Imagine that you're a dumbass. But you're not the happy go lucky type of dumbass that is content with your situation.
You're a dumbass that KNOWS about how bad your situation is, you know how miserable it is, but you aren't really smart enough to get out of it.
You work a wage slave job and that's really all you can do because my fucking god, coding and programming is essentially the equivalent of trying to box prime Mike Tyson for someone who's a malnourished bastard. Becoming a lawyer? You already know you'd cock up and would probably be a public lawyer that has to defend scum of the earth that are 100% guilty. Doctor? Med school is possibly the hardest thing you can do without trying to become a rocket scientist.
You can't even set yourself up financially. Investing into stocks or crypto? Forget it. You're gonna buy high and sell low. I can't even manage to save more than 1k dollars. I don't even really have savings at all. I live paycheck to paycheck because I can't manage my finances for shit.
It's all these things that add up. I can't be like Beavis and Butthead who live in bliss. I know I'm dumb. I can't get smarter though. A mental midget that knows it. It's like being a zombie that knows it's a zombie.
i think the whole being dumb makes you happy thing is a myth, because no matter how dumb you are, you can still suffer and you don't even understand why it happened and you definitely don't know how to cope with it. those extra iq points that you have that help you be slightly more aware of the situation, cherish them because it could be worse lol