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 No.308855[Reply]

Does anyone else envy those people who say "I have 12\6\4 (etc) month to live"?
Imagine KNOWING for sure -more or less- how many time you have left; all the impunity, courage, quickness and nimbleness, resolution and firmness, with which you would do anything and everything.
I envy such people!
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 No.308887

>>308886
burials, cremation, it's all the same to me, I just don't want my remains to stay in Eur*pe.

 No.308888

yeah would be really good to know how much i have left.

 No.308957

Not really, it's a slow death. You should envy those guys who suddenly die from heart attacks or ODs

 No.309374

even when I was more content during the early stages of NEEThood (when I wasn't harrassed daily to find work) I would have liked knowing I had 6 months left. I could have wrapped things up rather nicely. I hate how I could be living shit for decades and then once I find a bit of peace I end up dying. Not so much dying I guess, but the painful process of it, as it usually is.

 No.310908

>>308855
Even then I wouldn't know what to do with the time left, probably. Hell even then my dumb me likely would delay buying a new computer like I've been doing for years because I would think I could still need that money. Like in a video game where you save the best rarest single use items for the very end or the most difficult section and you don't realize it while playing through the game when the right moment is and suddenly the game is over and you've never used that item but made the game harder than it had to be.


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 No.310826[Reply]

I want to be like people on tiktok can have fun can be famous can be any character persona they want, but me, want to be anything on tiktok and want to be famous, I'm not allowed by my parents, this is annoying this is not fair, so I make tiktok videos as is and not as good as other people and the character is not as good as other people on tiktok, my persona character is cheap just a blue blanket as a cape and a yellow crown that I made from cardboard and maybe my tiktok and youtube videos are just for fun and archived so they don't get lost and to show my tiktok to my friends so they are cool and not inferior to their own tiktok and my friends also have tiktok and they always say where is your tiktok I have a cool tiktok where is your tiktok?, and I don't care about income I just want to be able to be a persona character as good as other people on tiktok and be free but my parents forbid me to make tiktok content like other people can be free and have good persona characters, I'm so jealous
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 No.310847

>>310832
and dark anonymage

 No.310849

>>310826
>I want to be like people

what a mistake, you have been seduced by normality to reject your individuality. being yourself is better then being normal, you just don't know how to make yourself feel good yet.

if you believed in yourself you'd want to be nobody but yourself! you could see a documentary about an amazing person and you would conclude that you would rather be yourself and you don't for simply having neglected to believe in yourself.

 No.310850

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>>310827

 No.310851

>>310826
sucks that you parents forbid you stuff but tik tok is owned by bad people and if you knew better, you wouldn't want to use it.

 No.310903

>>310826
> and want to be famous
Doubt. The competition is insane.


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 No.310817[Reply]

Is being short worse then being ugly?
To succubus both is probably the same, but as a short man you always feel out of place, even in another group of men when they are all taller then you
Recently I was arguing with someone, and someone else went between us "leave the kid alone" despite me long being an adult
You feel weaker, are not taken seriously, basically a joke
I work out, mostly for myself, but in the back of my mind I think no matter how buff i get next to someone 2-3 heads taller then me i will always look like a joke
Most succubus are as tall or taller then me here
I hate it all so much
I could not even imagine if I was hideously ugly ontop of being short
brutal stuff
Being short is equivalent to being some kind of freak
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 No.310825

>>310824
it sounds funny but its fucking brutal

 No.310835

>>310817
You probably should look up for "height increasing shoes" to save your ego from taking damage.

Height increasing shoes are just a tiny little bit more expensive that regular shoes.

