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[–]  No.298072[Reply]>>299159[Watch Thread]

I feel like society has left me behind it is one of the most fastest moving things to ever exist, and I can never catch up to it because I've been quite stagnant my entire life. Even if I try to improve, I'm still leagues behind the average persons social progression. All I'm really left with is the mere remains of a career, wife, kids, etc.
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[–]  No.298097>>298099

>>298093
They do. It's the only way a balding awkward geek is getting any action even if he has a cushy Silicon Valley job.
The other option is prostitution.

[–]  No.298099>>298100

>>298097
Not the person you were replying to.

Let's also not forget how these female worshippers would ditch or betray their closest friends and family members at the request of their Goddess. Anything for that crumb of pussy.

From what I see, men are usually kept on a leash, even those high-value ones when married.

[–]  No.298100

>>298099
That's shocked me several times though my life. I saw a study once about 'support networks' that even showed how men generally enter a relationship and then cut off all their friends, so they have nobody else with a meaningful connection

[–]  No.298101

>>298090
>you might lose instantly because she got the "ick" when you told her that you voted for trump or that you don't want your son to transition into a daughter.

implying there arent a bunch of tradthots who pretend to acquiesce to their "alpha" husband by larping as a right wing housewife leech so they can have no responsibilities

[–]  No.299159

>>298072 (OP)
This sick mass of cattle is not to be followed. Stop complying if you want some little success.


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[–]  No.298103[Reply]>>299158[Watch Thread]

why the WIZCK do i fall into the depths of anguish whenever i ask for something i see as so dumb or stupid to some cowagie or anyone at all? i keep mumbling randomly how much i want to die, filled with regret for merely sending a message to a groid, thinking i have done something severely stupid. i dont want to die but i hate when this happens and it is very frequent
WIZCK normals, WIZCK EVERYTHING

[–]  No.298104>>298107

i don't know. why do you?

[–]  No.298107

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>>298104
i wizh i knew, i wizh i knew, i all know is that i am going wizane

[–]  No.299158

>>298103 (OP)
Which things do you say?


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[–]  No.296708[Reply]>>299135[Watch Thread]

I unironically think I'm starting to develop some kind of dementia. I'm 35 almost 36. More and more often I find myself spacing out and completely forgetting what I'm doing. I can't focus. I know it's not depression. I was very depressed 10 years ago and nearly killed myself, and I'm a lot happier now than back then, I haven't even thought about suicide in years, so that's not it. I'm not even as stressed as I used to be anymore. I don't even have a lot of negative thoughts. I get confused easily when talking to people and end up doing or saying inappropriate things unintentionally. For example I start dissociating while talking to people and start humming a song, put my hand on their shoulders, other stuff like that. This is going to sound like a massive troll but just the other day I visited my parents, I sat down at the dinner table, I started dissociating, my mom put her hand on my shoulder to get my attention, I couldn't snap out of it fast enough and nearly kissed her. She was horrified and turned away and didn't say anything the rest of the night.

I think one possible solution is to move back in with my parents. Being alone all the time is not good for me. But obviously after what happened there's no way they're going to let me, they probably don't feel safe and for good reason. Lmao. That was my only hope. I don't know what's going to happen to me.

And no, I'm not a drug addict, alcoholic or any of that stuff.
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[–]  No.299034>>299038

>>299021
I'm the same as you but I never used drugs, only used alcohol maybe 5 times in my life, never smoke and I eat clean and excercise.
I limit my screentime to about 2 hours a day and haven't watched porn for a decade. I don't watch TV either. The rare times I stare at a screen for hours on end is in a movie threatre.

Honestly, I think some extremely unfortunate people are just predisposed to extremely early age dementia (I assume you are 20-39 and not 60).

Though I don't discount the effect of your benadryl use either. But it can absolutely happen even if you lived a perfectly healthy lifestyle.

[–]  No.299038>>299155

>>299034
>I limit my screentime to about 2 hours a day
what do you do all day?

