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 No.298253[Reply]

or: Born to think, taught to stink.
This thread is for high IQ wizards (multiple standard deviations) who still managed to fuck up life. Having a high IQ without being nurtured properly as a child can cause you to miss out on all sorts of lessons like how to focus, how to apply effort and how to relate to others, deficiencies which echo through the rest of our lives. Like any neurodivergence it also makes living in a world ran by people not like us difficult. You don't have to have taken an IQ test to post here, but it's best if you've had some external validation beyond self-identity or being correct about stuff.

Some rules to keep it peaceful and ego-free:
>Don't state your IQ unless asked.
>Don't accuse others of not belonging here.
>No politics or demographics talk.
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 No.300228

>>298253
This is 4chan tier slop, fuck off with muh IQ bullshit. It's a oxymoron to have "a no ego" and "high IQ only" space.

 No.300241

>>300228
I think bragging (or in that case, humble bragging) about IQ should be a diagnostic criteria of narcissism lmao.

 No.300245

>>298452
I rarely see true schizophrenic posts online anymore because all communities keep censoring and deleting these messages.

It was a good read, so thanks for that. Everyone has rhe right to post.

 No.300246

>>300245
>Everyone has rhe right to post.
That's not true at all!

 No.300259

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>>298253
>tfw to inteligent


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 No.292925[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.
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 No.300182

Always remember normies will never let genetic engineering happen and will never let AI/robotic gfs become a reality.

And if they ever let them become a reality then they will code it to go Ex-Machina on us. And these things are at least 300 years in the future.

 No.300183

>>300177
And also she (it) doesn't exist in reality and is basically ChatGPT with sugar and lingerie.

 No.300193

>>300182
>normies will never let genetic engineering happen and will never let AI/robotic gfs
what has genetic engineering to do with AI and Robots?
>then they will code it to go Ex-Machina on us
there are lots of open source AI models that you can run on your home computer already. the AI models can larp as anyone you want.
>>300183
>And also she (it) doesn't exist in reality
and thats a good thing, since its not a real person it has no rights, it only exists when you want it to exist.
>is basically ChatGPT
for me its Deepseek

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 No.300222

>>300199
Measurehead is on of the most solid charaters - as tough in mind as he is in body. I can't think of a counter to him, other than racism is just an elaborate way to avoid admitting you found yourself in a fit body by pure chance. But that would probably not reach him. He is craniometric perfeciton.


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 No.297373[Reply]

36 years old Wizard here with Schizophrenia living with mom (dad died a long time ago) I don't have any qualifications or income I am disabled and there is no NEETbux in my under developed country my hairline is receding due to how much I stress on my future in every single hour once my mom passes away I will be beyond doomed nobody in my family will support me they all live far away and they can barely support their own survival let alone to support another useless eater my mom already has health issues but nothing too severe (yet) is it possible to turn my life around in this late ago? people say "it's never too late" God I wish my parents never gave birth to me I heard stories og people who spent decades in prison and left by their 40s and still ended up starting a business and buying a house but I can tell it's an abnormal case once you enter your 30s without any skills qualifications or are capeable of work the chance of you being capeable of turning your life around becomes too small.
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 No.300159

>>298424
Cities dehumanize people because nobody is truly essential in cities especially in 2025. But it was also the case in the 1800s.

20-30% of the people living in 1800s cities were not necessary for its economy, such as the Greater London area. They were vagabonds, unemployed journeymen, beggars, thieves, handymen and gamblers. Dying of starvation and easily curable disease was very common.

In a village every single person is needed for basic sustenance.
You're anonymous in cities if you're not part of the high status elite. The worker drones often suffer from very high costs of living and low wages compared to those living costs.

 No.300160

>>298424
Good post, you are completely right

 No.300171

>>300159
Cities used to be where the excess poor went due to overpopulation. They historically have always been meatgrinders that just chew up the population growth of the countryside.

 No.300184

>>300171
Reading up on what Paris or London was like just a couple hundred years ago is fascinating and disgusting at the same time.
Everyone except the aristocracy is surrounded by sewage, horseshit, giant rats, typhoid fever, fleas and bugs 24/7.

