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Ugly anons, tell me about the impossible beauty standards you wish you could fulfill, how you wish you could look like and why, what you would do with your life if you managed to look like your ideal selves.
My beauty standard for myself is something like an older Tadzio from the 1971 Death in Venice movie, a beautiful, androgynous young man, with a godly face and a slim and pale body.
Instead I was cursed with an average face, a big nose and acne as well as bacne, which is a death sentence for a vain, looks obsessed guy like myself. Despite knowing that beauty fades and means nothing in the end, I feel hatred and jealousy towards every handsome man I see, especially those who come close to my own ideals.
How is life for other average or below average looking wizards going, especially those who are vain and very appearance-oriented like myself? What impact does the feeling of never being good looking have on you? Does it bother you or have you made peace with it? How do you cope?
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People treat you differently. End of story. You can't get with an attractive succubus if you're not up to par yourself. Same with becoming a high-ranking person in society. The majority are at least above average. Get over the fact that it matters.


I wonder if God cares about this situation. Being a minority is kinda sad tbh.


lol this thread is still alive


It’s not even about getting a succubus, or getting a high position in society, I gave up on that long ago so it doesn’t matter to me. Ugly people are treated like less in general for something they can’t control. Ugliness lowers yours chances at living an even simple decent life. Anything below average instantly catapults you into hardmode.

“Why people talk about problems I can’t relate to? :(“


I sort of get upset sometimes when I’m watching tv with my mom, the succubi on the tv commercials always have flawless smooth skin, I know it is all makeup and editing tricks but it doesn’t make me any less jealous, I wish I had perfect smooth skin, instead my skin is just ‘normal’ I guess, at least I don’t have acne

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People that are neets/hikis and live with others with no backlash for their lifestyle are really in a comfortable spot. Compare that to me who is living with my parents I'm always scared of leaving my room due to the fear that i'm just gonna get scolded for my "laziness", parents have been on my back for college while I just want a wagie job that pays minimum and live in an apartment, all I need is a bed, some food and internet, my happiness is not fulfilled by consumerism or needless thing because it never makes me happy. I wish that I could be as comfortable to just not have so much pressure on my back, it's so hard living with someone that barely understand you. Anyone with similar experiences? I feel like living a low life is what I deserve, I don't feel grateful for what I have, I feel as this is some deserving punishment, who else owns their own apartment/house, what is it like?
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you're far better off in your position then the comfortable postition because you're actually growing and moving ahead through your life instead of dying. Thats really what being comfortable is, stagnation, no growth, if you're not growing your dying. It starts with security and warmth and satisfaction and fulfilment, but then like anything else it just starts to decline and degrade with entry. Eventually, you don't have the energy, ability, willpower and emotional forititude to move or act anymore. You're not creating heat or energy, the only way to live and survive and grow is to being moving and creating heat


>ything else it just starts to decline and degrade with entry.
*with entropy


Child Cancer is a thing mate.


it's sad that the same person who explained me how exactly this horrible life was created - also says shit like
>won the lottery of birth
maybe he doesn't really think so and just selling hope for $$$


yeah lucky in the sense that you dont have to do backbreaking labor every day or freeze in the cold
but once mommy and daddy die, the good times are over

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To have a ,,normal" conversation in real life you have to think quickly and reply in quickly way.
I cant do that I think slowly. Even on internet before i make a post I have to think on a while. It is impossible for me in most cases to think and reply quickly.

I dont know if I have mental illness or something.

Sometimes I have moments when my brain feels empty when I lack thoughts. I must have time to create thoughts.

Therefore most people think that I m retarded.
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> I’ve been called charismatic by my friends
Can't relate to either being called charismatic or having friends.
> You learn from mistakes. Its a skill you build over time.
Mistakes reinforce incompetence, this has the opposite effect of building skill.
You can't change your abilities, so if you make mistakes and still improve then it's more like it was always there and just dormant because you weren't using it.


I had troubles in the past with conversations so one day I decided to just make a giant flowchart of possible generic responses with as goal to subtly distance myself from the target and to either end or keep the conversation going depending on me having to kill time or not.
As a result I see every person that I know in my general area as a program loop, I just choose the right response and they move accordingly. I even sprinkle a bunch of lies if I need to.
The only time I do not need to resort to my flowchart tactic is when I talk with my outcast uncle since he's not really a positive normalfag type and he sees through my bullshit, appreciates genuine talks more than water cooler bullshit during family gatherings.


