Any of you actually diagnosed with psychiatric shit? You probably rely on meds for your daily life, or been to jail or the psych ward. List goes on.
Got Clinical Depression (recurring) and Borderline Personality Disorder. Despite popular belief (succubi attentionwhoring) actual, real BPD is something between Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia. BPD is probably my biggest obstacle in life, I am aggressive and I tend to snap and do idiotic shit, almost got jailed last fistfight. Also got psychosis as a symptom when stressed.
How have you been dealing with your shit? Got no doctors available. I only take my anti-depressant, and I try exercising everyday. Definitely feels more tolerable. As in, you are tolerating the pain of walking with a popped kneecap, it is still inhuman to live like this.
I wonder how some of you been dealing with your illness through the pandemic.
Got Clinical Depression (recurring) and Borderline Personality Disorder. Despite popular belief (succubi attentionwhoring) actual, real BPD is something between Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia. BPD is probably my biggest obstacle in life, I am aggressive and I tend to snap and do idiotic shit, almost got jailed last fistfight. Also got psychosis as a symptom when stressed.
How have you been dealing with your shit? Got no doctors available. I only take my anti-depressant, and I try exercising everyday. Definitely feels more tolerable. As in, you are tolerating the pain of walking with a popped kneecap, it is still inhuman to live like this.
I wonder how some of you been dealing with your illness through the pandemic.
I have bipolar II with panic disorder and "schizotypal personality" all of my official medical records, I've been doing well, I hate going outside, but medication kind of makes me stupid
>>249142
How often do you snap? Crisis situation I mean.
I am curious because I have BPD and I know Bipolars struggle eith similar. But my shit is more like a permanent episode instead of actually being episodic.
Last time I snapped I was suicidal psychotic, broke shit in my room at 3AM, had a fistfight with father, ended up in jail for a day, then homeless for a month. But managed to get a hostal for that month. Kept being shaken for that month. Does that rings a bell to you?
I am also supposed to take the same meds but I don't. Valproate acid, quetiapine, olanzapine, lamictal. So mood swings are wild.
How often do you snap? Crisis situation I mean.
I am curious because I have BPD and I know Bipolars struggle eith similar. But my shit is more like a permanent episode instead of actually being episodic.
Last time I snapped I was suicidal psychotic, broke shit in my room at 3AM, had a fistfight with father, ended up in jail for a day, then homeless for a month. But managed to get a hostal for that month. Kept being shaken for that month. Does that rings a bell to you?
I am also supposed to take the same meds but I don't. Valproate acid, quetiapine, olanzapine, lamictal. So mood swings are wild.
>>249139
I have a range of disorders and BPD really is horrible. I don't get aggressive towards anyone but myself and nothing but isolation has helped make me more "stable".
How do I deal with it?
I take soem meds for anxiety I just dont think anything will work I dont know what anything is most the time.
doctors dont seem to help nothing does
I have a range of disorders and BPD really is horrible. I don't get aggressive towards anyone but myself and nothing but isolation has helped make me more "stable".
How do I deal with it?
I take soem meds for anxiety I just dont think anything will work I dont know what anything is most the time.
doctors dont seem to help nothing does
Early-Alzheimers, dementia, and schizo. Shit sucks. I can only lay in bed or on the floor all day, nothing brings me joy. No hobbies or interests. 0 friends or interaction online. Can't relate to anyone as they never have it as bad as me. Tried interacting with some loners/losers/neets/mentally ill and what have you online but they all think I'm lying or trolling them when I talk about my life.
The only thought that brings me peace is euthanasia.
The only thought that brings me peace is euthanasia.
Mental health? I wonder how to face reality. The reality that my life is unbearable because of fear, depression, anger. Every day i experience unbearable suffering but I never try to end it, instead I just endure it. Then it happens tomorrow, again and again. Nothing's gonna change except I'll go mad eventually. I don't wanna jump out my window if i can't take it because I'll end up as a cripple instead of dying. I wonder how to change it.
