/dep/ - Depression

idk sry op it's a bit different for me.

basically when i'm depressed i'm very very irritable but otherwise lethargy dominates so i don't feel anxiety or shit.

i'm feeling pretty grounded near the baseline.

anxiety makes what feels like physical holes in my brain when i get above the baseline. idk if it's hypomania cuz i haven't been evaluated but that's how i label it cuz it feels kinda similar to the description of hypomania

oh now that i reread your post it seems your main question is about stress. well gee i don't know? i don't think it's manageable to be honest, cuz depression = brain doesn't work right and in that state you can't do meditation/self-check.

i think if you're really interesting in fixing this shit you should start getting your life back on track somehow. meditate on your complexes, figure out what makes you hates yourself and unless it's succubi just go for it idk. but if it's succubi i'm afraid some rope with some vodka is your way to go.

Are you sure your anxiousness isn't just a result of going stir crazy? How often do you do activities outside of the house?

>>304864
Part of me believes this post is reverse psychology to turn us into future mass shooters 🤔

>>305283
Yep - disregard the premise and manifest your own destiny. It might still suck but it will be your own.

>>304864
You should research and follow the people he's influenced by or sometimes str8 up plagiarizes instead.

You'll get a lot farther.

>>305242
he's a jew puppet; a proud jew puppet. honesty is not discoverable in that line of work. but he is knowledgeable of himself, enough that he works for the jew, so no excusing quarter is owed him.

I like that they turned the concept "if your peers dislike you at age 4, you are doomed for life" into a catchy beat

>>305645
>>305646
I hesitate to make any suggestion, because your situation sounds quite volatile, but it seems to me as though you haven't got much to lose in making an attempt. My two cents: go for it, if you believe you can make it work. I was in a similar position years ago: lots of debt, no income, no degree. I chose to get the degree despite my situation, and haven't regretted it. If you do succeed in completing it, chances are it will pay for itself in the long run, and you might be surprised what kinds of doors it can open for you - not only in your chosen field, but also those mysterious positions that only require a degree, no matter what it's in. It does seem that AI is or will be taking over a lot of jobs, but considered from another angle, couldn't having more credentials rather strengthen your position in the coming years? This especially because some of these AI tools are being used to filter job applications, often based on keyword scanning, and so your application could be saved from the trash bin, or at least "signal boosted," by including mention of your degree. I also get a sense that perhaps you feel you are too old? If so, I don't think that is a significant barrier. I got my degree later in life, and I saw people attending the school who were even older than I was. The health conditions and other details of your specific situation, of course, I cannot speak to.

>>305652
I think I understand. You seem to be stronger than me in a lot of ways. I think I may just be better at self-deception. Congratulations on the weight loss: that is a great achievement. I believe you are capable of more great things. I can certainly relate to the desire to shout into the void from time to time, and to difficulties with emotional state changes. No doubt, this world can keep squeezing us, and kill us off whenever it likes. It hasn't become impossibly bad for me yet, for which I am grateful, although I have had some close calls. At a certain point, perhaps one would welcome the change. I wonder if you like to read history? I hated the subject when I was younger, but it has been growing on me the last few years. I find it comforting to think that many of these problemPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>305653
>You seem to be stronger than me in a lot of ways.
Perhaps, perhaps not. I like to think that each person has their own strengths and weaknesses.

>I wonder if you like to read history?
I do enjoy studying history on rare occasions. There's certainly a lot of good, bad, and morally gray to be found throughout history. From the art, mythology, and philosophies of ancient Greece, to the superstition, fear, and brutality of the Aztecs, history can shed light on the many various aspects of the human condition and the human psyche. One of my favorite figures (though this is likely a predictable and popular answer) is Napoleon Bonaparte. People often focus their attention his achievements as a brilliant military strategist (as warfare is so often viewed as the 'sexy' aspect of world history) but not always on his success as a statesmen, or the positive changes he made for France's economy and the welfare of the middle-class families in that time. A really impressive and fascinating man all around.

>I find it comforting to think that many of these problems occur in cycles. Perhaps you find this too fatalistic.
Not necessarily. The fact that human history is largely cyclical is a bit comforting to me as well, as the current 'low-point' we find ourselves in is indicated by historical patterns to most-likely turn around, sooner or later. My only real gripe with this cycle is that it's indicative of the inability of most humans to evolve beyond their baser instincts, thus repeating the same core mistakes like ignoring wickedness for the sake of personal gain or self-preservation. I really think that if the average person had better pattern-recognition, and placed more importance on things like truth, objectivity, and logic, then we wouldn't keep falling into the same traps and repeating the same mistakes. Where that to happen, civilization might actually start to enjoy some real growth in terms of intellectual and spiritual enlightenment, at which point there's no telling how far humans could go. Maybe some day, I can only hope.

