/dep/ - Depression

I just want to be a neet again.
Forever.

>>302762
Come to think of it, Ray-something earbuds (Raycons) sponsorship was good - yes, overpriced earbuds, but they got better eventually.

Ok, bros, what's some wiz friendly jobs for a 3 years unemployed NEET? My NEETdom status will be revoked soon, any tips?

Look for jobs bump

>>303440
>what's some wiz friendly jobs for a 3 years unemployed NEET
"Wiz friendly"? Any job that doesn't require you to have sex, really. Violation of a man's virginity is the only thing hostile to what makes a wizard. Of course, you've probably convinced yourself that being "wiz" means "I piss my pants whenever I have to talk to anyone who isn't my local Shawarma seller", in which case you're out of luck. You don't have a choice. If you haven't yet learned a trade that you can do by yourself, your only option is to work whatever the job agencies give you. Probably assembly line work.

You should have been hitting the gym and learning basic utilitarian skills these past 3 years. That would have set you on the right course to self-sustain with occasional solo contracting jobs.

Those who are acquainted with The Source do not any longer feel a desire to harm themselves

>>302726
Life is harm

>>299535
me too but i dont have a gun

>>302729
Undoubtedly, but the Source is a balm

>>299536
Pure cope. There is nothing good in this hellhole. Consciousness itself is bound to suffer, it is a direct consequence of having autonomy. Every choice you make is an attempt to make your situation a little more bearable. Every "good" you experience is a temporary relief of the suffering that underpins all life.

If life were good in itself, you should be able to just lay down forever and be happy, even if it were plain neutral, you would have no need to take any action. Life is a fight against the inevitable, a fight that cannot be won. You are deluding yourself by telling yourself one should hope because the alternative is unbearable to you. This helps nobody. You are calling for the continued torture of others, just to make yourself feel better.

>>302696
sexo with schizoid-chan

>>302696
>Have Schizoid Personality Disorder.
It's not a personality disorder. It's a personality type and it's one of nature's vital archetypes. Schizotypality is nature's answer to the "Putting all of your eggs in one basket" problem. When the volcano erupts, it is the schizoid group who survives by being out on a boat fishing alone. Filthy socialites at the volcano party get toasted to crispy, retard normie stacies at the part fried burnt

to a damn crisp

>>302696
But what if I don't really have a Schizoid Personality Disorder? But instead, I'm actually just autistic and overly obsessed with Schizoid Personality Disorder?

>>302723
Problem is, that's also "schizo"

>>302676
was working at the factory. out of nowhere I started being paranoid and thinking my neighbours hacked all my family's devices and mine too and they could see everything we did on our phone, computers and they could see us through our tv. I didn't have visual illusion but audible illusion. I was tricked that my neighbors was mocking me and my family because of what we do on our devices (moundain shit). I went crazy and very depressed because of this and went to the psychic yard for this. I only recovered 2 or 3 years ago fully

Yeah you lost good years but an apprenticeship is like what?
2 to 5 years? You could also enroll in community college and get a degree in accounting or something.

To make up for those lost years, you could do volunteering like a few hours a month just to pad your resume. If you do a few hours a month while your getting your diploma, that will look good on your resume.

On top of that you can just say you had health issues. Almost everyone has a relative or knows of someone who had issues.

I'm in an almost similar situation as you are but I am 43 and it's too late for me.

I'm on disability. No friends. Lost contact with relatives except my mother. I've spent all my isolated, browsing the internet.

If you don't do something, there is a good chance you will end up like me. It's not fun being on disability in your 40s. People look down at you and you are unemployable except jobs like stacking grocery store shelves. I have so little social experience, I'd probably end up getting bullied.

Get out while you can.

>>302687
yes, I'll just say I had health issues if someone asks me why I wasn't working for 6 years straight.
>>302688
I was about to say that I hope it will be good for me but after reading your comment, well, I wish YOU all the hopes of the world to help you instead of me. I feel embarassed of my situation because you might suffer more than I

>>302693
You got it. Officially speaking, I've been in college for around 5 years without graduating and I'm trying to get an apprenticeship now at age 27. I will also just tell them that I had health issues. HR usually isn't allowed to ask any further than that.

