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What the fuck is happening to me? I get a bunch of energy one morning and spend 2-3 days doing things I want to do. Then on 4th day I wake up but never leave the bed. I just don't have the strength. This decline lasts for several days. And it's been like that for maybe an year. It's just cycles of sanity and almost complete oblivion. And because of it I can't accomplish anything. I can't concentrate on anything. And my self-esteem gradually goes lower and lower and lower and I can already see suicidal thoughts on the horizon. It's fucking awful and ridiculous, I've never been this sick.
>>279039
>What do you care about?
What do you mean? Sorry today's not the day I'm able to think, could you explain?
>What do you care about?
What do you mean? Sorry today's not the day I'm able to think, could you explain?
>>279043
But the thing is that I don't think about anything. I just don't have the energy. I simply idle the whole day occasionally indulging into things like imageboards to kill some dopamine. Brain turns off completely. Only can carry out things I've learned long ago and which take little to no energy to do.
But the thing is that I don't think about anything. I just don't have the energy. I simply idle the whole day occasionally indulging into things like imageboards to kill some dopamine. Brain turns off completely. Only can carry out things I've learned long ago and which take little to no energy to do.
>>279038
Bipolar style disorders can manifest like that, argments about exactly what kind of cycling for each disorder are useless.
Everyone is different, but I will say that I wasted my 20s trying to understand and overcome my mood swings. Confused as to why yesterday I could do this, and now I'm just frozen and my hands aren't moving. No amount of poverty or "hitting rock bottom" ever changed my situation. I wasted many years thinking that I could alter some belief system or that the mood was caused by viewpoint, when it wasn't. It still is an absurd situation where your mind can just stop working one morning, and then the next you're a human being again.
I would advise you seek mental health support, especially mood stabilisers or lithium. If you have family who are capable and can help, use them to keep you going to therapy and forcing you there. I'm an old man and now nobody wants to help me, so I can't get anything, but I spent my 20s doing all the therapy and mood management through my own research to zero benefit. Use a mood tracker software, document everything you try through pictures and notes so people believe you've tried things if they haven't worked. Some people fix it through noticing patterns in behaviour, mindfulness and paying attention to sensations, finding some cause, some mental thought pattern, etc whatever - I don't know you.
After a life with this kind of experience, being unable to function consistently over multiple days, I am with full certainty at peace with suicide once my mother dies. Things only get worse as you are unable to keep up or maintain efforts.
Bipolar style disorders can manifest like that, argments about exactly what kind of cycling for each disorder are useless.
Everyone is different, but I will say that I wasted my 20s trying to understand and overcome my mood swings. Confused as to why yesterday I could do this, and now I'm just frozen and my hands aren't moving. No amount of poverty or "hitting rock bottom" ever changed my situation. I wasted many years thinking that I could alter some belief system or that the mood was caused by viewpoint, when it wasn't. It still is an absurd situation where your mind can just stop working one morning, and then the next you're a human being again.
I would advise you seek mental health support, especially mood stabilisers or lithium. If you have family who are capable and can help, use them to keep you going to therapy and forcing you there. I'm an old man and now nobody wants to help me, so I can't get anything, but I spent my 20s doing all the therapy and mood management through my own research to zero benefit. Use a mood tracker software, document everything you try through pictures and notes so people believe you've tried things if they haven't worked. Some people fix it through noticing patterns in behaviour, mindfulness and paying attention to sensations, finding some cause, some mental thought pattern, etc whatever - I don't know you.
After a life with this kind of experience, being unable to function consistently over multiple days, I am with full certainty at peace with suicide once my mother dies. Things only get worse as you are unable to keep up or maintain efforts.
I think I broke past my depression into a kind of comfortable indifference to the universe. I don't care, and I don't care that I don't care. Things are tolerable
I used to go on really long walks in nature daily for years and then I got bored of it because I did nothing else. I'm literally bored of nature now because I've spent so much time walking around in the woods and stuff.
I hardly go outside now and haven't talked to anyone except my mother in months. I usually just leave the house at night in the dark for a quick walk but that's it.
I hardly go outside now and haven't talked to anyone except my mother in months. I usually just leave the house at night in the dark for a quick walk but that's it.
How do y'all deal with people being mean to you at work?
I work with mostly guys in their early to mid 20s and they are so relentless and toxic and make my life hell while I'm at work (I work blue collar).
I just wish I could put my head down and work my job because I know I do it well and I for the most part enjoy it, if it wasn't for the people I work with.
Idk I'm just hoping someone else out there knows and understands what I'm experiencing at work: toxic people, gossip, most of the guys that work there just complain and are lazy.
I just wish I "fit in", but at the same time I am glad I don't fit in with some of these guys. They're assholes, and they're whole sense of humor is degrading and belittling others.
It's only Saturday and I already want to call out on Mon.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? That they're the odd one out and are seen as different than the others?
Not everyone there is terrible: I work with some genuine, wonderful folk that I get along with. It's the select few that make my life hell.
Maybe I'm too sensitive but I don't want to see being sensitive as a fault if it's compared to being a complete dick to others.
I work with mostly guys in their early to mid 20s and they are so relentless and toxic and make my life hell while I'm at work (I work blue collar).
I just wish I could put my head down and work my job because I know I do it well and I for the most part enjoy it, if it wasn't for the people I work with.
Idk I'm just hoping someone else out there knows and understands what I'm experiencing at work: toxic people, gossip, most of the guys that work there just complain and are lazy.
I just wish I "fit in", but at the same time I am glad I don't fit in with some of these guys. They're assholes, and they're whole sense of humor is degrading and belittling others.
It's only Saturday and I already want to call out on Mon.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? That they're the odd one out and are seen as different than the others?
Not everyone there is terrible: I work with some genuine, wonderful folk that I get along with. It's the select few that make my life hell.
Maybe I'm too sensitive but I don't want to see being sensitive as a fault if it's compared to being a complete dick to others.
Family gatherings were pretty much the only social environment where I didn't feel like a complete subhuman because my relatives just accepted that I'm autistic. This has all come to an end now because my female cousins got older and now they keep bringing their asshole boyfriends everywhere and they keep making fun of me like any normie asshole. They do this thing where they make fun of my autistic traits especially my insecure staring and then they giggle and laugh about it when I notice like complete fags. I even caught them giggling and talking shit while they were literally sitting across the table from me and they always kept laughing when I looked at them with my autistic staring. It feels like high school all over again and now I avoid family gatherings except Christmas maybe because I don't wanna end up having a spergout.
I also noticed that all my female cousins have boyfriends but most of my male cousins dont have girlfriends, it also seems like one of my cousins might off himself anytime soon, he became a complete shut in who doesn't say one word for the whole evening and I kinda feel bad for him especially since his own mother subtly talks shit about him because he never goes outside and doesn't talk to succubi. My aunt even mentioned how all the females in our family will make grandbabies while we're all weirdos basically which kinda pissed me off especially since I wouldn't be surprised if my cousin ends up commiting suicide.
I also noticed that all my female cousins have boyfriends but most of my male cousins dont have girlfriends, it also seems like one of my cousins might off himself anytime soon, he became a complete shut in who doesn't say one word for the whole evening and I kinda feel bad for him especially since his own mother subtly talks shit about him because he never goes outside and doesn't talk to succubi. My aunt even mentioned how all the females in our family will make grandbabies while we're all weirdos basically which kinda pissed me off especially since I wouldn't be surprised if my cousin ends up commiting suicide.
>>279126
I don't work anon. But I find that in real life bullying comes in 3 different "flavors".
The first is sort of just teasing or poking fun as part of the normalfag social atmosphere. It never really goes away and everyone gets made fun of at some point. if you talk back with your own jokes or just brush it off it doesn't cause any issues.
Second type is "hazing". Whenever you're new you get put through the ringer as part of your initiation into the group. This eventually goes away as long as you "prove yourself" in whichever job you're preforming.
Third type is the shark smelling blood in the water type. The absolute worst type that doesn't go away. For whatever reason a normalfag has singled you out due to your perceived weakness. They will spread rumors, harass you, just make your life miserable for a reason only comprehensible to that person's deranged mind. There's nothing you can do often because the bully usually has seniority. Best to just leave the job if this happens.
I don't work anon. But I find that in real life bullying comes in 3 different "flavors".
The first is sort of just teasing or poking fun as part of the normalfag social atmosphere. It never really goes away and everyone gets made fun of at some point. if you talk back with your own jokes or just brush it off it doesn't cause any issues.
Second type is "hazing". Whenever you're new you get put through the ringer as part of your initiation into the group. This eventually goes away as long as you "prove yourself" in whichever job you're preforming.
Third type is the shark smelling blood in the water type. The absolute worst type that doesn't go away. For whatever reason a normalfag has singled you out due to your perceived weakness. They will spread rumors, harass you, just make your life miserable for a reason only comprehensible to that person's deranged mind. There's nothing you can do often because the bully usually has seniority. Best to just leave the job if this happens.
>>279127
>My aunt even mentioned how all the females in our family will make grandbabies while we're all weirdos
and doesn't feel responsible in the least. also that so called mom talking shit about her own kid is no parent.
you never see this shit from mexican families.
the best thing you can do is never go back and tell them it's because of the toxic energy they are giving off. they will laugh at first; but then they will turn on each other and then they will remember your words
>My aunt even mentioned how all the females in our family will make grandbabies while we're all weirdos
and doesn't feel responsible in the least. also that so called mom talking shit about her own kid is no parent.
you never see this shit from mexican families.
the best thing you can do is never go back and tell them it's because of the toxic energy they are giving off. they will laugh at first; but then they will turn on each other and then they will remember your words
>>279128
Hey
Thanks for your reply. Ive been at this job for almost a year, i feel like I've proven myself a good worker and proficient at the job, I'm not perfect but I'm a hard worker and I know for a fact I've worked circles around these guys in the past.
Seems like I'm dealing with the third variety you mentioned. Yet, I really REALLY don't want to quit this job. I don't want to bounce quite yet, as this looks great on my resume and, like I said, I sorta enjoy the work for the most part.
I'm actually considering just approaching the guy on Monday. There's multiple guys, really, but for whatever reason I have respect for this one guy.
Had anyone ever just approached someone about these things? Like, "hey, I know I annoy you, that's cool, but why do you treat me like shit" I can't help but wonder. I'm in my 30s he's in his early mid-20s I know life is hell in your 20s I just wanna find common ground
Hey
Thanks for your reply. Ive been at this job for almost a year, i feel like I've proven myself a good worker and proficient at the job, I'm not perfect but I'm a hard worker and I know for a fact I've worked circles around these guys in the past.
Seems like I'm dealing with the third variety you mentioned. Yet, I really REALLY don't want to quit this job. I don't want to bounce quite yet, as this looks great on my resume and, like I said, I sorta enjoy the work for the most part.
I'm actually considering just approaching the guy on Monday. There's multiple guys, really, but for whatever reason I have respect for this one guy.
Had anyone ever just approached someone about these things? Like, "hey, I know I annoy you, that's cool, but why do you treat me like shit" I can't help but wonder. I'm in my 30s he's in his early mid-20s I know life is hell in your 20s I just wanna find common ground
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I just want to disappear right now
>>279130
talk to your boss. say these people are giving you problems and your thinking of quitting over it. explain as you did to us what a good worker you are.
then it's your bosses problem. if he doesn't do anything; it shows this place isn't a good environment for you and never will be. or he cracks down on the people.
but confronting the normies themselves will never lead to positive results. they never think they are doing something wrong so long as the hivemind supports them
talk to your boss. say these people are giving you problems and your thinking of quitting over it. explain as you did to us what a good worker you are.
then it's your bosses problem. if he doesn't do anything; it shows this place isn't a good environment for you and never will be. or he cracks down on the people.
but confronting the normies themselves will never lead to positive results. they never think they are doing something wrong so long as the hivemind supports them
I've made marked improvements to my life, I may even become a programmer soon, I may be successful and start pursuing my life plans, but compared to the joy/pain-mitigation of my addiction to My Little Pony, it's all kind of useless.
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My neighbors have been playing music for the past 24 hours straight. I can feel the bass vibrating my walls. It's every single weekend. I've tried talking to them nicely. I've tried to speak with my landlord, but he doesn't give a fuck. I am literally going to
go insane. I just want to work, go home and live properly; why can't I have that. I've started drinking again because I just can't go to sleep before 1AM otherwise. I realize some people are different, but I can go maybe 2 days with compromised sleep before getting all turned around. Please god help me.
go insane. I just want to work, go home and live properly; why can't I have that. I've started drinking again because I just can't go to sleep before 1AM otherwise. I realize some people are different, but I can go maybe 2 days with compromised sleep before getting all turned around. Please god help me.
>>279226
Every summer I'm struck by how savage the heat is. I don't understand how people actually want to do things outside, in 90 degree temperature. I feel like summer is the season where everybody wants to be outside, and there's nothing wrong with that, but this is too much.
Every summer I'm struck by how savage the heat is. I don't understand how people actually want to do things outside, in 90 degree temperature. I feel like summer is the season where everybody wants to be outside, and there's nothing wrong with that, but this is too much.
