Never really knew either of my grandmothers, to be honest. The one on my mother's side hung herself in the basement when my own mother was quite young, and the one on my father's side I haven't spoken with in over 10 years and is basically just a stranger to me. My mother's step-mother, who came into the picture a year or so after my biological grandmother committed suicide, has basically been a sort of pseudo-grandmother. Again though, I barely know her and, just like the one on my father's side, I haven't spoken with either of them in years. Hell, I haven't spoken with any of my relatives in years and let me tell you that, in my case, it's a blessing. Both my grandmothers are a couple of narcissistic, vain, & glib old buzzards, whom, from what I recall (late teens being the last time I saw them), were about as warm & receiving as a jagged block of ice, especially the one on my father's side. That description itself can pretty much be extended to almost all my relatives, frankly. The only ones that I cut a bit of slack for their obtuseness & have a tiny amount of sympathy for being my only living grandfather on my mother's side, and my mother's brother, my uncle. Long story short, but the both of them have had very hard lives in their own way and, even though I still wouldn't want to interact with them, I can at least understand & respect the sort of shit they've experienced, as opposed to all my other relatives who, in the case of my father's side of the family, are all unrepentant normalfags or just generally unpalatable assholes. My other grandfather died when I was like 10, or something, and I have to say, being that it's the only funeral I've ever attended for a family member in my life, I honestly couldn't have cared less and felt nothing except the tediousness of the funeral itself. He never wanted to know me & I never wanted to know him, in my case knowing enough about how much of an asshole he was already. That's all there was to it.
Anyway, all that stupid bullshit aside, I find your post to be quite triggering for me, since my mother is essentially everything your grandmother is to you. She's defended me my entire life & always been there for me. She's the only one on this entire rotten little ball of dirt of a planet who cares for me & accepts me for everything that I am. My father & brother, to Post too long. Click here to view the full text.