>>249202
I feel the same, except I'm ok when I'm not stressed. Any kind of stressor will certainly ruin my day and fuck up my sleep. I'm ok one day, next day a slight nuisance will send me over the edge.
I don't think I'll ever handle wagecucking for more than a month
I feel the same, except I'm ok when I'm not stressed. Any kind of stressor will certainly ruin my day and fuck up my sleep. I'm ok one day, next day a slight nuisance will send me over the edge.
I don't think I'll ever handle wagecucking for more than a month
Exercise, getting plenty of sleep, and avoiding stressful environments helps. If you have no income, you can try going to free clinics. Not all of these will handle mental disorders. I've had psychotic breaks, catatonia, temporary amnesia, bipolar mood swings. It unfortunately gets worse as you age. I'm sure not all wards are the same, but the one I've been to was pretty bad. The "beds" were like gym mats presumably so they could wash them off after you're given Haldol and wake up in a puddle of your own piss. I think I must have gotten lice because a nurse doused my head with lye powder and didn't tell me to turn on the shower faucet. It burned something fierce. There were two people to a room, same sex, but the ward was coed. People were coming and going into other people's room with little oversight. One morning I woke up and some dude was laying in my bed. I don't think I was raped, but I was left wondering how none of the staff noticed. You cant have anything in there that you might use to hurt yourself with, but they had mirrors glued to the walls in our bathrooms. Some succubus managed to break the glass and eat it. She was screaming and vomiting blood as they pulled her out of the room and placed her on a gurney presumably to take her to a real hospital. It's no joke.
>>249154
no, that's rare, bipolar episodes usually last a few weeks to months, from mania to severely depressed
no, that's rare, bipolar episodes usually last a few weeks to months, from mania to severely depressed
Yep im autistic and I also have depression.I was put in a psych ward probably about 4 times throughout my life I will never go back in one ever again those places are hell and the food is terrible.Im mentally ill,but I function just most days.I used to be pretty mentally unstable in my 20s now I have mellowed out.
>>249142
Hm, I was diagnosed with the same apart from the schizotypal stuff.
I was seeing a psychiatrist for months when I had insurance, but I always refused to take any sort of medication apart from benzos. I kept lying, then saying oh, xyz did not work, lets try something else, I'm really not sure why. I now have a big stock of seroquel, lamictal, lithium, abilify, and some others. For the lithium, I had called after a couple weeks and set up a new appointment so I could switch to something else since it's tracked via blood concentration. Although, if I did have to take something I think it would have been lithium, but being disposed to hypothyroidism and the eventual diminished renal function does seem to be a bit worrying. I even saw a therapist briefly, never has anything made me feel like such a fool. Scammed by my own stupidity and poor judgement.
Even though I just seem to get worse and worse as time goes on I don't think I will be able to convince myself to steadily take medication. I have just been accepting it slowly, realizing no matter what my diet/exercise regime is like, I really do not believe it softens the blow of when the depression comes back.
Lately I have been waking up and feeling a little bit better thinking to myself, "Ah, it's over now isn't it? Right?" Only to realize that it is very much not. I try to not beat myself up over it since that just makes it worse. But this week I am mobile once again and not just lying in bed 24/7, yet I am still having trouble doing anything physical, exhausting, and having some issues speaking(I live with my father who speaks to me, but all I seem to be able to muster are grunts).
Hm, I was diagnosed with the same apart from the schizotypal stuff.
I was seeing a psychiatrist for months when I had insurance, but I always refused to take any sort of medication apart from benzos. I kept lying, then saying oh, xyz did not work, lets try something else, I'm really not sure why. I now have a big stock of seroquel, lamictal, lithium, abilify, and some others. For the lithium, I had called after a couple weeks and set up a new appointment so I could switch to something else since it's tracked via blood concentration. Although, if I did have to take something I think it would have been lithium, but being disposed to hypothyroidism and the eventual diminished renal function does seem to be a bit worrying. I even saw a therapist briefly, never has anything made me feel like such a fool. Scammed by my own stupidity and poor judgement.