[–]  No.299135

>>296708 (OP)
You need a group of autists to be around you. With similar traits, of course.

People around here might not even lift, yet they complain about having natural atrophy

[–]  No.299155>>299156

>>299038
Read. Cook. Explore nature. Do things on your checklist that don't involve talking to others. Build things or renovate. Feed pet and take it out for a walk. Possibly take care of food plants or decorative plants.
Read wizchan or watch an educational clip on space, history, science or some other interesting subject for 30-60 mins. Sleep as long as you can.

Lift weights or use a treadmill/rowing machine in 15 minute bursts spread throughout the day. Do chores like taking out the trash or removing excess dust.

[–]  No.299156

>>299155
>Lift weights or use a treadmill/rowing machine in 15 minute bursts spread throughout the day.
shouldn't you do a warmup before each exercise?
that would extend each burst to 20-25 minutes


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[–]  No.296812[Reply]>>299144[Watch Thread]

maybe all this is just a dream, a very long bad dream. this current era these people with no empathy for one another, this corrupt government and this polarization is just getting to me.

will it still come to me if i close myself off from the rest of the world wizards????
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[–]  No.298889>>298894

I remember reading this when younger:

" Oh for a lodge in some vast wilderness,
Some boundless contiguity of shade,
Where rumour of oppression and deceit,
Of unsuccessful or successful war,
Might never reach me more! My ear is pained,
My soul is sick with every day's report
Of wrong and outrage with which earth is filled."

-William Cowper

[–]  No.298894

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>>298889
I like this a lot.

[–]  No.298896>>299144

This is why Christianity is the one true religion. Self control, humility, treating others like you would be treated is the only antidote for this satanic spiritual rot. 'Normies' are the same people the Bible refers to as the wicked. It is no coincidence all succubi and normies get off on tormenting and torturing innocent young virgin men.

[–]  No.299144>>299152

>>296812 (OP)
Such cattle, such rulers. What do you want to come after you exactly?

>>298896
Your bible is the result of cathars, arrians and other sects being wiped out by the former satanists who live in luxury while cucking people with a book that claims that "no rich man will be in paradise" and "put the other cheek" and "the slave must obey their master dutifully". while living in palaces, of course, and having pederasty codes that are not even a secret anymore.

Treating others like you would be treated is dangerous, because that allows you to be known before knowing them first. We cannot simply always apply this rule, not expect it. About gangs who are totally against that principle, do you have any means to make them pay? Are you minimally ready or rather ready to show your ass to them and just letting it be?

Not a single wizard around here knows how to get rid of a corpse by chemical disolution in a bath tub. Prove me wrong.

[–]  No.299152

>>299144
>Not a single wizard around here knows how to get rid of a corpse by chemical disolution in a bath tub. Prove me wrong.
I don't need that knowledge, but don't you know how to dissolve a body in a bath tub? Wouldn't that account for at least one wizard around here?


[–]  No.297463[Reply]>>298495>>299150[Watch Thread]

Do you think normies could ever accept us or even tolerate us for real? It's obvious that absolute majority people is repulsed by a NEET lifestyle, failed dating/life/work experience, motivational or existential problems. Do you think there's a space for us to exist at all? Is it acceptable, is it planned for? Or we are truly just the trash of the world that should be cut out from society the sooner the better?
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[–]  No.297693>>297694

>>297675
It's insane that you got to be proving your value and have "somethihg to offer" just to be allowed to live.

[–]  No.297694

>>297693
It is, and says a lot about people who claim to be "liberals". Total double-standards. I suspect human beings have a genetic predisposition towards attacking downward, and liberals practice this while simultaneously denying it, counteracting this betrayal of their value system by overcompensating in forms such as compassion for criminals and open-border posturing etc. The fact that the authority-figure of the mainstream media is so openly hostile to our kind justifies individual behaviours of this sort.

But again there is a necessity to accept that this will not change, and adaptation is the only mechanism for survival, save for the impractical and indirectly self-destructive option of "removing the problem".

