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 No.307038[Reply]

Other people make my life unhappy and miserable
I just wanna be left alone
What is worse then having to fight with other people toget what you want every step of the way
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 No.307081

>>307080
That's a really stupid interpretation of the statement. There's no need to deduce something so clear to similes involving material utlilty.
>A man who has the knowledge but lacks the power clearly to express it is no better off than if he never had any ideas at all.
Means that doing things ends up getting those things done, while just thinking about doing those things doesn't. There's no reason to revere those who simply think. Such reverence is especially unnecessary in the context of reflection, i.e don't get an ego boner because you know how to solve a problem but are too lazy to actually fix that issue. Your contribution to resolving the issue as someone who knows but does not do is worth the same as that from someone who doesn't know and doesn't do, because they both bring about the same results. tl;dr Do it, faggot.

I can't figure out the quote's relevance to this thread, but on the whole it applies to /dep/ well
>I want to die soo sooo bad and I've learned 500 ways to kill myself from suicide handbooks but I absolutely can not and will not kill myself because uuh willpower or predetermism or my mom will turn me in to a vegetable or something. You must pity me and revere me as though I am someone who actually did take his life though because me and him are like totally the same, in fact I am suffering more than they guy who actually did die.

 No.307084

>>307038
What is worse?
People acting like they know everything about you from taking just one look at you, or from reading just one of your posts. If you take their misguided advice, you will not only fight with other people on your way, but you will be going the wrong way entirely.

 No.307086

>>307044
Extreme laziness, gooning, idling in the comfort zone for too long.

 No.308754

>>307080

More like

"A car without any of a myriad of tiny parts that make it run is useless"

Say, you can flub up with not changing oil in your car or literally flub up not having worn out timing belt/some pump/brake fluid leak diagnosed properly and timely. And diagnosing cars is easier since cars come with OBD2 ports to plug a 10 USD car-to-laptop wire instead of 20$ for a _single_ vitamin deficiency test

 No.309536

>>307079
AGREED


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.309630

>>309599
Every pizza store has been owned by penny pinching Indians so I've never been able to get discounted pizza at work, they will wait until it's several days old and offer me a 5% discount. Meanwhile I hear about the local mcdonalds essentially giving people 1 free meal per 6 hours.

 No.309634

>>309630
I'm lucky enough I work at a Speedway convenience store. When we got the shit to make it & our stuff works, we can make whatever we want and take it home for jack shit. FeelsGoodMan

 No.309653

Had an accident at work, "nobody is at fault", can't quite go into the details but I've had 5 months paid leave. Could take longer but they'd stop paying me after.

I genuinely dont want to go back, in the 5 months I've been off I've spending my time walking, playing videogames, watching films and working on small projects. For the first time since becoming a wizard (level 8) I feel at peace. The money didnt hurt either.

 No.309683

>>309653
Money + freedom is the ultimate goal for a wizard IMO. Neet but without parents. I sometimes wish I had bought into that hustle culture thing when younger and just got a college degree and a high paying job so I could work on that FIRE shit. (Financial independence, retire early). I still want to find a way to do it without a job at all.

 No.309914

My succubi coworkers are so fat that they shake the desks when they walk by. Theres also the faggot guy who smells yet everyone is nice to, even though he talks like that one mad scientist character from courage the cowardly dog. extroverted freaks are the worst. Nobody does jack shit and i get stuck doing all the work.


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 No.309416[Reply]

I live with a disgusting hag who is supposed to be my grandma , this bitch is the worst whore i have ever seen in my life ,
it's been like 2 years since i started living with her , a pathetic evil 80 year old zombie who is despised by her own sons and daughters , no body spends above 5 minutes with her , she treated her sons and daughters like slaves and treated them horribly when they was young and still does
she tries to do the same with me but i have anger issues and i always make her regret fucking with me , but Its all so tiresome .
and to make matters worse she smells like piss , which makes me want to vomit , a disgusting pig rotting in her black room all day waiting for death , with everybody waiting , i always pray to god that she dies so i could live peacefully in this place and my room peacefully without having to deal with this hell , also leaving is not an option unfortunately .
living with a vile hag is the worst nightmare possible , i wish i lived with worms instead.
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 No.309513

How far can you push it? What would happen if you just dumped a bucket of soapy water on her? What if you just sprayed her with deodorant? What if you just tell her to STFU when she nags? I've dealt with similar situations and I've essentially buck broken old hags that have been notorious witches in everyone's lives. Of course all legally and morally, don't get yourself in trouble. My grandmother is like yours but I've only ever lived with her for months at a time as a child. She quickly realized I'm not a problem if she's not a problem and we didn't become good friends or anything but we had a cordial arrangement.