>>279227
>I've tried to speak with my landlord, but he doesn't give a fuck
let me guess. he is a boomer. there are the laziest and most selfish people ever
>I've tried to speak with my landlord, but he doesn't give a fuck
let me guess. he is a boomer. there are the laziest and most selfish people ever
>>279231
He's a long haired Mexican guy of about 45 I'd guess. I wish I had the money to move out of here. I feel like I'm around a bunch of reprobates. I'm not a pansy but people here just party almost literally 24/7. I just don't get it. I budget, and spend like a miser and this is all I can get, at almost 30 years old.
He's a long haired Mexican guy of about 45 I'd guess. I wish I had the money to move out of here. I feel like I'm around a bunch of reprobates. I'm not a pansy but people here just party almost literally 24/7. I just don't get it. I budget, and spend like a miser and this is all I can get, at almost 30 years old.
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I’m so ready just fucking kill myself. I don’t know what I could possibly live for. I’m only alive at time of writing cause I’m too high to physically bring my death. I just don’t understand anything. The depths of my ignorance is just staggering. I don’t know if I’m just a loser, or autistic, or depressed, any other number of words that don’t mean anything. I just wish I knew how to be a human being. Why can’t I fucking do it. I can’t interact with people. And interacting with people is the o Lu worthwhile thing in the universe. Everything else is just trite shit. People are the only thing that can actually equal you. And I just can’t do it. I can’t speak. I can’t empathize. I just see these things that can make words at me. Am I broken? Did I lose this ability? What do I do? When I force the situation it doesn’t seem to help, but when I stay in my comfort zone things just stagnate and get worse. I wish god was real and could just send me a divine message, tell me at least where I stand and what I should do about it. But we’re all just alone. No one could ever give me a solution. And so far I haven’t found one. I’ve tried. I tried isolating, I tried being with people, I tried talking to people. So the problem must be me, what do I fix that with? Everything is just hollow. I am hollow. I never thought I’d live this long, and yet I’m terrified of growing older. I just need it all to go away.
>>279237
did your parents ever interact with you?
i am guessing they just let tv and muh schools raise you.
boomer parents are why you have trouble talking too and connecting with people
did your parents ever interact with you?
i am guessing they just let tv and muh schools raise you.
boomer parents are why you have trouble talking too and connecting with people
>>279240
Not that anon, but I love my parents but it hurts that your parents only see you as a doll to gossip and fuck you around most of your life, barely teaching you anything and just letting me be taught by school and the computer instead. I feel so alone in this world.
Not that anon, but I love my parents but it hurts that your parents only see you as a doll to gossip and fuck you around most of your life, barely teaching you anything and just letting me be taught by school and the computer instead. I feel so alone in this world.
so, i see a phone number for a potential job but can't make a call because i'll have to talk and go there, showing myself, making up lies so they wouldn't laugh
then i'll have to work with experienced, jaded people who look down on me, most likely reject me as a human being
of course, i am also not young to say the least, this is not a teenage anxiety or shyness, just a result of many years of isolation and constant tension in our home
my deadline is long overdue and i have to work if i will continue to live
has anyone "successfully" overcame a similar situation?
then i'll have to work with experienced, jaded people who look down on me, most likely reject me as a human being
of course, i am also not young to say the least, this is not a teenage anxiety or shyness, just a result of many years of isolation and constant tension in our home
my deadline is long overdue and i have to work if i will continue to live
has anyone "successfully" overcame a similar situation?
>>279255
It's gonna be tough, but not for the reasons you mentioned
The pain is mainly what's in your own head
Get moving and keep writing about your pains, understand them
It's gonna be tough, but not for the reasons you mentioned
The pain is mainly what's in your own head
Get moving and keep writing about your pains, understand them
But what if you don't kill yourself? Could you imagine continuing this existence for months, years, decades? Does this frighten you?
Why is everybody outside this board so awful? I know I sound like a faggot but thats a serious question.
How the fuck am I supposed to get treatment for my mental health problems? I can't get insurance, I'm not eligible for government insurance and I would need to pay like $500 or more out of pocket.
Sometimes I wonder if it would be best to just steal stuff and break the law whenever it's appropriate to make some fucking money.
Sometimes I wonder if it would be best to just steal stuff and break the law whenever it's appropriate to make some fucking money.
>>279282
The real question is: What treatments can $500 get you that you can't just perform or obtain yourself without the profiteering middlemen doctors?
The real question is: What treatments can $500 get you that you can't just perform or obtain yourself without the profiteering middlemen doctors?
>>279283
Medication, but dear friend. Unless I want to order it from the dark net and risk a felony. (And it's twice as expensive)
Medication, but dear friend. Unless I want to order it from the dark net and risk a felony. (And it's twice as expensive)
>>279282
morality is for slaves and it's law of the jungle in this world. Do whatever you have to do to survive. Don't seek help from the system, you really, REALLY, don't want the "help" they have to offer
morality is for slaves and it's law of the jungle in this world. Do whatever you have to do to survive. Don't seek help from the system, you really, REALLY, don't want the "help" they have to offer
Literally got no sleep because apparently I'm going to get a call from this job interview either today or tommorow. Is severe panic before an interview normal or am i going insane.
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>>279295
Just stop caring. That's all there is too it. Next time you're worried about the call or its outcome, just imagine this fox kid. She wouldn't want you to worry. So why would you?
Just stop caring. That's all there is too it. Next time you're worried about the call or its outcome, just imagine this fox kid. She wouldn't want you to worry. So why would you?
>>279295
It's normal to be anxious for your first call. Presumably you'll do it enough to the point where it becomes routine.
It's normal to be anxious for your first call. Presumably you'll do it enough to the point where it becomes routine.
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I deserve to die
>>279291
I need help with my ADHD. if I don't take stimulants I pace around my house for hours and I lose my temper over the smallest thing
I need help with my ADHD. if I don't take stimulants I pace around my house for hours and I lose my temper over the smallest thing
I hate being "me" and being alive, and the truth frustrates me having to be "myself" and not anything else or nothing.
I don't why "me" is so special; every thought, every act, all my history, my mind, my body, and my face feels like they are completely arbitrary and as distant as any stranger. All living experience is an imposition and "i" am detached from it, no matter what "i" feel or what happens.
I feel that this animal more than being "me" is a prison in automatic mode, for a soul that the only thing it has done is just observe everything without doing anything and waiting for that robot to turn off.
I don't why "me" is so special; every thought, every act, all my history, my mind, my body, and my face feels like they are completely arbitrary and as distant as any stranger. All living experience is an imposition and "i" am detached from it, no matter what "i" feel or what happens.
I feel that this animal more than being "me" is a prison in automatic mode, for a soul that the only thing it has done is just observe everything without doing anything and waiting for that robot to turn off.
I'm on a diet due to be a giant fatass and I'm sitting here with such hunger that I'm pacing around my room and lifting weights and drinking ice water trying to ignore the pain.
Then I look at my mom and she can eat 1400 calories in desert, eat a bowl of pasta, chicken, steak and she's 105 fucking pounds. Fuck this life. I just want to eat a goddamn brownie
Then I look at my mom and she can eat 1400 calories in desert, eat a bowl of pasta, chicken, steak and she's 105 fucking pounds. Fuck this life. I just want to eat a goddamn brownie
>>279379
No, scratch that. She ate 2200 calories in desert today plus lunch and dinner. She's 5'1 , 105 lbs. what the fuck is the fuck is fuck is going on?
No, scratch that. She ate 2200 calories in desert today plus lunch and dinner. She's 5'1 , 105 lbs. what the fuck is the fuck is fuck is going on?
I rarely get sick anymore, I used to get bad migraines as a kid but I don’t remember them. Today I was puking and shitting myself at high velocity out of both ends, stomach turning around. Trying to mindfully endure the unpleasant sensations and thinking maybe my hernia is ripping up it feels so bad.
I kept thinking about the people who kill themselves from cluster headaches. I get suicidal depression where existence is unpleasant, but being mentally aware and normal but experiencing constant pain and sickness must suck. Having aches and pains is not the same as actual internal sickness and pain. But these chronic sickness motherfuckers I wish them the peaceful escape.
I kept thinking about the people who kill themselves from cluster headaches. I get suicidal depression where existence is unpleasant, but being mentally aware and normal but experiencing constant pain and sickness must suck. Having aches and pains is not the same as actual internal sickness and pain. But these chronic sickness motherfuckers I wish them the peaceful escape.
>>279380
>>279379
My brother is like that, fucker eats whole pizzas, 5+ big cheeseburgers and fries and shawarmas and never gains any fat. I get bloated around my lower belly and thighs even with low calorie high sodium diet.
I feel like the whole "calories in calories out" straight up doesn't apply to some, hell A LOT of people. This is even evident by one of those asian mukbang succubi that eat like whole restaurant menus EVERY day on camera lol.
Yes this is an extreme example but why is it impossible for people to understand that the same applies for others to a lesser extent.
>>279379
My brother is like that, fucker eats whole pizzas, 5+ big cheeseburgers and fries and shawarmas and never gains any fat. I get bloated around my lower belly and thighs even with low calorie high sodium diet.
I feel like the whole "calories in calories out" straight up doesn't apply to some, hell A LOT of people. This is even evident by one of those asian mukbang succubi that eat like whole restaurant menus EVERY day on camera lol.
Yes this is an extreme example but why is it impossible for people to understand that the same applies for others to a lesser extent.
>>279393
I think it's more likely that skinny mukbangers force themselves to puke the food up. I think Matt Stonie does this after his video challenges and in-person competitions.
I think it's more likely that skinny mukbangers force themselves to puke the food up. I think Matt Stonie does this after his video challenges and in-person competitions.
>>279397
some people just don't get fat easily. you *will* get fat if you eat really much, especially if you mix it with a lot of alcohol. but if you live a relatively healthy life, then it's just that some people tolerate food better and don't get fat. idk
some people just don't get fat easily. you *will* get fat if you eat really much, especially if you mix it with a lot of alcohol. but if you live a relatively healthy life, then it's just that some people tolerate food better and don't get fat. idk
>>279393
>I feel like the whole "calories in calories out" straight up doesn't apply to some, hell A LOT of people. This is even evident by one of those asian mukbang succubi that eat like whole restaurant menus EVERY day on camera lol.
Yes, CICO is a massive meme. Strictly speaking, it is not wrong, but there are a thousand factors that can influence how much metabolism can vary. Apart from that, gut biome which sometimes gets out of control even with a "right" diet, can deeply influence your metabolism, weight gain or loss and immune system and inflammation.
>I feel like the whole "calories in calories out" straight up doesn't apply to some, hell A LOT of people. This is even evident by one of those asian mukbang succubi that eat like whole restaurant menus EVERY day on camera lol.
Yes, CICO is a massive meme. Strictly speaking, it is not wrong, but there are a thousand factors that can influence how much metabolism can vary. Apart from that, gut biome which sometimes gets out of control even with a "right" diet, can deeply influence your metabolism, weight gain or loss and immune system and inflammation.
>>279399
CICO is a meme. Skinny normalfags love to throw it out like they've stumbled upon some pure truth that you're just too stupid to accept.
It's technically true, but so is saying "Force = Mass x acceleration" in response to someone asking why some people can lift more than others. No shit faggot. But you know why some people can apply more acceleration or more mass? Because they're genetically different than you and I.
CICO is a meme. Skinny normalfags love to throw it out like they've stumbled upon some pure truth that you're just too stupid to accept.
It's technically true, but so is saying "Force = Mass x acceleration" in response to someone asking why some people can lift more than others. No shit faggot. But you know why some people can apply more acceleration or more mass? Because they're genetically different than you and I.
I feel like I outlived my destined life time by a few years now and I wish something that I am not aware of would come and sweep me off from the face of this trash world. everyday I am being choked to my slow death in slow motion anxiety hell torture. there is no escape.
>>279406
It does feel like that. What life milestones are left? what's left to do? The world is going to give us a couple decades of repetitive nonsense before cutting the lights. I feel like the movie ran out, credits rolled, but I'm still in the theatre. can we wrap this up?
It does feel like that. What life milestones are left? what's left to do? The world is going to give us a couple decades of repetitive nonsense before cutting the lights. I feel like the movie ran out, credits rolled, but I'm still in the theatre. can we wrap this up?
>>279399
>>279400
wrong. cico is true due to science. resting caloric burn, which lardasses can muh metabolism, only varies by 10%.
your just underestimating your calories in and over estimating your calories out.
if your still in denial try a rolling 24 hour fast. should cut your caloric intake by half; and it will help reset your hunger cravings.
but that's only if you want to solve the problem. if you don't then enjoy your fat life like niko avacado
>>279400
wrong. cico is true due to science. resting caloric burn, which lardasses can muh metabolism, only varies by 10%.
your just underestimating your calories in and over estimating your calories out.
if your still in denial try a rolling 24 hour fast. should cut your caloric intake by half; and it will help reset your hunger cravings.
but that's only if you want to solve the problem. if you don't then enjoy your fat life like niko avacado
Consuming raw jalapeño peppers can help put off depression, sleep, constipation, nausea, and maybe boredom. Especially helpful with prune juice and water. Downside? Diarrhea and wiping your ass repeatedly starts to really hurt a lot after awhile. You're also pretty much stuck in the bathroom most of the day.
>>279415
Incorrect, but why post if you don't know anything? The SD for metabolic rate is 6-8%. So a person 3 SD above average could burn 24% more calories just standing around, making a diet of 2500 calories only 1900.
