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[–]  No.298503[Reply]>>298518[Watch Thread]

Did any of you had a soul crushing job until he couldnt put up with it anymore and fell sick? Share some experiences!

[–]  No.298518

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>>298503 (OP)
I worked for 9 months in an automobile factory. I had to prepare car parts to take them to assembly to assemble them on the cars. Towards the end of the 9th month I had a schizophrenic attack and after that I didn't work for 5 years. I don't know if work triggered my schizophrenia but my work helped the illness take hold.


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[–]  No.296636[Reply]>>298507[Watch Thread]

Hello, wizards. Do you remember the moment when you was born? I dont remember too. Lets not speak about processes in babies brain, Im here to ask you a question. Have you ever think about how the first -homo was scared when he realized his existence?
Its fucking insane how trivally kid making has become. When I ask my mother, why she decided to make family and born me, she said some shit about glass of water, giving joy of life to someone; something about peak of love between man and succubus and so on. And now imagine to realize the moment of born. Realize, that you was brought from eternal dark… "here". I dont speak about antinatalism, though I like the idea. I speak about dread of giving and taking life. I already have tread here, called "Siberian apprentice shizo ideas". Its about self consciousness. And I would like to connect it to that post.

And now, lets forget about biology. Lets think about world where kids born already conscious. Their scream is not about pain. Its about realisation of their parents …punishment on them. Its about being doomed, being a cell on a mad and cruel Gods body, who rot in all dimensions, in past, in future.

Actually, I want to bring all my thoughts in order and write a small book or article cycle about shit in my head. If you find it interesting, let me know and I will translate it from Russian to let you read it.

[–]  No.296642

Yes, life is eternally running away from the meat grinder. You can't stop moving or it will get you. With a lot of effort you can gain some distance from the grinder, but it will get you eventually. Then your body will be decomposed, the matter that makes it up will be broken up, dissolved, and absorbed by other organisms. Your point of view will no longer receive inputs from senses, even the sense of time will be lost. Before you know it, a new body will be assembled for you, and your point of view will get caught up in it, and you'll be ready for the next ride :)

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>>296636 (OP)
My mother won't dare to shit me with "giving joy of life" to me because I made her quite unsatisfied about me. Both passively and personally. Besides, making humilliating assumptions about normies is the best way to get them by the balls or to know them… so I assumed she breeded out of pure whim like every other breeder around.

I like your thoughts.


[–]  No.289249[Reply]>>298506[Watch Thread]

This is probably not big news, but you have much worse chances of getting anything done in life if you are not social. From jobs, to housing, to money. If you are trying to do everything alone, you will not be as successful. Except you have a godlike family and upbringing. But I suppose nobody here had this.
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[–]  No.296750>>296755

yes, having a social network or at least a good family is the greatest advantage you can have to get ahead in life

[–]  No.296755>>296761

>>296750
I would literally be dead (probably at age 20-21) without parents, relatives etc. who always lifted me up with endless money injections.

In a state of nature there is no way in hell my autistic self would have survived to 36 years of age.

[–]  No.296761

>>296755
What is your field/major?
You seem lucky with job opportunities despite of everything you said

[–]  No.296768

>>295801
>there is foremost a genetic component to personality disorders
source? There would need to be a twin study or something difficult and unlikely like that. Almost all studies are incapable of teasing apart genetics from the influence of being raised by the family that has those genes, and many people mischaracterize data by not acknowledging this

[–]  No.298506

>>289249 (OP)
I call this to shit. "Contacts" cannot even drive theirselves away from taxes and wagslavery. This is all stupid bait for us to run after normies.


[–]  No.296789[Reply]>>298501[Watch Thread]

Being neurodivergent in this world is a fucking death sentence. This world does not and will never understand what it's like to think the way that we do and will keep themselves in constant willful ignorance from here to kingdom come. Forcing us to get worse into mental health issues until we go actually insane and do something drastic, but even then we'll still be demonized and everything because again…willful ignorance. I can't stand this planet.
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[–]  No.296850>>296851

>>296849
And these highly specified tasks requiring pattern recognition all will be made superfluous in the near past because of AI.

[–]  No.296851>>296918

>>296850
is anyone going to watch out for abuse of AI? watch for downplaying some things and emphasizing other things?
i guess we are going to just let the powers that be do their minor adjustments to society, like they always have been doing

[–]  No.296918>>298505

>>296851
Well what else are we gonna fucking do? There's not a lot of us here! Even if there were we're outnumbered heavily, so we'll just get bullied into the ground like we always do. We lose either way.

[–]  No.298501

>>296789 (OP)
Doing drastic things is not a drama, if you can do them withut getting caught.

[–]  No.298505

>>296918
Thoreau started something that has not been finished.