[–]  No.297696

>>297621
>Philadelphia
Never began for him

[–]  No.298495

>>297463 (OP)
You better stop following that cursed trail of "normies pls mercy me" and start taking advantage of them or causing havoc.

Henry David Thoreau adn uncle Ted almost got it. You must just learn to hide while selfsubsisting.

[–]  No.299150

>>297463 (OP)
Freedom is taken. Rarely given.
>>297607
Of course they do. Denying it is part of the game.
>>297617
I have done that, but not with such irritation. It's better if you just let it fall how obssessed is people with giving succubi the standard of judgement because they are coomers in perpetual urge. Then they might be ashamed of… exactly being so. succubi do not judge each other so hardly, and that's why most men are just putrid slaves to them. Not worth a breath of attention nor sympathy about it.


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[–]  No.295602[Reply]>>298895[Watch Thread]

How badly will escitalopram fuck my libido? Is it permanent? They're also 9 months expired is it still safe to take? Will it lower my heart rate?
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[–]  No.298509>>298515

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Stop that shit right now.

[–]  No.298515>>298639

>>298509
Can you explain how to do the holotropic breathing in a few sentences? Is music necessary?

[–]  No.298639

>>298515
-You need assistants, at least one. Towels, paper, cushions. A comfy and well supplied site.
-Music is to take advantage of the trip itself.
-The holotraveler must have them eyes covered.
-Start hyperventilation.
-The sitter, the watcher must know that some special moments within the hallucinations of the sitted one must be taken care of in special, accurate ways, yet usually people asks for whatever (help for stretching, pression, voices, whatever)
-Some experiences can be quite unsettling yet none of them dangerous as it happens when using LSD.

There are some music lists in YT specially put for these practices. They always recommend carrying out these things under professional eyes.

[–]  No.298895>>299146

>>295602 (OP)
Why does a wizard need a libido?

[–]  No.299146

>>298895
Read the Tao of Sex, you. We need that.


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[–]  No.297839[Reply]>>298926>>298927>>299139[Watch Thread]

anyone else not know what theyre gonna do with their future? i had a job at 21 in an amazon facility for about a month, but i lost it because my dad stopped driving me and i had to much anxiety to get myself there. ive been a NEET ever since i dropped out of middle school other than that i have no idea what im gonna do. most days i dont eat because im to anxious to go outside and where i live doesnt help, my dad uses our house as a flophouse for his bum friends to play loud shitty guitar music. i think my future is fucked, it might be better if i spared myself the suffering and committed suicide but i dont have the will to do it, just like i dont have the will to do anything else which is why im in this situation.
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[–]  No.298924

>>298921
I have had similar experiences. I went to college for CS, fell hook line and sinker for that meme since I was a lonely teen who just wanted to "work with computers". I got to work a couple of decent jobs that way where bosses didn't expect too much of me and kind of just let me figure stuff out at my own pace, because what I was working on was essentially just a side project of no greater importance. In that setting, because I was forced to learn these things I did and I got better and it became less stressful, though I wouldn't call it fun. But it was something I think I wouldn't have hated doing every day for the next 40 years.
Previously I've tried motivating myself for various private coding projects, to no avail. It's fine if I have to do it for work but I have 0 internal drive to spend any amount of time on it in my free time. I think the problem is also that with these computer skills, it is almost expected that you pour a shit ton of your free time into projects and what not, simply because it is easily accessible.
At the end of the day, I think a lot of us end up in situations like these because of a lack of internal drive and no forced exposure to situations where we might have to try out new things.

[–]  No.298926>>298927>>299140

>>297839 (OP)
Yeah but for me AI & robotics is the reason. Whats the point of even trying anything if I already know that humanity will be stripped of its freedoms & autonomy in 5+ years from now. My only marketable skill (gamedev) is gonna get devalued way before that too. The age of aquarius leaves me with no options

[–]  No.298927>>299140

>>297839 (OP)
>because my dad stopped driving me
>>298926
>AI & robotics is the reason

I wish I could understand the mindset of people who believe none of their problems are their own fault. Do you just believe you're perfect in every way and you'd be a trillionaire if not for these outside factors? I honestly envy that level of self confidence.

