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 No.292683[Reply]

I'm too poor to get a bigger apartment or home and nice furniture, so I'm stuck in a very small apartment that only has a tiny room and a bathroom.

Is anyone else getting depressed by their lame surroundings?
Before anyone tells me to get a job, I already work minimum wage.
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 No.292689

Eat at a table, listening to music or with your family. Try to paint the wall a nicer color, get a bed to put the mattress on, and a desk to put your PC on, where it can't be seen from the bed.

Do not eat in bed, nor use the PC in it, always eat at a table and try to cook for yourself.

 No.292692

>>292689
Colors make a gigantic difference. I smoothed and sanded my small bedroom, painted it with a quality paint in a rich deep blue shade with 3 layers, and I'm so much happier now than when they were dirty white with stains.

And it cost less than a hundred bucks in total. No need for furniture or expensive trinkets.

 No.292694

>>292683
Get yourself a desk and a decent chair. Every wizard needs to have his enchanting table.

 No.292695

>>292683
Could it rather be due to having no pleasant vegetated extensions around to wander, which contributes to you focusing at your cozy room?

 No.292719

>>292695
Some places don't even have trees. Just endless concrete when you step out.



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 No.292652[Reply]

I live for others expectations, for please others and I hate it. Times I think I change with the same dysgenic behavior to make people laugh, because that was my dad too. And no matter how many times I try to get rid of it, need for attention comes back. If I had the chance to remove my bloodline I would if it meant to wipe my identity from existence. It's god awful to have this shitty mind.

 No.292657

>>292652
How are you even trying to get rid of it? To me, it was enough to stop, never came back… but also never wondered if craving attention in an opposite way (like making people depressed or anrgy) could work even better

 No.292680

>>292657
Because it's addicting for some reason to be the center of attention even though it's tiring

 No.292704

>>292680
What I told you is to call attention for different reasons, so that inner pulse might be healed

 No.292706

It always appears to be a weird need, but everyone feels it at a subconscious level. A need to be acknowledged. It's like you don't feel like you are real unless you are acknowledged. It's gotta be some advanced evolutionary characteristic for a high social society. Because there are obvious advantages when you are acknowledged. But even babies have this need, where if they don't have their mother's attention they are obviously not going to be fed. I would have been better off being hatched from an egg left in some abandoned nest.



 No.285617[Reply]

Hello. Despite this being a depression board, it seems most people are still around trying to do something. I am in a situation where except dying there is nothing to do, so i decided to make a thread wondering if there are any other people like me online, since it's almost impossible to find anyone even on the outskirts of the internet.

tl;dr i have countless diagnosed and undiagnosed physical illnesses which cause me agony daily and i feel like i'm dying every day, spent all my money on doctors and went into debt, cant make any more money, will eventually be homeless(can happen at any time), addicted to xanax that if i quit im gonna get seizures, i will never have a normal home(never had my own room) or family(mentally retarded?) not to mention my mental health problems etc.
Overall I guess I have around 10 major problems of which each is lethal and will kill me, and 100s of minor ones(which a normal person would consider unbearable). I have nothing and noone, my life self-destructed this the year and it's been half a year of pointless suffering knowing i'm gonna die anyway. I just couldn't push myself to end it since i'm the biggest coward in this world.
I guess i'm not sure if there's anything to talk about, since everyone in similar situations is either dead or sleeping under the bridge and dying. I just lost interest in talking to anyone since I know they can't comprehend my situation at all. Even on suicide forums maybe even 1 person out of 100 is in a situation comparable to mine. So I just made this pointless thread.
If life is truly over for you, and you don't know what to do, this thread is for you.
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 No.291422

>>291401
Are you still on gluten? Missing it makes miracles in many cases

 No.292577

>>285879
great post.

 No.292582

Ironic how this thread popped up on zeroth page the moment demiurge reminded me to order my coffin cause I'm gonna need it very soon. I'm tempted to decipher it as him spitting right into my face with violent laughter, as he finishes digging my grave. Crap, I'm not even religious in the traditional sense of the word, but this is just too much to be yet another coincidence.

