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 No.310311[Reply]

I love wizchan because it is the only place where you can be pro-suicide without getting banned or exposed or criminalized, I feel like the whole internet has been psychiatrized
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 No.310317

>>310316
on reddit there is /r/suicidewatch but it is not allowed to encourage suicide

 No.310320

I remember bringing up Satan while talking to some people on the internet and they attacked me harder than a pack of feral stacies would attack the ultimate gigachad. That felt really weird.

 No.310321

Nobody gives a shit anymore lol. The mental health meme is over and people are over virtue signaling.

There's mental health fatigue

 No.310327

Сome to think of it, >>310320 - it's not like Luthersters team wants to realize the big J was your average 30KHHV wizard, and was eligible for visiting Wizardchan 2000 years ago, basically…

… unless emperor Nero's team didn't just "trim" the legends coming from the outskirts of Jerusalem, but rather, made the whole thing up to propagate an image of an unpatrician inspiring plebs to start the end of the world by treating Rome and its tangible, material gifts as some "satanshit" to burn down for good. You know, THAT Nero whos known for having Rome burned AND the persecution in a cruel way.

 No.310564

suicide is a right

that being said, suicide is also wrong. you should only ever kill yourself if your in constant pain 24/7 and are seriously disabled


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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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 No.310552

I'm not the wizard you guys have been replying to but I also have a mild case of ETD, I'll try some of these. It is very nice to see kindness and care showing up in such a place.

 No.310554

>>310545
Nothing

 No.310556

>>310550
thank you again for your replies and reassurance wiz, it means a lot. i have read that about dairy/wheat being inflammatory, and i've been reducing the amount i eat and i've been trying to increase my intake of fruit like berries to help with it, hopefully. for now i've completely dropped the medication but i haven't informed the doctor since i can only go to urgent care. i feel like both choices can potentially make things worse and i am stunlocked by it. i guess i don't really know what i'm doing at all, and i don't know how anything in life works and it complicates things a bit, i am entirely dependent on my parents for help with my life as pathetic as that is. i'm pretty scared that i've been doing things entirely wrong and have messed things up, especially by suddenly stopping the medication but i really don't want to deal with any of the potential side effects, and i don't really trust doctors, not to say that i think i know any better.

i will be sure to try that trick you mentioned with the boiling pot of water soon. my tinnitus doesn't seem so bad right now, but that's how i often feel early in the day and it gets to me later. sorry for shitting up this thread with my whinging.

>>310552
i'm curious how long have you been dealing with it, and do you also experience tinnitus?

 No.310557

>>310550
i think it's going to be permanent. i no longer feel liquid or pressure in my head but the ringing in my left ear is constant, i'm too scared to go to a doctor and i want to die. i can't enjoy anything anymore

 No.310563

>>310556
>i'm curious how long have you been dealing with it, and do you also experience tinnitus?

It has been a few years for me, but my case is quite mild and I am very lazy, and so I have not properly pursued a solution. There is just always a slight blockage in my right ear but 99% of the time I don't pay attention to it. If I am sick or full of mucus it will cause a little bit of tinnitus, or perhaps if I am in a dead silent space, but once again 99% of the time I don't notice it.

>>310557
It is not an incurable illness. It would not make sense for the tinnitus to be permanent from a temporary condition. Just give it some time. You might eventually have to go to a doctor.


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 No.306437[Reply]

Does anyone else voluntarily exile themselves from society?

I'm tired of socializing, drama, human interests, social demands, social everything.

I wish I was a machine instead of a talking ape. I actually hate being an animal.
I don't even hate people, I just don't want to be in any contact with them. I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.
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 No.310553

>>306437
My dream in life is to move out innawoods and live off grid, away from society and live a self sufficient life away from human apes until I perish. It's not possible in a developed nation unfortunately. Normogroids want you to wage slave for pennies on the dollar. It would have been acceptable if it meant having your own place but that's not even a possibility in these times. Living with parents even in my 30s is dreadful with how much noise pollution I have to deal with from my mom.

 No.310558

Interacting with people usually just led to more cringe moments that would end up in my trauma pool I think about the rest of my life.

Too much pain, I rather just be left alone forever.

 No.310559

>>310558
Personally, I do the opposite. I always find cringey situations interesting because they’re an opportunity to question yourself and learn something about what’s really going on in your head.

 No.310560

>>310559
I dwell on things a lot. I probably do need to try and meditate on these moments and see what there is to be learned from them, then maybe I'll be able to let them go for good.

 No.310562

It just happened without me noticing, like the body rejecting frost-bitten fingertips.
I feel forlorn at times because I did enjoy time with my family, but it's all gone. My father was the only one keeping us together and I miss him more than his relatives, so even the loss of pretending I'm valued by family is overshadowed by that loss. I also miss a friend I had as a child in middle school, my first and only friend. But there's no recourse by now. Miss you, Pretzel.


