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 No.307994[Reply]

The day of Armageddon has inched towards me in just 2 hours. I completed a worthless degree in IT, by completed, I mean gave the final exams of the final semester just 2 hours ago, and I returned home, which is in a third world country. And the results are as I expected, as a matter of fact, when I came back I could literally feel the tension inside my house mounting.

I was expecting one day or another, for this to happen but it's surreal how quickly it has happened, my parents had a massively heated argument with me, and honestly, it took me a few years back when my parents used to abuse the hell out of me, I can for some reason, literally feel the terror of abuse in the lower half of my spine and in my kidneys.

The question is obvious, which is what will I do next? Because I am about to graduate completely unemployed, in this little third world country, and of course the parents aren't happy, as it is in the nature of everyone maybe mine as well to be pissed seeing a man wake up at 9AM and ask for breakfast, and take it back to the Air Conditioned room, the resentment is off the charts for obvious reason of what my parents would consider "stealing" from them because I am not paying back in any meaningful labour, seems like I will have to wake up at 6AM in the morning tomorrow and not use Air Conditioner at all.

It was honestly, a massive argument, I just few hours ago got back to my house from a scorching 42C temperature and now I am being cooked internally. At this point, I have started to prepare for the worst, any day in "my" house could be my last, I am trying to gather all the IDs, gather all the documents for eventual kick, and a kick in a country like this is extremely close to death. Certainly slightly different from other countries where you can live in your car, given that in this country the car ownership rate is 8%. So there goes living in a Honda Fit out of the Window.

I must get a job, I have tried getting a job online, from microtasks, to annotation for OneForma, to trying to act like an agent for PornStars online, to chat on their behalf, and I have earned no more and no less than 0 in any currency of this planet. The jig is coming to an end. While I am not familiar with the thoughts of life in the Christian Theology because I wasn't born in a Christian Family, but my Judgement, rather Execution is near. Fuck me. There is very real chance that I will have to take a permanent dip into a Holy River. I meaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.308126

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>>308125
>This is where I will disagree with you, Britain, as much as I respect the country and it's people, they are not the kind of country to give away a single sterling in charity.

You could be correct on this part. I have read a little on the British Raj but not too much, and most of the sources I have are right wing Austrian economics perspectives and /pol/tard chuddery. The idea mainly being the opportunity cost for the British and that the money spent on colonialism could've been invested elsewhere and generated a similar or better return. Although for what it's worth I think colonialism in India was a massive mistake either way, and I wish the British were never involved there.

But even many of the academics that are critical of the marxist claims that colonial Europe looted the third world carve out a slight exception for India. Many of the more mainstream books I've read on the 19th century second wave of European colonialism talk about how India was strangely an exception to the moneysink thesis. The book "Oxford University's Short History of the 19th century" (pic related) had an assortment of academics all saying "yeah the British Raj was profitable, a few east indies territories were profitable, the rest really weren't". Africa absolutely was a moneysink and there's so many cabinet meetings government officials in Germany and France held talking about it. The German government wanted their own version of the East India company for Africa, so they could offload the colonies onto them, but no private investor was willing to get involved.

>Damn, that surprises me a lot, I know a few of them, and almost all of them detest India.

I can't mindread but I guess they just have a diaspora identity and feel they don't belong. Maybe it's their way of pushing back against or coping with the increasing racism and they don't really believe it? And I don't know man, people genuinely get along better than you read online. I'm an older guy that went to school when there was just one token pakistani guy and one token sikh succubus, and now it's like 15% of my city is indian. If there's a group of four or five teens doing something after school downtown, it's common for an indian to be in the group. The online talk about it only being succubi and the men being sexless virPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.308127

>>308126
>What do I know though, I'm a sexless virgin myself just judging friendship groups I see on the street. But yeah, it doesn't really impact you where you are.
I there's one thing that unites wizards here, I only used to read about relationships when I used to be an angry and rageful person back then who just discovered blackpill and terms like involuntary celibate but at this point, I think most of us are trying to accept or working towards living with our fate. Hopefully, though I hope Indians don't cause you much trouble but hey, I have lived in India since birth I know how truly horrendous the people from this country are, and I guess it was a mistake for Western Countries to accept so many immigrants from India, although still baffles me cause I thought it was very hard to immigrate.
>Anyways, thanks for replying to my excessive rambling. I hope things work out for you man.
No problem wiz-bro, if anything I quite enjoyed talking to you whether we saw eye to eye or not on things, but I am you know typical loner with no friends, no internet friends so it's always so nice to talk to you and other wizards like you on this forum, unless of course normies and co will try to shut this place down as well.

