>>279010 I believe they started introducing controls on stuff like helium in the west, both manufacturing and supply. So the bottles will have small amounts of oxygen in now and they will only deliver pure helium etc to business addresses. I don’t know the details but I believe that’s why it’s no longer discussed as much, and people have enough doubt in it because setting up the valves etc can be daunting in terms of failure. Sodium nitrite guy who got arrested was selling exit bag kits.
like this. my plan is to put this in my bedroom, put some coals on, wait a few hours until the concentration is high enough, and then lay down to have a good sleep. i hope it works.
i'm quite concerned about this, however. >faulty perception, wrought by media and internet users, of a relatively painless death why would it not be painless? anyway that's why i'm planing to wait a few hours to up the concentration.
>>279022 Argument is that even though it's a silent gas, you may experience the negative effects like dizziness, nausea, headaches, or distress before you lose consciousness. Can't speak to if its mild or serious, some might describe it as pain. The argument for the inert gases is you don't really get any conscious unpleasantness at all.
>>279028 If he barbecues in the bathroom, he could sit in a cool tub of water. And if he puts some meat and that grill, the smoke ill smell nice. If he's not dying quick enough, he can drop a toaster in the tub.
>>279059 You know how you can smell someone cooking on a grill down the street?
Now imagine all that smoke and heat was confined in a small area.
It's literally like hell. As you're sweating your ass off from the heat, it smells like shit and it's hard to breath, it feels like you're literally burning alive.
is living it up, then die, the most rational choice for me? Either the most Rational choice or an outright Categorical Imperative. I have accepted I cant get married, have children, and everything and anything needed to reach that, maintain that, etc. Long story short; no virgin bride of legal age exists anymore, having children freely (as birth control is unethical) would require me to be a multi-millionarie, I wont be able to raise the kids in a way that the succubi use below the knee skirts and boys never fap, etc… Id need to go live in a commune compound or something. So, is it rational for me to want to withdraw all my savings +risk my life to get money quickly at some job like Oil Labor, etc. then live it up, having crazy (chaste) fun, and finally dying? im being cold, rational, not trolling; I can give more info, if you folks need. I call this "desperation finance".
Today in the morning i was struck with the fact that i spend last 10 years mostly inside my apartment being neet, im basically going insane and my body is slowly rotting. And I think IT IS TIME. It is also ~10 years since my last failed sucide attempt by hanging .Im bitched out last time using a scarf, the noose were not tight enough so i managed to escape at the end of the day(it was pretty hard actually), i bet it looked really pathetic and hillarious , but there was noone to watch, so i decided to do it LATER because im a pathetic faggot, and i fed this LATER to myself for a TEN FUCKING YEARS(its two times smaller then Phill spend in the can, but still). And today it struck me that ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT JUST FUCKING DO IT ALREADY. So i actually thinking hanging soon(THIS TIME FOR REAL). Any good advices? I dont have bullshit excuses like caring about parents(who actually feed me and shiet), fuck them i hate them probably more then i hate myself, the only thing that hold me hear is the fear of pain(because im a pathetic faggot), and a hanging is basically a poor man's death, so i bet its the only option.
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Ill repost my paste from previous thread. Basically is there some hanging qrd guides, so ill make it all right when the time comes? The thing which ill do it is not high enough for snapping the neck technique, so its all about slowly choking.
>>279067 He obviously won't, Anon. People who are committed to dying go for lethal methods, with that amount of money you can easily get a shotgun on the black market. 1 fraction of a second of committment to pull the trigger is all it takes. Getting "comfy" before dying is just fooling around.
>>279070 Do you not see the OP image? That chinhair's weight of fentanyl is enough to kill. Police must now search for contraban with gloves on because too many were dying just from touching too much of the stuff in negroe's pockets. Furthermore, the "black market" is a global honeypot operation. There are a lot of ways to get unlicensed, deserialized firearms of any calibre. Buying them from an Onion link isn't one of those ways. >Getting "comfy" before dying is just fooling around. No. Every man owes it to himself to make his death as calming and peacful as possible. Life may have been painful; death doesn't have to be. Even in perishment must self-respect be disciplined.
if you work with trains you become desensitized to the topic of suicide in many ways, some you wouldn't expect usually people talk about suicide with pity, "he did what? that so sad. never kill yourself!" but with trains, whenever someone on heroes, the passengers are pissed, the crew is pissed, everyone is pissed some passengers who look like they are losers in life and have affinity with suicide themselves, talk openly about their conclusion that suicide inside their own 4 walls is better because then not as many people are bothered by it
it is one thing to open wizchan and read about pro suicide stuff, but in real life it hits somewhat different, because the boundary between internet and real life is crossed your brain computes it differently and suddenly suicide is a real viable thing that exists and is possible, without all judgement about it, without the imagined caring person who says "NOOO DONT KILL YOURSELF THATS BAD ITS THE WORST THING EVER"
Every now and then when I have suicidal ideation, my brain somehow manages to replicate the realistic primal terror that would come with feeling your body shut down. It is so bad that I can almost give myself tachycardia at will, which is funny because that means my body has indeed been shutting down for the last year. My biggest respect to those that actually go through with it, regardless of method.
>>279315 >>279316 Waiting for my benzos to arrive (I think I got scammed).
Once I get my benzos, going to livestream, then I'm outa here. I'm really looking forward to it because this shitty demiurgic life is becoming unbearable.
