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Being dumb but not too dumb is truly a fate worse than death Anonymage 04/06/25 (Sun) 23:51:44 No.299493 [Reply]

Imagine that you're a dumbass. But you're not the happy go lucky type of dumbass that is content with your situation.

You're a dumbass that KNOWS about how bad your situation is, you know how miserable it is, but you aren't really smart enough to get out of it.

You work a wage slave job and that's really all you can do because my fucking god, coding and programming is essentially the equivalent of trying to box prime Mike Tyson for someone who's a malnourished bastard. Becoming a lawyer? You already know you'd cock up and would probably be a public lawyer that has to defend scum of the earth that are 100% guilty. Doctor? Med school is possibly the hardest thing you can do without trying to become a rocket scientist.

You can't even set yourself up financially. Investing into stocks or crypto? Forget it. You're gonna buy high and sell low. I can't even manage to save more than 1k dollars. I don't even really have savings at all. I live paycheck to paycheck because I can't manage my finances for shit.

It's all these things that add up. I can't be like Beavis and Butthead who live in bliss. I know I'm dumb. I can't get smarter though. A mental midget that knows it. It's like being a zombie that knows it's a zombie.

Anonymage 04/07/25 (Mon) 00:04:36 No.299494

>>299493
>posting a wojak on wizchan

This is gonna go over well.

Anonymage 04/07/25 (Mon) 00:10:56 No.299495

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>>299494
Well that's certainly more fucking proof of what i'm talking about!!

I'm fUCKing STUPID.

But I'm also not SUPER stupid. It's truly a hellish existence like no other.

Anonymage 04/07/25 (Mon) 00:15:04 No.299496

i think the whole being dumb makes you happy thing is a myth, because no matter how dumb you are, you can still suffer and you don't even understand why it happened and you definitely don't know how to cope with it. those extra iq points that you have that help you be slightly more aware of the situation, cherish them because it could be worse lol

Anonymage 04/07/25 (Mon) 00:15:36 No.299497

2 dumb to earn cash, 2 smart to know how bad everything is, being dumb-dumb would have been a lot easier

fear of keeping up? Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 16:54:19 No.299408 [Reply]

I've heard a lot about "fear of missing out"/"fomo". But I have a different kind of fear that doesn't really make sense in my mind: a fear of keeping up with things, or, a fear of catching up.

For example: Many years ago I played internet mahjong a lot. But eventually I stopped playing for a few months. Now, any time I consider playing again, I get paralyzed by this irrational fear. I think things like "it's too late for me to get back into this". And, of course, the fact that this fear stops me from catching back up only makes this fear grow larger and larger.

I once had a small youtube channel but it has been so many years since I uploaded anything, I feel like "it's too late for this, I missed the boat, what's done is done".

I know this fear is irrational but I still am held back it.
Does anyone relate to this fear AT ALL?
I am bad at describing this so this might not make any sense at all.

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 17:14:05 No.299409

>>299408
isnt that basically just being lazy and procrastinating?

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 17:15:02 No.299410

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>>299408
I relate OP, it feels like you could have done all the things you want to do at younger age and now you feel like it is a waste of time because your not young anymore, why even try I'll die soon? your brain is saying, and you agree with your brain, then you procrastinate. its a unhealthy habit brcause at the end of the day you do nothing and you wasted your day doing nothing.
the only thing is to start NOW and tomorrow and then the day after, etc…its like bycicle, if you stop treadle you fall.

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 18:03:23 No.299411

>>299408
>"it's too late for me to get back into this"
We (and by that I mean you) can dissect these thoughts for their origin and why they hold so much sway on you. It's a good mental exercise.

It usually goes like this for me.
>Want to play 'jong?
Y/N. If you want to, what stops you?
>Its too late
Late for what?
>Im XX old KHV I should be doing whateverwhatever
What this had to do with wanting to play 'jong?

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 19:14:11 No.299412

This sounds a like straight up clinical depression.

If you've incidentally trained yourself not to enjoy things in general, then the sense of post enjoyment comedown might have further conditioned you to avoid things you specifically liked in the past.

I've experienced this once or twice with anime - specifically ones that I really enjoyed, the idea of experiencing them again and having them retroactively ruined or devalued means I don't watch them.

If what you enjoyed has little in the way of intrinsic value (i.e. enjoying it has extra benefits like exercising the mind or producing artefacts you take pride in) then if you're in full depression mode you'll need extra motivation to attempt it.

In some cases, getting back into the habit is just a case of perseverance, but it's not guaranteed.

Anonymage 04/04/25 (Fri) 07:51:09 No.299425

I find it difficult to relate to your particular fear.

