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 No.295957[Reply]

At what point is it objectively justifiable to give up? I'm 21 (nearly 22) and I've only worked dead end jobs and never even come close to being in a relationship with anyone. I tried, but there's just been so many negative experiences in my life (mostly from other people) that led me to being a shut in schizoid. I alternate between shaking with rage at my predicament and being completely numb. It's weird, I used to be such a happy kid with a bright future and now I'm just a future suicide case wading through life as if I'm on borrowed time. Anyone else feel like a animal trapped in a cage? I literally only passively exist like a fucking hamster; if I died right now, I'd be forgotten in 6 months max.
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 No.296545

>>296528
It wasn't easy for the Fullmetal Alchemist either.

 No.296546

>>296545
I was even harder for Naruto.

 No.296549

2000 was the last cut off year for any decent human beings. people born after 2004 werent even able to put together sentences properly before the brainrot set in with social media and smartphones

me? i remember when houses had a "computer room"

 No.296552

Speak to me zoomie baby, tell me where it hurts…

I was in your shoes a few years ago and buddy let me tell you it only gets worse

 No.296557

>>296448
what was the last thing you enjoyed? research it, find out if there are sequels, prequels, looks for fan communities and see what they like, look up the people who worked on that game or movie or whatever, and see if they have any more works
if you get tired of consuming, you can try creating fanart like drawings or memes, but just fantasizing in your head is a good start, it will exercise your imagination and distill the things you really like from the things you like not so much about the media
you shouldn't rely on expecting good things to just come to you, it never works that way



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 No.294748[Reply]

I'm so fucking ugly and disgusting
It's painful to look myself in the mirror
I wanna kill myself
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 No.296513

>>296509
>literally no one understands my pain
they owe you nothing, just treat bluepilled normcattle (and succubi) like things/bots
>I will write more about the fact about how looks impact your entire life
good, i also want to hear what you think about voluntarily celibacy in particular

 No.296514

>>296510
Try being short in Europe.

Zoomer succubi age 11 are 20cm (7 inches) taller than you as a grown adult man and look down at you.

It's like living in some kind of hell.

 No.296515

>>296514
how do they grow so tall?

 No.296517

>>296515
americans are taller

 No.296529

>>296515
In places like the Netherlands or Montenegro (where avg. zoomer girIs are close to 180cm or 6ft) I assume it is the very protein heavy diet, lots of meat, cheese, yoghurt.

Combined with sexual hypergamy (the requirements of being a potential dad candidate height-wise increasing every generation).



 No.296506[Reply]

Cold weather makes me sick my lungs don't tolerate cold air, I hate winter, I have to sleep with three blankets and wear heavy jackets

I wish I was dead

 No.296507

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Buy a space heater. I got one last year and it's very nice. I live in an apartment and they always wait too long to turn on the heat and always turn off the heat too early. With the space heater I never have to worry about it. I have it right under my desk so my feet are always toasty warm.

 No.296508

i use a halogen heater and its a fucking death trap

if I stop posting here its cuz my halogen heater set fire to my house and I perished in the flames

 No.296519

>>296506
Literally me, it Even hurts my nose, winter nights worsen my sleep issues in Many ways



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 No.296358[Reply]

it makes me sad I can't create things I like. I always procrastinate and I always did d
my whole life so far. It happened at very young age; I didn't want to go to school nor learn at home or do my homework. I was always playing flash games on the computer or play ps2 or nintendo DS and after that ps3. I didn't lile myself for that and itt continues nowdays. I don't know why I proscratinate. I hate doing things, in fact I was never used to that. I've never learn doing things by myself, always mom or dad did things for me, my mom did the cooking and my dad told me to do sport. I never listened, I just stayed at home in front of my tv. oh yeah the TV…watching programs in my bedroom all night long…it was comfy, at night you weren't bothered by others because I was kind of alone (my brother was sleeping) in front of the tv with no remorse of doing so because it was comfy and calm.
I think it's because of tv, video games and internet (smartphone addiction came way late).
when I discovered 4chan, I knew there will be no turning back: I totally "internetized" now. I'm am completly focuses on internet everyday. now it's not 4chan but wizchan I use and for a good reason: no succubi wanted me, maybe because I was too poor…all these factors made me a procrastinate person. when you're poor there'snt so much to do besode doing your home work and going to sport. no music lesson, or traveling during vacancy (just stay at home).
I know it's my fault and I know why it's because I didn't had MY things. I wish I had a computer just for me.
Anyway, in few years, I'll be 30 with no-skill wizard because it will be too late.
I wanted to know how to draw (but when I tried my drawings were so unmatch I gave up)
I wanted to create a video game (I tried some with rpg maker but I didn't made shit, just few maps and some events)
I wanted to do a lot of sport
(I wish I wasn't shy, which killed the social part of my life; so no sport because fear of others)
music playing (piano guitar drums, all I wanted to do was those but no money, family too poor)
science
(I really like science but am a brainlet)
technology and computers and coding
(I tried python, all I did was the hello world)
in fact I'm waiting a miracle to happen to me so I can do things and not procrastinating but I know it will not come: I don't leave my house, so no miracle for me.
Nowdays all I do is posting in wizchan and watch youtube vPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.296457