>>279322 >Discussing desires LARP >Posting reasoning for decision LARP >Announcing date and plan LARP >Uploading proof of method LARP >Wishing goodbye LARP >Suddenly never posts again TOLD YOU HE WAS JUST A COPING LARPER FROM SHITCHAN
You outsiders who believe nothing might as well just skip out on your internet bill.
>>279327 shit man you gotta calm down oh no my suicide thread isnt going to plan a suicide thread on the edge of society on an imageboard people not sticking to their words people come and go man you got to chill why isnt my suicide thread on time man why isnt it like a japanese bullet train its 10am wheres my refund you gotta accept things change people only come through here now and then you expecting too much smoke the weed chill water come water go rain dribble rain flow so what if a dude is an annoying kid shit what did you expect thats what you get on the outskirts of society shit man my homeless crack head aint sticking to the words he said yesterday about his plans he didnt promise me shit but why aint he sticking to what he said this is the landscape this is the land stop getting worked up and smoke some ganja man
>>279340 Since you said doxxing and not cancelling, really how bad can it be? What is the worse that can happen? Oh no, someone send pizza to your home
>>279340 It's been a year since your first thread hasn't it. Has anything even hapepned in that year? It seems like your worries should be disproved by time.
How do I escape from an evil city if I don't have any job/family/support that would allow me to move? I need to find a better place to live, but have no idea how I can do this. I've lived in many different places through college/work/life experiences generally, but all of this is in the past, and I feel like I ended up stuck in the worst possible situation somehow. I despise waking up every day; there is nothing.
>>279372 >Move to new city full of optimism and excitement about your new golden life >no job responses >run out of savings >move back in with parents, older now and with nothing to show for it Fuck off.
>>279374 I got my first job through nepotism. I was applying for 10 years before that and never had more than a handful of interviews. My CV was good and I have decent english skills. I guess it depends on where you live, but if I get sacked or ragequit my current shitty job of one year, I fully expect to never get another for the rest of my life.
is it true that can*da is legalizing MAID for tourists? or is that a fake news? or nordcuck countries like scandinavia are also legalizing "free for all" suicide pods?
>>278964 How do i go through registration on sanctioned suicide without having my request rejected for "not providing enough info" for why i want to join? Am i supposed to write an essay for them or what? Just wanted to ask one stupid question about nitrite
How do i test my sodium nitrite for purity? Nitrite test kits show weird results: water turns yellow instead of becoming pink or staying transparent. What are the risks of ingesting 20g of potentially oxidized/expired nitrite?
>>279385 Lucky, I've always been jealous of you guys with access to guns for years and years now. If I could get a gun capable of blowing my brains out I would have been dead years ago. >Pic rel, it's from a nightwalk I had years ago.
Told myself many years ago that I'd only kill myself the most extravagant way possible. Something that would be very expensive and take a tremendous amount of discipline to achieve and would make me feel proud by the time I was finished but that by the time I was close to being finished there would be no turning back. So I'd be like, "well, I made it this far. Now let's see if this thing really works. All I gotta' do now is press this big red button…"
>>279470 jump in a volcano then. you have to travel far away. walk into the danger zone. climb a mountain and then witness a sight no living person has seen before you die
>>279491 Death by natural disaster, huh? Lava = hot
If I wanted a natural disaster to kill me; I'd try something closer to home. Volcanoes? No. Tornadoes? Yes. Much easier to rent a car and keep driving east from here during tornado season until I find like an EF5 tornado then drive right into it to see how much I'll get to see before dying.
>>279553 no you will feel pretty bad and sick for some time before passing out and hopefully not waking up. It shouldn't hurt at all, and you die due to your lungs being so relaxed that they stop working; so basically painless. It will max be a few minutes before you pass out.
>>279844 bs. opium is the biggest pain killer there is. it is without a doubt the painless option. be careful what some people say around here about suicide. remember their are perverts and weirdos that want to take advantage of you or watch it
I want to kill myself too much. I want this to end too badly, I can even beg. I wish my family were dead so I could just do it in peace, but I cannot do it because I don't them to go through this. those old pathetic frail beings would go crazy, they still love me like I am the meaning of their life. I wish I could just die in a car accident or from a heart attack.
I always knew life was bad, over time I realize it was terrible, now I am sure it's the worst thing that could've happen in all existence and I was unlucky enough to be selected to go through it. how I wish I wasn't born.
I will soon, I'm not quite afraid of it. Being alive tends to be quite more "scary". The issue is finding the means when they're not easily available. When you make peace with the entire thing comes a feeling of bliss that at any given time you can find a way to end it all without a care. I will do it within the next five years, since I've slowly regained some peace with life but have found that even in good mental condition and without any particular need life is still not worth sticking around for. The strangest part is, even when you're doing perfectly well, there is clarity that existing is far too much of a hassle if one has reflected on it for a little while. Even if one had it all, nothingness seems like the reasonable alternative.
what do posters here think of suicide via train decapitation? there's two spots in my city that i am aware of where trains circulate frequently, they are completely deserted during nighttime, i believe that if i were to dress myself up in all black, cover myself with brush in the direction from which the train is heading, i would practically be invisible if i were to lay down with my neck on one of the train tracks
>>280307 Just how much more successful will a gunshot at an isolated place (enough time for nobody to notice for at least 48 hours) or jumping from a skyscraper could be? I only have access to the latter.