 No.310841

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If you're in your 20s then it's kinda normal, anyone above 35 or so will consider you a kid probably, if you're older then it gets strange

 No.310842

>>310825
>wojak
go back to 4chad nigger

 No.311024

when i was a kid the succubi would form a pack and go full cuteness aggression on me
that's my wizard origin story


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 No.307971[Reply]

I know there’s nothing wrong with me. I’m perfect. I’m skinny, kind, and thoughtful. But the isolation from everyone around me has been getting to me. Nobody has ever put effort into me. I changed my style just to receive barely any compliments, then proceeded to get ignored by everyone. No whore has ever thought of me as a man. They’re gross creatures who look at me and think I’m homosexual. I’m not. Just because I look like a slut doesn’t mean I am one. Then I am being secluded for not being manly enough. other male seems to think of me as one of them either, shouldn’t I be given respect from my fellow peers and colleagues?
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 No.308049

>>308040
you called yourself an involuntary celibate tho

 No.308899

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>Just because I look like a slut doesn’t mean I am one.
While this is one of the funniest things i've read this year, i'll tell you to fuck off (faggot)

 No.309650

>>307971
>Just because I look like a slut doesn’t mean I am one.
Off this comment alone, no. You sound like a huge faggot.

 No.310838

Topkek

 No.310839

Not OP, but I understand the pain of >>307987

Like, gyaru "sluts" are obsessed with shit like aegyo sal (e.g. fat right under eyes) because it makes one look youthful. Now, ever other Korean "gyaru" or every other Korean toyboy is depicted with a tiny shadow under eye.

I am a wizardchan tier male specimen and I am over 30. I used to think I have a nice pair of weary circles under eyes that make me look like a hard working individual. AND NOW, I LEARN THAT SHIT UNDER MY EYES IS METROPOLITAN KIND OF GIRLY. Yuck.


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 No.310565[Reply]

ITT you humor me as i play psychologist and i try to give legit helpful good-faithed answers, preferably based on phenomenon you have a chance of have seen play out in reality already. in case of failure and the absence of anything helpful at least i skillfully disrespect you.
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 No.310813

>>310795
>Nah the demons

to me demons represent an unaware organism consisting of elements of varying degree of consciousness. though i do believe in the transfer of mental unhealth through abuse in the broader not-necessarily-demonic sense.

 No.310814

>>310798
i don't understand the virgin part and i am sure i am missing some of the meaning of the words you have chosen but you have expressed quite a bit of the modern situation. i don't see how that is related to therapy but on a related note it seems like normies are more aware then ever. gamers nexus report about spying microphones in LG televisions make it into bigger more independent news channels.

 No.310821

>>310813
Didn't ask

 No.310828

I have been individually targeted since 2020, I live in Houston, TX. I have been harassed by two central figures using VTK2 since that time. They have always presented as voices in my head that were somewhat on my side. Tonight however something big is coming and I have just realized that these two figures have actually been working against me to set me up and have not been the two individuals I have somewhat trusted. Apparently their objective was never good intentions for me. I just had this epiphany and I’m scared because I think they are going to kill me tonight. I am realizing that I should not have trusted them to begin with. They fed me little bits of information over the years seemingly unintentional however I am realizing tonight after getting the full picture of the situation that they were purposely giving me selected information for me to make the wrong decisions in how I respond to them. I call them Dr P and Gabby and they are threatening to fry my brain

 No.310830

>>310828

>been harassed by two central figures

i noticed quite an affinity for harassment in the people who live on this planet. clear remains of past efforts to breed people that are as mean as possible.

>and they are threatening to fry my brain

you better not delay on the things that are important to you then and live your best life while you can for as long as you can.


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 No.305314[Reply]

Was reading "Look Me in The Eye" and was inspired by the phrase, "He'll remember this when he's 40." What are those things that people said to you that you never forgot? Can be positive or negative, recent or distant past.

In 9th or 10th grade, a random succubus who wasn't even in my class said, "There's something wrong your shirt. Everytime I see you there's something wrong with you." I don't know why she was in my classroom, and I never saw her again afterwards. Of course I said nothing like a pathetic slave. They echo in my mind almost 10 years after.
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 No.308225

>>308206
I mean all his children turned out alright.

 No.310394

>>305314

>"There's something wrong your shirt. Everytime I see you there's something wrong with you."

Unless she had had a schizophrenia onset and she would see "something wrong" in literally everyone; yet you, as a wizard, was the only approachable enough to be told such a thing. You will never learn whether her pills are contraception ones or zyprexa\'peridol ones, though.