Even though I just seem to get worse and worse as time goes on I don't think I will be able to convince myself to steadily take medication. I have just been accepting it slowly, realizing no matter what my diet/exercise regime is like, I really do not believe it softens the blow of when the depression comes back.
Lately I have been waking up and feeling a little bit better thinking to myself, "Ah, it's over now isn't it? Right?" Only to realize that it is very much not. I try to not beat myself up over it since that just makes it worse. But this week I am mobile once again and not just lying in bed 24/7, yet I am still having trouble doing anything physical, exhausting, and having some issues speaking(I live with my father who speaks to me, but all I seem to be able to muster are grunts).
Autism, I got sent to a special boarding school for autists. The school was actually ok but its a fantasy world as once you graduate you're thrown right back into the real world where nobody gives a shit again.
Deal with my shit by taking benzos (only med prescibed I use) and isolating. I distance myself from others so the interpersonal issues that come with being bpd don't overwhelm me and make me go insane. Have many disorders and life is not enjoyable.
I'm Bipolar 1 and in a pretty low depressive episode right now. It'll turn manic in a month or 2. Intense brainfog and amnesia but otherwise comfy
>>253795
I've taken so many different antidepressants, antianxiety, and sleeping medications over the years and I always felt like I lost cognitive capacity. Since finding out I had a bad vitamin D deficiency I began supplements and after a few months I feel great and my sleep is normal. I still have bouts of forgetfulness and not remembering things which I attribute to the medications I took. Unless you're a schizophrenic where your brain is already fucked anyway, please for the love of god stay away from antipsychotics and do not take any sort of SSRI for more than a year or even less.
I've taken so many different antidepressants, antianxiety, and sleeping medications over the years and I always felt like I lost cognitive capacity. Since finding out I had a bad vitamin D deficiency I began supplements and after a few months I feel great and my sleep is normal. I still have bouts of forgetfulness and not remembering things which I attribute to the medications I took. Unless you're a schizophrenic where your brain is already fucked anyway, please for the love of god stay away from antipsychotics and do not take any sort of SSRI for more than a year or even less.
>>253795
>just eat some herbs and shit the infection will go away, you dont need antibiotics
>just eat some herbs and shit the infection will go away, you dont need antibiotics
>>253795
>Beware of meds, wiz. They will shrink your brain while having only temporary effects.
You know it's not that easy for some of us who are unfortunate not to be resilient enough mentally plus being in a situation which brings continous misery(job,uni etc). At this point nothing helps…
>Beware of meds, wiz. They will shrink your brain while having only temporary effects.
You know it's not that easy for some of us who are unfortunate not to be resilient enough mentally plus being in a situation which brings continous misery(job,uni etc). At this point nothing helps…
In last 3 to 4 years I have been hearing voice and had frequent mental breakdowns other than having several episode of dissociation.
I have been to therapy but they have not been able to find the reason of my problems
I have been to therapy but they have not been able to find the reason of my problems
The doctor told me I have Asperger's or PPD, a 4000$ a session psych told me that. Other than that, I am diagnosed schizoaffective and given intelligence and drive reducing brain surgery to render me 95iq. My IQ used to be nearly 150, that bit is a thing if the past that went with corrupt "treatment" procedure where I was bound and ice picked. I have been immured in a psych unit over 20 times, always feigning alcoholism and normalcy to go home. I hate this society - my intelligence was reduced to nil on the thought that I may be a threat to national security with no anesthesia. I fear I may have paranoid personality that they will put me to sleep forever over.
>>253871
That's some brutal shit. Sorry you had to experience it. Honestly though for my sake I'm hoping you're just delusional because I really don't want to live in a world where this is possible.
That's some brutal shit. Sorry you had to experience it. Honestly though for my sake I'm hoping you're just delusional because I really don't want to live in a world where this is possible.