>>279370 join the zog mercenaries ( military). get a job on a boat or offshore oil platform. teach esl overseas. just travel to some place with good weather and live in the forest. the ultimate fuck you to a society that hates you. i know depressed people don't like solutions. but these are the best ones so work overcome the hurdles and obstacles and try one
i needa do it because im NEVER going to get to wher i want in life. i'm too lazy to even get a college degree because im too negative. seriously need to do it asap im sick of being me.
>>280348 I would really-really like to get a job in the oil industry and\or trucker..ideally a big-oil truck driver Do I start doing crossfit+powerlifting to prepare? I can bribe some grunts for them to recommend me for an oil-plant "ground job" I could pay for truck and machinery-operator courses within 3-5 years
wonder why this thread died completely, did the fentanyl poster make it lose all legitimacy? or maybe everyone else but me managed to kill themselves already
>>280487 >>280482 You know that most people using this method don't really want to die and are just using it as a suicide gesture, right? Hence the low percent of deaths. If somebody really wants to die by cutting himself and not show someone that he needs help, then it's as good a method as any.
>>280488 cutting is an ineffective method even if you legitimately wanted to die, commonly the individuals who choose this method aren't truly interested in dying since if they were they would have chosen a different, more efficient method from the beginning
>>280502 Interestingly, this probably is the most ineffective one and takes the most balls to do, depending on the vein. People that have gone this route are at a different level of mental or physical pain processing while I hesitate about choosing an available method.
I tried partially hanging myself a while ago and it gave way and came undone right as I was about to pass out. What the fuck do I do? I've lost all the balls I had before and I still feel fucking miserable. And like a coward at that. In that moment right before I was going to go to black, I felt so much relief. So much freedom. So much peace and release. And then it was stripped away and I'm back in this miserable shitpile. Fuck I'm upset guys
Need suicide method that is easy and reliable. No access to guns. Jumping seems like a gamble especially since no really tall shit nearby. Hanging sucks because I'd just be caught.
>>280307 That is very very risky. Many trains have shields to prevent cattle etc from being run over by the wheels. And even if not, the impact will knock you into unpredictable positions, you can easily just lose your legs or be paralysed but not dead. But also put in a mental hospital and fined and possibly criminally charged.
>>280698 No it isn't. The target to cut is like an inch deep in your neck. Try cutting an inch into your leg. Unless you are something like a zen monk or in a severe state of mental disturbance (you are not if you are considering this rather than just doing it) your body will not allow you to do this and you will likely damage nerves when attempting. And then get put in a mental hospital.
Stick to the tried and true methods that serious people use: CO poisoning, inert gas (not helium anymore but there are several others easily accessable) in an exit bag, or heroin (from darkweb) overdose. But those are methods that take considered preparation and research and will 100% kill you, they are not cries for help or emotional release.
No need to ask questions here about the three methods above, comprehensive information on these methods is everywhere online. If you are confused and struggling to figure out how to do them after a day or two of online research then you neither want nor need to die and just want emotional release.
I need advice. Im planning to commit suicide in 1000 days. Within half of that + what I have now I will have enough to buy a house; however i wont (NOT because i will die, but because I reject housing as a thing in itself. why SHOULD I reside in a building? I dont Consent to being housed). Considering my short life expectancy, my money options, and the fact I wont have s*x or masturbate: what can I do, for life to be awesome and to leave a worthwhile legacy? what are some books\movies, about situations like this?
>>281378 I can assure you that you will not kill yourself in a 1000 days. Suicidal people either do it right away if it gets insanely bad or they never do it. It takes a lot of emotional pain to get you over the edge and any kind of "planning" is just pleasant daydreaming of an exit.
I feel soul-crushed because I realised that my " if youre gonna die just go on an adventure" mentality was WRONG. its BULLSHIT. I dont have the eggs, or the mental aptitude, or the resources, money, etc, to travel the earth or become a wilderness hermit or what have you. I decided I will "confine myself" to my City - a super-urban city, 0 rural- and carry out my Bucket Lust, over there wherein therein
Hey wizzies I don't wanna live anymore only problem is I'm not sure about how to kill myself. I have 80 dollars in my bank account and live in a shit hole country, so any ideas about methods? Don't have a gun nor a car by the way
Any longterm suicidal wizards who have delayed suicide for years and years, just to watch everything get much much worse?
Its crazy to think I was suicidally depressed in 2007, when that seems like a utopia on both the personal and world levels compared to where we are now.
its like im just waiting to see how bad shit can get, just to prove my suicide is objectively correct.
>>282235 Yep. I remember being horribly depressed throughout part of my elementary, and all of my middle and high school years (1997 to 2006) and trying to tell adults about it and getting responses such as, "what do you have to be depressed about? You're just a kid. You don't have to pay the bills or anything," and, "cry moar, emo kid. You're just going through a phase." So, I figured… well, maybe they're right. Maybe it is just a phase.
Roughly 20 years later… at the age of 34; this "phase" never ended. In fact, I eventually developed psychotic symptoms due to my depression and anxiety.
So what am I waiting for? Er, well, nothing, really. Because, see, I'm experiencing both hallucinations and delusions and among the delusions; Cotard's delusion is included. From my perspective; I'm already dead. Attempting suicide will only drag me deeper into Hell.
>>282239 hey you're the exact same age as me. at our age, we have decades of seeing "It gets better" is a lie, and things just keep getting apocalyptically worse from the starting point we were already suicidally depressed from. I was ready to kill myself in 2007, and here I'm in 2023 a world beyond my worst nightmares of 2007.