 No.309514

>>309436
Modern healthcare seems hellbent on keeping old fucks alive and fucking over the younger ones. It's baffling to see.

 No.309515

>>309458
Sorry to trip post to admins watching me.

A job would be nice too as it's time away from her. I currently like my job largely because my mother wont be there. She seriously stands in the doorway and just looks at me. it's like she's under a spell. She often just comes into my room to sleep on my bed and snore like a fucking ogre

 No.309524

>>309433
There are no savings , the only thing i will get from this after she dies is a room for my self which i wont pay rent , maybe a whole apartment alone if i am a little bit too optimistic , still worth it?

 No.309534

>>309514
Modern healthcare hates people and doesn’t give a fuck about their health but keeping them alive and acting like they want to cure illness and treat pain is its main primary source of income and means of reproduction. They don’t actually want you to heal because at that moment they couldn’t extract money from you. They keep old people alive because they generate more monthly a fit 30 years old. They hate fit people.


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 No.309505[Reply]

All this time, I was with the grim reaper without realizing it.
I didn't realize why I was stressed, depressed, and weak from the beginning of junior high and high school until graduation. I missed four years of school because I had already graduated. I didn't realize that all of that stress, depression, and weakness from the start occurred because during that time I was suffering from a chronic infection in my wisdom tooth, which had already erupted. And yes, I recently went to the hospital for a checkup and learned that I had a chronic infection in my lower jaw, in the area where the wisdom tooth had erupted. I researched the risks on Google and Chatgpt, and it turns out that chronic infections in wisdom teeth that have erupted are indeed fatal and death.

 No.309525

Please anon , go to doctor , and more importantly , dont believe anything that A.I says ESPECIALLY Gemini , this failure of an invention is the worst source of false information possibe , and above being a fucking coward , it does mot hesitate to provide stress-inducing info when it comes to unpleasent situations in general , yesterday it supposed my apartment is full of mice only because i told it there is one dead mice in my kitchen that i poisoned but can't find its dead body , then i got pissed off and told it to shut the fuck up
lt keeps trolling and providing stupid false info until you get pissed off , now go to doctor , anon.

 No.309533

we all must die one day


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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.
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 No.308894

At this point, no. I know one person who would be a little sad but not surprised I went through with it and life would continue on. I might as well be dead now, I work nights and live far away from civilzation, I only go into town once or twice a month, preferably on a weekday morning when all the npcs are gone, though with summer comes all of the families with their screaming shithead children.

 No.308895

>>308869
They just want to remove the symptoms with medication, not the cause. Npcs are insane narcissists so it can't possibly be their fault when people want to drop out of society.

 No.308932

Some might. My brother certainly would and I would feel terrible for leaving him with that. My dad has enough problems already with aging and constant aches and pains. We've always got on alright and he's always tried to help me, ineffectual though it was, my suicide would probably leave him catatonically depressed as he'd think he failed me. In some sense he did, but that was more a team effort; my mom would care but I wouldn't care that she did.

I would like to think my colleagues would care. I work in a place that's understanding of mental health issues and they know I'm a bit peculiar. I wouldn't mind becoming some tragic character in their life-story, though they'd probably move on quick: "He was a nice enough guy, that's sad." They're the only people I actually see in real life besides immediate family so I've naively grown quite attached to them. I expect the feeling isn't mutual. They have their lives, I don't have mine.

Besides that, a handful of online friends would be concerned if I went offline permanently. Though if I ever kill myself I think it'd be fun to create an autobiographical website type suicide note, which I'd probably send to them, or leave somewhere online.

 No.308962

Nobody would care if I killed myself, everyone treated me like a joke, people in public and my family, I move a lot and because of that I have no friends, I’m so lonely that sometimes I feel like I’m going insane, I’m a neet and I hate it, I serve 0 purpose in life, I’m so Lonely, maybe life would be better after, ide like to imagine that after death it’s calm and warm with a nice breeze and you wouldn’t be trapped in a body, all succubi are sexist bitches, I’ve been treated horribly by succubi they’ve lied to me and have been fake to me, my family would be relieved if I’m gone, I have no energy to do anything I can’t even properly take care of myself, they’ll just see it as more room in the house once I’m gone, my sister would be happy and my parents would be happy but pretend to be sad, someone please help me

 No.309529

My mom would be upset she looks like a bad parents and fear of legal retaliation from the state


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 No.308091[Reply]

What is everyones thoughts on leaving a suicide note? Is it necessary for closure for others? A way to get everything off your chest before you ack? Or just a waste of time?

