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 No.301194[Reply]

I'm in my 30s. People I went to school with and family friends are married, have high paying careers and are healthy. I got the advantages of parents, an education and the first world and high performing peers and I still fumbled it all.

 No.301195

It's a bad roll. I had to roll at least a 2 to at least be normal and I rolled a 1. Critical failure.

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>>301194
Not a first worlder, but a guy who I went to Uni with is now in another country and already bought his own apartment years ago, last time I checked on him he was progressing in his career meanwhile I am still not even at square one, He was just luckier than I because his father lived in a better country and managed to find him a job through connections, he barely studied or attended classes regularly or anything.

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>>301194
I know some people like that who 'made' it too. One is an old friend from elementary school. I almost never see him anymore but we live in a small town so sometimes we still talk. He is 26, married his high school gf a few years ago, they have an apartment they own and three cats. He's not even in a super fancy career, he just started working after finishing 10th grade and that's why he's basically set now.
The other guy I met in high school and he was kind of a Chad unironically. Not necessarily god like looks but probably a 7 or 8. Most of all it was the way he carried himself and acted, it was always like he was in complete control. He was also top of the class and really industrious and in the time it has taken me to get halfway through my Bachelors he is almost finishing up his Masters and even doing a semester abroad in Japan.
It is what it is. I have my own issues that held me back and I'm working on it. I just have to accept that I will always lag behind most people in terms of socially expected milestones. But then again, I already knew a decade ago that I would become a wizard and with every passing year I come closer to it. Some of us are just a little too abnormal to function well in society. We just have to try to get by regardless.

 No.301222

>>301208
>>301194
we whiped out our chances, it may be CLOSELY too late



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 No.301096[Reply]

I know it's pointless for me to even think about what if I was born white and in the first world as there is nothing I can do to change it. But I have these thoughts frequently, just maladaptively daydreaming constantly how good life would have been if I was white.

Yes, there are problem in white countries like that of healthcare and loneliness as white people do not like families, I think. As a result of that I think a lot of them end up being very lonely. The schooling system is rough and has a lot of bullying as well. And then there is DEI which is not good.

Still though, I wish I was born white and in the first world, possibly sometime before mass migration and everything but even now, as the governments in first world at least pretend to care about you, at least pretend to offer neetbuxx, at least you get a minimum wagie job, as miserable as that would make you, at least you would have a job.

But in the third world, holy shit, you can't even make 100USD a month, which is just not liveable. Like I have heard that parents kick out kids in America, Western Europe, and Oceania when they turn 18, but I have heard so many stories of these kids at least managing to survive and living paycheque to paycheque which I am sure is hard to manage even in the first world. But at least you have some hope.

I have never heard of any success story of a kid being kicked out in the third world, nearly all of them die when they are kicked out.

I am probably mentally ill or maybe it's a coping mechanism that I have where I just keep on imagining my life as a white person and as a first worlder. I am about to be kicked out of my house in third world and I am already imagining worst case scenarios like dying of rabies on the side of a street after getting bit by stray animals, having my hand chopped off and forced to become a part of a begging ring, etc.

Let me know if you guys know of some online jobs that I can do which pay something. But then again it's probably retarded to ask for online jobs when I have no real skills. And whatever skills I have ChatGPT is probably better than me at it.
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 No.301124

>>301123
Are you a third worlder? Go to any shady/shitty job offers website and look up for vacations like "chat moderator," "dating website moderator," "translator for international dating service" and the like.
They will ask some basic question and then start teaching you the ropes.
It's semi-legil since you are scamming people basically, but don't worry, it's safe.
You will start right away under the watch of your manager and then you will do it solo.
If you don't like the job, you can just quit right away and stop contacting them. Again, no strings attached.
But if you go balls deep, wait jntil your first payment atleast.
You can work as many or as little hours as you want, so get the hang of how much you can work in one day.
Depending on your timezone, you might need to work at nights. You will work mostly when it's daytime in USA.

 No.301126

>>301124
Yes, I am a third worlder. I have applied to a few sites including those which looked too good to be true. All of them were kinda shady. Any precautions or OPSEC, I should keep in mind or anything?

 No.301127

>>301122
when i joined an agency they were using infloww to pay me but they blocked my account i worked for a week and i never got my pay but i did get 5% commission so maybe op can get a legit gig but i don't know where you can find a legit gig

 No.301128

>>301126
Just don't give them your credit card info.
I was only asked to show my passport on camera and that's all.
I guess it depends on the company, I worked at one out of thousands out there.
Just don't be a retard and overshare your private info.