 No.308948

Fast fact.
There is "industrial grade equipment" that has its electronic components to be programmed. I don't know if you can code in UART or Ladder or have experience making flowcharts as part of visual programming, but here's the thing. Look for industrial stuff to programm. No StackOverflow, no neuroslop, it's supposed to behave flawlessly so they aren't going to let LLMs in *that* easy.

That's where your real degree in computers - once combined with your wizardry - comes in handy: you get trusted with "real" equipment and not some CSS/PHP/Java/'script let alone the non-language. Besides, industrial shit isnt prone to massive anti-hacker updates, unlike, say, Chrome.


Cheers and take it easy.

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>>308948
Thank you, wizard-brother I will try low level machine logic. I have to say I have had no luck so far and each passing day, the behaviour of my parents get worse and worse. I also have to say that (really much to my surprise) people here have been very helpful to me. They have all tried giving me a lot of advices and opportunities and I am grateful for that. Perhaps either through my fault or through universe's will, I just can't even manage to earn 1USD/hr. Its kind of funny how people make fun of this website as a toxic place on the internet. I am genuinely thankful and grateful to you guys for helping me out.

 No.308971

you could try learning a new language and see if that takes you somewhere, you might also want to look for unskilled job in a developed nation and then try to get something as a programmer once you're there. Japan has the Specified Skill Worker program for poor Asian countries, you could take one of their exams in India to get hired, I've heard the working conditions aren't great though but definitely better than anything you might get in your country.


 No.307554[Reply]

another day another computer broken, no matter how hard i try i cant stop my explosive anger issues. im tired of how angry I get, it keeps me from enjoying things in life and forces me to avoid things I should enjoy. once the dust settles in, guilt crawls onto me. the cycle never stops. for the life of me I want this anger to stop, it keeps sabotaging things i enjoy.
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 No.308936

you will need to hate it, and hate it for many years before you can really stop. a good reality check is often helpful too. I won't go into much detail but I had similar issues as you are describing, I narrowly dodged a 10 year prison sentence and every since I've been a lot better, not perfect, not even good just a lot better

 No.308938

I like the adrenaline boost when I get angry

 No.308946

>>307554
OP *probably* could use a punching mannequin to beat / 2practice_fighting_skillz@get_exhausted@relax_a_bit

 No.308947

>>307554
What triggers your anger? There has to be a cause.

 No.308959

>>308947
unoptimized jerk off schedule


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 No.307205[Reply]

This thread is for talking about OCD, addictions, or those kinds of disorders that ruined our lives
>So
When I was a kid, I had some pretty OCD-like behavior—I’d touch things and check them over and over until I felt reassured that everything was okay. I also used to walk on my tiptoes, which is a bit autistic, but I eventually stopped doing that (I don’t know if I have autism at this point bacause never did a test, but whatever).
>So what’s up with you?
Well, in my case is limerence (some studies say is co-related to OCD)
>And what’s that like?
Well, imagine a succubi (for some people even can be the other sex you dont like) talks to you and treats you kindly once or twice, and then you start getting way more than just nervous around her because your body starts releasing dopamine, serotonin, and all that shit. And since you don’t know what’s going on, you think you like her or have fallen in love, but its NOT.
really it’s just fucking anxiety toward a “thing.” Because you’re constantly seeking validation in some way—whether for friendship, attention, or love but you have this anxiety that you know is inappropriate, and if you act on it, the feeling of danger gets worse, it’s almost like you’re having a heart attack. and as time pass the thing got worst and worst and you get more obsessive, nerveous and get a peak of anxiety, even start to rumiate or have that thing of limerence (LO) living rent free in your head bacause your brain cant stop thinking about your LO
>What was the worst experience you've ever had?
Even you will end starting to dream with the LO and have happy dreams or nightmares and waking up crying bacause you are getting the peak of anxiety and dopamine,etc sec before waking up. this shit can even ruin friendship.
>Why the hell does this happen?
I don’t know, genetics, anxiety, depression, emotional dependency, low self-steem, negligent parents, love hungry, maybe OCD etc and a whole lot of shit
>You're larping this nonsense
but in my case, it’s not like those internet memes of bitch tumblr succubi where it only happens once and they use like a joke for love or crush
>You're a retard and you fall in love go fuk yourself wizard
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 No.308568

OCD robbed my adolesence and ruined my life.

