>>204330I tend to put autistic prerequisites on even getting to my backlog in the first place–like, "finish organizing my desktop", "configure this video player to be perfect", or even just "do this chore". It comes down to two things: first off, in my brain, I feel unsettled unless I've gotten all of the other things checked off my to-do list, and secondly, I also have this autistic sense of perfectionism where I positively can't enjoy something unless it's in the most optimized environment, and in the most perfected way. I guess as a recent example, I started playing some emulated games–it wasn't enough for me to just sit down and play them with the controllers I had on hand, I –had– to buy a controller specifically for it, and I did a ton of research to make sure I bought a good one, and even then I spent hours autistically tweaking it when it wasn't to my liking. It's hard for me to explain, the simplest way to put it is I guess it's just OCD. Anyway, I tend to be too lazy to actually do any of this, so I just take the neutral route and brainlessly browse the internet.
Even when I get over these autistic hurdles and actually get to my backlog, it just feels like a chore. I find it impossible to select from such a huge list of media. I end up conflicted as to what I want to play or watch–do I play this thing that I think I'll find fun, especially if it's a really long game that'll keep me from getting to other games on my backlog? Should I prioritize games I've spent money on? Should I focus on the "classics" or notable titles I've never played/watched/read before? I do have that sense of wanting to partake in it all "before time runs out" like
>>204335 says. I don't like feeling like I've missed out on seminal titles. But, as soon as you open yourself up to emulators or pirating media, suddenly your backlog expands to become nearly infinite. Lastly, even when I DO pick something to play, I just feel stressed out and try to beat it as fast as possible so I can check another game off my list.
As far as games are concerned, I think Steam is the biggest contributor to backlog syndrome. Prior to it, games were fucking expensive, and when you did get a game, you'd cherish it and play the shit out of it. Now, between Steam sale
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