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 No.263400[Reply]

Anyone else like having imaginary conversations in your head?

I like just sitting here for 30 minutes straight talking to myself in my head.

   
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 No.263436

>>263421
A succubus. I've never really felt love and that sense of bonding in real life but when I started actively daydreaming and interacting with her on a daily basis I couldn't help but fall in love and get attached emotionally. It's sort of like having a best friend that's always there and you only need to close your eyes to find yourself in their warm embrace.

 No.264067

>>263401
How I can create a tulpa anon?. When I was a child I remember talk to the nothingness because the lack of friends of my age, I give him a nickname and occasionally talk to him but it was just that, speak at the wind. I was aware that nothing was there.

A few years passed and at the age of 9 I was neet, my parents couldn't pay my basic education and I never had friends outside school, tv cable was too expensive so television was a luxury to cope with the boredom I start to imagine scenes with characters of shows I know and sometimes I laugh loudly because a joke i made up was funny.

My dad and my brother were quite concerned.

But that's all I never was able to construct an imaginary existence like a Tulpa.

 No.264170

>>263400
what the hell is OPs picture

 No.264182

>>264170
The average face of a wizard after witnessing the hell that is real life.

 No.264287

>>263400
My mind has been so poisoned by podcasts that most of my conversations in my head are me getting interviewed for some theoretical podcast many years in the future, about what’s happening right now.
Eventually it short-circuits when the podcaster brings up that the conversation is only in my head and I’ll never be getting interviewed for anything.



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 No.264232[Reply]

Need to get my parents booked into therapy or something, these psychotic cunts get into full fucking screaming matches over the smallest most retarded fucking things that any sane human being could resolve by just talking and being patient with each other. It's gotten worse and worse since my older sister moved out, she's the only one they occasionally would listen to and respect as an adult. I'm 20 years old and pay a portion of their fucking bills out of my own pocket but they still consider me a child and never listen to anything I say, so I can't stop them from being at each other's throats all the fucking time.

Today they came to blows because my dad wanted to get something from across the room my mum was in while she was doing something else and she didn't want to pause what she was doing to let him fetch it. This is the kind of fucking inane bullshit that they scream and shout over every single fucking day, it's unbelievable these are both over 50 fucking year old "adults". I only barely stopped them from laying hands on each other over this utterly fucking meaningless squabble.

I hate living under the same roof as these animal people, these fucking creatures that day-in day-out behave in this manner towards someone they are supposed to love and then turn around and treat ME like I'm a fucking little six year old kid. I hate being dependent on them as I am for food and shelter, and therefore feeling like I can't fully reproach the vile manner with which they conduct themselves. I would move out in a heartbeat but I don't know how to cook, and the only jobs available to me are minimum wage monkey work which means splitting the bills and sharing a home with random normalniggers. I feel trapped, I don't know what to do or where to start to escape this situation, or if I even should because I'm positive these fucking scum will genuinely kill each other if left to their own devices. I hate this life and I hate these people.

 No.264237

I am in a similar situation, my mom keeps enrolling me in therapy as some sort of projection, I never have anything to say and when she goes in with me she talks nonstop, I am also treated like a little kid but I suffer from severe mental illness so idk how you are suppose to treat people like that, your parents are probably just tired of each other and the only reason they stay together is because of you

 No.264240

>>264232
Learn to cook or order out. If your current life is truly intolerable you will accept a non-ideal alternative.

 No.264262

>>264232
Go to heomeless shelter wiz. I done it to let go of crazy psycho mother nutcase.



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 No.260779[Reply]

What does /dep/ think of his suicide? He had everything going for him but he had mental issues. Yet you guys and me don't have the balls to kill ourselves.
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 No.263693

i forgot who said it but it goes something like this, people who are failures their whole lives are used to the failure and develop a hard shell. Normies who fail commit suicide on the spot

 No.263878

>>261092
>>261114
>A lot of my anxiety and depression stem from just the shitty state of the world and my place in it.
>If I had money my anxiety would clear up
You don't have depression. You're just a tired failed normalfag.
>learned helplessness
fuck off

 No.263889

>>263661
People have done things out of recklessness that this pales in comparison to.