 No.301134

>>301128
I just wanna say thank you so much wizanon for helping me. You have no idea how much I truly appreciate it especially in times like these. I have filled like 13 forms right now which only required my email and my name. I am a bit hesitant to fill anonymous Google forms on shady websites which require my birth date and phone number though.



 No.300972[Reply]

Is there any way to do the whole noose thing but ensure I don't end up just brain damaged alive or suffering too much from it? Trying to write a first person fictional story

I'm too stupid to figure out how to get pills and combo them
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 No.301067

religions are great at helping you overcome self concern.
they can help you blow your head wide open.
you need your head blown wide open.
afterwards, you can do what you want.

you will be able to tell when your head has been blown open, because afterward, you don't 'suffer' anymore. you'll have painful experiences still, but you wont cling to stuff.

after that, life is your canvas.

 No.301097

don't do it

 No.301103

>>301067
DO I need my head blown wide open?
WILL I not suffer?

 No.301104

>>301103
good questions

 No.301105

>>301067
You shouldn't go to religion to find freedom from suffering. Blessed are those who mourn, after all.



 No.301044[Reply]

I'm nervous because I've tried so many times and it never worked.

I recently worked alone on the backend of a course project, barely sleeping and also helping with the frontend. Before the deadline, my hands were shaking from anxiety and lack of sleep, which made my stuttering worse. Still, I finished the project (ASP.NET + Angular) and got 11 out of 12 points - almost a perfect score.

But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

What frustrates me the most is the uncertainty - I never know if I will succeed. The chances of failure seem huge. The military pressure makes it worse - if I do nothing, I am sent to war (death sentence), or thrown out on the street, or harshly judged.

Thoughts of suicide used to come a few times a year; now it is almost every day. I do not want to live like this. I am too weak mentally to die, but I feel like I am just existing without hope. On top of that, I am burdened by old wounds and a burning desire to take revenge for all the humiliations I have suffered.

Also, I stutter. Most people don’t really care about it and just ignore it, which is actually good. But a few still mock me, including relatives, saying things like, “If you don’t like it, don’t stutter, or it’s embarrassing for me.”

 No.301045

>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs
Humanity values beauty more than it values useless programming lines. Should have been an artist.



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 No.300443[Reply]

I am too fatigued for hobbies.

I work from my bed.

I do errands in my spare time.

Life is bad.
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 No.300736

>>300666
I can't say who I work for but I'm an middle manager executive. I am autistic and in my country because of disability discrimination laws they have to let me work from home or whatever other adjustments I if I need that unless the job can't be done that way (e.g. if I was a carpenter)

Move part time then take an extended career break, switch to an easy job and live low cost. Maybe that's the way

 No.300742

>>300735
It's a funny story. I was having chest pains and one day I promised to God I'd quit if he he stopped the chest pains in that moment, it did and I took that as a clear sign from God and it was easy as hell because I believed God wanted me to quit. Which taught me a valuable lesson, it's not even important if it was God or not, faith made it super fucking easy, you need faith either in yourself or some higher power, faith will make quitting easy, faith can make anything easy

 No.300786

>>300742
this. motivation is overrated. confidence, not arrogance, is key.

well done anon on quitting. hope your life goes well.

 No.300793

>>300742
But then there's millions of rules and sacraments in the bible that overwhelm me and differences in their interpretation

Instead of complaining that the rosebush is full of thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses, they say. But if I just feel a vague faithfulness to a monotheistic god with a personal relationship and no theology then asking god to do things only seems to work a fraction of the times for me

 No.301042

>>300742
This is why I quit, or atleast heavily cut back on my alcohol consumption. If it just acted like a heart attack one day I'd continue drinking until I died around the 45~55 mark, but at only 31 I had extreme abdomin pain and several other issues all related to my drinking and my doctor said it's only mild damage, it would get far worse and potentially stay like this for decades. So I got better



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 No.301018[Reply]

Do you think babies are happy? They seem to me to be the one beings that I can't hate. Disgusting, yes, but they can't help it. They have done no wrong and are victims of culture.

Some sure, probably have bad personalities and no empathy. But, when I see a cute baby, it kind of softens my vulnerability. It doesn't happen nowadays maybe because I'm ugly but once upon a time babies would sometimes look at me in public, and smile or something. It's such pure, safe validation. I know they're not wanting to hurt me, or mocking me. It's just a innocent human connection where I'm hopefully making them feel safe.

It's sad I won't be in a position to have a baby on my own but also yeah I can't look after myself let alone a baby so it would be hell.

