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[–]  No.296358[Reply][Watch Thread]

it makes me sad I can't create things I like. I always procrastinate and I always did d
my whole life so far. It happened at very young age; I didn't want to go to school nor learn at home or do my homework. I was always playing flash games on the computer or play ps2 or nintendo DS and after that ps3. I didn't lile myself for that and itt continues nowdays. I don't know why I proscratinate. I hate doing things, in fact I was never used to that. I've never learn doing things by myself, always mom or dad did things for me, my mom did the cooking and my dad told me to do sport. I never listened, I just stayed at home in front of my tv. oh yeah the TV…watching programs in my bedroom all night long…it was comfy, at night you weren't bothered by others because I was kind of alone (my brother was sleeping) in front of the tv with no remorse of doing so because it was comfy and calm.
I think it's because of tv, video games and internet (smartphone addiction came way late).
when I discovered 4chan, I knew there will be no turning back: I totally "internetized" now. I'm am completly focuses on internet everyday. now it's not 4chan but wizchan I use and for a good reason: no succubi wanted me, maybe because I was too poor…all these factors made me a procrastinate person. when you're poor there'snt so much to do besode doing your home work and going to sport. no music lesson, or traveling during vacancy (just stay at home).
I know it's my fault and I know why it's because I didn't had MY things. I wish I had a computer just for me.
Anyway, in few years, I'll be 30 with no-skill wizard because it will be too late.
I wanted to know how to draw (but when I tried my drawings were so unmatch I gave up)
I wanted to create a video game (I tried some with rpg maker but I didn't made shit, just few maps and some events)
I wanted to do a lot of sport
(I wish I wasn't shy, which killed the social part of my life; so no sport because fear of others)
music playing (piano guitar drums, all I wanted to do was those but no money, family too poor)
science
(I really like science but am a brainlet)
technology and computers and coding
(I tried python, all I did was the hello world)
in fact I'm waiting a miracle to happen to me so I can do things and not procrastinating but I know it will not come: I don't leave my house, so no miracle for me.
Nowdays all I do is posting in wizchan and watch youtube vPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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[–]  No.296504

>>296503
But loving myself is gay, since that means loving a man as a man.

[–]  No.296693

>>296465
Basically all of this describes me, including the tooth pain. (not OP)

[–]  No.298712

>>296360
good advice. thanks.

[–]  No.298722>>298723

>>296360
I would say that optimism is a trap for procraatination. You have ruined your life, go from there.

[–]  No.298723

>>298722
*I have also ruined my life though not as much as you. Im in uni studying cs and Im failing exams or moving them because I first start learning from 1 week away and have 0 disvipline. Somehow Im just assuming every time I still have time to study and just waste my time on pc, and then I fail worse and worse every semester. Yesterday I cried about how Ive ruined my life, about how I give in to these instincts telling me to do the wrong thing again. All Im doing is running away from my peoblems. In the end of my road Im going to be a sad old loser dependant the state and I dont want this. I cant afford not to support my mom whos already so stressed out with work… I want to work so badly but since I have a very lacking resume, bad grades no personal projects I dont really have the confidence to apply anywherre, and I cant wagejob because Im disabled a bit. Since Ive already ruined my life to the point I will fail uni if I dont do anything right this moment I have no choice but to try and struggle right now…



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[–]  No.293806[Reply][Last 50 Posts]>>298642[Watch Thread]

How old are you? What brought you to where you are? What prevents you from changing?
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[–]  No.298450

I'm 29 years old, I came to the first iteration of this site when I was 16 because I wanted to talk to other losers like me in a place that banned discussion of sex and relationships, because I just never cared about that stuff and my problems are bigger than something so stupid like that. I sort of have changed, I stopped using imageboards or any social media other than one to one communication with other neet peers and now I play a lot of videogames and watch a lot of movies and TV series and it's a lot better than when I'd waste away talking to random anonymous people that hate me all day. I'd recommend the same for any younger people here that just want to be a peaceful neet that doesn't care about the whole rat race. There are just too many people online, emboldened by some sense of anonymity, that wanna drag you down or rope you into something stupid, it's really not worth interacting with people who seem to just be going with whatever the popular meme culture is right now, a wizneet does his own thing, and most importantly he has fun

