No.297165
I'm going to make this post very concise, and try to avoid rambling. I'm terrified of death: mortality itself, dying process, what may be after (punishment of some sort\duration for me, likely. if there's nothing I wont be there to notice..but RT the idea of nothing is uncomfy). Anyways Im almost deciding to become a professional insufferable person and mooch off my parents, demand they give me a given big amount of money, start being chastely desperate with everyone, take big risks, try new experiences, sleep almost nothing, etc
What to do? Therapists are s* for this; they literally will make me COPE. they can't erase my Mortality.
>how do I proceed? what to do?
>how do I manage my savings\ job\ investments, in view of me being liable to die ,ANY day?
>I don't think it's fair a corpse should make the living incur expenses. how can I have my body NOT receive any funeral \burial nor cremation,\ etc?
No.297167
>>297166I'm already very healthy (no drugs, no alcohol, no s*x, 9 hours sleep, healthy air, etc) and yes, I DO try to have nice clean fun; but at the moment the fun ends (for example: I finish all available episodes of an anime) the dopamine crush is terrible; or when I when I just arrive home after eating out a nice meal, so on. those few seconds of "it's over..now remains the Void"
For some reason I seem to have an altruistic nature. i enjoy helping others and can't bring myself to be mean and violent (unless severely provoked).
No.297168
>>297167yeah i lift weights when i get those moments
No.297169
This post is completely incoherent to me