Any quick, easy and (relatively) painless methods to just end it? I live on the 15th floor of a building, but I'm too much of a coward to jump and I don't really have any place to hang myself inside my apartment. I take deanxit antidepressants (0.5mg flupentixol and 10mg melitracen) and have around a hundred pills rn, but I have no idea if the drug is strong enough. I could possibly try to bullshit my way into buying propranolol without prescription from the pharmacy (eastern euro third world country), but I've heard mixed results about that method and being overweight my heart rate is normally pretty high, so idk how high of a dose I would need to take. I also live alone so the risk of getting caught and rushed into the hospital is pretty minimal.
>>282285 I would advise you not to kys. >I take deanxit antidepressants (0.5mg flupentixol and 10mg melitracen) and have around a hundred pills Catecholaminergic crisis is the worst way to die. Since this is serotonin, you'll suffer from hyperthermia, tachycardia, the worst diarrheas of your life (nothing can come close to it), convulsion, shaking, inability to eat anything, etc. You'll suffer from most of these symptoms while being conscious. It's likely to last for days before you die due to this bundle of serotonin toxicity manifestations, since your body will try to get rid of excess catecholamines.
By then, I am 100% sure you will not withstand it and will call ER to help you out.
I tried to kys with adrenaline/dopamine overdose instead of serotonin. A very bad bad decision. I had to call ER, and by then I realized I don't really want to kms.
I'm regretting not having bought magnum 00 buckshot for greater power, just normal 00 buckshot. Maybe I'm just being paranoid about it, as I imagine using either type would result in destroying my brain faster than it would register the gunshot sound or the pain or sensation of my head splitting apart, and either way my death would effectively be just as quick and painless.
I think i'd like to "attack" a police station to do suicide. Being mag dumped will probably kill you and it wil be up to someone else, you won't overthink and hesitate. The only problem is not hurting others but convincing them to shoot you dead rather than just restraining you.
Does anyone have a link to the story of this Japanese hikki who lived in a really small house with his family and killed himself? It was basically a website detailing his life, how his brother's also killed themselves, how he flunked school, what games he liked. I found it very interesting but I lose it.
>>282609 12g buckshot. Everywhere, affordable, high stopping power of shot, high gas output at muzzle, and double barrel models are available for extra security. Leaves little left of your head, creates an absolute mess, wakes up the neighbors… Everything one would want from a final breath.
Stevens 311-D for a "School shooter" aesthetic Kel-Tec KSG-12 for the punished /r9k/ ending Benelli M4 for a post-cold war PTSD veteren Remington 870 for an old timer's early bedtime Mossberg Shockwave for an abrupt end to a short life
>>282610 If price is no object, just going for absolute certainty and overkill, as little left of the head as possible, would it make sense to go below 12 gauge?
>>282613 >What is the best overkill shotgun? There are many larger shells than 12g, but once you get to a lower guage you don't see any SXSs or over-unders that can fire both shots at once. Two high velocity 12g (especially if you find a SXS with a 3" chamber) will be more powerful together than a single elephant gun shot. However, if you want to have some fun with a 12g shotgun, you can pop 2 .50 BMG rounds in to any old milled steel SXS. The velocity at the muzzle after 18 inches of barrel would give the bullets enough foot-pounds of energy to detonate an ANAL composition such as Tannerite.
Set up your Side-by-Side 50 cal in a vise, loaded and cocked with a string to pull the trigger. Sit 6 feet from the muzzle. Put a dog's medical cone around your neck and a snorkel in your mouth and fill the cone with the explosive target. Best case scenario, your head is ripped outward in to billions of fragments by the implosion surrounding it, your blood vaporizing instantly. Your body slams down to the floor at the speed of sound. Worst case, the bullets pass through and splatter your head out by themselves. For a few hundred dollars you could buy a bathtub's worth of non-Tannerite branded ANAL and have a real blast.
>>282611 They just shoot one barrel at a time though so not really useful unless you somehow are still conscious after the first shot and able to do another one.
>>282644 Each barrel on most SXS or OU have independent triggers that can be pulled synchronously. Not much dexterity is needed to get the second hammer rolling before the first one has yet to strike.
What sucks about waiting so long, (since 2007) for suicide- is on the one hand it makes you look like a coward, attention-seeking, procrastinator, liar, blackmailer who isn't serious.
But when you are finally serious about doing it, no one gives you any credit that this is a calm rational suicide. That you've waited almost 20 years to see if life will get better. That you've had enough time to collect the evidence, to see if life proves you wrong. You're still treated like some depressed teen doing it on a whim, that needs to be stopped.
If you wait long enough for suicide, and still want to do it, to me that proves you're objectively right.
>>282696 Completely know what you mean by being calm and rational It's 24 years myself and everything is ready for tomorrow I'm currently in bed for what should be the last time Slightly apprehensive but a very serene calm
>>282706 I've never looked into it as it's not an option in my country. However I assume you go under the neck and aim at your crown, to take out the central core of your brain. You don't want to aim straight up as you risk just taking out your face and frontal cortex, leaving you very much alive.
>>282789 If one of them is hammer-fired, you could 'dead man's trigger' it. Chamber a round in the hammered weapon and get your other gun ready to fire. Hold the hammer back fully with your thumb while tightening a ziptie around the trigger and handle to fully depress it. With the trigger squeezed like this, releasing the hammer from your grip would drop it and fire the weapon once. Upon shooting yourself with your primary, the shock and reflex has a good chance of coiling your thumb off the hammer, causing the secondary gun to fire.
