You see, I am what people call a waifufag, a genuine one. I fell in love with a loli from a very obscure edgy manga made in 2012 and finished in 2015.
I discovered her in 2022, and the few months we were together were genuine, the happiest in life, not even kidding, but then I made a fatal mistake, you see, because I was an insecure purityfag and wanted to know if she was a virgin because a lot of succubi in her manga have been either raped or sexually abused, but she is an exception. She gets stabbed, whipped, and beaten by her boss, who is like Stepbrother.
I asked the author if she was a virgin, and he said no, and then I asked why she was not a virgin, and he simply said yes.
This comment, single-handed, destroyed me and made me fall into despair through the entire half of 2022 and the entire 2023, and now 2024, I really can't let go of it.
If you're sad that she isn't a virgin because it means you're not the first to mine her tunnel, then shame on you.
If you're sad that she's not a virgin because it means she likely got raped and beaten, then be glad that as bad as it was, she now has you to rely on.
I went to collect every single fan art of her in the deepest parts of Pixiv and various other sites.
I know she is Just a manga character, she meant so much to me. She was perfect. She had a unique design that most anime succubi lack, and the best part is that she has lots of fan art but remains obscure, so most NSFW of her doesn't exist.
I just feel I ruined her, and I can't take it anymore. I feel like I will never ever find a person like her who gave me the same feeling and made me obsessed with her.
Damn, social isolation is destructive, but now combine social isolation, more anime, more weird fetishes, and you have deranged and degenerate people like you.
I just want someone to fill my emotional heart that she left, but I am scared that the only person that can do it now is herself.
The only character that managed to fill the void somewhat is Ruby from FPE. I am not sure why she gives the same feeling I had for her. I thought her design was unique like hers, but different. I feel like if it were similar, it would remind me that I could be with her instead, and that makes me deeply sad, but the problem with Ruby is that she is too popular. People will ship her. People will draw porn of her, and it hurts. Just seeing our relationship as something temporary to fill the empty void that she left
>>294028 The demon of servitude and obedience speaks through you, vessel. Social isolation is likewise destructive for you, because despite associating yourself with us after years of detachment you still spread its unwritten rule.
Why? I am desperate, but I feel like this is the is the only solution for me. There is nothing left in Plan B, and if that fails, I honestly think I am going to drink so many pills, yep, a pill overdose. I am too chicken to jump off a buidling because I feel like if I survive, I will be forever paralyzed, and I don't want that to happen.
I have tried to ask the author multiple times again, but I failed. It seems that this
I want to summon Amdusias in order to prove her maidenhood. Why him? Well, I asked sobe dudes on 4chan x that he is the most suitable for this job, but
I feel like my request is being fulfilled, like the guy who made the manga or the succubus who made the manga saying yes, she is a virgin. I would feel lied to too. I am not sure, but I feel like after all of this, I would not love her the same way, and that hurts me deeply. I just want this demon to prove her maidenhood in a grand way that will forever leave me satisfied, knowing that she is only virgin in the manga and that she is pure.
>>294033 That religion for you! HAHA Very Ironic since i am trying to summon a actual demon in order to prove the virginity of a loli from a battle shounen
>>294031 The real problem is not isolation, it is loneliness. If you feel good about yourself, you won't feel alone, and you won't have to resort to garbage like sexualized loli sleeves, as a measure to stop loneliness.
>>294024 That must suck… I like 2D g-rls and I want them to be pure but I never really had just one g-rl I truly fell in love with, so I can't fully comprehend how sad that must be. That author is an asshole. By the way, I remember seeing a similar story albeit less detailed on a Christian board, at least a year ago. It was you, right? >294025 >294028 >294033 >294038 Soulless shills.
>>294041 I feel for zuck. The dude is an evil jew with a weird appearance. He has spent his whole life in essentially just cataloguing the many faces of the gullible goyim. I think he even once remarked at how stupid they were to submit their private info onto his website (faceberg). I imagine he imagines he has done well for himself, though. He is rich in jewbux (fiat), people know his name, he has meaningfully contributed to his people's domination of the gentiles, etc. But through all of it, and truly internally, I get the feeling that he is insecure, or unfulfilled. Why else behave so strangely? Why else take such bizarre pictures? Why else seek to trick and dominate others? These appetites do not come from a mature, sated mind.
