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i ruined everything i ruined the ony friendship i had by doing the worst imaginable thing i could possibly do and now its all over they will never trust me again its irredeemable and irreparable i lost the only person i cared about because my mind fabricates events and feelings and i dont know what to do anymore i am filled with despair regret and guilt
i mean my only sorta-friend was a boomer at my local gym, id spend hours chatting with, and i abandoned him while he was on chemotherapy for cancer, and i dont feel bad about it, and never think about it
Don't bother friends are a joke. If they can't accept your mental illness they're even more of a joke.
>>281235
what if your mental illness hurts them? and they did accept it and try but its over now
what if your mental illness hurts them? and they did accept it and try but its over now
>>281242
Nothing. There's nothing, wiz. Don't fret over it too much. You can manage it alone. I never felt like loosing friends because I never felt like acquiring them, so I can't relate. But I know that you will learn to live with it. And the sooner you do it the better. Good luck, wiz.
Nothing. There's nothing, wiz. Don't fret over it too much. You can manage it alone. I never felt like loosing friends because I never felt like acquiring them, so I can't relate. But I know that you will learn to live with it. And the sooner you do it the better. Good luck, wiz.
>>281231
All you can really do now is have parasocial relationships with anons on image boards. Or so I'd say, but I'm finding it harder and harder to relate to people these days as they all seem so young.
All you can really do now is have parasocial relationships with anons on image boards. Or so I'd say, but I'm finding it harder and harder to relate to people these days as they all seem so young.
You should be glad it's over and you don't have to worry anymore about other people's feelings or needs. It's so much better to be alone and do whatever you want.
>>281243
>>281255
now im alone and still crying and worrying about their feelings and overwhelmed with guilt and regret they were the best friend i ever had and they were also bpd like me but they had it far more under control and i ruined it by acting completely psycho because i couldnt handle that feeling anymore but i didnt mean the threats i jt wanted to reach them somehow i dont htink they will ever believe me i started crying right after i reached them after the threats and i tried apologizing i dont think it will work htey are probably really hutr right now and will never trust me again
>>281255
now im alone and still crying and worrying about their feelings and overwhelmed with guilt and regret they were the best friend i ever had and they were also bpd like me but they had it far more under control and i ruined it by acting completely psycho because i couldnt handle that feeling anymore but i didnt mean the threats i jt wanted to reach them somehow i dont htink they will ever believe me i started crying right after i reached them after the threats and i tried apologizing i dont think it will work htey are probably really hutr right now and will never trust me again
>>281256
See? People just make you feel guilty and confused and you have to worry about their feelings and oh what does it mean when he/she/them says this oh no.
It's all a bunch of tedious bullshit with no payoff. You really don't need other people. They are like parasites that you've convinced yourself are actually somehow helping you, but they just drain your resources, time, energy, and create problems for you that aren't even real problems (drama) but just their feelings needing to be appeased somehow. Dealing with your own feelings is hard enough, but now you have to worry about someone elses? Fuck that.
See? People just make you feel guilty and confused and you have to worry about their feelings and oh what does it mean when he/she/them says this oh no.
It's all a bunch of tedious bullshit with no payoff. You really don't need other people. They are like parasites that you've convinced yourself are actually somehow helping you, but they just drain your resources, time, energy, and create problems for you that aren't even real problems (drama) but just their feelings needing to be appeased somehow. Dealing with your own feelings is hard enough, but now you have to worry about someone elses? Fuck that.
>>281262
Well, you're the one crying and suffering because you refuse to realize the truth. Meanwhile, I am tranquil, having fun and enjoying life in solitude.
Make another friend if you're such a masochist. Make a dozen, if one idiot wasn't enough pain for you LMAO
Well, you're the one crying and suffering because you refuse to realize the truth. Meanwhile, I am tranquil, having fun and enjoying life in solitude.
Make another friend if you're such a masochist. Make a dozen, if one idiot wasn't enough pain for you LMAO
>>281263
>>281258
That's delusional. Just because your mental illness does not allow you to have healthy friendship doesn't mean what you said holds for everyone. You'd better explain OP that he neends to learn living the way he is.
OP you might as well ask other BPD wizards around here some advice. They might be helpful, you know.
>>281258
That's delusional. Just because your mental illness does not allow you to have healthy friendship doesn't mean what you said holds for everyone. You'd better explain OP that he neends to learn living the way he is.