In general, if something seems like an irrational fear, i'd advise to really deeply consider if it is actually irrational. Try to make a clear-cut judgement. If it still seems irrational then you should try to overcome it by intentionally confronting it. That is, to simply do the feared activities for a while until you know you aren't hindered by it. If you still feel the fear but you have proved to yourself that you are in control of it then its fine, you just have to accept the feeling

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sage Anonymage 11/16/24 (Sat) 13:35:07 No.296143 [Reply]

what does he want from us?
why is he torturing us?
why does he give great amount of suffering and horror to poor believers while giving happiness and wealth to evil disbelieving people?
why is he so careless?

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Anonymage 01/08/25 (Wed) 08:19:22 No.297258

He created the universe because he was horny and he jerks off to this stuff

Anonymage 03/09/25 (Sun) 06:48:01 No.298680

>>296184
>Now, maybe worry about something that actually does exist.
Like God?
>>296233
4channers are the worst atheist coomer crab degenerates in the interwebz

Anonymage 03/09/25 (Sun) 12:13:53 No.298683

>God
Not a thing, sorry.
>why is he torturing us?
Nature tortures all animals, including men. It's not evil, it's just how things happen to be. Nature doesn't know good from evil, it just operates deterministically.

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 14:07:36 No.299403

>>299367
I doubt someone capable of creating entire universes gives a shit about obscure posts on obscure imageboards.

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 15:24:54 No.299407

>>299406
Only a dumb western convert would use that language. Normal muslims call him with the arabic name Allah.
Also they don't say "all praise to him", they say peace be upon him and only refer to his messenger.

Man, I'm not even religious and I know the Qur'an and Bible better than those thumpers.

I have discovered the worst kind of rotting. Anonymage 03/31/25 (Mon) 13:58:09 No.299336 [Reply]

Since last year's December, I have discovered that you can just keep lying on the bed and enter a weird stage where you're neither asleep nor awake. It's crazy as it feels like what substance abusing would feel like although I have never even touched alcohol, weed, or even cigs let alone hard drugs

And bed rotting is crazy addictive. Time flies so quickly it's unbelievable. I spend most of my day lying in the bed, and I have gotten so skinny fat it is simply unbelievable, I am a mere 160cm tall ethnicel but I weigh a massive 150 pounds. My body looks so ugly that even my mama doesn't love me.

Has anybody else experiences this where you're at a prolonged stage of not being asleep and not being awake but in a weird in-between because of the comfyness of bed?

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Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 09:00:19 No.299394

>>299388
same
if i didnt have to work, if my backwards country had neetbux, id happily rot for the rest of my life

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 09:52:34 No.299395

i tried it for some 50 minutes and i got to the point where i could see colored blobs rythmically expanding and contracting, but i stopped due to impatience and boredom
will keep trying

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 12:10:07 No.299399

>>299395
>colored blobs rythmically expanding and contracting
black and purplish / dark red ?

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 12:55:36 No.299400

>>299399
yeah, was that close?

Anonymage 04/03/25 (Thu) 13:05:37 No.299401

>>299400
idk but I never experienced what OP did, so I think it's just ordinary eye glitches or something

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third world wizards living in first world country Anonymage 12/09/24 (Mon) 18:02:23 No.296532 [Reply]

Do you have good or bad experiences in your host country or do you feel accepted or tolerated in the society of the country? Have you had problems because you were a foreigner? Can you tell us about them?

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Anonymage 02/26/25 (Wed) 18:51:19 No.298378

>>298261
Does anyone know how to get beyond this feeling of inferiority? I am Asian and lived in San Francisco and before you know I started masturbating to WMAF porn. Literally if you're an Asian no much how much you get paid, do not go to San Francisco.

Anonymage 02/26/25 (Wed) 22:55:03 No.298387

>>298378
Just imagine it’s your mom in those porn videos and that should stop you from jerking off I guess problem fixed

Anonymage 02/27/25 (Thu) 02:02:04 No.298389

>>298377
India was invaded by everybody, it's a subservient nation made up of subservient people.

Anonymage 02/27/25 (Thu) 10:09:30 No.298393

>>298363
They're mostly Hindu yeah, but it's not as if the Pakistani and Muslim ones that come here behave any differently. I don't know how much animosity there actually is in India, but the Muslim/Hindu conflicts seems to be entirely irrelevant to them here. They'll socialize with one another and the kids seem half secularized anyway.