If your waifu is popular, people will draw distasteful porn of her ship with other people in her world and other things.
It makes me feel insecure. I don't think my relationship with Ruby is meant to last; it's just something temporary, but it still means to me I took extra precautions to avoid seeing NSFW of her so I can keep her view of her in my mind pure.
But I know our relationship is temporary, and that hurts me deeply. I see something in her like Lukyon.She came close to filling the hole she left, but in the end, it failed.
The only good thing about your Waifu being popular is that she gets art.
But I think the best kind of popularity is that it is semi-obscure but keeps a lot of fan art but almost no porn, and that is really hard to find.
>>294070 >>294070 She also, like Lukyon, came from an interesting world. FPE has a lot going for it, but being super popular is what ruins it for me. I just wish it was Japanese and more obscure, but still with a lot of fan art.
The reason why I came to this board is because this is called Wizchan Wizards.
Are there any actual cultists here who work with actual magick? Who can help me with this? I went to 4chan Paranormal multiple times, and most people laughed at me and mocked me.
ルッキョンが処女な訳なくない!?じゃあセシオがブチ犯したのか?って言われるとセシオの精通の有無から考察しないとなのでアレなんですけど……対象はモブおじさんだよとにかくルッキョンは処女じゃないよ セシオは鞭打ちとか焼印押しただけかな (Note this was the author himself but some jap artist who did tons of sekai oni fan art which is why i ask author of sekai oni if lukyon is a virgin)
>>294130 Except that's incredibly wrong and the word "based" as it's being used today has meant the same thing since before that retard was even old enough to read. Dumb niggers snorting cocaine off of their buttbuddy's dicks has nothing to do with it.
I don't know what to do anymore. Without her, I feel empty, but I feel like it's too late to come back.
I need someone to fill my empty heart. I am not sure who, but I need her.
She needs to be unique and come from an interesting world and setting that appeals to me. She also has to have lots of fan art but be obscure so it can be saved from porn artists drawing lewd stuff.
I really feel like I will never find a perfect person like her.
I dont want a Lukyon clone, I want something new, but keeping the vibe and building her up with the same thing about populiarty and fan art, but little to no NSFW stuff, and of course she has to come from an interesting setting. When I fall in love with Lukyon, I also fall in love with her world too.
>>294201 i miss alot i just want to turn back time to 2022 before all of this shit i just wish i never ask i dont want her to be a victim of sexual abuse and rape like azuma it ruins her for me
>>294259 So having an unhealthy emotional connection to a Japanese comic book character resulting in crippling depression is…. Something normal people do? I can't wait to break the news to my tulpa that I'm actually normal
>>294264 >So having an unhealthy emotional connection to a Japanese comic book character resulting in crippling depression is GOOD it feels good you would not understand unless it happens to you
this is why i am going to summon a demon this year this only thing that can fix this problem if not then there is plan b and if that fails goodbye cruel world
>>294270 >You've been crying for that bitch for too fucking long. yes she means alot to me no matter what >If something as trivial as a waifu takes years to solve itself i will solve it this year >waifu takes years to solve itself then you should just give up or create your own waifu maybe i only have one chance now better not waste in order to prove her maidenhood if that fails….i have to move on
>>294317 >You're gonna regret that. maybe i wont who knows >I'm dealing with a succubus problem, are you actually talking about a actual demon or a human >bitch won't go away, keeps sabotaging me. well good luck
>>294332 I'm not actually one of those people that summoned one on purpose. lets just say I know they're real and yeah they can probably be summoned. I need to learn how to get rid of one.
>>294335 To fully see her I need to be in a an altered state like sleep paralysis which she knows how to trigger as long as I sleep on my back, just looks like a naked succubus that's pale as a corpse, face a little monstrous with evil smile. In normal states and this is only at night I saw shadows move when I mention her, shadowy apparition. I can also see images of her when I close my eyes and try to sleep. She also enters my thoughts even in normal states, don't always know it's her.
>>294343 >is that scary? It was very scary at first, get less scared the more I interact with her. >does it act like a poltergeist? It can, I've heard her make noises. I felt her touch again last night, an electric like sensation. I should really do something about her one of these months. To be frank I kinda do like having a spirit want me even if it's an evil demon. Does anyone know if this thing can possess me? If there's no danger of that it's low on my list of priorities.