When I was an unborn baby, I was in the womb of a succubus who had a faulty heart tube due to childhood rheumatic fever, was nutritionally deficient, ate poorly, smoked and did drugs (but no alcohol surprisingly lol), and was under chronic stress. My prefrontal cortex was largely underdeveloped. On top of that, she was very abusive. Imagine being a mother, giving birth to this fragile baby after nine months and violently beating the baby because it didnt immediately act like an adult. Yeah.

As a result, my brain is permanently hardwired to be mentally ill and retarded. I tried my best to exist, but its very difficult. Killing myself sounds really nice these days, but the pain of living gets so overwhelming that moving around is painful, let alone making the effort to die. Why does dying have to be so effortful? I dunno.

Im a third worlder btw. All third worlders unite!

 No.308569

>>307330
>i also experienced this when i was younger because i was in school were happiness is 'treated' as a problem and you learn it is better not to be happy.

nigga what kinda school did you go to??? a russian school???

every school everywhere on the planet forces positivity on everyone, they'd never tell you to be unhappy

 No.308570

>>308552
Humans point?

Yes. You totally earned a good chunk of wizard's human-ness points for helping a succubus with her crap using the /wiz/dom you have accumulated throughout years. Good job, really



Congratulations!

 No.308581

>>308569
СМЕХ БЕЗ ПРИЧИНЫ ПРИЗНАК ДУРАЧИНЫ

 No.308900

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This thread is the gayest thing i've ever seen


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 No.308862[Reply]

I wasted years of my life working and started college late. Last year, I began a degree program in psychology education to see if later I could handle a degree in psychology or become a therapist, and in short it was a disaster. I felt like a damn alien next to my classmates, and I didn’t feel comfortable in class, not with them, not with anything.
This year, I decided to start studying another major focused on the hobbies i love, music related things as hobby. I decided to try music education, and so far everything’s going well, and I even feel comfortable with my classmates, but the social aspect is still killing me.

>What's you cant handle?
>Vocal education
I can't handle vocal training classes I usually freeze up and can't even sing a scale. The strange thing is, I don't know if the teacher plays favorites, but she treats the succubi better, from what I've seen, they've been singing for a while, sing in church choirs around religious things etc, or already have experience with singing and high notes. I don't notice her treating the men the same way or giving them the same attention, and most of the guys haven't practiced singing before. Last time, she told me I don’t sing because I strive too much for perfection i dont believe this is true but this didnt help in anything. I don’t know if she misunderstood me or if she hates me, but I’m not sure if she understands that I can’t control my nerves and i actually told she about this. one day she just told me something in the lines of go to a psychologist bla bla Obviously, I failed her exams. maybe i the problem or she even tried to help much. maybe i will try to change to another teacher next year i dont know.

>Language and music theory problem
The language and music theory classes started a little late, but I love them (with piano classes), and the fun part comes in the later semesters. My only problem is that, because of some university policy, they make us record ourselves and… oh my god, I hate my fucking face. I’ve never liked recording myself, and they even make us record ourselves singing, which is even worse, because I can’t even stand in front of a camera for two seconds without go full into a panic attack of nervers and sadness. i hate mirrors and watching myself in recordings.

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 No.308865

>drop out of university bacause of self-steem

When I was in university/college, I knew enough (both male and female) who had these thoughts. Some did drop out. Others remained. Of course I can't speak to what you must be particularly feeling inside yourself personally, but I can say that from my own experiences with classmates/peers who had varying self-esteem issues of all types (eg, convinced they were unattractive, convinced others were mocking them, looking down on them, excluding them, etc.) that 99% of the time these individual issues whereon they had laid so much anxiety and stress appeared to me (as an outside observer) to be completely socially insignificant and things of a sort I would not even have had a consciousness of if they had not confided their worry of them in me.

>The language and music theory classes started a little late, but I love them (with piano classes), and the fun part comes in the later semesters. My only problem is that, because of some university policy, they make us record ourselves and… oh my god, I hate my fucking face.

That's excellent. You've found something you truly enjoy. And I'm sure it'll only get better as you advance higher and higher. To quit something you like this much owing only to insecurity around appearance seems like an unwise choice. I highly doubt you look as bad as you imagine yourself to.

