/dep/ - Depression

>>302319
Sleeping helps. Of course, it's major avoidance but my bed is pretty much the only place on this world where I don't feel any sort of negative emotion. Stress, anxiety, sadness, it all melts away once I am under the covers and have closed my eyes. I have even begun enjoying the feeling of drifting in and out of consciousness when I set short alarms for afternoon naps and keep snoozing, like surfing the tide of unreality. Dreams are also usually the only place I actually feel positive emotion and when I do it tends to linger and keep me going for some part of the day after.
I think this strategy only works if you've trained your brain to associate your bed only with sleeping though. I've never been someone who spends any waking time in bed to read or consume content or whatever, so my physiological reaction is pretty robust.

>>303386
>Sleeping helps. Of course, it's major avoidance but my bed is pretty much the only place on this world where I don't feel any sort of negative emotion. Stress, anxiety, sadness, it all melts away once I am under the covers and have closed my eyes.

JEALOUS!!!

I can't fall asleep until some specific conditions (not too hot, not too bright yet not too dark) are met due to being both too fat and too large

The only thing I've found works recently is escapism. I've been watching a lot of movies and playing games where I can really immerse myself in the story like good CRPGs or challenging games like romhacks. It's a delicate balance though because I suck at games so playing something too hard will just make me feel worse.

I used to have other hobbies that helped (different types of exercise) but I've grown to just hate them all. It's a negative feedback loop because now I'm fat and out of shape so thinking about doing those things again just makes me sad because I suck so much.

>>302319
not fapping

>>302319
I take noopept (Russian anti dementia nootropic) everyday for a month at a time.

triggered all the normniggers with this thread

>>303495
you are angry because you wanted to be mentally and physically enslaved to roasties?
why? are you retarded?
this shit never made sense to me. like how can someone yearn for slavery so much?
do you really believe your life would be better if you were a mealticket for some roastie?
lol

You would like browsing r/antisex, OP.

What really pisses me off is how actually sexist it is in general. It's like a fucking passive. when succubi aren't directly sexist to us vocally, they do it "casually" by their presence alone if I say "Not really interested/don't care at all." or when you, god forbid, you have lots of hobbies. 3 goddamn decades of:

"Bro, we gotta get you pussy."
"Why aren't you married?"

Like, ok, let's say I do the deed, get "intimate" or whatever? is that gonna stop me from playing video games? reading goddamn Flash or something? I don't care about your snatch.

>>303520
>What really pisses me off is how actually sexist it is in general. It's like a fucking passive. when succubi aren't directly sexist to us vocally, they do it "casually" by their presence alone if I say "Not really interested/don't care at all."

Plot twist - the gal in question tags along since she *feels safe* with you in a sense she feels *her fluffy safe* is not gonna be violated. E.g. she knows - if some stag tries to "handle" her and then say "haha bitch went for me ahaha and then went coy ohoho" - you'll witness the real stag-rapes-succ circumstances and won't be reluctant to stand in court for her.

>>297753
I find that missing a night of sleep helps anhedonia. NO fucking clue why. and it doesn't keep working (missing two nights of sleep in a row doesn't continue it). Wouldn't recommend doing it a lot.

Some drugs help but they always stop working once you build tolerance and then they never work well again I find

Other than i don't know. setting goals doesn't help in fact I would recommend against forcing yourself to do stuff you don't find enjoyable. It's like how trying to force yourself to sleep actually makes insomnia worse. You just end up associating frustration with the activity you want to do.

Life with anhedonai feels pointless. No pleasure, no point? Like why do anything. I just end up doing nothing

>>297753
I have found out eating 5-htp sometimes + consuming tyrosine-rich foods (kasha, bananas) helps me.


Context: seronotin is made of 5-htp in body

dopamine is made of

>>297753
Amphetamines and cold showers

>>302012
>>302012
>dopamine is made of
tyrosine


also, I asked PerPLX AI to rework my text in "Crowdon Londoner" style:
Bruv, you know there’s bare tyrosine in bananas and buckwheat, innit? And listen — buckwheat porridge, slap a bit o’ gravy on, that hits different. Proper jokes though, ‘cause it’s like the stuff don’t even wanna be porridge in the first place!

