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 No.278964[Last 50 Posts]

Suicide general, - Discuss everything suicide related here.

                                             

 No.278966

cant decide between pentobarbitol or shotgun

 No.279002

>>278964
There's a drug that's even more potent than carfentanil

 No.279004

>>279002
Your farts?

 No.279010

how come people don't talk about exit bags more? it seems like the best suicide method. cheap, painless, and its certain to kill.

 No.279018

>>279010
I believe they started introducing controls on stuff like helium in the west, both manufacturing and supply. So the bottles will have small amounts of oxygen in now and they will only deliver pure helium etc to business addresses.
I don’t know the details but I believe that’s why it’s no longer discussed as much, and people have enough doubt in it because setting up the valves etc can be daunting in terms of failure. Sodium nitrite guy who got arrested was selling exit bag kits.

 No.279020

why are you memeing around with drugs and not just burn shit for the CO?

 No.279021

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like this.
my plan is to put this in my bedroom, put some coals on, wait a few hours until the concentration is high enough, and then lay down to have a good sleep.
i hope it works.

 No.279022

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i'm quite concerned about this, however.
>faulty perception, wrought by media and internet users, of a relatively painless death
why would it not be painless?
anyway that's why i'm planing to wait a few hours to up the concentration.

 No.279023

>>279021
Tape doors, windows, vents. If you live along, find your carbon monoxide detector and throw it in the refrigerator.

 No.279024

>>279022
Argument is that even though it's a silent gas, you may experience the negative effects like dizziness, nausea, headaches, or distress before you lose consciousness. Can't speak to if its mild or serious, some might describe it as pain. The argument for the inert gases is you don't really get any conscious unpleasantness at all.

 No.279025

>>279024
Silent gas is often the deadliest. Just ask my dakimakura!!!

 No.279028

>>279021
>>279022

It's not painless because there is smoke, the heat and the waiting to die part.

Very uncomfortable.

 No.279059

>>279028
If he barbecues in the bathroom, he could sit in a cool tub of water. And if he puts some meat and that grill, the smoke ill smell nice. If he's not dying quick enough, he can drop a toaster in the tub.

 No.279061

>>279059
You know how you can smell someone cooking on a grill down the street?

Now imagine all that smoke and heat was confined in a small area.

It's literally like hell. As you're sweating your ass off from the heat, it smells like shit and it's hard to breath, it feels like you're literally burning alive.

Now that is the opposite of painless.

 No.279062

>>279061
>You know how you can smell someone cooking on a grill down the street?

yeah, and it smells great. Unless you're some hippy vegan.

 No.279063

is living it up, then die, the most rational choice for me?
Either the most Rational choice or an outright Categorical Imperative. I have accepted I cant get married, have children, and everything and anything needed to reach that, maintain that, etc. Long story short; no virgin bride of legal age exists anymore, having children freely (as birth control is unethical) would require me to be a multi-millionarie, I wont be able to raise the kids in a way that the succubi use below the knee skirts and boys never fap, etc… Id need to go live in a commune compound or something.
So, is it rational for me to want to withdraw all my savings +risk my life to get money quickly at some job like Oil Labor, etc. then live it up, having crazy (chaste) fun, and finally dying?
im being cold, rational, not trolling; I can give more info, if you folks need.
I call this "desperation finance".

 No.279065

>>279064
im a semen-retainer celibate Rationalist.
I dont opt for death out of spite, but out of logic and the coldest of calculations

 No.279066

So, did he died or what?

Today in the morning i was struck with the fact that i spend last 10 years mostly inside my apartment being neet, im basically going insane and my body is slowly rotting. And I think IT IS TIME. It is also ~10 years since my last failed sucide attempt by hanging .Im bitched out last time using a scarf, the noose were not tight enough so i managed to escape at the end of the day(it was pretty hard actually), i bet it looked really pathetic and hillarious , but there was noone to watch, so i decided to do it LATER because im a pathetic faggot, and i fed this LATER to myself for a TEN FUCKING YEARS(its two times smaller then Phill spend in the can, but still). And today it struck me that ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT JUST FUCKING DO IT ALREADY. So i actually thinking hanging soon(THIS TIME FOR REAL). Any good advices? I dont have bullshit excuses like caring about parents(who actually feed me and shiet), fuck them i hate them probably more then i hate myself, the only thing that hold me hear is the fear of pain(because im a pathetic faggot), and a hanging is basically a poor man's death, so i bet its the only option.

t.esl human garbage

Ill repost my paste from previous thread.
Basically is there some hanging qrd guides, so ill make it all right when the time comes? The thing which ill do it is not high enough for snapping the neck technique, so its all about slowly choking.

 No.279069

Third-world beggars getting impatient. Fucking lol.

 No.279070

>>279067
He obviously won't, Anon. People who are committed to dying go for lethal methods, with that amount of money you can easily get a shotgun on the black market. 1 fraction of a second of committment to pull the trigger is all it takes. Getting "comfy" before dying is just fooling around.

 No.279073

>>279067
Be patient. We will get our loot

 No.279074

>>279070
Do you not see the OP image? That chinhair's weight of fentanyl is enough to kill. Police must now search for contraban with gloves on because too many were dying just from touching too much of the stuff in negroe's pockets. Furthermore, the "black market" is a global honeypot operation. There are a lot of ways to get unlicensed, deserialized firearms of any calibre. Buying them from an Onion link isn't one of those ways.

>Getting "comfy" before dying is just fooling around.

No. Every man owes it to himself to make his death as calming and peacful as possible. Life may have been painful; death doesn't have to be. Even in perishment must self-respect be disciplined.

 No.279179

where's my money bitch

 No.279180

>>279179
Up your butt and around the corner.

 No.279182

>>279179
Be patient, we'll get our money.

 No.279184

>>279180
didn't ask where your cock was!
wait…

 No.279215

if you work with trains you become desensitized to the topic of suicide in many ways, some you wouldn't expect
usually people talk about suicide with pity, "he did what? that so sad. never kill yourself!"
but with trains, whenever someone on heroes, the passengers are pissed, the crew is pissed, everyone is pissed
some passengers who look like they are losers in life and have affinity with suicide themselves, talk openly about their conclusion that suicide inside their own 4 walls is better because then not as many people are bothered by it

it is one thing to open wizchan and read about pro suicide stuff, but in real life it hits somewhat different, because the boundary between internet and real life is crossed
your brain computes it differently and suddenly suicide is a real viable thing that exists and is possible, without all judgement about it, without the imagined caring person who says "NOOO DONT KILL YOURSELF THATS BAD ITS THE WORST THING EVER"

 No.279223

I'm desperate for life, but I cannot keep on living. My entire world has become so twisted. The more I struggle, the more twisted it becomes.

There is only one way out.

 No.279224

>>279180
Lol I haven't heard that saying in years.

 No.279236

Every now and then when I have suicidal ideation, my brain somehow manages to replicate the realistic primal terror that would come with feeling your body shut down. It is so bad that I can almost give myself tachycardia at will, which is funny because that means my body has indeed been shutting down for the last year. My biggest respect to those that actually go through with it, regardless of method.

 No.279302

>>279224
me neither it was from the early 2000's era though

 No.279303

>>279236
you get use to it

 No.279315

Wishing you well on your journey to the other side.

 No.279316

>>279314
I would be terrified to order that much F. That's the kind of shit that sends you to jail for life.

 No.279319

>>279315
>>279316
Waiting for my benzos to arrive (I think I got scammed).

Once I get my benzos, going to livestream, then I'm outa here. I'm really looking forward to it because this shitty demiurgic life is becoming unbearable.

 No.279321

>>279314
That is enough to kill a UN-backed nigeraguan tribe.

 No.279322

why the fuck do we have the same suicidal general when nobody kills themselves and just larp about doing it. Pathetic.

 No.279323

>>279322
Back to /b/, goblin

 No.279325

>>279323
why should I visit your home?