Incorrect, but why post if you don't know anything? The SD for metabolic rate is 6-8%. So a person 3 SD above average could burn 24% more calories just standing around, making a diet of 2500 calories only 1900.
>>279422
but i also didn't have enough sleep (because of fucking heat yesterday), so instead of spending this nice day nicely i just lay around because of minor headache
but i also didn't have enough sleep (because of fucking heat yesterday), so instead of spending this nice day nicely i just lay around because of minor headache
>>279443
Alcoholism, meaningless work, drug addiction, and not being able to identify my place in life, much less assume it. I'm approaching 30, and it's brutal. I don't bounce back physically like I used to, even 5 years ago. Each year, more concessions than the last. I just have no clue.
Alcoholism, meaningless work, drug addiction, and not being able to identify my place in life, much less assume it. I'm approaching 30, and it's brutal. I don't bounce back physically like I used to, even 5 years ago. Each year, more concessions than the last. I just have no clue.
>>279446
Climate change completely fucked everything up. When I was younger hitting >30c/85F was uncommon. Nowadays it's your average summer day.
What's truly creeping me out though is how quickly people have adjusted to it. Temperatures that were normal a mere twenty years ago have become abnormally low now. I can't get used to this.
Climate change completely fucked everything up. When I was younger hitting >30c/85F was uncommon. Nowadays it's your average summer day.
What's truly creeping me out though is how quickly people have adjusted to it. Temperatures that were normal a mere twenty years ago have become abnormally low now. I can't get used to this.
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My old man has left pic related abandoned on my property. It's been rusting out for 7 years, and had been parked up for 12. He's a chronic hoarder and just can't for the life of him get rid of his garbage. He has 20+ vehicles currently, just as a frame of reference. And entire shipping containers filled with motors and car parts.
It's a heavy piece of shit, awkwardly parked in down a massive hill. It won't drive, the motor has long rusted out of it. I keep on hitting him up to take away his garbage but he gets defensive, yelling at me, telling me I'm being pushy. He gets viscerally angry, like, starts insulting my ability and questioning whether I could even remove it myself (It could, I'd just waste so much money on tools and renting trucks). Every manipulate thing is thrown out at me, like how I haven't done X at my house so why the fuck am I even worrying about the bus, I wouldn't even use the land under it.
I love my dad but I have a visceral hatred for hoarding. I'm tired of people imposing their literal garbage on me. I live pretty astute, and all the trash I ever have had lying around is shit other people leave behind.
It's a heavy piece of shit, awkwardly parked in down a massive hill. It won't drive, the motor has long rusted out of it. I keep on hitting him up to take away his garbage but he gets defensive, yelling at me, telling me I'm being pushy. He gets viscerally angry, like, starts insulting my ability and questioning whether I could even remove it myself (It could, I'd just waste so much money on tools and renting trucks). Every manipulate thing is thrown out at me, like how I haven't done X at my house so why the fuck am I even worrying about the bus, I wouldn't even use the land under it.
I love my dad but I have a visceral hatred for hoarding. I'm tired of people imposing their literal garbage on me. I live pretty astute, and all the trash I ever have had lying around is shit other people leave behind.
>>279448
Climate change is not such a thing. There have been way hotter summers decades ago. It almost snowed in Florida this years which also hasn't been the case for decades. Climate just keeps switching but its not getting hotter.
Climate change is not such a thing. There have been way hotter summers decades ago. It almost snowed in Florida this years which also hasn't been the case for decades. Climate just keeps switching but its not getting hotter.
>>279457
um even the more sophisticated skeptics, admit it is getting warmer, but that its not man's fault, but a natural longterm cycle. completely denying the heat is soooo 1990s
um even the more sophisticated skeptics, admit it is getting warmer, but that its not man's fault, but a natural longterm cycle. completely denying the heat is soooo 1990s
>>279457
this. climate is always changing. it has never been stable. the mild times he is referring to is when people thought a new ice age was coming.
this. climate is always changing. it has never been stable. the mild times he is referring to is when people thought a new ice age was coming.
>>279458
It's pointless arguing with people like this. Both the data and personal experience show it has gotten warmer but they will deny it for political reasons, because they disagree with and dislike the ones bringing up this topic.
On imageboards thinking it is real is the fringe position lol. I knew I would get responses like these from conspiracy nuts convinced they know better.
It's pointless arguing with people like this. Both the data and personal experience show it has gotten warmer but they will deny it for political reasons, because they disagree with and dislike the ones bringing up this topic.
On imageboards thinking it is real is the fringe position lol. I knew I would get responses like these from conspiracy nuts convinced they know better.
I’ve spent so many years trying to build up some tolerance of life or attempt to not commit suicide, but in reality I only achieved a fleeting neutrality to life because I managed to become NEET and barely interact with the world. I go outside when it’s quiet, I don’t have conversations with people about what they value, I engage in small social pleasantries while shopping, that is enough for me.
When I interact with the real world and actual people suicide seems so inevitable and the most beautiful and total escape. I live on borrowed time and everything I built is weak to a moment in the real world. God I want to die
When I interact with the real world and actual people suicide seems so inevitable and the most beautiful and total escape. I live on borrowed time and everything I built is weak to a moment in the real world. God I want to die
It feels like I'm on my last straw. Weirdly enough I'm getting close to turning 30 and I always jokingly told myself that I'm gonna jump off a bridge once I turn 30 without any positive change. I probably won't actually kill myself and if I do it would happen in a short impulsive moment most likely.
There's really nothing left for me to do and I don't wanna go back to smoking weed all the time and delude myself further. I'm also extremely frustrated and angry, I destroyed so much shit in my home. Im not sure how much longer I can handle my subhuman existence, my mentally retarded parents should have never shitted me into this world. The hot weather is like an additional torture, it's always fucking hot and I'm sweating 24/7 can't even cool down at night.
There's really nothing left for me to do and I don't wanna go back to smoking weed all the time and delude myself further. I'm also extremely frustrated and angry, I destroyed so much shit in my home. Im not sure how much longer I can handle my subhuman existence, my mentally retarded parents should have never shitted me into this world. The hot weather is like an additional torture, it's always fucking hot and I'm sweating 24/7 can't even cool down at night.
>>279448
I've very much been convinced by the more extreme climate change narratives. I don't care enough to argue about it, but it's affected the way I think and act now. I've never had lots of money but now I'm much more open to spending my meagre savings to do things with my family. It feels like I should make the most of cheap energy, normal weather/temps, and cheap resources while I can and take my family on holiday since we never did that when we were poor, before it all crumbles down.
I've very much been convinced by the more extreme climate change narratives. I don't care enough to argue about it, but it's affected the way I think and act now. I've never had lots of money but now I'm much more open to spending my meagre savings to do things with my family. It feels like I should make the most of cheap energy, normal weather/temps, and cheap resources while I can and take my family on holiday since we never did that when we were poor, before it all crumbles down.
>>279456
Update, I bought the tools to start doing the demolition and he threatened to cut me off over it. He tried physically attacking me, yelling and calling me a pussy when I wouldn't fight him and instead walked away.
It was honestly just sad and pathetic, and all the cobwebs broke away and I stopped caring. He's done so much for me over the years, helped me out with giving me thousands of dollars when I was broken and couldn't work, and we were so close…And he was willing to hurt me over a hunk of garbage he left on my property. He's old, so he wouldn't be able to physically hurt me, and I just looked at him with a strange mixture of pity and contempt.
I remember seeing posts on /his/ going on about how greed isn't a sin because "well isn't more resources good", and I'm confused as to how they could think it isn't. This is an old man that's letting his covetous desire of junk, and his desire to live through fantasy, choke out the good things in life. It's made me sour on material accumulation a lot. I was expecting a backlash, but I wasn't expecting literal violence.
Update, I bought the tools to start doing the demolition and he threatened to cut me off over it. He tried physically attacking me, yelling and calling me a pussy when I wouldn't fight him and instead walked away.
It was honestly just sad and pathetic, and all the cobwebs broke away and I stopped caring. He's done so much for me over the years, helped me out with giving me thousands of dollars when I was broken and couldn't work, and we were so close…And he was willing to hurt me over a hunk of garbage he left on my property. He's old, so he wouldn't be able to physically hurt me, and I just looked at him with a strange mixture of pity and contempt.
I remember seeing posts on /his/ going on about how greed isn't a sin because "well isn't more resources good", and I'm confused as to how they could think it isn't. This is an old man that's letting his covetous desire of junk, and his desire to live through fantasy, choke out the good things in life. It's made me sour on material accumulation a lot. I was expecting a backlash, but I wasn't expecting literal violence.
>>279557
Sorry to hear that. My upstairs, downstairs and garage are essentially just storage for my parents' stuff. Some of the ground floor is, too. I don't care because I don't buy much stuff, though. They gave me most of my grandparents' furniture, or maybe that's just being stored as well and they're just okay with me using it. They contain the outdoor junk to their own yards (for now).
Is your dad not violating some ordinance? That's probably the only thing he will take seriously, and will probably fight with that too.
Sorry to hear that. My upstairs, downstairs and garage are essentially just storage for my parents' stuff. Some of the ground floor is, too. I don't care because I don't buy much stuff, though. They gave me most of my grandparents' furniture, or maybe that's just being stored as well and they're just okay with me using it. They contain the outdoor junk to their own yards (for now).
Is your dad not violating some ordinance? That's probably the only thing he will take seriously, and will probably fight with that too.
>>279564
My mother is a gigantic packrat and my home is filled with garbage. The entire garage is filled with garbage, which I thought was enough. Now it's seeping into the kitchen and every other day she brings back some more shit back home.
She used to have 3 storage rooms filled with shit. $300 a month. on garbage. Please help me.
My mother is a gigantic packrat and my home is filled with garbage. The entire garage is filled with garbage, which I thought was enough. Now it's seeping into the kitchen and every other day she brings back some more shit back home.
She used to have 3 storage rooms filled with shit. $300 a month. on garbage. Please help me.
I tried painting a minicanvas because i wanted to be productive but all it did was make me pissed off due to my lack of an inate talent
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Windows cracking sound, father's sneezing and coughing. Pray to God he won't snore in the living room and I die in my sleep.
>>279606
I will not, and it's really odd for you to insists upon such a thing on a celibate's forum.
I will not, and it's really odd for you to insists upon such a thing on a celibate's forum.
Just noticed a slight pain in my tooth. Appears it's decay. Yes, god, I only missed it for a full picture. Fuck me for eating sugar, what was I thinking…
>>279649
I have multiple holes and decay all my top teeth but none in my bottom teeth. Its rigged anyways, probably just genetics for you.
I have multiple holes and decay all my top teeth but none in my bottom teeth. Its rigged anyways, probably just genetics for you.
If you use free AIs for pseudo therapeutic reasons (like the character ai psychologist), try paid AIs like assisted story writers instead
So much more helpful
So much more helpful
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Ever since my chemotherapy my mental state has been difficult. I can't really explain it. It's like I can't form memories or thoughts and I feel this sense of presentness. Can't do any work because my mind just doesn't work.
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not sure how to feel adding more games to my backlog
i wanna set myself an age limit
if my head doesnt improve my that time, i will end it
this is because i keep seeing old as fuck dudes who clearly struggle with things i do right now
it fucks with me so much, the possibility that i will be like them
that i would still be like i am now, in 40 years
holy fuck
the problem is that i keep giving up on things
so whos to say that i wouldnt give up on the suicide age limit thing itself
what fucking hell that would be
cant even stick to ending this nightmare
if my head doesnt improve my that time, i will end it
this is because i keep seeing old as fuck dudes who clearly struggle with things i do right now
it fucks with me so much, the possibility that i will be like them
that i would still be like i am now, in 40 years
holy fuck
the problem is that i keep giving up on things
so whos to say that i wouldnt give up on the suicide age limit thing itself
what fucking hell that would be
cant even stick to ending this nightmare
Do you easily get annoyed by people? Do you constantly have a sort of painful twinge in your brain that aches whenever you see specific people or hear their noises?
I've obsessed with this for the longest time, trying to mind trick myself into not feeling annoyed, even the thought if just accepting them I've done with the motive of not feeling annoyed (ah yes, if I just tell myself that I'll accept this, then I'll feel better)
But there is no escape
The twinge will always be there
The annoyance is my constant friend
The annoying people will always be there
This will be my life going forward
This is my bane
Before I get some sort of illness that'll make life even more shit
I've obsessed with this for the longest time, trying to mind trick myself into not feeling annoyed, even the thought if just accepting them I've done with the motive of not feeling annoyed (ah yes, if I just tell myself that I'll accept this, then I'll feel better)
But there is no escape
The twinge will always be there
The annoyance is my constant friend
The annoying people will always be there
This will be my life going forward
This is my bane
Before I get some sort of illness that'll make life even more shit
Just 4 more books on my "to be consumed" list and I'll be free from man-made products of culture forever.
>>279694
I would suggest you go for regular runs during your course of chemo no matter how shit you feel. This should help you make new brain cells to replace ones that are damaged or killed in chemo. There are many other drugs that also affect neurogenesis but running is reliable and free. You can google it and find a lot of research about it.