I have $4 in my bank account :(

>>305672
Your $3.99 monthly account fee is due today

nothing but pain in my life, soon I will hang myself

>>305049
>we have been granted the intelligence to choose what we want to choose.
Yeah, we can do whatever we want, but we can't choose what we want.

>>305048
Easy fix. If you dont like living, you are responsible for your own life and you should kill yourself (seriously). Killing unborn babies is making a decision against their will, even if they were concieved against their will too, they should decide if dying is the reasonable option. The fact that you dont have the courage to kill yourself, means that you truly dont want to die.

The main argument for antinatalism is that life is not worth living, suffering is far more intense than pleasure.

A good society should abide by three rules:
1) prohibiting meat consumption, allowing only milk and eggs if animals are treated good
2) discouraging reproduction especially for humans because higher consciousness means higher suffering
3) allowing painless euthanasia to anyone not interested in continuing living

If people interpret this as nihilism they don't understand anything, we give value to living beings more than any religious cuck, we want to prevent the suffering of the unborn.

>it’s personal
I think that's the way it is for everyone though almost nobody wants to admit that and they tell themselves that everything they think and believe is based on intellect and rational thinking.
>why continuing to exist is treated as an unquestionable obligation
Its a humiliation ritual and expression of power by those more successful. And sunk cost fallacy or something like it.

Schopenhauer was correct but only specfically for people like us and youre right that we shouldnt be calling normalfag niggercattle dumb just because they dont want to kill themselves.

Sorry to shit up your thread. Tranitor please just delete this post if its too low quality

>>305048
>I don’t feel like my life should have been created
and yet the universe still decided to create you and everyday it keeps creating more people and lifeforms in general.
it also doesnt need to ask for permission because everything inside the universe is part of the universe and it looks like its free to do what it wants with itself, and what it wants to do is to create higher complexity and order, humans are the peak of this complexity.
I have no doubts that the universe is doing this everywhere, it creates life as a natural progression of its constant never ending development.
and the worst part of this is that there is no opting out. sure you can kill yourself but this doesnt solve the problem, the energy is not destroyed its only transformed into something else.
So basically when you kill yourself all that changes is your point of view and perception of the universe changes but death and non existence are impossible.
you are always there in some shape or form and there isnt any escape for as long as the universe exists and it most likely is an eternal thing that has always existed and will always exist in some form.

>>302012
>>302012
>dopamine is made of
tyrosine


also, I asked PerPLX AI to rework my text in "Crowdon Londoner" style:
Bruv, you know there’s bare tyrosine in bananas and buckwheat, innit? And listen — buckwheat porridge, slap a bit o’ gravy on, that hits different. Proper jokes though, ‘cause it’s like the stuff don’t even wanna be porridge in the first place!

>>297753
I tried drinking fuckton of coffee ever since. Did NOT work properly. Allows me to function in some half-hearted/half-assed way (aka posting stuff on Wizardchan instead of doing my work… bak to werk methinks…)

>>303369
found psychoactive substance abuser

>>302015
mind = blown

>>304656
narc

>>297753
>How do you guys fight anhedonia?
Have you tried nicotine?

>>305079
Perhaps that is what I have been waiting for. Drop it.

>>305079
Here's mine: simonc159789@proton.me. Write me, if you want to.

>>305081
https://bpa.st/DF4Q expires in a week.

Also you use big tech mail providers so please let me know if my cock emails weren't delivered.

>>305076
>People, who are not doctors, accuse me of being a schizophrenic.
I think they call you "schizo" simply because its getting trendy to say "[stuff], schizo", as opposed to decade-old idea to complain over "autists" or [crabs] let alone trolls.

2. What about local LLMs?

I take it you have a PC thats not a potatoPC slow machine.

Get a Hugging Face account.
Get a local LLaMa - or similar.
Get a 2TB hard drive (or bigger)
Set up a chatty for the local use. Bonus points if it runs on a laptop - "off the grid"/"away from the outlet" rationale.

>>304745
1. Lain-chan…

I would not trust the world given how things normal ten years ago can get you cance(r/l)ed today. So… I guess you'r

e correct, as opposed to people who think its alright to post everything online. And there are many people who just *had to quit* social media due to reasons like realising some of their old posts were uncomfortable - such as "cringe", or easy to misinterpret.

It's okay to distrust the big data corps also.

>>305563
>>305552
>>305553
Apologies for being rude in "3. … "

It was supposed to sound dramatic but I guess I went overboard…

>>304745
If youre a fan of "the old Internet", try mIRC channels, try some movie forums also.

also, try some 2000s video games which have been hacked to bypass GameSpy's broken multiplayer.

Bonus points if you go to a library and try and learn about some people from your vicinity trying to make art. Chat with them via oldschool social media.

