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 No.204052[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread.

Please, be respectful to each other.

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 No.204895

>>204849
You shouldn't kill people. You would be taking innocent lives or harming lives that are related to the people you murdered. Think about it, some crazy idiot taking the life of your dad or cousin when you were a kid just because he hated the world. Mods should delete posts like yours that encourage people to commit crimes.

 No.204896

>>204895
>we censor people expressing bad thoughts and then people wont have bad thoughts anymore
that always works out so well, yes

Also not that I encourage it, but there are many people out there who are not innocent. You probably know a few from school or work.

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 No.205559

>>204766
this right here

 No.205690

>>205688
Aye lonely guy, saying good morning to people via text is kinda creepy in most situations. Also if you are lonely try joining the discord or something idk


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 No.204355[Reply]

Is "friendship" just like religion? I mean, just like people pretend to believe in God to get in a certain social circle that they can use to advance themselves, is there a similar game that occurs when two people call themselves 'friends?' More generally, when people say 'social skills,' do they really mean the set of Machiovellian skills of choosing when to deceive or trust other people to try to put yourself in a higher social clique?

What the hell is 'friendship?'
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 No.204390

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Friend is a person who laughs at the same things you laugh, shares your interests, and most importantly prefers spending time with you over anything else.

 No.204398

>when people say 'social skills,' do they really mean the set of Machiavellian skills of choosing when to deceive or trust other people to try to put yourself in a higher social clique?

Yes.

 No.204636

>>204355
I think social skills include manipulation, but more generally, social skills are the set of skills that allow you to accomplish a certain goal in a social situation. If your goal is to establish genuine friendship and connection, social skills are necessary to accomplish that goal. Similarly, if you want to psychologically dominate someone else or climb in status, social skills are also required for that.

 No.204757

>>204390
Ah, so they're Santa Clauses then.

 No.204758

>>204636
I thought you just had to 'b urslef'



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 No.204635[Reply]

I've been getting harrassed by someone for more than 3 years now, but since we live in a world where apparently hurting succubi is bad (even though they hurt you much worse) yet not vice versa, nobody wants to help me.

Plus.

Even if I wanted to fight back, had an earthly way of proving it, and she didn't use masochism/yandereism as a shield, just the fact that I also harrassed someone for 3 years makes me feel like this is what I get for not being able to understand their pain neither.

On one side I still want to believe revenge gets me nowhere, but 3 years worth of bad memories don't exactly make you want to hold on to any morals of your own honest free will.

I feel painfully dizzy just confessing this, for any wizards or 20somethingyear olds who are honestly guys or know how to deal with stalker/hackers what should I do?
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 No.204693

>>204687
what the fuck are you even talking about you absolute schizo

 No.204694

>>204693
If you knew what happened at the end of June 2016 (when I last talked to him) you'd understand.

 No.204695

>>204684
Oh rest assured: a part of me has written enough ideas to get back at EVERY SINGLE INDIVIDUAL CHARACTER used against me.

But the other part is just tired of all this. I mean it's not my fault anymore that life can get this bad, I'd just rather face that fact than rely on any sort of optimism/hope/faith which is supposed to be temporary for it to pay off. Otherwise it's no different from Donnie Darko's view on debate: you can spend your entire life debating and you'd still get nothing.

Even the guy whose life I ruined told me: life sucks..but, that doesn't mean we cant have fun.

To put a spin on what Somerset from Se7en said: I agree with the first part.

 No.204697

What kind of harrassement?

 No.204698




 No.204478[Reply]

Normies are evil and fake.

When you re alone face to face with one normie he will most likely act normal, not be rude neither aggresive towards you.

But when that particular normie will be in group of people he will start acting like some animal fighting for domination. He will act stupid, say stupid things and sometimes even be aggresive, nasty.

I hate them. I was always an outcast and I will ever be. I wish I could get neetbux and never get close to normies anymore.

But thats not possible.

If you re different from normies and you are in some place that requires socialization, then you re fucked
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 No.204575

Dont compare normies to animals. Animal world is cruel but often has an excuse to be so and still tries to balance itself in nature.
Reread the quote of Agent Smith from Matrix on humans, it makes perfect sense.
The normie… Is a parasite.
Humanity = intergalactic parasites.
It is in their nature to ruin everything and they cant help it.

 No.204576

>>204478
>>204575
Bros you made me laugh so hard, I love you bros.