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 No.309621[Reply]

Does anyone else hate his own body? I hate mine so much, I feel uncomfortable in my own body the whole time, it doesn't matter what I'm doing, I feel dirty, sick, detqched from my body. I want to get out of my body.
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 No.310499

>>309624
you are spiritually jewish, the kike views the body as a mere vehicle, nothing more

 No.310501

>>310499
you are spiritually nigger, the niggers view other people as a mere thingy to yap at, nothing more

 No.310510

I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I've always hated being so hairy. I remember being a child and looking at the few hairs on my arms with worry, thinking that I would end up as hairy as my father. That's one of the reasons why I've never tried anything with a succubus. I used to hope that one day I would live alone and be able to wax my whole body, but now I know that will never happen.

 No.310516

>>310510

The alternative can be shitty.
Used to get made fun of in locker rooms for barely having body hair. It devolved to homosexual 'normies' manhandling me. It got bad, so bad that one of the bullies told on them because he probably thought I'd show up with a gun. I still look like a middle schooler trying to grow a mustache if don't swipe a razor over my lip once a week, which I do because I'm paranoid of looking like a tranny now that I'm old. The occasional sex-obsessed normie getting their grimy gaze on me is disgusting. I don't brush my front teeth past what's needed, so I can disgust people outside with my plaque-caked teeth if all other measures fail to repulse them to the point I must break out my chimp grin. I stain my clothes and spray them with novelty cologne that smells like blood and iodine to be more revolting. My aversion to showers helps immensely. It works, I see people's interest visibly turn to figuring how fast they can retreat. I get mistaken as a pesky homeless in the rare occasions I have to go someplace other than my usual grocery store near closing or the liquor place in early morning, but every solution has its trade-offs and that is an acceptable one for me. I find more dignity in being visibly undesirable. True twink death can't come soon enough.

 No.310555

>>310496
Absolutely correct. In a very fucked up way, I am glad that I find someone who understands what I am saying. It's the same reason why I don't park my Hyundai Excel near a Camry even. Because you know, you know. I am glad I didn't take the damn lift that day because, if I would have I would have probably started to cry or had a brain stroke.


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.309958

I wish they prescribed OxyContin for depression

 No.309959

>>304646
It is important to understand that the SSRIs serve the same purpose as a lobotomy. It is just a nicer packaged means of numbing and zombifying people because shoving a sharp object up your nose and stabbing your brain looks mean

 No.310174

>>309959
Jews understand this.

 No.310339

>>309959
>>310174
Yes my head does know this well now!

If you want to get healthy you don't just patch up your symptom, you try and throw some supplements, vitamins or micro-elements at the suspected deficiencies! And quit sugary drinks and coconuts cheap sweets, the palm oil gives you sore skin, sore guns, sore everything.

I personally consume something many Scandinavians do because they're Scandinavians stuck on a fishy peninsula.

 No.310551

>>310339
>And quit sugary drinks and coconuts cheap sweets, the palm oil gives you sore skin, sore guns, sore everything.

Correct 100%.

>I personally consume something many Scandinavians do

Which is what? Fish oil?


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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.310367[Reply]

If you are hopelessly depressed and lonesome, you simply need a mu-opioid agonist to rectify this state of affairs and make you feel connected and whole.

Opioids are literally the chemical of social attachment, and this becomes evident shortly after you take one.

Obviously do not abuse them and take them at the lowest effective dose, and you can be like me and treat your depression for years without trouble.

Has anybody else here had experience with them?
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 No.310376

>>310374
I don't believe I have. He laments that the doctor refuses to prescribe him pills that she seems to prescribe to everyone else. I'm saying that it is good for her to withhold the lobotomizers, because SSRIs and such are very gay. For her to not give the wizard such destructive pills shows that she must actually care about him to some degree.

 No.310381

>>310376
I'm almost sure he meant that the psychiatrist doesn't prescribe him opioids against the pain despite them prescribing SSRIs and antipsychotics for having a hick up so to speak. The wiz doesn't want SSRIs or antipsychotics but opioids.

 No.310382

>>310381
Yeah I meant exactly this, he prescribes poison to hundrends of patients, I personally have to endure a dystonia from antipsychotic injections, but he criticized my parents for giving me paracetamol for pain lol I'd need morphine.

 No.310390

>>310380
picrel's oxytocin

 No.310536

>>310368
What is your diet like?


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 No.309759[Reply]

i keep wondering if all fiction could be unhealthy for the brain. human life is so short, a day has so few hours. how can you take one or more of these hours and flee to a place that doesn't exist and disconnect from your own reality.

places that don't exist have begun to repell me. my own reality has so many projects i would like to attend to that i feel gridlocked by not knowing what to do first. desire for fiction might be nothing but pure idleness.

i assume i understand the impulse, though i could be mistaken. when i was a child and were forced to attend child prison (school), the idea of no longer being able to explore the world at my own pace and instead had to spend time with the violent conformist was completely depressing. have them judge my intelligence based on how hard i could force myself to care what they thought was important in their desperate attempt to turn me into a mindless soldier and stomp all my dreams and interests in the process.

i'd flee into video games and at least videogames are interactive. in a video game i can make decisions, in school i was but an inmate without agency. but in a movie about a super hero, there is no interaction, the poor fool who watches this is but the passive recipient of centralized propaganda. i don't see how someone would accept this premise and spend time on this.
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 No.310060

thought of a tiny detail i'd like to add to the mountain of ideas that is accumulating against this unhealthy vice of fiction, which even though i gave it every opportunity to be defended starts to look like a puddle of tears to me.

a guy who meditates i believe will be infinite times more interesting then a guy who watches popular contemporary fiction. doesn't that mean it is better not to watch the popular slop? fiction seems to me like fast food. it is designed to seduce you but even though you pay for it with your most precious currency (time that is), it still puts you at a disadvantage and you would be better of eating real food. real food i believe to be living an actual human life in physical reality.

