/dep/ - Depression

I think I have bedbugs

>>239337
Thanks for your post you really put effort in that. Anyways, It could be many things, diet related, bed bugs or most likely it's just psychogenic this is how I feel. Going to visit a doctor

>>239066
this is something i'm almost terrified of ever getting.
hopefully if it happens it's just mild

>>238994
Being alive

>>239546
Be terrified they hurt and sting like a bitch. Drink lots of water and take care of yourself!! It is also generic I've learned

>>239549
*genetic

Maybe ask in the dep crawl thread?

>>238650
I've tried this before but I always feel extremely out of place when sitting in public, people look at me in bewilderment and confusion as to why I'm there. I dont know how this happens if its my appearance or body language or something else, it also happens when I tried going on walks in the forrest. At multiple ocasions I've even had people directly ask "what are you doing here?" in a somewhat agressive/confused tone. When I then reply I'm just "going for a walk" or "having a read" it either comes with a follow up question about what I'm really doing or they just leave me with a weird look.

I'd really love to go out more if it wasnt for this. It's to a degree I worry getting reported or in trouble for merely being outside trying to relax, and I wouldnt be able to deal with that happening.

>>239498
its autism and mental instability same thing happens to me. guy walked by me earlier and just said "jesus.."
just laugh at it and move on. dont let oppression slow you down from being outside on your own clearing your mind.

Yes, and I keep coming back to them. I've taken weeks away from the internet, I've tried other activities, I've meditated quite a lot, and tried to cut myself off from all technology. As soon as the depression hits and I get weak I go back to mindless scrolling to escape consciousness. Low self control is just a bad dice roll and it makes you a worse human.

>>239524
If you have serious mental problems do not even bother doing a "dopamine fast" it is a meme spread by normies on r9k and does not work for people with serious depression you only limit yourself more.

>>239527
Yea better to just be a junkie like you who masturbates to anime succubi all day lol

>>238725
If an elite will be formed then it won't be anarchy anymore. To be more concrete, all selfish people will be eradicated or forced into slavery, the community will protect itself against predators if it gets the necessary education and tools. Anarcho-communism wouldn't exploit the weak because it would exactly benefit them the most. People would voluntarily help others, especially the weak because they would know it is their moral duty.
No, I wouldn't call those people smart who can't give proper counter-arguments. This includes you too. You are evading my question about showing me a non-anarchist society where the elite actually takes responsibility. Either give proof that a society like that exists/existed or shut up. The only kind of "answer" you ever delivered was 'well, what about anarchy?!'.
>it's not just our culture that's built around master-slave relationships, its all of mankind and pretty much all mammals worthy of mention
Heh, typical. You run to your last hope, the last thing you can refer to, Nature. But wiz, my dogs like to lick their balls also so do you think we should follow them in this too? And they like to sniff each others' shit, do you think we should follow their example? Animals do lots of things that is beneath us humans. To try to justify why society treats like utter shit the weaker people and classes you try to project "Nature" and animals onto humans. God. This is embarassing.
>Oh helpful united citizen action? Alrighty, then.
Citizens could deal with criminals better than the elite any day of the week and I will elaborate later in this post why.
>rank
You implying I'm here because of rank? That is a very failed normalfag way of looking at things. How about I'm here because I simply prefer to read books and watch anime instead of socializing in bars and clubs? And now after animals you bring out children. Children copy and do whatever they see the adults doing around them, pretty obvious. If they learn from TV and their parents that they can bully and shit on others then they will do it, surprise. Rank is just titles and medal in most cases buddy, sorry to shatter your naive fantasy. If someone is born to a rich father then he inherits his wealth even though he may be a morally shit person who has no talent Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>238938
>If an elite will be formed then it won't be anarchy anymore
you are clsoing in onto the truth. Anarchy doesn't exist. Or it only exists for a few hours. As soon as humans come together hierarchies form. Even in ranked society hierarchies form withint people of equal rank. Anarchy is often described as a power vacuum that is unsustainable. This is so self-evident and clear that most people grow out of anarchist ideologies before reaching 20 years of age.

I have also noticed that pure intelligence doesn't always converse to consciousness. Many people who are absolute geniuses at math are normie to the extreme when it comes to daily life.

>>238503
Based.
Death to the west.

I disagree with the idea that dumb normalfags are not conscious. They obviously experience their collectivist reasoning, dumb thoughts and instinctive desires. The lack of independence and creativity doesn't indicate that there's literally nothing going on inside.

Did somebody read "psychologihal self-help" by Clay Tucker-Ladd? Did it help you?

>>238638
I don't know what's with the hate against video games. I'd honestly rather play video games 8+ hours a day rather than spend 8+ hours on the internet. With video games atleast my brain is doing some work.

I work on a farm where horrendous animal abuse and neglect happens every day, but the government people doing annual inspections don't care because they're "farm animals", not people's pets. Chickens are having their eyes literally rot out of their heads from infection and no one cares. I was taking them to the vet, but my boss called them and lied to them saying everyone's healthy now. I can't take any more to the vet because if I do, they will (rightfully) report this to some animal health authority, and then all of the birds including the healthy ones will be euthanized. Makes me want to die, watching and being able to do very little. I hate this evil fucking planet full of heartless soulless robots.