>>297753
I tried drinking fuckton of coffee ever since. Did NOT work properly. Allows me to function in some half-hearted/half-assed way (aka posting stuff on Wizardchan instead of doing my work… bak to werk methinks…)

>>302350
Context: my apartment has strong heat-insulated walls, which prevent the heat from dissipating quickly. Not everyone live in a home like that, hence the big problem

>>302772
It was 23 degrees Celsius in my room this morning, by the way

Update. Autumn weather + heated apartment = my sleep is good. Unfortunately, I need a proper nightstand lamp and I lack the determination to drill a wall.

>>301927
Also, in some other thread, an importance of good diet for mental well-being was mentioned.

To avoid "dissing" my mom's intentions, I should say she keep cooking *comfort food* - not bad, but it's shouldn't be your everyday food. Yet it was my everyday food.

Also, in some other thread, an importance of good diet for mental well-being was mentioned.

To avoid "dissing" my mom's intentions, I should say she keeps cooking dishes that can be attributed to the idea of *comfort food*. That's not too bad, a normie would never put a blame on a mommy like mine for being a dotting caring perosn, but! [[Comfort food]] shouldn't be your everyday choice!

>>303349
…oh, wait, "computer religion" is literally a bunch of people who went crazy after watching "The Matrix".

>>303350
I mean of all the stupid things normies have worshipped, a GPT who can write a new Bible for you personally that sounds like KJV, is probably the least stupid.

All religions are always so convenient for humans, proof that they are completely fake. A religion that preached that the afterlife is worst than life and you will go there no matter what would never gain traction even if it were true.

>>301426
>>301428
>>301486
>Karma
The meaning of karma that I was taught is that karma ends when you decide not to do evil by harming or hurting others or taking revenge, thereby cutting off one of the causes of suffering.
Of course, that doesn't mean you can't respond violently or defend yourself, but if you do nothing, the suffering only gets worse. You can only mitigate or avoid it completely, which is why pain is inevitable but suffering is optional.
>But is egoistic
And no, it's not pure selfishness. I know that if I drink water, I'm being selfish, and in third world countries there is no water, but it's not something I can magically change. Nor can I abandon everything and let myself get sick helping others because then I wouldn't be able to help others. Think of it like when the emergency oxygen masks fall on an airplane: first yourself and then others, because if you're not okay, you won't be able to help others. People forget this, but Buddha spoke of the middle way because he opposed the ascetic extremism and extremes of his time of Sramana practices.
>But nonviolence make you a cope pacifis…
And no, it's not about nonviolence. Do you think there were warrior monks in China and Japan who had no problem with violence and going to war? The same thing happens with activists and charities that start out Buddhist.
>Also
So no, I don't see karma as the law of the boomerang or the three fingers pointing others and two fingers you or an eye for an eye like new agers or wiccans. These are not Chinese social points that will affect your other life, if it exists, but they are likely to affect your only present life because those who live restlessly, with hatred, resentment, fear, shame, evil, and violence tend to get sick, make others sick, and die violently. So I choose to find, make and have peace bacause that turn me free of some causes of suffering. And in this way, I also relieve some of the suffering of others.

>>303359
>A religion that preached that the afterlife is worst than life and you will go there no matter what

Actually, your statement can be "upgraded" with an idea of ASCENSION - say, an ASCENDED person would enjoy … *such a place*, while an unascended person would NOT.

Come think of it, the idea of nirvana is ridiculously close to that

>>300441
>You can be born smart and everything but if the pleasure center is all fucked up, you are doomed to spend a life of stagnation. There is no motivation to achieve anything.


come to think of it, this is EXACTLY what quackery fans achieve by eating Kellog's

>>300501
>I don't want to praise this stuff but I never understood why people online say this. You only take these kind of drugs when you are already anhedonic, depressed, dysphoric, numbed, apathetic, emotionally dead, a zombie. In that case they can help. When you are not like, and you feel emotions and drive, they might make you anhedonic, but then you wouldn't take them anyways. So this argument makes no sense to me. The worst that can happen is that they don't change shit.
They can work but sometimes they're prescribed to the wrong people.

>>302777
Or, what's worse, a doctor may put a wizard off SSRIs because of this "sexual disfunction side effect" worry.

>>303272
it's no worry. It's very real. Look up PSSD and see how many people ssris destroyed, they killed my dick and they'll kill yours. Never ever take meds, you can feel better without them, it just takes time. never ever take kike meds.

>>303291
>wizard
>it's no worry. It's very real. Look up PSSD and see how many people ssris destroyed, they killed my dick and they'll kill yours.