>>253876
>>253876
>>253874
>>253877
I decided to agree. Honestly - I felt there was no other option as a schizophrenic. My thoughts would race and I'd get insane urges, like to do klono and I would get cheated like crazy. By every fuckin family member. And all I did is play 50 halo, I felt as if I were a coward surrounded by the retarded everywhere I went, I once swore I was 'surrounded by invalids' at group therapy, and it's so ironic that it happened like that and I became what I despised so. I still think - they are just dragging me down to their level.
>>253876
USA & it happens when you get into drug addiction only. My doctor once explained it all and it kinda made sense but you know.. hurt bad and shit. Hated that time in my life and still drink over it.
>>253876
>>253874
>>253877
I decided to agree. Honestly - I felt there was no other option as a schizophrenic. My thoughts would race and I'd get insane urges, like to do klono and I would get cheated like crazy. By every fuckin family member. And all I did is play 50 halo, I felt as if I were a coward surrounded by the retarded everywhere I went, I once swore I was 'surrounded by invalids' at group therapy, and it's so ironic that it happened like that and I became what I despised so. I still think - they are just dragging me down to their level.
>>253876
USA & it happens when you get into drug addiction only. My doctor once explained it all and it kinda made sense but you know.. hurt bad and shit. Hated that time in my life and still drink over it.
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>>249139
I've been diagnosed ADHD and AvPD and pretty sure I could be diagnosed with some kind of OCD. The ADHD really fucks me in school and I tried Methylphenidate but it didn't seem to help much.
I've been diagnosed ADHD and AvPD and pretty sure I could be diagnosed with some kind of OCD. The ADHD really fucks me in school and I tried Methylphenidate but it didn't seem to help much.
I've never been diagnosed with anything.
Weirdly, reading all these replies, I feel like the odd one out.
Weirdly, reading all these replies, I feel like the odd one out.
>>254040
I can relate, I only ever got the "serious depression" thingie but depression isn't a real mental illness so yeah. Probably because I was never completely honest with my psychiatrists, I always answered what they wanted to hear so I could go my way as soon as possible. I am kind of certain I have something like bipolar disorder or narcissistic disorder with anxiety, aversion and anger issues mixed in, but then again I don't really believe in personality disorders either…
I can relate, I only ever got the "serious depression" thingie but depression isn't a real mental illness so yeah. Probably because I was never completely honest with my psychiatrists, I always answered what they wanted to hear so I could go my way as soon as possible. I am kind of certain I have something like bipolar disorder or narcissistic disorder with anxiety, aversion and anger issues mixed in, but then again I don't really believe in personality disorders either…
>>254033
>AvPD
being shy isnt a "disorder"
i hate the psychology field calling everything that is normal a disorder or a problem. you just have a personality and opinions. psychology is normalfag fascism.
>AvPD
being shy isnt a "disorder"
i hate the psychology field calling everything that is normal a disorder or a problem. you just have a personality and opinions. psychology is normalfag fascism.
>>254049
If you knew anything about the disorder, you would know that this question has been addressed many times in the literature. Shyness is not the same as a social anxiety disorder and that in turn is not the same as Avoidant Personality Disorder. It's about severity and the impact on one's life.
Someone that is shy can still relate and socialize normally, albeit with some discomfort. It's considered a normal personality trait. Social anxiety and AvPD are both marked by severe dysfunction in daily life, at which point they would require treatment of some kind. With AvPD, the dysfunction is so great and so deeply rooted that no one really knows how to tackle it in an effective way.
If you knew anything about the disorder, you would know that this question has been addressed many times in the literature. Shyness is not the same as a social anxiety disorder and that in turn is not the same as Avoidant Personality Disorder. It's about severity and the impact on one's life.
Someone that is shy can still relate and socialize normally, albeit with some discomfort. It's considered a normal personality trait. Social anxiety and AvPD are both marked by severe dysfunction in daily life, at which point they would require treatment of some kind. With AvPD, the dysfunction is so great and so deeply rooted that no one really knows how to tackle it in an effective way.
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>>249139
Schizophrenia. I refuse to take antipsychotics because they are a chemical lobotomy, I have my own ways of dealing with it.
Schizophrenia. I refuse to take antipsychotics because they are a chemical lobotomy, I have my own ways of dealing with it.