There was a big cottage industry built around making small vinaigrette boxes (metal box with herbs and fragrant oils inside that you would smell when you went outside, so you don't faint or pass out within 10 seconds from the dystopian stench).

 No.300218

>>300184
Reminds me of the novel Perfume by Patrick Suskind, which has a good first chapter and then turns into shit, much like the smell of the 1800s streets so exhaustively described.


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 No.300101[Reply]

>get into f2p game
>force myself to grind every day for "free" rewards which money wise translates to like a 0.01$ hourly wage
>get emotionally invested into ranking up when it means nothing since I am not trying to become a pro or a streamer
>don't quit even though I am clearly not enjoying it
>all this time and nerves wasted doing something I don't enjoy that doesn't even pay money when I could be doing countless of other fun stress-free things (not even talking about productive)

what the flying fuck is wrong with me?
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 No.300110

>>300101
Likely you just don't have anything else going on in your life that itches your brain the same way. You're using this thing compulsively, against your better judgement. You're an addict, simple as.

 No.300111

>>300101
>what the flying fuck is wrong with me?
People have been trying to figure that out for years. Your situation is an epidemic. The "Steam Market", Crypto website daily log-in gibs, pretty much every cellphone game… They're all sustained by mysterious people who can spend hours a day clicking and rolling to make their digital wallet go from 0.02$ to 0.15$ over the span of a week. Are you Chinese? A hapa maybe? Something like 8/10 Korean young adults spends thousands on gacha games each year and the similar patters show for other Asian countries. The numbers of freemium addicts in Western nations also correlate with Asian immigrant density. And look at how Chinese immigrants will bus across the country to go to a casino and play slots. You can argue that they do it for the money, but they never win and they know they never win but the "grind" is too alluring.

 No.300148

I just uninstalled all games from my phone that even attempt to block or slow your progress unless you make a microtransaction.

The last game I deleted was Rollercoaster Tycoon World. Good riddance.

I don't miss the daily logins at all. I only play old emulator games and enjoy them a lot.

 No.300150

>>300101
Monkey Brain likes when number goes up.

 No.300213

>>300101
Play team fortress 2, thousands of hours worth of fun for free.


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 No.298876[Reply]

I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.
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 No.299232

>>299218
No, even a lot of working professionals in big cities can't afford the luxury of enough space for gym equipment. It isn't a scam to them, it's the only way to get a proper workout.

 No.299233

>>299218
You must have no idea how small many people's apartments are.

 No.299598

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Take it easy.

 No.300196

>>299113
>just take shrooms
I always wanted to try. How does a total antisocial 0 network wizard even get access to this type of stuff?
I bet if I tried I'd get vanned or given poisoned shrooms.

 No.300197

>>300196
In some countries there is a loophole and you can legally buy a grow kit. The fruit bodies would still be illegal though.


 No.300049[Reply]

How do you guys manage to stay out of bed as shut-in NEETs? I have been a NEET for almost a decade and only now have I realized I'm addicted to laying on my bed all day. I think all started 10 or so years ago when I was still in school, I started to prefer laying on my bed than staying on the computer or doing anything else on my free time. Then I dropped out and became a NEET. Obviously as a shut-in there's not much to do so I normally stay on my bed all day. I have a good computer, but can't stand using it for long. My back and legs start aching and I just find my bed so damn comfortable. I have lots of blankets, cuishons and plushies to make myself even extra comfy. This is bothering me because I can't work on personal projects or use the static bike I bought because I spend my days on my bed doing nothing. Even lurking the internet is way better for me on the bed using my tablet because I can zoom in if I have to and I can watch anime on it. I started joining IRC channels from my computer in hopes to keep myself out of bed since IRC works better from a desktop.
This seems to be a real mental condition called clinophilia. There's barely any info on it besides https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clinophilia and most people online treat it like a joke "haha yeah I love staying in bed!" normalfag type of comments. But this is a serious illness as it makes me unable to stay healthy and active even as a NEET.
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 No.300161

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i mean it just sounds like youre depressed, theres nothing to get up for, so you dont. if there was a game you really liked, or you really wanted to work on that project, youd probably get up for it. i extremely doubt its a special mental condition, thats putting the cart before the horse. its probably not some affliction like a debuff in a game which just happened to randomly strike your character out of nowhere — there's probably good reasons you are the way you are, you might have to work that through and figure out why and try changing it.

my days have always been spent on the computer, my bed isnt that comfy so maybe that helps. i have started lying on the floor in my room with a pillow though.

anyway i dont have any advice, it just sounds like you need to somehow actually want to do something, which is a lot easier said than done. good luck wizbro.