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 No.292664

>>285617
>you Human Design strategy and aura type can set the right path for you
>the post about long term therapies is still open: https://wizchan.org/dep/res/291067.html#291423
>drugs cannot be left unless slowly and firmly reducing the dose, you need time, so addiction gets wasted slowly

>>285622
>will never experience life like it's supposed to be
Be sure you are not brainwashed by failed normalcy within

>>285848
>teeth
Clove oil. Chewing clove may also do.

>>285879
That was already confirmed: autistic similarities with hunter-gatherers
https://the-big-ger-picture.blogspot.com/2019/10/adhd-hunter-gatherer-hypothesis-and.html
in order to furtherly appreciate it, just give a read to how some actual tribes this kind are living and their philosophy of life: https://www.thementawai.com/arat-sabulungan/
>no hurries
>quite egalitarian
>no strong hierarchies
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 No.292552[Reply]

Were some people just destined for an absolute shit life?
Having to listen to people who are optimistic regardless of the circumstances is maddening.
Would they say life is is a gift if one were locked in a basement being tortured from birth until adult hood?
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 No.292617

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>>292616
Why should normal fags we don’t need them

 No.292623

>>292614
>>292615
it's not about ego. it's about being proactive and having an impact. taking full advantage of your life and being born in the 21st century and all the freedom it gives you. living modestly sounds to me like trying to minimize discomfort which basically means treating living as a nuisance rather than opportunity. I am guilty of this myself because I am weak willed.

 No.292624

>>292623
So don’t knock us
Go shuck and jive to normal fags on Twitter Reddit and 9gag

 No.292625

>>292623
Now think about why you want to be "proactive" and "have an impact". You just want to be a big shot winner that everyone loves and praises. People 300 years ago worked on their shitty farm and died from a flu, they were fine without needing to be the next Elon Musk that self-actualizes and reaches the next stage of human development of some shit.

Life is actually pretty simple: survive, avoid pain and enjoy the present moment. That's it, then die when your time comes.

 No.292661

>>292552
Still you didn't ghost them, what the hell. Let them fall victims of their own ignorance



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 No.292626[Reply]

We don’t need normal fag approval we never did we will build thriving communities on our own achieve great things for the neurodivergent community we are the superior human but we don’t need to lord over Normal fags to be superior watch them Jill themselves and beg for solutions while we live in a utopia of our own making

 No.292628

Normies are no better than a non-normal person. The majority have shitty jobs, they have no education, they live in debt and their only entertainment is alcohol, being glued to a screen through video games, series and movies, and in the best of cases they go to the gym or do some sport.

You must stop having so much resentment towards the plebs. Remember what George Orwell said "if there is any hope left it is in the plebs." In the 1984 book, more than 80% of the plebs were poor and dirty, they were not controlled, they could profess Christianity, watch pornography, have children, and have sex as many times as they wanted in exchange for working as poorly paid employees for the state. If the masses, the plebs, the ploretarios, the normies or whatever you want to call them, rose up, the world would be a very different place.

 No.292629

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>>292628
There’s no need to defend them brother we are better in every way
Our empathy our intelligence our critical thinking skills no longer will we be crushed under their boot of intolerance and subject to their leers and jeers

 No.292631

>>292629
In my country there is free education and many young people finish 5-year degrees in 10 or 12 years if they do. Others prefer to have salaried jobs and burn money on stupid things without thinking about their money even though they live with their parents. In a couple of years they will be fired from their shitty job, and they will have no money, job or title. Falling completely in this life.

 No.292632

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>>292631
In mine no such luxury exists

 No.292660

>>292626
What do you propose? Be sure that the govt won't allow you to live off grid unless you hide pretty pretty well

feds are watching



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 No.290458[Reply]

Do you think growing up with video games ruined me?

I can't help but get angry at how life is a roguelike game with a randomly generated starter character you only get to play once. Fucked up your health permanently through bad decisions? Too bad you have to live with it even if you now have a healthy lifetyle. Found a new passion in life? Too bad you are now too old to pursue it. Want to study math? Well too bad you were born with a low IQ…

I just hate how you can get locked out of certain routes in life as time goes on or they were locked from the start. I hate how you have no control over what thoughts you get so you can waste your youth doing dumb shit only to realize it once you are an adult and the damage has been done.