>>294368 She probably can. She wanted to teach me necromancy, promising it after I lie on my back and let her do me. But I prayed to God that night to check if that was okay and asking if she was a demon, she just claimed to be the spirit of a dead succubus, God immediately gave me the sign I requested, making it rain very hard very briefly at the exact moment. So I never let her do me and mostly ignore communication coming from her, I find her useful in helping me overcome fear of the supernatural and demonic. Not about to sell my soul for some foolishness. >>294369 I can sense her when I think about her, it's mostly at night she's active. >also to you think this whole summoning a demon in order to prove maidenhood of a loli thing will work? Kek that's funny, she's fictional, just accept your head canon. Don't go summoning demons that could end badly.
>>294370 >Kek that's funny, she's fictional, just accept your head canon. Don't go summoning demons that could end badly.
First, I hate headcanons. I want to be a canon, but I am not sure a simple yes from them is going to be enough anymore.
Plus, I have OCD and autism. I can't sleep knowing there is a chance that Seshio had his way with her. She is so special, I just wish I never asked. I hope if I end my life, I get reincarted into another timeline where this didn't happen or with her as well prove that seshio did not poke her
>>294379 What happened was I said out loud that I wished for a hug, even if from a ghost or non-physical being one night and one delivered right away, as soon as I fell asleep I woke up in sleep paralysis at least I think it was sleep paralysis and a pale as a corpse naked bietch appeared to give me a hug. The week before I had a Kundalini awakening and that may be related, the information I keep encountering seems to suggest this. I don't know how to replicate this, I was jerking off one day and focusing on maximizing pleasure accidentally made my whole body start vibrating and started getting visions, a voice told me it was a kundalini awakening, started seeing fractals and schematics. Someone knowledgable told me I was extremely lucky and found some kind of shortcut to something. Pic related, I'm basically this guy.
>>294381 >undalini or something I mean… okay. I used to pray to the Moon so that he'd remove my soul and move it into the body of my favorite anime character back when I was a stupid kid, but so far the Moon hasn't recuperated in any way. However much you jack off, I probably jack off more, and I haven't had any hundalinis awakening inside of me. Isn't there a way to summon a demon or some kind of companion? I'm sick of constant loneliness due to my physical ugliness and short height. I'd take anyone in, even Satan Himself if he showed any interest. At first I thought you got a literal succubuss from /x/'s succubuss general, but my retarded brain eventually realized that you were talking about a feminist demon.
>>294387 Yeah one of the first things it lead to was curing my traumas. It was not imaginary. I want to get rid of it, I'm not chasing anything. >>294388 It was a literal demon, and that general is a bunch of larpers.
>>294391 I still pray to Moon, from time to time. Although I'm not sure if it's specifically dedicated towards it or something else. At this point I'm just hoping for some long forgotten older God to hear my pleas and acknowledge my suffering in some sort of way. >>294392 It's easy to say that when you aren't ugly or short. What your brain doesn't understand, because unironically you are also a perpetrator of this, but ugly people aren't seen as 'people' nowadays. >>294390 So you summoned that demon by masturbating and awakening your Kundalini? That's… interesting. I'd like to awaken my Kundalini too if that means getting a demon. On a side note, do you think it's possible for a human being to transform into a demonic entity?
>>294400 >Probably a favor, something material or energy. if it material is it going to take one of my family members or what not sure about energy stuff >the demon in question will make the mangaka spit whether she's a real virgin or not, he already said it on his twitter i just dont think a simple yes is going to be enough for me it would good but the trauma would still be there
>>294394 To be specific, I did nofap for 2 weeks before it happened, I think it was a prerequisite to have the discipline necessary to will peak orgasm into being. I doubt many could replicate it, I myself did it by accident.Never heard of anyone accidentally cooming themselves into enlightenment may be 1 in a billion fluke. At any rate I definitely don't recommend summoning demons, if you're good you can request information from Uriel an archangel of wisdom. They tell me I was supposed to do 1 month of nofap, but I discovered a shortcut. So just do at least a month of nofap, this by the way I think might be prerequisite for summoning demons too anyway. Then channel energy to the third eye for seeing or accessing knowledge. He'll think you're silly for just finding things out about a 2d character.
