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 No.309743[Reply]

I'm very depressed and I will also develop chaos in my mind so I don't care about everyone anymore and I will destroy everything why should I be a fool who can only blame myself while others can be happy without being able to feel how crazy this world is I will destroy everything and if this world ends and everything is destroyed then I will be a living witness that I am the one who knows how cruel this world is and how unfair all of this is everyone everything everything must have an end if it doesn't end then I will always be in hell or at least be locked up as rotting flesh
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 No.309775

>>309774
>bro why do you think dictionaries exist

not for you to stop thinking, give your condition a label and be done with it.

 No.309776

>>309775
labels help cope, though change with time until you find the right one. what's wrong with that?

 No.309783

>>309776

labels dont help, they hinder. they are used by people to dismiss the problem and abandon responsibility, which likely is the only path to healing. you don't have depression, you have something way more specific, personal and complicated. when you call it depression, you let yourself be seduced by the diagnostic language; it's often hollow promises and the undignified preemptive certainty they hide behind. i say do the oposite: describe your condition as crude, unhinged, precise and accessible to others as you can. your name about your condition should be so easy to understand that when you tell it to someone who has no idea about it, understands it the first time you mention it without having to ask fir details.

"i thought i had to fart the other day but i actually shat my pants with liquid shit a little" now that's how i talk about my most recenr condition, without shame! not using this ridiculous gatekept medical language.

 No.309788

>>309783
so i have a very specific, personal kind or depression, that is actually a bit comorbid with my overall inclination to being anxious?

 No.309791

>>309788
>so i have a very specific, personal kind or depression, that is actually a bit comorbid with my overall inclination to being anxious?

i can never know what you have because i can't feel what you feel so what could my opinion possibly be worth. nothing. i can look at your approach though. when you tell me with your chest sticking out all proud and identified: "i have depression!" then i don't know how that feels like, that tells me nothing. the term is like a shotgun and hits everything, you want something that only hits what you actually have precisely. you know the term is too much of a blanket term to be useful by the fact that you would receive 100 different answers if you asked 100 depressed people about their condition and not the same answer 100 times.

calling it comorbid and anxiety is at least a step in the right direction but you are once again committing what i in my pieced-together understanding of mental health believe to be a mistake: you just repeat medical labels as if they meant anything. what i believe to be way better would be to invent/sculpt/compose/craft/sketch a way to describe what is actually going on so that when a kid in the park asks you what is wrong with you, you could tell it in a way that makes sense to the kid and then the kid in the park might have a way better idea on what to do about it then any doctor ever because the kid did not have it's humanity pranked, whipped and tortured out of it in medschool.

most importantly though, bothering to be precise about it will give you better ideas on what to try to make things better and the most healing the most helping will be what you do to yourself, not what will be done onto you by others. don't wait to be rescued, nobody is coming, you do the rescuing.



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 No.308814[Reply]

How do you deal with extreme public humiliation and a destroyed reputation? Shits suicide fuel
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 No.309651

Diddy was arrested, accused of various crimes, had a video of him beating his ex leaked online, people learned that he has a cuckhold kink, he was found guilty of paying male prostitutes and on top of that people learned that he has a small penis. DJ Vlad said it's about 3 inches. I saw the video, but I can't say for sure.

He's a multimillionaire. That helps with public humiliation and destroyed reputation. Being rich.

 No.309655

>>309651
hes black

 No.309656

>>309655
how do you know?

 No.309668

It's almost impossible to have a destroyed reputation in today's world. People are too damn distracted to keep track of everyone's scandals. Just move somewhere else and people who know whatever you're worried about won't know. Only way that doesn't work is if you're famous, and if you're famous you don't need to worry about reputation even more. Famous people can get away with so much shit and people will still worship them. You just can't also be ugly or else you end up getting harvey winesteined. He could have kept doing what he was doing if he just lost 40 pounds.

 No.309773

>>308814
>How do you deal with extreme public humiliation and a destroyed reputation? Shits suicide fuel

social status is an illusory game. you are somewhat pre-programmed to mind being considered of lower social status but the world in which this cultural system made sense has not been existing for hundreds/thousands of years. this is industrial mass consumerist cattle dystopia and you don't have to mind being unpopular or lonely because those states merely represent the opinions of fools and your only concern should be not to be one of the fools. if you ever felt being popular and in high demand, you'd hate it so much that you would not lament the absence of it. most people don't know how lucky they are never to have been popular because it would invalidate their entire social framework. they would hate it so much, they'd wonder why they ever cared about anyone if this is what results from it.



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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.308726

>>308564
They don't need to. They can give you enough proteins, fats and vitamins through IV injection indefinitely.

