wishful thinking is a waste of time. I will always been the short ugly guy who's been bullied for his looks and height. What does it matter what I want to be when I can't change what's so fundamentally wrong with myself?
>>212771 Yuri Gagarin, son of a carpenter and a farmer, suffering an invasion of his town, with a large part of his family being enslaved, was able to overcome all adversity, and was able to become the first man in space.
>>212776 I spent a while typing, but I realised I don't really know the answer. I'll just have to keep trying until I can find the right combination of things to make me feel content. But for starters, I would like to spend more time outdoors. The world is beautiful and it'd hopefully improve my health too.
>Regardless of your current situation, what kind of man would you like to be in this world? 25 years ago? A scientist, an astronaut, an architect, a soldier, an engineer… Today? A farmer, a shepherd, a cowboy, a hermit…
>>212777 I believe that one does not have to look for "happiness" but for equity between emotions, to be able to laugh when you see something funny, to be able to enjoy a good meal, to be able to cry when something is not right, to be able to feel and express each emotion, the power of to be alive.
>>212770 I would like to be the powerful outsider. The cryptic figure who is comfortable on the outskirts of civilization, communing with the darkness of the wilds that fill others with dread. The man who nether slays nor tames monsters but who gains their mutual respect without losing that which makes me a good man. The man who is beyond the petty problems of the day because he has things of a different scale on his mind. The kind of man who doesn't protect nor provide, instead guides through darkness so that they don't pollute it's splendor nor be polluted by it and lose what makes them beautiful as well. I wish to be the man on the edge of two worlds but bound by nether. To be the eternal traveler who isn't quite at home anywhere yet finds a warm welcome wherever he finds himself. Not due to his utility, but due to his hard won wisdom and willingness to dare where others falter. I want to be the man who plumbs the deepest darkness and sees, yet doesn't shy away from the warmth of the brilliant light. A man who knows what is and what could be. A man who can keep the company of saints and sinners while being content being nether.
I guess you could say the kind of man I want to be is that of the traveling sage. A adventurer of both the inner and outer, the darkness and light.
>>212771 A man with purpose. Without purpose, there is no mission or higher goal beyond the day to day. I have lofty dreams about "being better one day", but nothing that drives me to action. My current life (provided for by others) is too comfy and empty.
>>212791 > I have lofty dreams about "being better one day", but nothing that drives me to action same. As a short and ugly guy who's been bullied his entire life I have no motivation. I'm only growing older and any dream I had as a kid has withered with time. I just can't even bother and I'm honest with you but I wouldn't mind just spontaneously and magically leaving this world one day. Life just isn't meant for some wizards and if you add to that the myriad of health problems, it's like some of us are here just to suffer.
I just want to go to sleep one day and never wake up.
>>212792 I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I care about you, wiz, even if it may come across as fake.
I also have very frequent thoughts of just wanting to die as I go to sleep every night, though my problems might not be the same as yours. I also have thought since I was a young boy that this world was designed to torture me or somehow collect my suffering in a sadistic way. I still think this. I spend hours meditating so to prepare myself for escape when I die. However, I try to lessen the pain through getting as good of a night's sleep as I can, through eating decently, through exercising at least once or twice a week, and through consciously watching my thoughts lest I fall into dangerous levels of sadness.
Despite being a wizard, I have had some success by normie standards in my earlier life (younger life), though it never made me a "happy person." I've known *many* men who are very outwardly successful, who, if you further enter into their private lives, are deeply unhappy and sometimes suicidal. My younger self had a certain conception of things, which in no way corresponds to how I see things now. I also had "dreams" of what I should or should have become – really none of these things ever turned out the way I imagined. But, despite this, I am still proud of myself for having endured, for having proven the worth of my well-meaning soul against a sea of vicious abusers and liars, for having bettered myself internally daily, in a hundred ways. I realized as I grew older that my own internal acknowledgment of progress was a better mirror of my success than any outward applause by normies. My body is weaker but the solidity of my spiritual heart is much stronger and more self-assured than it ever was when younger.
I hope you can find at least some happiness today, I really do. If we were to ever meet, I would not bully you, but I would rather congratulate you for having survived such a vile world for so long, and I would sincerely enjoy your conversation.
i just want to be more able, to do things, to go places. currently the only real limitation is money, on account of not working. but with age comes problems and i hope to not be debilitated by anything
>>212801 People who say dumb shit like you just did don't know what they are talking about.
In theroy someone with quite a few skills and experence can just wonder out yonder with just a backpack and minimal gear and be fine. For most people, especially without that skill and experience it's borderline a death sentence, and will just be pure misery the whole time if they manage not to die.
