/dep/ - Depression

>>211770
Life is literally the cause of suffering. In other words life creates suffering. You're confused because it's also the cause of other things besides suffering, but that doesn't change the fact.

>>211772
That's like saying paper causes letters

>>211776
No, in your analogy, paper would be the world/universe, and life would be the ink. If there was no life, there would be no suffering, it's not difficult to understand.

>>209565
>>209551
If you wanted someone to suffer why would you explain it to them to give them peace of mind that they deserved it?

>>210097
It's actually infuriating that they're so foolish to behave. That's faggot enabling even if the abrahamic god DOES exist.

>>211622
*you're (putting yourself at risk)

It's just a defense mechanism and society runs of being reasonable. Fairness at the core of the system. Royalty has better blood traditionally, we still think genes are real, it never should have been this silly song and dance about how you can choose anything. Rocky the first is a good movie. He hates himself until he tries, then fails, it wasn't about winning. He wanted to know it wasn't his fault even if technically it was. Going the distance and actually succeeding is a terrible and immature sort of story, the movies that came after are dogshit and so are people that like them.

Just as an example to add to my line of thinking. I don't even like Rocky, but the first one was betrayed by the rest. The entire point was to do with self esteem. The semantics about having tried. Attempted. That's all you need to do is attempt it. Then you did it. It's your fault, but not your fault the world was so difficult. Either way you win, either way you lose. Who cares? You're still alive so you couldn't have failed that hard. Unless the secret goal all along was to die perhaps…

I'd personally be insulted by a second chance. I need no such insanity in my life. If I failed I accept that.

>>209511
The world is a cold unforgiving place full of people looking out for themselves. Not going to pretend to know the answers just wanted to say good luck

>>209512
just world fallacy

>>211689
as I go out to buy thinks everyone doesn't look at me and I feel invisible, does it mean Im not alive?

the point is, is everythink agnainst you, just wait you have time, the fade comes if you want or not, not the religious fade, just the fade of live

and if you doesn't recognize it, than doesn't care, live is just a oportunity not a "must have"

>>209511
too close to home

Belt and a doorknob

>>211866
how the fuck do celebrities do this?
I need a picture or something

I heard that you can gas yourself and it's a painless death since it puts you to sleep first. I can't remember what gas you have to use though. I think the kind for mini camping stoves work but idk. You just need to rid your room of breathable air.

>>211117
Practice fasting. Eating just honey with warm water for a week or 5 days, the wait a month and do it again.

Your brain is occupied with subtle crap, substances that do not let the hormones act normally…

after doing that 4 or 5 times in a year you should start to feel some changes.

It seems to work to me, yet I sometimes take longer time to repeat than I should…

>>211224
I have only felt motivation to do anything when something makes me extremely upset/angry. When I saw the ending of MLP I got so angry at the writers that I made my own version of the ending. Despite me never wanting to write or even having motivation to write I churned out 30k words in the span of 2 days. It just doesn't happen very often but experiencing the world or feeling really attached to something is where motivation comes from.

>>211224
This is one of the few things I suffer with that I don't blame myself for in any way. The world in recent years has been so geared towards instant gratification that it was bound to have problems for many thousands of people and it does. Even normies suffer from this shit to a lesser extent.

I'm also stupidly easily influenced though, in that essentislly whatever a character that I like in a movie/tv series/whatever media is doing I want to do it too. Never to the extent that I actually pursue it though, just enough to research it online for hours on end and do nothing about. Of course after that I feel like I have wasted so much time on nothing after cramming my head with useless shit I will never use and will forget when a character in the next thing I consume does something different.

I just wish I had one thing to aim towards. I remember my dad having one "heart to heart" conversation with me in my life and it was about needing a dream to strive towards. I ignored it at the time because I was already planning on killing myself by now but now that I am still here I wish I found something, anything, to cling to.

Do you want to improve your situation, or are you content as you are? You don't seem content, so maybe it's time to change. I know you may feel isolated and helpless because of your lacking of knowledge, but I think you may be able to turn it around. Firstly though, I want to say that you're not stupid or worthless because of your grades in high school or because you had to repeat high school or because your knowledge of the outside world is lacking. I feel that way too about college, and even though I made it through high school, It's been the same way for me in college. I've been in college for 6 years with no degree at all. No associates, even. I've repeated classes that I should have been able to complete because of laziness because I too have an apathetic view of learning too.

If you think you may have a learning disability, you may need to get actual professional help with that, but if you're just very apathetic, you can just start by doing a little research every day on the things that irk you. I know it's annoying because I don't like working, but playing video games, but you're going to hurt unless you do the things that cause you to hurt in the first place. A small amount of effort each day will be nothing compared to the pain of what you're going through now, and I know that personally. I've not fully healed, but I feel like I'm at least evolving a bit each year, slowly, just by doing a few things per year.