I would suggest you go for regular runs during your course of chemo no matter how shit you feel. This should help you make new brain cells to replace ones that are damaged or killed in chemo. There are many other drugs that also affect neurogenesis but running is reliable and free. You can google it and find a lot of research about it.
>>279770
My chemotherapy ended 2 months ago. I am exercising every day and the doctor said most mental effects go away after 6 months. I asked him if he would prescribe me any stimulants to deal with the brain problems and he laughed me off and said no. hah, I tried.
My chemotherapy ended 2 months ago. I am exercising every day and the doctor said most mental effects go away after 6 months. I asked him if he would prescribe me any stimulants to deal with the brain problems and he laughed me off and said no. hah, I tried.
I got a mechanical keyboard for work, but I'm afraid it's going to be too loud lol. But I really like the keyboard. I just don't need it for home.
>>279774
I have two zoomers at my office with mechanical keyboards and the others don't seem to care about it
I have two zoomers at my office with mechanical keyboards and the others don't seem to care about it
I want to stop multitasking pointlessly. I've realized I don't even take a shit without my phone in my hand. This has got to stop.
I find it a bit depressing that I'm old enough to be Julia Butters' father had I had sex with my oneitis back in 2009.
>wake up
>go back to sleep
>wake up again
>can't sleep
>stay lying in bed for hours till it's time to sleep again
I basically do nothing all day. This has been my "routine" for weeks now.
>go back to sleep
>wake up again
>can't sleep
>stay lying in bed for hours till it's time to sleep again
I basically do nothing all day. This has been my "routine" for weeks now.
>>279780
I'm not trying to bash. Do you have a job, or any responsibility that makes you get out of the house? You can't be happy until you shoulder something.
I'm not trying to bash. Do you have a job, or any responsibility that makes you get out of the house? You can't be happy until you shoulder something.
>>279781
Not that guy. I have a job. Now I'm anxious at work and at home. I need to get my own place, as I'm tired of heating my dumbass neighbours and my parents complaining about them. I can deal with work anxiety, as my job is fairly mindless
Not that guy. I have a job. Now I'm anxious at work and at home. I need to get my own place, as I'm tired of heating my dumbass neighbours and my parents complaining about them. I can deal with work anxiety, as my job is fairly mindless
>>279795
weed isn't any more of a long term solution than alcohol is. I smoked myself unconscious just a few days ago.
weed isn't any more of a long term solution than alcohol is. I smoked myself unconscious just a few days ago.
>>279787
please don't bite my head off for this but have you considered AA? It really can help
please don't bite my head off for this but have you considered AA? It really can help
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I really wish I knew what it was like to be able to enjoy the company of other people.
my country is going through a coup. My job pays 120 dollars a month. I can't feed my cat or myself and pay rent. we haven't eaten in 2 days.
i have no way to get money any more. i cannot afford my schizophrenia medication any more. i want to stop existing.
i have no way to get money any more. i cannot afford my schizophrenia medication any more. i want to stop existing.
Being born at the wrong place at the wrong time is so fun. My life is utterly fucked and I didn't move a finger. And it seemed all so bright and promising at the beginning. I wish I was isekaid in some accident so I wouldn't have to go through this all. The end will anyway be the same, so what's the point of prolonging the suffering?
>>279796
you can od on anything including caffeine. the problem isn't the drug it's the user.
weed has good benefits for the costs for almost everyone.
sorry if this makes you look bad od on weed bro. perhaps sniffing glue or gasoline will be your next challenge
you can od on anything including caffeine. the problem isn't the drug it's the user.
weed has good benefits for the costs for almost everyone.
sorry if this makes you look bad od on weed bro. perhaps sniffing glue or gasoline will be your next challenge
>>279820
Weeds downsides overweigh the so called benefits. Weed just deludes you into thinking that everything is alright and thats why it gets legalized in so many western countries. It just turns you into a sedated retard and perfect human cattle.
Weeds downsides overweigh the so called benefits. Weed just deludes you into thinking that everything is alright and thats why it gets legalized in so many western countries. It just turns you into a sedated retard and perfect human cattle.
>>279803
I wouldn't get mad at you. I'll try anything. I'm going to see if I can bear going to one tomorrow. I've been meaning to for a while. This just can't keep going on.
I wouldn't get mad at you. I'll try anything. I'm going to see if I can bear going to one tomorrow. I've been meaning to for a while. This just can't keep going on.
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Im making a few listings for childhood electronics on ebay. Mostly n64 cartridges, old phones and junk that hopefully has some value for someone. It feels weird, thinking of the bright eyed kid that I once was, probably like most of you. And today scrambling to make beer money, for alcohol and a new gpu to jack off to AI succubi. Unemployed, friendless and suicidal like the norm around here. Just what went wrong? For what reason did I hold onto them for so long?
My parents, specially my mom always had this tendency to hold onto things and hoarding, I always hated and saw it as a weakness. Now I understand, sort of, our attachment to nostalgia in the face of an uncertain future.
My parents, specially my mom always had this tendency to hold onto things and hoarding, I always hated and saw it as a weakness. Now I understand, sort of, our attachment to nostalgia in the face of an uncertain future.
>>279847
That's not true at all. Just in the US alone there's daily cases of people getting hospitalized for psychosis and other issues induced by weed. That whole "weed is harmless" claim is outdated and based on the assumption that people still smoke some weak herb from 20 years ago. Modern strains have up to 30% THC in buds if they are strong and then theres derivates and extracts that can have up to 70% and more. Weed is not harmless at all and can be quite dangerous especially because stoners claim it's safe while it ruins their life at the same time.
That's not true at all. Just in the US alone there's daily cases of people getting hospitalized for psychosis and other issues induced by weed. That whole "weed is harmless" claim is outdated and based on the assumption that people still smoke some weak herb from 20 years ago. Modern strains have up to 30% THC in buds if they are strong and then theres derivates and extracts that can have up to 70% and more. Weed is not harmless at all and can be quite dangerous especially because stoners claim it's safe while it ruins their life at the same time.
>>279851
>Just in the US alone there's daily cases of people getting hospitalized for psychosis and other issues induced by weed
post some jew links then. i have seen the effects of legalization and it's pretty minor. Certainly less than alcohol which:
dur causes daily cases of crimes, violence, liver problems and obesity
>Just in the US alone there's daily cases of people getting hospitalized for psychosis and other issues induced by weed
post some jew links then. i have seen the effects of legalization and it's pretty minor. Certainly less than alcohol which:
dur causes daily cases of crimes, violence, liver problems and obesity
>>279852
>>279851
the cases of people getting hospitalized for it are when kids accidentally eat a whole brownie and get nauseous at worst and call the ambulance cus they are wussies
the thing is it's probably hard for people to get into weed now because even 10-15% thc is like 40% alcohol so when you're only choice is some 30% dispensary stuff as a start it would be like starting drinking with moonshine 80+ instead of 5% beer
>>279851
the cases of people getting hospitalized for it are when kids accidentally eat a whole brownie and get nauseous at worst and call the ambulance cus they are wussies
the thing is it's probably hard for people to get into weed now because even 10-15% thc is like 40% alcohol so when you're only choice is some 30% dispensary stuff as a start it would be like starting drinking with moonshine 80+ instead of 5% beer
>>279852
Here we go with the comparisons to other drugs, typical addict behavior. Coke is also not physically addictive and doesn't do shit with your organs except your nose and it still ruins lives. Either way none of this is related to the issue you're just pointing at other substances like a retard which is peak retarded stoner addict rhetoric.
>>279854
They are not anti drug ofc but the guy is trying to not look like cattle while being a whole cow
Here we go with the comparisons to other drugs, typical addict behavior. Coke is also not physically addictive and doesn't do shit with your organs except your nose and it still ruins lives. Either way none of this is related to the issue you're just pointing at other substances like a retard which is peak retarded stoner addict rhetoric.
>>279854
They are not anti drug ofc but the guy is trying to not look like cattle while being a whole cow
>>279856
And another retard suddenly talking about alcohol, most likely the same guy. When your argumentation is to point at other destructive substances then you are an addict. Just acknowledge the dangers of weed and stop being a retard, don't worry nobody is gonna take your weed away so you can be stoned all day. Just be honest with yourself otherwise you look like a dumb teenager.
And another retard suddenly talking about alcohol, most likely the same guy. When your argumentation is to point at other destructive substances then you are an addict. Just acknowledge the dangers of weed and stop being a retard, don't worry nobody is gonna take your weed away so you can be stoned all day. Just be honest with yourself otherwise you look like a dumb teenager.
>>279858
Weed is obviously the lesser of three evils being cigarettes and alcohol among them. Majority of the population will either be addicted to nicotine or alcohol so weed is already niche enough as it is, it being legalized didnt make it any more popular with the normalfags. Most normalfags will continue to hate weed even though it has magical healing properties while they just want to self-destruct their liver or throat/lungs with alcohol or cigs.
Weed is obviously the lesser of three evils being cigarettes and alcohol among them. Majority of the population will either be addicted to nicotine or alcohol so weed is already niche enough as it is, it being legalized didnt make it any more popular with the normalfags. Most normalfags will continue to hate weed even though it has magical healing properties while they just want to self-destruct their liver or throat/lungs with alcohol or cigs.
>>279859
And again youre pointing at other substances, its getting boring and just shows how deluded your currently are. Im not trying to shit on you but look at your post its 90% about alcohol and cigarettes even though this whole discussion is about weed and this is a clear indicator of deflective behavior on your part.
Normalfags dont hate weed, weed is completely mainstream and core part of almost any normie pop culture. The only normalfags who dislike weed are maybe some athlete and business types but other than that its a core part from music, gaming, art to whatever else these faggots are consuming. Normie teens are smoking loads of weed and normie adults are doing the same. If you think that normies hate weed you just again show that you are deluded or just deflecting. As of recent its not even just weed that is mainstream its opiates and hallucinogen drugs as well and it doesnt matter if its some rap environment or more of a rick and morty type crowd. Drugs especially weed are peak normie culture.
Now please make another post that is 90% about other substances and 10% about the risks of weed to show how retarded you currently are.
And again youre pointing at other substances, its getting boring and just shows how deluded your currently are. Im not trying to shit on you but look at your post its 90% about alcohol and cigarettes even though this whole discussion is about weed and this is a clear indicator of deflective behavior on your part.
Normalfags dont hate weed, weed is completely mainstream and core part of almost any normie pop culture. The only normalfags who dislike weed are maybe some athlete and business types but other than that its a core part from music, gaming, art to whatever else these faggots are consuming. Normie teens are smoking loads of weed and normie adults are doing the same. If you think that normies hate weed you just again show that you are deluded or just deflecting. As of recent its not even just weed that is mainstream its opiates and hallucinogen drugs as well and it doesnt matter if its some rap environment or more of a rick and morty type crowd. Drugs especially weed are peak normie culture.
Now please make another post that is 90% about other substances and 10% about the risks of weed to show how retarded you currently are.
I tried doing the "just go out and do things and meet people" thing by going to a car race.
Didnt work. In a crowd of people all with a shared interest, not one person wanted to conversate.
Didnt work. In a crowd of people all with a shared interest, not one person wanted to conversate.
>>279862
Did you go to an actual race track event or was it some normie street race meet up?
Did you go to an actual race track event or was it some normie street race meet up?
I hate my fucking boomer parents. They always enjoyed their little sheltered lifestyle with no friends or social skills and somehow thought it's a good idea to breed and now they blame me for being the very same retard as them. These assholes never gave a fuck about me and just acted nice to everyone to fulfill their arrogant "we were always nice and good people" fallacy but behind the facade they are resentful bitter people who hate everyone. My dad admitted that he always got bullied by others and it wasn't even because he was autistic but because he was an annoying retard who pissed everyone off with his soyboy fag behavior and now he's a complete fag who hates other men for no reason. They always sent me to therapy early to further shift the blame and as soon as the therapists noticed that my parents are incompetent they got mad at them too lol. Boomers are the most selfish and stuck up assholes.
>>279864
based. now your seeing the truth. try to find things you enjoy regardless of what others think. because others likely won't be a positive part of your life
based. now your seeing the truth. try to find things you enjoy regardless of what others think. because others likely won't be a positive part of your life
>>279862
I remember going to places to volunteer, and I just ended up sitting silently doing the tasks because nobody really wanted to talked to me and I didn't have too much to say. I'm not blaming anyone but this stuff doesn't always work.
I remember going to places to volunteer, and I just ended up sitting silently doing the tasks because nobody really wanted to talked to me and I didn't have too much to say. I'm not blaming anyone but this stuff doesn't always work.
>>279864
Are zoomers and millennials gonna genocide boomers if they don't die for the next 20 years because of modern medicine?
Are zoomers and millennials gonna genocide boomers if they don't die for the next 20 years because of modern medicine?
>>279863
It was an actual track with a grandstand full of people. The worst part was how many couple there were. I thought a race was supposed to a be a more masculine event to meet friends at / get better social skills. The problem is that anyone who wasnt a couple was already in a group of friends and those that werent would straight up ignore when i would try to make smalltalk because normie socialmedia made everyone a tard outside. Fuck society.
It was an actual track with a grandstand full of people. The worst part was how many couple there were. I thought a race was supposed to a be a more masculine event to meet friends at / get better social skills. The problem is that anyone who wasnt a couple was already in a group of friends and those that werent would straight up ignore when i would try to make smalltalk because normie socialmedia made everyone a tard outside. Fuck society.