I know from experience. So ignorant and dismissive people like yourself have my formal invitation to take a very long walk off a very short pier.
>>212770 As a 5'4 uggo pajeet shackled to pajeetland who has watched too many hollywood films, I would've loved to be healthy (most importantly mentally and physcially), white, tall, good looking, born in a rich house hold, joined the navy as an officer or some shit, ngl it was my best past time to fantasise about this shit. Oh well, one look in the mirror is all I need to break this habit.
>>212814 when it comes to life, every wizard knows the maxims. It's better to never have been. This world is designed for breeder scum and punishes wizards for being themselves.
>>212801 If he really wanted to travel that badly he would just slave a little and earn some money because that's far more practical than walking. You need to be able to buy food if you plan to walk. There is no way to escape the need for money. The only situation where it is practical to just walk is when you can't find any way to earn money in your current location and you can't afford better transportation to a place with more jobs.
>>212803 >People who say dumb shit like you just did don't know what they are talking about. we're getting a lot of normalfag redditors for whatever reason who give dumb advice like that it's actually quite funny to see. "just go outside and get a jab brah", "just become a slave and you will have the money to travel and be more miserable" "life is easy just look at me bro" "you just have to try" This people dont' belong on wizchan and should kill themselves.
>>212823 > "just go outside and get a jab brah", "just become a slave and you will have the money to travel and be more miserable" "life is easy just look at me bro" "you just have to try" Nobody is acting like this except for you when you show your shizodelusional viewpoint of everyone who's happy than you as being a turbonorman. >This people dont' belong on wizchan What kind of person *DOES* belong on Wizardchan then? >and should kill themselves. Normalfag or succubus or both.
>>212816 kek my exact thoughts. do normalfags even have a mind or do they just spout whatever retarded bullshit comes to their minds "you don't need money brah" "just grab a backpack" "u can go wherever you want" "just give em a firm handshake" "just stand straight"
>>212803 It's easy, don't try to complicate things. You can literally go out with a backpack and go for a walk anywhere, you can also buy a bicycle and ride through beautiful places.
>>212816 If you live in Japan or Yankeeland, you may have public transportation, or at least money for a bicycle.
>>212821 What are you talking about, a person can go out during the day and return to sleep at home, or go out from time to time, there is no reason to go out begging.
>>212770 Honestly, in terms of my personality, I'm pretty happy. I guess I'd make myself less fearful and a little braver and more confident. However, besides that, I am capable of adequately functioning in the normal world, at least enough to support myself. Higher social goals like relationships, friendships etc are too advanced for me, and I don't crave them much. I'm okay with with having no deep bonds with anyone.
In terms of my whole life, I'd like to become a novelist, but I know that is a pipedream.
>>212833 >If you live in Japan or Yankeeland, you may have public transportation, or at least money for a bicycle. that is not what i'm saying. i mean try go to japan right now, without spending money. think about what that would involve. you can't just walk there, there is ocean all around it. you also can't fly there, so you must go by boat. you can sometimes ride cargo ships, but even that costs money and it's not a great deal spending $100 per day for a voyage spanning over 10 days, roundtrip 20 days… but say poof and magically you are there, you did it, you somehow fucking walked there. now what? you still must eat every day, it costs money to go from island to island. you've also got a time limit, 3 months, before your visa will expire and you must depart, since we aren't working and have no obligations we can utilize it all….
i don't know why i'm even bothering to explain this basic shit. if you are interested in local travel sure you can just walk around outside. there are places you cannot simply do this though. fuck
Fantasy-wise, I want to be a super-genius dictator of a mega-city that can house billions and has robots so nobody has to work. It's a fantasy I've been world-building for quite some time now.
Realistically, I want to be more confident, less cowardly, more stoic, less grumpy, more reliable, less disabled.
>>212824 >What kind of person *DOES* belong on Wizardchan then? Wizzies that put thought into their words instead of spouting off empty platitudes that make their pp tinkle and their belly feel nice.
>>212770 cool. competent, no social phobias. what more do you want?
materially I want a life with little to no work and my own little hovel where i spend most of my time before going out. i've always wanted to be a cool side character in the life. Not the main. I don't wish for friends but i do wish to see acquaintances occasionally.
>>212770 I would like to be more like sun and less like moon. I would like to complete tasks and achieve goals, no matter the adversity. Determined, unshakable, resilient, but not animalistic. I want to be a sun on a warm golden day of mid-october. I would like to provide to and protect those who I deem worthy of providing for worth and protecting. I would like to never take anything too seriously. To laugh at life's attempts to bring me down. Ahh… How far away I'm from that man. I am but a broken monkey, a moon's reflection on a nasty swamp.