 No.279326

>>279322
If they killed themselves they wouldn't post about it, would they smart guy?

 No.279327

>>279322
>Discussing desires
LARP
>Posting reasoning for decision
LARP
>Announcing date and plan
LARP
>Uploading proof of method
LARP
>Wishing goodbye
LARP
>Suddenly never posts again
TOLD YOU HE WAS JUST A COPING LARPER FROM SHITCHAN

You outsiders who believe nothing might as well just skip out on your internet bill.

 No.279330

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>>279327
shit man you gotta calm down
oh no my suicide thread isnt going to plan
a suicide thread on the edge of society
on an imageboard
people not sticking to their words
people come and go man
you got to chill
why isnt my suicide thread on time man
why isnt it like a japanese bullet train its 10am wheres my refund
you gotta accept things change
people only come through here now and then
you expecting too much
smoke the weed
chill
water come water go
rain dribble rain flow
so what if a dude is an annoying kid
shit what did you expect
thats what you get on the outskirts of society
shit man my homeless crack head aint sticking to the words
he said yesterday about his plans
he didnt promise me shit
but why aint he sticking to what he said
this is the landscape
this is the land
stop getting worked up
and smoke some ganja man

 No.279332

>>279319
I may pop some kpins later this week, enjoy yours

>>279322
As they say
>if you want something done the right way, you gotta do it yourself
Show us the way :)

 No.279334

I've made every excuse possible. My family, it's a cowardly move, hell, just too lazy, etc. Idk why I hang on

 No.279338

>>279334
What method are you going to use?

Sometimes the fear of pain is the biggest put off.

 No.279340

>doxxed
>reputation permanently ruined
>absolute depression sets in

It's over lads. It's completely over.

 No.279341

>>279340
Since you said doxxing and not cancelling, really how bad can it be? What is the worse that can happen? Oh no, someone send pizza to your home

 No.279345

>>279340
It's been a year since your first thread hasn't it. Has anything even hapepned in that year? It seems like your worries should be disproved by time.

 No.279346

>>279341
>>279345

Doesn't matter. It's still there and it will permanently be there for someone to find.

It has permanently damaged my mental psyche. I live in absolute fear of being "found" out by employers, family, etc.

 No.279348

>>279346
have you tried changing your name?

 No.279370

Question for anyone reading:

How do I escape from an evil city if I don't have any job/family/support that would allow me to move? I need to find a better place to live, but have no idea how I can do this. I've lived in many different places through college/work/life experiences generally, but all of this is in the past, and I feel like I ended up stuck in the worst possible situation somehow. I despise waking up every day; there is nothing.

 No.279372

>>279370
Get job
Get money
Save
Move
Find new job

 No.279373

>>279372
>Move to new city full of optimism and excitement about your new golden life
>no job responses
>run out of savings
>move back in with parents, older now and with nothing to show for it
Fuck off.

 No.279374

>>279373
>No job responses
I never understood this attitude
It's so fucking easy to find a job

 No.279375

>>279374
I got my first job through nepotism. I was applying for 10 years before that and never had more than a handful of interviews. My CV was good and I have decent english skills. I guess it depends on where you live, but if I get sacked or ragequit my current shitty job of one year, I fully expect to never get another for the rest of my life.

 No.279376

>>279375
You probably aim for some specific job because of college
I spend 2 weeks tops applying to any gig I can find, then get hired

 No.279384


 No.279385

>>279338
Originally thought drowning, now I said "fuck it" I think I'll just use a 12 gauge or my 762 (only guns easily accessible except a 22)

 No.279388

>>279384
Which is something you will never eat, because you're a vegan. I will never eat it either but only because I'm truwiz.

 No.279405

>>279385
Yeh I will be drowning myself big car battery in a backpack tie the backpack to myself get super drunk and jump in the river……

 No.279427

is it true that can*da is legalizing MAID for tourists? or is that a fake news?
or nordcuck countries like scandinavia are also legalizing "free for all" suicide pods?

 No.279432

>>278964
How do i go through registration on sanctioned suicide without having my request rejected for "not providing enough info" for why i want to join? Am i supposed to write an essay for them or what? Just wanted to ask one stupid question about nitrite

 No.279437

How do i test my sodium nitrite for purity? Nitrite test kits show weird results: water turns yellow instead of becoming pink or staying transparent. What are the risks of ingesting 20g of potentially oxidized/expired nitrite?

 No.279463

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>>279385
Lucky, I've always been jealous of you guys with access to guns for years and years now. If I could get a gun capable of blowing my brains out I would have been dead years ago.

>Pic rel, it's from a nightwalk I had years ago.

 No.279467

Just let me fucking die

 No.279470

Told myself many years ago that I'd only kill myself the most extravagant way possible. Something that would be very expensive and take a tremendous amount of discipline to achieve and would make me feel proud by the time I was finished but that by the time I was close to being finished there would be no turning back. So I'd be like, "well, I made it this far. Now let's see if this thing really works. All I gotta' do now is press this big red button…"

 No.279473

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>>279470
See you on callisto wizzy

 No.279474

>>279370
Hitchike and make it out to a better area and go to a church/shelter and see if they can help

 No.279491

>>279470
jump in a volcano then. you have to travel far away. walk into the danger zone. climb a mountain and then witness a sight no living person has seen before you die

 No.279493

>>279491
Death by natural disaster, huh? Lava = hot

If I wanted a natural disaster to kill me; I'd try something closer to home. Volcanoes? No. Tornadoes? Yes. Much easier to rent a car and keep driving east from here during tornado season until I find like an EF5 tornado then drive right into it to see how much I'll get to see before dying.

 No.279499

>>279493
the trailer life in the midwest sounds cheap and comfy

 No.279519

Soooo, enjoying those benzos, friend?

 No.279522

My life was pure bliss before being doxxed.

I wanted to live forever, now I want to die.

 No.279523

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 No.279531

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Got my benzos.

Should I do the livestream this weekend?

 No.279532

>>279531
where's my money??

 No.279533

>>279532
You aren't getting any, roach

 No.279537

>>279533
>You aren't getting any
That's a given for a wizard

 No.279548

>>279531
>kpin
Ah, classic. Good choice, slow and prolonged effect.

>should I

When you're ready

>>279532
Stop being a falseflagging nigger rude cunt, there are wizzies that actually need that money including the admin.

 No.279553

what does a heroin OD feel like? do you just go to sleep and die without feeling anything?

 No.279554

>>279531
God i love benzos

 No.279566

I'll be doing the livestream this weekend, just for you little goblins.

I think it's time.

 No.279576

>>279566
are you gonna wear the red shirt

 No.279578

>>279566
There's still the question of if the jannies are even going to let you link it

 No.279580

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>>279566
Are you sure about this???????????????

 No.279581

someone reported this thread on r9k to the fbi
they might close wizchan

 No.279590

>>279581
I reported this post for goblin incitement.

 No.279591

>>279581
It's not the FBI's job to keep people from killing themselves.

 No.279596

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>>279581
Ahem, what the fuck were you doing over there? Fuck off and kill yourself

>>279590
Uhhhhh can you stop?

>>279591
One day the retarded nigger cattle will understand why suicide hotlines exist
hint: it's not to help you

Also I'm sure the FBI would be interested regardless, it is well known glowniggers like to groom mentally unwell individuals into mass shooters.

 No.279597


>>279566
nobody cares lmao. killing yoyrself wont change the fact that you suck balls

 No.279599

>>279597
>>279596
Back to 4chan, goblin

 No.279601

>>279522
doxxing is never done for a positive reason

 No.279605

I don't know what 4chan is sorry.

 No.279609

>>279522
nobody will give a shit sooner than you can imagine.

Even the most embarrassing lolcows become a forgotten memory after a few years of not feeding.

 No.279610

>>279531
See you on the other side wizzy.

