/dep/ - Depression

>>311536
>can't just easily get

That's the point. You dumb nigger americans can't revolt against the epSTEIN class, you "just easily get" jew-addled turncoats like trump. You dumb nigger americans "just easily get" corn syrup, GMO, drugs, alcohol, give speed to children, pray to 2000 year old jew. Everything is "just easily get." Dumb fucking nigger cattle.

Got prescribed methadone, it's weird being able to get an illegal drug legally now. I'm going to enjoy this until roughly EOY as a way to soothe the crippling FOMO from EOY celebrations.

Anyone else here an opiate addict? I'd quit but I have nothing else that even comes close to a substitute to the bliss of opiates.

>>311816
>I'm going to enjoy this until roughly EOY as a way to soothe the crippling FOMO from EOY celebrations.
As usual, "drugwizards" are all failed normalfaggots who need to take meth to cope with the crabby sadness they feel over not being invited to parties.

>>311816
Your walls remind me of a certain green booru

>>311816
Why are you on this website if you need to take drugs to be able to cope with not going to parties?

In the coming months share what you got

I see you're running gnome, I'm on actually on fent myself

>>311793
You really don't belong here, perhaps /r9k/ is more upto your speed

Psych wards are useless and expensive and you will be abused. Best to just hide substance use if you're into it.

>>311822
Obviously.

>>311712
For me, its the nucleus of my emotional state. as i've gotten older, the experiences that took me away from it towards something more pleasant and enjoyable have steadily declined.

now, its something im just used to shouldering and shrugging off to start the day. some days i start spiraling so badly that i have to just go to sleep; usually done by drinking myself into sleep

>>311763
Im so hate a fucking idiots gym kid like piece of shit

>>311712
>you just dont really want to get out
I really dont want to get out of my NEETcave anymore and havent been outside, not even once, in over 6 years now and I'm a full hikki NEET wizard.
for some time I was actually looking for reasons to go outside but I couldnt come up with any.
walking around is boring and I dont want to encounter all these normalfag NPCs. cant interact with them in any meaningful or interesting way anyway.
I used to drive a car but gave up on it because driving is boring and I have no destination anyway.
there is simply nothing out there for me.

>>311787
>not even once, in over 6 years now

How? Is there someone else taking care of the domicile, bringing food, etc?

Even the worst hikkiwiz have to roam around from time to time….

>>311788
I live with my parents and my mom is doing all the grocery shopping or picking up my amazon orders.

How to hang?

>>311723
>>311730
I can't get guns where I live and throwing myself under the metro scares me due to the posible pain when my head or arms get crushed

My idea was alternatively to use an angle grinder or something like that so the cut gets properly done

>>311749
Do it carefully so you don't make a mistake trying again

>>311756
For what I've been researching, cutting the main aorta on thr neck and the jugular is lethal, there's very low risk of blood coagulating. So I guess I find the way, now I must plan it carefully

>>311749
I noticed some people succeed and others fail at suicide is mainly because they have correct knowledge about a specific method.
Guy 1: Doesn't know about hanging, fails drowning attempt.
Guy 2: Tries to hang himself by blocking the airway instead of constricting the blood flow, fails hanging attempt.
Guy 3: Succesfully hangs himself by carefully placing the rope around his neck. Released from pain and suffering forever.

>>310551
Cod liver or cod liver based "fish oil", correct. Synthetic vitamin D is fine too.

Did you know 1928 Nobel Prize in Chemistry is related to vitamin D research?

>>310767
Synthetic vitamin D gives me headache.
And I'm cautious about cod liver oil because of its mercury content.

>>310982
Because the vitamin D is liberating calcium and that is entering into your bloodstream causing increased pain.

>>307761
>>308984
I've been doing alright. Full disclosure: I haven't noticed any improvement in my symptoms, despite all my efforts. I was waiting until I saw some improvement before posting here again, but unfortunately, nothing has changed.

I think I'm learning to live with it. A good part of my time now goes into taking care of my health. My diet has been nearly perfect for over a year now (absolutely no processed food, sugary food, grains, carbs, gluten or alcohol, and the only fruits I eat are low-carb ones, particularly berries). I have been using natural products. For example, I know the succubus who makes the aloe vera soap I use. I use natural toothpaste. I have stopped using deodorant and shampoo. I haven't turned into some ascetic monk or a stoic either (I find aspects of both interesting, but ultimately I reject both lifestyles). Mostly, I have realized just how much people take their health for granted when they have it, and how true the saying "we are what we eat" really is.

