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 No.292925[Reply]

I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.
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 No.295200

>>295199
You're doing a lot of faulty extrapolation based on very little. I suppose wizards don't have much chance to care about the opinions of others because they hardly go outside. In general, though, people inevitably care about looks, whether they say they do or not. It's like a reflect, an automatic response. You're not a Buddhist monk.

 No.295202

>>295200
reflex*

 No.295204

>>295198
I didn't want to go to school, so my parents wouldn't let me leave the house.
>You only "don't care" because you can afford to.
There is hardly any social interaction in my life. Besides, I never considered appearance as an achievement or something to highlight, I am not a succubus, my value as a person is not determined by those aspects.

 No.296748

You might get used to it and become dead inside like most of us

 No.296790

The sad thing is, you're right. Worst part is, these succubi no longer exist. As a result a lot of us, myself included, have given up on finding any semblance of love and have learned to cope…and cope hard despite the objections of family members. But they'll continue to reject the truth no matter what so arguing with them, at least to me, is a lost cause. How to get them off my back…well I've yet to find out how. If anyone's got any suggestions I'm all ears.



 No.296071[Reply]

It seems like learning English was one of the worst mistakes of my life, I am someone who live in India and doesn't plan to leave the country. Any idea how I can cope with racism online?

It's very hard to be online, my self-esteem and self-confidence has been wrecked primarily because of internet. I will admit as a kid, I really wanted to see the west, playing video games like NFS, GTA, and, watching Hollywood movies late in the night, were some of the fondest memories of mine as a child.

But as an adult I think immigrating would be a very bad idea, because I would probably be homeless in a few days because I don't know how the system works. Forget about all that, I am too poor to immigrate. So that is out of the question.

A lot of times, I just want to use internet in peace and make friends with people over online websites. But as soon as they find out I am Indian they start hurling abuses. It's terrible.

Honestly a lot of it has destroyed my self-esteem and self-confidence and I don't know how to regain it even when knowing that for the most of my life I am rarely ever going to encounter a white person.

And then there is the whole blackpill thing as well, because we Indians aren't attractive (speaking for myself mostly but still) most of Indian succubi in the West tend to date white just like East Asian succubi. So that's like another insult to injury to be honest.

Overall it kinda sucked to realise that I am so hated and life in the West if I could immigrate that is, would probably suck for me greatly. Like all the parties and fun that I saw in Hollywood movies are only reserved for succubi and few attractive men. In real life in the West I would be bullied mercilessly.

On the other hand, something good has come out of it as well, which is, I have stopped resenting India a bit because I have realised that at least I don't face racism here in real life and won't be bullied here too much. In the end, I guess it is for the best that I couldn't immigrate I imagine.

Anyways, now that I have learned English Any suggestions on how to not feel bad about myself while being exposed to extreme and never ending racism online? It really has given a hit to my self-esteem.
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 No.296442

>Any idea how I can cope with racism online?
Simple: you kill yourself and take as many of your inferior subhumans along with you as you can.

 No.296451

>>296442
>inferior subhuman
You know what website you're on and why you're here. Don't you?

 No.296461

>>296451
I am merely short and ugly. It has no bearing on my character or integrity even if society thinks so.

 No.296469

>>296461
Not according to Aristotle.

 No.296788

Indians are literally hitler
they even had the swastika long before nazis



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 No.296057[Reply]

i have strange urges when i watch lights flicker on the screen. they do it so smoothly and nicely. i feel like i want to flicker with them but i can't. what the fuck, jesus christ

 No.296058

You were a firefly in a past life

 No.296073

you should stop abusing substances

 No.296782

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>>296073
I don't abuse substances. It is childish and naive to assume only those on drugs can feel this way. What a tiny little life you must lead.

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 No.296708[Reply]

I unironically think I'm starting to develop some kind of dementia. I'm 35 almost 36. More and more often I find myself spacing out and completely forgetting what I'm doing. I can't focus. I know it's not depression. I was very depressed 10 years ago and nearly killed myself, and I'm a lot happier now than back then, I haven't even thought about suicide in years, so that's not it. I'm not even as stressed as I used to be anymore. I don't even have a lot of negative thoughts. I get confused easily when talking to people and end up doing or saying inappropriate things unintentionally. For example I start dissociating while talking to people and start humming a song, put my hand on their shoulders, other stuff like that. This is going to sound like a massive troll but just the other day I visited my parents, I sat down at the dinner table, I started dissociating, my mom put her hand on my shoulder to get my attention, I couldn't snap out of it fast enough and nearly kissed her. She was horrified and turned away and didn't say anything the rest of the night.