 No.279669

>doxxed
>career ruined
>reputation permanently ruined
>no family
>no friends
>kissless affectionless virgin
>master of delay gratification
>sacrificed everything for no reward
>my enemies won
>no happy ending

It's over

 No.279671

>>279669
time for an epic revenge scheme fren. if people think the worst of you live up to those expectations

 No.279675

>>279669
how is your post related to the topic of suicide, you worthless failed normalnigger? fuck off already

 No.279844

>>279553
no you will feel pretty bad and sick for some time before passing out and hopefully not waking up. It shouldn't hurt at all, and you die due to your lungs being so relaxed that they stop working; so basically painless. It will max be a few minutes before you pass out.

 No.279881

>>279675
cause he’s gonna kill himself you fucking retard

 No.280047

>>279844
bs. opium is the biggest pain killer there is. it is without a doubt the painless option.
be careful what some people say around here about suicide. remember their are perverts and weirdos that want to take advantage of you or watch it

 No.280049

>>279553
yes if you take enough. I have researched by reading many reports from people that overdosed and survived.

 No.280050

>>280049
care to link to what you read

 No.280077

I want to kill myself too much. I want this to end too badly, I can even beg. I wish my family were dead so I could just do it in peace, but I cannot do it because I don't them to go through this. those old pathetic frail beings would go crazy, they still love me like I am the meaning of their life. I wish I could just die in a car accident or from a heart attack.

I always knew life was bad, over time I realize it was terrible, now I am sure it's the worst thing that could've happen in all existence and I was unlucky enough to be selected to go through it. how I wish I wasn't born.

 No.280215

>>280047
I just said it wasn't instant and while you don't feel pain comfort is not guaranteed.

 No.280229

I will soon, I'm not quite afraid of it. Being alive tends to be quite more "scary". The issue is finding the means when they're not easily available. When you make peace with the entire thing comes a feeling of bliss that at any given time you can find a way to end it all without a care.
I will do it within the next five years, since I've slowly regained some peace with life but have found that even in good mental condition and without any particular need life is still not worth sticking around for.
The strangest part is, even when you're doing perfectly well, there is clarity that existing is far too much of a hassle if one has reflected on it for a little while. Even if one had it all, nothingness seems like the reasonable alternative.

 No.280307

what do posters here think of suicide via train decapitation?
there's two spots in my city that i am aware of where trains circulate frequently, they are completely deserted during nighttime, i believe that if i were to dress myself up in all black, cover myself with brush in the direction from which the train is heading, i would practically be invisible if i were to lay down with my neck on one of the train tracks

https://alivegore.com/suicide/1270-decapitation-during-train-suicide.html
here is an example in which the circumstances are much more unfavorable, but the result is still successful

 No.280308

>>280307
that is my only choice. i'll do it even if it might fail.

 No.280330

>>280307
Just how much more successful will a gunshot at an isolated place (enough time for nobody to notice for at least 48 hours) or jumping from a skyscraper could be? I only have access to the latter.

 No.280348

>>279370
join the zog mercenaries ( military).
get a job on a boat or offshore oil platform.
teach esl overseas.
just travel to some place with good weather and live in the forest. the ultimate fuck you to a society that hates you.
i know depressed people don't like solutions. but these are the best ones so work overcome the hurdles and obstacles and try one

 No.280385

i needa do it because im NEVER going to get to wher i want in life. i'm too lazy to even get a college degree because im too negative. seriously need to do it asap im sick of being me.

 No.280395

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>>280348
I would really-really like to get a job in the oil industry and\or trucker..ideally a big-oil truck driver
Do I start doing crossfit+powerlifting to prepare?
I can bribe some grunts for them to recommend me for an oil-plant "ground job"
I could pay for truck and machinery-operator courses within 3-5 years

 No.280418

I hope we all find peace

 No.280437

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 No.280479

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wonder why this thread died completely, did the fentanyl poster make it lose all legitimacy? or maybe everyone else but me managed to kill themselves already

 No.280481

What should water temperature in the bath be when you're trying to die by cutting yourself?

 No.280482

>>280481
comfortable and warm. add some bubbles and rose pettles to maximise your feminine energy and make for the best tiktoks

 No.280484

>>280482
>comfortable and warm
So, like between 110 and 90F? Is hotter the better?

 No.280486

>>280482
he wants to kill himself, not find joy and have a good time lol

 No.280488

>>280487
>>280482
You know that most people using this method don't really want to die and are just using it as a suicide gesture, right? Hence the low percent of deaths. If somebody really wants to die by cutting himself and not show someone that he needs help, then it's as good a method as any.

 No.280502

>>280488
cutting is an ineffective method even if you legitimately wanted to die, commonly the individuals who choose this method aren't truly interested in dying since if they were they would have chosen a different, more efficient method from the beginning

 No.280517

>>280502
Interestingly, this probably is the most ineffective one and takes the most balls to do, depending on the vein. People that have gone this route are at a different level of mental or physical pain processing while I hesitate about choosing an available method.

 No.280522

Dead, formerly alive

 No.280678

I tried partially hanging myself a while ago and it gave way and came undone right as I was about to pass out. What the fuck do I do? I've lost all the balls I had before and I still feel fucking miserable. And like a coward at that. In that moment right before I was going to go to black, I felt so much relief. So much freedom. So much peace and release. And then it was stripped away and I'm back in this miserable shitpile. Fuck I'm upset guys

 No.280680

Need suicide method that is easy and reliable. No access to guns. Jumping seems like a gamble especially since no really tall shit nearby. Hanging sucks because I'd just be caught.

 No.280696

how do you overcome the fear?

 No.280697

>>280696
show no fear
for the setting sun
there's nowhere to run

 No.280698

>>280502
cutting your arthery on the neck seems like an effective method.

 No.281104

anybody here who started prep for a carbon monoxide exit but aborted?
i have some questions

 No.281107

I probably killed myself by accident back in like October 5th of 2018 by consuming like 2,800 to 3,000 mg of caffeine in the form of tablets.

 No.281265

hi guys

 No.281272

>>281107
It's very painful, btw

 No.281273

Perhaps I should hire a hitman or provoke a serial killer into killing me or something.

 No.281336

>>280307
That is very very risky. Many trains have shields to prevent cattle etc from being run over by the wheels. And even if not, the impact will knock you into unpredictable positions, you can easily just lose your legs or be paralysed but not dead. But also put in a mental hospital and fined and possibly criminally charged.

>>280698
No it isn't. The target to cut is like an inch deep in your neck. Try cutting an inch into your leg. Unless you are something like a zen monk or in a severe state of mental disturbance (you are not if you are considering this rather than just doing it) your body will not allow you to do this and you will likely damage nerves when attempting. And then get put in a mental hospital.

Stick to the tried and true methods that serious people use: CO poisoning, inert gas (not helium anymore but there are several others easily accessable) in an exit bag, or heroin (from darkweb) overdose. But those are methods that take considered preparation and research and will 100% kill you, they are not cries for help or emotional release.

No need to ask questions here about the three methods above, comprehensive information on these methods is everywhere online. If you are confused and struggling to figure out how to do them after a day or two of online research then you neither want nor need to die and just want emotional release.

 No.281378

I need advice. Im planning to commit suicide in 1000 days. Within half of that + what I have now I will have enough to buy a house; however i wont (NOT because i will die, but because I reject housing as a thing in itself. why SHOULD I reside in a building? I dont Consent to being housed).
Considering my short life expectancy, my money options, and the fact I wont have s*x or masturbate: what can I do, for life to be awesome and to leave a worthwhile legacy?
what are some books\movies, about situations like this?

 No.281380

>>281378
I can assure you that you will not kill yourself in a 1000 days. Suicidal people either do it right away if it gets insanely bad or they never do it. It takes a lot of emotional pain to get you over the edge and any kind of "planning" is just pleasant daydreaming of an exit.

