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[–]  No.299002[Reply][Watch Thread]

Ive been diagnosed with ASD, my iq is tested to be 82. Ive also dealt with sexual disorders & depression.

Growing up I lived as an outcast, a homosexual freak, a retard and dealt with rejection especialy during school where I was excluded for being part of the special ed & also had so many embarassing moments due to being incomptent and socially inept. Right now at 21 I still live at home with a dead end job, having ideation of suicide pretty often

I always fanatsize how my life wouldve turned out if I wasnt born mentally sick.
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>>299039
you gonna keep up this "only drooling retards with helmets have autism" charade and shtick up forever here just for entertainment value? cause its kinda funny

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>>299109
An "autist" wouldn't see humor in the idea, and certainly wouldn't be ae to rhetort with sarcasm (We all know it's sarcasm and that you're genuinely butthurt by having your 'special boy who can't be held responsible for his own shortcomings' title challenged.

[–]  No.299111

>>299110
nta but I didn't know it was sarcasm, I genuinely thought you were so stupid to think autism is the same as debilitating retardation

[–]  No.299305

>>299036
I was the same until 20, when I abruptly stopped being bubbly and energetic as I moved out of my hometown. I was close friends with the other two autists who were into a specific MMO and niche of single player games, along using a niche type of imageboard lingo, which was rare back in the early 2010s in my 2nd world small town. We weren't even of the same age; we were 15, 16 and 18 when we were the closest. I could be like that, but lost the energy to find like minded people, lost the innocence and also the resilience to get shunned by dozens of normalfags and succubi in the process of finding someone I could get on.

[–]  No.299309

>>299110
Oh yeah, autists are not allowed to have a sense of humor either now.

Fuck off normie.


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[–]  No.299267[Reply]>>299287>>299297[Watch Thread]

Any other wizzies have substance addiction problems? This falls under general addiction problems, but I suspect being trapped inside all day like a caged animal and the existence of DNM has made enough people here quasi drug addicts. My personal weaknesses are opiates, benzos and cigarettes; I wouldn't say I'm addicted, but even thinking about never again feeling the warm embrace of opiates or the soothing release of benzos makes me feel ill.
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[–]  No.299287

>>299267 (OP)
Yeah… not proud of it but benadryl just got out of rehab because of it

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>>299284
many different, the best thing that gave results is a complete disconnection from porn and beautiful succubi in any form. Do not touch the little friend in the pants, except for washing and visiting the toilet. If you have a lot of free time, you need to occupy it with anything, but do not think about watching porn and do not try to watch it. It is good to do something and limit any sexual or erotic content. This helped me the most, and I abstain sometimes for 3-4 days but still break down. As soon as the hardest day is the first, then the brain just screams for you to jerk off

[–]  No.299293

>>299284
And yes, I don't watch Anime either, you might want to start fapping to him too

[–]  No.299297

>>299267 (OP)
I take meth sometimes. Small amounts but I wonder if I'm addicted.

[–]  No.299300

Yes, the worst one. Since i eat 8x the maximum benzo dose and im a broke neet. I ended up lying, scamming, stealing from family, pawning everything i could, but in the end it will always run out and kill you if you don't have money. I don't.


[–]  No.297861[Reply]>>299166[Watch Thread]

Been browsing 4chads /pol/ all day for happenings and apparently Musk is gonna end NEETbux. I'm disabled and am unable to work, so I guess this is it for me. It was nice wizzies, but I guess this is the end.
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[–]  No.299166

>>297861 (OP)
>>297881
If they need to go to work, it's because there are taxes. I do not have any hope, despite being libertarian, about taxes being truly removed. It's their way of control.

[–]  No.299177

>>297866
End yourself nigger.

