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[–]  No.297968[Reply][Last 50 Posts][Watch Thread]

2025 The Great Depression 2. Post your pain and suffering. Previous >>294941
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[–]  No.299356

Spiraling down the drain again. Severe opiate addiction. Car broke down. Apartment threatened to tow it within one day. My job is just to get yelled at on the phone all day. Absolutely screamed at over and over and over and over. My online friend I met here and have been best friends with for 15yrs killed himself.

I adopted a cat from the shelter and he's so miserable here he's literally starving himself to death. The drugs are not helping anymore. It isn't even "I need it to feel normal". I passed that point recently. Now it's at the "I can feel horrible withdrawals or just take so much I feel extremely sick and miserable but at least the withdrawals stop". I don't feel suicidal. I don't feel anything.

[–]  No.299357>>299358>>299359

>>299349
>Come to think of it, is there a market for illegal test like there's one for trannies and estrogen?
Yes a huge one. You can purchase it on the deepweb but no clue how reliable or legit it is. I've seen multiple vendors with hundreds of good reviews selling tren or whatever. But that's easy enough to fake so ymmv

[–]  No.299358

>>299357
the thing about testosterone is that because it's so easy and cheap to make there isn't much of an incentive for labs and resellers to sell fakes instead of the real thing.

[–]  No.299359

>>299357
No need to go to the deep web. Plenty of open web sites sell test and tren, like said above.

They are very cheap and fairly easy to manufacture.

[–]  No.299360

i tried every medication you can prescribe for adhd(ritalin adderall, intunv strattera vynvanse) but none helped me still hyperactive and scatter brained all day.

psych basically gave up on me too said i just have to deal with it


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[–]  No.290289[Reply][Watch Thread]

Serious question for any wizcels:

Do you ever wonder how you got here…as in, how or why you "woke up" when you did, where you did, to the people (parents) that you did? It's impossible to make sense of. Just on one fucking terrible day, we took up consciousness, literally out of nowhere we are in bodies and tasked with learning the mechanics of entire material world. What caused us to be born when we were, to whom we were? I don't accept that it was random, or mere bare biology..I feel within myself that this life is a targeted punishment and that were I smarter I would have avoided being born entirely. What piece of shit god thinks he/it has the right to do this to us? We are born, thereafter we spend a few years simply making basic sense of things, go off to school, probably suffer a lot, continue to grow up, endure more sadness, and now through all of it we just continue to get older and weaker and sadder. This life is a crime against our souls and whatever caused us to come here HAS TO PAY. Really the only thing I fear is being forced to come back to this shitheap of a world to suffer again…and I do worry about this precisely because I don't know how I got here in the first place. I feel deeply sorry for all the new souls born to this world…there is just so much to learn, but even more there is just so much to suffer through…and I cannot understand what kind of god would force this sort of existence on tender helpless beings? The demiurge must be overcome.
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[–]  No.298933>>298985

>>291752
you wish

[–]  No.298985

>>298933
dispiriting agent of the false recycling god, it is not your place to tell others what is or is not possible.

[–]  No.298987

The only explanation that makes sense to me is that our world is just one inevitable possibility out of all possible universes, and that all possible universes must exist for some reason. It'd explain why our universe has its arbitrary laws of nature which lead to our seemingly arbitrary existence.

[–]  No.299319

>>294160
how do you escape the material world in your philosophy?
dying a virgin?

[–]  No.299355

if normalfags call you a schizo nutcase you know you're on the right track


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[–]  No.296811[Reply][Last 50 Posts][Watch Thread]

2025 will be the layoff year edition. How we holding up?

previous >>289727
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>>299271
You're right, I hadn't really considered that this type of futility has always been a thing. I guess it's just more noticeable in the modern age. Peoples in ancient times could at least hold the notion that the things they create would last for generations, and as we see today they were often times correct. In this day and age, very little of what anyone does seems to have a profound or lasting impact, especially on an individual level. People of the past built monuments, crafted art, and wrote literature that are still discussed and venerated to this day. Now, a person can work themselves tirelessly for decades crafting their life's magnum opus, only to have it become old news within a year or so, and that's if their work isn't ignored completely.

Of course ultimately my post was just me lamenting the fact that wageslavery is an dreadful slog with no truly worthwhile rewards, but I guess I should have expressed that in a more concise way.

>>299273
Very true. I only hold a job when absolutely I need to, and try to return to the NEET-life as often as possible.

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>>299288
Do you have education?

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>>299289
I have an associates degree in software development (programming), but I hadn't touched any coding for years until last year when I started re-learning a bit about web development. I got myself refamiliarized with html, css, and javascript, then I started to look into what I might need to do to start working at it professionally and got pretty discouraged. It turns out I only know a fraction of what the average web dev in my country (US) is expected to know, and a large majority of the more accessible and entry-level jobs are being taken by Indian people or others abroad who can do the work remotely for far cheaper. So I said 'fuck it' and went back to being a NEET bum, more or less.