Sig P series, 1911 actions, pretty much any Single/Dual-action revolver, and especially the Winchester Model 1897 12g will fire reliable with this method. Some rifles with a reciprocating bolt handle could work if you find the sweet spot to not engage the hammer reset (Runaway bolt), which is easy to do on Soviet rifles and derivatives.
>>282792 well its just that they usually say u should aim the pistol upward in your mouth. but i dont think u can fit 2 in there. so ull probably have to shoot from the sides. so not as good a location, but double the rounds. but it makes it more important that both do go off. for the certainty.
>>282952 This is exactly my worst fear… Failing and getting caught and getting put into an asylum. My uncle attempted suicide once and got put in it. It was highly unpleasant for him.
>>282966 Not him, but yeah it seems many people post from mental health facilities online. I saw a video of a blogger succubus filming herself ordering and eating pizza with her suicide watch nurses, she then did kill herself later.
>>282966 Somehow my phone survived hours in the water and days festering in amongst my wet belongings were allowed our phones just can't charge them have to hand them in
I think this is a good place it's for adults and I look to be the youngest here
Found a supplier of SN that ships within Europe on SS and got my shit. I will not share the source because too many faggot journalists, anti choice activists, or law enforcement agencies will shut it down like they did to kenneth law
Has anyone ever talked to their parents about ending it? I've been a "failure to launch", so to speak. Still living with my parents. I've not enjoyed a single moment for a number of years now and the prospect of 50 more years or so of this is unsufferable. They must know I have no friends, no relationships, they are the only reason I have not done it yet, the thought of them finding my corpse stops me. But maybe if I opened up to them and they understood it is for the best I could get through with it?
>>283162 Very bad idea. The chance that they respond well it's vanishingly small. More likely you start off a horrific chain of events where you could be interrogated for the rest of your life and pushed to make "changes" etc. Telling normals about suicidal ideation is very risky and a powerful move that only should be played if necessary to avoid work or attempt to improve already-unbearable familial relations
https://www.theguardian.com/australia-news/2023/sep/25/queensland-to-examine-voluntary-assisted-dying-rules-after-man-uses-wifes-euthanasia-drugs wife dies, use her government suicide kit the government gets mad,says never again well big daddy well my man im making friends with cancer niggas im ordering their suicide kits cutting their lawn taking out the trash time passes by then we chilling in the hospital and when they see the light im huffing their gas a ticket for two to the other side gramps and me the man cant do anything and we going to meet another big man in the sky
Are there any countries where one could do a "speed run"? Basically: Do drugs or have fun time with money, get a deadly illness or whatever, rack up massive debts and be homeless…BUT, MAID is legal so you literally pay to escape the Demiurge Planet. a speedrun in all its meaning and glory. where can this be done? a nordcuck country? c*nada?
I plan on using my belt to hang myself from my gaming chair. It has holes at the headrest where you can clip around the headpillow and that's where I'll tie the other end of the belt. I've set a preferred date to 27th November to 4th December but nothing's definitive until it's done. My biggest reservation is knowing what a commotion my suicide will cause. Indeed I'll be dead so it won't matter, and maybe one day it won't matter to me, but I've always despised attention and it makes me bristled knowing how it'll go down. I'm closer to heroing that I've ever been, I know that.
I just got out on dinner with some old acquaintances after so long, I can't remember when was the last time I left home saturday night. It played out quite nice I guess, I got kinda depressed a little over watching normie couples and friends smiling and sharing with each other, and all the 'having a good social life' stuff plus my friends conversating about their jobs and sexual experiences while I have none but still.
>>283894 No, it's a blunt "stopping power" black powder round with a low velocity even out of a long barrel. Older revolver designs let a lot of that gas escape outwards from the cylinder too so we'd lose a lot of the high muzzle pressure needed to pop the skull from inside out.
I dont want to sound angsty or edgy but I genuinely consider taking the path of Evil now. not evil for evil's sake since evil doesnt even exist- but pursuing my own selfish interests above all else, making egoist decisions only. I wouldnt even try to harm others since actively using time and effort to harm anyone is using resources , to influence the life of someone whos life I absolutely dont care about. I had one single wish for my own life and it will never be true. i want to try being selfish and egoistical before I CTB. I do feel very attracted to Gnostic AntiNatalism and dread the very ideas of family, s*x and marriage.
>>278966 Shotgun is a no brainer if you have access to one (pun intended ) in my opinion, that’s what I plan to use if I ever get the guts to go through with it. As long as you use buckshot or slugs and don’t fuck it up and shoot your self in the chin, you’re pretty much guaranteed an instant painless exit. Only downside is you leave a big mess, but that issue can be mitigated.
I've worked up the nerve. I'm going to buy a firearm. I feel so calm it's a bit surprising. But there's the chance I won't go through with it and end up like all those other guys who bought a gun only to keep it in their bedside drawer for years. On some level I don't know why I'm writing this down, the musings of a failed surplus male are not relevant nor are they interesting. I keep thinking about telling the one or two people I speak to online, but then I realize I know almost nothing about them and we only talk once a week. I just can't believe I'm going to go through with it.
>>284266 don't tell them because you'll just depress them (if they care about you). Just tell them you're quitting the internet or something like that, or just ghost them. What gun are you buying? I'm not American but I wonder why you guys don't use that gunpowder (or some other chemical mix) to build a bomb and blow your head off with it. Instakill, and no worrying about shaky aim, hesitation or w/e. Just don't blow up other people with it. If you live in an apartment try going to some forest where you can blow yourself up in peace.
