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 No.290746[Reply]

I want to start obtaining and doing benzos, Xanax and\or Clonazepam, and drinking alcohol daily all the time. I have my own apartment now but I just feel and see nihilism everywhere. I can lived without working due to investments + disability pension which is based on Real motor disability, disability Tax exemptions etc. so far I DO work and a lot, but it's for time-wasting's sake.

I really feel desperate and despondent about society, social relations, life-long projects or before-I-die bucket lists and prospects towards old age. Im a man, 29 years old. Benzos + alcohol will probably kill me if withdrawal doesn't but I've done and seen so much (bad stuff), I don't like being aware of reality any more.

I won't buy illegal drugs but I would (I hope I can stop this plan in time) lie \ fake \ fraud symptoms to my psychiatrist to obtain legal doses and prescriptions. I already used to take non-Benzo meds for 10 years, I stopped recently as I was "given the medical OK" and declared suitable for living without meds. Getting drunk is legal but only inside your house, so if I while drunk decide to leave the house, it's illegal (public disorder, threatening behaviour etc). But really in my Country you can do anything to yourself within your property.

Deep down I know this path is so wrong but I can't stop heading down it. my last rescue would be , to stop this from starting, going back to churches, talk to priest, maybe community meetings. But Im terrified of making long-lasting social relationships so I can't form part of a Community anymore. I even have almost totally stopped consuming Culture and Art (no anime, no vidya, no memes or shitposts) because that's so eminently communal and bonding, I hate national identities and housing codes, it all reinforces bonding and kinship. really,, neighbourhoods are for benefiting the community itself, it kills every Ego in a mass sacrifice.

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 No.289987[Reply]

Poet who "maintained to the last his constancy to himself and gentleness toward others" despite his misfortune.
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His last days (according to Bertram Dobell)

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'Sympathy' from 'Essays and Phantasies'
https://archive.org/details/essaysphantasies00thomrich/page/228/mode/1up?view=theater
"Who likes to believe it is altogether vain to look for the blessing of deep sympathy in any of his friends?"



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 No.290585[Reply]

Stuff used to increase by like 1% a year if that.

Now the exact same order costs 20% more a month later. There is absolutely no way this can be chalked up to inflation. This is pure greed.

And no I don't eat there every day, it's my only treat as a poor wagie about once or twice a month. Now I'll cut it down to zero since they just keep gouging the prices up rapidly.
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 No.290603

>>290602
oh also the war in sudan affected prices also since it is a pretty big exporter of seeds and nuts and stuff. Any disruption to real production or distribution of food causes price inflation.

 No.290605

This shit makes me regret dropping out of college so much. Being a NEET sucks so hard now.

 No.290606

The cost of McDonald's bacon cheeseburger is not at all related to the price of food.

 No.290611

>>290606
>"The McDonald’s McDouble, at 390 Calories, 23g of protein, 7 percent of daily fiber, 20 percent of daily calcium and iron, etc., is the cheapest, most nutritious, and bountiful food that has ever existed in human history."
>The claim was made by Ralph Thomas to Freakonomics authors and radio broadcasters, who are known for showing 'the hidden side of everything' by fitting economics to popular culture.
>Commenting in the New York Times Kyle Smith says that those opposing the idea of the McDouble's nutritional worth, are ignoring the fact that it is great value-for-money for customers.
>"Junk food costs as little as $1.76 per 1,000 calories, whereas fresh veggies and the like cost more than 10 times as much, found a 2007 University of Washington survey for the Journal of the American Dietetic Association. A 2,000-calorie day of meals would, if you stuck strictly to the good-for-you stuff, cost $36.32, said the study’s lead author, Adam Drewnowski."
>https://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2013/07/30/mdonalds-mcdouble-cheapest-nutritious-food-in-history_n_3675128.html
As you can see, it was a rhetorical point that access to cheap protein was a sign of historic exceptionalism. This point was silently dropped once it became untenable, and now we get to witness the same class of people silently shift their position on food and fuel again

 No.290613

>>290611
It was possible to get a McDouble for a single USD before covid, or even 2 for 1 deals on the app making it $0.50 each.

Now each McDouble costs about $3 to $4.50 in most markets and is no longer a value option.