 No.301019

They are a blood sacrifice to bound yourself and your kin to Saturn. Time eternal. They are also pretty potent in rituals (abortion, child abuse,etc) to elevate yourself to the stars. Basically they are the path to ascension . True detective shows the villain doing absolutely disgusting things to escape the loop and become something like a time demon. Children are the currency to break free. Your own children is a wound so deep you break yourself and reality. So when i see babies, i see the price, the promise and the pain.



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 No.300995[Reply]

I 'm n't suicidal but i realized even if i kill myself my family would not be effected that much, i never had a good relationship with any of them at all, not saying that they don't love and care for me at all, but they would recover after a short while, there's n't much to miss about me or that much to grieve upon over my loss.

 No.300996

>>300995
I barely have any presence in the family and house.

 No.301011

>>300995
I do sympathize regardless, they truly failed as family. They sound like horrible people.



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 No.299661[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

That Uncle who was always different edition (you,your future) Previous >>297968
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 No.301001

>>301000
finding the one hobby is up to you anon, to try as many different paths, they just give you the advice, and you do the work.

 No.301002

>>301001
I think the advice is confused. If I kept complaining that I couldn't hear out of one of my ears you wouldn't say "Well keep trying to listen to different sounds until you find something you can hear"

 No.301005

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>>301000
How is your diet? I find that sometimes after I pop a multivitamin pill, things get just a bit more interesting and worth pursuing. The effect is nowhere near as strong as a psychoactive drug, but it is noticeable. We are chemical creatures after all.

I think it's mainly vitamin C, B12, and maybe the herbs in the pic.

 No.301007

>>301003
>so, start with a vision, whatever gets you excited. once you have that vision that makes you FEEL something,

404 doesn't exist.

 No.301009

>>301008
Look up "Anticipatory anhedonia"


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 No.300530[Reply]

anyone here who's a victim and can't grow a pair to strike back. everytime Im in a argument I lose and got btfo and humiliated. the only thing I can do is seethe and cope. any other wizard like that too? it hurts being weak
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 No.300987

>>300986
the meaning of the term 'purpose' differs from the ego's constant power fantasy wet dreams of becoming this that and the other for fame and accumulation of pleasure toys.
a remote control has a purpose, as does

a wiz that goes for a hike while listening to music, and then dies, has a purpose: his corpse serves as nutrition for worms and bugs.

a portion of the admin's income has the purpose of allowing wizards to express themselves here.

it might not be what the ego desires, but it sure is a purpose.

 No.300988

>>300987
How does ego arise? It's when a child first consciously says 'I want this' contrary to a child that just cries because it needs something without being able to reference itself. Once ego is there children are great at inflating it like a balloon with no limit, they love making fantasies just to feed the ego on the hypothetical level( absolutely nothing wrong with that). The adult fails to appreciate the fantasy for a replacement of 'real' ego feeding. The adult either has to be actually successful and only few can be or to be actively restructuring ego.

 No.300989

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>>300536
you're a coward using eastern philosophy mumbo jumbo as rationalization for your weakness.

i need to stop coming to this fucking lunatic den.

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>>300989
the guy in your picture has such powerful, menacing vibes
I'd freeze on the spot if I saw him I.R.L
there would be nothing I could do, he can predict all of my moves

anyway, that poster is just one very vocal guy with messiah syndrome
he thinks silencing the ego is the solution to everything, but ironically he won't shut up and even has a distinct, almost signature writing style

please don't stop coming to this wonderful establishment

 No.300992

>>300989
can you stay and teach us how to be super strong and brave



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 No.297839[Reply]

anyone else not know what theyre gonna do with their future? i had a job at 21 in an amazon facility for about a month, but i lost it because my dad stopped driving me and i had to much anxiety to get myself there. ive been a NEET ever since i dropped out of middle school other than that i have no idea what im gonna do. most days i dont eat because im to anxious to go outside and where i live doesnt help, my dad uses our house as a flophouse for his bum friends to play loud shitty guitar music. i think my future is fucked, it might be better if i spared myself the suffering and committed suicide but i dont have the will to do it, just like i dont have the will to do anything else which is why im in this situation.
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 No.299139

>>297839
I do not even care anymore. Splenic authority, you see.

 No.299140

>>298926
>>298927
>Yeah but for me AI & robotics is the reason
Not a single mention against taxes against land. Huh.
>Whats the point of even trying anything if I already know that humanity will be stripped of its freedoms & autonomy
It always was this way. At such point that you do not even want to live on your own in the countryside or apart from cities, but rather begging for slave place amongst so many other cattle.

 No.300970

I have bitcoin

 No.300971

I'm gonna make music

 No.300979

>>300971
do not make music! do not listen to music either, the sensation feeds your ego

become a soulless NPC
embrace living on autopilot like cattle
chew your cud



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