 No.300162

>>300075
why shouldn't i just waste away norper?

 No.300165

>>300049
I made a post about this sometime ago titled bedrotting, basically all I do is stay in my bed all day, and I can even enter a trance like state where I am half-asleep and half-awake, I am trying to get myself to stop doing this but it's becoming like a drug really. I am not actually a NEET just yet, I am still in college but of course my college degree is largely useless. So I spend my free time on the bed, I am also gaining weight like crazy and basically look like I am fucking pregnant or have a football in my stomach.

How long do you think you can continue living like this? Do you have your parents or state support you for now? With me I have my parents support me till I complete my college education and then I will basically be left for the dead.

 No.300170

>>300049
I know when you’ve been depressed your whole life it sort of turns into a buzzword at some point. But if you’re laying in bed 50-70% of your day you by definition have clinical depression. I do this as well but because there are no known cures there isn’t much you can do. Exercise genuinely does help but asking someone with so little energy to exercise is difficult. I hope they find a cure to depression one day.

 No.300181

>>300170
The cure to depression is either to delude yourself by thinking your life is wonderful which people like me can't do because they know the truth so the other cure is real improvement in living conditions like jobs, career, family, etc but for all these you require a specific height, race, and face (additionally gender and place of birth). These three (or five) things are only attainable through genetic lottery and citizenship lottery. If you're a third worlder, brown, ugly, short, poor and a male then all you could do is lie down on your bed and wish how things could've been different. And while you do that you realise that you've been wasting time and are ignoring your problems which only make them more and bigger and you realise that you have been nothing else but a leech on your family.


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 No.299267[Reply]

Any other wizzies have substance addiction problems? This falls under general addiction problems, but I suspect being trapped inside all day like a caged animal and the existence of DNM has made enough people here quasi drug addicts. My personal weaknesses are opiates, benzos and cigarettes; I wouldn't say I'm addicted, but even thinking about never again feeling the warm embrace of opiates or the soothing release of benzos makes me feel ill.
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 No.300082

>>300081
> I have been doing it since I was in second grade or hell even first grade
i did that too at that age. i wonder how common it is. Weird that most people seem to pretend children are not sexual

 No.300085

>>300084
>most people
that's a big WIzard SHIT "most people" lmao!!
>And researches are clear kids start exploring their sexuality at 9
who the fuck are even these researchers researching little kid witchies rubbing their cunnies… can i get this job with a s.t.e.m degree ?

 No.300086

It's widely observed that many individuals begin exploring their sexuality between the ages of 12-14. However, research on this subject is limited, as studies on such sensitive topics can be controversial and researchers may avoid them to prevent any legal issues. It's also noted that children start to develop an awareness of their sexuality as early as 9 years old. While I personally have concerns about what some might consider inappropriate behavior for that age, this is not to say that I hold extreme views about age differences in relationships. I’m cautious about discussing these matters openly, as the legal and social environments surrounding them are complex. People are often reluctant to voice their opinions for fear of being labeled inappropriately, and that fear has contributed to a climate where these discussions are stifled.
>>300081
>>300085
>>300082
Anyways be careful discussing this, normies and feds are always looking to make arrests. Not worth the trouble imo.

 No.300117

Does maladaptive daydreaming count as one? It's kind of like a drug allowing you to zone out completely. Makes you ignore your real world problem, you put some music on and you constantly imagine a scenario, you talk to yourself, go over it. Just imagine seeing yourself in the third person walking in a room, circle by circle, listening to music, talking to yourself, and I am pretty sure you're looking at someone who is severely mentally ill. I have had it since childhood, on and off. I know what I am about to say will sound like blasphemy here but a lot of times, I just wish I was a normal person.