[–]  No.299328

>>299321
nta but webdev, though increasingly, programming jobs in general, are a red ocean market. ever since the 2010s dotcom bubble every normie thinks they can learn some JS and make bank. even the more technically involved programming fields are being flooded with silicon valley wannabes or just straight up outsourced to cheaper markets like you said. I regret majoring in this shit.

[–]  No.299352

Getting treated like a bitch at burger king feels almost too tragic to post about. I really can't put it into words how much I hate my job and the retards I work with. I get abused and given the worst positions and I get paid like piss. They don't allow us to have our phones on us or use them either. (I do it anyway) I tried to look for other work but there's nothing and I fail a background check.


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[–]  No.277007[Reply][Last 50 Posts]>>298523[Watch Thread]

The purpose of this thread is to counter the general tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads. This thread will therefore feature practical advice about reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care.
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open the windows to your wiz-cave and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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[–]  No.298521>>298709

>>297852
Fast two weeks like that other wizard around here! That's how you know if your shit has solution at all! I take a lot of effort to fast at beyond 3 days, it's insane…

[–]  No.298523

>>277007 (OP)
1) You are regarded in terms of honor.
2) Already determined that "closed taste" is my best option, gluten does not affect me. I still take care, just in case.
3) Whoever spends his life wageslaving while not being built for such tasks, will not be able to properly rest. That is the type of person that needs to go to bed with some energy inside.
4) Dental care is holy. And tragically forgotten within these circles.
5) About fresh air: https://annapurnaliving.com/blog/the-ambrosial-hours
6) I wonder how newbies here these year are still unlectured about nosebreathing
7) Our regrets seem to have life of their own.

[–]  No.298709>>298865

>>298521
be careful with this. also make sure you are drinking plenty of water always (whether you're fasting or not). but with all such said still intermittent fasting is probably better than one long extended fast.

[–]  No.298865

>>298709
Intermittent fasting intermittently practiced is a good healthful practice everyone should ideally follow.

[–]  No.299347

>>292441
Me too


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[–]  No.299167[Reply][Watch Thread]

It seems I have no other choice, unfortunately. Because of the lack of jobs where I live and my family now turning my life into hell because they openly despise me, I can't see any other way but to join the army and do at least one year of military service, given that it's the only job that practically always is open for literally anyone, and to get in you just have to want it.
I'm not even "patriotic" nor anything, I just want to leave my parents house and survive, also no, my country is thankfully not at war. Do we have any other wizards who are also considering joining the army?
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>>299264
He's not delusional but speaking perfect truth.

>>299220
Also exactly correct. It's coming. Jews are going to trigger a massive war soon and they will do so in their practiced manner – by murdering (usually bombing) a lot of people in some attention-drawing way and then attributing the fault of the attack to the group they want the public to consider evil, thus engineering the necessary popular support to begin waging war upon that group.

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>>299279
>>299277
>>299276
>Once even by a guy a full head shorter than me
you should had punched his face in, teach him some manners.
>>299262
those people you guys meet sounds like psychos, they must be the European equivalent of America's tweekers.
For whatever reason many western nations have adopted a soft on crime approach.
this have lead to shitty people becoming embolden to act worse, since they know if you dare to teach them a lesson,
you will be in deep trouble, while they get a slap on the wrist. You have a culture that rewards those who misbehave and punish those who behave.
>>299275
you are right they are not regular joes. they are scums who have been embolden by the current soft on crime culture in the west.

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>>299262
There people like that, who enjoy being confrontational and showing their physical superiority to you. Especially if you say something wrong or look at them the wrong way. Once I looked angrily at some buff guys that were screaming around while walking somewhere and that guy literally intimidated me back. You can cope by thinking shit like, todays peoples feuds are settled on the mental plane or with fucking guns but I think you miss the point with that somehow. You can only win these fights about manliness and proofing you have more rights than the others by fighting back in realistic ways not escalating it, like with your social standing or physical prowess.

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>>299275
>Nobody out in public makes death threats like that unless they are in an acute psychosis
True, which is why his post is obviously made up.

>and in that state there sure as hell aren't succubi following them around.
False, unstable succubi rarely cope by fully withdrawing into their shell but instead live out their antisocial fantasies through a male partner. Outgoing, antisocial, narcissistic type male schizos have their fair share of suitors.