Here's a relatively recent interesting study on this topic. But don't expect any miracles from it.
https://www.cosmic-pancakes.com/blog/pheno-control

smells like a scam to me

>>300733
damn anon I really hope everything gets well

>>300758
Wow! Great news.

OP here, wanted to give an update over 3 months on.

My mother is still in hospital in a special rehab ward, she's made a lot of improvement but the severity of the stroke means its likely she's gonna end up in a care home as she'll require 24/7 care. Physically, its almost like she's back to her old self. She's able to talk and make expressions completely fine, she can stand up out of bed and walk with a stroller, probably even by herself. A far cry from when just having her opening her eyes was an achievement. Cognitively though, it seems like almost the symptoms of dementia or Alzheimers. She can keep a conversation but sometimes, she ends up losing focus and putting her back onto the topic of the conversation can be difficult. She has memory troubles too, short term and long term. She won't be able to tell you what day or year it is and sometimes, its almost as though her memory is acting in recursion where she'll think its a time or year that's already gone by.

I had to tell her that one of her best friend's of 20-30 years, one that she visited in the hospital prior to their passing and went to the funeral of, had passed away 5 years prior. She looked shocked, then when I tried to insist on it, its like she sort of ignored it and went back to trying to do the wordsearch puzzles. I honestly thought I'd gotten used to things but this was a gut punch. I think sometimes she still thinks of me as a kid too. When I tell her I gotta leave the hospital after every visit, she asks if I want a lift home. I thought I was already familiar with loneliness or isolation, but its a different feeling altogether to have the house all to myself for potentially many years into the future.

The situation with my sister escalated to a police matter, (fortunately?) because of some other stupid shit she did, so my mother wasn't harmed or anything. I won't say much else aside from that.

At this point, my auntie and I have been appointed legal guardians of my mother, so I've got plenty of stuff to take care of now.

>>302648
I can't begin to imagine what I would do in a similar situation. The closest I can think of is when my stepfather passed away at home, and I had to help my mother with the funeral, but even then, she was the one helping out with everything. You're having to deal with everything on your own now, plus carry that extra weight, and I don't know how you handle it. I can't think of much to say to help anon.(*)
>Cognitively though, it seems like almost the symptoms of dementia or Alzheimers.
I'll say it bluntly because there's a chance the doctors are trying to do that "Give them hope" thing (if not, ignore me): there's a good chance she does. Strokes do that.
(*) Selfishly, I want to ask you what I should do to prepare for the day when something like this happens to my parents; but I don't think it's right for me to do that here at this time.

>>302649
I would say to ask them if they have any guardianship or power of attorney set up for their estate already. In my own mother's case, she hadn't done that, so it had to be taken before a civil tribunal to settle. This in my case is a headache, as I'm not currently on the lease of my mother's home at the moment and could be made homeless, where the only person who could sign my name on the lease is someone who isn't fit to sign any legal documents. So it was necessary for me toward that end.

If they do, then it saves you the headache of having to sort all that out. If you are given power of attorney, you'll likely have to take a list of all assets and debts of a person to coincide with your appointment. And depending on where you live, you'll have to re-report this every X amount of months. Aside from the usual thing of doing things in line with your parents wishes.

I would also open another bank account to scrounge any extra money, or just start saving a little extra than usual. Even if you live in a country where healthcare might be free, things like retirement homes do cost money for placement. Its just a good thing to have extra money, even if they've got life insurance set up.

You should prepare yourself mentally for the potential of people to try and take advantage of situations like that too. I have my sister, and she's an outlier as far as behaviour goes, but its more common than you think for distant family members to suddenly come back into people's lives when they're right at the end to try to gain something from it. It can be blatantly selfish but don't lose your cool. Try to pace yourself as well, in general. I don't think its possible to NOT burnout if you're visiting the hospital constantly. Any family who you can trust and rely on, those without the expectation of receiving something in return, have them in your corner all throughout.

Above all, have the courage to tell the people in your life who you love and cherish how much they mean to you BEFORE something like this happens. In retrospect, I was always put off of expressing myself; nervousness, anxiety, just an overbearing shyness I had. But being put in a position where you may not get to tell them is a genuine horror more than any speculative embarrassment. I had gripes with my mother too for years, but I've come to realize they were selfish and shoPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>302307
I've been saying that for years and people just get defensive over it.

