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 No.305757[Reply]

My shitty genetics paired with me being constantly ridiculued due to subhumanity made me a retarded chud beyond repair. I'm a foid-repulsive khhv hikikomori failed lltn with no access to copes cuz everything has been just boring, liveless, draining and painful to me. I can't feel any sensation besides the mental life trajectory of a fucking raped dog. I don't remember the last time I wasn't severely defeated and depressed. If a Storm Trooper came to my house and sent me to a Concentration Camp, I'd thank him. I don't have the balls to end this misery.
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 No.305762

>>305757
What did your genetics do? Make you retarded, deformed, short?

 No.305768

>>305759
>>305762
I'm a mystery meat (literally hailing from godforsaken central asian turkic territory and half-white), so I look like a bastardized-randomized skyrim character, I couldn't form a sentence until I was 4, I was diagnosed with selective mutism (+ social anxiety disorder, but I probably have avpd and/or autism) and I'm generally speaking severely limited in my abilities. Emptiness is the only consistent feeling I ever experienced, I don't have hobbies, can't be motivated to even play just a simple game or watch a movie. I'm completely smooth-brained, probably on the edge of retardation if not actually retarded in the medical sense.

>>305761
My body starts scratching painfully if I engage in too much physical activity due some skin auto immune disease I have

 No.305769

>>305768
With this amount of self awareness, even if all you say is a totally accurate assessment, you are perhaps just slightly dumb at worst. Retardation would be what you see on tiktok. Cooking food in the plastic. Cooking tinned food in the tin on the stove. Not looking before crossing road. Trust me, there are really stupid people out there

 No.305770

I still have ptsd from high school, when a succubus laughs somewhere nearby I still subconsciously feel that it's directed at me, thankfully my life has changed a lot since those days

In other words maybe you'll become more wise and will grow out of it, the process of acquiring wisdom can be painful, even wotan had to hang upside down for 9 days and nights to acquire wisdom

 No.305771

>>305768
I've talked to so many people online and every second mixed person I've encountered has some sort of health problem. My mixed friend at school used to have his earwax leak out of his ear in a liquid and ruin headphones with it. And a lot of the mixed-race people I know IRL too have a lot of suicides or mental illness in their families.

With asian/white mixes there's a lot of skin disorders. Things like constant rashes or blocked pores.

I just don't think mixing is healthy like that. In the past sure, it was fine because natural selection would take care of the problems before an ethnogenesis took place. But these days nah, it's not like that.



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 No.305084[Reply]

>even the extrovert normalfags with an excellent social and sexual life are on multiple drugs and getting therapy
I'm absolutely done for, dude. Even my life improves, I'll still just be a monkey to the rest of them. Fuck.
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 No.305657

>>305084
My therapist claims most of the people she sees have nothing wrong with them and are just going through a breakup or something. She moves my appointments forward into their slots if she can.

The entire mental health and therapy and anti depressants thing is basically a meme. Normalfags eat tons of crap, work meaningless jobs and dont exercise and scroll reels all day and then they think they have le depression because they feel dissatisfied with it all. Dont take it too seriously.

 No.305658

>>305657
I genuinely think they are mentally deteriorating though. I notice it most especially with boomers since smart phones proliferated. They've really become like imageboard users in that they're dogmatic, argumentative and terminally online.

Like Grandma used to watch TV a lot when her health deteriorated. But even then it was just horse racing and dumb British soap operas. Now my mum is approaching the same age and she's got CNN blasting 24/7, ranting about trump, and thinks celebrities are talking to her on facebook.

>>305650
The retirement homes here suck up the pension + supported living payment and leave the people in them with $30 per week to themselves. I know this because my friend's mom with dementia recently got placed in one and my friend helped organize it. Supported living payment is like a form of welfare that's given to the poors because the pension and disability allowance can't cut it for most people. Supported living payment + pension is like 80% of what minimum wage is after tax at 40 hours a week.

If the system is strained with this amount of money being thrown at the problem, then when austerity comes they genuinely will have no choice but to euthanize them.