>>213452 I think your desire to age regress falls under pedophilia, even if it's you who is self-fulfilling you desire of being among childlike bodies.
>>213452 >i want to be a CUTE boy >i want to wear diapers >i want to ageplay >i want to be treated like a child and pampered by a rich family >what does that have to do with pedophilia?!?!
>>213443 >>213445 This is why so many people become trannies. If you want to be anything other than your stereotypical masculine male you get bullied. Even in a place like this.
>>213460 yes, you should bully degenerates. No man with a healthy brain wants to be a "cute boy", it's either some homosexual fetish or a female who wants to be a male, so basically a tranny. > If you want to be anything other than your stereotypical masculine male strawmanning this hard. Nobody mentioned that you have to be some jacked up guy, only you did. We don't want mentally disturbed homosexuals on wizchan.
>>212770 Small Angelic Norwegian male with autism that would be seen as charismatic and mischievous to achieve greater things. Or an angelic male who is humble and a side character. Not much a femboy but still breaks the barriers of being a man to express masculinity in other things rather than being a brooding nig nog.
>>213466 >I want to be This is the hitch with you self-improvement fags. You want to "be" some abstract thing because "that kind of guy must be cool" instead of doing the thing itself. 5 year olds think like that.
>>212770 >what kind of man would you like to be in this world? A self reliant hermit living off the grid, as society crumbles under the jew world order
>>213466 If you are a neet, you can learn about music theory, instruments, and all that for about 6 or 8 hours a day. You publish your work on YouTube, Tiktok, Instagram, without copyright, and little by little you become known.
I always dreamed of being a self-reliant man who lived on some farm land far away from people. It was around the time Arduino came out and all the cool projects so I thought about an automated farm, I was interested in vertical farming and aquaponics etc when it was new. Time proved when I did parts of it really I'm too mentally unwell to do anything and it didn't overcome that. I was swept away with the techno optimism, open source farming, and all this kind of stuff. It wouldn't be a bad life. Maybe contributing to making things better remotely, away from people. Just being content to be alive with some hobbies. The stereotypical nerd with a hobby that sustains them. If I could magically transport myself to that life and be a functional human being, I would be more than content I think.
>>213614 >Time proved when I did parts of it really I'm too mentally unwell to do anything and it didn't overcome that. had you tried regular farming? I'm sure with given time and the need to automate the work you will have the will to support the trial and error hell >>213612 I tried this, but it's hard to get any actually learning, time passed and I forgot the notes and musical theory
>>213612 Oh I'm a lot further along than you think fren! I'm just lamenting that I'll never be as far along as if my old man had started me on the piano when I was 6. Also greatness is not a matter of popularity for me in the least. I doubt I will ever hear a work of mine performed.
I had more realistic aspirations when i was younger but i'm so far gone and repulsed by everything now i wish i could have some kind of Goku situation going on where i could be some wild, strong hermit that could comfortably live away from society. You're kind of fucked when your aspirations are this unrealistic and childish. Oh well.
>>213615 >had you tried regular farming? I'm sure with given time and the need to automate the work you will have the will to support the trial and error hell No I've never tried farming, I nearly did as an apprentice but went to university and failed there instead. Realistically I've done bits of in a way which are more more reward focused. I've grown vegetables, fruits, built outbuildings, tried some of the technology stuff, I dug a pond and kept fish, tried small scale aquaponics. Fundamentally none of it overcame other mental issues. I have been in other environments where I just mentally broke and did nothing despite hunger, cold, and homelessness; neither the carrot nor the stick sets this wiz free, it's the noose for me. It's not worth debating, but a nerd away from society with a hobby they get lost in would be the kind of man I wanted to be in this world.
>>213619 Even so, look, if you are already old and 40 years old, for example, and you dedicate 8 hours a day from Monday to Friday, for a period of 10 years, you will not only be good at playing several instruments, but your works can be recognized by everyone. world, you can even make a living by teaching others to learn to play.
The only thing you really need is time, and perseverance, with both things you can achieve anything.
>>213614 You can allocate a 30m2 space and make a greenhouse and place several small pots, and produce ornamental plants. Approximately 10 small plants fit in one m2, but if you place the pots as a support you can increase production. Do the math, 30m2 in pots placed on supports, give 15 plants per m2, that is, about 450 plants, each plant takes 45 days to grow, a year it is a production of 3650 plants. You can even make the pots yourself with plaster.
>>213624 You can make a lot of money from farming. Not all agriculture is about having large fields with land, or growing vegetables, you can start something small, ornamental crops, seedlings, captus, etc. They all generate a huge profit, and the space required is minimal.