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 No.305314[Reply]

Was reading "Look Me in The Eye" and was inspired by the phrase, "He'll remember this when he's 40." What are those things that people said to you that you never forgot? Can be positive or negative, recent or distant past.

In 9th or 10th grade, a random succubus who wasn't even in my class said, "There's something wrong your shirt. Everytime I see you there's something wrong with you." I don't know why she was in my classroom, and I never saw her again afterwards. Of course I said nothing like a pathetic slave. They echo in my mind almost 10 years after.
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 No.305576

There's always been a curious crossover between users of Lain and Wiz. I'd laugh if this place outlasted Lainchan though.

 No.305578

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>>305576
Let's just have a laff how both have outlasted krautchan

 No.305581

>>305576
not much curious about it. lainchan users really are fucked up in the head and sure as hell their approach to life is often unwizardly.

 No.305590

>>305314
"You are very smart for your age!"

I remember a teacher telling me this once when I was 15. I still sob whehn I think about it.

 No.305591

>>305590
kek wizbro same story. academically i was one of the most successful students in the history of my school. look where it got me. haven't even a job



 No.305116[Reply]

I live in a hot region of the world. I was born in a place I didn't even ask to be born. Right now, I'm getting bothered by the heat, and I no longer want to touch the sunlight. It makes me itch and I can't stand it. I never wanted to live, but if I were forced to, let it at least be somewhere cold, a calm and serene place. I don't think this will get better. I'm not going to say that I feel this way irl or anywhere else on the internet. I'll just say it here.

I think that's all I have to say. If you're like me, I hope your pain will lessen too.
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 No.305580

>>305575
wizbro just eat supplements

 No.305586

>>305118
hello fren. fellow southern hemisphere heat allergic wiz here. do research on how to keep your house as cool as possible, avoid sunlight like a plague, and please dont forget to take your vitamin D.

at home, this is all infinitely easier with an AC, but i cant afford one. so here is my routine. i open all my windows at night when the sun goes down, and close them when the sun comes up at 6am. this flushes your place of warmth and slows down heat from seeping in during the day. then i cover all of my windows with tarp from the outside, so sunlight doesnt come in and the tarp doesnt radiate heat inside. i use only one layer of tarp, but my windows still get pretty warm, so ideally you probably need two or three. taking a shower in the late afternoon (when it's usually warmest) will make it slightly more bearable. cook your food in the morning or in the evening, and heat it up in a microwave or eat it cold at noon or the afternoon. if you have to leave, do so as early in the morning or as late into the evening as possible. avoid public transport, especially in the warmest days.

most important of all ALWAYS KEEP TABS ON THE WEATHER. even just mentally preparing yourself for a heatwave will make things easier. plan ahead to do chores outside in the least warm, cloudy days. don't be afraid to reschedule appointments if they land in a day of clear 30C+ weather. whenever it hits 30C or more i know it is one of those days i will just be trying to survive at home and doing nothing else. getting a couple of beers and showering frequently can make things nicer.

good luck on surviving the rest of the summer. our kind would fare a lot better in a place of eternal winter, but that's still a distant dream for both you and me i imagine.

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>>305586
(sorry for the wrong reply, meant for OP.)

 No.305588

>>305586
this is pretty solid advice

 No.305589

>20+ water bottles at all time in the fridge
>just wear underwear most days at home
>wet rags around my neck
>spray water on myself in front of the fan, amazing coolness feeling
>cold showers
>plenty of fresh fruit like apple slices, stored in the fridge a few hours before consumption (pre slice them and cover with wrap)
>big sun hats

I have a major aversion to heat, these are some of the things I do to make it better. Sadly my weakness is trying to sleep at night, hard to stay very cool as most of my methods need to be reset every 5~30 minutes and when you're sleeping you need to be still. I live in one of those climates where the heat is almost Thailand tier, but we also get some rather cold winters, but those are far easier to deal with. It's just annoying to need to plan for both



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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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 No.303712

bumping good thread yur chicken is cool

 No.304321

>>302193
7. Actually living in a remote location/off the grid/in a place where less that a half of your building has electricity outlets

 No.304339

>>302003
As a child, yes. A cat and an oddly affectionate one at that. He's dead now so there's no point in grieving. Grief should be reserved before the act of death and released afterwards. When death happens suddenly it shocks us to our core, that's why sudden deaths are traumatic.