People also severely underestimate how bad the population problem here is now. Why do you think you see Indians everywhere? Because they need young bodies to keep the lights on.

 No.305659

>>305658
Those retirement homes are some of the biggest scams out there. My grandmother was extremely rich, but sadly also stupid and mentally ill. She probably lost a couple million USD during her 3 year stay in one. The inheritance was basically 10k for each sibling when she died. Happened when I was 8 or so, found out just recently. It's quite infuriating that we could have had a decent safer life with that money put into good investments.

 No.305742

>>305443
>So many normie families I know have all their daughters NEETing at home
Why is that the case? Females are the ones who suffer the least in failed societies. Why are the sons working, for what?

 No.305743

>>305742
>Why are the sons working, for what?
Maybe their moms said they wouldn't get any more tendies until they got a job! Hahahaha!



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 No.305607[Reply]

Do you have this? Any tips?
I dont know if i have this but it fucked a lot of social interactions.
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 No.305727

>>305688
During elementary school I vomited about 6 times in class over the years. Shat my pants twice, and pissed myself atleast 4 times I can remember. Mostly in front of the class, and I still wasn't the most messed up kid there

 No.305728

>>305727
holy fuck was that some kind of high profile special school for wizards?

 No.305729

>>305688
Same. Shit my pants ONCE in elementary and it followed me until I graduated high school.

 No.305735

I can barely believe people have started stigmatising, pathologising and labeling being a quiet person. Quiet people do nothing wrong and this shows what ultimate cancer this society is converging to. I can already see how in some shitholes like the UK you could in the future get police check-ups at home for "being too quiet"

 No.305736

>>305735
woah where. anyway quiet people have always been dislike afaik. "who knows what shit they're thinking"



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 No.303134[Reply]

Its been a while
Things are worse now then last year
Life continues to be a challenge
Chronic pain and issues continue to plague me more
I am starting to dread physical social interaction
It is getting hard to keep up energy to do anything
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 No.304098

both my wrists hurt now
it is Hell
I can't do anything at all like I used to
there are still fifty years left of this shit
help me

 No.304099

>>304098
Happened to me years ago.
>apply ice until pain and inflammation reduce
>start exercising your wrists, lifting weights in every direction, start with half a kg, increase by little until 2kg
>stretch your wrists daily in every direction
>do something for the rest of your life to keep your wrists strong (or at least not too weak)
It was six months of physical therapy for me until it got "normal".

 No.304104

>>304099
Wrists?

Muscles or joints?

if muscles - >>304099

 No.305493

>>304098
total elimination of all nightshades will help you.

 No.305708

I’m turning 25 next month. No wife, no house, no skills, no college. Honestly, everything feels so dull that even the idea of killing myself seems pointless. I guess I can’t even say I’m sad. I’m nothing. It feels like I’m an observer in my own life.



 No.304425[Reply]

is there any job a retard like me can do? my life situation is fucked beyond any comprehension. generally speaking, i dropped out of society at 18 and now im 29, my education level is the lowest possible(i doubt 1% of ppl even have this low in my country) and even cleaner jobs require higher education than mine. But I desperately need money as everything is falling apart in my life because I have no money to fix it. The only thing I ever succeeded at was investing(not a joke) but I have no capital and I have infinite expenses and debts. I'm not from the US, just middle of the shithole of 3rd world country Poland. Locally, most jobs here are either 'customer advisor' or whatever u call them, where u work at some store and are supposed to be a salesman there. Or some backbreaking physical labor that there's no way I can do. Idk, i'm just barking at the moon here. I'm simply completely stuck in an insane situation, and I can't do anything, because I have no money and no way to make any. I'm really losing my mind over this. Soon I'll die because I can't afford healthcare while I have 99 diseases and social help doesn't exist here, or they will lock me up in a psych ward forever because I can't stand the pressure. Sorry if this post makes no sense but really, i'm just rambling everywhere I can because I just can't stand it anymore. My whole family is dying from their own diseases and their own decisions. I don't want to pointlessly talk about my life situation but it's more insane than anyone can imagine.
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 No.304725

>>304722
Become a construction worker chad.