 No.310662

>>305317
>while laughing and pretending to be 'lighthearted' as she berates my hardwork or ideas.

>Then my father, laughing at me and mocking me, berating me, just being sarcastic and belittling me whenever I do anything.

My mom is kinder than that, but she puts down everything I like to do… I tell her about my day she's like
>"that's great, but I want you to have fun! this isn't fun. stop working those 2 garbage jobs and get one better job that pays all your bills so you can go out and have fun. no one else I know is suffering like you"

yea gl with that mom you're lucky you dont need to do anything in this world anymore but watch tv. She means well, but she's showing the true nature of succubi.

Dad is straight up just strict mean condescending asshole, rich and works for the gov, but he shares none of it with us. Just tells us to work harder. But as I get older I know he's right about most of the things he's said. anyway, he's got another family, they were all already rich and gov with their boats, they'll probably get his money too.

 No.310668

>>310662
do you hate your dads new richer family? fo they like you?

 No.310816

My dad told me that if you pucker your lips together it looks like an asshole. I never forgot that. That was the wisest thing he ever said.


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 No.306437[Reply]

Does anyone else voluntarily exile themselves from society?

I'm tired of socializing, drama, human interests, social demands, social everything.

I wish I was a machine instead of a talking ape. I actually hate being an animal.
I don't even hate people, I just don't want to be in any contact with them. I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.
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 No.310595

>>307190
i keep a beard and plan to let my hear grow out down to my chest if i can manage. its starting to touch my shoulders.

grooming is crab behavior

 No.310601

>>306437
I did this and don't recommend as it's really easy to get yourself in horrible situations when alone, especially with family. If you are going to cut off ties it's better to murder your own family than have any connection to "exceptions".

 No.310604

>>310601
>If you are going to cut off ties it's better to murder your own family
Retard

 No.310633

>>310601
Behold — the edgelord.

 No.310804

>>310601
fedposting retard. It's so easy to just go zero contact with most people.


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 No.310761[Reply]

Previous thread >>310743

update, so this is me, the drug user, there was just an incident in my neighborhood today at 2 o'clock in the afternoon, there was a suicide and that photo is the real photo of the suicide, people said he was still in the 2nd grade of junior high school, and I found out because everyone was excited in my neighborhood, so I was curious and went out of the house and there was a suicide
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 No.310763

Is it known why he did that?

 No.310781

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>>310763
He wrote a letter, is real, before he committed suicide and the letter was found in his pocket. If translated, this is roughly what the letter said:
Sorry, Dad, I haven't been able to make Mom and Dad proud. Sorry if I haven't been able to be a dutiful child. Sorry for doing this. I'd rather be like this than living a life of causing trouble for others. Message for school friends. Thank you for accompanying me. Those who have been good to me. Maybe this is the last time we meet. Goodbye.

 No.310784

Poor guy, shoulda returned to monke instead of assuming he's a financial burden, everything grows for free

 No.310792

>>310781
>>310781
what language is this?

 No.310793

>>310792
Indonesian.


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 No.308814[Reply]

How do you deal with extreme public humiliation and a destroyed reputation? Shits suicide fuel
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 No.309773

>>308814
>How do you deal with extreme public humiliation and a destroyed reputation? Shits suicide fuel

social status is an illusory game. you are somewhat pre-programmed to mind being considered of lower social status but the world in which this cultural system made sense has not been existing for hundreds/thousands of years. this is industrial mass consumerist cattle dystopia and you don't have to mind being unpopular or lonely because those states merely represent the opinions of fools and your only concern should be not to be one of the fools. if you ever felt being popular and in high demand, you'd hate it so much that you would not lament the absence of it. most people don't know how lucky they are never to have been popular because it would invalidate their entire social framework. they would hate it so much, they'd wonder why they ever cared about anyone if this is what results from it.