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 No.289486[Reply]

chronic alcoholics, drug addicts, homeless schizos, career criminals, neets who are one or more of this options, all mixes of these: Are they actually correct? if life is absurd and meaningless: why play by the rules? Why not maximize pleasure at the expense of everybody else?
Serious discussion here. Every day, I DESPISE more and more family men, job-havers, preachy-preachy goody two-shoes, anyone who works for stability, governance, administration and organisation of communities.
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 No.289845

>>289497
>life isnt meaningless
And what is meaning of it?
>childish
There nothing more childish than being goody do shoes good boy with "right soughts".
The only your reward for obsessing with that meaningless nonsense will be burning with rest of damned, if there is hell to begin with.
>but done the right way you will become fulfilled
Life of normalfag is only fullfilling to normalfags.

 No.289846

>>289611
> Misery is profit, suffering is value.
>Misery is profit, suffering is value.
No it doesn't, not everyone has to be so masochistic.

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>>290568
I've been doing a collab with another online fren about how true crime and most arrests, cases ,police and crime is all fake-staged-coded

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>>290569
this is worldwide, international, transnational. intra-global



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 No.284013[Reply]

If somebody was planning to self delete what is the most painless method that won't cause much pain.If one could access a firearm that would be a no brainer,but what's the second easiest way?
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 No.287596

>>287595
Despair is such a heavy word. I know things can change, I just cant believe in it anymore.

I feelm like I'm on autopilot at the minute because I'm not sure what comes next. I've got my family though, so I hope that will be enough.

 No.290527

What's an easy method that looks like an accident? Like an overdose of a common ingredient?

 No.290529

youll die anyways, no need to rush

 No.290548

>>290529
Sometimes you just can't fucking take it and don't want to wait.

 No.290554

>>290527
autoerotic asyphyxiation



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 No.267760[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Share your various traumatic experiences that still haunts you to this very day.
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 No.290514

bump

 No.290521

>>286071
I agree. And even if a peace is built, it can only last in a highly intelligent society where every member is aware of the facts at all times.

The stupider and more easily manipulated the members of said society, the quicker it devolves into anarchy, then arbitrary violence and then groups killing other groups.

There is a reason why fake news are impossible to spread and gain zero acceptance in certain countries, and why they routinely start conflicts and wars in others.

The vast majority of nations consist of utter primitives who can barely read and write. They are literal bonobos and chimpanzees in mental function who just have homo sapiens bodies. It's very stupifying to think of it, but the US is closer to those ape nations than it is to a place like Iceland or Japan.

 No.290531

>>290521
https://www.usnews.com/news/best-countries/articles/2023-01-27/finland-most-resistant-to-fake-news-report-finds

The most resilient country against fake news is Finland, followed by Norway and Denmark.

The most susceptible countries towards fake news are Kosovo, North Macedonia and Georgia, all very low income and low literacy countries. So it appears you're right.
The US ranks in the lower third of all countries measured. The US is full of retards.

 No.290532

>>290531
>The US is full of retards.
From Mexico and Africa.

 No.290534

>>290532
its a taboo to say, but the average iq in the states is rapidly dropping due to migrants from low intelligence countries.

you have like 0,1% coming in as programmers or doctors on h1b-visas and 99,9% coming in as green card menial labor types

we arent getting a bunch of highly educated critically thinking people from finland, japan or india's elite.
we are getting people from weird shitholes like malawi, burundi and south american failed states where people can just about scribble their name on a piece of paper


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 No.277271[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

It's not a secret that lots of wizards abuse alcohol and/or drugs for any reason (i.e. to cope), some might even consider themselves alcoholics and/or drug addicts. Using is a big part of our lives and we should have a space to express our daily experience.

Share whatever's on your head. Your latest favorite substance, the hardships of being a fiend on top of being a wizard, favorite drinks, worst drinks, substances you wish you had, drugs you wish you never tried, your experience with withdrawals, etc.

>drinking or using drugs=social interaction

Using/acquiring drugs or alcohol is not inherently social (compare it to the act of acquiring and eating food, are those inherently social? not really).
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 No.287598

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been drinking straight bourbon for a couple of years now, i'm at the point i can finish a handle in a day. few days ago i went driving for 3-4 hours and dont remember any of it. seems kind of a red flag, i wish i could get into other substances but dont know how to even meet a dealer to get em. at least i havent made out with my pistol since i started drinking. anyway four roses bourbon i like especially their small batch.

 No.287617

>>280106
>>280108
>>280103
i'll watch it. God bless, wizzie.