>I can't handle vocal training classes I usually freeze up and can't even sing a scale. The strange thing is, I don't know if the teacher plays favorites, but she treats the succubi better,

All teachers play favorites. Whether music teachers, philosophy teachers, math teachers, english teachers. They all have their favorites. Partiality towards others is human nature and is found everywhere. I dealt with professors who strongly disliked me and oftentimes for reasons I never even understood. If the favoritism shown by this specific instructor however is so great, is there any chance you could find another related instructor who would take you on and through whom you could fulfill your required credit load?

>I just want to disappear,

Again, I knew at least 4-5 students in my own time in university who voiced those exact words "I want to disappear". I remember a few of them stayed within their dorms forasmuch as they could (avoiding in-Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.308866

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>>308862
I drop out of uni after one year of history studies because I couldn't handle all the presentation to give in front of the whole class. it was too much for me; it was like a humiliation ritual (speaking in front of everyone)

 No.308867

well, I can relate to a lot of what you said here, even the acne scars part. You did well in dropping out of psychology, unless that degree actually has a high employment rate in your country. You won't find jobs with a music degree unless you're lucky or quite talented, but at least it may fulfill you, although you could also learn that by yourself which is what I decided to do in my creative hobby. The only benefit of going to college for such a degree in the age of the internet is guidance and discipline, and you don't necessarily need college to get those. There's also making contacts with other people but that relies on what people are available to interact with in your class, if it's only normaloids you may have a hard time making any friends at all. I also think like so many others that modern college is a huge scam, not only of your money but most importantly of your time and youth, but I can only speak from personal experience in my country. I was going to click post, but I also read that you don't want to go back to NEETing, it's certainly not for everybody so I suggest you stay there for a little while and calmly consider what to do in the future, no self-help books or anon wizards have the right answer to that, since we don't know you personally enough to know what's best for your specific case.

 No.308891

try something else. education is turd in 95% of unis anyway.

 No.308898

>>308891
That makes it even worse. In much of the world if you didn't at least complete undergrad, you're permanently relegated to the underclass.


 No.308831[Reply]

There is nothing worse than being dumb, yet smart enough to know the fact that you are dumb. I am constantly forced to live with knowing that i am too stupid to handle even the simplest of tasks, everytime somebody corrects me on something obvious that i should have known i feel so fucking worthless.
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 No.308838

>>308836
What, so you can make fun of him?

 No.308839

can relate. advice: suffer better

 No.308851

>>308838
I am not like that. I want to understand well, i think he might be exaggerating

 No.308853

>>308851
Well havent checked into this site in a while but let me give you some examples
>i messed up some cookies at the local cafeteria i work at by cutting some of them too small,an then repeated that some mistake
>i didnt know how a coffee machine worked since i never drink coffee
>my room and my daily routines are incredibly disorganized

 No.308854

>>308853
just as I expected, you're exaggerating. those are things that you will learn to do well over time. Obviously, you don't know how to do something without previous experience. If people expect to you know things that you don't know, it isn't your problem


 No.308772[Reply]

I’m starting to question who I really am; I feel like I’m losing my mind as memories of my painful past come flooding back. I don’t know who to talk to—who I can actually trust. It feels like no one understands what I’m going through. They tell me I’ll be fine, but I don’t feel fine at all. Every day, every moment—it feels like an endless, vicious cycle. I’m exhausted by all of this, yet I try to appear strong so no one sees me as weak. I know it’s frustrating; I hate everything—the past, the future, everything. It’s all the same; nothing ever changes.

 No.308773

>>308772
sorry you're in the depths right now and it's hard (or impossible) to see a light at the end of the tunnel where you have relief.

Do you have fluctuations in this feeling are there days that somehow you feel back to normal, even if it's fleeting?

Do you want more questions, advice, or something in particular? I can say i relate to the vague yet pervasive existential dread you're experiencing, but i also know being in the thick of it is hard to listen to advice or anything.

Like the fact that there's a grain of truth in what people have said: "you'll be fine" - cus in a sense you got through yesterday's battle - you were technically fine. So what's really going on?

 No.308782

no one will help you
you can trust no one
normies are semi-retarded
the body is a parasyte feeding off the real you
isolation, distrust, paranoia and suicide are good things

 No.308786

It's as if you're crawling in your skin, yes? And the wounds… They will not heal, yes? Maybe go outside. Find something to hate that actually needs to be hated instead of hating yourself.