>>284270 Yeah good point, that would be a downer for them. I just felt it would give them some sense of closure to know exactly what happened to me. >What gun are you buying? A 9mm handgun. As for building a makeshift bomb, I guess most people who are thinking of killing themselves probably don't know how to make one reliably or are sticking with a (mostly) simple solution.
Unfortunately it is not possible to stop existing. Intentionally shedding the physical body will leave you in exactly the same mental state you left it in, with a karmic penalty for early shedding (similar in weight to murder). This is suboptimal for an immortal being. Just sayin'
>it's irrelevant wether a God exists in the (material plane world, as he would be evil if he did >eternal\timeless oblivion after death would be cozy and nice, but there's not birth and thus no death >you're here forever >all levels of suffering and pleasure are pre-determined , and free will barely exists this is how I feel and thus suicide is a moot point, pointless, and even logically impossible to accomplish. what do I even do?
>>284458 Pascal's wager. If you're wrong you get what you want, if you're right you just get more of the same. No losing bets here. By your own logic, it's the only thing worthy trying it out.
Im still obsessing about earning (money) without working. I daydream ,almost M.A.D.D. about it. I think how to fraud gibs, ask for relative's loans, take risks -etc and at the same time want to limit my types, manner, degrees and amounts of spending as well as my area of movement (geographical) and time of movement (time remaining alive)
Has anyone heard of DNP (2,4 dinitrophenol) being used as a drug for suicide? It seems like it’s quite effective as a drug for this purpose and once you commit there is no turning back. I just haven’t seen anything about it being used this way since it seems somewhat easy to get online.
>>284631 Not likely an Indian. A significant amount of drugs acquired without a prescription come from Indian pharmaceutical companies. Much of the nootropics I order, despite the same brands being produced locally here, are doubled up with Indian or Arabic labeling. >Thats rare There's a billion men living in poverty over there, slipping in shit and having to eat the rats before the rats eat them. I've seen enough train "accident" videos that lead me to believe it's actually suicide capitol of the world.
I'm scared man. Death is scary as shit. But when you're 70 or 80 years old, death is still fucking awful. It's not like in the movies where grandpa gently flatlines with a smile on his face. No, there's thrashing and rapid heart-beats and bulging eyes and screaming. The fact is, most people will die horrific deaths whether it's in a hospital bed or in a barn with a shotgun. By not committing suicide, you are spinning a wheel that almost guarantees a painful death. Deciding how you will die is the only way you can lessen it.
Still… it's scary as fuck. Why is this so scary??? I'm a NEET, I have almost no friends, not close with family, things are rapidly going downhill, so what do I have to live for? Living isn't so bad… it's being me that's awful. I got fucked over genetically, most of us did. There is this deep sensation inside that being alive is a good thing, and yet nature decided to fuck us in particular. It's not fair man
I feel so bad today that I just want to choke myself with my bare hands. I absolutely cannot stand living in this world anymore. I should've killed myself a long time ago, but I'm still lingering here like an idiot. Time has passed and things are still the same. I'm older, I can't hope for the future anymore. There's no future for me.
>>285767 Thing is, if you stand still you will not vanish from sight. Instead of lingering and hoping for a future, how about you move and do something in this present? Pick a flower. Date it. Dry it. Start a herbarium. Maybe you are into rocks? You understand the purpose of this, yes? When dark thoughts come, just stare into a lighter's flame for 10 seconds. You still there, no?
i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train. i need to jump in front of a train.
i am in agony due to endless diseases every day, have debts, cant make money, and once my drugs out the withdrawal is gonna kill me.
there is no other method i can see being able to do since i cant kill myself at home, live too low and there are no tall buildings anywhere, and even if there were how would i make it to a skyscraper window. i was thinking about cyanide but now i cant even afford it
>>285813 too many to count. i ran out of money to diagnose and treat anything. and the things i found are not the reason for my current symptoms. i have heart arrythmias, sleepiness, breathing problems, general weakness, dizziness, muscle weakness, gastrological symptoms, feeling of dying and other unbearable feelings. i can only theorize that i have severe electrolical imbalance that breaks my body down caused by unknown gastrological illness. thats just my best guess.
>>285818 i plan to lie my head only on the tracks, seems much more certain. i cant plan for better things, since physically im broken barely can move around and i cant think cause of sickness.
>>285820 Trains have these steel plates fitted ahead of their front wheels to knock away rocks and shit. They're (ironically) called "life guards" because they extend service life of the wheel. When people lay on the track they are caught by the lifeguard and dragged along until they catch on something, then stretched out and split open. There's videos of it happening and it's pretty horrific.
>>285881 > care to post one example? just 4chan /gif/ yes, I know, but I mean, that's the number one source for that kind of material. sometimes there are train rekt thread specifically
I plan on killing myself either tomorrow night or sometime within the week. I will be using clomipramine and olanzapine, however I'm not sure exactly on how to swallow such a large number of pills quickly and also worried I might vomit.
Whether there is or isn't anything beyond this life is useless to discuss with any serious effort. We will only ever experience the end to this life once, and when we do, we'll find out for sure what comes after, if anything. Until then, the best thing we can do is make up nice fantasies and scary legends about what awaits, and use the promise of this sweet afterlife to direct people to do good things for themselves and eachother. The scary legends can be used to make small children eat their vegetables and to not stomp on frogs.