>>279873
People come to these things to win some money and relax, not meet new people. Maybe go to a bar or something and chat up people that are alone.
People come to these things to win some money and relax, not meet new people. Maybe go to a bar or something and chat up people that are alone.
>>279869
occultrock just posted the biggest losing quarter in history. they are tied to most pension funds.
there will be another ( financial crisis ) soon. then the boomers will finally get the shaft
occultrock just posted the biggest losing quarter in history. they are tied to most pension funds.
there will be another ( financial crisis ) soon. then the boomers will finally get the shaft
>>279869
This reminds me of Don Jolly from daggermag when he described his wish to shoot his parents with a shotgun in their home as the 'Millenial Dream'. Many of us have definitely been let down by our selfish boomer parents when it comes to actual guidance in life or affection and attention. Many of us grew up pretty much fatherless despite having had a father at home but he just sucked as an actual father figure and his choice in succubi or lack thereof was equally bad. I know so many guys who had passive fathers and controlling mothers as as well. I think most millennials and zoomers have some kind of secret resent towards their parents and the ones who don't are just over socialized types or otherwise incapable of being objective.
This reminds me of Don Jolly from daggermag when he described his wish to shoot his parents with a shotgun in their home as the 'Millenial Dream'. Many of us have definitely been let down by our selfish boomer parents when it comes to actual guidance in life or affection and attention. Many of us grew up pretty much fatherless despite having had a father at home but he just sucked as an actual father figure and his choice in succubi or lack thereof was equally bad. I know so many guys who had passive fathers and controlling mothers as as well. I think most millennials and zoomers have some kind of secret resent towards their parents and the ones who don't are just over socialized types or otherwise incapable of being objective.
>>279876
I remember bursting out laughing when I first saw this Frank part when he described his dad and it's even funnier because hes most likely talking about his actual parents. His description is also painfully close to how my parents are but I guess it's an universal boomer thing.
I remember bursting out laughing when I first saw this Frank part when he described his dad and it's even funnier because hes most likely talking about his actual parents. His description is also painfully close to how my parents are but I guess it's an universal boomer thing.
>>279876
>passive fathers and controlling mothers
jewish perversion of the actual order. and how did these boomer cucks get rewarded? divorce raped.
>passive fathers and controlling mothers
jewish perversion of the actual order. and how did these boomer cucks get rewarded? divorce raped.
>>279910
All guys I went to school with and grew up with who had a passive father / controlling mother dynamic turned out messed up. We had a thread a couple months ago that also showed that many here grew up with that very same dynamic. It was the same for me and I also have a cousin who is equally fucked because of his controlling cunt mother and his dad who lacks assertiveness. For me it messed up a lot of stuff as well especially having such a weak father figure was devastating on top of his inability to be assertive towards my mother when she acted like a cunt and I also picked up so much of my mothers shitty traits because she was the controlling part of my parents. I was lost and looked at other men as a father figure and that didn't turn out well until I started doing research on things like masculinity etc. on the internet. Its also remarkable how some individuals make a shitload of money by pulling a grift out of this phenomenon, people always say the guys who are into that are fatherless but sadly most of them had fathers but they sucked.
All guys I went to school with and grew up with who had a passive father / controlling mother dynamic turned out messed up. We had a thread a couple months ago that also showed that many here grew up with that very same dynamic. It was the same for me and I also have a cousin who is equally fucked because of his controlling cunt mother and his dad who lacks assertiveness. For me it messed up a lot of stuff as well especially having such a weak father figure was devastating on top of his inability to be assertive towards my mother when she acted like a cunt and I also picked up so much of my mothers shitty traits because she was the controlling part of my parents. I was lost and looked at other men as a father figure and that didn't turn out well until I started doing research on things like masculinity etc. on the internet. Its also remarkable how some individuals make a shitload of money by pulling a grift out of this phenomenon, people always say the guys who are into that are fatherless but sadly most of them had fathers but they sucked.
>>279876
Very accurate. It is strange how it is such a universal generational thing. I wonder if it has happened often throughout history, and what conditions specifically have precipitated it this time
Very accurate. It is strange how it is such a universal generational thing. I wonder if it has happened often throughout history, and what conditions specifically have precipitated it this time
>>279916
it's why Western civilization is collapsing. boomers have no values except lust and greed. values guide decisions. so it should be no surprise they grabbed everything good from society and gave nothing back
it's why Western civilization is collapsing. boomers have no values except lust and greed. values guide decisions. so it should be no surprise they grabbed everything good from society and gave nothing back
>>279921
Everything will always be bad, even if my generation were to fix, new problems will arise anyways.
Everything will always be bad, even if my generation were to fix, new problems will arise anyways.
>>279921
Its not about being lazy but most of us have been lost for years and have to adjust to how confusing and weird times are now compared to how easy it was for boomers.
Its not about being lazy but most of us have been lost for years and have to adjust to how confusing and weird times are now compared to how easy it was for boomers.
>>279860
unless you're in Cali weed is very niche among normies, and teens prefer to vape nicotine salts
unless you're in Cali weed is very niche among normies, and teens prefer to vape nicotine salts
Really envy these neets who can sit around playing video games or watching anime to kill time by the hour. Im lucky to kill time by the second
Thank God (or whatever) there is death.
Imagine having to live this shitty life forever. at least there's a supposed end to this misery. I don't know what happens after death, but I just feel that it will be better than this.
Imagine having to live this shitty life forever. at least there's a supposed end to this misery. I don't know what happens after death, but I just feel that it will be better than this.
>>279950
i just sit around wishing i was dead, unless im stoned then i feel bliss for a few hours. thats my whole life
i just sit around wishing i was dead, unless im stoned then i feel bliss for a few hours. thats my whole life
welp, just punched a hole through the door today in an argument with my mother. I don't have enough money to replace the door.
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Been annoyed at wasting too much time lately so I decided to be productive. I spent 2 hours on something that didn't work. Yeah, nah, fuck it. Even if it works I don't really feel good about it, just a hassle sorted, yet I'm meant to be spend my whole life doing this shit? I remember reading a quote from some spoiled psychiatrist bitch to the motif of "you can't have work without love". Yeah I agree, guess I'm not allowed anything then, thanks.
Of all the lives I could've lived and I get this one, what a joke.
Of all the lives I could've lived and I get this one, what a joke.
>>279998
If you're actively suffering you're not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the neets who can just dissolve into a game or a hobby and let the time pass without notice. Suffering = Actively experiencing each second
If you're actively suffering you're not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the neets who can just dissolve into a game or a hobby and let the time pass without notice. Suffering = Actively experiencing each second
>>280003
I don't have any doors in my apartment left not even the bathroom because I destroyed them completely. Replacing doors is more expensive than I thought because you can't just buy any door and usually you need to get it custom made to fit. It's funny how my mother got extremely upset over it and called me crazy even though she is the one who has been destroying shit everytime she got angry ever since I can remember so that's a trait I learned from her.
I don't have any doors in my apartment left not even the bathroom because I destroyed them completely. Replacing doors is more expensive than I thought because you can't just buy any door and usually you need to get it custom made to fit. It's funny how my mother got extremely upset over it and called me crazy even though she is the one who has been destroying shit everytime she got angry ever since I can remember so that's a trait I learned from her.
It’s been 20 plus years since I was thinking about death as a 10 year old, and suicide at 13. You are so self absorbed as a kid you don’t think about family or hurting others, if I had succeeded as a kid I would have skipped all of this. It would have had devastating after effects, but I would have been oblivious. Kid you should have killed yourself
>>280027
Death seemed to scary as a kid, and being adult has it perks. People don't push you around a lot and you can do whatever you want legally.
Death seemed to scary as a kid, and being adult has it perks. People don't push you around a lot and you can do whatever you want legally.
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>>280009
>wes anderson film without humor/charm
I think my life is more of a depressing and bleak foreign arthouse film
>wes anderson film without humor/charm
I think my life is more of a depressing and bleak foreign arthouse film
I fucking hate normies. The way they taint everything with their presence is mind-boggling and disgusts me to no end. Everything the masses touch they disintegrate, turn into a flavorless, easy to digest slop and move on to another thing that still has some shape and form. It is not a novel thought - wizards and channers in general bitch about it a lot, but only recently I've came to realization that everything has been fucking destroyed, everything is goyslop now with extra rare exceptions. Anime? I remember being hyped for a lot of stuff back in 00s-early 10s, nowadays everything is the same dumb shit made for zoomer brainlets. Same with everything. Everything is a product, semiliquid goo made for easy consumption. Every form of entertainment is being ruined more and more with every year, all because it becomes mainstream shit. I remember being mocked and bullied for liking anime, in my country gopniks would beat guys who like anime all the fucking time, and now what? even retarded midwits watch or read trash like Black Clover or dumb isekai crap, oinking with delight.
>>280072
Modern algorithms accelerated this by a lot. It's too easy to determine target audiences through algorithms and everything can be calculated without any room for creativity. Really anything gets turned into easily digestible bullshit and it sucks the dignity out of everything, everything is about maximizing sales while minimizing effort as much as possible.
I recently watched some Half-life development videos and it's crazy how much love they put into details just like in most games during that time and now developers just put effort into disguising mediocre garbage as much as possible to make an easy flip and additional passive income with microtransactions. Early access rugpulls and half finished preorder game scams are just another symptom of this. AAA studios like Ubisoft manage to release the same game in a new package every year with far cry series etc. and studios like Bethesda literally release the same game over and over again. Even indie game studios have their tricks such as developing extremely repetitive simulator games that look nice but get boring quick and they always hype everyone up with fake gameplay trailers.
It's the same with any other media including movies, everything is forgettable garbage but they still make money with it because of modern sale models. No one cares about passionate projects anymore and everyone just tried to further figure out how to bait people into consuming low effort bullshit.
In the same fashion every niche gets turned into pop culture shit adjusted to the lowest common denominator without any respect for it's original fan base.
There's a few gems here and there but for the most part we are at the point of no return.
Modern algorithms accelerated this by a lot. It's too easy to determine target audiences through algorithms and everything can be calculated without any room for creativity. Really anything gets turned into easily digestible bullshit and it sucks the dignity out of everything, everything is about maximizing sales while minimizing effort as much as possible.
I recently watched some Half-life development videos and it's crazy how much love they put into details just like in most games during that time and now developers just put effort into disguising mediocre garbage as much as possible to make an easy flip and additional passive income with microtransactions. Early access rugpulls and half finished preorder game scams are just another symptom of this. AAA studios like Ubisoft manage to release the same game in a new package every year with far cry series etc. and studios like Bethesda literally release the same game over and over again. Even indie game studios have their tricks such as developing extremely repetitive simulator games that look nice but get boring quick and they always hype everyone up with fake gameplay trailers.
It's the same with any other media including movies, everything is forgettable garbage but they still make money with it because of modern sale models. No one cares about passionate projects anymore and everyone just tried to further figure out how to bait people into consuming low effort bullshit.
In the same fashion every niche gets turned into pop culture shit adjusted to the lowest common denominator without any respect for it's original fan base.
There's a few gems here and there but for the most part we are at the point of no return.
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I JUST CANNOT FUCKING TAKE IT ANY MORE
>>280072
It's normalfag, nigger.
There's a lot in your post that I agree with *in principle* but the way you've written it is retarded. But I'm more interested in this part:
>It is not a novel thought - wizards and channers in general bitch about it a lot, but only recently I've came to realization that everything has been fucking destroyed, everything is goyslop now with extra rare exceptions.
Why come to a realisation almost 10 years after "the end"?
It's normalfag, nigger.
There's a lot in your post that I agree with *in principle* but the way you've written it is retarded. But I'm more interested in this part:
>It is not a novel thought - wizards and channers in general bitch about it a lot, but only recently I've came to realization that everything has been fucking destroyed, everything is goyslop now with extra rare exceptions.
Why come to a realisation almost 10 years after "the end"?
>>280081
That's completely beside the point. He probably has millions of movies, anime, and video games he could play too, but the point is that NEW things are bad.
That's completely beside the point. He probably has millions of movies, anime, and video games he could play too, but the point is that NEW things are bad.
Nine of the tallest cans of strawberry-flavored malt liquor consumed over the course of about 72 hours by me.
I feel as if I need more.
I feel as if I need more.
>>280072
its really crazy how the japanese animation and video games made the transition into being every normies interest. it used to be the loner's fantasy and the explanation is pretty simple for it, they offered an alternative reality and people whose lives sucked too hard took refuge in it.
normies are spreading like virus, there shall be no medium left they will not contaminate. from the dark corners of the internet to niche hobbies everyone used to escape and forget this normie world.
its really crazy how the japanese animation and video games made the transition into being every normies interest. it used to be the loner's fantasy and the explanation is pretty simple for it, they offered an alternative reality and people whose lives sucked too hard took refuge in it.
normies are spreading like virus, there shall be no medium left they will not contaminate. from the dark corners of the internet to niche hobbies everyone used to escape and forget this normie world.
