/dep/ - Depression

>>227581
What happened to the post replying to this one stating something along the lines of "… (cant remember) not sad but beautiful"? Am I imagining things?

>>236684
/dep/ in a nutshell

>>237502
UPDATE:
i got off of them because they made me more depressed than before and they stopped working for my chronic back pain. so fuck that shit. but yea the first week was amazing, after that meh pretty shit. try what you like i guess.

That shit made me feel like a zombie, I only took them for a week or so and then I threw the pills away. My depression lasted during most of my 20s, but now it's healing naturally. I feel much better and I'm not a slave to some jew pills.

>>218735
It's been more than 6 months the last time I tried this shitty Amitryptiline and I still have brain fog, speech issues(overall slow speech, mixing up words, stopping mid-sentence, etc) mild constipation and a bunch of other extremely annoying symptoms.
I can't tell If it's the drug or just depression but I've never had physical symptoms that I could attribute to sadness or anxiety… I took it only for 2 days but I've also taken this shit prior for weeks and it didn't give me such problems(aside from constipation?)
These drugs are extremely weird and I have no idea why they even exist.

>>218735
I've tried Zoloft, Lexapro and St John's Wort. Zoloft made me psychotic and dumbed down (despite having no previous history of psychosis) - it stopped after I was off Zoloft. Lexapro made me feel like a zombie and very mentally slow, I didn't have much thoughts… at all. St John's Wort has been the most effective for me, it's cheap to buy online and is well tolerated according to meta analysis studies. It has minimal side effects and works as well, if not better, then SSRIs. It's prescribed commonly over in a few European and Oceania countries instead of SSRIs, apparently. I'd recommend St John's Wort, instead of just blocking the reuptake of serotonin, it slowly over time creates a higher density of serotonin receptors from what I understand.

>>218735
I've tried them all and none of them have had any effect. When I took Welbutrin for 2-3 months it didn't even reduce my nicotine cravings.

>>238365
What you are talking about is orthodox, classic marxism-leninism. Communism is much more than that. There are many communist thinkers and philosophers post-marxism. I would advise you to read this >>238374 article for a start. Also look into anarcho-communism. Many communist thinkers nowadays and in the 20th century wanted to get rid of wageslaving altogether and to make a society where people don't get material or other goods based on merit but according to who needs it the most. Which is very wizardly considering most of us don't want to work or are NEETs already. Also read about the lumpenproletariat. It refers to those people of the lower classes who are the lowest-of-the-low, meaning beggars, homeless people, criminals, whores, unemployed people, etc. Basically, what most wizards fall into. If you are a NEET, I read some communist philosopher say, you are already making anarchism possible, you are living anarchism right at this moment. Others thinkers, I think it was the Frankfurt School, said that wageslaves are too sedated by mainstream society to make a successful revolution and that it will be the lumpenproletariat who will achieve revolution. Also, Bakunin said that young, unemployed intellectuals will play a leading, key role in the coming socialist/anarchist world.
>We would thrive in an "every man for himself" type of environment, but without the myriad of regulations of mixed capitalism
What a delusion. It is exactly we wiz-neets who can't exist without a society we can leech off. If you can't even survive in this world without the support of others then how will you survive in a social darwinistic kind of anarchy? You and me and others here would be the first ones to get killed or enslaved by normals. If you are a depressed, anxious hermit then how will you survive a world of constant conflict? Anarcho-individualism is just another form of capitalism, it is actually capitalism in its ugliest form. You take what you can get - the strong will rule the weak eventually and we will be worse off than in current society.
Anarcho-communism on the other hand is exactly designed to benefit people like us. A world without money, without classes, without state: a world where those get the material or other goodies who nePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Got an appointment with the neetbux people tomorrow. I'm supposed to have been applying for jobs this whole time to earn my neetbux but I haven't done shit. I'm still working on getting into a daily sleep pattern and exercise routine. What do I tell them?

>>238501
Lie and say that you've been applying for jobs, but that no one has contacted you back yet.

>>238501
You have to lie but in a convincing way if you are worried about losing your NEETbux the safest bet wuuld be use a website for job finding and apply for a lot of jobs and then change the dates screencap and send it to them.

>>236595
Neeting is boring af yeah, all this other fags who actually enjoy this shit have waayy to much dopamine in their brains lmao
Maybe they could even make good wagecucks don't ya think OP
Anyways, NEET-ing is boring but wagecucking is billion times worse, so NEET while you can

>>238289
You're a faggot for kicking wizzies while they're down. I have a friend who used to cut; it's not just a succubus thing, and treating it that way causes more harm than good. He has to wear longsleeves year round at is wageslave job to not get made fun of by his normalfag coworkers.

>>238288
Hope you can beat it friend. Try finding other things to fill time if you can like vidya.

>>238327
Thank you very much, friend.

>>238289
For succubi that probably is the reason, which is why they tend to self harm visually by cutting.

For men it is more about relieving aggression that for one reason or another is not being released. Which is why it tends to take forms like punching and biting, more basic and anger fueled forms of violence.

>>238327
I'm not that guy but I have to say I agreed with him, never heard of a man that wasn't some cring emo doing self cutting, it seems so bizzare to me. Not much else I can say, learn to handle emotional pain in a better/healthier way, even being a warlock who hates society is far better off than some emo who cuts up their arms. Or go and take a bat/axe and cut up some trees if you can find any, not illegally, good stress releiver, once when my father was bullying me, I took an axe, half intending to kill him with it, but instead just hit trees with it, was a good way to let off stress and felt a lot better afterwards.