 No.263913

>>260783
Shove it up mine instead daddy

 No.264215

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>>260779
Normies are "low thought" and "high action".
So basically little introspection or thought given before doing stuff.
No apprehension to taking action.
That's basically what defines normal people. Doing, doing, doing.
So when he got the urge and thoughts, he acted on them. Simple as.
While a wizard will sit and lay there wallowing in their thoughts inching towards madness, but never, or rarely acting.



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 No.261041[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Oh shit, edition

                                                 
                           
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 No.264313

>>264219
It isn't impossible. Not webdev, at least. Driver programming, maybe that's impossible.
I've been at webdev on and off for two years because I'm a depressed alcoholic. I remember when I first began, it took me literally 5 hours to clone google's homepage, just using CSS, absolutely no functionality. I sat on my ass for 5 hours and produced a non responsive version of google's homepage.
Now, I'm learning React, my JS is solid, CSS is alright, and hope to start applying for jobs in about a year.
I learned what I know by pure accretion, if you do it, no matter how retarded you are, it will build up, and you will get better. It's true, and if you don't believe it (I didn't for a time), it just makes it that much harder to learn. It's a meme I know, but you need to trust the process.

 No.264359

My job is going to 6 days per week with possible 7. I really don't know how much longer i can put up with it.

 No.264442

>>262626
She has mastered being insufferable, very beatable face

 No.264704

>>262310
7-5? Long hours.

 No.265335

>>261057
americans took a huge dump on everything that was nice. things might look nice but americans poison everything especially foreign countries (look what they did to the middle east). extreme shame culture and frankly just outright retarded people makes it such a horrible place to live. i want to like individual us states instead but theres always that veil of retardation over every single one. average USanian gets fat off of garbage all their life takes a barrage of drugs and vaccines, has autistic insufferable children as a result, feeds them garbage and repeats the cycle


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 No.264013[Reply]

Few things distress me as much as being uncertain about the existence of God. If something like God (an omnipotent, omniscient, omnibenevolent person who created the universe) exists I need to know everything I can about that being, I don't think there is a more serious issue than that. I've always been a wretch with suicidal tendencies and I've been hospitalized several times in psychiatric hospitals, drugs are not very effective and living never seemed to be worth it, I just want to die. However, if the God of any of these Abrahamic religions exists, I could end up in hell if I kill myself, my suffering would just be multiplied infinitely. Even though I have read extensively on this topic from both a philosophical and a scientific point of view, I still find myself with agnostic and atheistic tendencies. There's always the possibility that I'm an idiot who can't properly analyze the evidence, my mind has been a little numb from some medications I take. Every day that goes by without me getting an answer just makes me more anxious, but maybe it's all bullshit and I shouldn't care so much, but it's not something I can control. All I want, in the end, is to get off the face of this planet and not end up in an even worse place, but this is a relatively risky move. I would like to know how the other wizards deal with this question: do you even care about this? what are your conclusions?
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 No.264115

>>264053
Just fear of after death thats why. Its obvious that humans are evolved and related to other animals but some just cannot accept this.

 No.264121

>>264078
Science claims to know things and is proven to be nothing but groundless theories by itself all the time. What it claims is true you supposed to just accept as true for some reason, meanwhile some new scientist will pop out from nowhere and claim that it is wrong. Again, I ask you, how is it different from religions?

Actually, religions have a huge advantage over science, namely that they are closer in relation to philosophy than science is. That is why even the dumbest religion is superior to science, because it is founded upon some philosophic system. As a science-cultist, you just worship a method of investigation, not actual facts or truth. Science is about understanding the how, not the why. You can't build worldviews upon science, you build science upon worldviews.

I'm not religious but I don't accept science as the ultimate authority because it is clearly founded upon incorrect and subjective human experiences mainly. There is no objective science, all science is subjective, dependent on the observer.

>>264114
Oh, "so it just makes sense". That is a really through investigation on your part, you totally don't just believe something without any concrete evidence. You are the typical science-cultist, you believe everything mainstream authority of science tells to believe. Truly the religion of our age.

