/dep/ - Depression

>>262101
Another version of the same meme

>>264252
what else is left for us? we are nothing without external factors.

existence exists therefore nonexistence will never and has never been a reality. It's a nonsense concept to even think about.

>>264149
> isn't the possibility for suffering pretty low?
No? There's still illness, death, torture, poverty, disability and pain here, just to a lesser extent. Consider yourself very lucky that you haven't experienced any of these enough to realise this

>>264317
There 100% is a better existence than the human existence. If you believe that you'll always exist, why not make your stay more comfortable and let the beings with the capability to experience serious suffering (humans) die off?

>>263630
You dead yet?

>>264126
> I just don't understand why no one tells you this shit to your face clear as day when you're young, why did no one explained what was up with life and what was it about?
because they want you to be a cog in the machine. it's easier to lie to you and fill you with blue pills than telling you the truth. Imagine a whole generation of failed individuals, that will cost the system money and resources. They need you to be a machine and produce the results they want.
In the end it's all about being used. "You don't like it? it's fine just drop out or KYS, you'll be replaced"

>>264433
ftfy

>>264445
ftfy

quitting cold turkey prozac 80mg haldol 10mg Wellbutrin 150

>>263692
I'm not those guys, but I was on on it for about 4 months. Never felt all that different.
I've never really felt much difference on any type of antidepressants. Tried a couple SSRIs, NDRI, and lastly took an SNRI. All the same nothingness.

Pretty bad honestly. I tried Zoloft for a couple years on the second lowest dose and it made me lethargic and just caused me to stop caring about everything. It didn't help me improve my shit life, just made me content with it. After I got off of it was when things got better. I actually had to confront and fix all the things that were making me depressed/anxious. It seems like SSRIs are just a bandaid, and all bandaids eventually lose their adhesive.

>>263793
>10mg haldol

Are you a schizo?

I think I contracted tinnitus from Amitryptiline… FUCK.

Only took 5mg too, so very low dosage essentially.
I was laying in bed and got the sudden TSSSSSSS noise and It has been pretty persistent since last night. It's not bad when I'm standing or sitting but when I lie down it becomes noticeable.

The scary part is some users on reddit have reported it to be persistent.The drug is still in my system so I probably gotta wait it out but idk.

Just watch out for this when dealing with the jewpills bros. Tinnitus is a known suifuel.

At which hour i wast a peat i wouldst purposely punctureth mine own lips with a stapl'r to receiveth the most attention from mine own class, to the pointeth yond i p'rmanently afeard mine own upp'r lip. I'd eke tapeth mine own feet f'r hours annoying ev'ryone in the cubiculo and causing kids to did beat me. Pissing people off madeth me feeleth joyous and i wast yond desp'rate to beest did notice.

t tooketh me getting hath sent to a boarding school at 14-17 to stand ho this behavi'r and developeth social awareness but eventually mine own manic attention seeking evolv'd into self-destructive narcissism and social anxiety, and anon, as a 24 year fusty, i can nay longeth'r f'rm connections with people due to these issues. I has't constant mem'ries in mine own headeth reminding me yond mine own developmental years w're ruin'd by not only lacking valor parenting, but mine own owneth decision making and h'rrible behavi'r.

i can't confidently int'ract with people knowing yond th're is something fundamentally wrong with me, and i shall nev'r beest up to par as those who is't surroundeth me. I coequal did turn to self-hating racism to cope with mine own inh'rent self-hatred, i only ceased at which hour i becameth self-aware yond t wast a cope but t wast easi'r to censure mine own raceth as to wherefore i'm a dysfunctional mess. I am obsess'd with myself because mine own identity as a los'r/outcast is all i has't. I has't nay hobbies 'r talents, i has't nay friendships 'r social arts, i has't nay senseth of purpose 'r proper, nay goals, nay maj'r long-t'rm desires, i can't imagineth myself as someone who is't is mod'rately functional, i'd feeleth liketh a fraud, n'rmies can bid t's a charade if 't be true thee can't keepeth the act up 100% of the timeth, i has't not the mental f'rtitude f'r t.