I bet people don’t notice it as much as you think, and they are picking up on your discomfort which makes the interaction awkward.


Wiz honey everything comes with practice actually. Small talk is something natural apparently, a bit like shaking hands or body language.


>Grug need social for good feelies.
>Grug small talk transient bollocks.
Golemns don't understand anything but pain/pleasure. The wizard doesn't need the golemn's approval to achieve his goals.


I think my body language makes sometimes fake signs.

Why I know that? Because normies often tell me that I look like I m scared and stressed even when I m not, even when I dont feel these feelings at all.

I want to erase these fake signs that I make, but I dont know how yet. Do you have same experiences?
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you can try cutting off your limbs to reduce your body language


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Body language is mostly unconscious. You're not giving out "fake signs", you're giving off signs that you are not a threat by avoiding eye contact, lowering your head, making yourself small etc in order to avoid danger. It's pretty much something you learn if you grow in an abusive environment or with bullies. It could also be a reflection of how you see yourself, with little confidence in your abilities, you might feel naturally vulnerable around others.

The first step to fixing it is becoming aware of it, as well as the accompanied emotional reality. Considering you're completely surprised by it, you might be dissociating from the feelings, but beneath that fog lies an emotional reality creating that body language. You can try practicing different body language but this isn't just a habit, it's something that serves a genuine purpose to you so you will feel resistance at losing it. Despite the conscious trouble it brings you, it's still vitally important for you because it protects you and keeps you safe.


why hurting yourself, just poke the eyes of a person you're talking to, so no one sees your wizard moves


It doesn't come quick. It takes like a year or two to really internalize improvements to body language to the point where it becomes natural and you don't have to always think about it. Certain habits come pretty quick, but body language takes time.



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I literally have not had a single friend since around the age of 13-14. This is literally true. I just turned 24.

Diagnosed schizotypal.

Anyone else in this situation?
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I had friends a few years ago, but I grew to resent the act I had to put up around them. Then I moved south and now I have none. Aside from the occasional loneliness I don't miss it.


There needs to be a word for friends you have that you only see during regularly scheduled events like school. I think most people had those sorts of "friends". People you spent a lot of time together with because you were both at the same place together a lot. But if you never spend time with them outside of those things, are they really your friends? I've never had that type of friend, someone who would just come over and hang out, you know. I think that's a whole different thing. When you're free to truly be yourself, not in a structured setting. The last of those "friends" stopped bothering to contact me long ago and I can't say I blame them, not like I ever made the effort to contact them. I couldn't because it would be just too stressful with too little upside.


Wizards are the word


if you want more precision you need a different language than english.


It was shocking to learn that the vast majority of humans are so egotistical and unempathetic. I really used to think I was the problem, but I am literaly no different than them, mentally; asides from my unwillingness to conform to their culture (which is absolute shit btw)

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Is there any way to fundamentally increase happiness? I've made big changes in my life, some good, some bad. For example I used to be a NEET and now I have a job. When I think to myself what I would do if I was a NEET again and had that much free time I feel that I would be very happy, however if I think back to when I was actually a NEET I can say I felt about the same level of happiness as I do now. It's always been consistent throughout my entire life. Big events only fluctuate it temporarily, but nothing changes my base day-to-day happiness long term. So is it possible? Has anyone actually changed their base level of happiness long term?
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I think you shouldn't chase happiness as a thing, just do what you want to, look for things that may interest you.
Also nice image, where is it from?


Hedonic treadmill makes it so that this solution does not really work.
This makes a lot more sense given the reality of the psychology of human happiness.


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I think happiness is the side-effect of meaningful interaction with the world and isn't necessarily tied with pleasure. One could take heroin and have arguably the best feeling in the world but this euphoric state will likely work against your happiness. Same with any other pleasurable activity, it becomes stale and boring after a while. What's important is that you have a sense that the activity in question is somehow leading to a meaningful outcome.

For instance, despite it being a pain to wake up early and commute, I feel that my job keeps my mind engaged with interesting problems while also giving me a positive direction in which to grow and of course, make money. All of this contributes to felt sense of meaningfulness that keeps me relatively happy (for now) despite it not being an euphoric or even comfortable experience.