 No.305436

>>304725
this


you basically need to learn how stuff's done on-site, not how stuff's lined out by some soy-decaf-slurper let alone a special kind of person you "wouldn't seem to understand"

 No.305440

>>304722
Sociophobia? Knowledge?

If you're a responsible adult, you can be trusted with laying bricks and mixing the cement mix. Such a job is requiring you to not be a funny small-time-criminal that would steal random shit to sell for pennies and… that's where many foxes, weasels and rascals flub it up XD

 No.305442

>investing
You meaning demo trading where the brokers let you win?

Tried food delivery? No one cares who you are as long as you can bring the food from point a to point b.

 No.305686

>>305678
The worst part about a McJob is the taxes, you literally enrich people who work against you by having a job



 No.305664[Reply]

Hey, guys.

This morning, while I was making my bed (something I started doing to avoid having an anxiety attack as soon as I wake up, which happens pretty often in my routine), I started thinking about what’s been stressing me out. And I realized again that when I’m feeling more depressed, I can’t even handle simple requests for help from my own family.

Normally, I’m fine with it and don’t feel annoyed at all — but when the depression gets really bad, it’s the complete opposite.

I feel kinda bad for not being able to control this. I end up taking my bad feelings out on people who have nothing to do with it, you know.

 No.305666

idk sry op it's a bit different for me.

basically when i'm depressed i'm very very irritable but otherwise lethargy dominates so i don't feel anxiety or shit.

i'm feeling pretty grounded near the baseline.

anxiety makes what feels like physical holes in my brain when i get above the baseline. idk if it's hypomania cuz i haven't been evaluated but that's how i label it cuz it feels kinda similar to the description of hypomania

oh now that i reread your post it seems your main question is about stress. well gee i don't know? i don't think it's manageable to be honest, cuz depression = brain doesn't work right and in that state you can't do meditation/self-check.

i think if you're really interesting in fixing this shit you should start getting your life back on track somehow. meditate on your complexes, figure out what makes you hates yourself and unless it's succubi just go for it idk. but if it's succubi i'm afraid some rope with some vodka is your way to go.

 No.305670

Are you sure your anxiousness isn't just a result of going stir crazy? How often do you do activities outside of the house?



 No.297753[Reply]

How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?
I basically don't feel pleasure from anything except food, maybe. Stories, games, art don't really touch me at all and it sucks because I remember how much I loved escapism before and how it brought excitement, joy, sadness etc. Now it's all blank. I want to bring emotions back, want to bring excitement, joy, even sweet sadness would do honestly, I miss being profoundly sad.

Have any of you managed to revert to your older non-anhedonic self?
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 No.302030

>>302012
>>302012
>dopamine is made of
tyrosine


also, I asked PerPLX AI to rework my text in "Crowdon Londoner" style:
Bruv, you know there’s bare tyrosine in bananas and buckwheat, innit? And listen — buckwheat porridge, slap a bit o’ gravy on, that hits different. Proper jokes though, ‘cause it’s like the stuff don’t even wanna be porridge in the first place!

 No.303369

>>297753
I tried drinking fuckton of coffee ever since. Did NOT work properly. Allows me to function in some half-hearted/half-assed way (aka posting stuff on Wizardchan instead of doing my work… bak to werk methinks…)

 No.304656

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>>303369
found psychoactive substance abuser

 No.305610

>>302015
mind = blown

>>304656
narc

 No.305617

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>>297753
>How do you guys fight anhedonia?
Have you tried nicotine?



 No.305055[Reply]

Banned from everything. Rejected by everybody. And then they'll say I'm to blame that I'm schizophrenic. Shine light into darkness.(you're allowed to stay, but don't post frogs)
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 No.305081

>>305079
Perhaps that is what I have been waiting for. Drop it.

 No.305082

>>305079
Here's mine: simonc159789@proton.me. Write me, if you want to.

 No.305085

>>305081
https://bpa.st/DF4Q expires in a week.

 No.305092

Also you use big tech mail providers so please let me know if my cock emails weren't delivered.

