Hi wizards I wanted to ask how life is going for you right now.Did you do anything fun recently,are you happy or sad with your life.How are you feeling about your life right now?
In summation, there are so many things I want to do, that I am doing nothing. I've spent multiple hours today just looking at the wall wondering what I should do.
I'm mostly numb. I'm finding more and more as time goes on that things I've claimed to enjoy have just been lies I've told to maintain a veneer of normalcy. I realized the other day that I don't actually enjoy food, I've just normally answer with a "yeah sure" when asked if I enjoyed it but that I really couldn't give a shit unless it was actively nauseating.
Overall pretty good. The worse thing I am currently dealing with is I finally figured out what is the cause of my hair breaking off so badly. That I lost a lot of lenth in my hair and beard, and it will take years to grow what I lost back. All because I tried out a new hair hair product that smelt nice and rinsed really clean. Now I have to fuck around with conditioner and oils to baby my hair into durability, then let it grow for the next 4 or so years just to get back to where I was a few months before.
I am very pissed at myself and the company that though such a product is fit for humans.
>>185443 I'm almost entirely detached from my life. I don't enjoy very many things anymore, mostly when I spontaneously decide to indulge in junk good but even then it's just in the first couple of moments when the dopamine hits and I feel like shit almost immediately after. I also enjoy sleeping a lot more, or perhaps I'm just more tired than I used to be. Before I couldn't stand being in bed for too long, sleep was kind of just a necessity, now I could stay in bed all day drifting in and out of consciousness and be perfectly content. I don't know where this is going, unless I experience some kind of radical chance I will just become a husk biding my time until I don't have to exist anymore.
>>185443 lots of negative things coming my way while zero of the positive things to counter balance that im sure i will snap against someone eventually
>>185443 >Did you do anything fun recently I started painting and apparently making some improvements. The happy hormones are however nowhere to be found. Why I am commenting however is because of your picture. I was watching some tutorial about painting stones where I had one of that 3dpds vids in my rec, something about "5 unconcious things you do to make people avoid you". I had some good laughs there! "You might be negative. People dont like negativity so be positiv!" - "You're ignored because you have a low presence. Be confident!". Real funny shit. The best part were the comments "I had anxiety and 0 friends 1 year before but now I have tons of friends!". At this point all I can do is laugh. Is this how medieval serfs felt like when someone said you can grasp the stars? Its not like we live in different worlds than ordinaries but are dimensions apart. Atleast I dont get mad/sad about these things anymore so its a plus?
Switched shampoos and got a leave in conditioner. The breakage appears to have stopped. Only thing I can do now is wait for my hair to grow back. Really fucked up my beard too.
also found out they passed that banking bill where they can watch your accounts if you have $600 bucks in it.
>>185443 It's neutral. Neither happy nor sad, but I guess that means it's sad since life sucks when you are not happy. I have found some interesting stuff I want to do, like learning how to draw, maybe learning 3D modelling, programming old computers, but then I ask myself: "why? I'll just waste my time, give up sometime later and wonder why I even started/stopped doing it".
My life is fucked in a lot of ways. Obesity and chain smoking is taking my health, I have a list of ailments attributable to it. Fixing anything else is a secondary consideration.
>>185443 Not good Dropped uni a couple of years ago, been wageslaving ever since but im sick of it. I kinda want to try uni again but I just dont know what to do. It frustrates me how easily normos go over this shit while im 30 and still struggling.
>>185641 >normies wageslave cause they love being normies and want to fit in I thought they did so they don't starve. Nice angsty insight you got there
Hello fellow wizard, thanks for asking. Well life is not going too bad, finished uni, found related job at walking distance,also part-time so i also have time for my projects, property home, savings increase… Almost 40.Wish all of you best of luck.
>>185711 the sun died, nobody knows why it stopped shining. earth shrouded in darkness, not a day goes by without violence. crabs like this world so much that they don't want to be taken away to the void
>>185443 I'm not a wizard yet, but getting there lol. Overall, I feel fine, I am neither happy nor sad. Been turning to religion again. Kind of a cope, but theosis sounds pretty good right now. I just don't know if it is true.