>>286035 I know what you mean. I often daydream about possible afterlife scenarios, but if there really is an afterlife of some kind I seriously doubt it will be as pleasant as any of my fantasies. Bearing that in mind, I'm not sure I would like an afterlife at all. Besides, all things considered, non-existence sounds comfy, like a massive weight being lifted.
>>286035 One of the reasons why I haven't roped myself yet. It might be even worse in so many ways. I've had these insanely vivid and horrifying dreams, abstract nightmares that seemed like they lasted forever. It might be like that after death, which gives me even more existential dread.
Planning on hanging myself. I've been suicidally depressed since february this year but it's abated as I've been able to distract myself with a hobby. Originally I was trying to buy SN but obviously that's no longer an option.
I'm going to go down with a bit of rope to the riverside by a historical trail near the Severn and tie it to a tree. I just have to decide when.
How do you decide when's the right moment to kill yourself?
>>286332 When the chart of your life is on a downward trend, and will continue to be so for the rest of your life, more pain than joy. probably wait to go down hill a tad more so you're sure.
>>286333 That's pretty much inline with my thoughts. If it were as easy as falling asleep late at night in the comfort of your room and never waking up I'd do it straight away.
I think the sooner the better. I'll order the rope now.
>>286335 Please take care to prepare, so that you don't wind up even deeper in despair. A botched suicide attempt isn't something that can be walked off. If your life wasn't comfortable, at least ymake sure your death is.
>>286348 This website really does foster a sick cult mentality toward the promotion of suicide. Wizzes, you must know that there are impostors here who are preying on your sadness and despair.
so whats the consensus on trains? beheading. on one hand, people say its almost instantenous and highly lethal, on another hand, there are cowcatchers and people say it will just kick you off the rail with brain damage. which one is it? i don't want to think about suicide anymore, since i did it for last 10 years. Alterantive would be jumping, but there is nowhere to jump from, and it is impossible to access high-rise buildings in the city, u would need to create an elaborate plan to pretend to be some kind of worker then break in and jump from someone else's balcony. I don't trust myself to do hanging, i am a mental and physical fuckup that would never do it right. All methods that are done at home are off-limits, i dont have a home, im always surrounded by subhuman trash.
>>286504 The wagemaxxed mailcel from Amazon Kindle, the 4'4" horseface of my apocalypse, delivering death through rain, sleet, or snow (Prime members only). No returns on open products, only a return to nothingness. Leave a review and enjoy the view of the void, 5 stars if you see stars. Helping to support local businesses (Morgue) and green business practices with zero-emission cremations.
You may hate your life enough to leave it, but please treat yourself well on the way out. Make it comfortable and take care to minimize any pains that come with asphixiation. Say goodbye to any stuffed toys you nay have.
>>286504 I'm pretty sure all the guides say that kind of rope might cause issues. I can't say to you more than that comment. Either way sorry it came to this Wiz, I can only offer you my best wishes for your contentment through the internet.
>>286522 his crusade will stop marching and the riddle of steel will be unanswered. does he not realize it's not his job to think about his death? if God wills, He'll bring him to that right place and time and take him. The only thing he can do is to fight this uneven battle and escape death.
>>286504 did you know there are millions of knot types? why not make this moment a bad joke like yeah I bought a rope to off myself but know I can make this sick butterfly loop?
My parents want to move to the capital city which is the most horrible decision I can imagine. I work+study but I live with them forever because fuck landlords. The fact I'll be drafted into the Capital makes me extremely desperate, I don't know what to possibly do to escape
>>286538 If you don't do it in the end, you can always come back. There's not shame in it. I am going to read your note, read some and it I find it refreshing. People who just experience the unpleasantness of working and life, and it not getting better. Relatable. Whatever happens wiz, best wishes.
>>286584 >Jealous of all these normalfags oding Why? Why complicate things out of jealousy for a bunch of drug addicts? Drugs are unpredictable. Overdosing scores incredibly high on the list of reliable methods to become a braindead vegetable living a life of pain without the physical capability of claiming your own life another way. If it's some superficial bullshit like aesthetics you're after then even for that reason drugs are bad because of how dirty and trashy they are.
>>286586 >Overdosing scores incredibly high on the list of reliable methods to become a braindead vegetable l Those statistics are dominated by retarded normalfags doing spontaneous suicide attempts, or dramatic "attempts" where they dont even really want to die. It has no relation to a wizard making a plan and taking care to do it properly with negligible risk of being caught in the act
>>286587 >dominated by retarded normalfags doing spontaneous suicide attempts blah blah blah yeah yeah, normalfags = bad and dumb and attention hungries who can't into suicide. Their suicide attempts are fake and gay and when they fail it's entirely because they're brainlettes, not because ODing is actually a stupid and unpredictable suicide method. Unlike smart high-IQ Wizardman who used his crystal ball to learn the ancient secret method of planar shifting using street drugs. Idiot.
Explain why you're suggesting something so risky? Painless guaranteed methods exist, and if Wizzie is adverse to them, instead of suggesting dangerous and faulty methods he should have his attitude corrected. A smack on the head, make him pick his hat up from the dirt. Have you personally killed yourself with heroin before? Even the risks associated with buying it make it something that an already depressed wizard should avoid. Heroin is reputably a drug that's very diluted and tainted too, so I guess Wizzie better buy a purity testing lab.