 No.264169

>>264121
Continue to believe disproven mythological lies dumbass. Evolution makes millions of times more sense than evil jew written old testament.

 No.264195

>>264131
>>264169
Yep, the quality of posts keep dropping day by day. Shame.

 No.264197

>>264121
Religion isn't falsifiable. Nice try though.



 No.261779[Reply]

I know we tend to shit on people for being failed normies but I wonder how many here have voluntarily chosen the wiz life rather than being forced into it from failure to be a normie
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 No.264002

>>263753
This is what I've been thinking for a long time, actual normals usually just don't interact with people like us while the ones who actually fuck us over and try to make our life's difficult are usually failed normies

 No.264006

>>261779
In my country, most men who don't get to lose their virgnity during high school just go to a brothel and lose it to a hooker. They live their lives as failed normalfags spending their money on booze and hookers whenever they get paid until they actually get a girlfriend or something. I could have done the same and yet I didn't. Back when I was still in touch with my nerdy hs friends, they invited me to a brothel for my birthday, but I decided not to go. I could go any time I want and lose my virginity to a whore, it's actually pretty unexpensive here, you can fuck a passable crack whore for about $20 or you can get a nice clean succubus with a killer body and fuck her in a nice place for about $100. I could go and fuck these hookers and become a mediocre normalfag like the rest of these losers. But I'm not going to do it. I've seen what pussy does to a man, once they get a taste of it they become enthralled for the rest of their lives, they're willing to give all their money, time, freedom even their health to a succubus just to get their next fix. I don't want to become a soulless husk chasing after roasties. I don't care how much society tells me that I'm a loser, that I'm the scum of the earth for not putting vaginas on a pedestal, I don't care. I wanna be free from that bondage.

 No.264007

>>264002
Lots of retarded nonvirgins also post on wizard channels and gloat about it on Discord.

Personally, I think karma will catch up to these scumbags.

 No.264144

Isn't a wizard simply a 30+ year old virgin?

 No.264161

>>264144
yes, but you can't feel special if you reduce it to that hence this thread



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 No.263791[Reply]

Hey I know no one is asking me for advice and I know some of you will be offended by this.

I changed to a diet where I exclusively prepare everything I eat with my own hands (no one cooks me food unless I eat something fancy/specific outside). I quit (land) meat too, it's literally easier to eat seafood instead, or no meat at all. Also I exercise 6 days a week now.

I only have to struggle with mental illness, not with mental illness AND my physical health at the same time. I automatically feel better. I feel unburdened. I don't have to worry about food because preparing "vegetarian" stuff is easy. I don't even have to peel, cut or prepare most of the fruits I eat.

Take it as you want. If you're feeling miserable this could help you feel less miserable. It's not a cure and it's not about "improvement" either. It's not about normies either, in case you got butthurt about the idea of being physically healthy and grooming yourself.
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 No.264091

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why are you so offended by the prospect of getting healthier? This has a guaranteed positive effect on your mental and physical well being. I don't care about the morality of it. I am clearly not vegan if I eat seafood.

And it's fun. I'd understand you not agreeing with feeling healthy, I don't understand you condemning being healthy. Being healthy feels better than not being healthy. And yeah, I'm assuming most of you eat tendies, bunch of fried tendies.

 No.264096

I'd like to add that shrimp and crayfish have a strong aphrodesiac effect, so avoid or consume now that ur aware. Also, eating leafy greens can be tricky because they contain anti nutrients as their natural defenses to being eaten in the wild by bugs. To counter this just vary up the type you consume. I find spinach in particular, while a good source of sulphur, begins to burn my mouth if i take a large amount in a sitting. Also learning spices will improve digestion. Tomatoes are great for digesting difficult things like beans.

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>>264091
>And yeah, I'm assuming most of you eat tendies, bunch of fried tendies.
this is why busybodies like you are unsufferable.

 No.264130

>>264109
I know for a fact most of you don't cool your own food. Nothing wrong with that. My point is, other people is handling you stuff that makes you feel worde than you should.