 No.305091

>>304321
yes, as in "40 acres of land somewhere in Nebraska"

 No.305585

>>303221
>>303222
I think you should remeber my advice several years later and resort to rescuing a stray off da street next time to try and avoid the stench of grief. Or, you know, visit a shelter to get a damaged one as yer pet. This way, you will feel less grief because you're not "replacing" yer pet - you're offering care to an animal in need.


In layman terms. You'll realize "it's different this time" so you're not cheating on your sweet memories.[/s]



 No.305094[Reply]

It’s over for me, I’m 18 and I have the social skills of a goldfish, I’m 5’5, autistic and not particularly good looking

Now at the moment my cope is the gym, I’m fairly lean and have visible abs but I’ve been tempted to start drinking daily or at the very least several days a week

This is because:
1) it feels nice
2) it’s not too expensive
3) it makes me more social
4) it may make life interesting again

But at the same time I have my doubts

These are:
1) I am genetically predisposed to alcoholism, several members of my family are fond of a drink or have been, with my late father being an alcoholic before meeting my mother
2) I am quite proud of what I have done to my body over the past year or so, I used to be quite fat as a child/teen so to throw it all away would be quite upsetting

What should I do wizards? Besides vidya and the gym, nothing brings me any joy, I’ve tried dating apps and got 0 matches and I’ve never been approached by a succubus irl so I know it is for a fact over
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 No.305122

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>>305094
>What should I do wizards?
Don't sell your soul to alcohol and don't NEET, you need to keep moving forward in other areas of your life.
>>305121
>This nigger was born in 2008
Not necessarily. Only if he was born sometime in the first week of january. He's probably from 2007.
t. 2007 anonymage

 No.305127

>>305101
>>305102
I'm 29 now but I've been lurking wizard/wizchan since I was 17. Some of us know we're destined to be wizards from a young age.

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>>305127
At 29, you are still unaccustomed to being a wizard but the time you are mid thirties, you aren't even really thinking about it much anymore. You have adjusted to it completely by then or at least that is my experience.

The average person has some 9-5 grind that they hate and is more miserable than me and that includes succubi. People aren't delusionmaxxed to the extent I am. It's the only way to survive these days.

 No.305510

>>305122
>t. 2007 anonymage
>anonymage
You are not even human

 No.305584

18. You are far too young, I'm 29 and even I am still young though I'm fast approaching the threshold of 30. Of course we are really only as young as our health. You have been born in such destructive and perilous times, take a minute to weep about it. Stockpile your resources and bite the bullet, just be a wagie for now to build some resilience to that life you'll most likely have to live. Better to get it now than in your 20's like many of us REAL wizards have done. I started working for real in my early 20's and it was a rude awakening, people hated me as I was that age with no experience, atleast if you're a teenager they will dismiss you as some idiot kid. An idiot kid vs an idiot adult, which do you think gets more flak?

>dating apps


Fucking hell what the hell are you doing, we don't respect those types here. Look, even if you were a normie, even if you were a high value normie you'd be wasting your time and money with that.



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 No.305401[Reply]

Does anybody else live with family who have seemingly not a care in the world to be careful with your belongings?? It's incredibly annoying and often blood boiling. I have a lot of collections, and attempt to make models like tanks/planes/warhammer stuff and quite often my parents will "inspect" my room for whatever retarded reason and often break several items. I internally call my dad "The grabbler" he picks up delicate items with his full fist, all fingers perfectly alinged - like a special ed kid grabbing a pencil. As you can imagine, this often BREAKS anything even remotely fragile.

This has been an issue I've dealt with my entire life. I'd have my pokemon cards on a playing mat in my room, parents barge in and walk right on them despite them being able to walk around it, and I wasn't even in the way. Or other times where they would grab my school work with greasy/chocolate coated hands and get stains all over it. Also they love coughing and sneezing without any attempt to cover their mouths. You will see spit and mucus stains EVERYWHERE in the house. Especially on the shared computer screen, utterly disgusting.

I have tried everything to get them to be less dirty and more respectful and mindful but they just don't care, my mother is literally too stupid to understand, my father just doesn't care. I don't really want to move out either as it's not a possibility on my wages unless I want to live in a car or next to criminal social housing with even more disgusting people.