I have been staring at my .60 cent retirement plan, and am not sure if I would just like to go out and just have everyone guessing. Or if its right to leave a note. Most of my family thinks I am useless or lazy. However they have no introspection on that they are the ones who raised me.
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 No.308824

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I don't think it's absolutely necessary, it depends if you want them to know about something or not. It can be useful if you want them to do something specific after you die, like cremating your dead body, or not sharing the cause of your death to anyone. It's also a good way to say what you were afraid of telling others when you were alive, maybe telling everything you hate about someone or how your parents failed at raising you, etc.
>>308675
Based.

 No.308913

I always felt like suicide note is illogical. The whole point of choosing the way out is that you don't want to deal with life's bullshit and/or impact it in anyway. Why give orientations to a world that hates you? Just leave and say nothing is the non-soy way.

 No.309414

It depends on whether or not you care about the people you're leaving behind. If I ever were to kill myself I'd leave a note just so that I can give my parents some form of closure.
>Most of my family thinks I am useless or lazy.
>they have no introspection on that they are the ones who raised me.
If you dislike them I think killing yourself without saying anything is far more impactful than leaving some note whining about how awful they were to you. Your actions would speak far louder than anything you could write.

 No.309437

I wrote one when I was looking for a location. It was an apology to whoever found the body, my name for IDing to cut down on wasted man hours, and instructions on who gets which box of crap they could sell on ebay. I had one for a cousin, one to help initial therapy for whoever found me, and one for a childhood friend I had.
Just couldn't think of much to say.

>>308675

At least my mom's always had enough compassion to hate circumcision. She work as an L&D nurse and refused to help circumcisions. She also told my dad she'd divorce him if he had me cut while she was out of it after having me.
So there's always good ones with sane views on mutilating babies, they just have no power in a medical system obsessed with it.

 No.309528

People had 32 years to get to know me so one extra note isn't going to change anything.


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 No.306675[Reply]

Lookism has become a public, popular topic lately on the internet and I believe that it affects wizards in very tangible ways.
Being a genetic dead end ugly loser myself I suffer for it even as a now "middle aged" man.
One would think such things are left behind in high school or something, but no.

You queue up for a service, government office for some paperwork, a cash register at a store, post office or hell even medical services.
You can tell the people before you were treated kindly. At worst processed in a neutral way.
Some even receive a cheerful response and the help they need, people go above and beyond for some.
Then it's your turn at the line.

A look of disdain follows immediately. Quiet. No "what can I help do for you" "what can I help you with" "what is the purpose of your visit".
Silence. Faces contort…
Sometimes a sigh, sometimes some snide remark. Clear hostility.

A shift in demeanor so noticeable, so obvious, so visceral… (yet to them likely natural) that even the thickest of autism wont help you stay oblivious to it.
You get mistreated, worse service, denied service you paid for, medical gaslighting, humiliation over and over again.
Networking is impossible for you, who by your mere acquaintance devalue their status.. and without connections, being treated like this, only having the "official route" as an option you soon realize you might not be able to get anything done.

After much pushing, repeated humiliations and humbling yourself, matching your demeanor to that expected of "your ilk" some old lady at the register might take pity and process your request, prescribe your medication, refer you to a proper doctor.
Sometimes the stars do align like that and you make a step towards a slightly less miserable state of being.

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 No.308986

>>307804
the blackpill/i-ncel cult is jewish social engineering to force hopelessness in the young male population, which if embraced leads down to two ends:

1. transgenderism (which is ultimately population reduction)
2. suicide (which is ultimately population reduction)

 No.309010

I've noticed this in myself the few times I have interacted with pretty succubi. I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them. I imagine everywhere they go they get the same reactions from people and the world they live in must be so wildly different than the one a loner like me inhabits. I'm not that ugly but I'm depressed enough that my grooming is completely shit and I look like shit so I get a taste of the negative side of it from society, and I also get a taste of it going away when I groom and dress well.

It really drives home the point that humans are just shallow monkeys. You can use that knowledge to your advantage to manipulate people like some politician or CEO, but personally I just find it depressing and want nothing to do with it.

 No.309061

>>309010
It's just the halo effect. How many jimiko anime succubi are drawn versus the generic standard where everything is flawless?

 No.309411

>>309010
>I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them.

This is weakness that you should not be suffering from. W/omen aren't even human.

 No.309500

>>306675
im not hideous but i stopped caring about my personal appearance. who and what do i have to look good for if i get nothing out of society and have barely any social interactions?

my hair is nearly shoulder length and my neckbeard is coming in nicely. When i go into stores, the cashiers sometimes bristle because they think im homeless, but i just speak softly and gently. they did the same thing when i went for an appointment at the hospital.