Screw that statistic that claims only 1% of the population are psychopaths.
It's not a World Health Organization diagnosis, it's a patterns of behaviors, actions and speech.

Based on those, 90-95% of normie/neurotypical people are psychopaths.

>>297463
There is no compassion because there are very little people willing to acknowledge that it could have been them too if a few factors in their life went wrong. It's like that one meme sentence I see often: "You are closer to being homeless than being a billionaire" (or its variant "You are one missed paycheck away from being homeless"). It's true, and people readily accept this fact more when it's about money, but less when it's about one's life circumstances.

You don't necessarily have to be homeless to have a miserable life, even "little things" like isolation can worsen your quality of life to the point it drives you suicidal. That expands to a lot of things.

Life is the most frontloaded shit we ever experience. The first five to ten years of your life are the most important in terms of development (to be frank it fucking starts in the womb and before conception) and have the biggest impact in your future emotional and physical well-being. You can't choose your environment though. You can't pick your parents either, or the location you're born into (not necessarily talking about the country, but being born in a slum vs being born in a town with decent infrastructure or in the suburbs of a big city changes what you have access to). And you can't choose whether you're neurotypical or not.

Normies basically have benefitted from a confluence of positive factors from birth that set them up for a decent life in adulthood and that makes them unable to put themselves in a downtrodden person's shoes. That's all there is to it. And that's why if you ever make the mistake of venting about your life to one of them, you'll get the same copy and paste advice you've heard a thousand times before.

it's not really your or their fault though, because genetic determinism is a thing.

>>302307
If you don't believe this anon translate yourself this article
https://wiadomosci.onet.pl/olsztyn/brutalny-atak-na-bezdomnego-zatrzymano-dwoch-mlodych-mezczyzn/ernmj7q

>>302307
>Just a guy on the street doing nothing is enough to spur a normalfag into a frenzy one step from murder.

"He's just standing here… MENACINGLY!!!" (c) Patrick from SpBobSqPants

The world is in a very sorry state, many people would be grateful if you just left them alone/weren't a criminal. Don't get me wrong though, they'll still not like people like us but we aren't the elephant in the room for most normies right now.

>>301827
ok it isn't "ruined" permanently, makes me sad sometimes though

>>300063
Kek, same. I hate human beast.

>>298907
frens - check
buddies - check
PCfrens - check
handholding, dating - nopenopenope, 3rd gen fatherless people arent too good with creating lasting relationships


>What about online relationships


404 not found the right group.

maybe never will (see above)

>>302192
so why are you here?

There is no such thing as a "you". "You" are your memories. If you develop alzheimer, "you" would think you're a 10 years old boy going to school. It's all made up by instinct and culture.

>>302557
I have blonde hair and blue eyes and I am a socially awkward, unattractive NEET. Didn't do me any good. If you were me you'd probably be complaining about something else.

Stop worrying about what you 'could' be and just start being yourself. Confidence goes a long way.

>>302563
Also a latino fucked my sister. While I am a blonde blue-eyed virgin. Do with that info what you will.

>>302523
>A lot of wizards didn't have absolutely horrible lives, but what they had formed them into what they are.
Everyone has their own personal hell here and the random motivational black guy isn't applicable to most of us.


personally, I am currently outside of said "hell" alright?

>>302536
Glad to hear. Hope you never find yourself in another.

>>302524
Listen, it's awesome that you got out of that situation and are now living a life that you find worth living. Good for you, seriously. The reason people like Goggins grind my gears so much is that, as you've said yourself, most of us don't lead such bad lives to begin with. But all those gurus online will tell you to get on your grind and hustle and never stop and what not and for what? I have food and shelter and a job that I can tolerate for now, I am healthy and even have a couple of friends I can play video games with. The only things I am 'lacking' are superfluous things like social status or material riches, which are things you get through your circumstance for the most part.
I don't care about being exceptional, I just want to be comfortable and enjoy this ride as much as I can within my means while I still can, before life finds a way to fuck me up again. It's kind of like the Western vs Eastern mindset, the Western one being about pursuit and struggle and the Eastern more coming to acceptance of what is and contentment from within.

>>302538
Wish I could phrase things in such a concise manner.
Well said.

>>302538
thanx

>>302539
this

second this opinion on >>302538