Of course, I'm not saying you should just get a job and hit the gym brah, but simply to keep in mind that the thing to look out for is meaning and not the perceived pleasure of the activity. Being a NEET, despite being physically and mentally comfortable (usually), is the equivalent of a dead-end in terms of meaning. It's often the case that people can't wait to retire and do nothing and then find themselves in a state of complete despair because they zapped the little meaning they had in life. Again, I'm not saying becoming a wageslave is the answer, but usually work has a nice combination of activities that result in a flow state and opportunities for meaningful growth.

Another part of happiness is meaningful interactions with other people, but these are a rare occurrence for most wizzies. We're a different breed so interacting with most people usually results in either boredom or pain and rarely can you find meaning.


Above all I think this is correct and it's easier said than done, if you start consciously trying to root all the little ways your programmed to be miserable it's quite the trip. Why you feel this way on something, what this or that feeling really is, should this or that matter, blahblahblah. Then you have the negative things that have hard wired themselves through your mind all your life into your body and physical limitations. I don't know the way around some of them, sometimes I wish I never knew at all of the mess I made of this body before I knew better. I just need to live with the fact that I'll always feel like a human science experiment.


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Happiness is not related to success hardly at all. Counter-intuitively, the less you strive for happiness, the happier you become. For me a baseline happiness of 7/10 is ideal. Easy to bring myself back when I slip, goes to 8/10 if in a really good mood, and when doing body practices on top of that (like deep breathing and smile meditation) can dial it up to 9/10. 10/10 happiness would only be reached in deep states of meditation, moments before death/near death experiences or on certain psychedelic drugs.

I'm not shilling for this guy promise, but happen to be re-watching this video atm, very relevant. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lzzu0kel7d0 Ignore the normie references and the advice on happiness is relevant to wizards especially.


Does anybody know of or experienced being dead for a short time and came back alive? Did you see anything or feel anything? I’d really like to know because it creeps me out.
Happy 18th birthday wizzie yeah I know.
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Still sounds more fun than life in society be it in schools or workplace


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>Life after death


This is the most interesting NDE I've ever learned about.


This is another good explanation by Howard of his NDE experience.

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Does anyone else have a defeatist self-pitying attitude?

It makes it so hard for me to improve because I keep looking for ways why something won't work out or how it's impossible instead of looking for opportunities. Even if I am aware of this fault of my mind and try to be logical my mind still tells me it's true. Often I get into arguments with others when I ask for advice because of this because I keep trying to explain why I find something hard to do or why their advice doesn't work. I rightfully get called out for having an unproductive mindset but it still hurts. Then I enter this spiral where I hate myself for being like this but also hate myself for wallowing in self-pity instead of improving.

I feel like the luck of having a good personality is something that is never talked about while people do acknowledge someone being lucky to be good looking, a genius, talented or born in a rich family.
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It would have to be created somehow how did it originate from? It just doesn’t make sense to me. It just doesn’t make sense what keeps me down here in earth. Yes I know gravity but still what traps me in my head and makes me see out of my eyes. I’m unsure why I was given this consciousness when apparently it’s very very unlikely I would have been born due to the amount of other sperms that could have fertilised the egg and the fact I survived birth and didn’t die at all yet.
I’m not sure why I was even given consciousness it’s like it’s something I have to have but I’m not sure why.


>It would have to be created somehow how did it originate from?
Why does He have to originate from anywhere at all? The argument is that He has always existed so it is useless to ask 'but where did he come from?'. Just to make things clear, I'm not religious myself and not even theist. I'm just playing the devil's advocate.


The inherent fallacy in all metaphysical thinking is assuming that the same laws governing your immediate reality are applicable to a much larger scale and to dimensions outside of our own. You learned by experience that A = A, that time moves forward, to view reality as a causal chain of events and so on, but even the most rudimentary of laws break down outside the system.

>It would have to be created somehow how did it originate from?

It, created, originate from, somehow, would etc. all of these are meaningless outside of our own universe. You can't apply spatial-temporal reasoning to something transcendental like God, because by very definition He transcends those. It's kinda funny when people try to use fundamentally flawed and insufficient tools like logic to explain things beyond their immediate reality. Logic and empirical reasoning are tools for survival that work until they don't.


Who cares about philosophy. I cant even finish a wikipedia article.



>Does anyone else have a defeatist self-pitying attitude?

I've never had that problem which is why therapy never worked for me. They kept trying to treat that problem, but I have a perfectly fine way of evaluating the likelihoods of various outcomes and deciding which path I should take to achieve my goal. I think about risk a lot, but I am always able to accept acceptable risk and never catastrophise or make things worse than they really are. My problem is that I feel anxiety in certain situations no matter what I do or think, often when I understand the risk to be real. This is largely in social situations. As a person living in a society, everything is dependent upon your social relationships and interactions with other people.

