/dep/ - Depression

>>269472
My parents died. It has been over 5 years since my mom passed away. I'm 27 now and what worked for me was doing an apprenticeship as a software dev and stacking cash. That's basically it. I didn't live a single day in the past 7 years.

Funeral is very expensive. There are companies that do everything for you.

Do not trust your siblings with inheritance. Get legal insurance before any dispute.

I will spare you the details of barely functioning. You know what it feels like to be hollow.

>>269637
>Do not trust your siblings with inheritance. Get legal insurance before any dispute.
True. Every time someone dies in my family the will turns out to be a shitshow with legal threats and people having lives ruined

Mom collapsed after a short illness, heart failure. I didn't see it happen and would have freaked out if it did. There was nothing that would have saved her. Doctors would have rushed her away because she was poor.

Tbh I didn't feel anything. It's wrong and she deserved better than this.

As far as settling final affairs, that depends on whether a will was written or not. You're going to have to deal with probate if you want your parents stuff unless they left it to you specifically, and a lot of parents do not leave wills because they're dying before they were meant to. The basic stuff is to file a claim on life insurance if they had any - this is how funerals are usually paid for, or a prepaid plan. It helps to ask your parents what the plan is. The thing with us is that our parents universally hate us and despise us so much that they refuse to tell us anything about how these things are actually done. My brother took care of most of the stuff. It gets more complicated if family will contest the will (and this is one reason we are left out, because often we're not really considered human and they don't want us butting into probate).

I have to warn you wizbro, trust no one. You might think there's a process to this, but everything turns into a struggle when money and property are on the line, and we're set up to lose that struggle every time. Even if you know what to do, being invalid creates a shame that others use to bully you out of doing things that should be simple. But in short, first thing you have to do is figure out the money and insurance claims, if there is a will, take care of bills if you plan to live in their house. Whatever your feelings or your psychological state, you have to take care of basic things first, and no one is going to think you're evil for doing that. It's expected.

I didn't care what others thought about my feelings, and I don't think they paid much attention to me. I did look up the bills for the house and realized I could continue living alone, and so I did that, and no one is arguing against my living in the house, nor could they. If you're a tenant you're going to have rights over other claimants to the house as far as living there, and even if you're invalid, you can defend yourself if it goes to probate. Usually families have the sense to not start shit about kicking you out, because a court will take your side if you were the tenant even if you're invalid. Some people will do shitty Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>269697

good post.

yea i would say for anyone out there, and i know no one wants to think about it, cause guys like us end up completely alone:

find out if there is a will, if not why; if its financial, just make a homemade one and witnessed by a pastor or accountant, friend of family, ie a non relative

money and living situation. can you and will you be able to afford to stay where you are; if no, a realistic plan for where to go and what to do. ie not bein talked into livin in a van in a walmart parin lot.

my parents told me that they set up a trust fund where I'll get paid a certain amount every month on top of my disability and that I should have enough to continue living alone, I don't really know much but I guess I trust them. My sister always helped me and walked me to classes at school and stuff so I assume she'll help me with this

>>268486
>How do you deal with weight loss?

The main issue is accepting yourself, there's nothing wrong with being fat. Being fat is bad when there's health issues though (high blood pressure, diabetes, etc). See, even if you don't want to exercise, just change your diet. Don't try retarded fad diets. I advice going vegetarian, pescetarian or eating meat only ONCE a day. Drink only water or low-calory beverages. Find healthy food that you actually enjoy.

Meat itself is NOT the problem, the problem is the sides that usually come with meat. Sides that come with seafood are usually healthy.

I'm pescetarian myself and because every single thing I eat is high protein and low calory (unless I'm eating pasta or grains) I LITERALLY eat 5-8 meals a day and I'm physically fit. I don't eat anything that I don't like, every single thing I eat is tasty as fuck to me. Here's my usual day:

>greek yogurt, raw oatmeals, honey and a fruit I like, all mixed in a bowl
>big portions of my favorite fruits
>cheese quesadillas with veggies for lunch, I eat my favorite cheeses
>my favorite nuts or crackers as snacks
>protein shake that I actually like
>pasta, shrooms and pasta sauce or pesto
>a protein and quinoa or the same pasta again
>my favorite sauted veggies with garlic pasta
>a bowl of my favorite legumes or beans
>more fruit

You can infinitely eat like this every single day and you'll lose weight even if you binge eat. Now imagine if you eat like this and exercise.