 No.287621

rain rain go away was actually pain pain go away but made in a children's rhyme nice and easy

 No.287943

>>287617
Been a long while since I checked this thread, didn't expect any replies to my half-year old posts. Hopefully you enjoy Nurse Angel Ririka. Technically, it's an old chinese cartoon aimed at young asian succubi, so it is unusual for old archmages like us to have a good time watching it. But if I like it, surely a few other wizards can like it, too!

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 No.289105[Reply]

I have no idea who i am and where i belong to. I don't want to be noticed, seen nor do i want to be remembered, i don't want anyone to know i exist, I dont even want to exist. Really wish i could get into a freak accident then get so brain damaged that Iforget everything about my self and past. I'm detached from everyone, the world around me and the body i inhabit. I feel nothing for other people and hold no connection towards them.
I dont have a place I feel connected to. I dont have a home. I dont have parents, I dont have a family, I dont have friends, i dont have a self, i dont have anything. I've been living in a perpetual day dream/delusion for decades and thats the only reason ive put up with existing for so long. everyday of my pathetic life is spent trying to not end it. why am I the way I am?
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 No.289148

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>>289147
yeah, even the little insight they can provide, you can just get by reading books on the theory and apply it to yourself. spoiler: none of it actually works as reported, the case studies are cherry picked and its really easy to rationalize whatever result you get or don't get.

 No.289178

>>289110
>yeah, you're a textbook schizoid.
I can confirm.

>>289115
You're not missing anything. You wouldn't actually ENJOY the things, because your brain and perception of reality are fucked up.

 No.289223

>>289178
I do enjoy talking to certain people sometimes, like people who are actually interesting to talk to but the discomfort that comes with it makes it too overwhelming for me to form any kind of connection with them so most of the time it ends up with me ghosting them or them blocking me for being too 'suspicious or secretive'.

i also do enjoy going outside but only in places that dont have people or cameras in them like the woods.
i actually hate being indoors all the time. i want to travel one day when im financially stable enough.

 No.290511

>>289106
bullshit meme disorder

 No.290525

>>290511
>bullshit meme disorder
All disorders are a meme, in the sense that they are not more helpful than being a categorization. That said, SzPD is a valid categorization, it's just very rare.



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 No.290490[Reply]

Poet (1834-1882) who didn't kill himself but didn't fare well and died at 47
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 No.290500

death is part of life and its impact affect people. killing thyself is an act of consequences for living people and an selfish act

 No.290501

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>>290500
Yes and no. Henry Romilly Fedden is the first well-placed person I know to have admitted that misfits are set aside to die.

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>>290501
I agree on suicide being an anti-social act but like he said, suicide is harmful to a certain part of society:the friends and family of the victim. He says society heals from people who killed themselves and then says some people (who are THE society-part of it-) will be saf about that.
in fact, society (composed by the individual) doesn't care about suicide in general, but individually speaking, hurts society (entourage of the victim).
so suicide is harmful for society beacuse if every individuals had a members of their friends/family kill themsekves, they will be sad and all the society will be. but this doesn't occur because suicide is a marginal act.

finally, what I can say is the author thinks suicide is good for people because it get rid of persons who can't fit society and therfore heal society. NO! suicide is harmful for society. marginal people are part of the society. some are even really integreted and part of the majority of society and still kill themselves.
I think I said whatsoever, tell me if you didn't understand anything haha



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 No.283706[Reply]

Distant recognition from a goodsocietyman. Suicide: A Social and Historical Study, written by Henry Romilly Fedden in 1938.
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>>287313
Thank you

 No.290269

hey OP didnt you make a thread similar to this a week or two ago but with a different book? I wanted to save that book but I forgot. something about the machine and the abyss right?

 No.290310

>>284292
I loved this pages I read, Thanks you i'm happy it didn't have any kind of forced Aphorism, Even if there were, there were few and still even tho I disliked the constant examples of Rome and hoped for other examples to make it clear, Still it was a good reading. Could've dug deeper into the subject rather than staying in the already known "Suicide is caused by the same reasons other writers said" but hey It's good to read something you already know.
Liked the examples

 No.290488

>>290269
The People of the Abyss by Jack London. He lived among the poor in East London in 1902 to tell his well-placed fellows.
https://archive.org/details/peopleofabyss00londiala/page/n10/mode/1up

 No.290489

>>290310
Rome was just one chapter, though the longest.
>>287308
Read his prediction of the future, if you haven't.



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