 No.204584

How I see normies?

I see normie as somebody who thinks he s smart and he wants to tell to typical wizard that he is stupid and therefore he has to do that what normie want.

Normies are populists, often changing their own mind, their opinion.

What they speak often contradicts itself.

But normie still thinks he s so smart

 No.204611

>>204584
Normie is dumber than an ant.
And I in fact researched ants.

>>204580

>unconditional love

Someone who says they dont pee in the shower sounds more believable than one who claims they love unconditionally. Anyone who says they love unconditionally is a fucking liar. No such thing.

 No.204639

Some say a comet will fall from the sky
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves
Fallowed by fault lines that cannot sit still
Followed by milllions of dumbfounded dipshits



 No.196237[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Just a month ago I started getting anxiety attack where I keep feeling like I’m dying constantly but I never do. I don’t know why Mother Nature had to make a condition like this. I saw a doctor and got checked up and he said I’m fine but I haven’t seen a psychologist yet and I don’t know if I really want medication. It feels like it’s been a long time since I could just lie down and relax and I really wish I could go back to the days when I could just relax and not feel like I’m suffocating.
I used to think anxiety and depression wasn’t a big problem since it didn’t effect me like this which is quite selfish since it is a big issue but now I understand that the hard way now. I kinda wish I could’ve told my past self to stop stressing out while I could because I could have prevented this if I wasn’t always stressed.
I guess it looks like I’ve written a sob story for attention but really I’m just sad at the moment and it’s 4:22 am and i can’t sleep my chest hurts and I can’t get comfortable anymore.
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 No.204518

>>201433
almost started crying reading your post cause it's so relateable and so horrible. every single fucking day this happens to me. but with writing instead of drawing.
it took me 2 years just to write a 14 page screenplay. (for wizards that dont know about screenwriting, Home Alone was written in a single weekend.)

 No.204561

>>204324
Yeah I was being unhealthy. I was stressing out over things there honestly don’t matter to me anymore. Since this I’ve totally changed my priorities. Mostly got rid of them maybe that’s unhealthy too.

I just stopped caring about my work ethic so much I used to put so much care in my assignments and getting them in on time and worrying if I’d pass my classes in university to the point where I would sleep little, studied too much and didn’t actually live.

I feel like a lot of my life I haven’t really lived at all I’m just existing and perhaps my body is telling me that.

I would go to the gym for two hours a day 6 days a week and now that I think about it I was so caught up in it for so long and so obsessed about it I feel like it was more of a coping mechanism for me to feel like I had goals in life.

Now I haven’t gone to gym for many months, I lost a lot of weight mostly muscle mass but for some reason I just don’t care anymore.

Kind of like when you leave the rat race behind.

Lately I’ve been having days where I can lie down on my back and sleep and days where I haven’t had anxiety in my chest. Sometimes it comes back but I just don’t care for it anymore and it goes away on its own. I’m getting better and I’m happy for once that my life is coming out of the hole. I thought I’d be stuck in a hole my whole life and to celebrate I even got my hair cut bought a beard trimmed so I looked a bit nicer.

Got some energy back to do things but lately all I’ve been eating is Mac and cheese but it’s rewlly nice and I’m so glad I don’t feel like I’m dying anymore and the scary part is only a few months ago I made this thread and tried to escape using it.

 No.204573

>>204474
How about stop catfishing and advertising your useless pills? I start to suspect normie psychiatrists crawling between the threads.

>Fluoxetine


My ass. Dont hide the real name "Prozac". Crap pills. Its not even anti anxiety. ANYTHING to be push cannabis alternatives by greedy corps I guess.

 No.204598

>>196251
Having a body function suddenly stop is a little scary

 No.204599

>>204573
He's saying what works for him you spastic aka the point of the thread


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 No.203257[Reply]

Anyone else realized to late that there parents fucked you up and abused you in there early childhood and this is the main reason your life went shit before started and broke up with thme later. How did your life turned out after this?
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 No.203377

I think so, yes, that the way they brought me up and the things that they (especially my dad) did kinda fucked me up (screaming, trying to make me feel worthless, etc.). I don't know how much they fucked me up, and how much of it was "in my genes" or was "my fault". I don't know how I would turn out if I were brought up in better conditions.

At this moment in life I just work and spend my free time using my computer. My life is not fully hell, but often feels pretty close.