At this point id rather be an eyesore for people to have to suffer. fuck society


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 No.309370[Reply]

Does anybody have younger cousins that come and see your subhumanish existance and belittle you. They live ordinary simple lives and constantly lifemog you by just their existence. The only pluses with my cousins is that they live far away.
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 No.309409

>>309370
>belittle
I lashed out at them once, they cut all contact with me after that.

 No.309412

Our entire breed is subhumans somehow, so we're comfy right here together!

 No.309431

>>309412
>Our entire breed is subhumans somehow
What do you mean?

 No.309438

>>309431
I think he means that we're very unlucky in all departments, as most people here are ostracised by their peers, family, and friends. Most of us have either dead end jobs or no jobs, a lot of us don't also look good which eventually set us on the path of embracing wizard-hood because we can't have anyone either and trying to get someone will only worsen the pain. Also a lot of people here have been abused as well.

I can be completely wrong though, maybe people here are smart white collar workers and maybe they get well with their families, but I am certainly treated like a subhuman by people around me, of course though no one is subhuman, everyone feels pain one way or other. If anything I believe people on this little image board are profoundly human.

 No.309446

>>309409
I had the same experience with my older cousin. He was an ass to me constantly. Belittled me, called me fat, said I need to wear a bra because I am a fat bitch with tits and other nasty crap. One day he came to my home and wanted to play on my PC. He didn't ask. He just straight up told me 'Get up!'. I got mad like never before for some reason. This asshole came into my house and just barks orders like that. It was infuriating.
I yelled at him and told him everything I thought about him. He was about 17, I was 12. Ever since then we don't talk, even when meeting with my relatives he doesn't speak to me. And I don't mind that, fuck him.


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 No.309393[Reply]

Is anyone else here being cyber-bullied? I have been cyberbullied by a colleague in my hobby for over 10 years; he has used his superior reputation to waylay, insult me and make me feel insignificant. It doesn't matter how many laps I would run around him, he only becomes more entrenched in his own sense of superiority. It used to be I just didn't have the catalog of works to "prove myself" to him. Now he is just being incalcitrant, dismissing that I have such works even now. The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness. This is terrible to envy these things as a supposed Christian. And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone. But I will say, I could be a lot more happy if he completely lost his access to the internet.
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 No.309398

>>309395
How does it not make sense? Its literally the plot of Amadeus.

 No.309426

some people just are insufferable and only live to torment others
can't you just block him or filter him or something?

 No.309427

>>309393
>The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog
You mean to say that his demeaning behavior may have contrubted to you succeeding in your goals? Perhaps that's why he does it. He wants to see you shine, and as a man, he goes about pushing you down the right path through keyboard combat. He knows that you know what he can do and he aims to show you how confident and vivacious you too could be once you reach his height.
>to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness.
If you have achieved your goals, then you ought to feel pride. You by all means should self-assure yourself that you are able to do what you put your mind to.
>…as a supposed Christian
>As a Christian I shouldn't…
Stop shackling your healthy male emotions "as a Christian" and instead embrace your them as a tool with which to grow.

There is no shame in envy. To want what others have only becomes a sin when you seek to take it from them. To use your envy as a tool for growth and advancement towards your greater goals, then envy is good.

 No.309434

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Not in a hobby but I was the joke at work. The supervisor signed me up for insulting mailing lists for junkmail to my house, sent strange emails from other employee's open computers so I looked like a freak trying to respond to them (people I respected and thought they were having an off day)… I had to quit finally, they guy was unfireable and I wasn't going to stick around for that. I recommend finding another circle of hobbyists: keep the hobby but find another crew.

 No.309435

>>309434
Yeah I used to be bullied by my coworker too. It sucks when you have to go in day after day being called a retard.


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 No.308855[Reply]

Does anyone else envy those people who say "I have 12\6\4 (etc) month to live"?
Imagine KNOWING for sure -more or less- how many time you have left; all the impunity, courage, quickness and nimbleness, resolution and firmness, with which you would do anything and everything.
I envy such people!
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 No.308886

>>308868
>buried
you DO know japan has made burials illegal, right? they just cremate people and have trouble with space of ashes vases

 No.308887

>>308886
burials, cremation, it's all the same to me, I just don't want my remains to stay in Eur*pe.

 No.308888

yeah would be really good to know how much i have left.

 No.308957

Not really, it's a slow death. You should envy those guys who suddenly die from heart attacks or ODs

 No.309374

even when I was more content during the early stages of NEEThood (when I wasn't harrassed daily to find work) I would have liked knowing I had 6 months left. I could have wrapped things up rather nicely. I hate how I could be living shit for decades and then once I find a bit of peace I end up dying. Not so much dying I guess, but the painful process of it, as it usually is.


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