I think one possible solution is to move back in with my parents. Being alone all the time is not good for me. But obviously after what happened there's no way they're going to let me, they probably don't feel safe and for good reason. Lmao. That was my only hope. I don't know what's going to happen to me.

And no, I'm not a drug addict, alcoholic or any of that stuff.
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 No.296714

>>296711
Is it true antipsychotics give you ginecomastia? Do they help at all? Do you behave less erratically on them?

 No.296715

>>296714
They have many side effects sadly but I'm a different person when I take them, I am no longer hallucinating or alienating myself

 No.296716

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>>296708
I know what you mean, I sometimes struggle to find the correct words to express myself. I have also had multiple head injuries, many self-inflicted. So, there's TBI at the very least and possibly early CTE which would explain some things I feel.

I've heard for years from my mother that something such as learning a new language helps the brain's 'neuroplasticity.'
Another needed thing is going outside and having some kind of unpredictable stimulation that only an outside environment can provide. This is said to keep the brain active.
Attached is a quick tidbit that touches on the matter, I'll remove it if it goes beyond anything allowable or permitted.

 No.296717

>>296716
shaky shake your ass🕺🎶🎵

 No.296780

>>296708
this is what happens after consuming too much touhou and fumo culture



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 No.296511[Reply]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.296762

>>296760
Don't talk when you know nothing about methods and the poster. Hanging is not a bad method and it doesn't have to be painful. You know nothing about his situation. Spouting feel good stuff and others have it worse doesn't help. A suicidal person is at a point that requires serious and quick improvement of his living situation.

 No.296763

>>296762
Correct

 No.296766

>>296760
>Look I am brown, short, skinny fat, balding, Indian, poor, low IQ, and my dick doesn't work and a jackass driving truck crashed into my father's car today which I was driving.
Youre amazing for not killing yourself tbh. But thanks for the encouraging words I appreciate it…

 No.296778

How does suicide by sodium nitrite work?
You ingest it? Mix it with water? How much is enough?

 No.296779

>>296778
Searched on sanctionedsuicide



 No.296764[Reply]

Last time I mentioned that I have 2 weeks to kms someone asked if I have a test or something in school. Let me tell you something interesting. I won't talk about my life story but I will enlighten you how bad life can get and what real suicide out of necessity means.
I will tell you only the immediate reasons of my forced suicide:
1. Sick with infinite diseases and often in such pain that I want to stab myself or jump out the window. Can't eat walk make money or function for years due to this. Feel like I can die at any moment. I've been shitting black last few days which means internal bleeding.
2. I am broke and in infinite debt cause I chose to pursue treatment instead of paying taxes. I also lied to get money loaned to me because I needed it for drugs so I don't end up lobotomized. Its only a matter of time until they put me in prison.
3. I have a benzo addiction, if I don't take at least 10mg Xanax daily and skip one day I will have a grand mal seizure which will kill me or leave me with brain damage.
4. Stuck forever without a room or meter of space my whole life due to mentally retarded family.
…etc I probably forgot half but by now you should know the drill. Life took almost everything from me and I didn't do anything for a long time so I wouldn't call this living anyway. Only thing I have left is freedom of choice to die now or lose it and suffer a thousand times more and die later. I will die at age of 28 in 2024 via train guillotine or fail and become a vegetable. I have only one try and time is not on my side.

 No.296765

>>296764
Firstly, I really hope you get to rest as soon as possible, your post shows how nightmerish everything in your life is, living is not for everyone, it is a well established fact, why did you pick this method? literally just do full suspension hanging, its better in every way than that, especially if its done properly

 No.296767

>2 weeks

lol. yeah, it ain't happening. if you can endure 2 more weeks, then you aren't really suffering that bad.

btw. i was the guy that asked if you had a test. that was a month ago. you were saying 2 weeks ago then too. doesn't sound like you're very motivated, just want attention like every other loser.

 No.296770

where are you from, fellow human being?