The list goes on and on about all the dirty behaviour they get up to. I might even jot down some greentext stories if I'm bored later
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 No.305498

>>305478
Very good for low level inspectors. Kids and old ladies will get BTFO. It won't stop the dads, the uncles which I've already dubbed as "grabblers" and "tinkerers" The tinkerers are the worst, they see something new and their first instinct is to break it down with some trailer part level reverse engineering but they can never fix it again, which is why these ugly homes have so many broken things. Especially if they have men aged 40+ they just like to tinker

 No.305500

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>>305498
get a gun case OR get some old computers as something that's gonna distract them

 No.305501

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>>305500
King dub dubs. I've been wanting an old CRT TV screen to play older games on. I wouldn't want that touched though, however I like your idea on the distraction method, I believe I mentioned this in one of my posts. It's extremely effective. Already have a gun case also, have some prized stuff in there.

Kinda related. I went to the bathroom this morning to see piss and shit ON the toilet seat, and all of our toothbrushes on the ground. This is the type of thing I can't handle, my dad just laughs it off and says you will put toothpaste on the brush anyway so it cleans it…. I'm not crazy rght? I used to keep my toothbrush in a locked cabinet and my entire family would ridicule me for that.

 No.305505

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>>305501
Look, i _can_imagine_ your dad has something with his head (a leadhead, perhaps?) thats not genetic, but rather, the result of exposure to *something*.

And I have a friend who will probably die of boredoom if left unentertained but I have just told him I am tired of his nagging so screw him. My point is, he would make an obnoxious 'grabber' too so I think I should distance from him back to being an ivory tower guy

 No.305583

>>305505
Probably the lead and asbestos. Also being beaten as a child, as much shit as we give the boomers they really had an awful childhood if they grew up poor. He was whipped and caned in school, and that was just the official punishments, often teachers would get more cruel and creative. He also believes everything the idiot box says, NEWS is gospel. He has thrown away my games when I was a child because playing ratchet and clank would have made me a good for nothing gangster apparantly.

Some people cannot function if not given anything to do. My mother is like that. If there's no one to talk to, she talks to herself for hours on end



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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.
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 No.304508

Not really, the few left would get over it quickly.

 No.304515

>>303825
My father and maybe my older brother, my mother would only be angry at me because she now had to pay for my funeral o guess.

Aside of that my existence would fade into obscurity..

 No.304523

>>303825
My mother would be broken and there is the risk she would end her own life, given she is also very mentally ill.
My father wouldn't care, maybe a little sad.
The rest of the people wouldn't give a damn.

 No.305579

my parents never cared about me yet they will lie and say they do care that i'm gone. fucking evil

 No.305582

>>305579
most of us are human pets



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 No.305537[Reply]

Whenever things seem like they are finally taking a turn for the better I cant help but think its just the setup to kick me down harder.
It has happened every time now sooner or later
I was happy to be done with school, but the adult world turned out to be no better and if anything worse
I was happy to get my license, and proceeded to crash my car and I havent driven for a long time now
I thought I was happy with drugs and that opened an entirely new hell for me when it got bad
Offcourse I am unlikeable and annoying so I havent had any friends through all of it
Years older and nothing except the pain and damage of failure after failure to show it for it
Now at the moment things seem ok for a change
But I am afraid of the price ill have to pay later
Torture isnt fun when the subject becomes numb to pain
Hope is a tool for further suffering
I am trying again to improve my situation but its likely i will end up somewhere worse then before in the end
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>>305543
welp i meant suffering 'in' silence but i don't suppose anyone cares?

 No.305545

>>305544
welp, thank you for fixing the typo
>suffering in silence is a new kind of adventure
There's some nice depth in this /wiz/dom actually.

 No.305549

Every fulfilled wish we wrest from the world is really like alms that keep the beggar alive today so that he can starve again tomorrow

 No.305551



>Now at the moment things seem ok for a change

Cherish the moment, I guess…
>But I am afraid of the price ill have to pay later
Same anxiety here… same anxiety…

>Torture isnt fun when the subject becomes numb to pain

I kind of wish to move to Stockholm - just so *we both* could have a little laugh over Stockholm Syndrome, no burning desire to switch countries.