OP you might as well ask other BPD wizards around here some advice. They might be helpful, you know.
>>281266
what for? they will never forgive me there is no point i cant just apologize for this it was too far
what for? they will never forgive me there is no point i cant just apologize for this it was too far
>>281268
I'm not BPD or if I am I don't know about that so can't give any insights or comprehensive advice on how to cope and go on with living. They might. If don't feel like living we've got a bunch of wholesome suicide threads.
I'm not BPD or if I am I don't know about that so can't give any insights or comprehensive advice on how to cope and go on with living. They might. If don't feel like living we've got a bunch of wholesome suicide threads.
>>281269
i dont know any bpd people here and i dont want to go on living if ive betrayed their trust permanently
i dont know any bpd people here and i dont want to go on living if ive betrayed their trust permanently
>>281269
im trying to give them time now i will try to get better but im so scared they will never look at me as a friend again
im trying to give them time now i will try to get better but im so scared they will never look at me as a friend again
>>281266
Being happy in solitude is mental illness. But getting hurt over and over and trying again and expecting different results is apparently not madness.
There's no such thing as healthy relationships. It's a fool's game. But you've been convinced that not playing the game means there's something wrong with you, that it's your fault for not being able to make it work. In reality, the kind of people that can thrive in relationships are the most sick of them all.
Being happy in solitude is mental illness. But getting hurt over and over and trying again and expecting different results is apparently not madness.
There's no such thing as healthy relationships. It's a fool's game. But you've been convinced that not playing the game means there's something wrong with you, that it's your fault for not being able to make it work. In reality, the kind of people that can thrive in relationships are the most sick of them all.
>>281278
i like it and somehow i never heard it before despite listening to a few of their albums
i like it and somehow i never heard it before despite listening to a few of their albums
im having a panic attack i dont know what to do im alone in a really dark room in a place im not usually in i deleted the app because it sort of made me panic but now i panic even more because i cant see their presence at all not even in the form of online
You sound like a BPD discordtranny. I hope you kill yourself.
There should be a rule against allowing BPD "people" on wizardchan. It is well known their "chronic emptiness" leads them to become highly, like ridiculously hypersocial butterflies, on top of heavy drug addicts (although I do not have anything against drug users, just pointing the link between needing social skills for dealers against straight edge wizards). Do not be fooled by their poor and desperate attempts to fit in by mirroring the collective mood. They're lying. It won't be long till this worm invites his wide, wide circle of normalfag larper "such le loner" friends to this place. Fucking die already, OP.
There should be a rule against allowing BPD "people" on wizardchan. It is well known their "chronic emptiness" leads them to become highly, like ridiculously hypersocial butterflies, on top of heavy drug addicts (although I do not have anything against drug users, just pointing the link between needing social skills for dealers against straight edge wizards). Do not be fooled by their poor and desperate attempts to fit in by mirroring the collective mood. They're lying. It won't be long till this worm invites his wide, wide circle of normalfag larper "such le loner" friends to this place. Fucking die already, OP.
wizchan 2023 literally succubi posting and crying about ruined friendships
kys OP go back to r9k or crystal cafe
kys OP go back to r9k or crystal cafe
>>281297
wizards can't be emotional and cry and express their feelings? go back to /b/ with that toxic masculinity mindset sweetie
wizards can't be emotional and cry and express their feelings? go back to /b/ with that toxic masculinity mindset sweetie
>>281274
>There's no such thing as healthy relationships.
I tell you, you're delusional. There are intelligent people and when they meet they form healthy relationships. It's hard to believe this when you're mentally ill (in my experience at least), but that's the reality. I repeat it again, I would never believe it myself if I didn't see it in real life, when I still participated in it.
>>281295
Honestly, at first OP didn't look too suspicious, but after >>281278 I'm pretty convinced he's just an underage succubus who wants to farm some attention on goddamn wizchan. That's pathetic. I agree that such behavior should not be encouraged. We have depression general to vent and in my experience it never fails.
>There's no such thing as healthy relationships.
I tell you, you're delusional. There are intelligent people and when they meet they form healthy relationships. It's hard to believe this when you're mentally ill (in my experience at least), but that's the reality. I repeat it again, I would never believe it myself if I didn't see it in real life, when I still participated in it.