I don't get it! I don't need an erection by anyway since I am a wizard, isn't that so by default? I don't watch xxx videos though…

>>303054
As fake as "shitty life syndrome" :) ? (looking at you, >>301917)

Interesting thing is, sometimes stress triggers a "non-ishemic myopathy", example:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Takotsubo_cardiomyopathy

>>303054
thanks for your support

>>303318
There's no support to be found here. If you don't have a loving family or friends you're fucked. Try turning your brain off and stop caring. That usually works for anxiety.

>>303320
Point taken

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>>303198
The devs aren't in control anymore and the algorithms recommend things I see

I live in constant dejavu

>>303197
>>303197
use a local llm chatbot then, blin!

Ignore this. It was crazy.

The aggressive ads are just coincidences and it's impossible anyway.

I'm being gang stalked by rogue uncreated algorithms.

I live in an emotional world that hates me and no one believes me.

>>302983
Is this why when I went to buy a video player, to play my old tapes, they were wanting £40 for it? IN A FUCKING BHF SHOP?

>>302983
Based

>>302983
> Meanwhile I had all those shit and was only made fun for having "old" hardware by chads in school or in the neighborhood that I hang out with because they all already had flat screens or curved LED monitors.Its incredibly frustrating to see something I was basically bullied for (being poor) is now worshipped by brainless rich tards in tik tok buying them at thrift stores or garage sales. I fucking hate this gay world planet.

You was supposed to wear funny "haha funny 8-bit world is kewl" tier merch - pixel-art (MINECRAFT-themed) merch/MARIO/YOSHI/LUIGI/BOWSER badges, play Minecraft sometimes (5 hour experience + some vids on HOW TO BUILD A HIDDEN BASE on YouTube would be fine) etc.


impose it's yer choice, not necessity
it's like not wearing DISCO THEME HOT SHIT if you only own a tape player with a bunch of 80s/70s funk/fusion

>>302957
You really did make an entire thread to reply to my post.
Quite insane.
Also took a while for me to even check the catalog.

>>302973
Yeah the change isn't only noticed by people my age, it really depends on what age you gained internet access and what parts you got exposed to initially.
I still had an atari for example, but not because I was into retro anything, or because I'm old enough to be one of its users, it's just that rural poverty meant we got everything much later than the rest of the world.
Then when I got exposed to the internet I was lead by my "elders" as well.

I'm sure even zoomers notice, you mention minecraft, a lot of those early creators, though I didn't consume much, but some were big enough that reached me too, they used to be much different.
They were… creative and authentic. Nowadays all of it feels way too intentionally crafted to be a brand, something to sell, something to make money from.

Every space online has been way too commercialized and normiefied and the issue is that there are more and more people who have only seen this version of the internet and they love it. So if you don't, there is no space for you and they will make it very clear.
It is sad.

>More like, people didnt exactly 'change', they began to show their true colors.
I disagree with this to an extent. Again, the people I used to be around moved on with their lives. They didn't start showing their true color, it's just that they matured and had different priorities.
So what I'm trying to say here is that there is a difference between the oldheads baring their teeth. You might be right about some of them, but most just moved on in my opinion and the ones that replaced them are simply a different breed accustomed to a different "normal".
You know, don't tell people your name, don't post anything about yourself type people were replaced with those that lived life online in public like it's normal.
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Posted some relevant info in /games/

>>302617
>If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways
This hasn't happened in my case. My baseline happiness level has clearly changed over time and hasn't just been a constant level throughout my entire life as you claim. I had severe depression for years that gradually lessened over time. Your concept of "pursuit of pleasure" that flattens out over time sounds like it's just collecting materialistic crap and consuming media.

>>302617
>Given the existence of the hedonic treadmill, why does happiness matter? Why is the pursuit of happiness at all important? If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways, you might as well just sit and rot, since that requires far fewer resources.
You buy this and you'll be happy, you do that (for me) and you'll be happy. It doesn't exist.

I meditate to try to slow the hedonic treadmill and try to enjoy just being.

>>302766
>
Chasing happiness matters because it affirms the self. If you are sad and someone tells you to cheer up and smile, it's not because they're a hedonistic hylic attempting to trap you in this realm. It's because they want you to actualize even the slightest amount of external energy such that it may affect your mood and ideally make someone else happy as well.

Nah, my paternal grandma was all like "i get it, YOU LOVE SUFFERING"


good think she died of cancer, not a sudden "urGH!" heart failure.

>>303267
also, my English is "utter shite" shit. I misspelled "good thing" as "good think", ugh.

>>303269
very common mistake, not an issue since the intended meaning is very clear