 No.296775

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 No.277007[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The purpose of this thread is to counter the general tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads. This thread will therefore feature practical advice about reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care.
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open the windows to your wiz-cave and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.296526

>>293399
you're most welcome. yes, exercise – even just walking – is very important.

 No.296527

>>296357
>I can't do that to her she has many other kids too
That's not true and this delusion just means you're not suffering enough to kill yourself yet. When the fire is burning your flesh it hardly becomes a choice anymore, you will do whatever it takes to escape it

 No.296725

>>296526
I used to swim a lot. That helped. But now I can't find any good/clean places to swim. I might try walking. Even just being outside in an area with crisp air immediately helps my thinking.

 No.296733

>>296357
Night securityguardmaxx

 No.296774

>>296527
>When the fire is burning your flesh it hardly becomes a choice anymore
That is also the reason why schizophrenics are as suicidal (9-20%) as male autists, MDDs, bipolars and BPDs. Because they experience psychosis (Hellblade II)


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 No.289249[Reply]

This is probably not big news, but you have much worse chances of getting anything done in life if you are not social. From jobs, to housing, to money. If you are trying to do everything alone, you will not be as successful. Except you have a godlike family and upbringing. But I suppose nobody here had this.
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 No.295821

>>289249
Of course not. Being unsociable helps you to filter away environments governed by toxic normalfaggotry. Find your place.

 No.296750

yes, having a social network or at least a good family is the greatest advantage you can have to get ahead in life

 No.296755

>>296750
I would literally be dead (probably at age 20-21) without parents, relatives etc. who always lifted me up with endless money injections.

In a state of nature there is no way in hell my autistic self would have survived to 36 years of age.

 No.296761

>>296755
What is your field/major?
You seem lucky with job opportunities despite of everything you said

 No.296768

>>295801
>there is foremost a genetic component to personality disorders
source? There would need to be a twin study or something difficult and unlikely like that. Almost all studies are incapable of teasing apart genetics from the influence of being raised by the family that has those genes, and many people mischaracterize data by not acknowledging this



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 No.285412[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Death of the Uncool - End of the Wizards V

Watching Geekdom get absorbed into the monoculture over the last decade (and then some) has been a pretty demoralising experience.

Part of the process of commodification, streamlining and assimilation of geek culture into the all-consuming monoculture, is distortion and erasure of the original.

"These would be the successive phases of the image:

1 It is the reflection of a basic reality.

2 It masks and perverts a basic reality.

3 It masks the absence of a basic reality.

4 It bears no relation to any reality whatever: it is its own pure simulacrum.

In the first case, the image is a good appearance: the representation is of the order of sacrament. In the second, it is an evil appearance: of the order of malefice. In the third, it plays at being an appearance: it is of the order of sorcery. In the fourth, it is no longer in the order of appearance at all, but of simulation."

I'm probably using Baudrillard wrong, but I think we're either between phase 2 and 3 or on phase 3. We're at the point where we have "gamers" who don't like videogames as the faces of videogames.
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 No.296477

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as you said, geeks don't want to associate with losers like wizards. geeks and nerds have become normalfags these days and don't want to be associated with losers. they have wives and kids and friends and are proud to be geeks/nerds. as for weeaboo and otaku, i feel like there's still a not-so-positive connotation for those categories of people, what do you think of weeaboo and otaku?

 No.296478

>>296477
>i feel like there's still a not-so-positive connotation for those categories of people, what do you think of weeaboo and otaku?
I feel that the negative connotation for those people is intensely sexual in nature and therefore temporary. The main problem that people have with eroticism in anime is in the perception of a serious problem of that eroticism being spent on erotically disfavored demographics.

It is not just that otaku are men who masturbate, since most men masturbate. Nor is it that they are men who use pornographic subforms of their preferred art form to aid in their masturbation. I could compare the treatment of film, even grindhouse film, to anime on that front.

