/dep/ - Depression

I'm not from first world and every time I read mental health and despaircore discourse I see how people "try multiple therapists". How the fuck do you afford them? Don't they charge literal hundreds of dollars per session? And people do these for months, years. How are NEETs and jobless useless wizards supposed to "just get therapy"? For a few years I fantasized about how this magic therapy is cure-all and could fix me, but after asking people "what do you actually do in therapy" people give incredibly vague answers and either show no progress or they never really had this kind of problems i'm having in the first place. More to that, there are places like therapyabuse forum or other spaces which blatantly say that these sessions with expensive psychologists don't do anything at all at best, and are actively resentful of you if you're a failed person at worst.

How come so much of this mental health "please get help" stuff hinges on therapy stuff? I still feel like I'm missing something.

Can you drive?
Can you parallel park?
Can you survive without parallel parking where you live?
If you don't drive then how do you get by in the country you live in?
Do you feel unmanly if you can't/don't drive?
How does one cope knowing that foids can drive while you don't?

We all are not having sex. But at least you guys possess the ability to have sex. I on the other hand know that I won't be able to cum during sex because I have OCD, tight foreskin and tight frenulum.

This is actively ruining my fantasy life. I can't daydream properly because of this. It's like a one handed man daydreaming of being two handed which simply can't happen so even in his daydreams he's one handed.

What can I do? There is no solution for OCD. And no money to fix tight foreskin and frenulum breve.

Im working on a wiz\neet inspired ethical code. Not a full philosophy, but a set of strict guidelines to morally abide by. thus far, they be:
1)Do every effort to not breed any life. Do every effort to not kill any life.
(so throwing scraps of organic food, or using a sewage system, breeds sort of micro-organisms, bacteria..it's haram. Using insecticides? it's haram, literally kills insects.
2)Do every effort to not contribute to economy of sectors who'd hate you(truckers hate wizzies. If you buy something bought to the store by truck, it's haram. Ditto for Farmers, etc), to not labor\work, to leech and mooch, as much as possible, from the State.
3)Master lucid dreaming, so your Qualia can experience anything without having to pay for it IRL. DO apply rules 1) and 2), even to your "scenarios" in the lucid dream. Ie; you don't buy a supercar, it's gifted to you.
4)Only do things which would make both your 5yo self, and your 80yo self, filled with admiration and fond rememberable.
5)remember constantly, your own mortality. have finishing your Bucket List as the daily, and long-term prioritised struggle

>graduate high school
>go on indeed.com
>be qualified for literally 0 jobs
>all the shit manual labour jobs you ARE qualified for have thousands of applicants and are effectively blackvoids
>okay you realize now you need to go to college to get anywhere
>go to college
>figure out you need to make connections to get a job
>you have to be literally top 1% turbonormie with ZERO flaws ZERO mental illnesses ZERO doubt ALL confidence NEVER went through any major obstacle in life had a HEALTHY LOVING life to make the necessary connections for someone to like you and get you a job
>realize you're not that person
>you graduate
>you have tons of debt for a degree, doesn't matter if it's STEM, that isn't earning you money because you didn't make the right connections
>you still don't qualify for any jobs
>skilled trades are just as nepotistic if not more
>even if you DO miracolously get some shit job, it won't be enough to pay your bills or anything
>this is the reality of 80% of young westerners
>this is the reality of 100% of Wizards
So please tell me again is there even any point in getting a degree anymore if you lack connections?

it makes me sad I can't create things I like. I always procrastinate and I always did d
my whole life so far. It happened at very young age; I didn't want to go to school nor learn at home or do my homework. I was always playing flash games on the computer or play ps2 or nintendo DS and after that ps3. I didn't lile myself for that and itt continues nowdays. I don't know why I proscratinate. I hate doing things, in fact I was never used to that. I've never learn doing things by myself, always mom or dad did things for me, my mom did the cooking and my dad told me to do sport. I never listened, I just stayed at home in front of my tv. oh yeah the TV…watching programs in my bedroom all night long…it was comfy, at night you weren't bothered by others because I was kind of alone (my brother was sleeping) in front of the tv with no remorse of doing so because it was comfy and calm.
I think it's because of tv, video games and internet (smartphone addiction came way late).
when I discovered 4chan, I knew there will be no turning back: I totally "internetized" now. I'm am completly focuses on internet everyday. now it's not 4chan but wizchan I use and for a good reason: no succubi wanted me, maybe because I was too poor…all these factors made me a procrastinate person. when you're poor there'snt so much to do besode doing your home work and going to sport. no music lesson, or traveling during vacancy (just stay at home).
I know it's my fault and I know why it's because I didn't had MY things. I wish I had a computer just for me.
Anyway, in few years, I'll be 30 with no-skill wizard because it will be too late.
I wanted to know how to draw (but when I tried my drawings were so unmatch I gave up)
I wanted to create a video game (I tried some with rpg maker but I didn't made shit, just few maps and some events)
I wanted to do a lot of sport
(I wish I wasn't shy, which killed the social part of my life; so no sport because fear of others)
music playing (piano guitar drums, all I wanted to do was those but no money, family too poor)
science
(I really like science but am a brainlet)
technology and computers and coding
(I tried python, all I did was the hello world)
in fact I'm waiting a miracle to happen to me so I can do things and not procrastinating but I know it will not come: I don't leave my house, so no miracle for me.
Nowdays all I do is posting in wizchan and watch youtube vPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

How old are you? What brought you to where you are? What prevents you from changing?

Any other wizzes gay/bi? I don't mean to talk about wanting relationships, I mean do any wizzes ever get picked out by normies because of your weak/feminine nature? What do you think about that retarded lgbt movement?

everytime I start to think of my bleak future I end up thinking about suicide to give my self a sense of hope that the bad things i worry about can be prevented or stopped when they happen, at this point I want to end it even if it's through painful means, because the collective suffering of me living a standard lifespan will most likely outweight the the amount of suffering I would feel by CTB'ng painfully.

How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?
I basically don't feel pleasure from anything except food, maybe. Stories, games, art don't really touch me at all and it sucks because I remember how much I loved escapism before and how it brought excitement, joy, sadness etc. Now it's all blank. I want to bring emotions back, want to bring excitement, joy, even sweet sadness would do honestly, I miss being profoundly sad.

Have any of you managed to revert to your older non-anhedonic self?