I've got a fairly secure situation myself, at least insofar as the long game is concerned. That being in regards to the point at which both of my parents have shuffled off their mortal coils, since, fortunately enough for me, our house is paid off & will be left for me to remain in. Being that's the case, I'm still really not looking forward to it. My mother, in particular, does a lot of things, both large & small, (like cooking my meals, being concerned about my health, talking to me when I'm feeling down, etc.), that would be really shitty to get by without. Every day brings it closer & closer however, so sooner or later I'll have to face it. Will it be enough of a blow to have me want to kill myself as a result? Possibly, but I feel like my fundamental security would have to be at stake to really push me over the edge, which would, naturally, need to take the form of losing the house somehow, along with my NEETbux & facing the imminent prospect of homelessness. Again though, the prospect of shuffling along grief stricken in this dusty old house, totally alone & adrift in the world minus my parents, isn't exactly appealing to me either. In other words, no matter what happens, I'm basically on the losing end of this. It'll certainly be interesting, that is when the time comes, to feel the sensation & experience of what it's like to know that there's no one left in the entire world who loves me, or even gives a single, solitary fuck about my existence. Not even a cat, since we have no pets. I can only imagine the briefest glimpses of it now and it always manages to terrify me & fill me with dread. >>207981
>considering the fact that I have zero life skills and don't even know how to pay a bill.
I worry about things like this as well. Next to paying bills, what will I do when the shingles on the roof need to be replaced, or other maintenance related tasks that might come up? What about if something else goes wrong? Like with the plumbing? I won't have the money to pay a plumber, plus I'm so autistic & stupid the guy could probably try to swindle me somehow and I wouldn't even know it. Mowing the lawn or getting groceries are also issues, but I could probably just pay sPost too long. Click here to view the full text.