You could call me lazy, because I really don't feel like doing anything or living. My biggest wish is to stop existing.

 No.204307

Parents physically abused me, gas-lit me and brainwashed me into being self-destructive. They're sadistic narcissists that conceived me to have an easy defenceless victim they can abuse to the fullest extent. They never directly molested me but they always tried to restrain and skew my sexuality and emasculated me by sometimes almost raising me like a succubus. If current tranny laws existed back then, they would have probably forced me to take tranny hormone pills as a child.

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>>203308
You don't just get addicted to things unless there's a compelling reason for it. The addiction itself is always the result of a lack of viable alternative. For whatever reason, your only source of enjoyment was spending all day alone with a computer in your room and that doesn't happen out of the blue with "awesome" parents. There's always a shitty environment that either encourages it or allows it happen.

>>203337
The other kind of shitty parent is more subtle than the usual abusive one that leaves visible marks. It's the neglectful parent that never forgets to feed their kid but is strangely alright with their kid spending all their time isolated and has absolutely no insight into their personal life beyond maybe grades at school.

I remember visiting an aunt's house one time and being surprised by how much they took an interest in their kid's lives, having actual conversations about their interests, their friends, telling them about their day and her actively listening and being engaged. I don't remember a single time that ever happened to me, not one of my parents ever took the slightest bit of interest. My father was pretty much never there physically and when he was, he was cold and disinterested. Mother also didn't care unless it was school related and always to be critical, unless it was in front of other people where I was showcased for all my positive qualities that of course, she herself instilled in me, never mind the fact that she never even helped with homework or encouraged me in any way. What does it teach a child when he is only given attention and love when he accomplishes some noteworthy goal to be showcased in front of others? Where do you think he gets his sense of self-worth? How do you think will he see other people, friendships, relationships? How do you think his already sensitive disposition will develop into adulthood?

I've pretty much spent most of my adult life trying to undo my "parenting". Don't fool yourself, if you are on wizchan, your parent's fucked up somehow, either by being directly abusive or just not giving enough of a fuck about you or being ignorant of how to actually be a good parent. There's no point in blaming them, they'll never acknowledge it and even if they do, you're still stuck undoinPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.204427

>>204310
>I've pretty much spent most of my adult life trying to undo my "parenting". Don't fool yourself, if you are on wizchan, your parent's fucked up somehow, either by being directly abusive or just not giving enough of a fuck about you or being ignorant of how to actually be a good parent. There's no point in blaming them, they'll never acknowledge it and even if they do, you're still stuck undoing their work. It's kinda funny when you think about it, how many people's childhoods can be viewed as two people's shitty "group project" that neither has interest in and each thinks the other will do all the work, until the deadline of adulthood comes near and each is disappointed that the project itself came out wrong somehow.
This is the worst part about lackluster upbringing. You as a child put your entire worth onto your parents values, and if they are not up for the task, they will most likely hinder external influences. That is, if a good teacher encourages exploration or a doctor mentions issues.
So your life takes a bad turn in one way or another, and to seek validation and affirmation, you naturally seek towards your parents which keeps pushing you in the wrong direction.

And then, somehow, somewhere, when you're an "adult" and unhappy, you're at fault, to blame, for being raised wrong.
It's like your parents build you a shitty car to partake in life and society. You get control of it, see it's somehow lackluster, and takes it out of the race to fix it. And you have no idea to fix it, so you have to learn from someone else how to fix it.
All the while your parents shame and comment on how you're falling behind and should probably drive faster.

As all analogies, it has its faults. Point being, your fundamental is broken at its core, but you have to use your fundamental to fix itself without joining a cult…..

It's the small things that wears on you. you can't point out one fault, one situation, one comment. But the overall experience is disregarded as putting blame on your shitty life as a 30 year old because your mother said one time that your feet made a slapping noise when walking up the stairs. It's bullying, and I don't get why they would do that. And why they would gaslight, and disregard how I experienced my life. It's like I not only turned out wrong, but I am living myPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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>>204427
It's frustrating because the damage done isn't simply an inconvenience that one can fix easily. Even with all the advances of modern psychology, we are still completely ignorant of how to truly help people dealing with "mental illness" or emotional or personality difficulty. As children, we are literally sponges that soak in everything around us. We learn language, we learn to walk and so on, but we also learn emotionally and implicitly, we learn what to expect of the world based on the two people closest to us.

