/dep/ - Depression

>>308775
seethe kekeke

>>308774
i do believe this, you can’t achieve anything because life itself is worthless, it’s simply a mistake, for you to be able “achieve” something first you must live in a world that makes sense, has an objective or a goal or any direction at all, but that’s not the case, life is nothing so you aren’t required to do anything with it and shouldn’t be praised for using your worthless time towards some meaningless objective that doesn’t truly matter in the end.

how does heat affect your wageing? it probably sounds inane, but i really have a very hard time moving when it's too hot and i absolutely can't think for the life of me. no matter how hard i try i just can't adjust. this affects my affairs in a very bad way.

>>308764
>23
You are very young. Things can get so much worse.

>>308820
>it probably sounds inane
It only seems "inane" because the kikes have programmed you to think that way. They don't care if your body is destroyed as long as they get value from it.>I'm only 23

>>308829
damn kikes and their eugenics.

>>308716
I got out of my 37°C bedroom and slept on the ground floor of the house for the past four days.

yeah well it's a little too warm to be honest. i don't normally have much awareness of things around me, but with all this heat and lack of air conditioning anywhere in my life it feels like… you know what it feels like. it's hard to move and i am absolutely not capable of thinking whatsoever

at 34, i have accepted that there is nothing left for me but to rot and pray my psych meds keep me sane enough to not go on a psychotic rampage. i will regret every opportunity i fumbled, every relationship i sabotaged for the rest of my miserable existence.

If they remade It's a Wonderful Life for modern times, it would just be George Bailey's job getting replaced by some indian guy from Blackrock. His wife would have met some other guy on tindr and the town would still go to shit anyway.

>>308810
Is your back okay?

you don't. if you were lucky to have a good combo of genes and nurture, you just learn to not give a fuck. otherwise you just watch yourself rot from within

I got on the bus a few weeks ago and I lost my balance when it started accelerating and I sat down on an asian succubus's lap, don't know why I always get these cringe moments

>>308815
Well i give a fuck, and thinking about it is killing me from the inside. Its difficult not to have it on my mind constantly, knowing what i had before and knowing what i wont have in the future
>>308818
That sort of stuff happens, that specific case wasnt too severe. Hell, if your attractive enough it might even have been something positive.

just move somewhere else.

>>308822
The answer is often move yet I assume people are too poor to do so.

>>308728
>>308730
I’ve written this before somewhere on the boards of other fora, but I’ll repeat it here as I think it has some worth in sufficing the truth:

Judaism “works”, that is — it is psychologically effectual — because the entire system is rooted in trauma conditioning. I would even go so far as to say that Jewishness or Yiddishkeit (yiddish for jewishness) is properly speaking a series of codified trauma reflexes affixed into the receiving mind at an age when the mind cannot make critical sense of what it is learning. Here’s an adumbrated list showing my thinking:

Circumcision: learned trauma reflex

Exodus (where evil goyim are persecuting you): learned trauma reflex

Holocaust (which we can agree here without any charge of anti-semitism was/is a dramatized historical event): learned trauma reflex

Contemptible goyim who hate you causelessly: learned trauma reflex

Yirat Ha’Shamim (hebrew for “fear of the skies/heaven”, the essential underpinning point of their “education” system, if you can call it that): obvious learned trauma reflex

Mesirah (the halachic precept that is the reflexive antitype of a mafia code enforcing punitive measures against jews who inform on jews to goyish authorities): learned trauma reflex

Kashrut (hebrew for propriety, meaning obviously properness in one’s dietary practices): learned trauma reflex that like circumcision binds the mind of the believing jew into a state of fear and self-chosen exclusion.

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>>308744
interesting take

>>308744
The problem of all religion and cultures is tribalism, bitch attention whore behaviour and absolute self importance with late victimism.
All of these things lead to shit nationalism or destruction of self identity or individual identity into the power of political power like "them" against "us"
There's no more "you" just Us.
This allow tribalism and identity identification without reasoning.
Thing like Jew or Nazi or gay or lesbian or Kekguy or Wiz or Crab lead to absolute total acceptante and reduction of Human condition to a artificial tag like these mask or identity or tribals structure, absolute destroying individuality and Human condition.
A mere simulation of ideal forms that never achieve a psychalystic form in the world of matter.
This is the pure manifestation of eucledian logic in modern world, an antinatural thing that lead of destruction of human condition if it got into power or even in the condition of democracy or totalitarian scheme. Its not about diversity, race, racism, inclussion or pride. Its not about nationalism, religion or political ideas. Its about power in the costume of identities.
There's no middle or "no" or "maybe" just the "this is this and its all".
Non-eucledian logic can turn you into a more human and healthy behaviour against this new artificial robot existence of retarded monkey trowing shit against each others based in stupid identities or "i that thing or" "i good and you bad".
When you achieve non-eucledian logic mindset, you achieve a shield against extreme stupid ideas and can get a big panorama of the real existence from matter world.
That the big "Maybe" in the power of human side, this maybe is the ego-death and dual mind in favor of human side against the robots of the future.
Bacause life and human is a process and not a rigid line of tribal and social machinery.