I should just focus on what I can change and on the future but I can't help but feel frustrated over this. I can't help but feel envy towards those who managed to be in the right place and make the right decisions to end up with an amazing life and be frustarted at my past self for being so careless.
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 No.290461

I think only death can save me now. I don't give a shit about doing anything anymore. It's so frustrating. I just don't want to exist, fuck this bullshitteryy.

 No.291445

>>290458
Which permanent fuckup do you suffer, by the way?

 No.292656

>>290458
Certainly the fuckup could be something that predisposed you to end up this way after integrating videogame stuff into your brain, making you blind to it and henceforth thinking the game was the real thing.

 No.292674

Unlike a videogame/rouge-like there is no "winning".



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 No.292633[Reply]

>lied to my doctor
>Got vasectomy
>Did it to spite my ancestors for race mixing and spoiling my gene pool
>Would have been set with good genes if certain people didn't mix with the Irish, Italians from the South, and pajeets, and nigs, they bred away from the noble caste, and shamans. Gate keeping me from those genes, making me into an Eldritch horror beyond human perception. An abomination of what a human should be.

Every day my motivation is displaced in a great deal of restlessness

High ambitions but a body that is too feeble for it

Now I know how the nephilims feel

ASTRAL INSURRECTION WARFARE AGAINST THE QLIPPOTH I WILL RAPE THE SNAKE FOR ETERNITY UNTIL IT SPITS OUT THE KNIFE THAT WILL REFORM MY IDENTITY. I call upon the white owl to subdue her majesty. Long live the white owl.

 No.292634

>Imagine voluntarily castrating yourself.

Besides, this forum is supposed to be for chaste people, and not for trash like you.

 No.292638

Those ayys really fucked humans up both metaphorically and literally by racemixing AND creating different races of humans. Instead of just mining that gold and gitting they had to stick around ruin things further. Well but at least im glad they help us do the jump from primitive monkey species to advanced bipeds. Just imagine having to reincarnate over and over for the next million years. Nogs and natives got the bad end of the deal hahaha.
Look for a way to reincarnate in a better body or dont reincarnate at all.

 No.292643

>>292638
I am one of the nogs and I curse nature for being ugly and retarded
>>292634
The male essence is trapped in my body, fool, you waste yours on a napkin and you're pissed because I found a cheat code. Your soul gets black'd by demons in lower frequencies each fap you finish, that is why Finland was made, to store you degenerates who's gooning ancestors turned into femboys by low T behavior. I WILL COME FOR UR TWINK ASS FAGGOT PREPARE TO TAKE IN MY TESTOSTERONE

 No.292648

Moved to >>>/b/989790.



 No.292561[Reply]

Is there any genuine way to turn our luck around or are we just fucked
We seem to have this energy that tells people not to like us
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 No.292563

>>292562
See what I mean doesn’t even know me and already hates me after two seconds
We truly are the most oppressed people

 No.292595

You have aspergers/autism, there is no fix.

 No.292596

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>>292561
Stop putting your luck on normals. Whining gets you nowhere. You are like bleeding in front of predators.

>>292562
I don't see da frog there.

 No.292599

>>292561
You absolutely can but it takes work and these a few things:

1. Believing you can change your environment
2. Not jumping to conclusions
3. be willing to ask and accept help

Just about everyone who is stuck as a "loser" basically has these problems. It isn't their fault, really, they just had a shit start on life that caused their brain to get stuck in this thought pattern. You may also need to get in touch with your emotions more let yourself feel what seems to be delusional. Your life experiences are valid, but they were in the past and don't really affect your life going forward. It seems delusional to go against this life long programming but it'll make sense as you get better over time.

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 No.292175[Reply]

Those in the older, successful and beloved part of the family seems to demand respect from those "beneath" them.
Yet they feel no need to respect anyone and blatantly disrespect and violate boundaries.
However, if you dare to return this behavior in kind, they will act like you are the one in the wrong.