>>281295
Honestly, at first OP didn't look too suspicious, but after >>281278 I'm pretty convinced he's just an underage succubus who wants to farm some attention on goddamn wizchan. That's pathetic. I agree that such behavior should not be encouraged. We have depression general to vent and in my experience it never fails.
>>281301
You're the one that's delusional if you don't understand that the most important part of their little sick game is to make it look like they are happy. We are a happy family while the neighbors are watching, we are a happy couple that goes on vacation every year when we tell it to our friends and acquaintances, everything is just great until the doors close. The other part of the sick game is that, the only relationships that manage work in the long run require one person to "give in" and basically swallow the other person's shit the entire time. Agreeableness, as a personality trait, is the number one predictor of having lots of friends. Why do you think that is?
The idea that two intelligent people could just get along and make each other happy ignores the fact that we're just animals underneath and that the more intelligence you have, the better you are at rationalizing your own instincts.
You're the one that's delusional if you don't understand that the most important part of their little sick game is to make it look like they are happy. We are a happy family while the neighbors are watching, we are a happy couple that goes on vacation every year when we tell it to our friends and acquaintances, everything is just great until the doors close. The other part of the sick game is that, the only relationships that manage work in the long run require one person to "give in" and basically swallow the other person's shit the entire time. Agreeableness, as a personality trait, is the number one predictor of having lots of friends. Why do you think that is?
The idea that two intelligent people could just get along and make each other happy ignores the fact that we're just animals underneath and that the more intelligence you have, the better you are at rationalizing your own instincts.
>>281301
>he's just an underage succubus
what?? i just get emotional when missin my fren lol. grow up retard, there are no gurls on wizchan. but i'm sure u would love if that were true lmao
>he's just an underage succubus
what?? i just get emotional when missin my fren lol. grow up retard, there are no gurls on wizchan. but i'm sure u would love if that were true lmao
>>281316
>wahhh i got absolutely asshurt for no reason on one of ur posts u must be trollin and shitpostin!!!!
again, grow up retard. stop going through life overreacting to everything expecting everyone to understand ur pet peeves or autism diagnosis lmao
>wahhh i got absolutely asshurt for no reason on one of ur posts u must be trollin and shitpostin!!!!
again, grow up retard. stop going through life overreacting to everything expecting everyone to understand ur pet peeves or autism diagnosis lmao
Are we seriously ok letting these kind of blogging 140 character BPDemon shitposters roam free? Really? Fucking really? You do realize after this there's nowhere left to run, right, friend?
>>281995
People like him have no trouble ban evading like crazy and wiping entire catalogs if needed. They're truly subhumans.
>>281995
People like him have no trouble ban evading like crazy and wiping entire catalogs if needed. They're truly subhumans.
i cant remember the last time i was happy every day is so stressful and horrible ia m overwhelmed with fear guilt regret and only negative meotions nothing positive at all
i was meant to protect them and instead i hurt them how am i this fucked up i am so dysfuncitonal i hate myself i hate my mom for birthing me i wish i could undo everything i am not able to deal with this at all i loved them so much i had no other friends they were the only person to accept me and i fucking hurt them in return
>>281231
It must be nice to have a parent you can rely on and not a schizophrenic mother and a narcissistic deadbeat father
It must be nice to have a parent you can rely on and not a schizophrenic mother and a narcissistic deadbeat father
I haven't spoken to anyone for days
I haven't spoken to anyone in a good way for like a month and a half
I haven't spoken to anyone in a good way for like a month and a half
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i'm diagnosed with bpd and i miss when i was like op, even though it was its own kind of hell, which no one would understand and only hate you and see you as an evil person for it.
now i'm more like an empty husk. the only emotions i generally feel are boredom and irritation.
now i'm more like an empty husk. the only emotions i generally feel are boredom and irritation.
Friendships are just as transient as any other aspect of human life. It's important to go in to relationships with the expectation that it will some day end abruptly. You may die before that day comes and can consider that the relationship had last forever, but given enough time, people will separate. A first "hello" is always accompanied by a final "goodbye".
It's good for OP to feel empathy for potentially hurting a fellow's feelings, but it's important to know that outside of fairytales, friendships crumbling is the normal, default course of them. No use fretting over what could only be avoided by dying before it happened.