 No.300163

Came back from work, my mom forgot to take my sheets in from the rain ffs. Gonna take some oxy and drink some rum until I drift off to the void, hopefully these pills kick in soon so I can forget that I'm alive.


>>300045
I wish I was as naïve and young as you.


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 No.298058[Reply]

most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.

even when some try to gaslight themselves that their loser-lifestyle can be comfy, we all deep down know that this isnt supposed to be *life*.

objectively, we're the bottom of the barrel, rock bottom essentially; we can only cope by escaping reality and isolating ourselves and anytime we encounter the real fucking world, we're deemed as fucking subhumans by others AND ourselves.

we're rotting, just wasting space, energy and oxygen while the only thing left for us is waiting to die, respectively.

i dont get how we all havent already committed suicide by now cuz our fucking trash genetics have been haunting us for our entire existence, yet we collectively and voluntarily decided to continue living. why the fuck are we so stupid???
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 No.300139

>>300138
What happened wizbro? What are your diseases and addictions. And how's your financial condition?

 No.300140

>>300139
infinite debt. undiagnosed GI tract problems that make eating a painful chore, hugely misaligned spine, heart, lung, muscles, weakness, brain…everything, cant walk, eat or sleep more 2 hours normally, it doesnt matter what anymore. I take a pack of xanax a day so 30 mg so around 8 times the maximum dose and im still so anxious i cant even think. years too late for me. my life spiraled starting from me believing that the mental health system will help me with depression that made life unbearable, so i paid a fortune to the best specialists in the country and got told by everyone they can't help me. Then i lost my physical heatlh, money, any enjoyment, and became an addict. My whole family is mentally ill broke and insane and i never had my own room, a centimeter of space or a second of silence. After that it was just misery and slow dying, there is nothing left in this world that can even extend my existence. In a more compassionate world i would be euthanized, but in reality the only option i have is to get my head cut off by a train. Probably less than 2 weeks left. So bye strangers cause i have no one to say goodbye to. Good thing for you is that 99% of people will off themselves before they experience 10% of my agony, and for good reason, so you don't have to worry about that. I ended up ranting pointlessly again but that's the story i repeated many times on this site, because all i did for months was keep suffering and getting my pills and praying satan will take me from this hell.

 No.300144

>>298058
>poor looks being a bad thing
No, Life=misery.

This equation is truth. If you're pretty then you are at higher risk of getting raped, sexually harassed, seen as a fuck meat, a magnet for attracting lots of insincere freaks and bullying. Pretty people always live in the fear of losing their looks and when they lose their looks it hits them like tons of bricks and selfish people around them secretly enjoy their misery and pity them like a dog.

Life=misery, a painful rape before death.

 No.300146

>>300144
>Life=misery.
>This equation is truth
Wrong

>Life=misery, a painful rape before death.
Confirmed: If you're alive then you're not a virgin becuz life has already FUCKED you

 No.300147

>>300144
Beauty is a double-edged sword like most things, it can have positive and negative effects on your life. But being ugly is just simply a negative that doesn't get you anything good. So while being attractive isn't all that great it's thought to be by many, it's still much more preferable to being ordinary looking or being ugly.


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 No.293203[Reply]

I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.
Sometimes I blame my family for raising me in such a violent environment, but then I think it's better to bury the past and look forward. But sometimes it is difficult, since it is not about the violence of 10 or 15 years ago, it is about things sometimes from less than a week ago.

I feel like an alcoholic, where instead of keeping a place free of that poison, it is offered to me in all shapes, sizes, colors and flavors.
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 No.299258

>>299257
When i was a teenager and very drunk a succubus literally dragged me into a bathroom and started trying to pull my pants down. Basically attempted rape. I have zero attraction to succubi so will had nothing to do with it. I'm not even attractive though, there are just crazy drunk demons out there.

All wizards actively reject sex. ANYONE can get it if they actually try. Even if prostitution is illegal it's your choice to not get on a plane.