 No.281532

>>281380
can confirm, been suicidal since i was 9

 No.281534

>>281336
good post

 No.281566

So, did Cardano wiz delivered?

 No.281568

>>281566
Yeah, already spent mine.

 No.281569

>>281566
No livestream and Admin-kun still does it
>for free
So no, anon never delivers

 No.281581

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I feel soul-crushed because I realised that my " if youre gonna die just go on an adventure" mentality was WRONG. its BULLSHIT.
I dont have the eggs, or the mental aptitude, or the resources, money, etc, to travel the earth or become a wilderness hermit or what have you.
I decided I will "confine myself" to my City - a super-urban city, 0 rural- and carry out my Bucket Lust, over there wherein therein

 No.281935

I will kill myself every day until I die.

 No.282011

File: 1693551844301.jpg (344.29 KB, 1600x1200, 4:3, letsgo.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

lets fucking goooo

 No.282199

Any good SN sources now that kenneth law got shoah'd? or should I just ask SS?

 No.282225

Hey wizzies I don't wanna live anymore only problem is I'm not sure about how to kill myself. I have 80 dollars in my bank account and live in a shit hole country, so any ideas about methods? Don't have a gun nor a car by the way

 No.282226

>>281581
You don't need money or aptitude to go outside and walk somewhere and never turn back. Who cares if you starve to death if you are suicidal.

 No.282235

Any longterm suicidal wizards who have delayed suicide for years and years, just to watch everything get much much worse?

Its crazy to think I was suicidally depressed in 2007, when that seems like a utopia on both the personal and world levels compared to where we are now.

its like im just waiting to see how bad shit can get, just to prove my suicide is objectively correct.

 No.282239

>>282235
Yep. I remember being horribly depressed throughout part of my elementary, and all of my middle and high school years (1997 to 2006) and trying to tell adults about it and getting responses such as, "what do you have to be depressed about? You're just a kid. You don't have to pay the bills or anything," and, "cry moar, emo kid. You're just going through a phase." So, I figured… well, maybe they're right. Maybe it is just a phase.

Roughly 20 years later… at the age of 34; this "phase" never ended. In fact, I eventually developed psychotic symptoms due to my depression and anxiety.

So what am I waiting for? Er, well, nothing, really. Because, see, I'm experiencing both hallucinations and delusions and among the delusions; Cotard's delusion is included. From my perspective; I'm already dead. Attempting suicide will only drag me deeper into Hell.

 No.282240

>>282239
hey you're the exact same age as me. at our age, we have decades of seeing "It gets better" is a lie, and things just keep getting apocalyptically worse from the starting point we were already suicidally depressed from. I was ready to kill myself in 2007, and here I'm in 2023 a world beyond my worst nightmares of 2007.

 No.282285

Any quick, easy and (relatively) painless methods to just end it? I live on the 15th floor of a building, but I'm too much of a coward to jump and I don't really have any place to hang myself inside my apartment. I take deanxit antidepressants (0.5mg flupentixol and 10mg melitracen) and have around a hundred pills rn, but I have no idea if the drug is strong enough. I could possibly try to bullshit my way into buying propranolol without prescription from the pharmacy (eastern euro third world country), but I've heard mixed results about that method and being overweight my heart rate is normally pretty high, so idk how high of a dose I would need to take. I also live alone so the risk of getting caught and rushed into the hospital is pretty minimal.

 No.282287

>>282285
I would advise you not to kys.

>I take deanxit antidepressants (0.5mg flupentixol and 10mg melitracen) and have around a hundred pills

Catecholaminergic crisis is the worst way to die. Since this is serotonin, you'll suffer from hyperthermia, tachycardia, the worst diarrheas of your life (nothing can come close to it), convulsion, shaking, inability to eat anything, etc.
You'll suffer from most of these symptoms while being conscious.
It's likely to last for days before you die due to this bundle of serotonin toxicity manifestations, since your body will try to get rid of excess catecholamines.

By then, I am 100% sure you will not withstand it and will call ER to help you out.

I tried to kys with adrenaline/dopamine overdose instead of serotonin. A very bad bad decision.
I had to call ER, and by then I realized I don't really want to kms.

 No.282382

I'm regretting not having bought magnum 00 buckshot for greater power, just normal 00 buckshot. Maybe I'm just being paranoid about it, as I imagine using either type would result in destroying my brain faster than it would register the gunshot sound or the pain or sensation of my head splitting apart, and either way my death would effectively be just as quick and painless.

 No.282385

I think i'd like to "attack" a police station to do suicide. Being mag dumped will probably kill you and it wil be up to someone else, you won't overthink and hesitate. The only problem is not hurting others but convincing them to shoot you dead rather than just restraining you.

 No.282409

Does anyone have a link to the story of this Japanese hikki who lived in a really small house with his family and killed himself? It was basically a website detailing his life, how his brother's also killed themselves, how he flunked school, what games he liked. I found it very interesting but I lose it.

 No.282419


 No.282421

>>282419
Thanks my wizza.

 No.282422

>>282419
Is there a translation?

 No.282609

So what is the meta gun for suicides?

 No.282610

>>282609
12g buckshot.
Everywhere, affordable, high stopping power of shot, high gas output at muzzle, and double barrel models are available for extra security. Leaves little left of your head, creates an absolute mess, wakes up the neighbors… Everything one would want from a final breath.

Stevens 311-D for a "School shooter" aesthetic
Kel-Tec KSG-12 for the punished /r9k/ ending
Benelli M4 for a post-cold war PTSD veteren
Remington 870 for an old timer's early bedtime
Mossberg Shockwave for an abrupt end to a short life

 No.282611

>>282610
> double barrel models are available for extra security

damn i never even thought about that, 2x your odds

 No.282613

>>282610
If price is no object, just going for absolute certainty and overkill, as little left of the head as possible, would it make sense to go below 12 gauge?

What is the best overkill shotgun?

 No.282623

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>>282613
>What is the best overkill shotgun?
There are many larger shells than 12g, but once you get to a lower guage you don't see any SXSs or over-unders that can fire both shots at once. Two high velocity 12g (especially if you find a SXS with a 3" chamber) will be more powerful together than a single elephant gun shot. However, if you want to have some fun with a 12g shotgun, you can pop 2 .50 BMG rounds in to any old milled steel SXS. The velocity at the muzzle after 18 inches of barrel would give the bullets enough foot-pounds of energy to detonate an ANAL composition such as Tannerite.

Set up your Side-by-Side 50 cal in a vise, loaded and cocked with a string to pull the trigger. Sit 6 feet from the muzzle. Put a dog's medical cone around your neck and a snorkel in your mouth and fill the cone with the explosive target. Best case scenario, your head is ripped outward in to billions of fragments by the implosion surrounding it, your blood vaporizing instantly. Your body slams down to the floor at the speed of sound. Worst case, the bullets pass through and splatter your head out by themselves. For a few hundred dollars you could buy a bathtub's worth of non-Tannerite branded ANAL and have a real blast.

Or just make pic related

 No.282644

>>282611
They just shoot one barrel at a time though so not really useful unless you somehow are still conscious after the first shot and able to do another one.

 No.282655

>>282644
Each barrel on most SXS or OU have independent triggers that can be pulled synchronously. Not much dexterity is needed to get the second hammer rolling before the first one has yet to strike.

 No.282696

What sucks about waiting so long, (since 2007) for suicide- is on the one hand it makes you look like a coward, attention-seeking, procrastinator, liar, blackmailer who isn't serious.

But when you are finally serious about doing it, no one gives you any credit that this is a calm rational suicide. That you've waited almost 20 years to see if life will get better. That you've had enough time to collect the evidence, to see if life proves you wrong. You're still treated like some depressed teen doing it on a whim, that needs to be stopped.

If you wait long enough for suicide, and still want to do it, to me that proves you're objectively right.