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I'm tired I always get mocked or put down by others. sucks to be treated as a punching-ball

 No.296465

>>296360
>Finally I will say that if you are:
Not him. But let's try to instead consider a realistic American.
>-physically healthy/normal
You should instead assume he is prediabetic, has at least one autoimmune disorder that will either cause cancer or cause organ damage before he turns 50, and has significant tendon atrophy that will prevent vigorous full body exercise within 4 to 8 years. That's only if we treat him as a normal American, and without reference to lifestyle disorders that are likely to be more common in longterm social abjects or NEETs.
>-don't have any chronic pain problems
It would be more fair to assume he has mild chronic pain in one of the following locations:
-Feet
-Elbows
-Knees
However, I have found that there is a significant number of posters on this site who have chronic pain in the following other locations:
-Neck
-Shoulder
-God save you if this is your case, but jaw and tooth.
>-domiciled in a safe house
This is in practice never the case and I have no idea why you would make that as an assumption. Do you mean "a housing standards act compliant apartment with no visible black mold" instead?
>-fed and clothed
Food prices and food stamp program restrictions usually mean major compromises on the more important of these two. Even the most well known nutritional disorder on Earth, scurvy, is currently making a major comeback. It was already on the rise from 2016 through 2020, mostly in individuals with Autism Spectrum disorders:
https://www.news-medical.net/news/20240719/Scurvy-on-the-rise-in-the-United-States-Pediatric-cases-triple-in-five-years.aspx
–but, man, in 2020-22 grocery stores were selling oranges with mold on their skin and lifestyle/spending adjustments met with prices to make increases in scurvy cases a fact-of-life for commoners.

 No.296503

>>296361
mostly death just like everyone else anon, you're running out of time, just make sure you love and take care of yourself

 No.296504

>>296503
But loving myself is gay, since that means loving a man as a man.

 No.296693

>>296465
Basically all of this describes me, including the tooth pain. (not OP)



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 No.282979[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

How are we supposed to get used to loneliness and the fact that our life is fucked up?
Here's my resume: never had any friends, bullied during school, uni dropout but basically never went to high school, very poor (no income), obviously never had any gf, the last time I talked someone my age was since high school basically. I can't get used to the loneliness… I also have a very poor health, and no one to help me with it.

What's your life status and how do you cope with it?

I personally try to cope with video games, anime and a bit of drug (alcohol and opioid mostly). But that hardly works… Sometimes I'm into my game or I'm high enough to be ok, but most of the time I'm depressed or suffering or both. I wish I were dead since I'm 12, I'm 25 now.
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 No.296368

>>292130
>didnt do any sort of reflection on my day, and when I went home I switched to online friend mode so I didn't reflect on anything in my real life
it do be like that
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8ivqZ-iTpo

 No.296376

>>294458
I can't program, but "codeslaves" who produce actual legible high quality code are smarter than 99,9% of people alive.

 No.296377

>>294384
That show is really good. Mostly because of the alien. It's the only cartoon I can tolerate.

I don't like Farlanes other shows like Family Guy or Cleveland. They're too tryhard and unfunny (except for Stewie the baby).

 No.296441

You don't get used to it. The profound pain of being alone and unloved for 40 years is incomprehensible for those who haven't experienced it themselves. To have autism juice injected into your thighs as an infant to your father shaking you over your crib giving you literal brain damage on top of the aforementioned tism vaxx; my life was over for before it began. I have never experienced positive female company; they invariably hit me with "that glare" they give to men whom they declare inferior life forms, and given that glare hundreds of times whether they're fat niggers to models. All because they can smell my autism which gives them the ick. I used to hide away from the school bullies and my father's frequent beatings with video games and anime, but that shit's all pozzed and ruined by normalfaggots and trannies. I live off a monthly pittance of disabilitybux which I spend on either junk food or paying some e-whores to give me a facsimile of affection, the closest I'll ever get in my worthless life to the real deal. I wish I had never been born.