How does a 12-year-old decide that he is going to be alone for the rest of his life, to be self-sufficient and to never rely on another human being in his life? It made profound sense to me at the time and looking back in retrospect, I could not have been different in any way. Everything up to that point has told me that I could not rely on others, that you could not ask for help, that your worth as a person was only determined by how useful you were and so on. It is no mystery to me now that I had panic attacks in early childhood, times when I would simply get overwhelmed and I wasn't up to the task given and I would just freeze and silently explode. I attributed this to my "sensitive disposition" but nothing is simply an accident, the behavior makes profound sense from my emotional reality of "not being able to rely on others". Any child's first instinct is to ask for help in a grown up or authority figure when he is in trouble and what else is he to do if he cannot in his mind expect this? The panic attacks of course went away as I developed and naturally increased my self-sufficiency, but nonetheless the emotional reality still existed and manifested itself in other ways.

I've only recently started playing this "game", of finding explanations for my deepest attitudes and behaviors and tracing it back to my "parenting". Precisely because of this schema of "self-sufficiency" that made it basically impossible for me to attribute any kind of failure to anyone but myself, it was always my fault and my responsibility. Nothing you do, think or feel is accidental, they can all be traced back in a chain-like fashion through meaning structures that originate in previous experience.

In some ways tho, the schema itself was useful. Having a life-long obsession with "self-sufficiency" makes you deal with your problems. I could haPost too long. Click here to view the full text.



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 No.203907[Reply]

Does anyone else feel like an old rusty machine?

Everything I do I do slow because it feels like with every move I need to work against some resistance. Either like I'm in a higher gravity or I have really heavy bones. I am skinny but I feel like an obese person. Just sitting at the computer feels tiring. So much I got a laptop purely for use while lying in bed. Just keeping my eyes open feels tiring and like my eyelids are heavy. Even when I lie down there is this pressure and discomfort in my body. When I need to think about something hard it's like I'm in a library lit by moonlight and need to put my face close to the book and squint to make out the words. It's like other people's brains are a high-end SSD and mine is a very old hard drive.

I don't have any illness that I know of. My diet sucks, I don't exercise and only go out every 2nd day to go to the store. Could this be it? Or is this just depression? Do antidepressants help with this?
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 No.203930

>>203926
Unless you went through some horrid shit, you ain't seen nothing yet.

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 No.204099

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>>203907
22yo

Joints popping, back pain, mild retardation, next to no reflexes, migraines with electric jolts over my head that make we want to puke, IBS-like symptoms, can't even drink because my jaw starts hurting like hell, right leg seems dull and asleep when I move, literally no motivation the feeling just vanished so I end up sometimes forcing a robot-like thoughtlessness when I'm doing something that should motivate be but doesn't or just end up angry and don't do it at all.

Unless I had a micro-stroke in my teens from obesity and lack of exercise I probably fried my brain somehow
I feel you OP

 No.204103

>>203927
but are you old enough to read the rules?

 No.204434

25

barely have the energy to fap or play guitar anymore. I've tried different diets, exercise etc. nothing helps. I just sit here idly all day passively browsing chans



 No.200654[Reply]

Why am I getting punished when they should. Why am I on the receiving end of the penalty. Why am I the one getting attacked, getting stolen from. I'll kill them in spite. I will kill them. White people are the true villains. Whites are the ones who are degenerates, who must be cleansed from the gene pool. They are inbred. I have woken up. They cheat they lie they manipulate they conquer other countries bomb them nuke them. They tried to enslave an entire continent of people. They have created an economy designed only to profit them. They have caused countless lives to be lost that could have been prevented easily otherwise. Unimaginably high health care. Wage theft. I'll make the wrongs right. I will equalize society. To do this I will commit a massacre just like they have. I'm going to shoot them up like they shot my people. I'll carve them like pigs in a slaughter house. This must be done for the greater good. I serve justice. I will only spare the people of color as they are only victims. I WILL SHOOT THEM UP.
I am the victim. I was the one who was wronged. They have threshed my flesh. They have stripped away my identity. They gave me trauma. They have made my life a waking nightmare every single second of the day. I was an innocent ox living comfortably under the guidance of Budda and they ruined it. I wake up every evening screaming my head off, I scream so loudly that sometimes I fear my head will pop from the internal pressure. I HAVE TO GET REVENGE. It's the only way I can get rid of this five-year burning resentment. It's brewing like maggots in rotten meat, the juices oozing out with the abhorrent stench of unwanted rubbish. I will clean myself of my sins in this way. Now I know why I never feel clean no matter how many times I've showered, it's because the actual grime and muck exists in my mind where my shampooed hands cannot reach. To purify myself I have the duty to lynch these Whites. These whites. Strip their flesh. Pull out their tendons. Prick their body. Extract their organs. Force feed them feces. Rip out their eye sockets. Violence has always been a part of humanity.
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 No.202327

Are you commieposter? Are you ok? Calm down and we can talk about this on /b/.