 No.308791

it'll go away in a few years. the torment never stays the same. something else will give you pain instead

 No.308852

>>308772
I wonder if your food, while tasty, lacks *wellness* which may do some shenanigans to your body, bullshitting you into stress response over some weird deficiency of some bullshit vitamin or microelement.


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 No.308788[Reply]

If you're feeling depressed, come listen Music to Sidney Gish "Impostor Syndrome" (best part only).
Link:
https://youtu.be/skJDWv0bGtM?si=5FDhGyhNcn6vNDkx

lyrics:
Just watch me, moving far away
Nobody even knows my name and
No one suspects that I'm not fine, and
Nobody outs behavioral Frankenstein'
Just look at Victor in L.A
And Syd with the "y" at U of A
And all the majors at the labels
Rebooting soon as I am able
Every other day I'm wondering
What's a human being gotta be like?
What's a way to just be competent?
These sweet instincts ruin my life
Every other day I'm wondering
Was it a mistake to try and define
What I'm certain's mad incompetence?
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 No.308811

>>308800
I once realized I hate using celly for the Internet surfing for a reason. Once I realised I just want toboth blast my radio and watch some educational/"EduTaiment" video at the same time, my life has shifted for the best.

I probably should get a shover radio also.

I reckon that's exactly why people buy "bone conductivity headphones" - you basically can use they along with your earbuds

 No.308812

For the 1% people reading this, i hope you become successful in your life.

 No.308816

lowkey the best part of imposter syndrome is the whole song ??

 No.308817

"Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see." — Mark Twain

 No.308819

kindness is just a lets-team-up signal. if either side doesn't really mean to team up then it's wasted. there's also no guarantee either side won't lose interest in future which means kindness only lasts as long as both parties are in need of teammates.


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 No.305598[Reply]

Nostalgic tiktok zoomer here, I hate being one but i don't want to lie you.(sorry bad English)
I hate who smartphones and ai, it is changing society for worse, literally i can't see a 2000s anime without feeling trash, i hate have and smartphone in front my eyes 24/7.
Technology is amazing, the problem is the fucking steve jobs with his fucking iphone changing 2000s animation/gaming culture for fucking apps!!!!
I hate being addicted to my smartphone(I can manage it but I'm not 100% free) I hate who normalized is for society being addicted to smartphones.
I don't want this ai future where everything is DEGENERATED PORN with lazy people using ai for being more stupid.
I hate want to use tiktok or ai, I hate fight with my phone. I really hate this fucking world.
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 No.305904

>>305893
I think you may have far-sighted eyes. Which means you need reading glasses.

Regards, a near-sighted person who needs regular glasses.

 No.308749

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I have finally realized something. The Internet now is overwhelming in terms of making a myriad of small decisions every time you want to do something poorly decined. Say, every time you just want to watch a *tube video to pass some time or scout for *something* that's interesting, you have thousands of videos to choose from and they're all "interesting".

The digital rabbit hole is real.

Next time you go to a computer, you make a short idea of what are you going to watch.

"Just spending 20 minutes watching 1 old short comedy movie from 1970s" or
"I need to look up how to sync up my old pc and new laptop"

If you want to try a new recipe, you may try to go to a nice bench near your local shop, and look up some recipes when you're near a store, not in the comfort of your home. (That's my guess, though, not a serious tested idea of living)

 No.308759

>>308749
>to do something poorly decined
>decined

Both "poorly defined" and "poorly decided" $(confused_smile_here)

 No.308776

>>305598
I recommend you to do what I do - watch old movies, play old games, read old books. Forget that the world around you is in the 2020s.

Watch youtube videos about the 20th century western world or Japan. Read old VNs. As long as you aren't a wagie, living in the past is possible.

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>>305598
Same as most others here I suggest you just try and emulate the lifestyle of that era for yourself. Use modern tech only as much as you have to. I have a smartphone but it pretty much sits unused in a drawer, I only still own it because I'm forced to have a 2FA app for my bank. My computer screen is almost two decades old, small compared by modern standards and not even 1080p resolution. The last AAA game I played was Battlefield 4 and my PC probably wouldn't even run any of the modern Unreal Engine type shit even if I wanted to. The books and novels I buy these days are mostly pre 2010s, many even pre 2000. I really enjoy reading stories set in those times, before the internet was mainstream, when people still used flip phones or phone booths. Where the cops can't just look up someones location history or track them through CTV, where people can just disappear by buying a plane ticket in cash to nowhere. Also, a lot of modern writing just feels off to me a lot of the times. I think it's the internet-lingo seeping into stories and settings where it has no place and ruin the immersion.
I still use the computer more than I'd like, I watch a lot of shows idly. My goal is to spend more time learning to draw or reading or fuck, just sitting in the garden and zoning out. But I definitely understand your feelings regarding this. The modern technology age is too overstimulating, fast paced, addictive, overproduced. I'm also just sick of technology being put into everything because of the still prevailing notion that anything and everything is better by having a computer or touch screen in it. Self-check outs, order kiosks, the lack of buttons and dials in cars and so on. So in essence, only use technology you absolutely have to in order to survive, anything else you have to be extremely selective about.


