>>301446 I do, I'm in the same predicament. Can't afford other options and also feel pity for her whenever I think about moving out or abroad. She's not a bad person but I try to stay out of her way as much as possible and not let her words get to my head.
when you have a poor mental health, asshole-ish parents make everything far worse, i just had a bad experience with that just now which i wrote about on here: >>301456
Since my mom retired there is like 100 times more stuff to do for her around the house than compared to when she was working. She is always somewhere around the house, but not in her room.
I described the feeling to myself as if you are building a giant house of cards, and it looks pretty amazing, and then someone slams the door open, screems "DINNER!" in your face, doesn't see the house of cards, but a messy room with cards lying around everywhere.
Tomorrow you will start building that house of cards again, and the same thing will happen, and so on.
>>301525 I say this for years, never happens, part of the reason my mother zapps the energy out of me and I am unable to do anything. Don't even want to go to toilet anymore because she is there. She is one like those Resident Evil chracters that stalk the hallway forever.
They are happy, when I'm miserable. That's 99% of the time. When I'm happy, they are miserable. That's 1% of the time. And I feel so free and like an actual human being, once in a while. Similar to when they are not here, or I am not here. I can think, I can plan, I can do. I wish them more misery, so I can be happy… for-ev-er.
>>301527 This analogy is very creative and fitting wiz. On most days I don't manage to begin making the house, which makes it extra tragic when it's knocked down after an hour or two.
>>301446 My parents have been some of the biggest nuisances in my life. It's the only thing driving me to stop being a NEET. Even if I have to be a wagie at least I'll finally be on my own, making mistakes on my own terms.