 No.296467

>>282983
posts like these have to originate from artsy guys projecting their hippielike hatred of work. So many assumptions being projected


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 No.296400[Reply]

Studying is the bane of my existence. Honestly, it feels like some cosmic joke designed to torture me. If hell exists, it’s just endless exams and textbooks. And then there’s me, stuck in a third-world circus, India. Yeah, the same one where people will skin you alive if you don’t follow their playbook of “success.” I flunked college once—no, wait, make that twice—and let me tell you, the outrage was unreal. It’s like I committed a war crime. My parents? Oh, they hate me now, I can feel it in the awkward silences and side-eyes. And it’s not just the failing part; they’re terrified I’ll be mooching off them forever. Hell, I’m terrified of it.

And then, there’s this bloody exam looming over me. I’ve tried. I really have. But the more I study, the more it evaporates from my brain like it’s allergic to knowledge. It’s absurd. Who invented this nightmare? They deserve jail time. Every time someone so much as mentions studying, I break out in a cold sweat. I’ve literally fainted over it. Fainted! But does anyone care? No. Society looks at me like I’ve personally slaughtered their pets just because I failed at college. Twice. Wait till they hear that little update. I’ll probably be excommunicated.

At this point, I’m done. D-O-N-E. I don’t want to study anymore. I’d rather stare into the void. And oh, don’t even get me started on the “what could have been.” If I were a white guy in a first-world country, I’d be coasting on social safety nets and “find yourself” gap years. Or better yet, if I were a succubus here, at least I’d have the sweet, sweet option of getting married off and chilling with household chores. Instead, I’m this miserable, broke, perpetually judged disaster of a person.

Anyway, cheers to another sleepless night before failing yet another exam. Life’s a circus, and I’m the clown. Take a bow, idiot.
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 No.296413

my race is the best because we have it the worst

 No.296418

>>296405
Indians generally do better than whites when they immigrate, but get more hatred.

 No.296423

>>296418
Because of their looks. One might thing because of lookism Indians would be more accepted in these places being the bottom of the barrel.

 No.296479

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>>296423
It's brutal.

 No.296537

>>296400
Must commit suicide Indians are legitimately disgusting.



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 No.295602[Reply]

How badly will escitalopram fuck my libido? Is it permanent? They're also 9 months expired is it still safe to take? Will it lower my heart rate?
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 No.295655

SSRIs are placebo.
They do have real side effects, though, so, be careful.

 No.295892

>>295655
Yeah you're right the trade off seems worse I'm already depressed having my dick not work and being numb seems like shit

 No.296089

Escytalopram is every baby's first depression med
They give it to everyone specifically because its quite soft and easy to drop
But yes, libido will drop, for me it went from masturbating every day to once every 3 days and with a less stiff erection

But drugs are for desperate people. you should take them when your problems are of such magnitude, it doesn't matter if you'll be able to masturbate.
I think that's the issue with psychiatry. Imagine they gave chemotherapy to randos. Of course people would get burned and complain. Only do it when your life is at risk/in freefall

 No.296384

>>296089
That makes sense I'm just mad at myself that I need these things why me

 No.296412

If you've been prescribed it by a doctor you can tell them if it's causing you libido / erection problems. Sometimes they add a supplementary medication, usually Wellbutrin (bupropion), but other times they will just take you off it and put you on another med that doesn't affect the penis (again maybe Wellbutrin on its own or perhaps Mirtazipine).

Anecdotally, I am on Wellbutrin at the moment because I tried SSRIs/SNRIs and found them to be crap. Wellbutrin is weird; it makes you feel kind of angry and horny. I've been on it perhaps a month now and that's as accurate a description I can give you as to what it does: makes you angry and horny. I'm gonna keep taking it for now as I don't mind these effects.



 No.296346[Reply]

I dislike the feeling of lust. I find it responsible for alot of the negative patterns in my life that are preventing me from acquiring a peaceful existance. I have already accepted that I will not have a future that involves another human being but that doesn't give me the resolve to stop watching porn / lust over someone in my mind. Have any wizards here managed to overcome lust and if so, How did you do it?
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 No.296356

It's just an habit. I speak as someone who went on and off these feelings and urges. When I converted to catholicism I spent years without beating off my meat. If you just stop with porn and use your imagination instead, your body will demand less and your mind won't think of it too often. Try it instead of cold turkeing. Good luck.

