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 No.302248[Reply]

Last year I did a community college course in construction, it was a nice little multi skills course in a small building in the middle of nowhere where, there were only 100 or so people there, it was great, unfortunately I failed to get an apprenticeship and have to do another community college course

It’s landscaping, which seems pretty nice, only issue is that it’s in a very large building, it’s the college’s main building, it’s fucking huge and there’s over 1000 attendees

I am absolutely fucking dreading it

Pray for me bros

 No.302249

Just drive up, give all 1000 attenmdees a firm handshake, and ask when do you start

 No.302250

>>302248
Buy bitcoin

 No.302252

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>>302248
>Snake? Snake!? Snaaaaaaaaaaaake!!!!



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 No.296143[Reply]

what does he want from us?
why is he torturing us?
why does he give great amount of suffering and horror to poor believers while giving happiness and wealth to evil disbelieving people?
why is he so careless?
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 No.302157

>>302156
Nature is interested in only two things—to survive and to
reproduce one like itself. Anything you superimpose on that, all
the cultural input, is responsible for the boredom of man. So we
have varieties of religious experience. You are not satisfied with
your own religious teachings or games; so you bring in others
from India, Asia or China. They become interesting because they
are something new. You pick up a new language and try to speak it
and use it to feel more important. But basically, it is the same
thing.

 No.302158

>>300436
This is absurd. We don't transcend our reality, by definition of what our reality is. If God is given birth to by us, he isn't God. Can you give birth to miracles? The word of God from Heaven? No. There exists a limit to the human mind and God, by definition, would exist beyond it.

 No.302180

>>302155
Why don't we say that the self awareness itself is a proof that God exists, Our awareness is of God's knowledge or either that we created omnipotence through our awareness

 No.302183

>>302180
the self
is an insubstantial construct invented to lend coherence and meaning to
an existence that is actually chaotic and meaningless

 No.302199

>>302155
It doesn’t matter whether the cultural hero-system is frankly magical, religious, and primitive or secular, scientific, and civilized.
It is still a mythical hero-system in which people serve in order to
earn a feeling of primary value, of cosmic specialness, of ultimate usefulness to creation, of unshakable meaning. They earn this feeling by carving out a place in nature, by building an edifice that reflects human value: a temple, a cathedral, a totem pole, a skyscraper, a family that spans three generations. The hope and belief is that the things that man creates in society are of lasting worth and meaning, that they outlive or outshine death and decay, that man and his products count. When Norman O. Brown said that Western society since Newton, no matter how scientific or secular it claims to be, is still as “religious” as any other, this is what he meant: “civilized” society is a hopeful belief and protest that science, money and goods make man count for more than any other animal. In this sense everything that man does is religious and heroic, and yet in danger of being fictitious and fallible.



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 No.301028[Reply]

People willl always hate you if you're asocial and never talk.
There is no way around it.
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 No.302130

>never talk to anyone nor give a reason for anyone to pay attention to you
>no one pays attention to you

WHO WOULDVE THUNK.

Literally just say what comes to mind. That is what the "normies" are doing. They see a hot succubus and tehy ask her out. They see someone doing a cool thing so they walk up to them and ask about it. It comes easy to them because they havent built up a complex that makes them overthink themselves out of action.

 No.302131

>>301724
Its so dumb how this works. It is like everyone is playing this stupid game where they tell you not to do something and you are supposed to do it anyway. Society doesn't have to be like it but it is.

 No.302134

I know what I need to do to be more social. I need to watch modern entertainment, like stuff on Netflix. That way I can relate to people better and understand how modern people interact.

But I can't bring myself to do it. It always makes me feel so inadequate to watch modern entertainment. I always feel like I'm the butt of the joke.

I always see myself in whoever is getting made fun of. Like if I watch Squid Game I'm sure they shit on some guy and I'm going to relate to the guy and feel like crap about myself.

 No.302188

>>302134
its called "empathy"


try watching pr0n parody of Squid Game instead of the real stuff (IF your ELECTROCHEMISTRY stat is high enough)




or play Disco Elysium, for i dunno

 No.302194

>>301028

I have a recipe for a shaky cocktail of hate and tolerance.

Switch cities, provinces and towns.
Wear something stereotypical of your home county, combine it with "autism awareness" merch or such.

Boom. Your quirkyness is now "plausible" spread between *being around autists too much (not "personal" autism) and "not local" feel (you're from some distant area for locals of the city you're in now)

>>302129

AFAIK, the world of gesture "speakers" is:

a) has several "systems" of gestures, just like languages
b) the "systems" don't correlate with real world languages.
c) we live in XXI century. Set up a chatbot, hand out strangers your business cards that inquire them to use non-vocal ways of communication. Effectively, you'll throw their pep talk into a proper chatbot.



