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how do i cope with thoughts to kill everyone in my sight when im in public? i often get no sleep or maybe a few broken hours due to the pure rage and sadistic push to knife a random normalfags guts out. nothing has worked at all.
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>this thread



The answer is simple. Go to a psychologist, get tested, and help you. And then you can try it with a few weeks in a clinic, maybe you're lucky and a little vacation on the psychosomatic ward will be enough.


have you considered killing yourself in the interest of public safety?


I don’t think public safety is a compelling interest to him.


>public interest


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>wake up
>go on computer
>masturbate on and off all day, browse random stuff
>before i know it day is nearly over
>go to sleep

how do i break this shitty cycle
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do you masturbate to yo young witchies like epstein had for real?


Just go outside. Even if it’s just for 15 minutes and then you get bored and go back inside to jack off. You’ll get acclimated.


you know it's not easy for some people to just summon motivation out of nowhere


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I wish this was my problem.


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Why normalfags are so opposed to euthanasia? Why they worship suffering and call it blessing?
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Jesus was a hardcore wizard, but leave it to normalfags to completely miss the point.


I recommend reading the Bible yourself because the way normies spin it in church/mainstream is very different from the book.


Euthanasia opens the door to murder. A lot of people don't care for their old relatives and might be able to make them euthanize themselves.
If you want to die, get sodium nitrite do you have to make such a fuzz?


>Euthanasia opens the door to murder
Weak resaoning, sure if euthanasia was legal some older people would be pressured by family however the harm of people being trapped until they die with pain of any kind and not being able to have a legal option to die painlessly is worse.
>If you want to die, get sodium nitrite do you have to make such a fuzz?
I assume you are aware that SN is harder and harder to get now? it is not a perfect way out and in no way is it dignified. Are you aware that mercy killing is all but legal? in most cases even the prosecutor will put forward a suspended sentence when family aid in death since the 50's but it needs to be made law.

How can you think it is up to yourself to hinder someone elses ability to die with dignity?
I want to find Jesus I need him now more than ever. Forgive me god I have tried. I have tried.


Somewhat relevant

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I am Boris the Borzoi.
If you are seeing this thread.
Have a nice day.


you too


Moved to >>>/b/686879.

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>Be a wizard
>Eyes aren't as good as they used to be
>Can't read for extended periods or watch screens without getting bad eye strain that lasts days
>Have life long illness that causes moving to be painful some times
>Try to paint warhammer figure
>Have to stop after ten minutes because of pain
>Can't do any movement based activities for very long
>Can't watch screens for very long
>Handheld gaming consoles used to be fine on the eyes
>Are slowly causing eye strain too
>Old style light bulbs are banned
>New style light bulbs make eye strain happen faster
>Losing the ability to do anything but sit and exist
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>muh warp waning
>nobody seems to attend


Often I daydream about how such a society would turn out. Would the world turn out to be a much less socially harsh place or how would social norms look like if something like that was allowed and kept?

I imagine the task would be so complex that instead they would opt to denegrate suicide or make it so that only the most painful forms of suicide would be acceptable (e.g. seppuku)–as they have done in all times and in all cultures


If you need assistance in order to kill yourself you're just a disingenuous coward.


>author says CICO is a lie
>provides no evidence for this other than saying there's no studies
yeah I'm not trusting anything this guy says


Go ahead and end up a vegetable you faggot.

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Anyone else just eventually acclimate to the fact that they're depressed? How many years have you been depressed so far?
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I agree with this post but feel like this was posted here before


With our mentality, we're already on our deathbed. We're just laying in bed a little bit longer than anyone else.


How the fuck would you know. You been dead, bro?


Yes and every once in a while (maybe once every year or two) it will recede a bit for a couple of days and the experience is uncomfortable because it feels so alien. It's the primary reason I stopped using adderall, it felt like I wasn't myself.


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I wouldn't call it depression. More like a lattice structure, spreading out from center - can't wipe it away.
Pure experience pours before me indifferently and endless.
So it lets me sink, and the lattice expands, and the core rewrites my attention. Rarely writes despair.

If I'm lucky enough, traffic noises flatten and lights blur to introduce a walkway on the ocean floor. Surrounding liquid filled with seconds forming filaments of minutes. Rise to fall again with the yellow crab - dare I say a new source of sunshine? Rusted pipes

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Any wizards considered joining the military in some form?

I'm so sick of the endless monotony of middleclass life. I don't think I can stand it much longer. Day after day of staring at the same piece of machinery and typing useless bullshit, just so I can go home and unwind by staring at same said piece of machinery until I fall asleep. I want to feel something, I want to go through hardship, I want my life to be sacrificed for some grand cause(however meaningless), I want to have a schedule in which my pathetic consumerist whims are ignored and I myself just become another blank face to be thrown into the pit of nonexistence for the sake of the military industrial complex. I want some oil billionaire to profit off my death.