Tendies are full of protein.

 No.264143

>>264130
You don't know shit, fucktard. That's your problem.



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 No.263863[Reply]

Is anyone else here ugly?
And by ugly I mean fucking ugly, to the point you get ostracized from society.
I had cystic acne when I was a teenager (I'm in my early 30s now) and that left me with scars all over my face, I also have facial seborrheic dermatitis and a very oily T-zone. I'm also a bald manlet and I'm hairy like a gorilla. When I talk to people I can see how they struggle to look at my face. They usually get watery eyes after a while of trying to have a conversation with me and they have to look away to clean their eyes. I'm a fucking monster. This has affected every single area of my life. I have been a NEET for years, not because I want to, but because I have no choice. The few times I've ever gotten a job I got bullied by all my coworkers, even my bosses. They always conspire against me to get me fired as soon as possible because they don't want to see my ugly face anymore. I have spend so much money on skincare and treatments, but nothing ever works. Even my own family members bully me, they're extremely cruel to me and celebrate every bad thing that happens to me, I think they're waiting for my parents to die to see if I kill myself. Almost everybody I know hates me for no apparent reason other than because I'm ugly. I have always tried to be a decent person and I have always treated people with as much respect and kindness as I can, but all I have received in return are insults and humilliations. Over time this has affected my mental health and I'm at my wits' end. This is like a curse and I just don't know what to do anymore.
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 No.263983

>>263981
I wish masks were the norm regardless of muh virus, all sorts of masks, like we lived in a society of mortal kombat ninjas. Not only would everyone be treaty reasonably equal, masks are simply cool regardless.

 No.264010

>>263863
Yes, I have a subhuman face, bulbous skulltype, starting balding at only 15 and am now borderline bald at 21. I look like a dysgenic meth addict, also a framelet with emaciated skeletally thin body. People have said that I look like a rapist in the past which terrifies me since I don't want to be falsely accused of rape. I look like a freak and I stand out in all the worst ways aesthetically.

 No.264079

>>264077
>Do not post information that may reveal your real identity.
There are threads on other chans and lolcow butcheries for Wizchan so it's best not to give dedicated bullies the particulars of your emotional vulnerabilities. It's also considered an outsider r9k type thing to mope over appearance in the first place and allowing selfies opens to door to avatarfagging and even trolling. It's a mystery how many pictures of Elliot Roger have been deleted so far from wizards claiming to be him.

If you have a specific ugliness, such as bad teeth, a crooked nose, acne, or an 110" waist, you can probably post pictures of just that part of your body so long as you censor everything else. Cock and ball posting is an instant ban, at least when I do it.

 No.264080

>>264077
Anyone who posts images of himself here or on any other image board is a total fucking idiot. Don't ever do that. As the other guy pointed out the scumfucks at kiwifarms and other shitholes use that sort of thing to terrorize people and their families for life.

BTW some troon gargoyle is leading a campaign to get kiwifarms off the internet, and in our clown world it seems troons always get what they want (except actually getting to be succubi), so perhaps KF won't be a problem much longer.

 No.264097

The lookspill is brutal man. Still, many men have midlife crises not because they suddenly want young pussy, but because they want to leave their mark on the world that will last. Joe rogan is doing pretty good.



 No.264092[Reply]

I feel somewhat scared about my newfound positivity in life, I had never felt like this as an adult and I'm nearing 30. I started getting grandiose delusions more frequently, my behavior is more aggressive and I don't care about showing my aggression to others. People reaffirm I look attractive and acceptable to them now, I started grooming for fun and it's healthy for self-esteem.

Anyways, if I go to far I could get into trouble with the law. I've gotten into problems before. Been learning to play it "smart" by not engaging physically, only for self-defense. Police sucks.

 No.264094

rob a bank



 No.263996[Reply]

can't do basic tasks a child can
at least the building is tall enough for me to kill myself by jumping

 No.263998

I feel your pain OP, i can barely do math because of my slow mind, at least i have alcohol to make life worth living, at least for now.



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