/dep/ - Depression

Crash a train

>>301040
Hope you find a release Wizanon, keep us updated

>>301040
For whatever it's worth, good luck my friend. I think your posts seem very human to me. Another struggling individual on the outskirts of society.

>>301040
I wish I can tell you that it get's better, but it seems like once you're in a vicious cycle, things only deteriorate further and further. I understand your pain as third worlder who is about to be kicked out of my parents' house, I would soon have no where to go except jumping in the local lake to finally be released from this life that I so desperately wanted to live well.

>>301052
Not O.P, but another miserable Chaste third-worlder here, the Rope is my only hope.

>>301040
I went through something similar when younger. I was addicted to Xanax in particular. I never had a prescription and was forced to buy it from sketchy drug dealers. Eventually I got cut off, probably I wasn't cool enough for the guy I bought from. The withdrawals were hell on earth, even now decade later I'd easily say the worst thing I ever experienced. I'm not sure your country but you absolutely can't quit cold turkey at those doses. Only a taper and you'd need to do a slow taper. I'm not sure how it works but surely there's some sort of support system or something? Lioe hospital or psych ward or sometbing? Maybe you can check yourself in to such a program? Seriously cold turkey from such high amounts you are going to experience hell on earth. Not trying to scare you. But you need to avoid that at all costs.

>>301171
Of course I know that. That's why I'll kill myself or become a vegetable before I get withdrawals. Gambled on my life and extended my stay in this hell, 10 days max more and I'll either be dead or a vegetable. Nobody will help me with anything.

>>301198
What is your story? How and why did you get addicted? Why didn't you try to slowly reduce it when you knew it was becoming an addiction? Are you from the first world? There's gotta be programs for homeless people in the third world? How do other poor people in your country get treatment? Or would you say being poor you can't get medical treatment?

>>301198
Where do you live? I can possibly offer assistance of some sort.

I lied. Of course I always find some way to to prolong my misery and worsen my situation every day. Now it really is over though as im out of ideas. I didn't even respond to >>301210 A week is all I have left if even that. I choked on tea and since then ruined my lungs i might choke to death randomly as well. Family will finally kick me out of the house at any time now. And other boring things like 10 physical diseases i can't afford to even diagnose. Yes, this is the end of the road. I should be happy but my brain never listens to me so i don't think at all anymore.

>>301418
how old are you?

Sorry for your misfortune,hoping your pain ends soon

>>301419
29. I'm an old man but mentally not past twelve. Never been this scared in my life and now I need to kill myself using a train. My mind is fucked up and I'm constantly breaking.

Finally it's over
Some guy will press criminal charges on me tomorrow
I can't deal with police or prison
I'm leaving the house and trying CTB by train hopefully
Attention whore out

>>301588
Godspeed

>>301588
>Some guy will press criminal charges on me tomorrow
What have you done?

>>301588
I don't have as much exprndable cash as when I first posted that, but the offer still stands if you haven't left yet. The fact you've been posting makes me think you don't want to kill yourself but rather feel forced into it out of circumstances. This is the most avoidable form of suicide. Not too late to reply to me. I can't work miracles but at least know there's someone here who will try.

>>301595
What do you want to offer me oh mighty wizard? You are half correct, i am forced by circumstances, the other half is that I hate everything in this world and living. Only reason I suffered unbearable agony so long is that I'm a coward that's afraid of doing anything at all, otherwise I'd obviously be long gone years and years ago.

I have a feeling this poster is a troll, i have seen a thread here several months ago that's very simlilar to this one

>>301599
Why not just flee to another country or something?

>>301600
if u read what i write i told u ive been posting here for months cause i live week to week due to my addiction that will kill me if i run out of pills so i hustle lie scam and lie. and thats 1/10 lethal problems i have. i wish i was trolling cause 10% of what i experience is enough for anyone to rope, im just brain broken and have to be pushed to the absolute edge to finally attempt and probably fail.
>>301603
im from poland and yes im done in this country basically so in theory its not a bad idea. problem is i have no money no health and nothing and u make it seem like jumping countries is like buying groceries. i can go and be homeless in germany maybe and thats the extent of my realistic possibilities.

70% of my tooth is gone, it cracked and fell apart. It's also the tooth that had poison put inside it that civilized countries don't use since it poisons the organism. I can't afford a dentist so my death is up faster. My whole organism is gonna get poisoned idk what might even happen to it. Goodbye.