If you're on okay terms with your parents, even if they've forgotten your birthday, I'm sure they know of your impending fate if you continue this path, so maybe talk with them for help.

With all that said, happy birthday. And don't forget that despite everything, you'll always be a human, no less, no matter.

>>211117
Congrats anon, acknowledging one's ignorance is the first step to wisdom. Aquiring a hobby that you are passionate about can't hurt either.
>>211224
Stay away from the internet and social media for awhile.

>>211855
>read first half of post
>its sensible and relatable
>read the last paragraph
>turns into full retard

Your parents are right. If you make $400 in 3 days of work and spend $500 weekly it's all your fault.

>>211859
Oh give him a break. We can't all be desireless wizmonks.

>>211860
No. I mean, it's cool you are trying to change your life, but putting down others isn't

>>211797
Yeah, everything you see on social media is a lie
If you're actually having a very intimate moment of introspection you don't just share it with the rest of the world for likes

I don't want to be forced into giving up 4 hours of every day for the following 15 years.

I'd like to but I know nothing of how to care for them or train them, what to do if they get sick etc.

>>211641
>what to do if they get sick
take them to a vet

Do not think about doing anything before you can take care of yourself first

>>211838
Yeah it really depends how dysfunctional your depression makes you. I get too depressed to change my cats litter trays ( thankfully it only lasts 5-8 days at most ) and have sat there with them begging for food for hours before, but my family can feed them they just can't change the trays. I'm ashamed of it and I wouldn't get pets for myself( mine are family pets ). I however have severe dysfunctional depression where I become a total retarded goblin, for a lot of people who have depression that responds to positive social interaction and positive interaction they can work. When my depression lifts from severe goblin status having pets and caring for them is fulfilling.

Maybe volunteer at a dog place to see if it works, but if you're both a dysfunctional and a caring person it's very distressing to see yourself fail to look after an innocent and caring animal. I only have experience with cats maybe dogs are more emotionally reactive.

>>211831
/b/anish

>>211831
It’s not that bad of a thread so keep

Studies typically show that masturbation is the main thing that loses enjoyment with male genital mutilation, so I'd say it is a crime against wizards in particular - it most punishes those who dont have sex

>>211835
It means dick soft, and these guys don't turn me on so let them die.

>>211831
It's an inflammatory political psyop. So /b/anish.

Moved to >>>/b/426068.

We're all gonna die calm down

>what keeps you going
When I watched Star Trek as a kid I felt something beautiful and unexplainable.
The memory of that feeling stays here, come hell come high water.
It keeps me going. A better world awaits, somewhere and sometime.

I don't even know anymore. If I'm being honest it's probably because it's easier to just stay in the wake up -> go to work -> come home, hate myself self and sleep loop than it is to attempt to change it. It's actually easier to stay in my loop than to kill myself… I keep waiting to hit rock bottom in the hopes that it will force me to change something, but I've been waiting for so long that I don't even feel anything anymore. I don't know if things can even get worse at this point, but I'm hanging onto the hope that they do so I can at least feel something again.

>>211781
I still don't see what's so great about all this
The only thing i can think of watching this stuff is that i hope i work up the courage to kill myself before it becomes real

>>208489
no way out

>>211055
At Brazil, legally a adult can have sex with a 14 years old teen, but its not uncommon to have adults in the school door boyfrinding kids with 11, 12 years old when i was with 11 years old in the school, a succubus in my class already had a boyfriend, living together and he had 20 years old, if i remmember right, he was a drugdeller or something involved with theft. Does the reason? Motorcycle or car. The hipergamy is brutal, even kids with 11 or 12 years old already are just interested in men with money. Of course, this thing happens more with poor people, because a real bandit culture is praised.

>>211063
What? This is crazy, has a chance to pedophile to be genetic.

>>211063
How hard is it to find cp anyways? And what are the risks involved?

>>211061
Part of this place being for wizards means bullying isn't something you're supposed to wish on other wizards. Yet you do. You're just projecting your anger that you got molested as a child, aren't you? Get raped by a thousand niggers you fucking normie.

Its fucked up. But controllable. You treat these thoughts like a big dump. I even synced it up so I only fap when shitting then wipe my ass and forget about both of these things until the next bathroom time.
In time I mostly dissociated RL stuff with it, mostly not being aroused by it if it pops up and my life is mostly without problems with this disgusting demon shit.
t. wizard who only faps to violence