Your sibling keeps pranking and annoy you, tell them you had enough, everyone just dismiss you telling you to learn to take a joke. Eventually when you snap and beat your sibling. Your parents will lecture you how this is not an acceptable response to someone merely pranking you, completely dismissing that this response was provoked. Then force you to apologize to the one provoking you!

Your parents berate you for failing the first year of uni, they even suggest that maybe you just too dumb and should dropout. You retort with that you don't care about the opinions of some high school dropouts and they can shove their opinions up their asses. You get told you have a horrible attitude, if you keep this up no one will bother to criticize and steer you in the right direction in the future.

I don't care what they think, if they won't respect me, I won't respect them. Who needs their dumb advice anyway? I can figure things out on my own. If they can berate and call you names, you can do the same thing to them.
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 No.292354

>>292329
Your family berates you and you unload on the wizards with sages

 No.292356

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>>292326
You need to change player

 No.292358

>>292356
Don't blame the player. Blame the game.

 No.292359

>>292356
Looks like added-noise artifacting from "upscaling" on modern TVs, but I'm not sure how that would wind up represented in a screenshot off a PC media player.

 No.292600

>>292175
They decided to have him, forcing him to live, therefore it is their moral obligation.



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 No.287439[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I hate wizards who got substantial inheritances, or lucked out otherwise while being unable to work. 99,9% of the problems related to being a wizard are related to a lack of money and the fact normies hate even employing a non-neurotypical, making life an infinite paywall torture simulator where you can only look but not touch anything.

My life would completely transform if I even had 10k dollars to my name. Yet there are wizards who inherited an expensive big house and hundreds of thousands of euros or dollars.

They cannot sympathize with someone who is in a perpetual cycle of shit tier labor->pay absolute necessities->have maybe $20 extra at the end of the month-> repeat infinitely…

Because they play life on heaven mode where everything is unlocked and stress levels go down by 99%.
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 No.291919

>>291892
as if people haven't gone to war to have a slice of that freedom or obliterated entire countries for it. or sold their kids or kidneys or indentured 30 years of their life to labor for it.

but no, it "doesn't make you happy" according to that retard.

 No.292439

The ideal life for a wizard in fact is gaining passive income and investing it in some economic broker. Being unsocial is not enough excuse to trying to emerge some monetizable skill. Anything related with IT jobs and remote are ideal and easy for most of us. Maybe I don't care to be 'rich' per se but having a decent income is fundamental for buying books, computers, or collecting stuff, all of these things are the life fuel of any wizard.

 No.292457

>>287439
You hate that what you wish to become? Phew…

By the way, how are they not empathizing you exactly?

 No.292550

>>287454
This is true and a cruelty of society.
>The rich man can be a good man easier than the poor, moral luck
This is a good way to put it, the poor man may always be tempted to degrade himself or steal for wealth. He does not have the comfort to risk making a moral stance since survival takes priority. Ive heard that the "new rich" types are especially egotistical, and I think thats because they believe that they are superior than the "peasants". they feel like the poorer folk are an underclass, which is another way of displaying this "moral difference" between classes (the rich considering the poor degenerate/immoral).
However I cannot draw a line for wizardry between economic classes. I mean, where would one start? I have the privlege of neeting with parents, that would put me "above" the wageslaves wouldn't it? Does hardship create wizardry/robotics? I would say yes. how else does one become discontent? they must have suffered some kind of dissatisfaction first to make them aware, then spend the time reflecting on those negative feelings. But I feel like being rich does not make one immune to obtaining that dissatisfaction. Im sure there are many normals who lament wageslavery and the way society is going, that's not exclusive to being a wiz. Just so, I sure that rich people have their own circles in society where they have to navigate, with their own garbage rules and dynamics that can ostracize potential wizboys.

To me wizardry is mainly a mindset that's born out of dissatisfaction and disgust of social mechanics, and an attempt to disconnect from the world to avoid having to endure society. Being rich simply makes it a lot easier to distance oneself from society since they arent chained to it in order to survive via wagie. although if ones inheritance is managing a business or something then I guess they still have to interact with the norms.

 No.292554

Same


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