>>256028
My issues are way worse at night for some reason, and it all gets much worse the less sleep I have, so I keep a very strict sleep schedule. I also don't drink because that makes it worse too. I also keep my life in a strict routine in general. Of course these things don't make it go away, but it's usually manageable.
My issues are way worse at night for some reason, and it all gets much worse the less sleep I have, so I keep a very strict sleep schedule. I also don't drink because that makes it worse too. I also keep my life in a strict routine in general. Of course these things don't make it go away, but it's usually manageable.
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>>256034
Sleep deprivation is the most common factor making mental illness, depression, erectile dysfunction, anxiety and a million other things worse.
The best thing you can do for your health is sleeping as much as your body requires (very hard if you're a wageslave though)
Sleep deprivation is the most common factor making mental illness, depression, erectile dysfunction, anxiety and a million other things worse.
The best thing you can do for your health is sleeping as much as your body requires (very hard if you're a wageslave though)
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>>256036
The big laughing irony of it is that the noise in my head keeps me up, which makes it louder, and it's a self perpetuating cycle when it gets worse until I finally pop
The big laughing irony of it is that the noise in my head keeps me up, which makes it louder, and it's a self perpetuating cycle when it gets worse until I finally pop
>>256034
I also keep a pretty strict schedule even though I'm NEET. I try to do everything around the same time every single day, I do take meds though but I got off the antipsychotics and only take a mood stabilizer which is mostly effective
I also keep a pretty strict schedule even though I'm NEET. I try to do everything around the same time every single day, I do take meds though but I got off the antipsychotics and only take a mood stabilizer which is mostly effective
cptsd/major depression/anxiety/autism spectrum with learning disability
will never takes meds, i would take xanax but i live in the ghetto so i never get prescribed it and gave up on shrinks.
had one therapist but a female and she was lazy and just listened to me. i would only go to therapists because SSI would require me to which i am signing up for
will never takes meds, i would take xanax but i live in the ghetto so i never get prescribed it and gave up on shrinks.
had one therapist but a female and she was lazy and just listened to me. i would only go to therapists because SSI would require me to which i am signing up for
>>256068
It's because sociopaths tend to have higher than average manipulation skill and consequently social skill.
It's because sociopaths tend to have higher than average manipulation skill and consequently social skill.
>>256061
>>256062
I do not socialize with people besides you guys and the guys on Feels. I am polite and courteous to cashiers, waitresses, etc. but I can't relate with norms, and feel nothing for them.
>>256068
The media has presented a very skewed version of it to the masses, yes. I used to be very "in the streets" but gave that life up. Sociopath just means I need to isolate from the world because I can't stop myself from using people. I have a lot of hate built up from the way normgroids treated me in my youth
>>256062
I do not socialize with people besides you guys and the guys on Feels. I am polite and courteous to cashiers, waitresses, etc. but I can't relate with norms, and feel nothing for them.
>>256068
The media has presented a very skewed version of it to the masses, yes. I used to be very "in the streets" but gave that life up. Sociopath just means I need to isolate from the world because I can't stop myself from using people. I have a lot of hate built up from the way normgroids treated me in my youth
Fwiw, I try to be myself with you guys because I have lived most of my life very isolated and relate a lot with you all. But IRL is a different story
>>256071
Again, you think that sociopath = Hannibal Lecter or something along those lines, which is true in a way, some sociopaths are like that surely…however the picture overall isn't so black and white. You can get labeled as a psychopath or sociopath simply because you don't feel anything for normalfags.
>>256072
I hate how some people think sociopath = charming, 10/10 male model material with excellent social skills because this is only a tiny minority. The vast majority of sociopaths are average criminals or people who don't live according to the norms of society.
Again, you think that sociopath = Hannibal Lecter or something along those lines, which is true in a way, some sociopaths are like that surely…however the picture overall isn't so black and white. You can get labeled as a psychopath or sociopath simply because you don't feel anything for normalfags.