 No.305613

>>305076
>People, who are not doctors, accuse me of being a schizophrenic.
I think they call you "schizo" simply because its getting trendy to say "[stuff], schizo", as opposed to decade-old idea to complain over "autists" or [crabs] let alone trolls.



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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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 No.304321

>>302193
7. Actually living in a remote location/off the grid/in a place where less that a half of your building has electricity outlets

 No.304339

>>302003
As a child, yes. A cat and an oddly affectionate one at that. He's dead now so there's no point in grieving. Grief should be reserved before the act of death and released afterwards. When death happens suddenly it shocks us to our core, that's why sudden deaths are traumatic.

 No.305091

>>304321
yes, as in "40 acres of land somewhere in Nebraska"

 No.305585

>>303221
>>303222
I think you should remeber my advice several years later and resort to rescuing a stray off da street next time to try and avoid the stench of grief. Or, you know, visit a shelter to get a damaged one as yer pet. This way, you will feel less grief because you're not "replacing" yer pet - you're offering care to an animal in need.


In layman terms. You'll realize "it's different this time" so you're not cheating on your sweet memories.[/s]

 No.305604

Sorry for your loss. My dog died a few years back and it kills me. It's difficult.



 No.305116[Reply]

I live in a hot region of the world. I was born in a place I didn't even ask to be born. Right now, I'm getting bothered by the heat, and I no longer want to touch the sunlight. It makes me itch and I can't stand it. I never wanted to live, but if I were forced to, let it at least be somewhere cold, a calm and serene place. I don't think this will get better. I'm not going to say that I feel this way irl or anywhere else on the internet. I'll just say it here.

I think that's all I have to say. If you're like me, I hope your pain will lessen too.
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 No.305580

>>305575
wizbro just eat supplements

 No.305586

>>305118
hello fren. fellow southern hemisphere heat allergic wiz here. do research on how to keep your house as cool as possible, avoid sunlight like a plague, and please dont forget to take your vitamin D.

at home, this is all infinitely easier with an AC, but i cant afford one. so here is my routine. i open all my windows at night when the sun goes down, and close them when the sun comes up at 6am. this flushes your place of warmth and slows down heat from seeping in during the day. then i cover all of my windows with tarp from the outside, so sunlight doesnt come in and the tarp doesnt radiate heat inside. i use only one layer of tarp, but my windows still get pretty warm, so ideally you probably need two or three. taking a shower in the late afternoon (when it's usually warmest) will make it slightly more bearable. cook your food in the morning or in the evening, and heat it up in a microwave or eat it cold at noon or the afternoon. if you have to leave, do so as early in the morning or as late into the evening as possible. avoid public transport, especially in the warmest days.

most important of all ALWAYS KEEP TABS ON THE WEATHER. even just mentally preparing yourself for a heatwave will make things easier. plan ahead to do chores outside in the least warm, cloudy days. don't be afraid to reschedule appointments if they land in a day of clear 30C+ weather. whenever it hits 30C or more i know it is one of those days i will just be trying to survive at home and doing nothing else. getting a couple of beers and showering frequently can make things nicer.

good luck on surviving the rest of the summer. our kind would fare a lot better in a place of eternal winter, but that's still a distant dream for both you and me i imagine.

 No.305587

>>305586
(sorry for the wrong reply, meant for OP.)

 No.305588

>>305586
this is pretty solid advice

 No.305589

>20+ water bottles at all time in the fridge
>just wear underwear most days at home
>wet rags around my neck
>spray water on myself in front of the fan, amazing coolness feeling
>cold showers
>plenty of fresh fruit like apple slices, stored in the fridge a few hours before consumption (pre slice them and cover with wrap)
>big sun hats

I have a major aversion to heat, these are some of the things I do to make it better. Sadly my weakness is trying to sleep at night, hard to stay very cool as most of my methods need to be reset every 5~30 minutes and when you're sleeping you need to be still. I live in one of those climates where the heat is almost Thailand tier, but we also get some rather cold winters, but those are far easier to deal with. It's just annoying to need to plan for both



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