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 No.301013[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Chronic physical pain, insomnia and povery, edition
Previous thread >>299661
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 No.301898

>>301745

The month I lived in a group home is genuinely the only time I've felt content.

 No.302189

>>301715
What you're experiencing is a sort of realization that absolutely nothing is under your control, and trying to exert control is suffering. It's a common realization/doctrine in many spiritual and mystical texts for a reason, and 'letting go' has actually given me more peace of mind.

Upon letting go, you'll experience a sort of existential dread because your ego has stopped clinging and is beginning to die, so the real you is emerging. You really only need to endure bravely, feel and be patient.

I urge you to continue down this path. I am in this path aswell and it hasn't been easy, but it's the only path I have left to walk on. I am undergoing this journey through deep rest and non-striving.

 No.302456

>>301736
I can't believe that I'm reading the "nobody:" meme on wizardchan. It's really the end of everything. The new generations have invaded. Which if you think about it, it's totally normal, after all.
The problem is that we oldfags are still alive. Humans should die decades earlier.
It's all wrong.

 No.302457

>>301868
you wish

 No.302458

>>302456
Whiny cunt sees a non-ancient meme and thinks Wizchan is being taken over by zoomie woomies. "It's the end of this place" he laments, only contributing sage'd posts about how much he dislikes it here.


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 No.298058[Reply]

most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.

even when some try to gaslight themselves that their loser-lifestyle can be comfy, we all deep down know that this isnt supposed to be *life*.

objectively, we're the bottom of the barrel, rock bottom essentially; we can only cope by escaping reality and isolating ourselves and anytime we encounter the real fucking world, we're deemed as fucking subhumans by others AND ourselves.

we're rotting, just wasting space, energy and oxygen while the only thing left for us is waiting to die, respectively.

i dont get how we all havent already committed suicide by now cuz our fucking trash genetics have been haunting us for our entire existence, yet we collectively and voluntarily decided to continue living. why the fuck are we so stupid???
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 No.302150

>>298058
I would be satisfied with my NEET lifestyle, if only I didn't have this annoying OCD and a dysfunctional family. Still suicide is simple too hard for me and I don't know what there is after.

 No.302162

>>298058
If you have to ask, then your situation might not be as bad as you think. Death is a scary thing and it's hard to go through with it unless your life is permanently ruined, which is rare.

 No.302166

>>302162
>unless your life is permanently ruined, which is rare
it's not rare, it takes one traumatic event to ruin it forever

 No.302182

I enjoy my escapism and engage in some productive activites for the sake of my mental health.
I really don't think society has any right to shit on me given how retarded and clownish it is. Not that anyone cares about my existence in the first place.

 No.302355

>>302162
/thread



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 No.300505[Reply]

have you ever been told you had no personality? I was told that when I was a kid. it hurts. one day, I asked the psychologist I was told that and if it was true, she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said. I believed her but now I'm thinking I don't have a personality and people without personality exist and she was wrong (she maybe just said that to make me happier about myself).
I noticed I was a contrarian and thats my whole personality:being contrarian. but everybody can be contrarian therefore it's not a real personality, and so I have no personality. damn it suck being a NPC (I hate that buzzword).
I'm not telling you how to get a personality because it would be fake and it will show, I don't know maybe I just want to know your reactions over this. maybe you too was told you had no personality and can relate to this post and feel like a NPC too.
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 No.300601

>>300600
hurt is fine
no need to act
just feel

thats actually super advanced that you can just feel the hurt, instead of going sigma male in response

 No.300603

>>300601
>hurt is fine
>no need to act
>just feel
What a great advice, this is how spree killers are created. If you encourage others to internalize the stress then you only end up with more broken and insane people. You feel things so that you can act on those feelings. You shouldn't bottle things up because the lid is going to blow off one day.

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>>300505
>N.P.C because no personality
No, it's actually the other way around. What normies call personality is a fake persona, a facade built on T.V, Netflix and Youtube. Their "personality" means having your mind set on things and having internalized ideas regardless of whether they're true or not. They just imitate what seems cool to them. Normies with "personality" are literally actors playing a role, but in real life.

Having "no personality" means that you have an open mind, are willing to give ideas a thought, instead of processing them through preconceptions and prejudices. You are the real player because you are not bound by your role. You choose the dialogue options, they can only respond in accordance with their personality.