>>256072
I hate how some people think sociopath = charming, 10/10 male model material with excellent social skills because this is only a tiny minority. The vast majority of sociopaths are average criminals or people who don't live according to the norms of society.
>>256072
>I can't relate with norms, and feel nothing for them.
normalfags dont care about anyone who is slightly an outcast let alone a wizzie. you are not a psychopath. if you were diagnosed with aspd you simply made some collage student who doesnt care about you slap a label onto you saying that you dont care about people. unless you are a cutthroat buisnessman/drug dealer and actually ruthless to people around you arent close to a sociopath
>I can't relate with norms, and feel nothing for them.
normalfags dont care about anyone who is slightly an outcast let alone a wizzie. you are not a psychopath. if you were diagnosed with aspd you simply made some collage student who doesnt care about you slap a label onto you saying that you dont care about people. unless you are a cutthroat buisnessman/drug dealer and actually ruthless to people around you arent close to a sociopath
>>256074
I hate that too. It's all the bullshit on TV and movies that gives them this impression. I was pretty bad at crime and chose to give it up but I would rather die than conform to this broken decreipt world and it's pornified mass culture. Zionist dogs… zionist dogs everywhere.
>>256075
I have an official medical diagnosis for it but keep navel-gazing
I hate that too. It's all the bullshit on TV and movies that gives them this impression. I was pretty bad at crime and chose to give it up but I would rather die than conform to this broken decreipt world and it's pornified mass culture. Zionist dogs… zionist dogs everywhere.
>>256075
I have an official medical diagnosis for it but keep navel-gazing
>>249139
The pandemic brought me back to a level of nonfunctionality that I never thought I would experience again after getting out of it in my early 20s and being in remission with a good job and everything for years. I haven’t gone outside since it started. The idea of rejoining society or seeking out employment is unbearable now. Not sure what I’ll do when I run out of money.
In the past I’ve been diagnosed with everything under the sun, but the long-term core is avoidant personality disorder/extreme social phobia and depressive tendencies.
I went off all medications last year, but now I take racetams most days and mushrooms a few times a month. I tried to use one of those telehealth places to get my SSRI and adderall back, but I couldn’t get myself to do the call. I haven’t spoken out loud to another person since I straight-up bailed on a job without notice (normally unlike me) around a year ago. I don’t know when or if I’ll be able to again.
The pandemic brought me back to a level of nonfunctionality that I never thought I would experience again after getting out of it in my early 20s and being in remission with a good job and everything for years. I haven’t gone outside since it started. The idea of rejoining society or seeking out employment is unbearable now. Not sure what I’ll do when I run out of money.
In the past I’ve been diagnosed with everything under the sun, but the long-term core is avoidant personality disorder/extreme social phobia and depressive tendencies.
I went off all medications last year, but now I take racetams most days and mushrooms a few times a month. I tried to use one of those telehealth places to get my SSRI and adderall back, but I couldn’t get myself to do the call. I haven’t spoken out loud to another person since I straight-up bailed on a job without notice (normally unlike me) around a year ago. I don’t know when or if I’ll be able to again.
>>256072
You sound cool wiz. Sorry for being rude because of you have a sociopathic trait.
Just don't fuel your anger against us. p-p-please.
You sound cool wiz. Sorry for being rude because of you have a sociopathic trait.
Just don't fuel your anger against us. p-p-please.
>>256079
Thank you. It's fine I guess I can understand how my diagnoses could be seen in a normalfaggish light or how being good at socializing is a norman trait. But it's about what you do with this ability and I choose to seclude myself away from the world. I would never be rude to you guys, you have been very dear friends to me in my darkest hours and now in the good times I'm currently experiencing. Hope you have a nice day wiz
Thank you. It's fine I guess I can understand how my diagnoses could be seen in a normalfaggish light or how being good at socializing is a norman trait. But it's about what you do with this ability and I choose to seclude myself away from the world. I would never be rude to you guys, you have been very dear friends to me in my darkest hours and now in the good times I'm currently experiencing. Hope you have a nice day wiz