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 No.235552[Reply]

Every morning I feel terrible because my head feels like it lacks oxygen, tinnitus is very loud, head feels heavy, empty, bare of emotions, slow and disoriented. I always have to breathe consciously and very deep to feel somewhat better again though it takes time till it adapts to a normal level every day.
Anyone have experience with this reaction? What can I do against it? Should I meet a doctor?
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 No.239612

>>239608
No it feels like death.

 No.239634

>>239165
>Also look into pic related, its a guard to protect teeth from nocturnal teeth grinding
That looks like it would greatly hinder airflow through the mouth, which could be suffocating for someone with a deviated septum or even just a stuffy nose

 No.239645

>>239165
So I have this now what?

 No.239780

>>235552
OP how foes uour nose feel? Ecen if you wake up and you think your nose is clear, it might not actually be while you sleep. I suffered from swollen turbinates and it turned out that is what was causing me issues.

Try to stay super hydrated during the day and see if it helps for the time being. Also change your bed sheets and everything at least twice a week. If you have fucked up turbinates, even the skightest hint of dust or slightest lack of water will cause then to swell uo while you sleep. Also thoroughly clean your room at least once a week to make sure there isnt ANY dust. Order special dust sucker wipes online if you can.

 No.239803

>>239165
I have had bruxism (teeth grinding) and those are completely impossible for me to sleep with.
The only way is get a specially made mouth guard for like $1000 that is more comfortable but still annoying


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 No.236479[Reply]

Making a thread for BPD discussion since the last one we had here has died.
There is a common misconception that only succubus have BPD and this is not true a lot of wizards actually have the disorder also so please do not attack the posters here for mentioning their affliction.
Misaki is the OP image as she is BPD and I am sure many of us would relate to her.
Wizards that suspect they are BPD but not diagnosed as they share some of the traits are welcome to discuss those traits also.

So you have BPD how does this manifest for yourself?
Have you any experience with therapy and how has that been for yourself?
Do you agree with the diagnosis and are you comorbid with another personality disorder meaning you have both of them at once or share significant traits?
Do you get very attached to people what have your BPD experiences been like?
Do you self harm at all?
Do you feel you will ever recover from BPD and how do you cope with it?
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 No.239788

>>239785
>>239787
If you do not like that some wizards have BPD then maybe you can stay out of the thread.
AT least back up your claim that BPD is not wizardly.

 No.239789

>>239788
>AT least back up your claim that BPD is not wizardly.
>Sometimes I wish I were a normalfag succubus.
Its literally normalfag succubi: the disorder, which is why BPD men post things like wanting to be succubi so often. Its not even just that poster either, the CC migrant that screeches about wanting to be a succubus on /b/ everyday is a diagnosed BPD as well.
Just accept reality, BPD is anti wizardry and consists of succubi larping as wizards, and men who wish they were succubi.

 No.239790

>>239789
Often it happens to be succubus who have it but many men do as well and it is slightly different for men who have it than succubus but there have been other threads about this mental illness on wizchan in the past so a good amount of wizards have what is known as "BPD"

 No.239791

>>239790
>newfag cc migrant comes back
>immediately starts to defend itself while pretending not to be itself
BPD threads have been bumped by you the CC avatarfag that the mods don't ban despite breaking rule 8 since last December. Reminder that you will never be a wizard or a succubi you disgusting abomination.

 No.239794

The first paragraph from the first result on duckduckgo I found:

"With borderline personality disorder, you have an intense fear of abandonment or instability, and you may have difficulty tolerating being alone. Yet inappropriate anger, impulsiveness and frequent mood swings may push others away, even though you want to have loving and lasting relationships."

If this isn't your most typical teenage succubus behavior then I don't know what is.


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 No.234379[Reply]

If you lost a loved one to suicide, would you want to know why they did it?

What if the reason that he did that was that he was secretly a horrible rotten person? Would it give you comfort or would you rather keep your memory of them as pure as possible?

For example, if your kid fucked people up economically, and he couldn't live with what he's done, would you want them to tell you that in a suicide letter? Would it give you some comfort in knowing a piece of shit has lost his life? Would you get some sense of closure from knowing his reasoning?
Thanks in advance to anyone who answers, this is important to me.
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 No.239711

>>239683
That's 98% of muh reppils

 No.239782

The few people who would care already know why

What could I even say to them? The fact that I killed myself says enough on its own

 No.239784

"To my parents and sisters. You guys are alright. Thanks for putting up with me until now. Some people are just fucked. Goodbye."
I dunno what else to write. Theres nothing else to say.

 No.239792

>>239664
Says someone who posts here. What a retarded statement.