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Sometimes there is a moment when I am really feeling down, where it feels like I am on the verge of some emotional breakthrough. If you walk into a forest, there comes a point where you are now walking out of the forest. There is like this invisible flip, it's a great mystery. The problem is that I can never get there, and I don't know why it's eluding me. I wish I could just let go of everything and allow the suffering to wash overing me until it transforms into something cleansing. I can almost feel the release, a complete reordering of my inner world in an instant and coming out the other side totally free of baggage. I don't fully know what stands in my way, maybe it's my ego, maybe it's fear, maybe it's testosterone. I heard that when succubi go on testosterone, they can no longer cry like they used to, and as pathetic as it may sound to some, I think that's what I need, a good long cry, but it just won't come. There is a higher version of myself somewhere, and he is sad and disappointed with me.
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>>280076
Well said Anon, I know it's easy to blame muh capitalism or muh technology as a copout to this problem but there's really no visible root causes to this besides the endless hivemind droning on of normalfags that have been doing this shit (or some form of it) since time immemorial.
To be fair, the past was hellishly bad in comparison, and I (and most others) am a brainfried NPC at this point just repeating the same day of wageslaving and doing drugs on the weekend with the occasional shitty halfhearted attempt at self improvement in a vain attempt to break from the narrative by reading a book or watching an obscure movie or something but I always come crawling back to scrooling, porn, and other similar dopamine-simulators like 98% of everyone else. It's very dystopian and uncanny when you really think about it, Plato's cave (a idea from ancient fucking Greece) being the default lifestyle 100% normalized for everyone 24/7 and getting massively worse - constantly shoved in your face 24/7 so much so that most men fantasize about leaving society to become a hermit in the woods.
>what is the solution for this?
>is there a solution to this besides death?
My fucking bills are increasing today too.
Well said Anon, I know it's easy to blame muh capitalism or muh technology as a copout to this problem but there's really no visible root causes to this besides the endless hivemind droning on of normalfags that have been doing this shit (or some form of it) since time immemorial.
To be fair, the past was hellishly bad in comparison, and I (and most others) am a brainfried NPC at this point just repeating the same day of wageslaving and doing drugs on the weekend with the occasional shitty halfhearted attempt at self improvement in a vain attempt to break from the narrative by reading a book or watching an obscure movie or something but I always come crawling back to scrooling, porn, and other similar dopamine-simulators like 98% of everyone else. It's very dystopian and uncanny when you really think about it, Plato's cave (a idea from ancient fucking Greece) being the default lifestyle 100% normalized for everyone 24/7 and getting massively worse - constantly shoved in your face 24/7 so much so that most men fantasize about leaving society to become a hermit in the woods.
>what is the solution for this?
>is there a solution to this besides death?
My fucking bills are increasing today too.
I'm getting sick of waking up feeling like shit every afternoon from staying up far later than I should. I'm aware of the cause and it's like I can't help it anymore. Just holding back tomorrow however I can
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Every second day I read up on peak oil obsessively, fantasizing about it actually hitting. I just want society to collapse for some reason, and this seems like the most enticing and realistic way it could occur.
It's a tragedy that the US shale play and Iraqi oil expansion ended the 2006 oil shock.
I might make a thread about peak oil later on. All the shit about peak oil demand (where oil is just replaced by renewables) seems to be a massive cope, and I don't think I'm just saying that because I want systematic collapse. Third worlders are all desperate to live western lifestyles, and western oil demand has basically flatlined instead of declining despite the massive improvements in fuel efficiency in motor vehicles.
It's a tragedy that the US shale play and Iraqi oil expansion ended the 2006 oil shock.
I might make a thread about peak oil later on. All the shit about peak oil demand (where oil is just replaced by renewables) seems to be a massive cope, and I don't think I'm just saying that because I want systematic collapse. Third worlders are all desperate to live western lifestyles, and western oil demand has basically flatlined instead of declining despite the massive improvements in fuel efficiency in motor vehicles.
>>280181
Same, my tinitus has been there for years but it's so loud now and I notice it especially when I'm laying in bed. I wonder how much of this shit causes me to lose focus on things because it's such a high tone blasting through my brain from both ears constantly. I figured that it gets slightly better when I stay hydrated and avoid sodium, sometimes I listen to tinitus masking sounds which helps at times. Tinitus really sucks away life.
Same, my tinitus has been there for years but it's so loud now and I notice it especially when I'm laying in bed. I wonder how much of this shit causes me to lose focus on things because it's such a high tone blasting through my brain from both ears constantly. I figured that it gets slightly better when I stay hydrated and avoid sodium, sometimes I listen to tinitus masking sounds which helps at times. Tinitus really sucks away life.
I've lost all interest for the outside world and for any introspection or inner life. I have years worth of games, books, films and music I wanted to try but I haven't touched them for months.
Right now my goal is to decrease variety and sensations as much as possible since they are all burdensome. Even random thoughts present themselves as annoying problems to be solved. I wish I could just lie down fully anesthetized forever.
Right now my goal is to decrease variety and sensations as much as possible since they are all burdensome. Even random thoughts present themselves as annoying problems to be solved. I wish I could just lie down fully anesthetized forever.
>>280081
>black clover
was fine for several first episodes. but yeah animation sucks balls, plot is not present at all and in general it looks like copypaste. i watched the whole first season, so i can vouch. i'm thankful that i don't have such breakdowns now. imagine feeling so "good" that you would actually consume shit like that and not complain
>black clover
was fine for several first episodes. but yeah animation sucks balls, plot is not present at all and in general it looks like copypaste. i watched the whole first season, so i can vouch. i'm thankful that i don't have such breakdowns now. imagine feeling so "good" that you would actually consume shit like that and not complain
I don't think I've been this sober since like the 2008 to 2015 period and I feel like shit most of the time this is BULLSHIT
This whole past 7 months I've been overcome by regret and sadness about one thing I omitted to do last year. Haunted by it, ravaged by it… I've virtually gone crazy thinking about how much better things would have been if I'd acted differently. Like another massive mistake, and I can hardly live with myself at all now.
I don't like wearing shorts.
I think shorts on men is gay.
I don't care how hot it gets during the summer that shit is gay
Let me suffer in peace in my jeans already
I think shorts on men is gay.
I don't care how hot it gets during the summer that shit is gay
Let me suffer in peace in my jeans already
Absolutely nothing to live for… At my advanced age. Fuck. I really shouldn't be here . It's all too much…
Hey there wizards. I have decided to off myself. I am worried about my parents and my autistic brother though. Mom and dad are getting old and I guess they expected me to take care of him, but I feel tired and cannot continue for too long. Is there anything I can do to ease their pain when I kms?
>>280224
Do it so that they don’t find your dead body. Do you have access to a gun? If so, then kill short yourself in a forest? Rope? Hang yourself in a forest.
Do it so that they don’t find your dead body. Do you have access to a gun? If so, then kill short yourself in a forest? Rope? Hang yourself in a forest.
>>280225
Should I leave a letter saying it's not their fault or will it somehow aggravate things?
Should I leave a letter saying it's not their fault or will it somehow aggravate things?
>>280226
write a three volume novel for them explaining why appeared to be a complete failure and had to off yourself. don't forget to publish and shill the novel everywhere. wait until you gather enough attention from the crowds. constantly engage them by spilling a lot of emotional talk about how you're tired of this life and how you're going to kill yourself just the next second, but the only thing that stops you is that your death hasn't farmed enough attention already. don't forget to cry and whine and blame whatever it is you think is appropriate to blame. and when it's done put a bomb on you and epicly blast yourself in as crowded place as possible, to multiply the attention you've gathered by <insert your number here>. before you push the button you must revel in the fact that people will talk about you, pity you, shit on governments for not caring about people enough and about system that failed for 9999-th time. that's the proper way to die, wiz. the only proper way.
write a three volume novel for them explaining why appeared to be a complete failure and had to off yourself. don't forget to publish and shill the novel everywhere. wait until you gather enough attention from the crowds. constantly engage them by spilling a lot of emotional talk about how you're tired of this life and how you're going to kill yourself just the next second, but the only thing that stops you is that your death hasn't farmed enough attention already. don't forget to cry and whine and blame whatever it is you think is appropriate to blame. and when it's done put a bomb on you and epicly blast yourself in as crowded place as possible, to multiply the attention you've gathered by <insert your number here>. before you push the button you must revel in the fact that people will talk about you, pity you, shit on governments for not caring about people enough and about system that failed for 9999-th time. that's the proper way to die, wiz. the only proper way.
>>279393
What you are missing is probably the frequency of the meals. They are probably skipping meals rather than eating every meal like that. Intermittent fasting and gorging is a more natural and healthy way to eat than the 3 meals a day thing we have developed in modern society.
What you are missing is probably the frequency of the meals. They are probably skipping meals rather than eating every meal like that. Intermittent fasting and gorging is a more natural and healthy way to eat than the 3 meals a day thing we have developed in modern society.
>>279421
How is this not a self own? You have proven even if you are some extremely rare freak the difference is basically negligible. 600 calories is one workout or two slices of pizza. Either way it's all moot because it comes down to whether or not you exceed what you need to maintain your bodyweight. Even if that amount is different for different people, what matters is do you overeat or not?
How is this not a self own? You have proven even if you are some extremely rare freak the difference is basically negligible. 600 calories is one workout or two slices of pizza. Either way it's all moot because it comes down to whether or not you exceed what you need to maintain your bodyweight. Even if that amount is different for different people, what matters is do you overeat or not?
>>280209
>I don't like wearing shorts.
>I think shorts on men is gay
i can't stand boomers in their cargo shorts. it looks stupid and really shows when they go shart in the mart.
but muh heat you say. the difference between track pants and shorts is small. plus you don't have to worry about sun burns. plus then i don't have to see ugly boomer legs
>I don't like wearing shorts.
>I think shorts on men is gay
i can't stand boomers in their cargo shorts. it looks stupid and really shows when they go shart in the mart.
but muh heat you say. the difference between track pants and shorts is small. plus you don't have to worry about sun burns. plus then i don't have to see ugly boomer legs
>>279129
>and doesn't feel responsible in the least. also that so called mom talking shit about her own kid is no parent.
Yeah that aunt is a cunt and no one in my whole family really likes her because she's unbearable and controlling. She really fucked her son up by being a controlling bitch all the time and now he looks and acts like he's at the brink of suicide and she has the audacity to nag about the men in the family never having girlfriends or grandchildren in front of him. She also keeps making weird feminist statements and tries to get into peoples business all the time like a typical wine aunt.
I get what you mean about Mexican families, they often seem to have more respect for each other and a stronger bond but I guess it also depends on how modern or traditional they are just like with whiteys but whites tend to be more caught up in weird modern family bullshit.
>and doesn't feel responsible in the least. also that so called mom talking shit about her own kid is no parent.
Yeah that aunt is a cunt and no one in my whole family really likes her because she's unbearable and controlling. She really fucked her son up by being a controlling bitch all the time and now he looks and acts like he's at the brink of suicide and she has the audacity to nag about the men in the family never having girlfriends or grandchildren in front of him. She also keeps making weird feminist statements and tries to get into peoples business all the time like a typical wine aunt.
I get what you mean about Mexican families, they often seem to have more respect for each other and a stronger bond but I guess it also depends on how modern or traditional they are just like with whiteys but whites tend to be more caught up in weird modern family bullshit.
>>280252
>Wah wah men wearing comfortable clothes is so icky
>"muh"
>Assuming sun burns are something to worry about
Fuck off female
>Wah wah men wearing comfortable clothes is so icky
>"muh"
>Assuming sun burns are something to worry about
Fuck off female
I can't stop feeling resentful of my parents for letting some kike doctor mutilate my dick at birth for no fucking reason beyond their brainwashed ignorance. It sends me into a rage at least once a day.
Life is so boring. The misery, depression, anxiety, alright I can take that. But being bored all the time is no different than just having a toothache all the time.
Snnnndddnnn bored…BORED…boring bored bored…doing nothing. Can't enjoy anything
Snnnndddnnn bored…BORED…boring bored bored…doing nothing. Can't enjoy anything
>>280258
let me guess you feel nothing inside.
you have no internal sense of wisdom and want others to (prove) things to you and offer solutions.
you also worship nothing, right?
the void claims anothet follower
let me guess you feel nothing inside.
you have no internal sense of wisdom and want others to (prove) things to you and offer solutions.
you also worship nothing, right?
the void claims anothet follower
Prometheus gave man fire
But the nigga who gave us suicide is a real g
big up the suicide nigga
But the nigga who gave us suicide is a real g
big up the suicide nigga
I hate feeling nauseated from lying down and being forced by my own body to be active, It is a difficult feeling to explain but it is very present.
I'm always lying down, listening to music, trying to sleep or sleeping, but there comes a time where I get dizzy and I have to get up against my will, I also have to go to the bathroom or brush myself. I hate my body, i hate being human and an animal, i wish i was grass.
I'm always lying down, listening to music, trying to sleep or sleeping, but there comes a time where I get dizzy and I have to get up against my will, I also have to go to the bathroom or brush myself. I hate my body, i hate being human and an animal, i wish i was grass.
the universe experiencing itself
you heard this
you seen this
we are all just the universe experiencing itself
wow
well heres some experience for you brother
a bullet a right to the god head
some unique suicide experience for you
you heard this
you seen this
we are all just the universe experiencing itself
wow
well heres some experience for you brother
a bullet a right to the god head
some unique suicide experience for you
some of these posts and posters are messed up in the head.
therapy and the drugs they give you are a meme. thus, i am not sure how to help and if you can be helped.
if your mind processes are messed up you would reject someone telling you the right way to think because it won't compute in your mind.
therapy and the drugs they give you are a meme. thus, i am not sure how to help and if you can be helped.
if your mind processes are messed up you would reject someone telling you the right way to think because it won't compute in your mind.
