/dep/ - Depression

>>277677
Nothing I said in this thread is false.

>>277596
>it's hard to go on a diet if you're poor because most diets are expensive, I do fasting from time to time, but eventually I end up gorging on empty carbs since it's always the cheapest food.
How much do you pay per week for your food?

>>277244
>if you are ugly, improve your hygiene and your personality
This is obviously satire, but I find it funny how so many norms unironically spout this.

Like, firstly the assumption that my hygiene is poor is insulting. I cant live filthy, and I can't live in filth, it makes me feel like shit.
Just because I'm ugly and plagued by acne doesn't mean I don't wash twice a day, take care of my teeth, and groom myself regularly (which I need to do for my job anyways).

I'm just fucking ugly. There's no fixing that aside from plastic surgery, and even then, you can only put lipstick on a pig so much. Unfortunately, cosmetic surgery isn't cheap and I'm not rich.
My personality is indeed shit though, but that's more of my revolting ugliness informing who I grew to be. When in your developmental years you're told by your peers you're ugly and gross looking (I wasn't even unhygienic as a teen…) how can you be expected to be a socially well adjusted individual? I'm not a bad person, just can't look people in the eye, I'm not quick witted, I have a bad stutter, I panic in social situations – in America and probably the rest of the world, we don't have a society where people are accepting of those quirks, at least not for uggos. People are visibly annoyed when interacting with me, they're uncomfortable and want nothing to do with someone who can't be normal.

Thus, the wizardry.

>>277898
This; I never understood why normans think ugliness is somehow correlated with hygiene.

>>277908
Succubi have weird obsessions with things like how long your fingernails are and what haircut you have etc. afaik. It doesnt make any meaningful difference from someone unnattractive, but for some attractive males it will make a difference for them. They incorrectly give the same advice to ugly people

Maintain a calorie deficit and restrict carbohydrates. "use more fuel and don't top up the tank". No special diets or supplements needed. As long as you're burning more than you're putting on. Direct vector line to a healthy weight.

If you want to snack, then burn extra calories through exercise. Every pound of muscle mass burns an extra 900+ calories over the course of an 8 hour sleep, so exercising in such a way that builds muscle will accelerate weight loss while allowing you to eat more.

Step 1. Eat less
Step 2. Do any amount of any kind of exercise regularly.
That’s it.

Eating is my only cope. I am willing to give up sex for it (I'm ok with being fat)

>>277147
Meanwhile I AM getting fat. I could easily stop it but I have no reason to because every aspect of my life is shit anyway so why do any effort?

>>277147
Man, I miss Frank so much. He "killed himself" jumping from a building, a couple of years ago, after talking shit about big pharma and how cancer was curable but they silence scientists from talking about it because it's a very profitable business. I learned a lot from his channel.

>>275094
>>275104
>>275119
>>275120
this is very common behavior for children to do, I've probably heard about similar situations to this 100 different times. It happens at an age where the child learns that they can manipulate their parents by lying but they've also not developed any kind of morals yet. I think the results of this eventually cause the child to feel negative emotions like regret and it teaches them about honesty or other similar virtues, although some psychos dont feel this and continue the behavior indefinitely

>>275094
i would have taken that personal if someone dare to slap me when i didnt do jack shit.

Someone <b>too</b> into scat posted their gifs on crystal.cafe when I was just peacefully scrolling there.

>>275120
Your mom was cool dude, I wish my parents shouted at my bullies like that.

Usually before posting in a thread I read the every post, or if the thread is long, the bottom 20-50 response chains. But I'm not going to read any from this thread because it may trigger my post-traumatic stress, or enrage me at the injustices done to my fellow wizards.

I'll post a less horrific experience: My father, when trying to find out who did something, would ask the nearest one of us (me or one of my older brothers) if we did it, then the second nearest, the the third nearest, then the third nearest. If you denied it, he'd take your word for it unless you were the last one he asked. I don't know if I'm explaining it right, but this meant whoever was the farthest away from him when he found someone broke the rules would be the one to get punished; he would take the first three for their word when they pleaded innocent, but not the fourth and final of us.

>>277809
Having a conversation 1 on 1 with someone who isn't insane or unhinged and who possesses a decent amount of intelligence is immeasurably superior to any online community.

finding such an individual though…

>>277811
And then keeping in touch with them… I still run away from irl cool people.

Win the race only to destroy the trophy in front of everyone.

>>277796
Same as you op. But contrarily to you I know why I get these.

First off, except the 1% of mental ill people, you biologically CRAVE social relations. That is true for 99% of people, even most autistic for example. Why? Simple, humans CANNOT survive alone. Don't send me example of people who tried to survive for a limited period of time. Most humans are just unable to survive alone. Humans thrive in groups. That's why social interactions are almost as important as food or sex because they are an IMPERATIVE to our survival as individuals and as a specie.

The fact that you have no or little social interaction will often; like a lack of food will, create a real craving.

Now I'm going to take a bit about myself and some including you, op, might identify in what I will say.

I have been rejected pratically all my life. My parents hardly gave me actual attention past 5yo except to tell me to have good grades at school (which I did not because of bullying). Adults sometimes gave some but I always got rejected by people my age. I mentionned bullying and that happened to me until high school where I hit a late puberty and was (finally) able to fend for myself, because NO ONE ever tried to protect me, even teachers participated in it.

Now the thing is, I have a very friendly personality. That means that I always (even know sadly) see the best in people and try to befriend them. I tried during all my school years to make friends and at some point I even got mocked for that. I tried outside of school but it never worked. And as I was growing older and older I was becoming gradually more desperate to have friends. Ironically, it's harder and harder to make friends as you age and around 25, my age, it's basically impossible to make friendships since people already have a social circle and will not make a new friends from the spot, they will usually make new relations from their social circle. If you have no friends, it's impossible to make new ones. It's a true viscious circle.