[–]  No.299183

>>297882
it's the devil whispering and attempting to drive you mad with his insane prattling

[–]  No.299203

Exorcisms don't work on schizos because it is a mental condition not demonic possession

[–]  No.299281

>>297866
Neetbux should be for disableds not lazy 👨🏿


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[–]  No.298019[Reply][Watch Thread]

I'm older than people who have kids who're already graduating from high school. I know it shouldn't bother me, but I can't help it. I feel like my life hasn't progress at all. I already have grey hairs on my beard and I don't feel my age at all. life as a wizard is like living in a perpetual limbo where nothing ever happens until you grow old and die.
I know many young wizards will call me a failed normie for saying this, but it's only until you reach a certain age that the loneliness of the wiz life starts to creep in and you begin to wonder where did all go wrong.
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>>299253
how is ai gonna reshuffle your genetics and the things you mentioned?

the fact still remains you need a boatload of cash and a top surgeon to make that "reshuffle" happen even if ai gives you the perfect blueprint for it

dont get me wrong, i dream of that same reshuffle literally daily and i occassionally get euphoric dreams in my sleep where it finally actually happens. but when i wake up i realize it takes so much money

[–]  No.299259>>299263

>>299255

first things first.

The Ai we need does not yet exist. its close, but not yet. For a quick explanation: the current horse race now is over whats called Agi, or Artificial general intelligence, this, 20 to 25 years back meant an Ai equal in intellect to a normal person. in my opinion its already been done. but, anti Ai people dispute its been done, there are pros and cons to it does or does not exist yet.

back to our focus. now, what we need, for our aims, is called ASI , or Artificial Super Intelligence, an Ai smarter than smartest person to of ever lived.

in my opinion ASI will be created sometime between now and 2029/2030. Year 2029 will be key.

What you, and I, and our brothers need to do, between now and 2029/2030, we must back Ai into Agi into ASI. Back it 1,000%

but but but but….. Anon, Ai could do! Ai may do!, Ai mite!!

No. You want it. Back Ai 1,000%

ASI will be capable of Anything, able to learn anything, able to solve anything. It will not be limited by human nonsense, bias, frailties, weaknesses, etc….

I Need a humans to do XYZ? i dont. its in my rear view mirror. and been so , for me, for a long time. All tasks imagined will be solved by ASI.

join the ride friend.

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>>299259
Never read so much bullshit in a single post

[–]  No.299265>>299280

>>299263
Fucking this. If that guy watched CNN he would know AI will be the literal end of the world just like global warming.

[–]  No.299280

>>299265
It wont end the world on the spot, but expecting it to change your facial structure, body type and height just by making a text prompt is psychotic.

There is no salvation for ugliness at least during our lifetimes, at least if we're talking about affordable options.


[–]  No.299227[Reply]>>299251[Watch Thread]

I regret not enjoying my youth more,when i was 14-16 if i think back i could have had so much fun, instead i had to be a fucking depressed loser even Back then and just barley coped as to not end myself.
But at least i didnt have to worry about money/Rent but i just wasted away my youth and did nothing and now its way too late at 27. I should have enjoyed that time and just not worry,gotten high everyday drop out of school and do what i actually enjoy ,Go out blah blah so on and so on
I Wish i Had a time machine
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[–]  No.299244

I don't really get what you could do but you did not.

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>>299243
>wanted to learn to play piano
>wanted to learn to draw
>friends playing together in games I didn't own
unfortunately the cost of the equipment and software scared me off. Also wasn't sure if I could commit myself to learning it due to both uni and part time job taking up a good chunk of my time. I had a decent gaming pc that I built during high school, but I pirated most of my games to save money. couldn't play together with my uni friends who had legit copies. some had 3ds and played Mario kart 7 together. Wanted to get one to play together, but refrained mostly thinking that my money was better spent on more life important stuff. One time my friends asked if I wanted to travel to the Netherlands together, I decline due to wanting to save money.
economically secured now, but my youth was bleak with a few rare moments of good memories. had I not been so stingy I could had more of those good memories. The friends I had in uni are gone now, too late to do anything about it now, guess things are just going to get bleaker.

[–]  No.299251

>>299227 (OP)
>just wasted away my youth and did nothing
>I should have enjoyed that time and just not worry,gotten high everyday drop out of school and do what i actually enjoy ,Go out blah blah so on and so on
Your second statement hints that there were things that you liked to do but didn't? not sure what you meant with did nothing, was there something preventing you
and you distract yourself with doom scrolling or something?