Getting sleep sorted out is very important. Getting into a ritual where you get atleast 8 hrs of sleep, wake up and have coffee, do a brief 10-15 minute workout, go on a 30 minute walk (or longer if possible) in the sun (which also helps with sleep).

Cutting out food that has bad effects as well for me it was dairy, eggs, alcohol and sugar.

Keeping a couple staples around that are healthy you can have easily has also been helpful my standards are:
big batch of chili, just meat/beans/vegetables.
roasted chicken thighs and broccoli
chicken terriyaki with lots of vegetables and rice.

another useful rule of thumb I like is trying to get a base level of vegetables everyday, can have things like saurkraut/pickled stuff in your fridge or canned vegetables soup as a minimum.

If you decent protein shakes you can use those for meal replacement as well, high protein helps with weight loss as well as is low calorie and filling so you are less inclined to eat other stuff.

The weight loss helped a bit but really the biggest effect for me is just the psychological impact of being healthier in general, when i'm keeping up with stuff I have way more focus/energy but when i'm eating badly and not walking I have basically none and end up wasting every day.

>>268502
>>268813
good advice wizzie, it really just comes down to calories in < calories out. As long as your daily calorie intake is lower then your daily calorie expenditure on a consistent basis, day-to-day, month by month, you will lose weight. You can even subsist wholly on junk food if you wish, eating nothing but burgers and pizza, as long as your daily calorie intake remains consistently lower then what you burn, you'll shed pounds. Yea, you'll probably feel like crap the entire time, however you will lose weight. For a lot of people I feel like its more of a question of willpower though, those who want to lose weight, will, and those who don't really want to, won't. It's as simple as that, at the end of the day it all depends on your willpower to make those meaningful changes in your life. Nobody will lose weight for you, you have to be the one to make the decisions that affect your body.

I found that vegetable fats are a more than worthy subsistitute for proteins when doing progress with HIIT.

Who cares about weight, looks? Keep yourself functional.

>>268486
drink yerba mate every day

>>266950
>I have a flood of succubi pretending to have BPD,

Because of the wo-men are wonderful effect, female sociopathy gets lumped under BPD. I think foid BPD is rarer than people think and a lot of the succubi torching their bfs clothes, scratching people's cars and otherwise acting hysterically are just doing it cynically as a power play.

>>267037
>acting hysterically
Fine choice of words.

>>267037
That succubi toxic behavior has nothing to do with BPD. BPD is the biological symptoms as I describe here >>266950

"BPD" succubi that are jerks and complain about their behavior and not their symptoms don't really have BPD at all.

There exists succubi with BPD, but they actually have the same symptoms as I do.

Succubi meme disease

So what then, anon? Have you planned already which poison you will let the industry scam you with?

https://www.verywellmind.com/gluten-and-schizophrenia-562957#:~:text=A%20comprehensive%20review%20of%20the,of%20schizophrenia%20and%20mood%20disorders.%22

>>266843
Minoxidil just promotes hair growth and better circulation of the scalp, but doesn't stop the root of the issue. Unfortunately it can have side effects too.
The best solution at the moment really is a transplant, but if it's something health related like alopecia, then a healthier lifestyle would help, yes.

>>266844
What about rolling? It did help me grow a beard, haven't used it for hair as I'm not balding but I know some people do use if for that and it works with the same principle as mino but withouth side effects

>>266846
Beard is different, so yes, it could work. A lot of people actually use mino for thicker beard since they hardly have any.

For balding, don't bother with oral finasteride. Just use topical finasteride on the scalp. It can be applied with minoxidil and is extremely unlikely to cause side effects, some doctors even claim it has no risk of endocrinal side effects although I'd be surprised if that's strictly true. But it does seem pretty clear those side effects are extremely rare if finasteride is only used topically and a lot of guys who had bad side effects on oral finasteride have switched to topical and reported side effects completely stopped. I went through a phase where my hair was falling out very fast, scared the shit out of me. Minoxidil restored a lot of it but later I noticed the beginning of hairline recession so I then went on topical finasteride. Results have been very good. Wanted to post because I used to think the situation was hopeless but this stuff actually solved the problem. Obviously it's not guaranteed to work but rates of success on minoxidil and finasteride are very high, provided you haven't already gone really bald.