 No.282697

>>282696
Completely know what you mean by being calm and rational
It's 24 years myself and everything is ready for tomorrow I'm currently in bed for what should be the last time
Slightly apprehensive but a very serene calm

 No.282706

Does anyone have a reference of the correct angle for shooting the brainstem through the mouth?

 No.282712

>>282706
I've never looked into it as it's not an option in my country. However I assume you go under the neck and aim at your crown, to take out the central core of your brain.
You don't want to aim straight up as you risk just taking out your face and frontal cortex, leaving you very much alive.

 No.282782

is charcoal method a good way to go?

 No.282789

do you think its possible to shoot 2 pistols in your brain at once, or would the micro-sec difference have the 1st bullet knock u out 1st?

 No.282790

>>282789
If one of them is hammer-fired, you could 'dead man's trigger' it. Chamber a round in the hammered weapon and get your other gun ready to fire. Hold the hammer back fully with your thumb while tightening a ziptie around the trigger and handle to fully depress it. With the trigger squeezed like this, releasing the hammer from your grip would drop it and fire the weapon once. Upon shooting yourself with your primary, the shock and reflex has a good chance of coiling your thumb off the hammer, causing the secondary gun to fire.

Sig P series, 1911 actions, pretty much any Single/Dual-action revolver, and especially the Winchester Model 1897 12g will fire reliable with this method. Some rifles with a reciprocating bolt handle could work if you find the sweet spot to not engage the hammer reset (Runaway bolt), which is easy to do on Soviet rifles and derivatives.

 No.282792

bros im getting closer and closer, i can feel it

>>282789
that's my plan, i think it's an okay way, just make sure the concentration is high enough when you go in

 No.282918

with a full auto gun would it be possible to get multiple bullets into your brain?

 No.282919

>>282792
well its just that they usually say u should aim the pistol upward in your mouth. but i dont think u can fit 2 in there. so ull probably have to shoot from the sides. so not as good a location, but double the rounds. but it makes it more important that both do go off. for the certainty.

 No.282952

Well I failed although not by much …
I was found miles down river from where I jumped in bright blue and mostly dead
Now I'm being held in an asylum

 No.282963

>>282952
This is exactly my worst fear… Failing and getting caught and getting put into an asylum. My uncle attempted suicide once and got put in it. It was highly unpleasant for him.

 No.282966

>>282952
They let you post on wizchan in the asylum?

 No.282967

>>282966
Not him, but yeah it seems many people post from mental health facilities online. I saw a video of a blogger succubus filming herself ordering and eating pizza with her suicide watch nurses, she then did kill herself later.

 No.282968

>>282966
Somehow my phone survived hours in the water and days festering in amongst my wet belongings were allowed our phones just can't charge them have to hand them in

I think this is a good place it's for adults and I look to be the youngest here

 No.283046

Found a supplier of SN that ships within Europe on SS and got my shit.
I will not share the source because too many faggot journalists, anti choice activists, or law enforcement agencies will shut it down like they did to kenneth law

 No.283047

>>282952
did you jump from a height?

 No.283058

>>283047
Yeh got drunk under the bridge then jumped off it I don't remember anything if I would have died I wouldn't have known

 No.283059

>>283058
How many feet?

 No.283060

>>283059
Fairly far the hight marker says around 40'

 No.283138

>>283046
Congratulations, anon. I hope everything goes well for you.

It's impossible to get SN in the states now. I should've bought it off of Amazon when I had the chance.

 No.283162

Has anyone ever talked to their parents about ending it?
I've been a "failure to launch", so to speak. Still living with my parents. I've not enjoyed a single moment for a number of years now and the prospect of 50 more years or so of this is unsufferable. They must know I have no friends, no relationships, they are the only reason I have not done it yet, the thought of them finding my corpse stops me. But maybe if I opened up to them and they understood it is for the best I could get through with it?

 No.283167

If I shoot me in the head I will die instantly or I will feel pain?

My dad said that will take me to a shooting club.

 No.283169

How does one kill themselves without their suicide ever being discovered? I like the idea of it looking like I just completely vanished

 No.283194

>>283169
One plan I had was to take a blow up canoe out to sea at night with some weights attached to me then puncture the canoe and sink

 No.283195

>>283162
Very bad idea. The chance that they respond well it's vanishingly small. More likely you start off a horrific chain of events where you could be interrogated for the rest of your life and pushed to make "changes" etc. Telling normals about suicidal ideation is very risky and a powerful move that only should be played if necessary to avoid work or attempt to improve already-unbearable familial relations

 No.283203

https://www.theguardian.com/australia-news/2023/sep/25/queensland-to-examine-voluntary-assisted-dying-rules-after-man-uses-wifes-euthanasia-drugs
wife dies, use her government suicide kit
the government gets mad,says never again
well big daddy
well my man
im making friends with cancer niggas
im ordering their suicide kits
cutting their lawn
taking out the trash
time passes by
then we chilling in the hospital
and when they see the light
im huffing their gas
a ticket for two
to the other side
gramps and me
the man cant do anything
and we going to meet
another big man
in the sky

 No.283482

>>283138
the seller I bought it from was some ukrainian chad who is still shipping out packets of SN across the world amidst rocket barrages kek

 No.283662

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Are there any countries where one could do a "speed run"?
Basically: Do drugs or have fun time with money, get a deadly illness or whatever, rack up massive debts and be homeless…BUT, MAID is legal so you literally pay to escape the Demiurge Planet.
a speedrun in all its meaning and glory. where can this be done? a nordcuck country? c*nada?

 No.283758

>>283482
That ukrainian is doing gods work

 No.283759

>>283758
Graceless destruction of human life is the realm of Satan.

 No.283769


 No.283772

>>280479
im still here. still failed to kms

 No.283773

>>283194
thatd be scary as fuck no way i could do that. my worst fear

 No.283803

I plan on using my belt to hang myself from my gaming chair. It has holes at the headrest where you can clip around the headpillow and that's where I'll tie the other end of the belt. I've set a preferred date to 27th November to 4th December but nothing's definitive until it's done. My biggest reservation is knowing what a commotion my suicide will cause. Indeed I'll be dead so it won't matter, and maybe one day it won't matter to me, but I've always despised attention and it makes me bristled knowing how it'll go down. I'm closer to heroing that I've ever been, I know that.

 No.283886

I just got out on dinner with some old acquaintances after so long, I can't remember when was the last time I left home saturday night. It played out quite nice I guess, I got kinda depressed a little over watching normie couples and friends smiling and sharing with each other, and all the 'having a good social life' stuff plus my friends conversating about their jobs and sexual experiences while I have none but still.

 No.283887

>>283886
I was supposed to post this on the other thread i'm such a useless fuck holy shit

 No.283894

Would you trust a .45lc from a cylinder converted cap and ball revolver reproduction to do the job?

 No.283900

>>283894
No, it's a blunt "stopping power" black powder round with a low velocity even out of a long barrel. Older revolver designs let a lot of that gas escape outwards from the cylinder too so we'd lose a lot of the high muzzle pressure needed to pop the skull from inside out.

 No.283966

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I dont want to sound angsty or edgy but I genuinely consider taking the path of Evil now. not evil for evil's sake since evil doesnt even exist- but pursuing my own selfish interests above all else, making egoist decisions only.
I wouldnt even try to harm others since actively using time and effort to harm anyone is using resources , to influence the life of someone whos life I absolutely dont care about.
I had one single wish for my own life and it will never be true. i want to try being selfish and egoistical before I CTB. I do feel very attracted to Gnostic AntiNatalism and dread the very ideas of family, s*x and marriage.

 No.284124

>>278966
Shotgun is a no brainer if you have access to one (pun intended ) in my opinion, that’s what I plan to use if I ever get the guts to go through with it. As long as you use buckshot or slugs and don’t fuck it up and shoot your self in the chin, you’re pretty much guaranteed an instant painless exit. Only downside is you leave a big mess, but that issue can be mitigated.