[–]  No.298642

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>>293806 (OP)
>How old are you?
33
>What brought you to where you are?
alcoholism and low IQ
>What prevents you from changing?
i quit drinking, but idk, ive been trying a lot of things to get ahead financially but nothing seems to work out. my younger brother retired several years ago from crypto and i've been trying to get him to show me the ropes and how to make money doing that, but he is sort of gatekeeping all his knowledge from me just out of spite, for whatever reason, he doesn't want me to succeed. he pretends to like me but i've heard him making fun of me to his friends when he thought i wasn't listening. ive tried to do a lot of nice things for him in hopes that he will help me make money, but he always makes excuses about helping me.
despite all that, ive been trying to make my own crypto altcoins, but nothing has been successful. i make a nice website, deploy the coin, shill it on twitter, 4chan, and reddit, but no one ever seems to be interested in the coins i make.
i've been working on a game for a couple years now also, but it feels like such a monumental task sometimes that i just put it off for weeks. i have to make a bunch of sprite sheets and stuff and i just dont feel like doing it lately.
also spent awhile trying to edit videos for streamers to upload on youtube but that didnt work out either. just feels like nothing i do ever works out no matter how much work i put in.
all i know is that i refuse to go back to wageslaving. i am not cut out for wageslaving. i dont care if it means i have to leech off my parents or end up homeless or whatever, i am not going to go back to wageslaving ever again.

[–]  No.298681

>>298425
>Do you feel like a grown adult?
No, I feel and live the same way as I did when I was 15. Only difference is I go to work instead of school. But then I didn't act my age when I was 15, I was much less emotional than my peers, and more composed, stoical. Even now, when I look at guys even older than me at work, like 30-40, they seem like emotional children, easily excitable over the smallest things. Only now they have better social skills and are more able to manipulate others. Oh and they fuck. Is that adulthood then?

[–]  No.298695>>298715

>>298448
Your post is pretty much textbook highly functioning autist.

Don't give up on life, there are plenty of ways you can make a difference that doesn't involve having a wife and kids.

[–]  No.298715

>>298695
>highly functioning autist.
*Lowly functioning neurotypical


[Last 50 Posts]

[–]  No.298694[Reply]>>298713[Watch Thread]

Any other wizzes gay/bi? I don't mean to talk about wanting relationships, I mean do any wizzes ever get picked out by normies because of your weak/feminine nature? What do you think about that retarded lgbt movement?

[–]  No.298696

What a stupid thread, even if I say so as a straight wizard. Being gay doesn't mean being physically weak or feminine.

There are tons of jacked and badass gay people like Fred Rosser.

[–]  No.298705>>298713

report this thread

[–]  No.298713

>>298694 (OP)
>Any other wizzes gay/bi?
Yes, many are.

>ever get picked out by normies because of your weak/feminine nature?

I dont interact with people and im not feminine, so no

>What do you think about that retarded lgbt movement?

I hate it. Gay but i hate gay culture. I cant stand gender ideology. 99% of gay men are feminine leftists that specify their pronouns, only 2% of people are gay at all, and im not attracted to 99% of people, most faggots are dramatic mentally ill psychos (including myself) as a result of growing up as emotionally abused outcasts, so i am not playing that game.

>>298705
>report this thread
based on which rule?

[–]  No.298714

It's not officially a rule on its own, but admitting to being a homosexual counts as a rule 5 violation because 13 years of Wizardchan history has proven that doing so only causes the community grief. Wizchan is a board for adult men with no interest in at least discussing relationships and their sexual habits, if any. Allowing open homosexuals to post their attraction to adult men can only degrade the comfort of everyone else posting here. Additionally, every prominent homosexual poster of the past has ended up making not only a name for themselves with their flagrant behavior, but have also scared normal users away with their fetishistic posting.



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[–]  No.298656[Reply][Watch Thread]

everytime I start to think of my bleak future I end up thinking about suicide to give my self a sense of hope that the bad things i worry about can be prevented or stopped when they happen, at this point I want to end it even if it's through painful means, because the collective suffering of me living a standard lifespan will most likely outweight the the amount of suffering I would feel by CTB'ng painfully.
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[–]  No.298669

>>298668
So the new consciousness has different conditions - body, random life events, genes, family, state, criminal rate, material and psychological characteristics and so on. Suicide then is like a gambling. You could end up in a much better condition than you are right now but it could also be much worse. It needs careful observation if it's really worth the risk. That's why I would say if you can live a comfy life you better should because the alternative could be much worse thus it's better to rest for a bit before you take the new shot a life.

