My life feels so empty. I'm thinking of posting more on wizchan, since I largely have very little to do… apart from writing and drawing which I can't do all the time due to burnout risk. I remember when my life wasn't empty. It was an illusion. I would fill it with anime, which I can't bring myself to watch anymore because of how utterly predictable the medium has become. Bright flashy colors, clunky animation, too much for my old autistic brain to handle now. What can I do to fill it with something tangible? I fill it with eating these days but that's very dangerous, so I'm gonna quit it.
Music? Gym? More drawing? Going outside? Fuck. I hate it. I hate this. I want some sense of adventure, some sense of mental and emotional satisfaction. I wanna be a pirate sailing the high seas, or a chicago gangster in the 1920s running rackets. I wanna fill my day with thrilling activity, not this… misery. I got a small glimpse of the old internet, my god I miss it, I miss days that I didnt even experience. I'm so dead inside that I can't even goon anymore, my hormones are fine I just don't have any care left in me.
>>227571>shielding the animals from the consequences of their actions.This is so true and it makes me so angry. To a normie of any generation, committing evil and causing emotional suffering is funny and pitiful, but if the victim punishes the evildoer by rightfully killing them, that is the worst evil the victim could possibly commit. They feel called out and personally threatened by that, because they know they have done the same things and caused the same amount of suffering against someone and they maliciously, sadistically desire to do the same evils, so they hate it when they are rightfully punished. Robbing from good to give evil fake victimhood validation, all to antagonize the good men they have harmed more violently. It is so sickening to see, and if I ever make anything, whether a good game or a good community, I wish to alienate them, humiliate them and condemn them with disproportion violence.