It's good for OP to feel empathy for potentially hurting a fellow's feelings, but it's important to know that outside of fairytales, friendships crumbling is the normal, default course of them. No use fretting over what could only be avoided by dying before it happened.
Give him a small gift of something you know he likes, and apologize for what you did. The important thing is not the gift, nor the words, the important thing is to see that you are a good man who recognizes his mistakes and tries to change for the better, regardless of whether or not this fixes your relationship.
>>282865
Give him a cyber-gift of something you know he likes and cyber-apologize for what you did. The important thing is not the cyber-gift, nor the cyber-words, the important thing is to see that you are a cyber-man who recognizes his cyber-mistakes and tries to change for the better, regardless of whether or not this fixes your cyber- "relationship".
Give him a cyber-gift of something you know he likes and cyber-apologize for what you did. The important thing is not the cyber-gift, nor the cyber-words, the important thing is to see that you are a cyber-man who recognizes his cyber-mistakes and tries to change for the better, regardless of whether or not this fixes your cyber- "relationship".
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>>282770
>That's nice and all except OP is not human. People like him are a wizards biggest threat and mortal enemy.
They're the succubi we've been talking about.
>That's nice and all except OP is not human. People like him are a wizards biggest threat and mortal enemy.
They're the succubi we've been talking about.
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>>283233
The OP is making a thread about how his cyber friend left him, for being a cyber idiot. Even though their entire relationship is fake because it is in a computer context
The OP is making a thread about how his cyber friend left him, for being a cyber idiot. Even though their entire relationship is fake because it is in a computer context
>>283234
you know nothing about it, we were close and would have met sometime in the future
you know nothing about it, we were close and would have met sometime in the future
>>283233
wizchan is intended for male virgins (not even above the age of 30), nothing less, nothing more. you don't get to walk around and lecture others on whatever your schizophrenic mind perceives as the "real wizardry".
notice how no one is enforcing your delusions? because discussing platonic relationships, especially when the fallout is due to mental illness, is nothing forbidden, let alone against the ordinary on /dep/. a significant portion of the userbase are people with bpd, because there its one of the most repulsive traits in a male.
so while your idea of not caring about relationships (even platonic) seems great now, you'll just descend into madness (not the good kind, because you're not intelligent) and experience self-induced psychosis. like others, you also seek it out on imageboards, which offer you very superficial interaction, but if that is the future you want for yourself, then fine, as long as you don't walk around like a e-whore, lecturing others about what certain communities are for, without any regard for other people in them.
i will post in my thread because it doesn't violate the rules, tyvm
wizchan is intended for male virgins (not even above the age of 30), nothing less, nothing more. you don't get to walk around and lecture others on whatever your schizophrenic mind perceives as the "real wizardry".
notice how no one is enforcing your delusions? because discussing platonic relationships, especially when the fallout is due to mental illness, is nothing forbidden, let alone against the ordinary on /dep/. a significant portion of the userbase are people with bpd, because there its one of the most repulsive traits in a male.
so while your idea of not caring about relationships (even platonic) seems great now, you'll just descend into madness (not the good kind, because you're not intelligent) and experience self-induced psychosis. like others, you also seek it out on imageboards, which offer you very superficial interaction, but if that is the future you want for yourself, then fine, as long as you don't walk around like a e-whore, lecturing others about what certain communities are for, without any regard for other people in them.
i will post in my thread because it doesn't violate the rules, tyvm
>>283233
>>283238
tl;dr you won't grow a beard, receive a cloat, wand, magical abilities and """enlightenment""", you will tie a rope around your neck when you realize that you have no opportunities to connect with others anymore, and that you're not intelligent enough to larp as the reincarnation of tesla, newton, or anyone with an iq greater than 140, for that matter.
>>283238
tl;dr you won't grow a beard, receive a cloat, wand, magical abilities and """enlightenment""", you will tie a rope around your neck when you realize that you have no opportunities to connect with others anymore, and that you're not intelligent enough to larp as the reincarnation of tesla, newton, or anyone with an iq greater than 140, for that matter.
>>283233
It's literally chronically online bpd faggots with online relationships sad their boyfriend left them LOL Niggers make this threads for attention and nothing more
I don't know what's that got to do with wizchan, it's a thread that fits on /r9k/ or some gay subreddit for relationship advice, not wizchan.
Look at this redditor >>283238 for example, you can tell he or she is mentally ill by the way he types and talks about "platonic relationship" and "bpd".