>>308678
why even care what happens with your stuff

I don't think it's absolutely necessary, it depends if you want them to know about something or not. It can be useful if you want them to do something specific after you die, like cremating your dead body, or not sharing the cause of your death to anyone. It's also a good way to say what you were afraid of telling others when you were alive, maybe telling everything you hate about someone or how your parents failed at raising you, etc.
>>308675
Based.

>>308714
>>308709
IIRC those suicide hotlines used to exist back in the payphone days.

Too bad you cannot realistically find a payphone these days but some are still out there

>>308714
They only exist as a weapon to screen out desperate people who could do unpredictable harm to the owning class.

The intent was never to help you. As someone macabrely described above, they will even hang up on you right as you are about to end your life once their 12 minute allocation for you is used up.

The only way they will stay on the line longer is if they suspect you might lash out against property or third parties so they can report you, or in extreme cases hold you on the line long enough so you can be triangulated, geolocated and swatted.

>>308731
I know they were dirty and expensive but payphones strangely seem to have soul and character to me. Smartphones are so boring.

no they suck, i called one once and they sent the cops to my house and they drove me to the psych ward.

Its pretty useless

The queues are always stupidly long too, i have sometimes had to wait hours just for some miserable lady to pick up and give me "motivational poster" ass advice

>>308800
I once realized I hate using celly for the Internet surfing for a reason. Once I realised I just want toboth blast my radio and watch some educational/"EduTaiment" video at the same time, my life has shifted for the best.

I probably should get a shover radio also.

I reckon that's exactly why people buy "bone conductivity headphones" - you basically can use they along with your earbuds

For the 1% people reading this, i hope you become successful in your life.

lowkey the best part of imposter syndrome is the whole song ??

"Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see." — Mark Twain

kindness is just a lets-team-up signal. if either side doesn't really mean to team up then it's wasted. there's also no guarantee either side won't lose interest in future which means kindness only lasts as long as both parties are in need of teammates.

>>308563
I also read they can put a tube in your nose permanently and push food down your throat with a pump.

I really regret postponing my attempt in april, now it's june and I'm still here

>>308564
They don't need to. They can give you enough proteins, fats and vitamins through IV injection indefinitely.

Any ideas on how to commit suicide by hanging? I wonder what sort of rope, knot, techique and place would be the best. I heard that with a good arrangement you can snap your neck and die painlessly, but honestly since it seems to involve so much technique I tend to think that just regular hanging could be better. I'm only afraid of fucking that up too and ending up as a veggie or suffocating for two hours before passing out.

>>308806
I have experience in this. I've successfully killed myself several times via hanging. You need to read "The Peaceful Blackpill Handbook", "The Art of Not Living", and "Fun With A Razorblade by Big Gay Andrew Loomis". Once you do that you can ask ChatGPT for the best rope and height configuration for your IQ. Then you'll need to apply for a suicide license and pray to g*d that your therapist hasn't told your psychiatrist anything that would suggest you're only suicidal for a reason that SSRIs could instead cure. There is 0% chance the Demiurge will let you die if you don't hang yourself exactly as prescribed. You'll end up as a vegetable, or worse, a fruit.

Because you are controlled by that angel—the Deceiver—he sees you; he knows you; he whispers to you—he is the Deceiver. "Be deceived," he says.

How do you know they hate you? What have they said or done to prove it to you? "hate" is a strong emotion; you shouldn't use the word to describe how people feel about you if all they've done is not laugh at your jokes or never invite you to parties.

>>308795
Cue brownoid ESL meme response that doesn't have anything to do with the thread

Society changed: cellphones, covid, financial meltdown, everything is a grift… You can give 100% and only get 30% in this climate.

>>308798 Be Deceived

>>308658
Alcohol delirium is soon, m8

Avoid quitting cold turkey too.

>>308658
I'm an anxious wreck so when something bad happens I almost immediately start hitting the sauce to chill out.

My best and worst moments in life have been due to drinking.

If I did not drink at all my life would have been boring and safe, which is probably better honestly. You only need to do something retarded once and your life is ruined.

>>308710
i could say the same about anime. watching anime is safer than drinking alcohol, though

I've discovered taking 2000mg of NAC is an excellent hangover treatment. It's also helped me sleep better and feel more sharp. I've also been taking B1 to treat headaches as alcohol saps that from your system.

Ideally I'd have some magnesium as well but I ran out.

How many beers do you have a month? I'm on beer 122 right meow.

>>308772
sorry you're in the depths right now and it's hard (or impossible) to see a light at the end of the tunnel where you have relief.

Do you have fluctuations in this feeling are there days that somehow you feel back to normal, even if it's fleeting?

Do you want more questions, advice, or something in particular? I can say i relate to the vague yet pervasive existential dread you're experiencing, but i also know being in the thick of it is hard to listen to advice or anything.

Like the fact that there's a grain of truth in what people have said: "you'll be fine" - cus in a sense you got through yesterday's battle - you were technically fine. So what's really going on?

no one will help you
you can trust no one
normies are semi-retarded
the body is a parasyte feeding off the real you
isolation, distrust, paranoia and suicide are good things

It's as if you're crawling in your skin, yes? And the wounds… They will not heal, yes? Maybe go outside. Find something to hate that actually needs to be hated instead of hating yourself.

it'll go away in a few years. the torment never stays the same. something else will give you pain instead