 No.239793

>>239784


 No.237788[Reply]

My older obsessed sister tried to "raise" me to be an effeminate sentimental submissive castrated white guilt liberal faggot. I try to clean and fix myself from it but the ghost is always there. I'm 24 and feel like she (and my dumb degenerate brother) stole my life
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 No.239769

>>239768
>>239767

You guys sure watch a lot of TV2.0

 No.239770

>>239766
>>239767
What's so hard to believe about this? Even in part.

 No.239771

>>239764
Are you the one always posting sissy cuck porn on /b/?

 No.239772

>>239771
No, but I know who you are talking about. Dunno why he has so much of that shit saved on his computer, the weirdest thing is how he just spams it on random threads for seemingly no reason at all. I just [-] and ignore it tbh.

 No.239773

>>239772
Oops, I meant to reply to >>239762 obviously.


 No.239596[Reply]

I have lived in the same little apartment for 12 consecutive years and never missed a single rent payment.

The owner wants to sell it for some reason, and I don't have any realistic chance of getting a new apartment at this point. I have to be gone in 3 months.

What choices of protest do I have? My life is practically over as I don't have it in me to live on the streets or in some run-down apartment block inhabited by drug addicts.

Every night I can think of nothing else than either starving myself out during the next couple weeks or simply setting myself on fire with some gasoline.
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 No.239704

>>239703
It's not like OP is even here listening anyway.

 No.239710

>>239704
T. OP

 No.239720

*starving
based

 No.239728

By a bunch of survival gear and camping equipment plus 1 gun and live in the wilderness.
You've been given and opportunity to ascend.

 No.239760

I don't understand. I know it depends on the country, but in my country you can easily find an apartment as long as you can pay the 1-2 month rent security deposit. Once I was asked to have my previous landlord call the new one to give a reference. It is more difficult in the middle of the capital city. 3 months is enough time to look around even if a lot of landlords are assholes with weird requirements


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 No.238210[Reply]

How did they affect you growing up?
How do they affect you to this day?
How do you feel about them?
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 No.239723

Mother is an hard to deal with and perverted piece of shit complete with an exploitation operandi. No opportunity is wasted to undermine everything I attempt. She once got me expelled from a college. She never got me a succubus or anything, just fucked up every chance I ever got with a sick scam where she makes them shudder and leave. I also think she got me into self harm to deal with her perverse fantasies. Older I get the less I want to be near her.

Dad is a burnout with an entitlement issue. A lot of days are spent listening to his grating voice blaring through the air to tell me to shut up. I like him because he is useful around here but he can be a bit of an oppressive nuisance, getting me banned at the store and taking $50s he never pays back..

They both buy beer for me and stuff, loved mom as a kid and a teen

 No.239730

Dad left when I was a toddler. Mom was boderline with a lot of failures in life, she would take it all out on me. Beatings, psychological torture (grandma also did a lot with me and my mother cause we had no money and she basically paid for everything in our home, she still lives with us) any kinds of sick punishments available. Dad appeard when I was nine and would see me once a year, then his wife took a pity on me and then he left again. Mommy issues kept going until I was 16, when I had mental break out and was close to kill myself or someone on the first spark of stress.

Nowadays my mom is a normal person, quite gentle actually, she started behaving when I died psychologically. Dad got a good wife, we like each other, he calls from times to times to see if I'm still alive. Although we have a good relationship, their effects on me are zero. Nothing they do interfere with my life nor mentality.

Honestly, I'm neutral. I don't love them, don't really care if they're alive or dead, I'm not their friend and don't talk to them unless I need to. Guess after all those hellish years I became apathic, well it kinda makes sense if you think about it.

 No.239734

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It's funny, you can see the deterioration in my siblings, both physically and mentally, from oldest to youngest.

My sister developed with the proper nutrition and support. She's married with kids now, she still goes on and off antidepressants due to childhood abuse, but she's done alright.

I'm a shut in NEET, but I hold myself together and stay off drugs. My face is a little sunken from malnutrition, but I do alright

My little brother is a broken man. He's on and off drugs, his body is frail due to years of growing up malnourished and munchausen bullshit. Everytime I see him and I can tell he's down I say "It's not your fault man, we had it harder than most people growing up".

I'm the only one that regularly sees my mum. She's got so lonely that she thinks celebrities are actually talking to her on social media and not just their handlers. I guess it's punishment for what she did to everyone.

 No.239744

>>239723
Wtf you hung out with succubi? I refuse to believe your mother would have the power for them to never fuck you.

 No.239759

They are emotionally crippled, narcissistic, somewhat autistic I would say.

That being said I think all parents are shit and that nowadays only mentally ill people procreate. Either way could be worse, at least they let me neet in peace.


 No.239655[Reply]

Any fellow wizzies suffer from this? Mine used to be more mild, and I was able to -kind of- function in school and life, but now repeating thoughts dominate my life every day. How to get better?