Maybe I just want to die.
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Maybe if you can, you should do so so that you can get your hands on a gun (assuming you aren't merican who can find guns easily anywhere). With a gun then you can shoot your superiors and all the military chads and whores and go out with a bloodbath. Or even better, get your hands on explosives. Man, if I had access to military stuff, then boy oh boy it would be christmas for me and Judgment Day for normals.

If you seriously consider joining the army for service then you are a bitch and you should be ashamed for wanting to serve normalfags and whores. Fuck the community and any "higher goal or purpose". Live for yourself or don't bother to live at all.


Man, you should have kids so your views don't go extinct. We need more people thinking like you!!



Dude. That's more then died in afghanistan. wtf .



Don't listen to the demorilizers.

There is such a thing as un incorporated towns and land. No Bs.


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Could I trouble some of you for a recommendation on some books you find as a "must read"? I am especially looking for genres such as philosophy, something that could profoundly alter the way I view the world, or at least enlighten it.

Many thanks for any replies.
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I've read Orthodoxy and the Religion of the future, it's a good anti-modernity/anti-new age book but the orthodox christian preaching and proselytizing is fucking unbearable.


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JF Gariépy has been shilling this book on his livestreams.


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Everyone here should read 'Suicide Note' by Mitchell Heisman and share it with as many people as you can. It is the best explanation of the Jewish problem ever written.

Here's the link to the text:
(Read pp. 32 - 625)

Alternatively you can listen to it while gaming: [YouTube] SUICIDE NOTE - GOD IS TECHNOLOGY (embed)


Condensed version: https://www.scribd.com/document/198985140/Mitchell-Heisman-s-suicide-note-overview

TL;DR: Jews want to transcend biology so that God AI can enslave a robotized humanity and destroy all life on earth.


It's useful when reading Christian philosophical texts to remember that Christians see God as the "Greater Good." I viewed every reference to Christ the same way I viewed Greek philosopher's references to the Logos.
I guess it would be as unbearable as anyone preaching their moral ideology, whether secular or religious.


Must read books: I will only mention a few and not due to not having read enough but because I only see these few as must reads.

>stoner by John Williams

This is a must read and basically about a wizard if he was not a wiard.
>The sailor who fell from grace by mishimia
Short and great to read.
>butchers crossing by john williams
This book is depressing as well like Stoner but different

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Any obese wizards here, how is society still treating you?
>be me 5'9'' 260 gyno
>cruelty everywhere
bullied and shamed for being fat and gross not keeping it off, normies acting like sharks
people want me to kms or dgaf about, f'ed because of this prejudice, family hate me, people think i'm cringe for existing
wtf is this life feel like
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Almost half of American elementary schoolers are obese now. Half. Obese. Let those words sink in. These are the final days of western civilization.


like knowing you can fuck up any skinny fag in a fight


BUT if no skinny fags left and everyone is fat, what will u do then?


dreadful, especially if you are short and balding like I am, you're forever a walking punching bag for people to laugh at


it is incredibly easy to lose weight you only need to quit eating so much fatties.
becausey ou can change it so easily it is not a big problem but why would you bother losing weight as a wizard if you dont personally care and enjoy eating food? go for it.

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I realized something. If you're in this world not rich enough to be independent, then in fact you're trapped in hell. You have to be a slave to your bosses company to earn money. It is the same case with donkey. If someone is riding a donkey, he will show the donkey in the air carrot and the stupid donkey will run just to get the carrot. Its same with humans. Our boss will show us in the air some money per hour (for example 15 dollars, 15 euro, in poorer countries this may be even 4 euro, 5 dollars or less) and we would run for this just to get the money. The only distinction is that donkey goes for carrots, and humans for money.

My aim is saving money for black hour. I want to save as much money to go to stressles neeting. Thats all I want. NEETing is the bliss when you have the money. If you re NEET you can do anything, and if you dont want to do anything you can also rest and do nothing. Homever, if you re a neet with no money it is a bad case too. Because, you have to worry that you have no money at all and you re depend on your parents.
The depressing thing for me is that from my calculations I can go full neeting mode with enough money in 2030 year…
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>What's your current job?
I don't work i'm a NEET
>And where will the money for that come from you parasite?
I get NEETbux because I can't work but I don't see anything wrong with being a NEET if you don't want to work.
>Not everyone can live off taxpyer's money
Not everyone can afford to eat food daily but that does not mean the people who can shouldn't.


>doesn't work
>calls others parasite


Rich fag?


Who wouldn't want to leech off this clown society? Do you really blame NEETs for not wanting to work for slave wages? A fast food restaurant where I live pays you a whopping $10/hr to be abused by customers and your boss all day long. Part-time, no benefits whatsoever.


It's just unethical to have children in the current world if you're not rich and powerful. I try not to think about it but I fucking hate my parents for making me and even having excuses for it other than wanting to breed like a pair of rats.

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