[–]  No.299139

>>297839 (OP)
I do not even care anymore. Splenic authority, you see.

[–]  No.299140

>>298926
>>298927
>Yeah but for me AI & robotics is the reason
Not a single mention against taxes against land. Huh.
>Whats the point of even trying anything if I already know that humanity will be stripped of its freedoms & autonomy
It always was this way. At such point that you do not even want to live on your own in the countryside or apart from cities, but rather begging for slave place amongst so many other cattle.


[–]  No.298907[Reply]>>298947>>298952>>299137[Watch Thread]

Is anyone else lacking formative, human experiences? I've never:

>Dated anyone
>Had an actual friend
>Had a real conversation that went past surface level shit. Not with anybody, not even with my parents, they just say "Oh yeah anon me too…now I need to rant about my day,"
>Had a in-depth conversation about my hobbies and interests past "Yeah I like X"
>Been anywhere or done anything really, I mostly just sit in front of my PC.

I'm 25 now. I realize I have no framework for connecting with people – I don't have a lack of empathy or anything, in fact I'd say I feel for people too strongly sometimes. I just can't connect with them. I'm polite and quiet and that's it.

>What about online relationships

Outside of imageboards, I basically don't exist.

I feel like 25 is too late too. I know it's not "old" but most people my age have been to concerts, have had foundational experiences like heartbreak or just smoking weed after class with friends, etc. and then I'm a blob who's never even been to anyone's house or been invited anywhere. I feel like my soul hasn't been developed. I know I have a mind and moral systems and thoughts but I have no way of communicating them without a lot of deliberation. There's nothing there. I don't know. But can anyone else relate?
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[–]  No.298947>>298948

>>298907 (OP)
>I feel like 25 is too late too.

i thought so too when I was 25. now I am 33, 8 years passed and I wish I made any kind of steps towards progress instead of dooming about how it's over and I'm too old and behind everyone else.

from what I've read it's not even that unusual to be in this position with how the job and housing market forces people to live with parents and not have money to travel and eat out and internet brainrot/social media/dating apps doing a number on peoples ability to connect with others in a human way. also adults seem more infantilized now with how mainstream nerd/gaming culture has become

[–]  No.298948

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>>298947
>now I am 33, 8 years passed and I wish I made any kind of steps towards progress instead of dooming about how it's over and I'm too old and behind everyone else

I'm in the same place, wiz. I'm 32 and every now and again I look back at my past and think to myself "If only I had stuck with X or tried Y, I would be living comfortably now." Unfortunately, I am very prone to discouragement and thus give up on things easily and often. But just like you I was continually lead to believe that I was behind everyone else or that I was too old to pick up certain skills/jobs. It gets even worse when we're told that many jobs are being outsourced or becoming obsolete, continually convincing people like us that we have no future and no prospects until it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, then we end up looking back years later and discovering that we were blatantly lied to and sabotaged.

[–]  No.298951

>>298932
thank you for the reply wiz.
>I got disgusted and disillusioned
I have a feeling a similar thing might happen to me, which is why I have put it off for over a decade now. I guess my obsession with Japan started like most, during my youth when I was rejected by my surroundings and found solace within Japanese media. I always thought Anime was so much deeper than the Western shows the kids around me would watch and I particularly loved those bittersweet stories about loss, time passing by and so on. Of course I no longer have this naive fantasy of "once I will move to Japan, I will be accepted for who I am", nor do I even really have that desire anymore in the first place. However, there still remains a residual pull towards Japan for me, and I don't know why. I enjoy listening to the language, I like how the architecture looks different or how orderly the streets and public transport seem and so to this day, I cannot quite put the idea out of my mind of wanting to go there. Rationally I know that my ideals and feelings will shatter once I see the real thing but at least then I will finally be able to lay these youthful dreams to rest.