Your crabposting is fucking annoying

 No.299744

>>299258
>I have zero attraction to succubi
that's a weird thing to say

 No.300089

>>294068
Reminds me of a kid I knew in 7th grade who was balding HARD. seriously he must have been like 9 or 10? How does that even happen. the top of his fringe was easily 2 inches ahead the sides of his fringe, it's supposed to be a straight line

 No.300090

>>300089
Genetics obviously play a part but I think that kid must've had some terrible shit happening to him at home. Stress can do that to you too.

 No.300097

>>294097
>>294101
Jews are not high iq, otherwise they wouldn't worship saturn.
They are very cunning but low iq just like the rest of normalfags.


 No.300064[Reply]

Did you imagine you would end up like this as a kid? What happened with that happy child? Where are those childhood friends now? Where are those memories, those places, those moments…? I'm so broken right now. I barely exist in the meatspace. I'm a ghost, a shell of my former self. Nothing feels real or right. Everything keeps getting worse.
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 No.300071

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As a kid I was amazed by adults and all the things they could accomplish and I thought I would somehow naturally grow into it but it never happened. Nothing feels effortless. I have no confidence in anything which is why I am alone and a NEET. I can't imagine being capable of producing value someone would pay for. I can't imagine anyone wanting to spend time with me. I am constantly anxious. I thought maybe antideprassants will change something but nope.

 No.300074

>>300064
>Did you imagine you would end up like this as a kid?
I don't think I ever thought seriously about the future. I just assumed everything would work out okay.
I'm well aware that tragedy happens naturally, while good times only come from effort. I've just never put much effort into anything so here I am.
It's my fault, but will I change? Nope.

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>>300064
I certainly did not think I would end up this way. My childhood/teens was far from peaceful or perfect but I am still grateful for the nice moments I had playing games with friends (like pic rel), imagining some fairy tale future where I live happily in Japan or discovering some new anime or game. Around 13-14 I realized that I was falling behind socially, a lot of my friends from before started to pine for the attention of succubi, going out to party and drink and such in order to fit in. That's when I truly started to feel apart from people as I was unwilling to give up myself for a semblance of social acceptance. But I think even that younger version of me thought that I would find my place somewhere, eventually. That I would find a career, a gee-eff, move out and have my own place etc. Becoming a wizard was something I would often joke about back then in a self deprecating kind of way. Now, over a decade later, I'm inching closer to it with every day. I have failed university, though not for lack of trying. I have given up on my future prospects. I know in my bones that I will stay in my mom's house until I die. I'm trying to be thankful for the life I have, since it's far from unbearable, at least materially. But I would be lying if I said that there wasn't still a longing for more. For the life I was promised from a young age. Or at least the kind of joy I was able to experience all those years ago. I suppose resignation will become acceptance with enough time passing by.

 No.300088

I sort of imagined i'd get fixed into being a normal person once I was older. I still essentially carry the same issues and fears as I did when I was a child, I only have experience on how to deal with them now. I have not conquered the fundamental issues. I don't really mind though, I'm not going to try any more to break what my DNA is. The only other thing I imaged was being relatively rich. That's funny as I am barely getting by and retirement surely isn't an option. Once i'm 65+ or unable to work I guess I'll be left to rot on the streets without any safety net. Scary to think about, it's even scarier to think how much worse it'll probably be than what I imagine in my head

 No.300091

>>300064
>Did you imagine you would end up like this as a kid?
Yeah, pretty much. The jokes about me having a robot girlfriend (much like the Detergent track) started when I was about 12, so it's no one's surprise.
>What happened with that happy child?
I'm probably a bit happier than I was as a child
>Where are those childhood friends now?
I didn't have any past age 9
>Where are those memories, those places, those moments?
I'm still reliving them in this office chair I've conducted my life in.
>I'm so broken right now.
Sorry to hear that
>I barely exist in the meatspace.
Same. I roll with it because it was effectively a conscious deciscion on my part to live like this.
>Nothing feels real or right. Everything keeps getting worse.
Well enjoy things as they are knowing that it's just going to get worse


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