Recently turned 30 and the happiest i've ever been. All my teenage years and 20s were so horrific, I barely avoided suicide, but now I turned it around in the last 1-2 years, through pure luck and risk taking basically. I don't wish to state the details on a public forum.
I still have severe social anxiety issues, and my family are upset that I cut them out of my life so they are guilt tripping me. But I can accept that and I can't believe how much better things are now.
I used to think there was no way out and was ready to die. Sometimes miraculous things can happen. On the other hand, I'm skeptical that this is a good thing to say to suicidal people, because statistically I was very lucky. I suppose people who are stuck in a horrific life should be encouraged to take risks to try to break out of it.
>>185715 Good image and description. It seems nihilism has taken up you.
Anyway, about me. I've recently (re)discovered wizchan and how profound are conversations here compared to other chans I've visited. I did it because I'm hungry for conversations that feel real. Most of the times here in Brazil (and maybe in other parts of the world) you end up having shallow conversations about things. Maybe you are not talking to real people, but animals, hungry ghosts, demons and other metaphorical (or literal) beings like that. Don't know how to summarize what I'm doing right now, but I can sure say that I'm looking for food for my soul as I get out of 2020 season 3 with renewed strenght.
I'm also a furry and a buddhist. I won't let the state of affairs of this world drag me down like an animal or cattle. I'll fight to the very end. I'm a wolf. I'll detach from time and reborn into eternity.
>>185711 I will never understand the crab thing. What are you expecting, that everybody else using the forum should all change, too, as soon as you randomly want to? That they have some obligation to support your endeavors? Nobody can drag you back down with them over the internet. Nobody forces you to keep checking wizchan to see if others are validating your choices or opinions.
I'm not happy but I'm not sad. I'm mostly just tired, and because I'm so tired I just do low effort things on the internet all day. It's really not bad living like this. By most standards throughout history I am living even better than a king. Do I wish sometimes that I wasn't so tired all the time and could do things that were productive? Yeah, sure, but not being able to isn't going to make me want to kill myself like I did when I was younger.
>Hi wizards I wanted to ask how life is going for you right now. Trying to work up the nuts to kill myself. >Did you do anything fun recently Played Sekiro. >are you happy or sad with your life. Sad. >How are you feeling about your life right now? See pic.
life feel like shit lately lost my dreams lost my hope honestly feel like living dead bored.life is just getting bored and bored.I had few friends but now they all just moving on to because of money,job,girlfriend.honestly wish i could spend some time in irl but it just become so fucking sad and boring i just don't want to do anything irl.
Due to complications with a surgery that removed a cyst in my back last year, I've been half a year without being able to weight lifts or practice martial arts.
The most important things in my life that gave me motivation and an advantage over the normgroids.
These last months I have had no way to release stress, and resorted to masturbation and alcohol to cope with this boredom. I spend my days bored and without motivation to do anything. The wound is supposed to heal soon but I don't know much more I will resist like this
>>188418 don't get into fights. If they insult you you insult them back but a fight is another thing. You never know the outcome. Best thing you can do is run away. nmormalfags are not worth your time or attention
>>188419 >>188422 I don't know man, just got this adrenaline rush from the thought of fucking up some cancerous trend-following normalfag and humiliate him in front of his succubi.
Especially if it's someone who has insulted me, rejected me or ignored me in the past
I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and given a low dose of stimulants to try. I can say its making a very profound difference in my life so far. It gives me substantially more energy and I'm able to focus for much of the work day.
It's amazing how fucked up I am off this medication. I can't follow conversations, I can't start work, I can't finish anything. If I had access to this drug when I was younger it would have really really helped me. It makes me sad to think how much I've missed out on because of my illness. But I am looking forwards and feeling very positive wizzie.
>>188464 That's how I feel with low doses of opiates, benzos and stimulants. Perhaps anything that makes me feel less shit and eases anxiety makes me able to function and follow conversations etc. But I could never get those from a doctor.
