changes regularly each week, or at a specific time, and then see if there are regular events associated with it. It's about timescales really and there may not be any identifiable situations - as the other poster mentioned he felt a lot worse after specific social interactions which are easily trackable. There are situations where response to events and emotions create longer mood spikes, which is the case for a lot of people, then it is actually quite easy to track that after certain social interactions mood drops severely.

You're making an assumption that there is a high level of chaos with mood and that the smaller events you describe are regular and create large prolonged mood responses. Psychological experiments about how the smell of lavender or something cause people to choose different answers on a test create a disproportionate idea of background chaos I think. These techniques observe and claim that there isn't that much random mood related noise and certain experiences have a disproportionate mood affect which can be tracked separately from the general background noise, especially as human creatures who normally keep thinking or ruminating about things through language that prolongs emotion/mood.

Different types of depression exist and it's true ones depression may be caused something in the water supply so this would be useless, people have different experiences of what works. I personally haven't found much success with it but others do, some of them just benefit from a narrative of why something happens, whereas others test it against changing behaviour and find progress when they get an accurate cause. Communicating with depressed people isn't very fruitful because the severity of depression isn't really correlated with the complexity of the solution, it's all a mess. I was just commenting that there are attempts to find "objective" measures of mood to account for subjective bias and background noise.

>>223620
Thanks anon!

I'm glad you understood what I was saying pretty much perfectly.

>Before I went to school I used to watch the news with my parents, but that habit only mode me anxious when leave home because of the crime rates of my city. When I noticed that I stopped watching. This only one pattern I could notice in me.

Yep this is exactly what I'm talking about. I used to listen to a lot of depressing music and I forced myself to try and listen to some other music too. I still listen to sad stuff, just not going overboard with it 24/7.

The internal stuff is really what helped me a lot. Like I was VERY VERY VERY paranoid about fucking EVERYTHING. I think what helped was "fuck it, I've been doing this same paranoid shit for TWENTY+ YEARS and bad shit still happens sometimes, this analyzing is pointless." Ofc analyzing stuff is fun, but just go and analyze something else. I used to really believe "Hope for the best but PREPARE FOR THE WORST". And that shit is just fucking toxic, there is no point in preparing for the worst, because the worst only happens like .001% of the time, and those kind of things are unpreparable. And even if you don't prepare it won't be that bad not even close.

>>223665
I literally used to blog about how people if they get depressed should kill themselves because they are likely to get depressed again, and you prob have some genetic disposition (I got my DNA scanned so I know I have those genes).

But that's all just fucking bullshit.

You don't have to believe things that AREN'T TRUE. You just have to choose to remember the thoughts that are true and make you feel better. For example: Are you fucking starving? No you fucking aren't. Are you in danger of physical harm? No, we killed all the fucking tigers, and if you're in a 1st world country you just won't get attacked in a war. You MIGHT have an abuser in your life that might harm you, but I'm pretty sure most of you don't anymore at least.

Like I got bullied at school but the bullies are gone now. One thought that helped me is "99.9% chance I will never get into a fist fight ever." That shit is just completely illegal in the adult world, and you are probably a shut-in anyway.

Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>223623
Heh, thanks. I am trying my best to be comprehensible, but I glad you enjoyed.

>>223665
>For example take a nightmare - it's contents will haunt you for the rest of the night even if you forget nearly everything about it minutes after reaching wakefulness. Perhaps you dreamed of a humanoid creature with long and thin worms for it's hair using them to choke you as you feel them entering your mouth, nostrils, your ears and eyes. You forget the overwhelming majority of that almost as soon as you wake up. Not longer after you go and for example make spaghetti. You love spaghetti and eating it would usually make you happier, but tonight for a reason you cannot comprehend (because you do not remember) the noodles feel disgusting, as if they're somehow wriggling in your mouth and throat, and you choke on them. The meal that should've made you happier, has instead made you confused and disheartened, and the reason for that is long gone. What conclusions do you draw then? "Eating spaghetti, my favourite meal, shortly after waking up has a significantly negative impact upon my mood."? Don't forget that because spaghetti is your favourite meal, you expect to enjoy it - the fact that you didn't makes the negative impact even bigger.
I don't know if was the intention but this example reads like a psychollogical thriller, I like a lot. Don't mind I steal this concept, right?

>>223560
Kill a meth dealer, and steal all the dope from him, and cash if he/she has any.

sell plasma op. it's around 200-300 a month if you go in twice a week(limit).

though some guy on fucking wiz said he's making 600 and i don't fucking get it. that really pissed me off.

>>223560

sorry Anon. i dont regret being a NEET at any time. I do regret that i didnt just work insanely hard right out of high school, invest every penny, and then live off the interest from that. This pay check to pay check hell is torture

>>223560
>lost my neetbux due to gambling.

whats the problem?

No one who regularly uses imageboards should be allowed to hold political thought. They aren't able to form anything coherent in the first place.
The last ten years have only proven this to me. These places produce nothing but psychotics.

I agree with everything anti-politics in this thread but:

> Once I stopped denying this I legit went from a politics junky to extreme apathy and depression in less than a month

You don't have to be apathetic and depressed now dude. Do something else that makes you happy.

Fuck if politics makes you happy somehow do it even though its a loser hobby, we are all wizards and kinda losers.

>>223541
It's already being managed by a higher intelligence, you think all of this is by accident?

>>223610
Anything that has purposely set up the current state of affairs is hardly what I’d call an intelligence.

>>221881
> it was forced on us
Only if you conflate the news with politics. Actual political study is certainly not forced upon anyone, quite the opposite (by denying that certain things are political).

>>221427
Managing to-do lists, dividing my day (or week) into a parts where and I allow myself relax, and when I should deal with smth.

>>221427
tbh i barely do anything to cope, i just sit and try to suppress those thoughts

>>223366
'dont think of a pink elephant'

>>223629
not really. i'm quickly overwhelmed by thoughts even while doing other work. constant traumatic memories replaying in my head and "damn this is what become of my life" like squidward or any depressed shitjob character on the simpsons

When I got on antidepressants (specifically welbutrin and zoloft together) I found that the thoughts that swirled around in my head constantly were much much easier to suppress and eventually I no longer really had a problem with it really.