 No.239656

For me it's the opposite. Used to be REALLY bad when I was 16-19. I can live with it now that I've matured into an adult, but it really does complicate my sanity.

 No.239667

>>239655
I have a mixture of both intrusive thoughts and physical compulsions. It's absolute hell

 No.239669

>>239655
It has destroyed whatever hope I had for this life. Used to love daydreaming. It took that away from me. Fucking hate it.
The only thing that helps is mindfulness meditation. It sounds like some new age shit, but it does help. Disregarding the random feelings of pleasure you experience also helps, though I don't really know why. If I feel pleasurable, OCD kicks in almost all the time. I realize I enjoy playing a game - OCD kicks in, same with everything. It doesn't mean I don't enjoy things, but the very sensation of pleasure, that gentle warmth somewhere around your jaw and neck - for me it must be managed because that is the feeling of relief, the feeling I chase whenever my brain wants to perform a compulsion.
Other than that I have really no advice. I tried exposing myself to the thing I dread, literally puked from the overwhelming anxiety couple of times - doesn't really help, even if I do it for a long ass time.
Tried many, many different things, only those two make life somewhat less of a hell.

 No.239742

OCD make me want to rope


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 No.239533[Reply]

Do you have tinnitus? How did it start? Anything that helps?

I have it and it's driving me crazy.
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 No.239623

I've had it for as long as I can remember, and I used to actually think that empty ringing was just what the absence of sound 'sounded' like. Almost kind of regret finding out that it was an actual hearing condition. Anyway, I just keep a fan running all the time or listen to music, and I don't notice it unless I intentionally focus on it. It's fucking brutal in quiet rooms, though, drives me insane.

>>239535
https://old.reddit.com/r/WTF/comments/3l3uri/these_guys_lighting_a_mortar_shell_in_their_garage/cv3474n/

This is the trick he's referring to. It genuinely works, but it only provides temporary relief.

 No.239652

I have it but luckily not very bad. It started a few years ago when I was trying to recreate the rushing sound that happens sometimes when I yawn. I was like putting pressure inside my head somehow and ever since I had the tinnitus. It's worse in the mornings and sometimes is not even noticeable.

 No.239653

https://briantomasik.com/my-very-mild-tinnitus/

 No.239659

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>>239653
>I discourage using honey because of the harm that bees may suffer during its production (PETA 2010-2016).

 No.239731

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>>239623
i'm telling you man, it's god.
take it literally.
save yourself and pray.
he will try to help you out from the burden you currently face.


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 No.234683[Reply]

How do you guys deal with the fact that suffering, evil, and hardship is rampant within the universe?

I've come into this crippling line of thinking where the universe is a form of hell and all living beings experience great amounts of suffering and there is nothing I can do to fix it.

I used to look at people who suffered more than me as people to compare to myself and feel better about myself, but now I just see them as beings within this universe that have been created to endure years of suffering that can never be fixed.

The scariest part of this line of thinking is that suicide will not help or fix this problem and that I may be and we all may be stuck in this long progression of suffering that we cannot ever escape, even through death.

What the fuck do I do? I'm so scared right now.
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 No.239707

If death is a vacuum, all pain and pleasure experienced in life is forfeit.

There will be no lasting pain or pleasure in this case. Individual human pain and pleasure is but a vapor. It's gone for eternity afterwards like it never existed.

 No.239708

>>234690
The original metaphor behind "hell" is erasure, the memory of something being lost to time. When scripture refers to Sodom and Gomorrah being cleansed in fire, it means that they went down in history as an example not to be followed.

 No.239712

The best thing we can do is not bring more people into this world… and as wizards, we already have that covered.

 No.239714

We create our own suffering. When our minds are in order the universe is in order. Get your mind in order and watch as the evil inside and around you vanishes

>>239707
100 years ago "you" did not exist, yet out of this "vacuum" you came forth. How is the nothingness before your life different from the nothingness after it? You came out of it once and in the eternity of time and space it can and will happen again- infinitely

 No.239715

>>234683
suicide at least can give you a better body (or worse? that's a lottery), my body (brain more precisecly) is useless.


 No.239671[Reply]

I had a dream tonight where people were regularly asking me to do stuff with them after work/on free days.
Even in my dreams, I just couldn't believe it due to low self esteem.

Is that how it is to be normal? People asking you to do nice stuff after work, and then you do it? I just go home and cry, regularly. Really got the short end of the stick there

 No.239672

I had a dream that I was on a subway platform but the subways somehow derailed and elevated upwards killing everyone else on the platform and I had to narrowly dodge it and everything else trying to survive
why does my brain torture me while I sleep?

 No.239681

Dreams are God tier escapism for me. Including nightmares and stressful dreams. It's because in dreams exciting things actually happen even when it's bad. Real life is just pain and boredom. If I could I would dream all the time.

 No.239682

>>239681
I enjoy your perspective.


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