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>>299250
You can't know if paying for those things would have been worth it. I bought a game once just to play with someone when i was a late teen and it was awful. I went on a trip once with people and it was perhaps the worst week of my life. Maybe it is difficult to remember why you really made those decisions. Sometimes our past selves were smarter than we remember and our memories have discarded important context. To me it doesnt sound like those things were really all that important, anyway

[–]  No.299278

>>299252
>To me it doesnt sound like those things were really all that important, anyway
Yeah I am still alive and kicking without those experiences. but the few times I hangout with my uni friends I generally enjoyed it. watched movies together in the cinema, visited a theme park and gather up to play games together at a cybercafe.
my friends did this sort of gathering much more frequent, I showed up on rare occasions, mostly because I realize how much of my money would be burning doing these things more frequently. Realize that my gen-x coworker was right that I was too stingy with my money. saving money now because you think it will get you more joy in the future but it's not a guarantee. bought myself a nice 2k screen for my pc for watching movies and gaming. Costed me €300 but feel less joy from it, then the €22 spent to watch guardians of the galaxy with my friends at the cinema. even when technically being a better choice than visiting the cinema regularly with friends.
>You can't know if paying for those things would have been worth it
true, possible I could had ended up with regret of having less money now to spend. knew that after uni, I wouldn't have much socialization anymore, which is why I saved my money to be more well off later in life. Since this choice didn't make me happier than in my uni days. I just wonder if I be a happier person today had I followed the advice of my gen-x coworker and socialized more, despite the expenses.


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[–]  No.293203[Reply][Watch Thread]

I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.
Sometimes I blame my family for raising me in such a violent environment, but then I think it's better to bury the past and look forward. But sometimes it is difficult, since it is not about the violence of 10 or 15 years ago, it is about things sometimes from less than a week ago.

I feel like an alcoholic, where instead of keeping a place free of that poison, it is offered to me in all shapes, sizes, colors and flavors.
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[–]  No.299237

>>299234
Should have called them cumdumpster sluts.

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>>299234
I feel so happy about having despised foids as a handsome wiz apprentice.

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>>299246
you're probably ugly yourself
lots of ugly people think they're good looking

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>>299249
I theoretically think a goodlooking guy could become wizard out of free will, but the chances are extremely low because most of them automatically get sexual experiences because succubi several levels below them actively solicit sex from them like in the college I went to.

A truly chad looking guy would have to actively reject sex to become a virgin at 30.

Could it happen, maybe. Would such a person hang around here, doubtful.

[–]  No.299258

>>299257
When i was a teenager and very drunk a succubus literally dragged me into a bathroom and started trying to pull my pants down. Basically attempted rape. I have zero attraction to succubi so will had nothing to do with it. I'm not even attractive though, there are just crazy drunk demons out there.

All wizards actively reject sex. ANYONE can get it if they actually try. Even if prostitution is illegal it's your choice to not get on a plane.

Your crabposting is fucking annoying


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[–]  No.298876[Reply][Watch Thread]

I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.
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>>299180
Gym is a scam. they wont tell you that resting is the important part and that compound exercises are the really useful ones. Buying gear enough to do this at home can cost you like 3 months at that stupid scam.

Gym owner put his machines in your hands, which you do not consume, just use. You put money in his hands. In the end he is the one having both your money and the machines, and whatever waste you might have occasioned will never be so costly as even a 1/100 part of you paid. It's like damn faire attractions.

[–]  No.299196>>299218

>>299194
The gym owner offers you a transparent deal and it is beneficial for some people. Some people don't have space for gym equipment in their home, and/or want a wide variety of equipment. For some people it is indeed better to buy their own equipment - if you have the space then go for it. In no way is it a scam. Many, many things in society these days are scams but this isn't one.

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>>299196
So yeah, they just openly fool theirselves for having bad organization at home spaces. Like paying at restaurants while being too lazy to use your kitchen or buying bottle waters at an airport.

[–]  No.299232

>>299218
No, even a lot of working professionals in big cities can't afford the luxury of enough space for gym equipment. It isn't a scam to them, it's the only way to get a proper workout.

[–]  No.299233

>>299218
You must have no idea how small many people's apartments are.