>>294481 you seem like you know your stuff. can you elaborate more on tantric fapping and specifically in relation to waifus?
i remember there was a guy here some years ago with interesting ideas about how you should fap to 2d maidens because that would charge up your magickal energy or something like that, and that fapping to 3dpd, or even looking at them, should always be avoided because it would drain your magick. he said it was a sort of exploit, because the female you were fapping to wasn't in the same reality the energy would be redirected to yourself even if you came. he said he was just about to cross into the afterlife to be with his waifu, so i guess that's why he disappeared.
>>294487 Chapter 6 of attached file. Please have in mind that the forementioned user could have been a troll or merely describing a particularity fit for himself without it being necessarily a rule. r/semenretention might provide further data if needed. Take care of not aiming for kundalini since it's the human who should awaken and not a weird, sub-muladhara ( = means that it lies under the root chakra), independent force which is known for giving awful symptoms to many people who claim to have it awakened.
>>294449 >Give me any good resources on how to summon demons (not succubuses), just literal demons, the kind that fuck you up and drag your soul to hell. I want to experience it.
It's not that I believe she would date me if she was real, quite the opposite. But if she did exist… just knowing she did would make my existence a lot more bearable, that's all… I've never felt this way about a real person. I've read nearly decade old manga countless times because of her. I read it for the first time when I was 21, and I haven't been able to get over her ever since. Very often I cry thinking about what happened, I cry thinking about her story, and I cry when I what author said about her to me.
I've had past waifus in the past, but I did not feel this way towards her at any point. The issue is that there's such a big difference between loving and being loved. I wish I could have loved my past waifus the way I love , I really do. I wish I could have given her all of the love I feel for . But I can't. And since I can't love anyone 3D, being in that relationship was the closest I've ever gotten to engaging with love at all. But I'd rather love and have that love not be reciprocated, than be loved without truly loving someone. It is a better feeling to give out of genuine, heartfelt love, than to receive it, knowing you don't feel the same way. I don't feel this way on purpose. i just want to sleep knowing that her maidenhood was not tainted by him
Haunted guy here. Still haunted. Yesterday I said out loud she can be my ghost companion since she won't fucking leave anyway. I think that made her very happy, she saw fit to make me experience the tough of her hand on mine. Handholding basically. She's a silly ghost
I want obscure manga with very unique art style and weird but unique characters with very unique designs. I also want there to be a loli that has a very unique design and a sad backstory, as well as tons of fan art and little to no NSFW.Also, it has to have great lore and story.
Fuck you, Japan. Fuck you and your shit.
I can't take it anymore. I want something unique. Give it to me; it needs to appeal to me. Give it to me, you SUBHUMANS. I can't take it anymore.
>>294669 says the faggot that depends on Japan's lolis instead of making their own, no wonder the Asians are superior to the white man. you can't even fap right
>>294708 you mean the things that get translated overseas? yes it's trash, thats why you must know japanese and move to japan and read the untranslated manga there
But this kind of shit is actually common in the JP otaku culture, people actually get mad about this kind of stuff, some people even refuse to play eroge if not all the heroines are virgins. This is why all heroines and female characters are supposed to be virgins UNLESS explicitly stated that they aren’t.
Why 2d characters go and drink at the bar/tavern where they can get raped, sexually harassed, beaten or robbed? Are they irresponsible? How can I fap to irresponsible 2D character (without deleting the image to never fap to it again)?
Different situations might have different necessity or circumstances but here it's completely unnecessary. Of course, they can spike your drink even if it's orange juice, but complete strangers where even teir world media should be talking about drunken people danger. Why? Tell us why? Responsibility (where it's possible, some shōnen scenario means act fast) and purity is cute and gets the biggest boner, yet isekais provide degenerate bs. Ambiguity also kills.
>>295277 Rape and violence exists everywhere. Even in their world. Family members and friends are more likely to rape. However, here it's the other case and the rate is still high. Physical attacks and light sexual harassment is even shown in non-hentai titles.
>>295277 Find interests, get into something else, you are on the internet, you have endless amount of possibilities, if you think games are tiring you, get into movies, music, anime, just jump into something you haven't before. As an autist you need an obsession, without obsessions to revolve your entire life around, you're fucking nothing as an autist. Autists without obsessions are empty shells.