Anonymage 04/02/25 (Wed) 13:28:33 No.299361

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why shouldnt we all just kill ourselves? Anonymage 02/15/25 (Sat) 21:49:00 No.298058 [Reply]

most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.

even when some try to gaslight themselves that their loser-lifestyle can be comfy, we all deep down know that this isnt supposed to be *life*.

objectively, we're the bottom of the barrel, rock bottom essentially; we can only cope by escaping reality and isolating ourselves and anytime we encounter the real fucking world, we're deemed as fucking subhumans by others AND ourselves.

we're rotting, just wasting space, energy and oxygen while the only thing left for us is waiting to die, respectively.

i dont get how we all havent already committed suicide by now cuz our fucking trash genetics have been haunting us for our entire existence, yet we collectively and voluntarily decided to continue living. why the fuck are we so stupid???

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Anonymage 03/24/25 (Mon) 19:58:55 No.299154

>>298058
I'd rather kill a tax collector first or some old school normies I knew from younger years. No damn way.

>>298207
Could you explain shortly to me which usefulness these texts have?

Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 21:59:03 No.299285

Better killing some random psychonormie around me than that, so no. Not giving them such pleasure.

Anonymage 03/31/25 (Mon) 04:45:24 No.299332

>>298058
because I simply don't believe in an afterlife (as much as I'd like to), so living will always inherently be better than being dead, because being dead = nonexistence. if I commit suicide to free myself from whatever pain I have while living, but there isn't an afterlife, I will experience no catharsis from dying, as I won't consciously exist anymore to feel better. if there is something after death, great, but the way I see it, we only experience the one life we have, as shitty as it is

Anonymage 03/31/25 (Mon) 08:22:46 No.299333

>>298477
You're not that evil

Anonymage 03/31/25 (Mon) 10:10:38 No.299334

>>298058
why, i will try of course. only got a week left at most so it's the last day i talk to people. im quitting sleeping, eating, interacting with anyone, or doing anything at all. I'll also go homeless to destroy all my chances for inaction. There is almost no risk since once i run out of drugs im guaranteed to get endless seizures cause of my addiction and i only have a few days left until that, so no matter what method i choose it won't make it worse than what it already is. Time to gamble that a train will make mincemeat out of me and get me out of hell, if i lose then at least i tried.

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Anonymage 01/13/25 (Mon) 15:25:46 No.297385 [Reply]

I'm fucking jaded by life because of people and normalfags. I really can't take it anymore. I have limits and today I got my tolerence limit to the macimum, I don't feel good at all. normalfags make life disgusting when you're around them. I can't anymore today, I don't know if I could live like this during all my life.
I'm in pain physically. my heart hurts kind of. I feel depressed.

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Anonymage 03/29/25 (Sat) 18:01:37 No.299301

>>299165
I still go for a walk every monday with the hospital. I see the two zoomers who one of them is autistic and the other one is either schizo-affective or has tourette I don't remember. A new person came and he was in high school with me and now I must go socilize with another guy who I was with during uni but I don't want to go drink a coffee with them nor be their friends again but it os rude to say no I don't want to. I'm forced to socialize now. I put do much effort on not to get friends anymore and now I must go to a café and talk shit with two people I don't want to be with

Anonymage 03/29/25 (Sat) 18:01:55 No.299302

>>299301
I want to be left alone

Anonymage 03/29/25 (Sat) 23:12:49 No.299308

>>299301
never happened to me lol. I have no social life

Anonymage 03/30/25 (Sun) 11:22:19 No.299316

>>299301
good to be able to hear from you again, anon.

Anonymage 03/30/25 (Sun) 13:16:20 No.299318

>>299316
you're welcome

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anyone fantasize about what life is like as a non autist Anonymage 03/20/25 (Thu) 00:04:03 No.299002 [Reply]

Ive been diagnosed with ASD, my iq is tested to be 82. Ive also dealt with sexual disorders & depression.

Growing up I lived as an outcast, a homosexual freak, a retard and dealt with rejection especialy during school where I was excluded for being part of the special ed & also had so many embarassing moments due to being incomptent and socially inept. Right now at 21 I still live at home with a dead end job, having ideation of suicide pretty often

I always fanatsize how my life wouldve turned out if I wasnt born mentally sick.

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Anonymage 03/24/25 (Mon) 11:50:38 No.299109

>>299039
you gonna keep up this "only drooling retards with helmets have autism" charade and shtick up forever here just for entertainment value? cause its kinda funny

Anonymage 03/24/25 (Mon) 12:03:10 No.299110

>>299109
An "autist" wouldn't see humor in the idea, and certainly wouldn't be ae to rhetort with sarcasm (We all know it's sarcasm and that you're genuinely butthurt by having your 'special boy who can't be held responsible for his own shortcomings' title challenged.