[–]  No.299345

>>299324
yeah succubi push men to do evil
that way they satisfy their sociopathic, manipulative drive, while avoiding responsibility and maintaining the image of an innocent angel


[–]  No.299336[Reply]>>299344[Watch Thread]

Since last year's December, I have discovered that you can just keep lying on the bed and enter a weird stage where you're neither asleep nor awake. It's crazy as it feels like what substance abusing would feel like although I have never even touched alcohol, weed, or even cigs let alone hard drugs

And bed rotting is crazy addictive. Time flies so quickly it's unbelievable. I spend most of my day lying in the bed, and I have gotten so skinny fat it is simply unbelievable, I am a mere 160cm tall ethnicel but I weigh a massive 150 pounds. My body looks so ugly that even my mama doesn't love me.

Has anybody else experiences this where you're at a prolonged stage of not being asleep and not being awake but in a weird in-between because of the comfyness of bed?

[–]  No.299337>>299339

ive been trying but i often get too impatient. how long does it take you to enter that state?

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>>299337
15-20 minutes. 5-10 minutes if I coomed before lol. But it's very weird it's like the comfort of bed makes me want to sleep but since I have already slept the night before, I can't really doze off so I end up in this very weird state.

[–]  No.299340>>299341>>299344

I can enter that stage at will after age 32+ because games, movies, books etc. feel completely pointless. It feels like I'm just re-experiencing the same stories and characters in a different form over and over.
I can just lay in bed for 10 hours after a small meal and simply not think about anything, or think of random thoughts.

Usually, I travel in places that my mind creates. They're often offshoots or variations of places I saw as a kid, like randomly generated dungeons. I can spend an endless amount of time there.
Once I snap out of it, it does feel like lucid dreaming. But I was only able to get to this point after all kinds of entertainment lost all value.

Now I get zero joy from anything except walking in nature or just closing my eyes in bed.
It's a state of being that is beyond severe depression.
A state where you're just ready to die and be reborn somewhere else in the universe.

You can't enter the dreamstate if you are happy or content with life or Earth. You can only enter it at will once you're completely done with life here.

But anyone can enter that dreamstate when they are asleep. It's there for everyone to experience and mostly stems from your subconscious.

[–]  No.299341

>>299339
oh!
that actually makes me feel kinda conflicted because I was committed to preserving my mana, but i’ll try it out and see if it helps.

>>299340
that so cool
and the way you describe yourself fits me perfectly as well
i’m completely done with this world

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>>299340
>>299336 (OP)
I feel envy reading this, sounds way better than doomscrolling in front of PC and dying from soul crushing boredom, even if you are over-doing it if it makes you neglect your physical health.


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[–]  No.298319[Reply][Watch Thread]

This thread is for the discussion of the greatest misfortune in existence that is disease.

Healthy people are NPCs. They don't really exist. With disease comes the awareness of your body that your private hell and your true existence begins and hear the scream of everything. Pain teach you what it means to really exist. Disease's manifesto: to live is to suffer like a ragdoll while fate prisons you in the eternal hours pregnant with pain to cure of you from the sin of life.
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[–]  No.299182

>>299173
I took benzos for a 2 years after my doses started to increase i cut them suddenly used to be on aripriprazole and other kind of bullshit piece of shit poison that nearly destroyed me
know who saved me?GOD

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>>299173
Went through benzo and opiate withdrawals earlier this year, and I only took oxycodone and valium daily for a few weeks and it was pure hell. You're honestly right, death is probably better, usually they put you into a coma for that level of withdrawals.

Good luck.

[–]  No.299189>>299191

These stomach issues have fucked me over. I had no youth. Now I have palpitations. Fuck this planet. Fuck

[–]  No.299191

>>299189
I feel you, the worst part is never completely emptying the bowel. The shit is really sticky too, so it takes far too long to wipe, to the point where I'm scuffing blood, and my ass is still not clean. I try to only shit at home now, where I can wash my ass, and I take loperamide before leaving off to work.

[–]  No.299343

Pinched my back and stomach nerves by drought. Not toothache like in previous years. Second time this year, way stronger, impossible to sit, stand, and lie. Third day, menthol cream and painkillers don't do shit. Barely got sleep today, at 9 am the power went off, so I went to sleep instead of watching TV. No reason why on the energy supplier site. Lying on the back is hard due to snoring waking me up plus normalfags would use it as ad hominem with their noise violence. (Even though they would sleep even when the drill is on). Temperature was 37.3 °C once.


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[–]  No.298058[Reply]>>299154>>299332>>299334[Watch Thread]

most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.

even when some try to gaslight themselves that their loser-lifestyle can be comfy, we all deep down know that this isnt supposed to be *life*.

objectively, we're the bottom of the barrel, rock bottom essentially; we can only cope by escaping reality and isolating ourselves and anytime we encounter the real fucking world, we're deemed as fucking subhumans by others AND ourselves.

we're rotting, just wasting space, energy and oxygen while the only thing left for us is waiting to die, respectively.

i dont get how we all havent already committed suicide by now cuz our fucking trash genetics have been haunting us for our entire existence, yet we collectively and voluntarily decided to continue living. why the fuck are we so stupid???
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[–]  No.299154

>>298058 (OP)
I'd rather kill a tax collector first or some old school normies I knew from younger years. No damn way.