 No.202328

>tfw poor suicidal white wageslave with depression

 No.202329

>>202324
He won't because he's one of them.

 No.202333

How has this /b/ level thread been here for this long?

 No.204433

You re right, but I dont think normies of other races are better.

In my opinion most extroverted normies are evil, what colour of their skin is, it doesnt matter.



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 No.197755[Reply]

I made this thread because I want to share my experience, since I'm pretty sure that some of you made the same experience with the other patients in there.

So I've been to stationary psychiatry a lot of times, sometimes my stay was longer like a couple months and sometimes it was just a week, I went there most of the time because I had bipolar spergouts or semi-psychotic episodes and my parents were afraid that i am going to commit acts of violence.

When I entered psychiatry the first time I thought it's gonna be full of retards and psychotic patients that are acting like they come from another planet but it turned out to be full of your usual normies and I was again the schizoid retard who wouldn't talk most of time and even in there they would think that I am a weirdo, which is kinda fucked up if you consider that this is a nuthouse.

So most of the patients in there were normies and almost all of them were your typical self-loving narcissists, most of them had a girlfriend and friends that came to visit them once in a while, they also all got along with each other and kept hanging out in there.

The succubi in there are your typical borderline whores that had seen more penises than an urologist and blamed it on everyone else, they talked about sex and genitalia a lot and it seemed as if they were more concerned with cocks instead of finding a way to fix their toxic behavior. There was also a lot of sexual stuff going on between the male patients and the borderline succubi, even tough this is considered a breach of the rules it still happened all the time.

The patients who weren't normies mostly consisted of cold-turkey junkies that went through a mental circus and patients that went through psychotic episodes all the time. The patients that seemed like they might be wizards were acting like edgelords and narcissists all the time in order to hide their weakness.

It's also worth mentioning that almost all of the normie patients in there had abusive parents who caused their problems, so they just picked up the narcissistic and abusive personality traits of their parents, they never felt like retards since school and were never subjected to the problems most people on this board face, they still have normie problems so to speak.

I obtained this information though group therapy-sessions and awkward talks, I also just listened to what the other patients were talking about with each other.
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 No.201780

>>201750
mentally? yes.

 No.201781

>>201780
Then why are you so butthurt?

 No.201785

>>201781
he's a teenage succubus

 No.204412

>>197755
It makes sense all the insane people are outside the asylums since how crazy everything has gotten.

 No.204423

>>201828
>The psychos are just there because they skip medication and end up doing something that gets them hospitalized.
they are called revolving door patients



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 No.204288[Reply]

To someone who is also:

>A guy

>An Aspie
>in his midtwenties or late twenties
>Also had his heart broken by, someone who has none of these attributes, in a grueling manner (such as hacking and daunting revenge porn comics of their favourite characters.)

Tell me: what is the average amount of time it would take for you to recover taking into consideration the stages of grief and that they don't end up exacerbating it any further?

 No.204303

Six months.

 No.204304

Thanks for your question Mark and sorry if the answer was a bit unclear at the time. I would suggest looking at what it is you need to do and ask yourself the right questions.

There are two ways you can look up an answer to which I recommend using the example provided above: a simple "What's the average amount of time it would take for you to recover taking into consideration the stages of grief and that they don't end up exacerbating it any further?" to find the correct amount.

The other way you would look up this calculation is with a formula, so that the total number of years to recover would be the sum of all years of the victim's life that were lost. This calculation can be used by anyone looking for an alternative to the more "hard" approach where they are willing to pay more and risk the more devastating emotional, economic, and psychological fallout.

The final approach is to assume that you are lucky, that things are going your way in your recovery and that nothing bad was really going to happen to you. This approach is what I would usually use to try and minimize distress, but that does not mean it is all "good" or "exactly what you expected

 No.204359

>>204303
Thanks, hopefully the exacerbation stops here.



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