[–]  No.298670>>298673

>>298668
That's not you, that's a different self. Or otherwise, you're arguing that there is only one conscious self in the universe and we are also enjoying life as elon musk right now. Either way, there are multiple selves or points of view and it is better to snuff out the unpleasant ones early through suicide. Your message is philosophically incoherent

[–]  No.298673>>298700

>>298670
Doesn't matter if it's a different self. Each self has to endure the mode of being conscious, that is identical. No need for a universal consciousness. I am not Musk and don't experience life the same way as he does. But we are both conscious beings.
I said that you shouldn't rope easily because your new condition of being conscious could be much worse than the one you have now. If it is too unpleasant then go ahead and make a restart though.

[–]  No.298700>>298701

>>298673
Like the poster above said, the gamble of suicide making or not making sense only depends on your luck during the current round.

If you were born deformed, short, poor and in chronic pain since age 1, into a third world country, it only makes sense to get access to a handgun and reroll your character completely as soon as you can.

If you were born into a first world country, there are still plenty of conditions which can make reality unbearable and rerolling an alluring prospect even if you are materially ok.
For example being born non-neurotypical. Most non-NT have extremely low life satisfaction and are practically cut off from employment, dating, having a family, even having friends who aren't from online games.
That's why autists for one have a massive suicide rate compared to neurotypicals. They want to reroll.

Humans at the core are animals who want to do animal stuff. Cut them away from most of society long enough and ostracize them long enough, most lose the will to continue a life for the sake of more lonely video game marathons and sleeping.

[–]  No.298701

don't let yourself be deluded by this suicide shill, anons >>298700



[–]  No.297753[Reply][Watch Thread]

How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?
I basically don't feel pleasure from anything except food, maybe. Stories, games, art don't really touch me at all and it sucks because I remember how much I loved escapism before and how it brought excitement, joy, sadness etc. Now it's all blank. I want to bring emotions back, want to bring excitement, joy, even sweet sadness would do honestly, I miss being profoundly sad.

Have any of you managed to revert to your older non-anhedonic self?
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[–]  No.298524

i stopped giving a shit and it magically went away. now it doesnt matter to me what i do, whether i do something, whether i enjoy anything. i just am.

[–]  No.298688>>298689

>How do you guys fight anhedonia?
Stop trying to fix yourself.
It's just a wrong idea in itself.

Life sucks, accept it.

[–]  No.298689>>298691>>298692

A change of environment and daily motions is a good place to start. Consider how a prisoner lives and compare your own life to his. Is it much different? Are you able to go walk among nature and observe the world? Life itself is the best stimulus for emotion and staying indoors following the same routine is going to stifle your feelings. High stress hormones and numbness hormones such as cortisol and serotonin should be flushed out before they take over and eat away at your white matter. Shocking your system in to a surviving state by fasting like another anon suggested is a cheap way to force your brain to start firing on all cylinders again. Then return with a healthy diet; no excess sugars.

>>298688
t. Faggot who wants OP and other wizards to remain numb and unfulfilled

Life is cool, accept it.

[–]  No.298691

>>298689
Fasting means not eating? How long should I do this?

[–]  No.298692

>>298689
thinking about prisoners is a good idea. I think it also helps to watch documentaries about prisons or films set in prisons. Or likewise for people with severe medical conditions or severe obesity. It helps to show what we should appreciate about our lives.



[–]  No.295586[Reply]>>298675>>298690[Watch Thread]

I'm trying to quit porn (cold turkey) and 90% of the content I've seen online has been:

1. an anecdote from someone who has already succeded in quitting

2. an ad for an app

3. people who aren't addicted to porn talking about porn addiction

Is this shit just a grift? I want to hear about it from people who are actually struggling with it, not annoying liberal psychiatrists or infographics.

Please help me, I don't want to be like this anymore
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[–]  No.298517

>>296951
yes, they're definitely real. they also starting coming for me when i haven't fapped in weeks. this time i won't give in to them

[–]  No.298623

It all comes down to not putting yourself in position where you could masturbate or watch porn easily. Something which is especially hard for Hikki/Neets that spend lots of time alone with devices that can access pornographic content in two clicks.