And as you can guess my craving only intensified as I got ignored, bullied, rejected. So that explains why I absolutely crave, even after YEARS as a NEET (over 5 years now).

That's a bit sad since I KNOW that even without the rejection, I always wanted to have friends. But I will never have any.

As the years go by I tPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>277796
I daydream and think a lot about socializing because my life is completely empty of it. However, this might be obsessing over something I cant change. So maybe its best to focus on the things you care about that you know you can change, or maximize, or nurture, and then just try to bear the void of this which you cant have, because I think no matter what you cant have everything and will have to deal with "missing out" on one thing or another. So just focus on something proactive is my idea.

>>277780
it's wizchan, posters here love that kind of crap

>>276317
>Avoid excessive caffeine
That would explain a lot, coffee is all I drink.

Brain fog is not going away. It has been a constant for the last 1-2 years. Have tried dietary changes, with no noticeable change in symptoms. All of my mind feels dampened. ?????

>>277798
Try anything else before you give up.

>>277798
I used to be deeply depressed for years. I recovered and have good diet and exercise now. But I still feel like my brain is damaged from the years of depression. I think it may take many years of slow recovery, with full recovery perhaps impossible

I don't believe in a "better" life, im unable to imagine anything like that and doesn't make sense to me.

My problem is with being conscious and being alive itself.

>>277313
to start living a better life, give up hope and live, without hope you can't be disappointed, suffer.
All of you need rest and peace, and like with all things, it starts in the mind.
Don't look for grand but small and little by little you will realize that that's the true value and what you are looking for, yourself.

i advise against heaven for heaven to be hell also must, therefor the idea of heaven and hell is hell itself.

if you spend your days focused on your suffering and do nothing about it you're idiot. Don't wait for others to solve your problems for you suffer for that very reason, that no one cares about you.

if you are not ready to lose your life, you are not ready to ask for it to be saved.

>>277687
set up fireworks on top of a building to gather a large crowd then set yourself on fire and jump the normies will cringe for sure

I've been doing some research into fentanyl recently, apparently it's an epidemic here in the US currently. It can be found in heroin and various fake prescription pills. From what I've read/watched, fentanyl is supposed to be an intensely potent opioid, roughly 100x more potent than morphine. Essentially, the way it kills is by overloading the brain's opioid receptors to the point where your body actually forgets to breath naturally, and you suffocate. Now, normally suffocation is extremely painful, however since the fentanyl is a fast-acting, super-potent painkiller, the body would be numb to any pain and the user would die peacefully and painlessly like slipping into a permanent sleep, or so I've gathered. I'm looking into doing this myself, my only setback is that I have never purchased drugs before and have no idea how to find a dealer.

>>277705
You might be able to find a guide on making fentanyl on i2p. I've found shit like that on postman torrents before. I don't know if it's that hard, but I've made aspirin in a basic chemistry lab before with some basic shit you can find easily.

>>277726
I'll try to look into this. Thanks for the tip, wiz.

>>275759
>i don't want to feel pain
>i don't give a fuck about my life
get real, you don't want to die.
Find a peaceful place and rest for the rest of your life.

>>277725
It's weird how millionaire tendies can live happy nonetheless because they have cash to shield them from reality

>>277727
>It's weird how millionaire tendies can live happy nonetheless because they have cash to shield them from reality
It's not happiness though. What they do is constantly distracting themselves so they don't have to face any still or present moment. They are just as depressed as others but they are able to distract themselves more and they also know how to create the illusion of a happy life to other people by a means of attention whoring and bragging. A shitload of millionaires end up deep in alcohol/drugs or they kill themselves once a moment of reality hits them too hard.

>>277725
Literally all normie therapy has been focusing on this for decades. Oh don’t focus on happiness/euphoria blah blah, that is mainstream.

I know this sounds non-sensical but are you familiar with the sunk cost fallacy?

This is what I experience in a way even if being depressed was not a deliberate choice and not something I spent resources on and not something that even could pay off. You could call time a resource but time passes no matter what and in my case depression = inaction.

If I turn my life around now it will mean I could have done it sooner and I will keep thinking of all the time I wasted.

>>277750
Avoiding niggers and junkies are great motivation.

>>277751
He's an NPC that can't self-motivate without an authority figure over his head. What else can he do?

>>277752
>He's an NPC that can't self-motivate without an authority figure over his head. What else can he do?

Go out into nature into a secluded national forest. Have nothing more but a tent and some food. The fear of nature at night when its pitch black and you can hear shit moving around that you don't know what it is can make you appreciate your life a bit more. At least it did for me. Probably not everyone would have the same fears though.

>How can I create accountability for myself that I won't just bypass like blocking internet?

This line of thought bothers me because what can "blocking internet" even help you accomplish? Everything that needs to be done to fix one's life requires the internet anyway. If you block your internet then you won't be able to get a job or sign up for school or some other beneficial program.

>>277759
Exercise, meditation, journaling, grooming, gardening, cleaning… All best done offline.

>>277749
I was suggested to try stationary therapy but I believe that once I am back home I will just regress to my former lazy self.

Becoming homeless to get disciplined is straight up out of touch trolling though.

>>277759
Well that's actually quite the problem. I used to be able to block certain sites I would waste my time on but nowadays with forums disappearing and everything being on a few sites the sites that can be educational can also be distracting. I might need youtube to watch a programing tutorial but once I am there I might be tempted to watch some useless distracting video instead. I'm honestly considering trying to get some kind of 100% offline job.

>>277716
Nice drawing I like it a lot