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[–]  No.295250[Reply]>>297311[Watch Thread]

So I turned 20 recently and for already 6 years I'm confident that you don't need a relationship or a gf to live a happy life. I won't deny that I wanted a gf at some point, but I was kid and stupid (like 11-13 y/o. Now I *want* to be alone until I die. And before saying anything consider the following: no relationship means no one will cheat on you, no one will break up with you, you don't have to spent shit ton of money on a succubus, you don't have to raise kids, which means even more money saved. And if you're feeling lonely, get yourself a pet.
It's a peaceful life waking up knowing that your happiness does not rely on someone (pets are exception)
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[–]  No.295254

It's just a natural urge, when you get to a certain age you realize it's just not for you.

[–]  No.297311

>>295250 (OP)
I'd rather my gf-less state be of my own volition rather than being made for me.

[–]  No.297328

>>297327
if you believe this then you never belonged in here to start with, @mods do the needful!

[–]  No.297356

im not sure I even do at this point. yet our biology still tortures us. maybe if there were some alternative that satisfied the need, but I don't know of any.

[–]  No.298498

>>295252
Epic ^^


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[–]  No.297041[Reply]>>298492[Watch Thread]

Is being a male with bpd a fate worse than death? Do any of you know for certain you have BPD?
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>>297156
the only good and based indian was osho. he wanted the whole villages in india to be sterilized.

[–]  No.297411>>298492

Why not take meds?

[–]  No.297639

i was diangosed with Bpd at age 20. im 24 now and it doesnt get any better

[–]  No.297640

yes. personally I cannot think of a worse fate than having a made up illness.

[–]  No.298492

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>>297041 (OP)
He sure didn't try this.
>attached

>>297411
This means less money wasted in the long term


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[–]  No.296490[Reply]>>298491[Watch Thread]

i have no reason to live anymore. ask me anything.

- no, i will not kill myself
- yes, i have tried hobbies
- no, i am not diagnosed with depression
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[–]  No.297776

>>297744
fucking hell I thought I was the only one. after a few days the habitual urges were already pretty much gone and I flatlined completely. I got back into pmo but mostly due to boredome more than actual horniness. planning on quitting for good though

[–]  No.297778>>297785

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>>297772
He isn't addicted though, he just happened to not jerk off for 30 days because he didn't feel like it. If you don't buy into the nofap cult brainrot beforehand you'll notice there's actually no benefits because it's all in your head. You'll also notice there's much crossover with deranged /pol/tards who think it's a Jewish plot to keep da whit man down. The creator of the easy peasy method is also a male feminist who thinks men watching porn are going around beating up succubi, as if violent media causes violence, so he's a retard, grifting off other gullible retards and making a brand for himself.

The only thing which makes me feel alive is doing something which contributes to my goals, like getting better at a hobby, whether I fap or not is irrelevant. If your goal is: people on the internet said I shouldn't touch me willy, and you *want* to attribute everything good in life to not shooting ropes, of course, you'll get the desired effect. That doesn't make it true, though. Self-reported testimonials are not hard data.

[–]  No.297785>>297791>>298491

>>297778
Look i understand where you coming from. I'm not antifap, mast can def be healthy. PORN is not, atleast for me. It actually caused me severe physical withdrawls like an opiod addict. My stomach is finally getting better after years looking at the cause. My aches are disappearing. It's like a fucking drug. I will never touch that poison again. I'm just saying if you are depressed, feeling like shit and you a porn user. Try going without. And no it doesn't mean fapping. PMO is the problem here. I was on the other side for years belittling antiporn wizzies. But they are right. The easy peasy method is great for deconstructing the need for porn, dont give a fuck about feminist it's bad for females blablabla. It says it's a DRUG and you an addict, everything the brain thinks of tricking you back into it. And yes even boredom is a need to get that insta dopa fix. Do what you want if you happy with it and you can live and have it under control. I never could and never will. I'm better without that's all that matters.

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>>297785
you have some sort of core problem with self-control. You should work on that directly instead of focusing on porn as one particular manifestation of your weakness

[–]  No.298491

>>296490 (OP)
a new day, a new chance to burn alive and get permanent brain damage from whatever and stay like an overfried potato in silent agony until death. Amongst many others possibilities ever ignored by breeders in their delusional tendencies.

>>297785
we need our mana. May you ppl not have to learn it the hard way


>yea, we are this way


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[–]  No.297783[Reply]>>297807>>298490[Watch Thread]

i'm 27, i live with my parents, i don't have a job and to be honest i don't give a fuck anymore. i would have wanted to move out 5 years ago, when i had a ton of ambitions, but my fuckin overprotective mother didn't give me a hint of freedom. now they hate me just for being. like everyone else. i used to be good at history and wanted to move in that direction, and now i'm NEET who spends all my free time on the internet and goes to the store once a week. i hate them for not letting me realize myself in a life that i don't see any point in right now.
thank u mom
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[–]  No.297807>>297808>>298490

>>297783 (OP)
I relate to the section about overly-protective parents lashing at you years later for HOW they raised you and blaming you as if it's your fault, impossible to reason with them.