It's great that you got a prescription and it's helping you so much, better late than never
>>188466 Getting a prescription for ADHD meds is like the most ADHD-unfriendly process possible. I think it took me like 5 months of waiting for my useless doctor to do anything and even now my dose only really works when I combine it with huge amounts of caffeine. It's better than nothing, I definitely appreciate it. I hope you are able to get some good medication soon, wizzie.
>>188467 >>188464 >>188466 I feel for you guys. So many people with ADHD had their lives ruined mostly by normies who abused the drugs and made doctors skeptical. For every drug addicted normie they deny they probably denied two other people who really could have used the help.
My life could be going okay, my parents love me but all I do is hurt them. I want to die and I don't want to make an effort. How do I get my parents to finally reject me so I can kill myself?
I'm happy with myself. I can discern no problems with my mentality or psyche, but it's known that life involves both the individual and the world around them, and the external world I exist in is horrible. It seems everything I have any sort of interest or investment in is ruined or subverted by others. So even when I can confide in myself, it's hard to be completely happy when my surroundings are so insipid and needlessly destructive.
Wiz from Russia here. Well, everything goes to total shit in my life. I'm seriously considering working as janitor. Life or death from starvation situation.
I had a job that I held for a month. I am continuing my therapy, and feeling dissapointed it is not working. I am sad about how badly I traded crypto when I could have made good money. Lack of anything is making me want to kill myself but I'm getting daydreams and optimism back. I had a wank today and I am really ashamed of myself
>>188991 >how has life changed for you Not much for now but I can see where this is going. Right to the Hell. In Russia we don't have almost any good which is not imported or semi-imported. Even machinery which we use to get our precious oil is imported.
When summer comes there will be total deficit of goods for sure. I'm considering getting a job of janitor for 21K rubles. It's near 205$ for months. I hope not to die from starvation.
>>188982 Janitor doesn't sound so bad. Just get some headphones and listen to podcasts or audiobooks while you work. No more copywrite laws means you can legally pirate anything you want.
>>189230 its not bad. just do it for a school system you get a pension good pay benefits etc. might be my career since i have experience my dad ran a janitorial company.
I got on disability recently in supposedly the hardest state (Im in usa) to get disability in and I didnt even need a lawyer, I don't know if that means its going good or if I'm really mentally screwed up and don't know it
Hello! I'm fine. I'm going to work right now, but I don't mind working on Sundays since I don't work that much throughout the week. It's a good weekend for me.
Its awful but at the same time I realized that as long as I live in this fucked up dystopian world I can't really be happy, only comfortable.
But I still consider suicide sometimes, after all the 10 minutes of so of physical suffering before dying would be the equivalent of a month or so of mental suffering, so I guess the trade-off is worth it,
I'm currently living in a mental health rehabilitation facility. I don't really talk to the other residents. I get to see my sister and my dad often. The thing that gives me my happiness and joy is my belief in God and Jesus Christ.
better than ever, I don't wanna have sex anymore, I don't wanna masturbate anymore, all I want to do these days is record more music for myself, and work in what I like, sex is overrated and I'm glad that I finally see it.
pretty good. neeting with older sister is 100x better than my parents. she has a sweet job working from home, i just do something like babysitting or cooking meals every now and then and i am appreciated by everyone, aside from that i'm just in my room in the basement all day. living the life
Im feeling good but not great, just started taking ritalin in hopes school would finally be not excruciatingly boring, but it didnt do anything for it, so I didnt took my class today, so I have no hope at all for a successful future. I think ill go to hell of minimum wage
>>193377 My sister bought a house a few years ago after getting her first job after college. I asked to move in with her but she said no. Now she has gotten depressed and quit her job and she's scrambling to try and rent out part of her house so she doesn't have to sell it.
I never moved out and bought a house because I knew what happened to my sister would happen to me. At some point I would fall apart and not be able to earn enough money to afford the payments.
It would be sweet to have a cool sibling who would let you stay with them. I feel like I would be less ashamed to be living with a sibling and also more free. I hate having to ask my parents for permission to do stuff and being told no.