The downside is that people will see you as indecisive because they're used to getting quick, machine-gun responses. Waiting in silence to let you think is something inconceivable to them because they themselves rarely actually think before responding. They rely on the response just appearing in their head, like a reaction triggered by a stimulus. Input - reaction - output. That's why they give you the fluoride stare if you take a moment to think about what they said.

 No.300622

>>300603
you cannot consciously bottle things up. things get bottled up when we run away, escape, and numb our mind.
if we show up to our feelings, sensing them, we are not bottling things up.

action itself is not virtuous.
specific actions can be very useful, and may either be INFORMED by feelings, or done in DIRECT MECHANICAL REACTION to the feelings.

the latter is perpetuates suffering.
the former is done from a place of freedom and spaciousness.

 No.302167

>>300505
you use wizardchat instead of a mainstream succial media.

A piece of personality - check



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 No.301446[Reply]

Living with my mom. My mom just zaps all the life-energy out of me.

Do ou know this feeling?
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 No.301549

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They are happy, when I'm miserable. That's 99% of the time.
When I'm happy, they are miserable. That's 1% of the time. And I feel so free and like an actual human being, once in a while. Similar to when they are not here, or I am not here. I can think, I can plan, I can do.
I wish them more misery, so I can be happy… for-ev-er.

 No.301740

>>301527
This analogy is very creative and fitting wiz. On most days I don't manage to begin making the house, which makes it extra tragic when it's knocked down after an hour or two.

 No.301750

>>301446
same settis

mine employs "fasting, Orthodoxy style" to starve me from the microelements found in dairy/fish/meat/poultryeggs/whatelse non-veeeeeeegan

 No.301751

>>301527
>>301527
same thing


can't have a proper session to study programming

 No.302163

>>301446
My parents have been some of the biggest nuisances in my life. It's the only thing driving me to stop being a NEET. Even if I have to be a wagie at least I'll finally be on my own, making mistakes on my own terms.



 No.300437[Reply]

I've left this place for the last couple of years. But I'm returning back. I need advice and you're the people with more knowledge about this. One of my parents suddenly became sick with cancer, likely will turn terminal soon. I'm finally past 30. I left this place because I felt that I matured, being here reminded me too much of my younger self.

I'm a psychiatric patient, an addict, parents abused and neglected me, you know the details already. My plan was to live with parents until I finish paying an education debt, which is in December. I've lived mostly by myself through my 20s.

What would you do in my scenario? I don't want to be near parents. How have you dealt with this? Just being 20 seconds around my father, I want to blow my head off with a sawed-off shotgun. The screams, the tantrums, the stupid noises, the smell, the words. My mother is barely more tolerable.

NOTE: this is third-world, forget about government or family helping me.
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 No.301420

OP here. Wow, this was around 40 days ago. I got fired for asking for a better salary. I relapsed but I'm quitting tomorrow. I've relapsed but not every single day, most days though. I'm trying not to make things worse. Mom's cancer is better than expected right now, the future is uncertain. She already had her surgery. I was/am deeply hurt by my employer's response, I was a good and dedicated worker. I brought in results, I always met deadlines, in advance more than half the time.

I've been very depressed and more suicidal than usual. But I've always beaten despair, I've stoop up from being down again and again. I'm a survivor. I'm resilient. I'm like a phoenix. I won't give up. I regret my short relapse though.

 No.301421

>>301420
hope youll find another job to help mom!

 No.301742

I'm not gonna pretend to be someone experienced with that a lot. I would say just do what you think seems right. It's probably worth spending some time with family member if their time is limited but don't force yourself too hard. Try to make peace where you can.

 No.301743

>>300437
You have my sympathies. While my own situation is far from as bad as yours, my father is an alcoholic who I'm pretty estranged to at this point. I still talk to him weekly and sometimes visit him or help him mow his lawn because he is disabled. We get along well enough generally but I don't really feel much of an attachment to him. I guess it's just a faint sadness that he keeps deteriorating physically. Sometimes I wonder how I would react if he were to become terminally ill or something like that. I guess what makes me stay in contact with him is a sort of sense of responsibility as his son and because I would probably feel worse if I just let him rot because he is fairly socially isolated otherwise. Which is to say - do whatever you can best live with. You are likely to feel guilt either way, doomed if you do, doomed if you don't. So your best shot is to take the course that will minimize your own guilt. Best of luck.

 No.302161

>>301420
>OP here. Wow, this was around 40 days ago. I got fired for asking for a better salary. I relapsed but I'm quitting tomorrow

eh?