>>266666
>>266642
>>266635
>>266633
>>266623

Samefagging again, this crab? Anyway, whoever wizard ever had an interest for what I said about fasting and leaving certain foods, let him delve on his own. These are some authors:

>Arnold Ehret (extreme method)
>Daniel Reid (moderate)
>Alexi Suvorin (quick)
>Frank Suarez (special for fat guys)
>Yoshinori Nagumo (about rapidly aging)
>Valter Longo
>Horace Fletcher (for those who cannot fast without risk)

Brainfog and restlessness come from a mixture of accumulated toxins and stress.

>>265499
Thanks. I envy this guys balls. I wish i had the balls to do this instead of having to remain in this weird wiz/normie purgatory. I remember a guy on /r9k/ talking about living a very similar life style but i unfortunately can;t find the posts in the archive.

OP here. Just came back from reddit and you wizzies might bt pleased to know places like:
r/antiwork
r/NEET
r/PCM
r/mbti

Those places seem safer.

>>268415
reddit is a pay-for-votes propaganda mill that shuts down successful splinter subreddits and astroturfs all of the regional or politics ones. There are neat subcommunities and occasionally subject matter experts but the price is supporting the worst kind of social media

>>268419
Well we could actually organize ourselves with our own subreddit just there.

>>268415
r/NEET is comfy, pretty much just like here.

You only think 30 feels old because there are a large chunk of users on the internet who are literal children.

You are only really as old as your body makes you feel. Some people treat their bodies like total dogshit and start feeling old in their late 20s. There are like 50-year-olds who can still move around like they are 30.

>>269456

wait til you realize you ll end up homeless, once its just you, in a decade or so

>something is awful
>am a NEET

"wow that must sux so many dingdongs bro!"

>>269456
Things are supposed to be delved and practiced during this decay:
>How AGEs get stuck at your brain
>trophology
>alcaline diet or ehretism
>effects of fasting
>why starch and milk should be abandoned, or reduced
>why sport is the best thing you can do for your brain
>why eating several times a day ages you faster and how intermittent fasting solves this

Otherwise nothing should be expected to prevent you going downhill as you fo right now.
If your body is so constantly tired, that's due to something inside that you should have expelled long ago, but your body did not so.
>Ehretist principle of "Vitality = Power - Obstruction"

Because you did nothing about your stagnant brains, which often are the ultimate cause of wizardly lack of energy to achieve even mediocre tasks.
Did you fast? Did you change your diet? Ever read about alcalinization of diet, about the importance of semen preservation, about how good veg fats are for your brain, about how much does it need sport and sunlight? Do you even know your dosha according to ayurveda system?

Did you delve about any of these things, omega fellow? Or did you rather listen to those crabs yelling all these things are pseudosciences? Follow them towards their own shithole, you'll tell me about the results!

>this existence is unpredictable and things very quickly fall apart

>>267384
Virtual reality. Why would anyone choose alzhimer's forever, a cynobite love-craftian dimension, or the face worm?

>>267362
Alcoholism is the answer, at least for short term.

>>267455
Yeah that one is obviously better than the others. Should’ve added a glitch in the system that sticks you in a wall or something.

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I have always longed for friendship.
I've been friendless for as long as I've been breathing.
My only outlook on how the other side might be was through anime. Little me watching one piece and how the nakama crew had each others back, went on adventures, fought, reconciliated and enjoyed a good meal.

I tried to make some nakamas in real life too. Whether was it in highschool, uni or workplace, failure was always eagerly awaiting for me at the end.

Nakamas don't exist OP. :(

>>269554
People are also quick to have a laugh on your expense and then they kiss your butt in the next second because you did something cool, its all just perception based on what they see. Most people are not full on bully types who are just sadistic and for people who got bullied a lot as teens this might be a weird concept to understand.