I've found that masturbation reopens the mental wound, so I've been trying to avoid it. The same goes for writing about or looking up things related to the condition, and browsing imageboards. It's just not worth it.

More important than health or good habits, I realized that I should not wait for the restoration of the old vitality. I must not expect to recover. I must treat this as a test and strive for excellence even under these conditions.

Your thoughts on rationality have been helpful. It seems the hedonic adaptation process happened, and now I am more self-controlled. Also, not to diagnose you, but I think you might've had PAWS instead of PSSD. Or else I have a particularly severe case.

I attached an image showing all my current symptoms. I'm aware this is a near-complete collapse of the drives that constitute a living human being. I haven't stopped wanting to live, though. I've stopped needing to; after having seen everything, there's this kind of serenity in the face of impermanence.

Do you have anything else to recommend? Also, what are your thoughts on the raw primal diet? I've looked into it lately.

Aajonus Wonderplanitz advocated for something similar to what you mentioned, regular short hot baths and sweaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>311752
>Full disclosure: I haven't noticed any improvement in my symptoms, despite all my efforts. I was waiting until I saw some improvement before posting here again, but unfortunately, nothing has changed.

You haven’t noticed any positive change at all? If so, I’m very sorry to hear that, wiz. If I can ask (and not to be repetitive here, just wanting a better understanding as I didn’t see all individual aspects addressed in your recent post), how many of the following would you say you are still taking/eating/engaging in on a daily basis:

-complete B vitamin (B1 and B9 especially)
-good clean source of vitamin A like organic canned pumpkin
-natural serotonin antagonist like organic ginger
-nitric oxide rich foods like arugula
-sauna bathing/concentrated sweating

>My diet has been nearly perfect for over a year now (absolutely no processed food, sugary food, grains, carbs, gluten or alcohol, and the only fruits I eat are low-carb ones, particularly berries)

This is excellent. Congratulations on the discipline. Though I will say as one criticism that the total exclusion of carbohydrates is not the healthiest choice. Non-glutinous carbs like quinoa and sorghum and even various types of legumes wouldn’t hurt as elements to be added to your diet either. I eat these weekly (while avoiding gluten and rice). Sorghum in particular is one non-glutinous grain that might prove helpful as it naturally increases dht (dihydrotestosterone).

>Mostly, I have realized just how much people take their health for granted when they have it, and how true the saying "we are what we eat" really is.

Absolutely true. I had an attack of severe pain in my 20s (unrelated to ssri use) and I recall learning in the moment of the attack (which lasted many hours) how dearly underappreciated was my former health, as if it were a thing I had unconsciously carried with me all my earlier life. Realizations of this sort are normal however; they are a part of growing up.

>but I think you might've had PAWS instead of PSSD
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>>311667
"We have no pacts over items that aren't mine".

Anyway, sitting for 8 hours straight without taking breaks is "bodily unhealthy". You are expected to rise up and do some stretches… in their fit-o-stacey imaginary worlds! Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.

>youtube videos of music or content and/or kick streams
>sit at a reception desk overnight

>>311667
Isn't this your job to sit there?
Normies always create problems out of nothing

>>311667
Im balding but lucky i can wear a beanie at my job and I listen to music all day which REALLY helps, i can't belive I worked so many years without it

Just be successful.

It's happening again. Vacation started and all I feel is empty, anhedonic, don't want to do anything. This will be for another 30 years. Why did I even stay alive when I was suicidal? Now I don't have it in me anymore.

>>311687
I wish I could… I am stuck in the European equivalent of high school. It fucking sucks. Started having suicidal thoughts. I cannot imagine a future I want. NEET sounds preferable but I worry it might not be realistic…

>>311105
Thank you, finally

To me the whole school thing has been a complete disaster. I try to keep up a good attitude to go there and to learn. Unfortunately, I have never had trouble making friends (you will know why I say unfortunately). I go to the college sit with this guy who seems a bit alone, ask him if it's fine I could sit with him, we end up becoming friends, the guy was extremely bad in his behaviour and crossing personal boundaries but with life you try to take things lightly and I just thought that even though he doesn't know how to behave he is probably good in his heart.

The next thing I know, this moron, shows me the pictures of his girlfriend in his phone. And starts to brag, the next thing I know is that she shows me a picture of his ex-girlfriend in his phone who was of my tribe. And I was like alright, but the next thing that happened really did surprise me, a new pretty succubus joins the class, he starts to talk to her, she finds out that he already has a girlfriend who pays him half the salary she earns in a month, and she still ends up dating this new succubus, who too already has a boyfriend.