 No.284266

I've worked up the nerve. I'm going to buy a firearm. I feel so calm it's a bit surprising. But there's the chance I won't go through with it and end up like all those other guys who bought a gun only to keep it in their bedside drawer for years. On some level I don't know why I'm writing this down, the musings of a failed surplus male are not relevant nor are they interesting. I keep thinking about telling the one or two people I speak to online, but then I realize I know almost nothing about them and we only talk once a week. I just can't believe I'm going to go through with it.

 No.284270

>>284266
don't tell them because you'll just depress them (if they care about you). Just tell them you're quitting the internet or something like that, or just ghost them. What gun are you buying? I'm not American but I wonder why you guys don't use that gunpowder (or some other chemical mix) to build a bomb and blow your head off with it. Instakill, and no worrying about shaky aim, hesitation or w/e. Just don't blow up other people with it. If you live in an apartment try going to some forest where you can blow yourself up in peace.

 No.284273

>>284270
Yeah good point, that would be a downer for them. I just felt it would give them some sense of closure to know exactly what happened to me.
>What gun are you buying?
A 9mm handgun. As for building a makeshift bomb, I guess most people who are thinking of killing themselves probably don't know how to make one reliably or are sticking with a (mostly) simple solution.

 No.284276

Owning a gun, being proficient with it, and keeping it at the ready is a blessing for someone seeking security.

 No.284291

Unfortunately it is not possible to stop existing. Intentionally shedding the physical body will leave you in exactly the same mental state you left it in, with a karmic penalty for early shedding (similar in weight to murder). This is suboptimal for an immortal being. Just sayin'

 No.284324

>>284291
Reminds me of that rant in Devil's Advocate about God being a "tight ass" who sets men up in situations where they are doomed to fail.

 No.284326

>>284324
It doesn't even have to be a god. The universe is just hostile to life in general and everything is too hard.

Over 99% of species to ever live have gone extinct. Not just dinosaurs but millions of other animals.

 No.284399

>>283138
same, i dun goofed. shoulda bought it 5+ years ago when i was looking into it originally

 No.284458

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>it's irrelevant wether a God exists in the (material plane world, as he would be evil if he did
>eternal\timeless oblivion after death would be cozy and nice, but there's not birth and thus no death
>you're here forever
>all levels of suffering and pleasure are pre-determined , and free will barely exists
this is how I feel and thus suicide is a moot point, pointless, and even logically impossible to accomplish. what do I even do?

 No.284459

>>284458
Pascal's wager. If you're wrong you get what you want, if you're right you just get more of the same. No losing bets here. By your own logic, it's the only thing worthy trying it out.

 No.284473

Im still obsessing about earning (money) without working. I daydream ,almost M.A.D.D. about it. I think how to fraud gibs, ask for relative's loans, take risks -etc
and at the same time want to limit my types, manner, degrees and amounts of spending as well as my area of movement (geographical) and time of movement (time remaining alive)

 No.284602

Has anyone heard of DNP (2,4 dinitrophenol) being used as a drug for suicide? It seems like it’s quite effective as a drug for this purpose and once you commit there is no turning back. I just haven’t seen anything about it being used this way since it seems somewhat easy to get online.

 No.284631

>>279531
a Hindi trying to suicide ? Thats rare

 No.284632

>>284631
Not likely an Indian. A significant amount of drugs acquired without a prescription come from Indian pharmaceutical companies. Much of the nootropics I order, despite the same brands being produced locally here, are doubled up with Indian or Arabic labeling.
>Thats rare
There's a billion men living in poverty over there, slipping in shit and having to eat the rats before the rats eat them. I've seen enough train "accident" videos that lead me to believe it's actually suicide capitol of the world.

 No.284761

>>283759
worship your dead kike on a stick and leave the rest of us alone. living isn't an obligation

 No.284789

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I'm scared man. Death is scary as shit. But when you're 70 or 80 years old, death is still fucking awful. It's not like in the movies where grandpa gently flatlines with a smile on his face. No, there's thrashing and rapid heart-beats and bulging eyes and screaming. The fact is, most people will die horrific deaths whether it's in a hospital bed or in a barn with a shotgun. By not committing suicide, you are spinning a wheel that almost guarantees a painful death. Deciding how you will die is the only way you can lessen it.

Still… it's scary as fuck. Why is this so scary??? I'm a NEET, I have almost no friends, not close with family, things are rapidly going downhill, so what do I have to live for? Living isn't so bad… it's being me that's awful. I got fucked over genetically, most of us did. There is this deep sensation inside that being alive is a good thing, and yet nature decided to fuck us in particular. It's not fair man

 No.284851

Where/how can you aquire a water gun if there's (unfortunately) no McDonald's where you live?

 No.284852

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 No.285080

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With this growth rate, in 30 years the entire population of Canada will have killed themselves.

 No.285082

>>285080
the government is going to use MAID to kill dissidents. Canada is a nightmare country

 No.285084

>>285082
Sounds like a cool place to me

 No.285532

Any luck finding SN in the US or anyone that ships to the US?
If not, is there anything or a closer chemical to SN?

 No.285555

>>285532
US is full of heroin and fentanyl, it's incredibly easy to get it there

 No.285767

I feel so bad today that I just want to choke myself with my bare hands. I absolutely cannot stand living in this world anymore. I should've killed myself a long time ago, but I'm still lingering here like an idiot. Time has passed and things are still the same. I'm older, I can't hope for the future anymore. There's no future for me.

 No.285795

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>>285767
relatable

 No.285809

>>285767
Thing is, if you stand still you will not vanish from sight. Instead of lingering and hoping for a future, how about you move and do something in this present? Pick a flower. Date it. Dry it. Start a herbarium. Maybe you are into rocks? You understand the purpose of this, yes?
When dark thoughts come, just stare into a lighter's flame for 10 seconds. You still there, no?

 No.285810

i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train.

i am in agony due to endless diseases every day, have debts, cant make money, and once my drugs out the withdrawal is gonna kill me.

there is no other method i can see being able to do since i cant kill myself at home, live too low and there are no tall buildings anywhere, and even if there were how would i make it to a skyscraper window. i was thinking about cyanide but now i cant even afford it

i need to jump in front of a train.

 No.285813

>>285810
What diseases do you have?

 No.285816

>>285813
too many to count. i ran out of money to diagnose and treat anything. and the things i found are not the reason for my current symptoms.
i have heart arrythmias, sleepiness, breathing problems, general weakness, dizziness, muscle weakness, gastrological symptoms, feeling of dying and other unbearable feelings.
i can only theorize that i have severe electrolical imbalance that breaks my body down caused by unknown gastrological illness. thats just my best guess.

 No.285818

>>285810
Don't do it that way, if you don't die on impact it's agony.

 No.285820

>>285818
i plan to lie my head only on the tracks, seems much more certain. i cant plan for better things, since physically im broken barely can move around and i cant think cause of sickness.

 No.285827

>>285820
See you space cowboy.

 No.285860

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>>285820
Trains have these steel plates fitted ahead of their front wheels to knock away rocks and shit. They're (ironically) called "life guards" because they extend service life of the wheel.
When people lay on the track they are caught by the lifeguard and dragged along until they catch on something, then stretched out and split open. There's videos of it happening and it's pretty horrific.

 No.285881

>>285860
>There's videos of it happening and it's pretty horrific.
I've never seen it and I used to be an avid gore watcher, care to post one example?

I think few things will triumph the russian lathe accident for me, I've had nightmares about it.

 No.285892

>>285881
> care to post one example?
just 4chan /gif/
yes, I know, but I mean, that's the number one source for that kind of material. sometimes there are train rekt thread specifically

 No.285906

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 No.285997

>>284602
> DNP (2,4 dinitrophenol) being used as a drug for suicide
Bump

 No.286033

I plan on killing myself either tomorrow night or sometime within the week. I will be using clomipramine and olanzapine, however I'm not sure exactly on how to swallow such a large number of pills quickly and also worried I might vomit.