You can try to convince Wizards not to kill themselves, or you can wish them well on their journeys to the great beyond. But don't go encouraging them to not just do it, but to do it with such a dirty and risky method. That makes you sound like someone who gets joy from seeing wizards phoneposting from the ER bed with the hand they lost function to in a drug-induced stroke handcuffed to the railing. Next stop: mental hospital, followed by a lengthy stay in whatever prison they send drug buyers to. if life sucked before, it's going to suck a whole lot more now.
>>286588 Stop bitching and making pathetic accusations; please argue with facts and evidence. The peaceful pill handbook - the most reliable source we have as a professionally researched guide - even says heroin is ideal. They specifically stated that they only recommend other things like nembutal because it is intended for old people that are biased against street drugs. It is literally named after the goddess of dreams, as pointed out by the peaceful pill handbook. There are hundreds of reports online if you look deeply enough demonstrating that ODing is very peaceful. As we know, people are dying from opiates in large numbers. If you do multiple times the deadly dose in a place where nobody is likely to find you, then death is essentially certain.
Your statistics probably arent even opiate-specific. I bet you are literally talking about teenagers and middle aged succubi taking random overdoses of pharmacy pills + alcohol. Otherwise provide your sources stating that intentional heroin overdoses often lead to vegetation.
It is absolutely trivial in most countries to buy heroin. Most of the anglosphere you can just use the darknet. Of course it really depends on the country. >Painless guaranteed methods exist nobody knows what the fuck youre talking about. Are you a stupid american that thinks everyone has access to a shotgun?
>>286590 >The peaceful pill handbook Oh gee, a meme book about drugs as a suicide method says that this drug is the least dangerous? You ask for sources, but does this book provide any for its own claims? >nobody knows what the fuck youre talking about. I wrote clearly and concisely. >Are you a stupid american that thinks everyone has access to a shotgun? Weird accusation, but it did the deed of proving that you're of a more angry, impressionable ethnic stock. Your investment in to drug culture and those who overdose is also indicative of your cultural background. I'm going to go out on a limb and say that you listen to rap music. I am very good at these types of judgements so I know I'm right and anything you say will just prove me right.
Gravity. Noose. Gun. All painless, more reliable, and more accesible. The guy said he didn't want to do any of those. You recommended him a dangerous dirty street drug based on your own assumptions and what you read in a PDF that itself is built on assumptions. I recommended he smarten up and reevaluate his options in the hopes that he'll reconsider one of the more reliable, less painful methods in the case that he's serious about suicide.
Train, 18-wheeler, power line, exit bag, and yes, even some of the more reliably deadly drugs.
>>286538 I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS FUCKING SITE THAT YOU ARE BEING ENCOURAGED TO DIE. MY FRIEND, PLEASE, TAKE JUST A MOMENT TO CALM DOWN. I MEAN THAT. MUST I CONTINUE WRITING IN CAPS?? I JUST CHECKED ALL THE REPLIES TO YOUR POST AND READ THE ENTIRETY OF YOUR NOTE AND TRULY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT ALL AGREE WITH YOU IN YOUR DECISION TO END IT. THIS BOARD IS FULLY INFILTRATED BY NON-WIZZIES WHO WANT TO SEE US DEAD. HOLY FUCK. I'M GOING TO STOP WRITING IN CAPS NOW. Friend, with all seriousness, you sound somewhat young (not of true wizardly age), and I can remember myself at that age – hugely emotional, suicidal, in complete opposition to those around me and the world generally. This however is a quirk of that age and if you allow yourself to fail (which is fine) and you allow yourself to have respect for yourself despite your failures, and you allow yourself the patience to grow (which will come of itself with time), and you allow yourself just a simple day's rest wherein you do not pressure yourself mentally in a thousand different ways, YOU WILL BE OKAY. I was raped as a child (actually raped, in addition to being circumcised (which is another form of rape)), and brutally bullied by schoolchildren at a much more vulnerable age, and burdened with a destroyed nervous system in addition to a mind burdened by sadness, and I many many times thought of suicide, even once attempting, but I survived and am glad that I survived.
ALSO, ARE YOU LITERALLY RETARDED? The "come-down" from being drunk or from being sedated with opiates is so fucking depressing that many people in that very moment contemplate suicide. You are truly naive to make such a decision as suicide when your mind is influenced by alcohol. You have a great brain judging from your writing, but you are stupidly poisoning it with alcohol, which has entirely corrupted your judgement.
>>286614 Your feet won't be on the round. Just do a pullup, see where your head ends up, then keep doing pullups until you can't do anymore. Take a short break and then go back for more. Get some protein and other vital amino acids in. The next day is leg day so get squatting. After a couple weeks of this you won't have suicidal ideation anymore.
>>286291 the afterlife DEFINETLY doesn't exist. and if something does happen, you won't be in your current state so youi will haev no clue what is happening. Once your brain dies your existence is over as far as you will know.
>>286332 There is no right moment for anything lol. everything is entirely chaotic and pointless nothing truly matters. just do it if you can,i can't i dont have the ballz
>>286406 Has nothing to do with other people, I'm just sick of my terrible horrible life when everyone else has it bettter than me. People suicide for various reasons.
>>286696 It is written in the legends of the desets lands that Saint Adolf used it to end his life. His death is just a fairytale they tell to their kids, but the PPK in .32 is very lethal. It's a service arm after all, designed to kill.
>>286612 Thanks man. It's me, the guy who wrote that note. I'm alive.
Thank you guys. I don't know why I'm still here. I haven't really been the same since those few days. I'm not doing any better, I've started completely neglecting myself, and I'm angry.