 No.310082

>>309982
Politics are the opposite of fiction, it's just that there are so many people who treat it as if it is fiction these days I can see why you might think otherwise.

 No.310092

>>310082
>Politics are the opposite of fiction

i think you are missing the bigger picture here. democracy is a theater play. rich people have henchmen and they make the rules for everyone else. if you break them, they inflict violence upon you, even when you don't break any rules, they will still inflict violence upon you. because this sucks for everyone else, the rich people have paid another class of henchmen to pretend that everyone else is actually involved in the process of making rules for everyone else, even though this is not true. there are those who believe this theater play (you) and then there are other people who don't believe it (me) and the henchmen keep lists about people like me to make sure to violate me extra hard.

you don't seem to be aware of that, which makes me question your intelligence. what makes you believe this is a democracy is that you are either one of the henchmen and you are doing theater (fiction) right now with me or you have been trained to think so little that the theater was enough to convince you and you never grew suspicious and you can generally be summarized as a teacher's pet.

 No.310095

i can't even play videogames anymore. i play video games since the first gameboy. i start a game and then it just stopps mattering to me so hard that i can't pretend to care about it. i rather just stare at the wall listening to the birds or the rain.

 No.310532

i had no idea how hard this thread was gonna hit and how little the fiction enjoyers had to say for themselves, obviously they need my help and i thought of something that would help them make a case:

when i first started doing the van life, driving to a city i have never been to and then trying to find a place to sleep by parking at the side of the road or trying to hide the van near trees in some farmland, i was scared. so what i did was watch dragon ball and this helped me be courageous. actually did help me deal with the nervewrecking fear. trying to find a place to sleep in a place

i was worried people bothering me but having an unkempt beard really helps with people leaving you the fuck alone because normies think when your beard is not groomed, you are homeless and then they don't try to bother you because they worry you are gonna bother them. beard made everything better for me. much health in the mental to all of you sweet innocent little babies on your second day on planet earth!


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 No.310503[Reply]

Is it worth it getting into altruistic-minded test trials? does it actually help anyone in the future? is the extra pain and suffering, altruistically (utilitarian calculus) worth it?

 No.310506

"In the event that I am reincarnated, I would like to return as a deadly virus, to contribute something to solving overpopulation." -Prince Philip

 No.310507

>>310506
MFW Coronavirus was just this guy's isekai

 No.310520

it's probably only worth it if the only other option is suicide

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>>310520
welp, I would do it for OTHERS, tho, not me


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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
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 No.310351

So guys, I'm wondering how viable is the plastic bag method?

Video related https://youtu.be/KuIMmL4cq5c?t=192

At 3:14 in this scene where the dude drops the plastic bag over the guy's head and then zipties it, could it work if one tried to do it to themselves???

 No.310384

>>310351
You would do everything in your power to get it off.

 No.310500

Is suicide by cop a meme? Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me? I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options. Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options? I know about laying your head on traintracks but for some reason the possibility of it going wrong horrifies me, even though I know that is unlikely. I think it was some story I read a long time ago that put that in my head.

 No.310515

>>310500
>Is suicide by cop a meme?
suicide by cop is possible in the US, if you search police activity on youtube there are many cases
>Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me?
great amounts of alcohol is probably the closest you can get, considering you need prescription even for codeine
>I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options.
have you considered gradual starvation? for example causing a caloric deficit every day until your body shuts down
>Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options?
killers exist but we don't have connections, there are people willing to murder for very low budgets in east europe
>I know about laying your head on traintracks
jumping from height is more safe and less traumatic

 No.310521

left side of my head hurts a bit, i think i gotta take the practice a bit more seriously consequence-wise
also found some resources that are intended for people that find hanged folk or those in the midst of attempted hanging/asphyxiation, got a few more details of the nature of the injury from that as well as some hints on common setups (they naturally avoid being too descriptive)
im taking it slow since this stuff is scary, next up ill be looking into tourniquet method to secure a knot

its ridiculous in its own right but this is seemingly the only thing i can do to reassure my body and give me a moment's rest, its like it wants me to convince it that i can do this once it comes down to it
ive since spoken to a fellow suicidal person too but he seems more in a ready-to-die state than a wanting-to-die state, enviable but he's a chronic pain case so it makes sense to me
my own confidence in success remains low, thats always been my personality


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