As I'm not someone who naturally excels at that, I realize that I can fail at those interactions and be punished terribly as a consequence. Anyone who has ever been "unpopular" understands this. Despite this I don't go into every interaction assuming people are going to hate me or whatever other bullshit therapists assumed, all that happens is I feel a very strong anxiety response because of the uncontrollable risk. I understand how people feel about me is largely up to them and out of my hands, and yet at the same time what I do impacts their assessment of me, but I am not consciously expecting this, it is just an uncontrollable fear response that has nothing to do with what is happening in my head. Can I convince myself that my actions have literally no impact on what someone thinks of me? Not without actively deluding myself and I value my sanity too much. So I feel the fear and the fear makes me fuck up constantly which just compounds the fear.

It's a conditioned response to an undesirable outcome. You feel fear during social interaction, it makes you a retard, people respond negatively to you, the fear gets even worse next time because you fear the same outcome will happen on an unconscious level. It's a self fulfilling prophecy that you can't just think your way out of with optimism and smiles because your rational brain is not in charge of the whole process, at least not for me it isn't. I honestly do not give one fucking shit what any of these random people I interact with think of me, yet I feel the fear every time, even with people I am guaranteed to never interact with again in my life. I'm not battling my mind, I'm battling my out of control emotions which makPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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Suicide thread.

How are you going to commit suicide? I learned from a young age that I am too big of a pussy to actually kill myself. I’ve tried multiple times and either ended up failing or someone finding me and in a hospital. But I have finally figured out how I will finally die.

I have seen tons of videos of people brandishing knives on cops, and that’s all it takes for them to kill you. All I need to do is walk towards a cop with a fake knife and a thank you note in my pocket and that will be the end of it.


you will have consequences putting someone with your bullshit



Hanging. I worry about maybe being left alive with a broken neck, that is the one thing that terrifies me, like if the noose doesn't strangle me to death and they recover me in a paralyzed state. So then I think about maybe just trying to do it with strangulation, but then you can end up brain damaged and still survive. I can't pass a background check but I may be able to buy a gun from a private seller, but that also has the risk of surviving with brain damage. In the end I think the double whammy of neck breaking and strangulation will be the most sure method though. I think I might try attaching some weights to me because I only weigh like 135lbs and I'm worried my bodyweight might not be enough. I wish there were more information about what type of rope to use for maximum effect though. I want to buy one even if it will be a while before I use it. I think it will be comforting.

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How do I explain to my parents that after 10+ years of social isolation, touch starvation, untreated depression, you know the whole deal … your batteries are not fully charged and you're not ready to take on the world? Because that's what they seem to be thinking.

In their mind, I was fed and housed and didn't have to work for so long that I must be bursting with energy and just not using that energy because being a depressed wreck is so much fun. They are turbo norman in all other aspects, so this does not surprise me, but seriously, is there any way to explain this to them?
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*growls in anglo*
Fuckoff (((normans))).


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I struggle with this too. It's hard for my father to accept that I'm an autistic shut in, and I feel like such a cunt for forcing the issue when my inability to function becomes such an obvious thing.

It's strange how this life is for us. Many can't kill themselves because of what it would do to our families. After awhile, the pain of disappointing them gets overwhelming. I feel cornered. Not only did this life doom me from the start, it's cutting off all exits, and ruining all copes.


You're not going to be able to explain this to them. They don't want to think about it, so they aren't going to listen no matter how you try to explain things.
I've had my parents hospitalize me because they were "concerned" about my mental state and then feed me the "if you'd just get out there and try you'd feel better" talk on the ride home. They're never going to admit there's something wrong with you that's more complicated than pulling up your bootstraps and Just Doing It.


This. Even since I gained consciousness I tried to imitate "normal" people, at least in social settings. I was nice, polite, knew how to keep up a conversation but then I got home and slept for several hours because of how draining any social interaction was.
I only got aware of this after a psychotic episode when I thought the whole world was going to end. After that I cut all communication with my "friends" and couldn't be more content.
I'm not happy but I am at peace. I believe that so called happiness is an unachievable concept for us, wizards, anyway since we're not greedy for anything. Unfortunately "normal" people cannot grasp this concept at all because it questions their fundamental way of life.


Don't give up on your first try

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