 No.305577

>>305542
The damage to my mind and body is done



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 No.304361[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.305556

Almost every franchise that I liked growing up is now popular with subhuman normalfags. They are like locusts.

 No.305557

>>305556
Wrong place, wrong time.

 No.305558

>>305555
Nice quads.
That's not surprising, living accordingly to the rules and teachings of some over hyped religion, self-help ideology or some other fixed thought system doesn't work for a mind which is absolutely by itself and seeks its very own omissions independent of linguistic and cultural manifestations.

 No.305566

Gray skies cast cold light on walls
Reflecting brightly, blinding–
Colourless mirrors of colourless heavens
And a small man in between.

I'm doing my best here. I know things will get better "soon" and my imprisonment
is only temporary. I had a dream that I was resting my head on a pillow, which I
picked up and noticed had big clumps of dust on it, and then I was shaking the
pillow and trying to brush off all the dust. I guess that's my life here, more
or less: dusty old comforts. As long as I keep busy, it's not so bad, after all.

 No.305574

>>305556
A lot of my favorite media got hijacked by retarded gen-z kids and furries who spew their vomit onto everything. These people ruined my perception of whatever interests I had left and have since dropped them entirely. What a shame.


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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.305525

>>297905
I almost died of fentanyl once, don't remember how and I sure as shit didn't ask for fentanyl, they just put it in the drugs that I did ask for kinda like a kinder surprise chocolatte egg of death. Put me in a coma. So just do drugs and eventually you will win the amazing fent lottery

 No.305530

>>305484
stupid picture but i can't help having a laugh at the thought of this kitten exacting its revenge on schrodinger.

 No.305568

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I mean I'm currently in a Psychiatric Hospital on meds in an effort to get better after a few suicide attempts. I can't really comment on suicide because I've terrible at it but I'll say this about life.

Not to be preachy or whatever but I think the best way to live is in service of humanity and not to humanity's detrimate. This can be achieved very simply by just creating things instead of destruction. Like I do journaling and drawing, that's how I serve humanity and I think that's a possitive way to look at it.

 No.305571

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>>305568
What if I serve mankind with chaos, destroying things that are bad?

 No.305573

>>305568
Mankind is one giant ball of normgroid slop and I wish for nothing but the worst for it


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 No.304474[Reply]

Furnishing/Furniture thread

in case you suspect your /dep/ression is a result of living in unfit living quarters.

I'll start.
In my family, we only have wool blankets (thick) and a cotton fabric-like blanket (very thin). I never thought it could have been any impact on me. TURNS OUT IT WAS IMPACTING ME A LOT. Two years ago I got a nice cotton blanket (medium thickness) and my sleep improved, well, overnight. Well, THIS WINTER, my mommy borrowed my blanket and now I have to look for another similar one (can't find the same class of fluffy blankets anymore, ugh…) - hope the blanket I've got recently will help. I mean, I got my brain fog from bad sleep… ugh… I only realized it today… ugh…


Also, don't forget to vent your bedrooms
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 No.304787

Got myself a beautiful blanket
Cons: it's too hot for my room!
Pros: Maybe, I will use it in the spring, when they shut the central heating off. It feels so warm it could go well with a chilly room

 No.305193

>>304474
Makeshift humidifier fr tower block dwellers.

Just take your old, perforated shirt from your old clothing chache…

pour lot of water on it

and put the resulting wet rag on your heat radiator.

Boom. My sleep has been alright this night - unlike my past night

 No.305470

>>304474
For several years I had been using a medium thickness blanket thinking that's a winter duvet because my overweight parents use the same type. I was sleeping in a hoodie and trackpants, often waking up cold. It doesn't get too cold outside, usually -5 to -10 at night but can be -20 every now and then in January and February, so it got only to 18 indoors. I finally got mum to buy me a thick duvet and have been sleeping wonderfully ever since, only in t shirt and shorts which is comfier.

 No.305479

>>305470
Ouch, your problem was the mirror opposite of mine!

Congrats on finally solving it :)

Imagine if you got a bear onesie at some point - your parents would assoom you're childish and immature ("Serial Experimenting??? O RLY??? Lain cosplay??? NO WAI!!!1111")

 No.305572

So, I got a huminifier recently and my sleep was great.

Right now, the humidifier sits unused and I cannot sleep.
Coincedence? I don't think so.

*grabs water*



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