[–]  No.298340[Reply]>>299157[Watch Thread]

How will my life change if I miraculously get a job as a dishwasher or idk burger flipper? Is it really a path forward, trading your soul and most of your day for minimum wage? I suppose I could buy a new PC this way after a while, but just living like that because you have no choice? Rope sounds better
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[–]  No.298433>>299187

>>298341

These jobs aren't there to help someone get ahead. They exist so that you can buy food to survive another day to continue to perpetual wage cuckery

[–]  No.299157>>299179

>>298340 (OP)
We are really fucked up if we call these jobs "miraculous"

[–]  No.299179

>>299157
I.K.R, I don't live in a big city, if i can get ANY low-skill job here (or anywhere else in my country, to be fair) I would consider my self lucky.

[–]  No.299187>>299198

>>298433
This. There isn't any light at the end of the tunnel if you go down this path. You only exist to make the owner filthy rich while he gives you the bare minimum so you don't starve to death.

>>298432
This. NEET as long as you can, and if the system collapses, simply suicide. Don't give in or contribute to the exploitation in any way.
Only agree to employment if it means fair wages or ownership in the company, which will never happen in the current job market for anyone but the top 0,0001% of applicants to highly niche fields of work who also get signing bonuses.

[–]  No.299198

>>299187
Suicide sounds scary. Can we do it?


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[–]  No.299076[Reply]>>299130[Watch Thread]

Im 27 years old , i dont know anything , i graduated faculty of arts in 8 years failing once every year because i didnt study enough , i live in a place where there's compulsory recruitment and didnt apply because i am on antidepressants and don't want to waste a year of my life which is not very important but this city does not care if you die , normal citizens are not of much importance here anyway , i tried checking fiverr & freelancer because i didnt have an idea what to do if i want to work from home , it doesn't seem to be very promising , it felt impossible to get a place among all these beasts conquering every damn field in the category , i barely know anything about the world and autistic and i think im stupid too , but if i try to surpass my stupidity , what to learn to be able to work remotely and not eat shit for the rest of my life?
Im on the verge of complete mental breakdown , i need help.
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[–]  No.299087

>>299086
>think about what you can grow in yourself that others would find useful.
That was expressive , thank you.

[–]  No.299099>>299100

>>299085
Skills like what? I don't understand. What skills? Name one skill that will pay.

[–]  No.299100

>>299099
carpentry, bricklaying, IT tech support, plumbing, pastry making, video editing, business consulting, life coaching, karate training, cocktail mixing, the list goes on…

[–]  No.299130>>299192

>>299076 (OP)
No matter what logic demands. Drive yourself by s&a. Learn this: https://www.geneticmatrix.com

>its free

I am not even applying anymore. 32 years. Pretty much better this way, my parents bred me to be a slave like them. NEETing hard.

[–]  No.299192

>>299130
Can't get what you're trying to say friend , what is the link about?


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[–]  No.298319[Reply][Watch Thread]

This thread is for the discussion of the greatest misfortune in existence that is disease.

Healthy people are NPCs. They don't really exist. With disease comes the awareness of your body that your private hell and your true existence begins and hear the scream of everything. Pain teach you what it means to really exist. Disease's manifesto: to live is to suffer like a ragdoll while fate prisons you in the eternal hours pregnant with pain to cure of you from the sin of life.
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[–]  No.299181

>>299114
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/AKw9RLktxz0

[–]  No.299182

>>299173
I took benzos for a 2 years after my doses started to increase i cut them suddenly used to be on aripriprazole and other kind of bullshit piece of shit poison that nearly destroyed me
know who saved me?GOD

[–]  No.299186

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>>299173
Went through benzo and opiate withdrawals earlier this year, and I only took oxycodone and valium daily for a few weeks and it was pure hell. You're honestly right, death is probably better, usually they put you into a coma for that level of withdrawals.

Good luck.

[–]  No.299189>>299191

These stomach issues have fucked me over. I had no youth. Now I have palpitations. Fuck this planet. Fuck

[–]  No.299191

>>299189
I feel you, the worst part is never completely emptying the bowel. The shit is really sticky too, so it takes far too long to wipe, to the point where I'm scuffing blood, and my ass is still not clean. I try to only shit at home now, where I can wash my ass, and I take loperamide before leaving off to work.


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