 No.308806

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Any ideas on how to commit suicide by hanging? I wonder what sort of rope, knot, techique and place would be the best. I heard that with a good arrangement you can snap your neck and die painlessly, but honestly since it seems to involve so much technique I tend to think that just regular hanging could be better. I'm only afraid of fucking that up too and ending up as a veggie or suffocating for two hours before passing out.

 No.308808

>>308806
I have experience in this. I've successfully killed myself several times via hanging. You need to read "The Peaceful Blackpill Handbook", "The Art of Not Living", and "Fun With A Razorblade by Big Gay Andrew Loomis". Once you do that you can ask ChatGPT for the best rope and height configuration for your IQ. Then you'll need to apply for a suicide license and pray to g*d that your therapist hasn't told your psychiatrist anything that would suggest you're only suicidal for a reason that SSRIs could instead cure. There is 0% chance the Demiurge will let you die if you don't hang yourself exactly as prescribed. You'll end up as a vegetable, or worse, a fruit.

 No.309327

How do you set up a timed message to emergency services to collect your body? The hotline doesn't take text messages. I don't want a family member to find me. I really have no idea here; this is the only major hole in my plan.

 No.309758

Does anyone here have tinnitus? This might be what convinces me to end it. I can't even focus on my thoughts. It feels like I have lost an entire section of my brain. I can't sleep.



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 No.306449[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

What is the average wizard's relationship with religion like? No religious person has ever been able to give me a good argument for why God, if he is out there, is not the most maximally evil being in the universe simply by the virtue of creating suffering when he could have chosen not to. Saying "suffering builds character" and derivatives of is just a manifestation of their stockholm syndrome for this vile entity

>I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create evil. I YHWH do all these things - Isaiah 45:7
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 No.309470

>>309469
repent bro

 No.309523

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 No.309580

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religion makes a lot more sense and actually came full circle and became a source of inspiration again, once I realized Yahweh is the villain

 No.309589

>>309523
I personally didn't really care to post in this thread or enter into this discussion much, but I will say that the quote you've posted sums up (mostly) my thoughts on the existence and misguided worship of God.

 No.309730

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 No.305084[Reply]

>even the extrovert normalfags with an excellent social and sexual life are on multiple drugs and getting therapy
I'm absolutely done for, dude. Even my life improves, I'll still just be a monkey to the rest of them. Fuck.
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 No.305743

>>305742
>Why are the sons working, for what?
Maybe their moms said they wouldn't get any more tendies until they got a job! Hahahaha!

 No.308557

>>305444
>When the next lockdown like event happens

no way kikes could pull it off like they did the first time.

 No.308560

>>305656
>Starve on the street?
Gaza will be repeated. It will hit the west just as it has hit us, you played devils advocate and the devil will come to you, you willingly embraced the Antichrists henchmen for scraps and they shall come for you too, may God make you wake up or may you suffer the same fate. Did the western elites really think they can ally with Israel and not be treated the same by them once they are in a position to do so? I hope I am wrong for the sake of your children.

 No.309700

>>305084
2020 made many people realize that they were unconsciously putting up with an insufferable amount of meaningless social interaction that they didn't actually need to deal with or do voluntarily

When they realized that being isolated, not interacting with people directly (and everything annoying that comes with that) they changed. they realized they were following a script they didn't have to and so they stopped. now socializing is just streaming and farming likes and engagement instead of meeting up in real life.

The thing is, my life didn't change whatsoever, so it didn't bother me. I had been an isolated loner without any social media presence prior to covid for 5 years. being "locked down" didn't change my life at all. the funny thing is normies will bitch endlessly about how everything isn't the same but they'll still participate and pine for the "before times" that are never coming back.

i like watching them squirm
"HoW iS EvErYoNe DoInG tHiS"

 No.309727

>>305279
>Looks like the Elite will finally have humans domesticated like cattle soon
I don't think so, they are buying into dumb scams like AI and identity politics. They can barely control and maintain the government, healthcare and educational systems themselves which they use to exercise power.



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 No.309084[Reply]

Anyone experienced getting fired from almost all jobs they ever had? I’ve failed at almost everything I ever had and got insulted before. Has anyone expirienced something similar
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 No.309660

>>309658
>I don't know how to do shit, man
…They train you on the job.

 No.309661

>>309660
that said, now I need to get over my fear of going out and look for a job.

 No.309667

>>309661
>I need to get over my fear of going out

There's nothing to fear. The only result of failure is being temporarily put back in to the state that you're currently in. Nothing bad can result from trying and failing.

 No.309698

>>309659
Mostly math, like topology. Philosophy would be interesting too. I want to learn German but I have no idea where to start.

 No.309705

>>309084
Are you sure that's low-IQ? That can also happen if you have problems focusing like ADD. Some people really just hate and aren't built for work, which is a normal thing to hate, doesn't mean you're stupid.