I mean I don't get these people, this guy has a girlfriend who gives him half of her salary, the other succubus has a boyfriend, and they are both cheating and they are aware of it. Like why not just break up and change partners? While I certainly can't ask a succubus that and try not to get suspended the next day, I did ask this retard about this and he said "It's just fun bro, it's the norm, I am very loyal to my main gf though". Yeah, right. Perhaps his main girlfriend is also equally loyal. Who knows.

I had to sit with these shameless motherfuckers for like three weeks and it absolutely friend my receptors, and I just eventually moved to other side of the class with someone else, and in my rather conservative area, I am seeing great things when I go to college like succubi are wearing swimsuit kind of things and wearing jeans. Literally everyone talks about sex all the time, none of these people are serious, pretty people get selected for university club activities.

And of course believe it or not, I have had great success in repelling people away because since I am generally cordial with everyone and don't really push back they tend to shove their personal lives right up my ass, and they eventually ask me about about my sex life and to which I say "I have none, I am a virgin, I am a loner, I am a loser, I like being anti-social,Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>311745
Is the succubus in question blonde and wearing a headband along with a university blazer or something like that?

>>311747
No, I believe she is someone else. But I am pretty sure succubi like them are quite common in behaviour.

>>311049
aka the JEWkraine. Your country is jewish and ruled by a homosexual satanic midget jew.

Ukraine used to be European (ruled by Europeans).

And Russia used to European (ruled by Europeans).

Now we have kikes ruling both nations and playing the goyish populations of both against one another in mindless warfare.

But America is also a jewish dictatorship (so is Canada, and Australia, and modern Britain).

>>311051
>permit the murdering of unborn babies as medically and ethically sound
Are you not allowed to feel happy when black babies are aborted?

>>310702
>Very rarely doctors are actually evil.

Nearly always, you mean?

>>310372
> my psychiatrist who literally prescribes ssri and antipsychotics to hundreds of patients, said that is pointless to cure the pain and I would just damage my liver taking opioids

which is purest nonsense. opium is essentially metabolically harmless. it may make you constipated sure, but is in nowise hepatotoxic. ssris however are hugely metabolically destructive in ways most don't even have a real empirical understanding of.

>>310368
This new professional fad against opioids is jewish pharma (and their related regulatory bodies) trying to force goyim into suicide by taking away means of relief. Purdue (a jewish company) was behind the so-called opioid crisis to begin with. And the jewish CIA were the ones farming poppy fields in Afghanistan also. It's amazing that they freely with indemnity shoot people up with goyvid injections and prescribe them dangerous drug classes like antidepressants and even NSAIDs, but can't be fucked to write a simple prescription of opioids for pain relief. These are sadistic god-playing monsters.

>>308555
Nearly all snacks taste different now. Chocolate bars taste off; sodas don't taste quite right; even old brands of potato chips taste different.

>>303919
maybe his depression would ease up if he realized he was under water in a created environment?

>>305494
It's just a matter of having sufficient mental discipline and a cool quiet environment in which to practice. It isn't that hard. You should try it.

>>303978
there is wisdom in being racist. the hatred for whites is very great and the jewish education system has disarmed us psychologically against our still-surviving enemies.

>>303984
>Democrats

This term meant different things at different points in (((American))) history. It is wrong to appeal to the label as a fixed point in your argument.

Guys if you want to know about how deep metaphysical stuff actually works, just go watch the TV show Devs. Basically that is how it all works. We are all on "guiderails" we are little more than wind up toys. Free will is an illusion. Consciousness is just an emergent property of the universe, no different from a wave in the ocean forming. Instead of water that forms the wave it is human minds which are just jumbles of very complex biochemical reactions taking place. Another work of art that explains this concept pretty well is Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut.

>know about how deep metaphysical stuff actually works
Nobody really knows and I don't think it would make a difference. It's probably much worse than we think. I liked wizzes idea of the tentacles monster more than any realistic scientific answer I've heard.

>>311733
Yeah but it doesn't make any difference to know that

>>311725
>There's no unity or self-sufficiency for a conscious being
Body and mind are one but exist in this extreme hierarchical manner, body does not move and die if the mind isnt active like in sleep. There's also this hierarchy of 'being real' or manifesting itself, the thinking determines all the meaningful movement, the meat puppet can only breathe, pump blood, die etc.
The mind is what actually exists while the body only exists in this state of a dream or painting.