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Is anyone else hugely depressed by this stuff? Sometimes I'm googling for certain stuff, or info on a historical person or event…and very often I see obituary pages of people with the same name.Very old, young, middle-aged..died of diseases, accident or just old age, sometimes due to violence or crime.
I get similar feels when I see a specific documentary from a crisis (economic, social) of my county 20 years ago- where are the poor people featured in the docu, nowadays? and the rich old guys are probably dead or dying in some ICU room by now.What was the point of it all?..The other week I visited a public university because the cafeteria has cheap snacks and I reckon I passed by 2000 people-I cant fathom those are REAL persons, with dreams and sins and will die ,perhaps 20 or 50 will be dead within 3 years.
I get similar feels when I see a specific documentary from a crisis (economic, social) of my county 20 years ago- where are the poor people featured in the docu, nowadays? and the rich old guys are probably dead or dying in some ICU room by now.What was the point of it all?..The other week I visited a public university because the cafeteria has cheap snacks and I reckon I passed by 2000 people-I cant fathom those are REAL persons, with dreams and sins and will die ,perhaps 20 or 50 will be dead within 3 years.
I randomly came across the obituary of my childhood best friend's father. He ended up passing away a year after I moved and cut contact with everyone I knew. It destroyed me as that man pretty much saw us growing up. "You're always welcome, you're part of our family "
This is a big deal because when my family moved in, that man absolutely hated me due to my race and it took years for him to warm up to me.
I still remember that faithful day when me and the strange boy next door first became aware of each other. It almost feels like a dream at this point. I feel like that memory will be one of the last ones to flashback when the time comes.
This is a big deal because when my family moved in, that man absolutely hated me due to my race and it took years for him to warm up to me.
I still remember that faithful day when me and the strange boy next door first became aware of each other. It almost feels like a dream at this point. I feel like that memory will be one of the last ones to flashback when the time comes.
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People don't want to talk about death even in a place like this. But I personally think that aging and dying is so much worse that the death itself (despite how terrifying it is). In fact true death is probably the best thing that can happen to a human being, unless this Universe is cyclical, then we're fucked.
If you're a normalfag you concern yourself only with the stuff which is right in front of you, you live life full of illusions, and spend most of it working and studying just to pass the torch to the next generation. Long term hikineets are also deeply unhappy because they are more likely to understand the meaningless of life and live with constant existential dread that prevents them from rejoining the society.
If you're a normalfag you concern yourself only with the stuff which is right in front of you, you live life full of illusions, and spend most of it working and studying just to pass the torch to the next generation. Long term hikineets are also deeply unhappy because they are more likely to understand the meaningless of life and live with constant existential dread that prevents them from rejoining the society.
I have been thinking for years that "normalfag" wageslave is an easy way. Remember when mom you to say "unoccupied mind is the house of devil"? She was terribly right.
When you're alone you're utterly egged in death anxiety. I have spent many years wallowing in the thought of death to prepare for the moment of death. And yet in my panic attacks when I'm close to death I feel this special form of total dread in every fiber of my being like when spiritual ecstasy overcomes the mystic's body, fear of death overcomes my body. I am so helpless and infinitely alone. It's like being baptized in a sea of terror and my eyes roll back in that ancient blackness.
When you're alone you're utterly egged in death anxiety. I have spent many years wallowing in the thought of death to prepare for the moment of death. And yet in my panic attacks when I'm close to death I feel this special form of total dread in every fiber of my being like when spiritual ecstasy overcomes the mystic's body, fear of death overcomes my body. I am so helpless and infinitely alone. It's like being baptized in a sea of terror and my eyes roll back in that ancient blackness.
>>294495
Explanation on that photo?
victim of burning to death ,or just "body waste" (skin, sores, sweat, pus etc) of an immobile old guy who slowly -literally- rotted to death?
Explanation on that photo?
victim of burning to death ,or just "body waste" (skin, sores, sweat, pus etc) of an immobile old guy who slowly -literally- rotted to death?
>>294512
I worked at a job doing death/suicide clean up and often the bodies aren't found for weeks, sometimes months, and just rot away. Imagine leaving piles of meat and offal on your bed for a month and then cleaning it off, that'd be what the mattress looks like after.
Lots of old people have nobody that checks on them, sometimes it takes until the power being switched off due to lack of payment before someone will bother seeking them out.
I worked at a job doing death/suicide clean up and often the bodies aren't found for weeks, sometimes months, and just rot away. Imagine leaving piles of meat and offal on your bed for a month and then cleaning it off, that'd be what the mattress looks like after.
Lots of old people have nobody that checks on them, sometimes it takes until the power being switched off due to lack of payment before someone will bother seeking them out.
>>294515
>>294514
NMV, I reverse-googled the image, it was an old japanese man that was left for like, 2 years to rot
>I worked at a job doing death/suicide
what was the worst thing you saw? in terms of overall room\house, such as stashing or hoarding, or suicide method, etc? Ever saw anything spooky\paranormal?
>>294514
NMV, I reverse-googled the image, it was an old japanese man that was left for like, 2 years to rot
>I worked at a job doing death/suicide
what was the worst thing you saw? in terms of overall room\house, such as stashing or hoarding, or suicide method, etc? Ever saw anything spooky\paranormal?
I think 99%+ of all human lives were basically 'wasted'. Only scientists, mystics, artists and philosophers really help make this world less shitty
>>294518
I should say I never got to see that stuff because I wasn't there long enough. But I'd hear the stories in detail about what it's like. The most I've done is wash human blood out of a room.
There's a lot of piss apparently and the bodies are usually rotten, and some of that skin and rot sticks to the couch/floor/whatever. These were normalfags doing it and they said it does psychologically get you.
I should say I never got to see that stuff because I wasn't there long enough. But I'd hear the stories in detail about what it's like. The most I've done is wash human blood out of a room.
There's a lot of piss apparently and the bodies are usually rotten, and some of that skin and rot sticks to the couch/floor/whatever. These were normalfags doing it and they said it does psychologically get you.