>>298207
Could you explain shortly to me which usefulness these texts have?

[–]  No.299285

Better killing some random psychonormie around me than that, so no. Not giving them such pleasure.

[–]  No.299332

>>298058 (OP)
because I simply don't believe in an afterlife (as much as I'd like to), so living will always inherently be better than being dead, because being dead = nonexistence. if I commit suicide to free myself from whatever pain I have while living, but there isn't an afterlife, I will experience no catharsis from dying, as I won't consciously exist anymore to feel better. if there is something after death, great, but the way I see it, we only experience the one life we have, as shitty as it is

[–]  No.299333

>>298477
You're not that evil

[–]  No.299334

>>298058 (OP)
why, i will try of course. only got a week left at most so it's the last day i talk to people. im quitting sleeping, eating, interacting with anyone, or doing anything at all. I'll also go homeless to destroy all my chances for inaction. There is almost no risk since once i run out of drugs im guaranteed to get endless seizures cause of my addiction and i only have a few days left until that, so no matter what method i choose it won't make it worse than what it already is. Time to gamble that a train will make mincemeat out of me and get me out of hell, if i lose then at least i tried.


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[–]  No.296810[Reply][Watch Thread]

Does any of you get irritated with family gatherings or when guests come to visit you in your family's house?
I am 24 years old, little to not school education, no job, whenever I am with some relatives or in some family gathering I can sense how much they look down at me for being a massive loser, even if they almost never express it directly at all, since I was a child I would always be asked by them questions like "how are you doing in school?" or "are you getting any good grades" Of course they no longer ask me such question, But I still feel a lot of shame when I am around them, I try to avoid sitting with them like the plague
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[–]  No.299147

>>298930
You hit the nail on its head. Especially the point about slow but progressive cognitive decline after 30.

People in western civilizations live longer than ever, and are actually very scared to admit the human ape is old at 30+. The human prime is incredibly short.

For an autist who needs to mask, this is deadly. The more your cognitive function falters, the harder it becomes to emulate the neurotypical code in your brain (compiler) and execute it.

You start getting all sorts of runtime errors, memory leaks and lag. Normies start questioning you and finally see the weird you behind the mask, and they don't like what they see.

You're not a safe and relatable Windows 11 Home Edition with cute colorful icons and a sunny meadow wallpaper. You're a weird fucking Linux distro created by a Hungarian nerd which only has a command line interface and runs off direct Assembly instructions.

Instead of being socially exiled at age 14, it will happen at 38.

[–]  No.299148

>>298822
Not by blending in.

[–]  No.299303

>>296871
At this point you're a blank canvas primed for throwing ugly stereotypes at. Pedo uncle, drunk uncle, schizo uncle etc. Imagine normie teenagers gathering together to tell stories about their crazy uncle to humor succubi they are trying to woo.

Granted, at least succubi have it equally worse when they are in this predicament, but fewer of them end up as wine aunt or crazy cat lady aunt.

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i used to feel bad about it even though i didn't believe in those metrics having any value.
but after learning a lot about consciousness, existence, the nature of this world, and the demiurge, i stopped caring completely.
now i see normalfags more like ants.
sounds kinda bad (at least from their perspective), but i'm being honest.

[–]  No.299326

>>299323
so, the demiurge picked you out of all people, and is acting out his grotesque sense of humor on you? is that what you're saying?


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[–]  No.297385[Reply][Watch Thread]

I'm fucking jaded by life because of people and normalfags. I really can't take it anymore. I have limits and today I got my tolerence limit to the macimum, I don't feel good at all. normalfags make life disgusting when you're around them. I can't anymore today, I don't know if I could live like this during all my life.
I'm in pain physically. my heart hurts kind of. I feel depressed.
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>>299165
I still go for a walk every monday with the hospital. I see the two zoomers who one of them is autistic and the other one is either schizo-affective or has tourette I don't remember. A new person came and he was in high school with me and now I must go socilize with another guy who I was with during uni but I don't want to go drink a coffee with them nor be their friends again but it os rude to say no I don't want to. I'm forced to socialize now. I put do much effort on not to get friends anymore and now I must go to a café and talk shit with two people I don't want to be with

[–]  No.299302

>>299301
I want to be left alone

[–]  No.299308

>>299301
never happened to me lol. I have no social life

[–]  No.299316>>299318

>>299301
good to be able to hear from you again, anon.

[–]  No.299318

>>299316
you're welcome


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