Relapsed..
ah. I get it.



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 No.302082[Reply]

Can I die just by taking codein with promethazine and a bit of alcohol? How much of each would I need? I want a peaceful death, to cause as little commotion as possible.
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 No.302144

Good luck anon. Codeine is the weakest opoid so i wouldnt recommend it. Just keep searching until you find something that 100 percent does the job, you dont want to mess this up. You dont have to stay here if you dont want to!

My life is a series of meaningless torments with no end and i think about ctb everyday.

 No.302147

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>>302084
It's quite *gaiety-inducing* to know Lt. George Gay Jr. (picrel) is known for outrageous amount of will to live - he swam for a day somewhere near Midway.

 No.302149

>>302147
(he kinda cheated though, using a cushion from his plane's seat as a makesh1t stealth life raft)

 No.302153

>>302147
Original Gay term is happy or something.
So, maybe suicide can be happy sometimes.
Like Yisus on the crux.
but plis dont do it.

 No.302159

>>302149


>A CUSHION

a daki XD



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 No.299368[Reply]

How do you guys deal with fatigue, if at all. Some days are better but just when you think you're beginning to get a grip again you just wake up and know exactly that you landed back at the bottom of the hole again. Everything is a herculean effort, even typing this out my eye lids are heavy despite being only late afternoon and me having slept for at least 8h last night. No matter what steps I take, sleeping properly, eating better, hell I even started doing some basic exercise every day to get the blood flowing a bit. None of it matters. All of this hard work and it's completely meaningless because I can't seem to get better in a consistent way that matters.
Yet I have to work to live and try my best to finally finish my degree, hopefully before I'm 30 or my university kicks me out. On days like this it's like I've lost 50IQ points and I'm barely functional. I have to keep my living space in a state of acceptable cleanliness. Do any of you guys have any tips on how to make it more bearable?
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 No.302036

>>301998
>it sickens me, go back to reddit !
Apologies.
Oh silly me for I have forgotten depression can be cause by several various things

SCH, brain damage from physical damage, exposire to neurotoxins, exposire to heavy metals, various stuff have "depression" listed as one of the symptoms.


still, my point stands: in my case, my /dep/ zone appears to be the result of my mother not feeding me the right food.

 No.302142

pains in my arms and legs, brainfog and trouble thinking clealy, nightmares. doctors are useless unless you want to get fucked up on pills. think about suicide everyday

 No.302143

I read somewhere that it's just best to go with it yet not get too lazy.
There's a saying that has both a good and a bad meaning: a rolling stone gathers no moss.
Good because you're open minded and dont want to be one with nature (hence why you're rolling).
Bad because, in some cultures, moss is a sign of substanance and belonging with said nature (which you cant gather because tbe rolling wont let you settle down).
But it's all subjective in the end.
(As in I can feel bipolar irritants preparing their "contradictions" like they always do -_-)..

 No.302145

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i was having a monster and a few cans of other soft drinks daily. i noticed when i get caffeine from these drinks they wake me up for about 10 minutes if only and then i crash. this didnt used to happen years ago, but i was also never quite this depressed. im gonna try quitting caffeine to see if things change but i doubt it.

ultimately its this: my life sucks and i feel shit, so im tired and cant do shit. i know what the source of my misery is but i cant solve it, ive been feeling this way on and off for 14 years, so basically over half my life, in that way its more me than me. who is me if not the constant self-destructive thoughts and general malaise thats defined my little free trial existence? maybe i should meditate and keep a gratitude journal X)

the only answer i can seem to come up with is i need to force myself to do something which might actually be good for me in a more real sense than just vague "this would be good" or "i should do this" but i dont know what. everything seems so pointless, even when i know doing anything is objectively less pointless than sitting around being miserable. it doesnt matter. the grief i feel about my life and situation is too hard for me to operate above. anyway my eyes are getting heavy again so im done. enjoy this waste of text.

 No.302146

>>302145

>i was having a monster and a few cans of other soft drinks daily. i noticed when i get caffeine from these drinks they wake me up for about 10 minutes if only and then i crash. this didnt used to happen years ago, but i was also never quite this depressed



Relateable! Used to be the same for me, say, 3 years ago.

By the way… Quitting coffee at once, "cold turkey", is a bit risky, you may get a headache and such.


Taking 3-4 days of vacation to crash on a sofa, maybe watching funny cartoons from yer childhood without thinking, why they arent funny now…


….you your energy supply will improve


also
buy more real meat (liver also counts) to resupply your body's "unreplaceable" aminoacids reserves

also
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