I can’t do it anymore. I’m so tired. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up.

>>238320
I relate to you so much… It really makes you go insane, I swear, one of these days…….. They keep screaming, running around, jumping and everything, while their equally loud and disgusting parents laugh and shout all day, directly above my ceiling. I can't go anywhere. Don't have any friends, my father's house does not have a room I can sleep in. Don't even have an excuse to go outside or anything because of this pandemic.

My life, everything is already so fucked up, and this had to come on top of it… Every single day is a herculean struggle against myself not to lose my sanity.

I'm working towards getting out of here, but the closest possibility I have to leave is around next year, and I don't think I'll be able to hold my mind together for that long

I feel more dissociative day by day, like I'm losing my mind bit by bit, like my brain is rotting.

It's too much. It's too much. It's too much

STOP EATING CARBOHYDRATES YOU FAT FUCKING PIG. oh b-but muh twinkies, fuck you and rot

t. reactive hypoglecemic on its way to beetus 2 if it wasn't for keto

>>239164
Kill yourself faggot

>>239167
based and wizpilled, faggots should fuck off.

>>239164
Op here, did the keto thing for 2 months, lost 10 kgs.

All I got out of it is that my bones became so fragile that I’ve been getting injuries from the most basic shit. I get massive tremors just going down the stairs or moving my arms, prolly osteoporosis.

I was far healthier with uncontrolled diabetes.

Rapid weight loss is dangerous, carbs are a necessary evil.

>>239167
It's on a keto diet.it already is

i don't know but they enable my neetdom and freedom so I hope this will continue. I don't want to have a job or anything like that and, in a fucked up anarchist mad-max wasteland, I will be forced to work my ass off to survive in shitty conditions. Universal basic income is hell: normalfilthies would swarm every fucking place in your city/town/country/beach/mountain whatever, instead of being at their workplaces and/or institutional learning faciliies.
I like to enjoy my nature alone while norps are kept busy with the meaningless stuff they enjoy to do. The coronameme did enough damage with all those normgroids invading my favourite woods, beaches and lakes. This shit has to end.

>>239351
It’s going to get much worse. Normfilth were already starting to swarm out into NEETs territory before coronavirus. Get ready for normies to start blatantly tresspassing onto your property like they started doing to mine. They get aggressive too if you confront them and ask them to leave.

Some people work and never get anything meaningful out of it. They waste their entire lives making just enough money to have a roof over their head and that's it. I'd say it's much better to stay a NEET and do nothing than the alternative, which is wageslavery with no end in sight.

They're not real people. They're organic portals, NPCs. Biological programs running on a loop. Empty shells. Soulless humans, devoid of free will.

>>239495
construction and landscaping aren't all there is beyond office work. None of the janitors I've met have had a single health complication from their work.

We have a CD player/radio in my work station. I usually use it to listen to a radio station while working. Sometime between when I came home from work on Friday morning and when I went back to work Friday night, the radio's power chord went missing. Just the chord. The radio itself is (or was, as of the end of my shift on Saturday morning) still there.

It's rather puzzling. If you're going to steal something, why just the chord?

>>239580
And it's hard to believe, but there's still 'good' legislators out there that are making it unconstitutional to get shit like vaxx ports or making it illegal for companies to require employees to vaxx themselves. And there's a good chunk of normals out there against this sorts of draconian terror.
The fact that there were protests against lockdowns with people wearing those red hats IN CANADA and the EU was a miracle that I thought I would never see in modern times. And I'm still seeing clips of restaurant owners personally telling coof health inspectors to fuck off should be a nugget of hope that you're not alone.

For now I would suggest to save your powerlevel on your opinions anything related to Covid, let those who have adequate social skills (aka normals) lead the charge, since most wizards can't jeopardize whatever income they have.
Or make a fake vaxx card if worse comes to worst.

I was initially thinking of choosing Programming as my skill set to invest in hopes that I'll find a long-term job, but seeing how blue collar jobs are increasing in demand, I'm starting to have second thoughts. My gut is telling me that most of the programming positions are already being taken, but I don't have enough evidence to suggest so.

However there's a problem I have with physical labor- I won't bore you with my life story but in short I have permanent weak muscles due to some weird accidents. If I had the physical strength, I would love to do things like construction. I'm wondering if there are any jobs that fit my needs that can secure my income for a long time.

how do you spend surplus salary?
my job is hard for me, though wage is still below average, and there's nothing to show for the hard work. I don't want to go back to alcohol and junk food, all media etc. is free, I don't have hobbies, and being ablee to maybe get a house if I'm alive in 15 years isn't motivating at all.

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>>239346
Want my social insurance number and my mom's maiden name, too, glowie

>>239346
Yes I have them lots

I do
People dying, mostly me murdering them, sexual thoughts with everyone succubi, men, children, not necessarily including myself in the act
Since I was kid, I don't remember a moment in my life where I didn't have them
Yes, became more brutal

Twinkle twinkle little glow
Oh how I hate you so
Fuck you and your stupid thread
Hope you fall onto your head
Twinkle twinkle little glow
Oh how I hate you so