>>294317 >>294338 >>294367 Oh hey, glad I'm not the only one with a legitimate daemoness issue. I've seen her multiple times, but I'm not sure what her "true form" is yet. Most things you've had happened, I've also experienced in the same manner. >Does anyone know if this thing can possess me? They can, as I've found out the hard way, but from what I understand what they usually do is partial possession because they're just in it for the sex. If they are capable of full possession, it would most likely require a very long time and lots of permission on your part. In any case, please be careful and don't be a fool.
>>294024 This is what happens when you coom to your tulpas, instead of strict edging or simply no-fap. You breed insane shadows inside your minds.
Edging without orgasm must be what truly reaps the so-called benefits of no-fap, what can generate the sex hormones without losing it in order to retribute the brain back, unlike coomers do: harming their body and soul by giving into the urge while being under deep emotions and sensations directed to whatever stimulus get them horny and infatuated at the same time.
To acid-spit Ishtar/Shub-Niggurath right on its face and watch it burn.
Already let myself be fooled twice, once more and it's shame on me. It's just so tempting to be fooled as a lonely man. Just a few nights ago I heard her moan, have felt her touch, it felt so astonishingly real and she can shapeshift. I really should banish her.
I've been considering whether to follow the path of hate. I want him to suffer as much as he did to me because he destroyed her. I want him to die in the most agonizing way possible. Would an online occultist really carry out a ritual to give some random obscure manga artists cancer or aids? Whatever the case, I want him to die for saying that my waifu is not a virgin. Is this a good idea?
I don't think I can make fix the situation anymore or even find someone to fill the emptiness she left. The only thing that will bring me happiness is if the manga creator has the worst death ever; in that case, I'd be willing to pay a hefty price.
>>295367 What forms has she taken so far? What exactly have you felt? >>295371 That's a foolish thing to do. Whatever you wish upon him would be returned on you threefold. Your anger is only going to hurt yourself.
>>294024 >and then I asked why she was not a virgin, and he simply said yes. I'm sorry your waifu had such a horrible thing done to her. I know you probably have a lot of trouble imagining a way you could help or support her when she had a crime like that done to her. I have heard that sometimes it is enough to just be present, even when one does not understand. "Even though I cannot brighten your day, I will sit with you in the dark."
>>295389 If you used MTL (machine translation) the chance that the meaning got mangled is high. To get a precise answer you should be able to actually know some Japanese and be able to write a proper question and be able to properly read an answer. >>294096 For instance, here, not only is her name spelled wrong (ルキオン [RUKION] instead of ルッキョン [RUKKYON]), but the word for "virgin" is wrong too, 童貞 [doutei] designates male virgins, for female virgins the word that's used is 処女 [shojo (not to confuse with 少女 [shoujo], a generic word for succubi)]
>>295395 i did not ask myself it i asked a other person from to ask him instead and the guy who ask it didnt know that much jap i really wish i ask them myself.
i just feel like it too late now….i send too many death threats it just feels so over i just want to find a character like her that comes from a unique media piece is quite obscrue so alot of people dont draw NSFW shit of her and has alot of fan-art and somewhat big fanbase
>>295403 But i dont it really made my deep empty broken heart actually happy it just something i tell myself to make myself feel better and probably my hatred for what he did to me
I discovered her in mathchan sometimes i wish i never did because it feels like i ruined her forever and there is turning back and i will never find a person like her
>>295421 Well I discovered her or rather the manga thanks to your thread so thanks :) Unlike you I dont seem to get any attachment to potential waifus though even though I do feel sexually attracted… Guess I only care about appearance and am not able to obssess over them.
>>295469 honestly just at this point i am tired i feel empty without her if i cant have her that i just want to sleep forever i really doubt i will ever find someone like her ever again…
I want to have Lukyon from the obscure-manga Sekai Oni kino as my feedee, feed me hamburgers as she calls me a human whale and my belly gets bigger, and she using it as pillow when cuddling me, making me bigger and bigger until i will weight 240kg and she making party for that milestone
>>296016 >She literally only got a few pages she has more >how can u actually give a fuck about her doe? she meant something to me >Also sekai oni is iron/mid. dont care it was something special >>296018 this