i waketh up ev'ryday knowing yond i couldst fixeth mine own life with hard w'rk and eff'rt, but i has't not aught w'rth w'rking f'r, not coequal myself. Yond's the w'rst parteth. I can't processeth trying to fixeth myself f'r the sake of fixing myself, i knoweth t'll benefit me in the endeth, but the mine own brain sees t as a sisyphean task. I'm a base iq, depress'd, mis'rable, distemperate sir with nothing w'rth fighting f'r

>but my own decision making and horrible behavior
Make no mistake, these behaviours were caused by your parents, no need to blame yourself. Your parents should support you completely for being so irresponsible, there might not even be a way to fix yourself without help

>>264420
And yet god still brought you into the world, despite reading all of that i can't diagnose you, what do you want? be specific

>>264420
you remind of myself with the attention seeking behavior. don't blame yourself much, you were a kid and didn't know better. ironically me trying to fit in made people distant. I humiliated myself further, I wish I embraced my dignity. As a crab/outcast I should've never trusted normies so fast, you'll be thrown under the bus and used.

>I can't confidently interact with people knowing that there is something fundamentally wrong with me, and I will never be up to par as those who surround me
Same. I tried to fake my confidence around my coworkers when I got a job, but it gets tiresome after some time, you have to keep it consistent. I wish I never trusted my normie coworkers, I opened up and showed my feelings only to have that used against me and mocked.
>I am obsessed with myself because my identity as a loser/outcast is all I have
same. Just don't do what I did and reveal that to a new group of normies.
>I have no hobbies or talents
judging by the nature images you posted I suggest you get into camping, you get to relax plus a break from society. as for a talent, you should focus more on a skill that can make you money. this might not get you friends or GFs but you'll survive by yourself and have something to be proud of.
>I can't process trying to fix myself for the sake of fixing myself, I know it'll benefit me in the end, but the my brain….
Read "the power of now" book. Reading that book made me realize I'm using my brain in self destructive ways. the brain should be utilized more towards hobbies, work, and when it's necessary. Not 24/7 in repetitive thoughts

kill yourself, norman

>>264319
Another victim of reading comprehension or lack of experience

>>264319
I think mental power is a poor word for what it was that he was getting at, As you might imagine someone who can mediate through a cacophony of noise to be of greater mental power. (This is kind of a silly example because people like this don't really exist)
It is reasonable to think that someone who likes to hear themselves think someone who likes silence would probably be more intelligent than someone who can't stand being alone in thoughts and wants noise to distract themselves from this feeling

this poster is so stupid he actually thinks he is intelligent >>260496
AYLMAO!!!

>>264388
Mega nigger kyked lmao
Literally death by big black cock in the slut hole

>>264043
*When contacting the email, use the TOR browser and either tutanota, riseup mail or elude

>>264043
Pentobarbital seems interesting and I do have the money, but I'm kinda scared I could get busted

>>264030
listen wiz, all you need to kill yourself is a rope, saying that everything is crowded is just an excuse you could walk out of the city and find some place in less than an hour why would you care if you want to die anyway? if you really want to, grab a rope and keep walking until you dont see anyone around and you should know the rest from there

>>264045
Unless you have been visited by the police before, and thus are on some watchlist probably, you won't get busted. No airport has any barbiturate testing mechanism and the guy disguises the pento as make up and other stuff, he usually tells you what he will disguise it as.
So many people on sanctioned-suicide bought pentobarbital from that email, received and killed themselves with it.

>>264030
>I do have a car but no garage to pull this off
When my uncle was out hunting with his team he found a car that had driven off the road to a small clearing in the woods 100m or so from the highway.
In the car was the long dead remains of the man who had duct taped an air duct with a carbon filter (can easily be bought online discretely) to the exhaust and directed the air duct back into the car through a window.
He had simply read a book and waited to fall asleep.