>>235367
I have some shitty verticle scars on my left wrist from when I self harmed with a razor years ago. It sucks having scars. Don't think anyone has noticed them but I'm always conscious about it.

Bullshit. Reality is just the truth that you are here right now (Dasein) and nothing you can do against this knowledge. Trivial stuff. You are NOT special. Give up on trying to be special. Noone cares.

Due to the way we perceive and process the outside world, it's impossible to approach the real "truth". Just find something you are comfortable with believing, that seems reasonable.

>>238539
What the hell dude? This is the exact same reply I wrote to someone in the crawl thread some weeks ago. Didn't think it'd make a pasta.

>>238531
It is true, you'll never see the world how it is without perspective. But this perspective is actually how the world 'really' is, stop thinking about the pure objectivity unaltered by the subjective human condition. The pasta point remains.

>>237978
I seriously hope this is all a simulation and when/if I kill myself I wake up in some awesome alien society where these "simulations" are just silly coffee-break tier entertainment between alien council meetings or something.

>>237975
Your post was well written and enjoyable to read. If you're capable of making two good paragraphs, why not three, then four? You could try writing as a hobby.
I'll assume part of the reason you made your post was to see if you could write well. You were clearly thinking about sentence structure and word choice and even criticized the quality of your writing, which is the biggest proof that this is something you not only care about, but have a sense of taste for. If you find your writing bad (which I personally don't) then be thankful, because there are people out who can't if their writing is bad or not.

If you're insecure that you can't escape letting your neuroses taint the neutrality of your writing, then just turn the neuroses into traits of a character so to look at yourself in third person. Lots of good writers did this.

>>237975
"I seek erudition"

Just read Schopenhauer and stop typing like that and it'll all work out just fine.

>>237985
this

>>237975

Even I found anyone to share whatever, I don0t even think I'd have the required enthusiasm to start any interesting project at all. It's like I am at "stand by"

Absolutely hate sharing shit with parents so would move as long as I didn't have to live in some downtrodden ghetto.

Seems like a huge waste of money and way to make sure even a small sickness turns into a major inconvenience since there's nobody who you can even ask for a favor.
In my situation moving out would only make sense if it was tied with work.
If I'm hard pressed for solitude I can go camping or something.

Eh I don't exactly love living with my parents, but is way better than living by myself and giving the jews all my money for a tiny ant apartment.

My parents pay everything, electricity, water, the internet, food etc, I just have to tolerate their ramblings sometimes, but they leave me alone most of the time so it's ok and worth it.

>>237733
I would move out if I could get delivery and I had social workers helping me for essential life things or even if I did not the trouble is I cannot live on my own.
I can but the place I live in ends up looking like some anarchists squatted and LARPed as GG allin.

It would be worth it to get away from a shared bedroom with anyone.

>>237940
Nothing much to it. Just find a job that pays enough to live on. Way easier said than done, though.

I thought this blace got shutdown; that nearly brought me to tears…

>he can still cry
If only you knew how bad things really are…

>>238297
I can relate, I have no fucking idea where I'd go if wizchan died for good.

>>238373
>>238297
I didn’t miss it that much.

>>238326
This.
When you go totally numb you are in maximum cope overload even if you make a tear you feel nothing a very alien experience I would have to kill myself if I actually felt how I really feel without this cope.

>>236604
The secret to the normalfags game is obvious - they're all about numbers; there's a lot more of them than there are of you. Self-awareness and intellectual tactics are your friend around them. Do not, and I repeat DO NOT betray any hint of negative emotion around the normalfaggots, they will quickly reverse this on you. You can look any way you want. And if people stare at you, use a tactic that isolates one of them and use the group against one of their own. One of my ideas, I guess, maybe I'm a delusional faggot but emotional hurdles are to be jumped over

>>236604
fuck off you normie bug

>>236593
this holy shit. The fucking benefit of having a hair cutter and how much dread it will spare you

>>236593
Good model is Moser Primat 1320.

Have lasted me almost two decades with the original blade.

>>236605
>And if people stare at you, use a tactic that isolates one of them and use the group against one of their own.
care to elaborate on that further?

I felt a slight sense of joy when everyone was freaking the fuck out during the lockdown.

Depends a little on why you're resentful but no, I wouldn't say it disqualifies you from being happy. Especially if you're introspective and guilty about it. Might make it harder to be happy, though.

>>235633
This entire pandemic has been nonstop entertainment. I take sadistic pleasure in knowing that normies have to social distance and live without social interaction for the first time in their lives, and are forced to live like how we have been living for years.

i'm too empathetic and i suffer because of it. i don't wish anyone ill.

Depends!
Do you feel joy when you see the local homeless guy getting tortured and beaten up by skinheads? Do you like it when a small african kid dies of poverty and hunger? Do you feel happy when an ugly person gets bullied? If yes, then you are an asshole.
Now, do you enjoy seeing your alcoholic dad who beat you up as a kid developing cancer? Do you enjoy seeing rich psychopaths suffering from emotional, mental or physical pain? You laughed at drone-footage of muslim terrorists getting blown to pieces? Whatever, maybe you aren't a saint but you certainly shouldn't feel guilty in these cases. God/Destiny/Lady Fortune felt that these bastards should now get a dose of their own medicine, sit back and enjoy it.
It is always important to distinguish. Life isn't black and white. Suffering is generally bad but when shitty, selfish psychopaths suffer it can be a good thing too. Just like empathy is generally a good thing but it can be dangerous too when you feel it towards those who lack it completely.