 No.296378

>>296352
Food addiction is practically impossible to overcome if you're low dopamine and severely depressed.

Like, getting illegal drugs can cost a lot and be risky or require contacts.

A large bag of sour cream & onion chips can be obtained legally in 10 seconds and costs like $2.
It floods your endorphin receptors for at least 30-60 mins and then many hours afterwards.

It isn't hard to see why most depresseds and poors become overweight. Food is an extremely accessible cheap mood stabilizer which acts instantly.

 No.296379

>>296378
>A large bag of sour cream & onion chips can be obtained legally in 10 seconds and costs like $2.
Thats disgusting to me

im depressed and dont have the energy to eat so i struggle to not be underweight. Food is expensive and eating takes energy and i dont enjoy it.

For many i know what you say is true though. It can go both ways

 No.296382

>>296353
Thank you for this. I am fairly religious and I also thought about quitting porn but not masturbation full cold turkey. I will follow your advice and see if that returns me to normal. How long did it take you to see results?

 No.296399

>>296382
Brother I think you might have responded to the wrong comment, I am still struggling but vitamin B12 helped initially but now it is back to limp dick again.



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 No.295099[Reply]

Bascially, my country and it's culture has shifted rapidly, as soon as most of the people have come in contact with the West through internet, liberalisation, and globalisation. And I believe that is one of the reason which has prompted me to become a wizard.

Prior to globalisation, the succubi of my mother's generation were quite different, they themselves considered it shameful to wear revealing dresses, they always used to dress modestly, while most marriages were arranged they weren't forced, so while succubi were free to select their mate, and reject, they could do it only once and that guaranteed a equal distribution of succubi among men, and everyone was much more happier in that system as everyone got a mate.

And most succubi and men were virgin prior to marriage, it was considered shameful for both men and succubi to be non-virgin. As a matter of fact my native language doesn't even have a word for virgin, and there was no virgin shaming. But nowadays, kids use the word "virgin" as an insult. Most succubi lose their virginity quite early, and finding a virgin succubi is rare.

2-3 decades ago, succubi didn't consider it shameful or bad to be housewives, on the contrary they were proud to be one, or they studied and took a break for 5 years and then resumed their jobs, to go through marriage, pregnancy, and infancy of their child, and when they started working, the guy took the equal burden of the household chores and jobs.

But now, it's all changed, it's considered cool to smoke, drink, do drugs, wear skimply clothes, lose virginity early on, and then find a betabuxxer. Or in some cases succubi get paid so much that they don't even need a betabuxxer any more, while men struggle to get jobs, and ugly in men in particular end up at a much greater disadvantage.

And they act exactly like Western succubi, and I assume Western succubi are insufferable but due to the lost control of Western Men, a lot of Western Men now look towards East to get a semi-decent succubi. Leaving the same Eastern Men, to subscribe to redpill grifters like Andrew Tate, or bluepill themselves to oblivion.

And mind you only the degeneracy of the West has been copied and imported from the West, and meanwhile Western Culture's good and non-degenerate parts are completely ignored. In my country we now have things like undie runs (can anyone from the West explain this? what causes so utter lack of shame in people and succubi that Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.296374

>>296373
And I also deeply hate the fact, how a lot of western men turn towards east for getting partners who are more "traditional" in their values, like bro, why don't you make your own succubi traditional instead of spreading this degeneracy through the east, and in the same breath demonising the east for prioritising family values. And demonising your average Eastern Man as misogynist and this and that, even though he puts himself last and his family first.

 No.296375

>>296373
Hundreds of millions of westerners are just as disgusted by those degenerates as you are, but because the current narrative in the media is controlled by those ultraliberal degens, you get called an íncel, womanhater, monster etc. if you think people like the Hawk Tuah succubus are just low value trash.

I'm not even a conservative and I detest so much of what western "culture" has become after the 2000s. And judging by the massive anti-woke backlash in all western elections, I'm not the only one.

 No.296380

>>296373
Your third world brain that has been exposed to pollution your whole life cant comprehend that culture is arbitrary? Nakedness, clothing, self-respect and our response to it is all conditioning.