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 No.309319[Reply]

I wasted 12 years of my life being stuck in shitty apartment with my in a third world country
This includes all of my teen hood as well as a bit of my adulthood
After realizing this, I got depressed. I just wish I could have done more things that were more important to me, such as starting out drawing earlier and moving out of that shitty apartment. It just hurt how much time I wasted being terminally ill online while being stuck in hell.
I am not sure how to get over this. I have time. I am 23, but still knowing that my life could have been better in the 2010s and the early 2020s hurts me deeply. I wish I was smarter. I wish my mom was not a lazy whore who constantly smokes and eats, and she sold that fucking apartment earlier so we could find somewhere better for life.
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 No.309502

>>309319
I hate to be an optimist, but im 35 and i can tell you, at 23, you do still have time. you've got about 7 years. you just have to get on the first rung of the ladder and climb whatever path you decide to set out on. after about 30, you simply will not be willing to do anything. I've accepted who i am and the fate which that entails. its gonna be a life of mediocrity, regret, and sullenness. I could've done alot more but I tucked my tail and consoled myself in isolation and self pity around 25. I could've stepped up and faced adversity but i didn't.

 No.309617

>>309476
was born in 2002 as well
honestly at this point i really dont know
>>309502
i have still time but i am afraid it not enough for me and my goals like the time is getting fast and there is no time for me to relax and just have fun and not care about the future like i used too

 No.309618

>>309476
I don't think "late bloomers" exist. At least not in large enough numbers to be relevant
Adults don't change that much. They just snowball whatever they learned in their formative years, whether that was good or bad or like many here simply nothing much at all.

 No.309687

>>309502
What can I do if I am lacking energy and willpower to make something of myself in my twenties?
I really want to make something of myself and be able to look back and feel proud, but I always nurn out quickly and usually feel nothing.

 No.309690

>>309687
deconstruct your self image, detach from you circumstance, and find a way forward. the more you look toward the ends, the more you a lost in the trackless maze. it is a direction that you should seek, not a destination. meditate, overcome, master.



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 No.307971[Reply]

I know there’s nothing wrong with me. I’m perfect. I’m skinny, kind, and thoughtful. But the isolation from everyone around me has been getting to me. Nobody has ever put effort into me. I changed my style just to receive barely any compliments, then proceeded to get ignored by everyone. No whore has ever thought of me as a man. They’re gross creatures who look at me and think I’m homosexual. I’m not. Just because I look like a slut doesn’t mean I am one. Then I am being secluded for not being manly enough. other male seems to think of me as one of them either, shouldn’t I be given respect from my fellow peers and colleagues?
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 No.308038

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>>308035
>crabibate

 No.308040

>>308038
Lol… sorry, stupid typo.

 No.308049

>>308040
you called yourself an involuntary celibate tho

 No.308899

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>Just because I look like a slut doesn’t mean I am one.
While this is one of the funniest things i've read this year, i'll tell you to fuck off (faggot)

 No.309650

>>307971
>Just because I look like a slut doesn’t mean I am one.
Off this comment alone, no. You sound like a huge faggot.



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 No.309114[Reply]

>The more I seclude myself the more I long for human connection
>The more I interact with the 3D world the more I just want to be left alone
I literally cannot win in this life
I am always worried about doing the wrong thing, I am always lamenting all of my errors of the past
I hardly actually live
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 No.309263

>>309262
I was also thinking of getting a bird like a parrot but I don't like to keep animals and especially birds in a cage

Though boundaries are important to keep animals safe, but there's something soul crushing about seeing an animal that is naturally the most free stuck in a cage

 No.309265

>>309263
Somewhat sad in a way, you have to break their spirit. They become excited for food, being let out, and to see you. It's not the natural way but flags the reward centers in their brains. I'm glad I had the experience but probably wouldn't do it again.

 No.309584

I feel you, it's like touching a hot stove, only to feel the overwhelming urge to touch it again, even though you know what's going to happen and you do it anyway, ad infinitum.

 No.309593

there.is no.middle ground

 No.309619

>>309584
Strange example, why would anyone get an overwhelming urge to touch a hot stove , anon?



 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.308983

>>308779
probably very few people have ever done this.

 No.309232

>>308555
I can't remember feeling ill after eating regular store-bought candies/snacks when I was young either but whenever I do now I feel very ill. It's like all the food has been poisoned.

 No.309233

>>309232
"Mexican mix" (carrots, potatoes, beans, some other vegetables)?

Carrots steamed with seasoning?

Eggs with seasoning?

Bananas?

 No.309410

>>309233
Do you have any good recipes you want to share?

 No.309613

>>304109
demiurge made it too difficult to leave this world


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