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 No.305955[Reply]

Its hard being bad at everything, even the things you do for yourself
Whatever I touch usually ends up ruined
Its very hard on me because I allready expect to fail at whatever I try nowadays
Maybe bad luck is real, but whatever I lay my hands on usually ends up more damaged then fixed
Id like to say electronics are a hobby, but i have destroyed more then I repaired
I have no talents no ability to put any Idea I have in my mind into reality
It doesnt matter if I prepare, if I practice
My fingers dont do what I want them to
Something unexpected happens
I couldnt even fix a carburator on my bike
And I couldnt get the replacement to work either
There are very few times I have tried something and got positive results
I have been fired from every job i have ever gotten quickly
I have been learning japanese for 3 years now and I have seen other people become fluid but despite the time I poured in I still suck
Its very hard to explain to other people, they will say "you have to try more or try something different"
But I am trying and failing
Its not that im just seeing the negatives, when I actually succeed at something it makes me very happy but its a rare feeling for me
I try things, even follow tutorials and it never turns out well for me
I have ruined many things I love by trying to fix an issue and breaking them irrepairably
I just want a bit of sucess in what I do
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 No.308713

i succeeded at being a hopeless linuxoid. checkmate, evil god.

 No.308746

>>308644
I got some little rats and they just need to be pushed together.
I think I managed to get them off the plastic frame rather nicely.
Maybe try some of those?

 No.308751

>>308707
Mate, I literally keep a book of coincidence-like events in my life.

Sometimes, there are several of them in one go. Sometimes, there are little to none. And sometimes I am just too sleepy to get out of my bed to write it down…

 No.308765

>>308707
>>308751


when i was young i tried to dismiss it as random, or a coincidence, or just bad luck;

curses, thats silly or crazy! lol

Old man me, i am 100% sure i am under some kind of curse. and i talked to a stereotype gypsy lady, told me believed multiple family generational curses were all landin on and endin on me, and it was why my life was so fuckin weird. Didnt want to be involved, said it could jump on to people tryin to fuck w/ it for me.

But told me, take a bath, literal, in salt water, and helps if its Sea Salt. Could add other stuff, but salt was most effective.

i feel now, most of us are probably cursed.

100 years back, 500 years back, men w/ lives as fucked as ours we d be told, o yea so and so is cursed, talk to the town elder for solution to break it.

But, in our modern time we re told. Dude Serious, a curse, cmon its 2020s its BS.

i 1,000% believe im cursed and looked for a way to break it. Salt bath helps a lot, for me

 No.308766

>>308765
>salt

No way mate

Salt. A thing used to draw boundaries against spirits turns out to help you with your curse. Interesting.


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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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 No.307527

>>305604
do you have a pic of your dog?

 No.308090

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Coming up on a year now. It feels like it happened a month ago and I don't feel any better. Nothing can fill the hole he left

 No.308118

I have a cat. I love them, they are comfy animals. But I fucking hate normgroids, they are sadistic fucks that hate animals, trees and life in general There is a pregnant street cat in my neighbourhood I stop by to pet occasionally. I gave her food today and yesterday and my rude, bossy bitch of a neigboor scolded me for petting a cat that trampled something flowers or whatever, I didn't understood what the cat's fault was but she absolutely hates that cat. I put a bowl with food and water and I believe that bitch will throw it away. I wish I could help the cat out more but I already have a uncastrated male cat with kidney failure whom I must treat everyday and my budget can't handle more, especially with kittens.I can't even leave the house to give them away because of my situation. I can only leave food hoping that cat will eat it.

 No.308133

>>308118
Normalfags only keep animals as props. They don't actually value them as friendships, see all the parrots that people get rid of when they get married/have kids and "don't have time for them"

 No.308752

>>308133
I dunno. Apparently, by your logic, cats are non-normie pets then.


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