[–]  No.297808>>297812

>>297807
i hate it when they accuse me of my lack of independence. like, mom, u didn't give me the opportunity to be independent.

[–]  No.297811

>its too dangerous to go ride your bike outside with the other kids, 10 year old anon

[–]  No.297812>>298490

>>297808
they tell you "be a man, do not blame other people for your problems"
but parenting is the foundtion of everything, it can make a sky-ground difference in the kind of person you end up becoming in the future.

[–]  No.298490

>>297783 (OP)
It be breeders who agreed to bring more flesh to this rigged game, feel no pity for them. Blame yourself not a bit, and take fortune as it comes.

Even if they let you, outcomes are still very probably to be utter shit. Times are getting worse, you see.

Gen Z and millenials are generally fucked.

>>297807
Because they are not be reasoned with, just say incoherent bullshit and be even weirder. They already know it's their fault. Boomer society of taxcuckery and wageslavery and mortgages and author's rights, it's all shitted.

Do not accept their denial about it.
>>297812
Insist on their fault. Be cheeky, do not beg for understanding, that's lethal to do against normies. We do not see how evil they are, but they are.


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[–]  No.297751[Reply]>>298489[Watch Thread]

Does anyone else live like they will have another chance at life despite not being religious? I am so displeased with my starting point in life and how much better others have it without needing to put in any effort that I mentally checked out and have been a low-effort hedonist focusing on being comfortable with the least effort in the moment. Like refusing to play an unbalanced game. But there is no alternative, no one is going to balance life. I'm still in disbelief that this will be the only way I get to experience life. Born in times of great technological progress and opportunity but unable to enjoy it.
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[–]  No.297818>>297820

>>297752
Nah, some are aware of it. The only reason I don't kill myself as an autist is because I realize how lucky I was to be born into a western country with generous Neetbucks for life (permanent disability).

In a third world country I wouldn't even be alive.

So even if there is rebirth in some form, I get to prolong a comfy existence for at least 80-100 years and postpone being born as a rat or slum indian who has to scavenge garbage for sustenance.

(And I don't loathe those people - I'm just scared of that fate, and grateful it wasn't bestowed upon me)

[–]  No.297820

>>297818
what country? how hard was it getting permabux for autism? im in the uk and i reckon i could swing it somehow

[–]  No.297825>>297826

>>297752
Retarded argument. Human existence is nothing but an attempt to rid ourselves of these naturally imposed horrors. Carnivores and herbivores balance each other out in the bigger picture. Rich/poor, west/rest are just a result of some form of 'winners' externalizing the cost of their winning to those with less power and then solidifying that difference in power. Such a thing could not happen in the natural world. The reason we suffer so much is because we know that things could be different if the human soul weren't such an ugly thing.

[–]  No.297826

>>297825
yeah we could easily have a utopia if it wasn't for greedy bitches who always want more, to be better than the rest, to be #1

[–]  No.298489

>>297751 (OP)
Another chance in this world, is to me just another chance for serious miseries. That's the core of this reality.

What do you crave for?


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[–]  No.296804[Reply]>>298488[Watch Thread]

I think it's genuinely just plain over if you don't have education, skills or job experience at the age of 25. It feels like I should just play videogames until anhedonia reaches critical condition and then to just off myself. I lost to job market. I lost to capitalism. My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker. Not to mention i'd be a useless worthless asset in any job anyway. Fuck
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[–]  No.297888>>297889>>297890>>297903

I'm 33 with no job experience or college degree. I am so cooked. How did I get here? I went on reddit to ask for advice but on the same board people with just a 1 year gap and STEM degrees were complaining about not finding a job despite 1000 applications so I didn't even dare to ask.

[–]  No.297889

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>>297888
>reddit

[–]  No.297890

>>297888
I fucking hate users from reddit

[–]  No.297903

>>297888
I mean they also seem to have it pretty bad…
I will graduate with my cs bachelor 1 year late and I feel like Im pretty unemployable due to my lack of personal projects. So I could relate to them.

[–]  No.298488

>>296804 (OP)
Again, I insist: learn your Human Design.

That war always lost. Don't let it deceive you from your real, best chances.

>>296822
>My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker.
And even though, he should rather set his own burger business to outcompete his wagecucker in the end. That'd be a great middle finger.

>>296828
Nah, that's just normie sabotage. GO for neetbux, tell you feel horrible sick and whatever. Show your poor resume.

UNEMPLOYMENT AND CELIBACY WILL RISE, you just wait. This site might as well become overcrowded.


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