[–]  No.298952

>>298907 (OP)
yeah but I'm schizoid so I never wanted them.

[–]  No.299137

>>298907 (OP)
I refuse to call that "formative experiences". Not giving my attention to brainlet normies and not wasting money eating outside are my priorities about those things you said.

You don't need a framework to connect, you a reason to do it. And reject whatever has not or gives not so. Keep measuring yourself by normie standards if you still want to miss whatever else of worth might be inside you.

I used to be like this and I regret it deeply.


[–]  No.298956[Reply]>>298959>>299136[Watch Thread]

If one were to shoot a gun point blank range at their face, which bullet would guarantee a quick incapacitation?

[–]  No.298959

>>298956 (OP)
At this point I'm starting to think this board should have a Suicide General that links misc common resources. Check this:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/guns-firearms-megathread.9042/

Basically, shotgun > buckshot > insert in mouth at the correct angle to sever spinal cord > BANG!…
Most likely result is instant death. Also, reminder that you should mostly complete your "bucket list" before attempting suicide, anything else is non-logical.

[–]  No.298962

The same bullet that would quickly kill whichever doctor, therapist, or teacher pushed you to brink of hopelessness.

[–]  No.299136

>>298956 (OP)
The one aiming for the knee.


[–]  No.298769[Reply]>>299045>>299133[Watch Thread]

Semaglutide is destroying me. Have to take it for weight loss because I’m a fat slob. I’m also highly addicted to junk food and sugar. I’m not yet an alcoholic but I have been drinking once or twice every week for years now. Something like a 12 pack every week in a single night. So it’s not like my body is fully dependent on alcohol but I’m almost there. However, binge eating and beer are the only pleasures I have in my life. Semaglutide is slowing down the eating part but I still have food cravings and feel anxious over not having the dopamine kick out of food. I also miss those good times while drinking alone in my room listening to music and daydreaming while gulping down lots of beer. It feels like an intimate moment all for myself. The only time where my feelings are free to flourish because my sober state is neutral and numb. I take antidepressants and they do nothing. I got the feeling semaglutide won’t make me happy either. Yeah I will be thin but what’s the point of staying healthy if I’m a retard friendless loser NEET with no education, no money and no will to live. I hate sobriety. I’m going to starve myself to death just to be miserable yet thin.
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[–]  No.298902

Just stop being unhappy.

I'm being seriousl here. Just stop allowing yourself to be unhappy and literally gaslight yourself into finding everything enjoyable. it is basically what I did and it works. If you train the brain to be a certain way then that will become its new default. You trained it to be an unhappy and miserable fuck, you can train it to do the opposite.

[–]  No.299040>>299045

I find that I don't want alcohol on those drugs- interesting you still want to drink.

[–]  No.299045>>299046

>>298769 (OP)
>im broke
>im on one of the most expensive modern medical treatments available
Uh?

>>299040
>he is on them too
What are the chances jesus.

Not judging or anything, Ive gained a bit of weight recently. I think most people are, kinda normal given the awfully stressful times we are all going through.

[–]  No.299046

>>299045
I'm on the cheap generic compounded version for $200 a month. It works but in the morning I sometimes vomit brushing my teeth because my stomach is weak now. The not wanting alcohol is best side effect. I'd say I'm close to even with money saved on food and drink.

[–]  No.299133

>>298769 (OP)
The most famous solution against fatness was the glucometer control: whatever rises you blood sugar beyond 100 is messing you. this control is to be practiced 1 hour after every meal. Check this: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfgUZVcU77wgrfDa6IRkeGg


Some others do things much less slow and go keto. In order to still keep yourself losing fat after day 21 (when keto adaptation is completed), you must rise your sugar intake to 50g per day, instead of 20g. Then back the 20g when another pack of 21 days is passed. I learned this from Jorge Bayter, but I didn't find any english translation of his works. He also has a YT channel.

You are playing yourself a rotten fool if you did just go as far as to take that bullshit. Investigate a bit.


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