 No.296381

>>296380
Fake and gay. A lot of it must be inherent/biological, otherwise why have most cultures historically had concepts like that? Just a coinkydink?

 No.296386

>>296380
Correct me but in not too distant past there was a culture of modesty in the West, how did it all got lost so quickly?



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 No.293220[Reply]

>why cant picrel be real?
I really fucking hate learning how computers work. I fucking hate it.
Ever since I started this fucking degree 3 years ago its been nothing but a perpetual torture. I think I say enough when I say shit like Calculus or Lineal Algebra was 100 times more enjoyable for me than anything related to computer science. I gotta be honest though: I m a lazy piece of shit, but I m the kind of lazy piece of shit who studies solely so I dont have to be at the end of the fucking semester doing a fucking "final exam", in order to prove that I m able to pass the course, because that means I gotta learn all the semester's subjects just so I can pass that stupid fucking piece of shit of an exam.

I hate studying. I hate learning. I hate the smugness, shit teaching and the attitude most teachers have and I hate the happiness and eagerness of the people surrounding me. I hate the idea of working and having to wake up every morning so I can keep my sorry ass alive.
I m aware that being a NEET is a dead-end road, specially when you are not on welfare, but I cant stop feeling like a sack of shit every god damn day of my life because of this. I know what has to be done and what I have to do if I dont do it.

I have nothing to look forward to in my life. The sole reason I havent killed myself is because I know my parents would probably die because of that (already have 1 deceased sibling, and the other one aint doing to well in life), and also because I cant bring myself to do it. It terrifies me. I have no access to guns, so the only way would be to jump off a building, but regardless of it, the idea of death, or the idea of "pain of death", is the thing that bugs me the most. I dont want to suffer the ultimate pain that may last minutes! Even if they are just a few seconds, I bet the pain will feel like an eternity, not to mention the fear I will experience during the fall.

Yet I m sick of this shit. I m stuck here. Why the fuck am I subject to all of this? Why the fuck was I brought to this world? Why cant I have the drive or ambition that those maggots sons of bitches of my peers have? Why must I be such an unhappy piece of shit?

Of course, I know many of the answers to those questions, but still. It doesnt deprive me from wanting to create a hole through my wall from the mere anger of having to deal with this bullshit. Why cant I just be left alone in my room? What place iPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.296274

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What are your thoughts on using drugs to make boring learning tasks fun and rewarding?

Amphetamines (adderall, meth etc) or methylphenidate (Ritalin) cause the levels of dopamine in your brain to rise while you're on them. Dopamine is associated with reward and anticipatory excitement. In taking them, you can force your brain to make boring tasks feel easy, fun and exciting. Studying, cleaning, doing chores etc all become easy and rewarding.

Millions of students, successful professionals and rich people are reaping the benefits of these drugs every day under the guise of an ADHD diagnosis (a made up 'disease' used to justify stimulant prescription). If other students are using them, why shouldn't you? Why should you be forced to grind with a brain that won't release a crumb of dopamine because you've had burnt out receptors due to imageboard addiction from the age of 12?

I dropped out of university twice and haven't been back since but if I ever do go back then I can tell you for sure I will be abusing stimulants to study. Life isn't fair, the world isn't just. Other people will gladly use these drugs to get ahead and they won't feel a shred of guilt for having reaped the advantages they confered them over you.

The disclaimer is that self-medication on these drugs is a slippery slope (heck, even being prescribed them by a doctor is slippery) because they do feel very good and you have to resist the urge to use them for anything other than productivity i.e taking higher doses and masturbating to porn for 12+ hours. There is also the risk of stimulant psychosis. But it's whether you're willing to take those risks for the chance of the rewards on the other side.

Personally I'd rather risk it for the chance of getting a degree, a well-paying career and all that than being stuck in the mire of procrastination, paralysis and inactivity. There are no prizes for making it through a degree unmedicated versus the kid whose rich parents paid to get him diagnosed with the made-up disease ADHD.

 No.296279

>>296274
Yeah ill risk tardis just to be "productive"

 No.296299

>>296274
What? Meds fry your brain much faster than imageboards. Even Big Pharma admits that they can cause brain damage.

 No.296332

>>296274
I don't know man, just wish me luck and hope that I will be seated in the back of the classroom so that I can cheat using the bits of papers that I am going to take with me. If I can't cheat I'll fail my exam there's no other way.

 No.296333

>>296274
The long term damage and dependency probably isn't worth it.



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