The truth is that you can even fart in public and it won't be embarrassing to anyone if you have enough confidence to own up to it, there's a lot of confident dudes who do stuff like that and it never even bothers anyone because they are just so confident about it.

u can be in either of 4 states with people in the gym or at work: antagonistic (opposing interests), socially functional (looking out for another), socially dysfunctional (awkward, weird for no reason) or asocial (no contact and not minding another)

i think wizards are robbed of social functioning and of being asocial due to mental illness, paranoia, and lack of social skills

what's left is socially dysfunctional and antagonistic

with antagonism you have three options: flee, pretend to be calm brave and confident, or fight
the worst thing you can do is to openly show that you are upset, without backing that shit up
if they see you being upset, but you dont put some damage to them, then they will know that you are harmless, and theyll mess with you without any fear for themselves

with dysfunctionality, any time you feel awkward or weird about being in peoples presence, u should think about whose fault that is
is it just you? or is it their fault?
either way, knowing whose fault it is will alleviate weirdness

if you notice that a lot of weirdness is on them, then you can start calling them out on it (calmly) once things turn sour. thats very potent


if you wanna mess around with social functioning, try getting to know people, and from then on greet them with a smile and with eye contact every time you see them, and look out for them

>>269557
>>269554
>because they are just so confident about it
>If you have charisma you can own shit like farting

Let me translate for wizzie OP what these normals said.
be confident = be tall and muscular

>>269564
You can still be "tall and muscular" and lack confidence or even look plain insecure, also that whole "tall" stuff is just nihilistic bullshit fueled by toxic succubi (who hardly have any tall or fit boyfriends to begin with) and insecure guys on the internet who act like their height is the main reason why their life sucks. Of course tall will always be attractive and muscular as well but in reality most people are not even working out regularly and most people are also not really tall. Please get off the internet and look at couples, most of the dudes are not even tall or buff because they are still confident in a way, most of us just have some kind of mental issue that prevents us from being confident and instead of working on that some of us just come up with nihilistic theories.

Its still important to work out because the human body needs it but doing anything in an effort to fix ones insecurity is something that won't work, I actually know a guy who got really buff because he tried to fix his insecurities and now he's still an idiot but also buff which only benefits him very short term until people realize what a faggot he is.

>>269565
> tall. Please get off the internet and look at couples, most of the dudes are not even tall or buff because they are still confident in a way, most of us just have some kind of mental issue that prevents us from being confident

You need to be extremely hard tortured to death for writing obvious lie like this. I would gladly enjoy torture you to death.

Why quit vidya. Games can teach us a lot of things as long as the game is older.

NEW GAMES SUCK ASS!!!

>>269500 you sound like a zoomer poser kid who isn't even 30s or was born before the 90s

>>269502

Ok when I say new games suck ass I don't mean every new game is bad but most are. Why do you feel that making fun of age is a good insult. In my opinion it sounds more childish than what I said. The gaming market is on decline AND YOU KNOW THAT!

>>269502

Also when I say old games I mean stuff pre 2010

>>269505
New games are just too hard. Deflect these 100 incoming strikes per second bro and then dodge and then jump and attack to get 1 hit in and if you don't you die instantly. It's like someone played Mario Bros and thought you beat the game by trial and error instead of figuring out how to get past the hard parts.

>>268481
Right? From philosophy to latinn supremacists to advocating murder should be more frequent and normal.

This thread has it all!

>>267625
What are you trying to prove?
You're not gonna magically fix your life by not fapping to hentai. You jack off to cartoons because your life is miserable and it might not even be your fault. Life has robbed you of the chance to live a normal life, so the next best thing is trying to cope with small pleasures. Nofap only benefits chads and normies who actually have sex with succubi, wizards only castrate themselves for no reason.

>>269396
I bet someone could fix their whole life by quiting, probably not most, though. Its a blessing to have some simple problems, I imagine many wizards have what seems more like a constellation of problems, no bottom or end in sight.

Why are you taking this shitposter's word salad seriously?

>>269365
There is nothing wrong with murder. It's already frequent and normal.

>>268567
>>268408
I'm not discreet, let the normals seethe. A life of hiding isn't worth living.