>>301789This was all true except now at my parents place I have an awesome bed
And it is dark and quiet enough here.
It's way better.
But.
My boss is back from leave and making me feel like shit again.
This job has rare qualities: remote, low effort, high pay, low interaction, secure, and prestigious. I’d be throwing away a dream job.
As for thinking I need to quit to focus on therapy or medication: that’s not true. When I was not working, I found I don't get healthier. I don’t eat better, exercise more, or feel less anxious. I just stress about different things — including future jobs, financial security, family and community perception and relationship prospects as a result of my job.
i am actually more productive in ny life outside work when I've worked that day it seems or worked during weekday if it's weekend, so not only a mental health boost but productivity.
That said, if the working conditions are too harsh for me, I still have to quit if I can't find a resolution, whatever the consequences.
The meds (I'm OP) are still keeping me from feeling too suicidal tho. Worth it. Still depressed tho.