>>261978
Not OP, but hanging yourself is hard if you don't have a high enough place. I tried hanging on my knees but I never was able to black out, all I got was a headache and pain in my eyes due to not compressing the carotid arteries (which is what one needs to compress to die)

>>261978
>Why is /dep/ always coming up with these intricate, shitty plans?
Attention seeking fags that don't actually want to do it

>>264150
As long as you use the TOR browser and a linux distro, you wont be on a list if you look or download those type of stuff.

>>261974
Never aim at the roof of ur mouth to kill yourself, that's asking to become a vegetable with a fucked up face loooool

>>261974
Black powder firearms generally are not controlled legally, so anyone can get them.
Black powder is easy to make.
That being said for legal reasons I must advice you not to make black powder or shoot yourself

>>264281
why do you want to kill yourself?

>>264275
Just find a cope. I recommend spirituality or philosophy.

>>264275
Kind of, I worked through all the money I made from my part time job. I live at home, so most of it just went cigerattes, videogames, and junkfood. I know I'm goning to now graduate from college on time so my dad is going cause a shit storm and make me wish I was never born. To make a long story short by the end of october I'm going to have to at least try or my life will turn to hell quick. I think I'm goning to try SN and see if that works.

>>264289
What I’m gonna do at age of 40 neet with no degree and no parents? Suicide is the only sane option.

>>264275
I'll probably kill myself with a shotgun tbh. If that falls through, I'll probably just jump off a building but there aren't many accessible or high enough buildings around me, so yk :/

>>264286
>we are bound
>we

Talk for yourself crablet. I am bound only to myself.

A dopamine slave and and entropy slave walk into a bar. The dopamine slave says "I'll have a beer because I like them the most and it will give me the most dopamine". The entropy slave strips naked and starts throwing feces saying "this was always going to happen!"

>guy makes a messy word salad depression thread (ya know, its /dep/)
>crab crab crab stfu touch grass crab
why are these normalfag tier hostile virgin/neet shaming (touch grass is a wiz antagonist slur) cretins and their responses allowed to stay up?

>>264352
Mofuckers liars too, touched grass and got a darn tick.

>>264352
It's pretty obvious why it's allowed to stay up. Some people just love knocking over their own sandcastle.

I'm surprised that you're actually tired at not having some of these things yourself as many aspects of norman life would be excruciating for a wiz. I can detach myself from a lot of that stuff and understand if I did have that kind of life, e.g. almost no independence or time for myself, having to do the fake laugh thing every day in work, listening to the mundane mind numbing ego stories most people engage with as 70-90% of their conversation, having to partake in someones shoddy and mostly false self-characterisations, I would find that life extremely tiresome and whenever I got close to that kind of life I'd find myself gradually becoming more zombie-like and being alive was more difficult moment to moment compared to just being alone.
The problem I find, and I'm sure this is a big part of why you feel this way, is that the pressure heaped on you is so great that it starts to paint you as faulty for not having that kind of life. Any family gatherings and stuff are a nightmare and people extend almost no sympathy or empathy for your own perspective if you do share it, worst is when some people start trying to 'help' you and your only recourse is to be rude to them in order for them to stop, and suddenly everyone takes an even more negative tone with you. Even though I am reasonably happy internally I do find the constant outside pressures annoying and pretty scary at times, you should be excited to meet your uncle again after a while but I absolutely dread stuff like that now.
Beware of what you wish for though, if you capitulate to their standards then the pressure will be taken away but you may find yourself in a situation which starts to become unbearable, in the end life is mostly just shit for people who don't fit into the standard mould

i got fired from my volunteer job. it's good to be back home.

most of what you see my dear is purely for show

>>262142
This. You have absolutely nothing to lose. Find a way to make more money that those you hate in order to spite them. Even better, try to move up the ladder somewhere and gain control over the lives of the normalfags that you hate so much.

>>264239
Please tell us what happened, wizzie.