>>280270
There is no universal "right way". Everyone has their own unique problems and processes them differently. Furthermore, some problems just don't have solutions.
There is no universal "right way". Everyone has their own unique problems and processes them differently. Furthermore, some problems just don't have solutions.
I’m moving out for the third time in five days. I am so fucking close to freedom. I just need to make it a little further. Every time my retard mother opens her mouth my brain tries to kill itself. I’m so close. I can’t fucking take it but freedom is right there. If there is any divine power in this universe please help me now. Please
>>280298
hope you succeed, having to deal with retarded, insensitive, abusive parents is hell
hope you succeed, having to deal with retarded, insensitive, abusive parents is hell
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I hate how I can't just be myself but have to carve a whole new self out of myself painfully if I want to have a chance at, not even guaranteed, happiness.
I’m feeling so despondent about my life. I don’t feel like I was ever in control of anything. I still feel like my laugh is being steered by some horrid will I can’t comprehend. I don’t feel like a genuine human being. I’ve just chopped off bits and piece of myself, sanded off the bumps and planed the surfaces until I’m just a big shiny smooth nothing for people to walk on. I don’t know what I am. And I’m so alone. Not in the literal sense, I am surrounded by people. But i truly feel like a prisoner in the solitary confinement cell that is my head. I’ll never be able to connect with anyone. I will never be able to reach outside my mind. All I ever wanted was peace, and I’ll never get it. I am living a sisyphusean hell. I’ve been pushing this boulder so long that the only alternative I can see is death. I can’t just stop pushing the boulder. I’d much rather it crush me. I’ve been thinking about suicide all day. I want to go reach under the cupboard and grab a gallon of detergent and drink it til I die. I want to punch the gas in my car and go careening on the nearest bridge. Or just walk into the sea and never come back. I just want escape so badly.
>>280317
i think u should be urself, not for any feel good reason, but cuz your nature cant be changed.
just as human nature cant be changed into an angelic utopia
on the individual level, ur nature cant be changed.
the best you can do is try to shape your environment to best suit your nature.
i think u should be urself, not for any feel good reason, but cuz your nature cant be changed.
just as human nature cant be changed into an angelic utopia
on the individual level, ur nature cant be changed.
the best you can do is try to shape your environment to best suit your nature.
>>280317
Being myself means rotting myself away, smoking weed and consuming media in mom's basement
Being myself means rotting myself away, smoking weed and consuming media in mom's basement
>>280327
that just means you have different levels of hate. not sure what could be done to break you out of that demonic negativity.
even if you heard solutions you would hate or reach negativity to it
that just means you have different levels of hate. not sure what could be done to break you out of that demonic negativity.
even if you heard solutions you would hate or reach negativity to it
>>280370
with purpose yes. all the stories of overcoming adversity or enduring hardship was for some purpose.
the people depressed here don't feel any purpose. so even minor things seem unbearable. i blame the void worship for the lack of feeling anything
with purpose yes. all the stories of overcoming adversity or enduring hardship was for some purpose.
the people depressed here don't feel any purpose. so even minor things seem unbearable. i blame the void worship for the lack of feeling anything
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>>280317
To elaborate:
With my lack of personality, low intelligence and thus lack of self-confidence I enter these thought loops that I can't get out of because I don't know which thought is the right one.
To elaborate:
With my lack of personality, low intelligence and thus lack of self-confidence I enter these thought loops that I can't get out of because I don't know which thought is the right one.
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>>279036
>something good happens to me for once in my life
>suffer some sort of mental ailment that makes me stop caring about this good thing that happened
Serves me right for getting my hopes up I guess
>something good happens to me for once in my life
>suffer some sort of mental ailment that makes me stop caring about this good thing that happened
Serves me right for getting my hopes up I guess
>>280402
take lion's mane or magic mushrooms. they help your brain form new neural connections.
the perfect thing if you need a new way of thinking about things
take lion's mane or magic mushrooms. they help your brain form new neural connections.
the perfect thing if you need a new way of thinking about things
after years of trying to fix things
im worse off
with more problems
and some of the ones i tried to fix are worse
lmao
effort has sent me backwards
joke life
im worse off
with more problems
and some of the ones i tried to fix are worse
lmao
effort has sent me backwards
joke life
>>280431
Society has deluded us into thinking life is a progressive climb upward, it most certainly is not. Effort is never wasted, don’t give up.
Society has deluded us into thinking life is a progressive climb upward, it most certainly is not. Effort is never wasted, don’t give up.
>>280402
Thought loops are familiar to me. For example I'll want to start a project but I get in a loop of trying to start it the "Right way" and then I get overwhelmed by everything I need to learn and then the thought that nothing feels good anymore so who cares? It's just negativity built on negativity.
Thought loops are familiar to me. For example I'll want to start a project but I get in a loop of trying to start it the "Right way" and then I get overwhelmed by everything I need to learn and then the thought that nothing feels good anymore so who cares? It's just negativity built on negativity.
>>280465
You're supposed to hide your method of coping from the people around you. C'mon anon…
You're supposed to hide your method of coping from the people around you. C'mon anon…
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I know I've posted this before but man every time I just get so mindblown by having wasted the last 10 years of my life.
Like I want to make something that requires 3D modeling and drawing and I keep thinking how I was interested in that when I was in school but never did anything with because I lacked the patience to sit through the long tutorials and the patience for the tedious work you need to do when modeling something. Same with drawing. I went half through a drawing book and stopped when it got really difficult.
I also feel like I missed out so much on knowledge and 2nd-hand experience by not reading books and instead filling my brain with inane imageboard internet posts.
I just learned and experienced nothing. I hate myself so much for it and I don't know how to make peace with this even if I can't change the past. My image of myself is just so low because of this and my confidence is 0 which interferes with my ability to learn new stuff because setbacks quickly make me spiral into despair with no success to cling on to tell myself "hey you're not worthless".
Like I want to make something that requires 3D modeling and drawing and I keep thinking how I was interested in that when I was in school but never did anything with because I lacked the patience to sit through the long tutorials and the patience for the tedious work you need to do when modeling something. Same with drawing. I went half through a drawing book and stopped when it got really difficult.
I also feel like I missed out so much on knowledge and 2nd-hand experience by not reading books and instead filling my brain with inane imageboard internet posts.
I just learned and experienced nothing. I hate myself so much for it and I don't know how to make peace with this even if I can't change the past. My image of myself is just so low because of this and my confidence is 0 which interferes with my ability to learn new stuff because setbacks quickly make me spiral into despair with no success to cling on to tell myself "hey you're not worthless".
>>280472
Don’t lament your lack of corner office
You’re a former crawfish
By just existing your accomplished
Don’t lament your lack of corner office
You’re a former crawfish
By just existing your accomplished
>>280472
Forgive yourself anon. The people who can grind out a skill, spending 4+ years on some subject and never lose ground are motivated by something we can't really understand.
Forgive yourself anon. The people who can grind out a skill, spending 4+ years on some subject and never lose ground are motivated by something we can't really understand.
>>280480
i got through university by sheer delusion. i pictured being rewarded with money for my own land and privacy, some ideal green farmland.
Instead my efforts lead only to suffering, debt, illness.
If you know the truth deep down that the effort is pointless then of course you will not be able to motivate yourself
i got through university by sheer delusion. i pictured being rewarded with money for my own land and privacy, some ideal green farmland.
Instead my efforts lead only to suffering, debt, illness.
If you know the truth deep down that the effort is pointless then of course you will not be able to motivate yourself
my 60+ yr old mom has better eyesight than me and she can somehow stare at unfiltered flickering blue screens for hours with lights on daily without ruining her eyesight while I feel mine getting gradually worse as I age
genetic determinism is just too true and too bitter of truth to swallow for most
realistically im unable to do even simple jobs that even lazy normie teens are able to do now like food delivery on a bike or parents car
can't do any sports or even fight in a war as i would die first having such a disadvantage
genetic determinism is just too true and too bitter of truth to swallow for most
realistically im unable to do even simple jobs that even lazy normie teens are able to do now like food delivery on a bike or parents car
can't do any sports or even fight in a war as i would die first having such a disadvantage
I have not been doing some shit my mom wants me to do lately so my parents summoned me to have a "talk". You have probably had something like this before. I really didn't want to talk about it and when I mentioned my depression I became even more resistant in talking about it. I wonder why. I can only assume it is because my parents are basically strangers to me and they have never once given me emotional support. We are not close, it feels like talking about my feelings with a coworker or something, obviously not something you want to do. I hate it when my parents only pretend to care when I start fucking up and not doing what they want. How could they be so oblivious to my suffering? It literally takes me not doing shit they want me to do for them to see it or have any awareness of it, that is how little they know me. They literally forget that I am a depressed loser living in total isolation because I am too mentally ill to handle life. I have to admit that hurts. I wish I had someone I was close to and someone I felt comfortable getting emotional support from, but I don't.
>>280505
You gotta look at it from their perspective. What are they supposed to do? They can't fix, they don't know what's wrong with you, and all they could do is either push you to do things you don't want or leave you alone and enable you so you get worse and become even more dependent on them.
If you need a hug, hug them. If you need to talk about something, talk about it. But don't expect them to be able to solve your problems or say more than a couple platitudes. It's just not in most people's skillsets. Most therapists aren't better at it either.
You gotta look at it from their perspective. What are they supposed to do? They can't fix, they don't know what's wrong with you, and all they could do is either push you to do things you don't want or leave you alone and enable you so you get worse and become even more dependent on them.
If you need a hug, hug them. If you need to talk about something, talk about it. But don't expect them to be able to solve your problems or say more than a couple platitudes. It's just not in most people's skillsets. Most therapists aren't better at it either.
>>280505
Highly relatable. All i can say is that it is dangerous to actually open up to them. They already harmed you by not raising you in a way that lead to you bring independent and trusting toward them, so you shouldnt suddenly open up now. This society is a terrible dystopia of loneliness
>>280506
it's nor possible to see from the perspective of people like that for me. They live in a different reality and are like a different cruel reptillian species
Highly relatable. All i can say is that it is dangerous to actually open up to them. They already harmed you by not raising you in a way that lead to you bring independent and trusting toward them, so you shouldnt suddenly open up now. This society is a terrible dystopia of loneliness
>>280506
it's nor possible to see from the perspective of people like that for me. They live in a different reality and are like a different cruel reptillian species
>>280505
Not entirely sure how to communicate this to you, but I – as wiz to wiz – am willing to talk to you and help you in whatever way and to whatever length I may be able. I care about a fellow wiz.
I will just say this though: do not blame yourself. You really (I'm assuming) did nothing to end up in the situation you are now in. For whatever reason, we are just born to the people we are born to. You are feeling great emotional pressure from loneliness and this can become dangerous, because you are trapped all day long within your own mind while at the same time you are painfully trapped within a house of uncaring unfeeling unsympathetic parents. I CAUTION YOU WIZBRO, do not let yourself get overwhelmed by your feelings. If you must cry, cry. But retain rationality. The situation is not hopeless. Practically, can you identify why you are depressed?
Also, I've known many boomer-ish parents who seem to dislike their own children and just cannot sympathetically care for them. Of course, this is all the more painful, because that's exactly what parents are supposed to do. Boomers are often very insecure people, but outwardly they project arrogance and affective coldness to cover this. Their lives were "successful and social" and owing to this they personally lack any knowledge comparable to the spheres of isolation we suffer in. In any case, you are not alone in experiencing a lack of parental warmth.
Not entirely sure how to communicate this to you, but I – as wiz to wiz – am willing to talk to you and help you in whatever way and to whatever length I may be able. I care about a fellow wiz.
I will just say this though: do not blame yourself. You really (I'm assuming) did nothing to end up in the situation you are now in. For whatever reason, we are just born to the people we are born to. You are feeling great emotional pressure from loneliness and this can become dangerous, because you are trapped all day long within your own mind while at the same time you are painfully trapped within a house of uncaring unfeeling unsympathetic parents. I CAUTION YOU WIZBRO, do not let yourself get overwhelmed by your feelings. If you must cry, cry. But retain rationality. The situation is not hopeless. Practically, can you identify why you are depressed?
Also, I've known many boomer-ish parents who seem to dislike their own children and just cannot sympathetically care for them. Of course, this is all the more painful, because that's exactly what parents are supposed to do. Boomers are often very insecure people, but outwardly they project arrogance and affective coldness to cover this. Their lives were "successful and social" and owing to this they personally lack any knowledge comparable to the spheres of isolation we suffer in. In any case, you are not alone in experiencing a lack of parental warmth.
I really don't want to move back in with my father. I wish I had enough cash to justify even one more month in my apartment but there's nothing that can be done.
Goodbye AC, in the middle of a Southern US heatwave. Goodbye toilet that flushes normally. Hello insects, mice, heat, and my smothering father.