 No.286035

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Do any other wizzies think about the after life and what maybe waiting? I don't know if I want there to be something or not.

 No.286128

>>286035
There is nothing after this life

 No.286130

>>286128
There is not much before afterlife either, so not a big deal.

 No.286132

Whether there is or isn't anything beyond this life is useless to discuss with any serious effort. We will only ever experience the end to this life once, and when we do, we'll find out for sure what comes after, if anything. Until then, the best thing we can do is make up nice fantasies and scary legends about what awaits, and use the promise of this sweet afterlife to direct people to do good things for themselves and eachother. The scary legends can be used to make small children eat their vegetables and to not stomp on frogs.

 No.286172

>>286035
Real life, once I do my time on this prison planet.

 No.286291

>>286035
afterlife may or may not exists and both are equally terrifying

 No.286297

>>286035
I know what you mean. I often daydream about possible afterlife scenarios, but if there really is an afterlife of some kind I seriously doubt it will be as pleasant as any of my fantasies. Bearing that in mind, I'm not sure I would like an afterlife at all. Besides, all things considered, non-existence sounds comfy, like a massive weight being lifted.

 No.286321

>>286035
One of the reasons why I haven't roped myself yet. It might be even worse in so many ways. I've had these insanely vivid and horrifying dreams, abstract nightmares that seemed like they lasted forever. It might be like that after death, which gives me even more existential dread.

 No.286332

Planning on hanging myself. I've been suicidally depressed since february this year but it's abated as I've been able to distract myself with a hobby.
Originally I was trying to buy SN but obviously that's no longer an option.

I'm going to go down with a bit of rope to the riverside by a historical trail near the Severn and tie it to a tree. I just have to decide when.

How do you decide when's the right moment to kill yourself?

 No.286333

>>286332
When the chart of your life is on a downward trend, and will continue to be so for the rest of your life, more pain than joy. probably wait to go down hill a tad more so you're sure.

 No.286334

>>286333
That's pretty much inline with my thoughts. If it were as easy as falling asleep late at night in the comfort of your room and never waking up I'd do it straight away.

I think the sooner the better. I'll order the rope now.

 No.286335

Rope bought, arriving in two days. 10m, 8mm thick.

I think I might have a drink to celebrate. I won't live to see Christmas. This is the end.

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>>286335
Congrats, wizzie. It takes a strong mind to know when one's time is up. If only more on this site would follow your lead.

 No.286361

>>286335
See you Space Cowboy.

 No.286363

>>286335
Whatever you decide to do I hope you find the peace you deserve and need.

 No.286369

>>286335
Please take care to prepare, so that you don't wind up even deeper in despair. A botched suicide attempt isn't something that can be walked off. If your life wasn't comfortable, at least ymake sure your death is.

 No.286377

>>286335
Please don't forget to hint us where to search for the news article. Some wizs (me) would like to pay respect.

 No.286406

>>286348
This website really does foster a sick cult mentality toward the promotion of suicide. Wizzes, you must know that there are impostors here who are preying on your sadness and despair.

 No.286410

>>286406
I cant think of anything more morally pure than guiding people into the sweet, peaceful release of death

 No.286424

>>286406
Bud, half of these people are probably from kiwifarms looking for the next lolcow.

I'm ending my life because it's my choice.

 No.286428

What type of rope should I buy?

What material?

 No.286453

so whats the consensus on trains? beheading. on one hand, people say its almost instantenous and highly lethal, on another hand, there are cowcatchers and people say it will just kick you off the rail with brain damage. which one is it? i don't want to think about suicide anymore, since i did it for last 10 years.
Alterantive would be jumping, but there is nowhere to jump from, and it is impossible to access high-rise buildings in the city, u would need to create an elaborate plan to pretend to be some kind of worker then break in and jump from someone else's balcony.
I don't trust myself to do hanging, i am a mental and physical fuckup that would never do it right.
All methods that are done at home are off-limits, i dont have a home, im always surrounded by subhuman trash.

 No.286454

>>286453
> which one is it?
Both. You must consult the local trains to find out which hand you've been dealt in terms of train safety.

 No.286504

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Rope's here

 No.286505

>>286504
Are you crypto rich by any chance?

 No.286507

>>286504
The wagemaxxed mailcel from Amazon Kindle, the 4'4" horseface of my apocalypse, delivering death through rain, sleet, or snow (Prime members only). No returns on open products, only a return to nothingness. Leave a review and enjoy the view of the void, 5 stars if you see stars. Helping to support local businesses (Morgue) and green business practices with zero-emission cremations.

You may hate your life enough to leave it, but please treat yourself well on the way out. Make it comfortable and take care to minimize any pains that come with asphixiation. Say goodbye to any stuffed toys you nay have.

 No.286508

>>286504
I'm pretty sure all the guides say that kind of rope might cause issues. I can't say to you more than that comment. Either way sorry it came to this Wiz, I can only offer you my best wishes for your contentment through the internet.

 No.286522

>>286504
don't do it.

seek Christ, the only one who cares for you.

 No.286529

>>286522
his crusade will stop marching and the riddle of steel will be unanswered. does he not realize it's not his job to think about his death? if God wills, He'll bring him to that right place and time and take him. The only thing he can do is to fight this uneven battle and escape death.

>>286504
did you know there are millions of knot types? why not make this moment a bad joke like yeah I bought a rope to off myself but know I can make this sick butterfly loop?

 No.286536

My parents want to move to the capital city which is the most horrible decision I can imagine. I work+study but I live with them forever because fuck landlords.
The fact I'll be drafted into the Capital makes me extremely desperate, I don't know what to possibly do to escape

 No.286537

>>286504
good luck

 No.286538

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This is it.

Here is my note, written whilst drunk

https://files.catbox.moe/xnrqvw.txt

To my family, you can find my body down by the river where I used to walk the dog.

To those of you I knew, and did not know, I leave you with this:

https://youtu.be/agMfil25l0A?si=wLI4yFe19WPKwJld

Goodbye.

 No.286539

>>286538
Bye wizzie

 No.286540

>>286538
If you don't do it in the end, you can always come back. There's not shame in it.
I am going to read your note, read some and it I find it refreshing. People who just experience the unpleasantness of working and life, and it not getting better. Relatable.
Whatever happens wiz, best wishes.

 No.286542

>>286538
may the river Styx take your wizardly soul to a peaceful place

 No.286581

>>286538
Be at peace.

 No.286584

How to suicide w/o gun or hanging or jumping? Would buying 5 grams of heroin and putting it in one needle work? Jealous of all these normalfags oding

 No.286585

>>286584
Heroin is a great method. You could even just snort it if you dont want to deal with needle.

 No.286586

>>286584
>Jealous of all these normalfags oding
Why? Why complicate things out of jealousy for a bunch of drug addicts?
Drugs are unpredictable. Overdosing scores incredibly high on the list of reliable methods to become a braindead vegetable living a life of pain without the physical capability of claiming your own life another way. If it's some superficial bullshit like aesthetics you're after then even for that reason drugs are bad because of how dirty and trashy they are.

 No.286587

>>286586
>Overdosing scores incredibly high on the list of reliable methods to become a braindead vegetable l
Those statistics are dominated by retarded normalfags doing spontaneous suicide attempts, or dramatic "attempts" where they dont even really want to die. It has no relation to a wizard making a plan and taking care to do it properly with negligible risk of being caught in the act

 No.286588

>>286587
>dominated by retarded normalfags doing spontaneous suicide attempts
blah blah blah yeah yeah, normalfags = bad and dumb and attention hungries who can't into suicide. Their suicide attempts are fake and gay and when they fail it's entirely because they're brainlettes, not because ODing is actually a stupid and unpredictable suicide method. Unlike smart high-IQ Wizardman who used his crystal ball to learn the ancient secret method of planar shifting using street drugs. Idiot.