 No.310356

Being smug about it and accusing random idiots of probably having the same issue

 No.310366

Nobody has the answer fer my psycho badass enslaver over the chasm created by tampons. I want horned Donald and Barack and Beercock to go choose chairs and eat six sheet lose filanges but hey charades and wooty wetness checks and harem death for my pot medicine. Kill me for crawling in my skin for Ritalin already. Six julips later I still need disrespeccies death. I hate meth lol.

 No.310719

>>308814

You probably should ask modern AI to tell you a story using some fresh prompts.

I think Ive just invented a couple of prompts for such a dialogue.

1. "please be my personal PR manager for this thread"

with some attention for asking, "I suspect that I am dealing with the consequences of a failed publicity stunt. Given the ubiquitiousness of the Internet, help me to drown the unpleasant info about me with something boring day-to-day-ish"

 No.310720

OR
1. "please be my personal PR manager for this thread"
THEN
2. "I am looking for a complete rebranding of myself framing my stay-indoors, humble, cozy-gaming, non-competetive personality as chill. Avoid the feel of me being "keen" with staying indoors though,






And then, you ask AI how come the British have a problem with people who are "keen" given how British people tend to mask their true feelings under a mask of fake easygoingness. Bonus points for discussing the Japanese "wa" (harmony) as a social construct that forces the Japanese to "keep face".


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 No.309759[Reply]

i keep wondering if all fiction could be unhealthy for the brain. human life is so short, a day has so few hours. how can you take one or more of these hours and flee to a place that doesn't exist and disconnect from your own reality.

places that don't exist have begun to repell me. my own reality has so many projects i would like to attend to that i feel gridlocked by not knowing what to do first. desire for fiction might be nothing but pure idleness.

i assume i understand the impulse, though i could be mistaken. when i was a child and were forced to attend child prison (school), the idea of no longer being able to explore the world at my own pace and instead had to spend time with the violent conformist was completely depressing. have them judge my intelligence based on how hard i could force myself to care what they thought was important in their desperate attempt to turn me into a mindless soldier and stomp all my dreams and interests in the process.

i'd flee into video games and at least videogames are interactive. in a video game i can make decisions, in school i was but an inmate without agency. but in a movie about a super hero, there is no interaction, the poor fool who watches this is but the passive recipient of centralized propaganda. i don't see how someone would accept this premise and spend time on this.
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 No.310598

>>310579
>They don't care you exist unless you publicly dig into the sources of their wealth etc., in which case their networks can stalk and hound you for decades.

they do though. this belief that if you don't bother them, they don't bother you and that you can avoid yourself out of random punishment is another illusion. this alone is why "nothing to hide nothing to fear" is complete theater. you will be targeted even if you obey all the rules as well as all the unspoken rules. they will harm everyone whether it is just or not, period. they believe hurting everyone makes everything better. everyone being depressed is the petri-dish they need to grow. the longer you are a minion, the more you will believe that just hurting others is the key to success.

 No.310599

>>310581
>Whether you have influence in the decision or not is completely moot, it's still the opposite of fiction because it's all grounded in the real world

you did not pay for your ticket and enter the theater to see the show, they just turned everything into a theater and you are forced to see the show. that's still fiction. calling me young is a known theater tactic to discredit and insult me but it just reveals how uncomfortable and threatened this thread makes you.

 No.310615

>>310579
>Russia
Lmao, that is Ukraine. I know, I live here. You saying ANYTHING about our 'glorious struggle', a ton of 'veterans' will come to put you on your knees and apoligize on camera. If you don't do that, they get to fuck you up, kidnap you and throw into a meatgrinder as a fodder. All with silent approval of authorities.
Russia is a peaceful paradise in comparison.

 No.310620

It might sound incredibly stupid but one of the reasons I didn't kill myself when I had a very easy 1 finger movement method was because I wanted to see the ending of the Berserk manga

 No.310661

>>310620
>It might sound incredibly stupid

doesn't sound that stupid to me. if you are one of these external people who needs some external reason to keep going, why not. what i think is incredible stupid is choosing to be such an external person while you can just be an individual. you are choosing authority (which is the violence groups want you to live under) over authenticity (which is the wonderful self-reliant and free way to make your own choices).


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