It's all too damn depressing. I went to university to escape this. I didn't want a crazy 700k yearly software job, I just wanted to be a paper pusher for a modest living wage. I never wanted to return to my home town but here I am now, out of options. It's either Dad's trailer or the streets. God help me. I have to leave tomorrow, and I just don't want to go.
Goodbye AC, in the middle of a Southern US heatwave. Goodbye toilet that flushes normally. Hello insects, mice, heat, and my smothering father.
It's all too damn depressing. I went to university to escape this. I didn't want a crazy 700k yearly software job, I just wanted to be a paper pusher for a modest living wage. I never wanted to return to my home town but here I am now, out of options. It's either Dad's trailer or the streets. God help me. I have to leave tomorrow, and I just don't want to go.
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OCD has put me in the worst agony that i've ever been in my life recently, i do nothing but sit in my bed 12 hours a day and talk to myself while beling flayed alive by anxiety, the last two months have been like this, i've barely eaten in the last week, i'm constantly nauseous and there's always pressure around my temples, summer heat is exarcebating all of these issues, i'm most likely going to die by suicide soon, it's a real shame since things were looking up for me and the trigger is so embarrassingly stupid, wish i would have died in my sleep before i got the opportunity to experience this cancer-like misery
>>280562
Had a laugh at this post, thank you. At least I still can laugh.
>>280571
Having a disorder is terrible. When you're not ill you at least can filter the shit out using your mind. When you have a disorder you just fucking can't. I commiserate you. The "cancer-like misery" is truly the worst thing you can ever experience.
By the way what triggered your obsessions?
Had a laugh at this post, thank you. At least I still can laugh.
>>280571
Having a disorder is terrible. When you're not ill you at least can filter the shit out using your mind. When you have a disorder you just fucking can't. I commiserate you. The "cancer-like misery" is truly the worst thing you can ever experience.
By the way what triggered your obsessions?
>tfw you start approaching the age of several people who were adults (e.g. parents, older brother, aunts, uncles, etc.) when they traumatized you as a kid and you still don't understand why they did that thing that traumatized you and when you bring it up they simply respond with "I don't remember that happening" or "that was a long time ago" or "get over it" even when you're diagnosed with depression, social anxiety, PTSD, and two psychotic disorders as a 34-year-old man
>>280592
They just don't care anon, they'll never understand how they treat us because eventually they'll be dead and forgotten anyways. I can't wait for my future where everyone from my past is gone, I want to interreact with the new world and possibly a future family if it ever happens.
They just don't care anon, they'll never understand how they treat us because eventually they'll be dead and forgotten anyways. I can't wait for my future where everyone from my past is gone, I want to interreact with the new world and possibly a future family if it ever happens.
I feel like I'm trapped. All I do is browse imageboards all day. How do I break free and do something different?
>>280594
Put on your shoes and walk outside to buy a coffee or a chicken sandwich.
Begin learning a creative software package or traditional medium
Vidya
Put on your shoes and walk outside to buy a coffee or a chicken sandwich.
Begin learning a creative software package or traditional medium
Vidya
>>280592
Many people die many years before they're laid in the grave. These people are spiritually dead.
Many people die many years before they're laid in the grave. These people are spiritually dead.
I'm 30, and want to die in my sleep. I've drank so much that I couldn't walk sober. I will never kill myself. What did I do to deserve this, seriously.
>>280594
I think all actions starts with a belief that it's possible and that you are capable of doing it. Without that faith, you'll be paralyzed. On some level you just don't believe that you can do anything other than browse imageboards. The reason all your half-hearted attempts fail is because there is nothing behind them. You're convinced it will never work and that it's futile and you only hope that your milquetoast microstep in the right direction will somehow prove you wrong, but of course it doesn't. In reality, the reverse is needed, most people start out with a conviction that they set out to prove i.e. "I'm smart" therefore they feel the need to prove it to everyone else by acing that test or solving that puzzle. "I'm good at video games" and suddenly it's all so necessary to beat every challenge the game throws at you and in record fashion.
Basically, it's just about your mindset. It's changeable, but of course without a belief that it's possible, you'll never really try to think through it or experiment on your own.
I think all actions starts with a belief that it's possible and that you are capable of doing it. Without that faith, you'll be paralyzed. On some level you just don't believe that you can do anything other than browse imageboards. The reason all your half-hearted attempts fail is because there is nothing behind them. You're convinced it will never work and that it's futile and you only hope that your milquetoast microstep in the right direction will somehow prove you wrong, but of course it doesn't. In reality, the reverse is needed, most people start out with a conviction that they set out to prove i.e. "I'm smart" therefore they feel the need to prove it to everyone else by acing that test or solving that puzzle. "I'm good at video games" and suddenly it's all so necessary to beat every challenge the game throws at you and in record fashion.
Basically, it's just about your mindset. It's changeable, but of course without a belief that it's possible, you'll never really try to think through it or experiment on your own.
IWNBS
I will never be successful
I will never make it
I will never escape
I will always be a wagie
I will always be mediocre
I will be trapped with normgroids forever
I will never be successful
I will never make it
I will never escape
I will always be a wagie
I will always be mediocre
I will be trapped with normgroids forever
Okay perhaps my post wasn't overly verbose but this all "just overcome" thing is a major meme. For it to work you at least must have a good start, so it will only work in a limited amount of cases.
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Consciousness was a mistake.
Everything makes sense if you think about biology but being an individual, being able to construct a narrative, having hopes and dreams all while being an insignificant grain of sand, just a +/-1 in a statistic sucks. I know that no one cares about me because I am just another stranger, just another from the countless of people with problems, nothing special. Yet since I perceive life from my POV I feel important even though I'm not. I intensely feel my suffering but for others it's just a piece of text they gloss over. Same way I gloss over the wall of posts each complaining about the sad state of their own "universe". I don't know how to just accept it. I never get used to this. I wish we could all have our dreams fulfilled and be happy and not just get "filtered" by life because we had bad genes or were at the wrong time in the wrong place.
Everything makes sense if you think about biology but being an individual, being able to construct a narrative, having hopes and dreams all while being an insignificant grain of sand, just a +/-1 in a statistic sucks. I know that no one cares about me because I am just another stranger, just another from the countless of people with problems, nothing special. Yet since I perceive life from my POV I feel important even though I'm not. I intensely feel my suffering but for others it's just a piece of text they gloss over. Same way I gloss over the wall of posts each complaining about the sad state of their own "universe". I don't know how to just accept it. I never get used to this. I wish we could all have our dreams fulfilled and be happy and not just get "filtered" by life because we had bad genes or were at the wrong time in the wrong place.
>>280633
$ dict gloss
> v 1: give a shine or gloss to, usually by rubbing
> 2: provide interlinear explanations for words or phrases; "He
> annotated on what his teacher had written" [syn: comment,
> annotate]
> 3: provide an interlinear translation of a word or phrase
> 4: gloss or excuse; "color a lie" [syn: color, colour]
Pls explain yourself.
$ dict gloss
> v 1: give a shine or gloss to, usually by rubbing
> 2: provide interlinear explanations for words or phrases; "He
> annotated on what his teacher had written" [syn: comment,
> annotate]
> 3: provide an interlinear translation of a word or phrase
> 4: gloss or excuse; "color a lie" [syn: color, colour]
Pls explain yourself.
>>280641
It means to look over /review briefly, and without much attention.
As in: "he glossed over the paragraph in the textbook".
It means to look over /review briefly, and without much attention.
As in: "he glossed over the paragraph in the textbook".
>>280641
gloss over (something)
1. To minimize or omit something in an account in order to obscure, conceal, or diminish the importance of it.
>When I told Mom and Dad about my night, I just glossed over the fact that I'd gotten a parking ticket.
>You can tell they're trying to gloss over the poor Q3 sales in their investors' earnings report.
2. To give only superficial or perfunctory attention to something.
>I don't understand why this class glosses over such an important part of Medieval history.
https://idioms.thefreedictionary.com/gloss+over
gloss over (something)
1. To minimize or omit something in an account in order to obscure, conceal, or diminish the importance of it.
>When I told Mom and Dad about my night, I just glossed over the fact that I'd gotten a parking ticket.
>You can tell they're trying to gloss over the poor Q3 sales in their investors' earnings report.
2. To give only superficial or perfunctory attention to something.
>I don't understand why this class glosses over such an important part of Medieval history.
https://idioms.thefreedictionary.com/gloss+over
I've been sitting outside and today the weather has cycled through mild blue skies, rain, sunshine behind the clouds, sun beating down warming my body, wind, heavy rain, and now sunny rain. I feel like I'm in a movie montage where someone sits and does nothing while the seasons change, and soon it'll reach the part where I'm old and die. I hope it gets there soon.
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Bought a radio and hope to use it as a medium. Lock up all my internet devices and have the radio as a constant source of novel information, but one where I don't have to take action to choose it or feel the temptation of the internet. Just turn it on and off.
I didn't realize you could spread your own cold sores and I've compulsively been picking at them.
Now they're on my penis, nose and chin.
Fuck my life, I'm a virgin with herpes now.
Now they're on my penis, nose and chin.
Fuck my life, I'm a virgin with herpes now.
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Today I realized that because I haven't been able to pay for my health insurance for over 3 months; I won't be able to use the insurance to pick up and pay for my meds (Adderall, Lexapro, and Abilify) nor will I be able to see any of my doctors until next year.
Fuck all my meds except my Adderall. I really need my Adderall. I haven't had any Adderall since April. It feels awful.
Fuck all my meds except my Adderall. I really need my Adderall. I haven't had any Adderall since April. It feels awful.
>>280671
Adderall isn't that expensive anon you could probably do online surveys to make the $30ish dollars necessary.
Adderall isn't that expensive anon you could probably do online surveys to make the $30ish dollars necessary.
>>280682
Last time I bought Adderall outta' my own pocket was like in 2018 and it'd cost me three hundred US dollars, not thirty.
Much less expensive than Abilify though, for whatever reason which was nine hundred dollars.
Last time I bought Adderall outta' my own pocket was like in 2018 and it'd cost me three hundred US dollars, not thirty.
Much less expensive than Abilify though, for whatever reason which was nine hundred dollars.
>>280683
Also forgot to add that I still need to see a psychiatrist first to give me a prescription and I can't see any of my Kaiser doctors as I no longer have any insurance so I might have to find a new psychiatrist who might charge me up to $250 or $500 for the initial consultation. One of my old psychiatrists threatened to place a restraining order and call the cops on me if he ever saw me near his offices.
Also forgot to add that I still need to see a psychiatrist first to give me a prescription and I can't see any of my Kaiser doctors as I no longer have any insurance so I might have to find a new psychiatrist who might charge me up to $250 or $500 for the initial consultation. One of my old psychiatrists threatened to place a restraining order and call the cops on me if he ever saw me near his offices.
>>280691
Yeah one of my psychiatrists once gave me a GoodRx thing which barely made a difference in prices.
Yeah one of my psychiatrists once gave me a GoodRx thing which barely made a difference in prices.
I miss how much closer everyone in the family used to be like in the 2005 to 2007 period. I mean, most of my family used to live within walking distance from my home. My father lived with his girlfriend about five minutes away from my apartment in 2005. One of my aunts and her kids lived half an hour away on foot and there'd usually be someone awake like at 3 or 4 AM to let me in. I could very easily find my other two aunts and cousins as they'd been living in the exact same apartments from like 2003 to 2009 or so and were all about two hours away in a train and a bus trip.
Nowadays everybody keeps moving around and I can't figure out where my father lives as I no longer have a cell phone and last I saw him he was living in a homeless shelter in 2020 somewhere in South Central Los Angeles and they apparently didn't let visitors in.
Man, 2006 was such a comfy year for me. Still had my PCs and games to keep me distracted.
Nowadays everybody keeps moving around and I can't figure out where my father lives as I no longer have a cell phone and last I saw him he was living in a homeless shelter in 2020 somewhere in South Central Los Angeles and they apparently didn't let visitors in.
Man, 2006 was such a comfy year for me. Still had my PCs and games to keep me distracted.
The usa is satans clown kingdom. This country does not deserve my tax revenue so i ldarmaxx and will never work
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Still a year away from achieving this, between paying my debt and saving a lot of money in case it all goes south, but I feel you, I can't wait for the day I leave this place for good.
Still a year away from achieving this, between paying my debt and saving a lot of money in case it all goes south, but I feel you, I can't wait for the day I leave this place for good.
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I feel that I am a thoroughly shallow and empty person. I have no real inner world or imagination, I do not feel truly passionate about anything, and my thoughts are generally repetitive and uninspired. I am in the shallows of existence. My 'world' comprises nothing intellectually stimulating or affectively vibrant, I am only concerned with effect. Yet, even in that regard am I sorely incapable.
Words aren't satisfactory to convey what I think and feel. The closest word is 'discontent', an all-encompassing one.
Words aren't satisfactory to convey what I think and feel. The closest word is 'discontent', an all-encompassing one.
Went to be at around 8 PM last night and got out of bed roughly 12 hours later at around 8:30 PM. The hallucinations are still here. They don't want me to exercise. My mother doesn't want me taking antipsychotics anymore, nor just about any other psychotropic medication. I have no health insurance until next year. The hallucinations are laughing at me.
Fuck everything.
Fuck everything.
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