Nobody despises succubi who read "literature" or practice "writing" just because 50 Shades of Gray dominated fem lit sales figures and embodies the purpose and social utility of literature for and by succubi and every succubus who writes or reads in public is probably applying the subtler motions succubi use to perform public gooning and edging, not even when they are shamelessly declarative about their public gooning sessions. If you are unfortunate enough to have a generally positive relationship with a socially active highly articulate sister you will be well acquainted with their bold discussions of public edging habits incl. on public transport with their female friends. And how often they deny the role of their own motions and choices in their arousal and eventual public orgasm, "I was just reading my favorite highly charged erotic novel on the bus and rubbing and clamping my thighs together, you know to take up less space and for no other reason, when I guess the vibrations got me…" But, again, not only does nobody look down on books, there is also nobody who looks down on book-associated public gooning. Once you realize that it is happening and have a sister who will brazenly point out other succubi who are doing it by identifying their bodylanguage you will start to see it occurring every day, and normalfags are all fine with it. Reddit is the official pillar of normalfaggotry online, and there are public bullying mostly-female reddits for public photographs of poor fashion but none for shaming photographs of caught in the act femgooning. And right now at this very moment the response you personally are thiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.296485

>>296477
>geeks and nerds have become normalfags these days
lol no, normalfags just claimed it for themselves. Theoretically, I suppose now that there is a common ground between normalfags and the people who used to be called geeks and/or nerds, they could use it to lift themselves into normalfagdom. I suspect that what actually happens is that normalfags appoint themselves as experts and leaders and actual geeks/nerds carry water for them trying to climb the social ladder.

Just a theory though, only a zoomer could tell me if that's the case and even then, it will take while for it to click for the zoomer outcast, like it did for us millennials. It was only around the early 10s when it was undeniable that the normalfags had taken over.

 No.296486

>>296485
its all mainstream now https://youtu.be/jGGI1_dcoiE?si=u65Rl6sMJF63Hvfh
there's no more reason to call yourself a geek nerd or oraku. everyone in the world is a bit of it

 No.296754

>>296486
>mainstream
No, it's been rendered meaningless. Normalniggers consume trends, normalniggers like ready made, easy use things.

I mean, it's only explanation for things like OnlyFans got popular (that or massive money laundering). Nobody in the 90s or 00s would think it be anything other than sad to pay money to some random whore for a couple of pictures.

Now everything is behind a single tap of the screen.


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 No.290289[Reply]

Serious question for any wizcels:

Do you ever wonder how you got here…as in, how or why you "woke up" when you did, where you did, to the people (parents) that you did? It's impossible to make sense of. Just on one fucking terrible day, we took up consciousness, literally out of nowhere we are in bodies and tasked with learning the mechanics of entire material world. What caused us to be born when we were, to whom we were? I don't accept that it was random, or mere bare biology..I feel within myself that this life is a targeted punishment and that were I smarter I would have avoided being born entirely. What piece of shit god thinks he/it has the right to do this to us? We are born, thereafter we spend a few years simply making basic sense of things, go off to school, probably suffer a lot, continue to grow up, endure more sadness, and now through all of it we just continue to get older and weaker and sadder. This life is a crime against our souls and whatever caused us to come here HAS TO PAY. Really the only thing I fear is being forced to come back to this shitheap of a world to suffer again…and I do worry about this precisely because I don't know how I got here in the first place. I feel deeply sorry for all the new souls born to this world…there is just so much to learn, but even more there is just so much to suffer through…and I cannot understand what kind of god would force this sort of existence on tender helpless beings? The demiurge must be overcome.
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 No.295746

>>295745
I don't think the point is that sufferers will be rewarded. I think the point is that you should return the effort and good that you experience. Look around you - even if you find yourself in a turd world, that's still better than living in the wilderness, exposed to the elements and predators. All the best places to live in the world also had their moments of being a medieval shithole, and their current state is all thanks to humans and their will. Don't you think it's only right to join that cause - building a better world?

 No.295752

>>290607
this is what i've come to believe as well. also, that consciousness is not something of which there can be a multiplicity, but is that in which all multiplicity is, or alternatively, is multiplicity itself, i.e., solipsism. so it would then make sense to think that it takes turns experiencing the life of every being.

since these insights and knowledge into consciousness lead to nothing good and only heighten the horror of existence, the less enlightened one is, the better, "he who increases knowledge, increases suffering", etc.

 No.295754

>>290607
I agree with your thoughts. Though struggle is not the word i'd use. It is the opposite actually. Even you mention it by 'not talking to apparitions and staying in the dark'. To become void, you need to let go of everything. You need to become a void so to speak, formless. As long as you struggle, resist, it just won't end.

 No.296218

>>295141
it's brainwashing.

 No.296752

>>295745
why are you so sure there is a soul?



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