No.299665
some of us are just not compatible with the demiurge’s world
No.299666
I want to be a Catholic and not a gnostic but gnosticism makes more sense
No.299671
>>299670I know how you feel. Whenever I'm happy or something good happens I suddenly think "Okay, now what's about to happen?" And I get an overwhelming sense of dread.
No.299678
>>299670I have experienced exactly that too. I had a brief holiday from depression once in my 30s. Only once. It allowed me to put the rest of my life in context and see how much of a horror it was.
No.299692
I can't get over being 33. There was a time when I was in my early 20s aware of my problems and what's to come with the power to do something and I did nothing and now there is nothing I can do but suffer the predictable consequences. All this time wasted for no value.
No.299713
The more people around me die younger than me the more I feel it’s okay to finally go through with suicide. I feel like they have achieved freedom and finished the a game which only can be lost. Logically
No.299715
The more people around me die younger than me the more I feel it’s okay to finally go through with suicide. I feel like they have achieved freedom and finished the a game which only can be lost. Logically with each day I grow older statistically increasingly less people even reach that age. As I feel like I’ve experienced and suffered and got to know everything there is and any single inch of additional effort is completely pointless and in vain I have the right to end it now knowing I won’t miss anything knowing I can’t and don’t even want to improve because it all amounts to nothing.
No.299717
Sleepless nights is when the idea of our inevitable death hits me the hardest. Remind me that I'll die during the day and I'd scoff that it won't come sooner. When I am lying sleepless at night and I remember everything in this world will perish one day it fills me with great dread and then sadness. All of my emotions and memories are all for nothing and I will just disappear as billions of humans continue to experience all spectrum of life in a world without me until each of them too will have their life experiences be culminated in annihilation.
No.299722
what was the point of all this nonsense?
what is the end goal of all this?
just to die?
then there’s no reason not to be done with it all already
death is instant nirvana
No.299757
i dont think this world wants me i dont know what to do i dont know what im supposed to be doing i dont know how to earn a living or learn a skill to be able to support myself i dont know
No.299758
>>299757what am i here for theres no purpose for my existence and everything worthwhile or interesting in life is blockaded by my socioeconomic status. all i have is a fucking pc.
No.299759
>>299758i take that back, theres nothing cool in life.
No.299760
i feel a certain peace now that i have my method
actually, i might stick around a lot longer than i ever thought
No.299762
>>299760this is more common than you think mate, it paradoxically makes you less suicidal because you know there's an exit path if the shit hits the fan, as oppose to never being sure what will you do if things get too bad.
No.299769
>>299763Huh? Are people under 30 allowed to post here now? No wonder things seem kinda shitty and low effort compared to when I last visited.
No.299775
>>299769i have been on here since 2019, basically the only place i enjoy hunging out around online, people here are not obsessed with sex or succubi, which is good in my eyes, because people go crazy over these things
No.299810
4chans death is seriously fucking with me, not because of the site itself which was arguably at its lowest possible point, but because its yet another reminder of mortality. For normal people this may not be such a big issue, because at least they can say "oh well I changed soooo much in 20 years!". Yeah, but I havent and Id guess most here can relate to that. Time passes, people and communities die, yet most of us remain the same.
No.299819
i hate myself because i cant become an electrician or an electrical engineer
No.299821
>>299810It is a blessing when horrible things cant last forever, especially for our own lives. I do not understand what issue you are talking about
No.299822
>>299819why do you think that you cant do it?
Weird you would want to be a wageslave and be upset about not being a particular type of one
No.299823
>>299822Because he's mentally deficient anon, or stupid to put it bluntly. It's the same with me.
Some people have to occupy the left end of the IQ spectrum, as regrettable as it is. Born and bred janitors is all we'll amount to, irrespective of the education quality poured into us.
We're losers.
No.299826
>>299822dont have the means to fund trade school or college, none of the colleges around me even have programs for electrical engineering.
No.299827
>>299823stop being a fucking loser, if you can type youre not as stupid as you think so stop feeling sorry for yourself.
No.299829
>>299821>I do not understand what issue you are talking aboutThe part where we are basically suffering in vain, my guy. Completely and utterly in vain. I mean you ARE suffering right? This is /dep/ after all