Anonymage 03/24/25 (Mon) 12:12:56 No.299111

>>299110
nta but I didn't know it was sarcasm, I genuinely thought you were so stupid to think autism is the same as debilitating retardation

Anonymage 03/29/25 (Sat) 21:48:55 No.299305

>>299036
I was the same until 20, when I abruptly stopped being bubbly and energetic as I moved out of my hometown. I was close friends with the other two autists who were into a specific MMO and niche of single player games, along using a niche type of imageboard lingo, which was rare back in the early 2010s in my 2nd world small town. We weren't even of the same age; we were 15, 16 and 18 when we were the closest. I could be like that, but lost the energy to find like minded people, lost the innocence and also the resilience to get shunned by dozens of normalfags and succubi in the process of finding someone I could get on.

Anonymage 03/30/25 (Sun) 01:54:19 No.299309

>>299110
Oh yeah, autists are not allowed to have a sense of humor either now.

Fuck off normie.

Anonymage 02/03/25 (Mon) 21:55:54 No.297861 [Reply]

Been browsing 4chads /pol/ all day for happenings and apparently Musk is gonna end NEETbux. I'm disabled and am unable to work, so I guess this is it for me. It was nice wizzies, but I guess this is the end.

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Anonymage 02/04/25 (Tue) 10:21:38 No.297885

>>297883
Cool it with the anti semitism

Anonymage 03/24/25 (Mon) 20:44:07 No.299166

>>297861
>>297881
If they need to go to work, it's because there are taxes. I do not have any hope, despite being libertarian, about taxes being truly removed. It's their way of control.

Anonymage 03/25/25 (Tue) 11:34:30 No.299177

>>297866
End yourself nigger.

Anonymage 03/26/25 (Wed) 06:33:51 No.299203

Exorcisms don't work on schizos because it is a mental condition not demonic possession

Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 18:22:43 No.299281

>>297866
Neetbux should be for disableds not lazy 👨🏿

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Getting older as a wizard. Anonymage 02/13/25 (Thu) 01:36:06 No.298019 [Reply]

I'm older than people who have kids who're already graduating from high school. I know it shouldn't bother me, but I can't help it. I feel like my life hasn't progress at all. I already have grey hairs on my beard and I don't feel my age at all. life as a wizard is like living in a perpetual limbo where nothing ever happens until you grow old and die.
I know many young wizards will call me a failed normie for saying this, but it's only until you reach a certain age that the loneliness of the wiz life starts to creep in and you begin to wonder where did all go wrong.

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Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 02:53:03 No.299255

>>299253
how is ai gonna reshuffle your genetics and the things you mentioned?

the fact still remains you need a boatload of cash and a top surgeon to make that "reshuffle" happen even if ai gives you the perfect blueprint for it

dont get me wrong, i dream of that same reshuffle literally daily and i occassionally get euphoric dreams in my sleep where it finally actually happens. but when i wake up i realize it takes so much money

Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 03:28:32 No.299259

>>299255

first things first.

The Ai we need does not yet exist. its close, but not yet. For a quick explanation: the current horse race now is over whats called Agi, or Artificial general intelligence, this, 20 to 25 years back meant an Ai equal in intellect to a normal person. in my opinion its already been done. but, anti Ai people dispute its been done, there are pros and cons to it does or does not exist yet.

back to our focus. now, what we need, for our aims, is called ASI , or Artificial Super Intelligence, an Ai smarter than smartest person to of ever lived.

in my opinion ASI will be created sometime between now and 2029/2030. Year 2029 will be key.

What you, and I, and our brothers need to do, between now and 2029/2030, we must back Ai into Agi into ASI. Back it 1,000%

but but but but….. Anon, Ai could do! Ai may do!, Ai mite!!

No. You want it. Back Ai 1,000%

ASI will be capable of Anything, able to learn anything, able to solve anything. It will not be limited by human nonsense, bias, frailties, weaknesses, etc….

I Need a humans to do XYZ? i dont. its in my rear view mirror. and been so , for me, for a long time. All tasks imagined will be solved by ASI.

join the ride friend.

Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 09:55:06 No.299263

>>299259
Never read so much bullshit in a single post

Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 10:31:47 No.299265

>>299263
Fucking this. If that guy watched CNN he would know AI will be the literal end of the world just like global warming.

Anonymage 03/28/25 (Fri) 16:46:12 No.299280

>>299265
It wont end the world on the spot, but expecting it to change your facial structure, body type and height just by making a text prompt is psychotic.

There is no salvation for ugliness at least during our lifetimes, at least if we're talking about affordable options.

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