Explain why you're suggesting something so risky? Painless guaranteed methods exist, and if Wizzie is adverse to them, instead of suggesting dangerous and faulty methods he should have his attitude corrected. A smack on the head, make him pick his hat up from the dirt. Have you personally killed yourself with heroin before? Even the risks associated with buying it make it something that an already depressed wizard should avoid. Heroin is reputably a drug that's very diluted and tainted too, so I guess Wizzie better buy a purity testing lab.

You can try to convince Wizards not to kill themselves, or you can wish them well on their journeys to the great beyond. But don't go encouraging them to not just do it, but to do it with such a dirty and risky method. That makes you sound like someone who gets joy from seeing wizards phoneposting from the ER bed with the hand they lost function to in a drug-induced stroke handcuffed to the railing. Next stop: mental hospital, followed by a lengthy stay in whatever prison they send drug buyers to. if life sucked before, it's going to suck a whole lot more now.

 No.286589

>>286538
Farewell, friend.

 No.286590

>>286588
Stop bitching and making pathetic accusations; please argue with facts and evidence.
The peaceful pill handbook - the most reliable source we have as a professionally researched guide - even says heroin is ideal. They specifically stated that they only recommend other things like nembutal because it is intended for old people that are biased against street drugs.
It is literally named after the goddess of dreams, as pointed out by the peaceful pill handbook.
There are hundreds of reports online if you look deeply enough demonstrating that ODing is very peaceful. As we know, people are dying from opiates in large numbers.
If you do multiple times the deadly dose in a place where nobody is likely to find you, then death is essentially certain.

Your statistics probably arent even opiate-specific. I bet you are literally talking about teenagers and middle aged succubi taking random overdoses of pharmacy pills + alcohol. Otherwise provide your sources stating that intentional heroin overdoses often lead to vegetation.

It is absolutely trivial in most countries to buy heroin. Most of the anglosphere you can just use the darknet. Of course it really depends on the country.

>Painless guaranteed methods exist

nobody knows what the fuck youre talking about. Are you a stupid american that thinks everyone has access to a shotgun?

Your hostility and poor content is disgraceful.

 No.286591

>>286590
>The peaceful pill handbook
Oh gee, a meme book about drugs as a suicide method says that this drug is the least dangerous? You ask for sources, but does this book provide any for its own claims?

>nobody knows what the fuck youre talking about.

I wrote clearly and concisely.
>Are you a stupid american that thinks everyone has access to a shotgun?
Weird accusation, but it did the deed of proving that you're of a more angry, impressionable ethnic stock. Your investment in to drug culture and those who overdose is also indicative of your cultural background. I'm going to go out on a limb and say that you listen to rap music. I am very good at these types of judgements so I know I'm right and anything you say will just prove me right.

Gravity. Noose. Gun. All painless, more reliable, and more accesible. The guy said he didn't want to do any of those. You recommended him a dangerous dirty street drug based on your own assumptions and what you read in a PDF that itself is built on assumptions. I recommended he smarten up and reevaluate his options in the hopes that he'll reconsider one of the more reliable, less painful methods in the case that he's serious about suicide.

Train, 18-wheeler, power line, exit bag, and yes, even some of the more reliably deadly drugs.

 No.286592

>>286591
>dangerous dirty street drug
Young Wiz.
That's not how drugs work. Please don't talk about shit you don't understand.

 No.286612

>>286538
I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS FUCKING SITE THAT YOU ARE BEING ENCOURAGED TO DIE. MY FRIEND, PLEASE, TAKE JUST A MOMENT TO CALM DOWN. I MEAN THAT. MUST I CONTINUE WRITING IN CAPS?? I JUST CHECKED ALL THE REPLIES TO YOUR POST AND READ THE ENTIRETY OF YOUR NOTE AND TRULY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT ALL AGREE WITH YOU IN YOUR DECISION TO END IT. THIS BOARD IS FULLY INFILTRATED BY NON-WIZZIES WHO WANT TO SEE US DEAD. HOLY FUCK. I'M GOING TO STOP WRITING IN CAPS NOW. Friend, with all seriousness, you sound somewhat young (not of true wizardly age), and I can remember myself at that age – hugely emotional, suicidal, in complete opposition to those around me and the world generally. This however is a quirk of that age and if you allow yourself to fail (which is fine) and you allow yourself to have respect for yourself despite your failures, and you allow yourself the patience to grow (which will come of itself with time), and you allow yourself just a simple day's rest wherein you do not pressure yourself mentally in a thousand different ways, YOU WILL BE OKAY. I was raped as a child (actually raped, in addition to being circumcised (which is another form of rape)), and brutally bullied by schoolchildren at a much more vulnerable age, and burdened with a destroyed nervous system in addition to a mind burdened by sadness, and I many many times thought of suicide, even once attempting, but I survived and am glad that I survived.

ALSO, ARE YOU LITERALLY RETARDED? The "come-down" from being drunk or from being sedated with opiates is so fucking depressing that many people in that very moment contemplate suicide. You are truly naive to make such a decision as suicide when your mind is influenced by alcohol. You have a great brain judging from your writing, but you are stupidly poisoning it with alcohol, which has entirely corrupted your judgement.

 No.286614

I have a pullup bar in my house could I rope myself on that? Or do my feet need to be off the ground, aka would need to be higher?

 No.286616

>>286614
Your feet won't be on the round. Just do a pullup, see where your head ends up, then keep doing pullups until you can't do anymore. Take a short break and then go back for more. Get some protein and other vital amino acids in. The next day is leg day so get squatting. After a couple weeks of this you won't have suicidal ideation anymore.

 No.286649

>>286538
Bye wiz. Maybe we'll see each other in the wizard heaven.

 No.286650

>>286538
Rough wizzie. Hope you find peace, whatever you do

 No.286669

can i overdose on seroquel and booze?

 No.286696

Is a Walkther PPK, Kal 7,65 enough to finish the job or im gonna end up a like some fucked up veggie state

 No.286725

Any new sources of getting SN in the US?

 No.286726

>>286725
I got a source in Slovakia

 No.286732

>>286696
not enough i suggest a 50 cal or larger<

 No.286829

>>286291
the afterlife DEFINETLY doesn't exist. and if something does happen, you won't be in your current state so youi will haev no clue what is happening. Once your brain dies your existence is over as far as you will know.

 No.286830

>>285767
join the freaking club, theres millions that feel the same way. theres nothing anyone can do about it unless you off yourself.

 No.286831

>>286035
There is no afterlife, once the brain dies you are gone. maybe part of your atoms will live on but YOU won't,. Its over thankfully.

 No.286832

>>286332
There is no right moment for anything lol. everything is entirely chaotic and pointless nothing truly matters. just do it if you can,i can't i dont have the ballz

 No.286834

>>286406
Has nothing to do with other people, I'm just sick of my terrible horrible life when everyone else has it bettter than me. People suicide for various reasons.

 No.286835

>>286834
If everyone else had a life as terrible as yours, wold you feel any better?

 No.286839

>>286835
yes and im striving to do my part

 No.286840

>>286839
So then it has everything to do with other people, if your happiness is tied to how they feel.

 No.286841

>>286696
It is written in the legends of the desets lands that Saint Adolf used it to end his life. His death is just a fairytale they tell to their kids, but the PPK in .32 is very lethal. It's a service arm after all, designed to kill.

 No.287371

>>286538
ok that part about the KPIs and the store requiring an app was actually quite funny

 No.287589

>>286612
Thanks man. It's me, the guy who wrote that note. I'm alive.

Thank you guys. I don't know why I'm still here. I haven't really been the same since those few days. I'm not doing any better, I've started completely neglecting myself, and I'm angry.

But I'm alive. I don't know why.

 No.289518

fuck fentanyl


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