He is such a faggot he projects his mental illness onto others.
It's literally chronically online bpd faggots with online relationships sad their boyfriend left them LOL Niggers make this threads for attention and nothing more
I don't know what's that got to do with wizchan, it's a thread that fits on /r9k/ or some gay subreddit for relationship advice, not wizchan.
Look at this redditor >>283238 for example, you can tell he or she is mentally ill by the way he types and talks about "platonic relationship" and "bpd".
He is such a faggot he projects his mental illness onto others.
>>283241
stfu, brainlet, narrowing terms down to the best of our abilities and being as precise as we can is what we have always done as a species, and will continue to do.
"redditor" refers to a political orientation, not someone's lingo or usage of paragraphs, which you should be using when it's logically sound, like every other literate person
stfu, brainlet, narrowing terms down to the best of our abilities and being as precise as we can is what we have always done as a species, and will continue to do.
"redditor" refers to a political orientation, not someone's lingo or usage of paragraphs, which you should be using when it's logically sound, like every other literate person
>>283241
your brain is struggling a bit, especially since it's contextually pretty clear that it wasn't my (op's) post, as i replied to it in the next post.
your brain is struggling a bit, especially since it's contextually pretty clear that it wasn't my (op's) post, as i replied to it in the next post.
>>283237
Online friends are not real. If you feel alone, learn to live with yourself, and try to improve your self-esteem, since no matter how much you interact with other people, you may also feel alone, since loneliness is a feeling that comes when a person feels rejected by others. others, when it is the opposite.
Online friends are not real. If you feel alone, learn to live with yourself, and try to improve your self-esteem, since no matter how much you interact with other people, you may also feel alone, since loneliness is a feeling that comes when a person feels rejected by others. others, when it is the opposite.
>>283251
That faggot can only blogposts about how much he misses his online friend and wants him to come back into his life, he also listens to sad music and cries! Poor little succubus!
That faggot can only blogposts about how much he misses his online friend and wants him to come back into his life, he also listens to sad music and cries! Poor little succubus!
>>283253
What I really want to know is why the hell did it take so long for other anons to notice whats going on in this thread: a hypersocialized zoomer bpd foid obsessed with e-relationships straight off the discord boat blogging about her boring shitass life.
I told her, as is my duty, to fuck off and kill herself from the first posts. Well, now you see I was right. And my god the nerve of this foid, "my thread my rules" my little narcissistic freak, never heard of unspoken rules I see. Don't blame ya, must be hard to become aware of them in the environment your kind lurks: shitty discord servers full or orbiting and powertripping tranny mods.
I think this thread is salvageable, though. We can have a discussion about the foid/blogger question, as other imageboards and communities slowly disintegrate, relatively obscure and slow places like wizchan will attract these online vultures. I ask you dear friends, how can we defend ourselves against these calamities?
What I really want to know is why the hell did it take so long for other anons to notice whats going on in this thread: a hypersocialized zoomer bpd foid obsessed with e-relationships straight off the discord boat blogging about her boring shitass life.
I told her, as is my duty, to fuck off and kill herself from the first posts. Well, now you see I was right. And my god the nerve of this foid, "my thread my rules" my little narcissistic freak, never heard of unspoken rules I see. Don't blame ya, must be hard to become aware of them in the environment your kind lurks: shitty discord servers full or orbiting and powertripping tranny mods.
I think this thread is salvageable, though. We can have a discussion about the foid/blogger question, as other imageboards and communities slowly disintegrate, relatively obscure and slow places like wizchan will attract these online vultures. I ask you dear friends, how can we defend ourselves against these calamities?
>>283256
The OP is a poor guy, lonely and miserable, who needs the approval of others to not feel alone. The thing is even sadder when you realize that it's not even a real relationship, and it's just a couple of online messages.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_bq5mStroM
The OP is a poor guy, lonely and miserable, who needs the approval of others to not feel alone. The thing is even sadder when you realize that it's not even a real relationship, and it's just a couple of online messages.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_bq5mStroM
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everyone hates me, things feel surreal and unfixable, I think it's time to check out of life
>>281233
That's cold anon! I still feel bad for abandoning my Wizard boss to die alone evev though we weren't all that close.
That's cold anon! I still feel bad for abandoning my Wizard boss to die alone evev though we weren't all that close.