[–]  No.298675

>>295586 (OP)
Dunno man, I've tried multiple times. Sometimes it was a struggle from day 0, sometimes I kind of just flatline right away and feel no urges until a week or two passes and I relapse. Best advice I have for you is to keep trying and not being too hard on yourself when you relapse. Best of luck.

[–]  No.298684

>I'm trying to quit porn
There's literally no reason to, unless you're a normalfag that's trying to gain more energy to go out in the world to do normalfag stuff.

[–]  No.298690

>>295586 (OP)
The hysteria about porn addiction is funny to me. Noporn, nofap, Dopamine fasting, etc etc. People think self-denial is something valuable in itself, which is so stupid it makes my head ring.



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[–]  No.296143[Reply][Watch Thread]

what does he want from us?
why is he torturing us?
why does he give great amount of suffering and horror to poor believers while giving happiness and wealth to evil disbelieving people?
why is he so careless?
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[–]  No.297246

>>297172
If God exists, that adds nothing new to my idea of Him or his essence. And if He doesn't exist, then how can He lack anything. Qualities of being good, omniscient etc. presuppose existence. Now existence is just a relation between an object and certain concepts, and in case of God and other imaginary entities, no corresponding object in physical reality can be found. It's a spook or I must acquire the proof of his existence from other sources like the intuition of the aforementioned will manifesting at different levels or something, this probably would be the difference between the ontological and cosmological arguments.
>>296340
Basically this, but since dispensing with anthropormphisms is such an impossible task for us, I think the difference between pantheism and atheism is mostly a matter of semantics
>>296145
Basically Plato's chariot allegory
>>296147
>>296184
There's a good thread about free will in /lounge/ with retards saying it absolutely doesn't exist

[–]  No.297257

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[–]  No.297258

He created the universe because he was horny and he jerks off to this stuff

[–]  No.298680

>>296184
>Now, maybe worry about something that actually does exist.
Like God?
>>296233
4channers are the worst atheist coomer crab degenerates in the interwebz

[–]  No.298683

>God
Not a thing, sorry.
>why is he torturing us?
Nature tortures all animals, including men. It's not evil, it's just how things happen to be. Nature doesn't know good from evil, it just operates deterministically.



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[–]  No.295099[Reply][Watch Thread]

Bascially, my country and it's culture has shifted rapidly, as soon as most of the people have come in contact with the West through internet, liberalisation, and globalisation. And I believe that is one of the reason which has prompted me to become a wizard.

Prior to globalisation, the succubi of my mother's generation were quite different, they themselves considered it shameful to wear revealing dresses, they always used to dress modestly, while most marriages were arranged they weren't forced, so while succubi were free to select their mate, and reject, they could do it only once and that guaranteed a equal distribution of succubi among men, and everyone was much more happier in that system as everyone got a mate.

And most succubi and men were virgin prior to marriage, it was considered shameful for both men and succubi to be non-virgin. As a matter of fact my native language doesn't even have a word for virgin, and there was no virgin shaming. But nowadays, kids use the word "virgin" as an insult. Most succubi lose their virginity quite early, and finding a virgin succubi is rare.

2-3 decades ago, succubi didn't consider it shameful or bad to be housewives, on the contrary they were proud to be one, or they studied and took a break for 5 years and then resumed their jobs, to go through marriage, pregnancy, and infancy of their child, and when they started working, the guy took the equal burden of the household chores and jobs.

But now, it's all changed, it's considered cool to smoke, drink, do drugs, wear skimply clothes, lose virginity early on, and then find a betabuxxer. Or in some cases succubi get paid so much that they don't even need a betabuxxer any more, while men struggle to get jobs, and ugly in men in particular end up at a much greater disadvantage.

And they act exactly like Western succubi, and I assume Western succubi are insufferable but due to the lost control of Western Men, a lot of Western Men now look towards East to get a semi-decent succubi. Leaving the same Eastern Men, to subscribe to redpill grifters like Andrew Tate, or bluepill themselves to oblivion.

And mind you only the degeneracy of the West has been copied and imported from the West, and meanwhile Western Culture's good and non-degenerate parts are completely ignored. In my country we now have things like undie runs (can anyone from the West explain this? what causes so utter lack of shame in people and succubi that Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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[–]  No.298543>>298645

I'm glad that Western culture is raping the native cultures all over the globe. Fuck them. Fuck normalfaggots. They deserve Ameritard pop culture. Let this world go to total ruin for all that I care. I think capitalism is fucking awesome too.