And last, but not least. Fragrantica.it/com/ru/etc. - a bunch of forums on perfumes, the discussions are still alive to this day.

>>302193
7. Actually living in a remote location/off the grid/in a place where less that a half of your building has electricity outlets

>>302003
As a child, yes. A cat and an oddly affectionate one at that. He's dead now so there's no point in grieving. Grief should be reserved before the act of death and released afterwards. When death happens suddenly it shocks us to our core, that's why sudden deaths are traumatic.

>>304321
yes, as in "40 acres of land somewhere in Nebraska"

>>303221
>>303222
I think you should remeber my advice several years later and resort to rescuing a stray off da street next time to try and avoid the stench of grief. Or, you know, visit a shelter to get a damaged one as yer pet. This way, you will feel less grief because you're not "replacing" yer pet - you're offering care to an animal in need.


In layman terms. You'll realize "it's different this time" so you're not cheating on your sweet memories.[/s]

Sorry for your loss. My dog died a few years back and it kills me. It's difficult.

>>305575
wizbro just eat supplements

>>305118
hello fren. fellow southern hemisphere heat allergic wiz here. do research on how to keep your house as cool as possible, avoid sunlight like a plague, and please dont forget to take your vitamin D.

at home, this is all infinitely easier with an AC, but i cant afford one. so here is my routine. i open all my windows at night when the sun goes down, and close them when the sun comes up at 6am. this flushes your place of warmth and slows down heat from seeping in during the day. then i cover all of my windows with tarp from the outside, so sunlight doesnt come in and the tarp doesnt radiate heat inside. i use only one layer of tarp, but my windows still get pretty warm, so ideally you probably need two or three. taking a shower in the late afternoon (when it's usually warmest) will make it slightly more bearable. cook your food in the morning or in the evening, and heat it up in a microwave or eat it cold at noon or the afternoon. if you have to leave, do so as early in the morning or as late into the evening as possible. avoid public transport, especially in the warmest days.

most important of all ALWAYS KEEP TABS ON THE WEATHER. even just mentally preparing yourself for a heatwave will make things easier. plan ahead to do chores outside in the least warm, cloudy days. don't be afraid to reschedule appointments if they land in a day of clear 30C+ weather. whenever it hits 30C or more i know it is one of those days i will just be trying to survive at home and doing nothing else. getting a couple of beers and showering frequently can make things nicer.

good luck on surviving the rest of the summer. our kind would fare a lot better in a place of eternal winter, but that's still a distant dream for both you and me i imagine.

>>305586
(sorry for the wrong reply, meant for OP.)

>>305586
this is pretty solid advice

>20+ water bottles at all time in the fridge
>just wear underwear most days at home
>wet rags around my neck
>spray water on myself in front of the fan, amazing coolness feeling
>cold showers
>plenty of fresh fruit like apple slices, stored in the fridge a few hours before consumption (pre slice them and cover with wrap)
>big sun hats

I have a major aversion to heat, these are some of the things I do to make it better. Sadly my weakness is trying to sleep at night, hard to stay very cool as most of my methods need to be reset every 5~30 minutes and when you're sleeping you need to be still. I live in one of those climates where the heat is almost Thailand tier, but we also get some rather cold winters, but those are far easier to deal with. It's just annoying to need to plan for both

>>305094
>What should I do wizards?
Don't sell your soul to alcohol and don't NEET, you need to keep moving forward in other areas of your life.
>>305121
>This nigger was born in 2008
Not necessarily. Only if he was born sometime in the first week of january. He's probably from 2007.
t. 2007 anonymage

>>305101
>>305102
I'm 29 now but I've been lurking wizard/wizchan since I was 17. Some of us know we're destined to be wizards from a young age.

>>305127
At 29, you are still unaccustomed to being a wizard but the time you are mid thirties, you aren't even really thinking about it much anymore. You have adjusted to it completely by then or at least that is my experience.

The average person has some 9-5 grind that they hate and is more miserable than me and that includes succubi. People aren't delusionmaxxed to the extent I am. It's the only way to survive these days.

>>305122
>t. 2007 anonymage
>anonymage
You are not even human

18. You are far too young, I'm 29 and even I am still young though I'm fast approaching the threshold of 30. Of course we are really only as young as our health. You have been born in such destructive and perilous times, take a minute to weep about it. Stockpile your resources and bite the bullet, just be a wagie for now to build some resilience to that life you'll most likely have to live. Better to get it now than in your 20's like many of us REAL wizards have done. I started working for real in my early 20's and it was a rude awakening, people hated me as I was that age with no experience, atleast if you're a teenager they will dismiss you as some idiot kid. An idiot kid vs an idiot adult, which do you think gets more flak?

>dating apps

Fucking hell what the hell are you doing, we don't respect those types here. Look, even if you were a normie, even if you were a high value normie you'd be wasting your time and money with that.