[–]  No.298645>>298646>>298647>>298674

>>298543
Western culture rapes itself. Hot dogs lost competition to burgers and pizza, traditional American restaurants disappear just like comic book shops. While manga rapes capeshit so hard they had to add picture books to charts to save face. Fuck America.

[–]  No.298646

>>298645
Diners.

[–]  No.298647

>>298645
Comic books were always atrocious

[–]  No.298674

>>298645
Rap(e) music and slopflex are the most consoomed media among well educated normalfaggots all over the world. Everyone wears western clothing. Murican slops chains are popular in every country.

This world is globohom'd beyond belief. I for one welcome this golden age of savage shit.



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[–]  No.298408[Reply]>>298437>>298538[Watch Thread]

i don't even know how to tie my own shoes, my mom always just did it for me whenever i got a new pair of shoes and it never fell apart. and before you post it yes i watched that spongebob episode, i watched so many tutorials in general but i just can't do the loop part at all. i think im just retarded or something, i have been sheltered my whole life, mom does EVERYTHING for me, even when I really want to do something, she prefers to do it her self instead of letting me learn, i know this sounds like a made-up problem, but being one your mid 20s and not knowing how do anything at all feels so ugh…
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[–]  No.298437

>>298408 (OP)
Youtube tutorials.

[–]  No.298470

>>298426
I know from experience that it's difficult, but try to say no and be proactive.

[–]  No.298538

>>298408 (OP)
Yeah, no offense but if you can't tie your shoes at 25 years old you may actually be retarded, have you tried applying for disability? You may not be diagnosed with anything, but you can definitely get disability cash, foodstamps, and free housing, just for being stupid, if you live in the 1st world

[–]  No.298610>>298612

Were you also not allowed to go outside as a child and early teenager because your caretakers feared something harmful will happen to you? or you will end up with a bad company?

[–]  No.298612

>>298610
not OP, but I was, and it makes me think: what kind of parent shelters their child like this?
my peers weren't sheltered like this, and I know because I had a few friends as a child, and their parents encouraged going outside and doing new stuff, while with mine there was always an investigation
>who are you going to?
>where do his parents work?
>what are his grades?
etc.
it was only my mom, now that I think of it
I can understand being worried about one's child, but this almost seems like deliberately trying to inhibit your child from learning about the world, to keep him believing the fantasy you weave
I'm beginning to spin out, so rant over



[–]  No.296346[Reply]>>298563>>298588[Watch Thread]

I dislike the feeling of lust. I find it responsible for alot of the negative patterns in my life that are preventing me from acquiring a peaceful existance. I have already accepted that I will not have a future that involves another human being but that doesn't give me the resolve to stop watching porn / lust over someone in my mind. Have any wizards here managed to overcome lust and if so, How did you do it?
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[–]  No.298563>>298687

>>296346 (OP)
>>296352
body maintenance in general is fucking annoying.
>gotta eat
>gotta drink
>gotta take a shit
>gotta piss
>gotta wash your ass
>gotta sleep
>gotta jerk off
>gotta work out
etc. and it never fucking stops. there is always one of these annoying body chores that you have to do to stay alive.
and if you dont you will feel like shit.
like if you dont jerk off and empty those balls then the blueballs feeling will annoy you, prevent you from sleeping etc.

>>298558
>on to better things
like what?

[–]  No.298564

>>298554
Their life is a drama, the more they go into their deviation the worst. Just have a look at soyjak.party's depictions

[–]  No.298565

>>298558
it only makes me super horny

[–]  No.298588

>>296346 (OP)
I am so done with wizards not wanting to practice SR. They won't stop putting shit excuses and they don't give a damn about their health or aura or energy which is already weakened by exposure to normies.

Would they even react if succubi were actually cruel with them in ways that suggests they think theirselves desires by wizard and henceforth teasing that desire, mocking these wizard? Which kind of humilliation could make coomers learn once and for all the gruesome importance of developing this way and adapting whatever for it?

The sooner you lose erections and the more often you cum, the quicker age makes prey of you. While those succubi still being smug about having men starving for their pussy and pretending we are also like that.

[–]  No.298687

>>298563
>body maintenance in general is fucking annoying.
So true.



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