Its been a while Things are worse now then last year Life continues to be a challenge Chronic pain and issues continue to plague me more I am starting to dread physical social interaction It is getting hard to keep up energy to do anything
Chronic pain is really bad, pain makes no sense evolutionary speaking it makes survival difficult even more considering in the past there was no modern medicine
>>303141 Things break with pain or without pain, imagine an infection that has spread everywhere in your body, it makes no sense to give you pain everywhere because you will die anyway. Nature just plainly decided to torment consciousness.
my life is also slowly but surely getting worse, still foolishly hoping it'll eventually give me courage to rope. Every day feels more pointless than the last and overthinking on what's happened these last few years is hopeless. I wish I was in like some hospital confined there forever, society is not for me.
>>303149 poor wizard tell looney bin shriks - e.g. mental hospital doctors - you cant tell anymore if you're "you, yourself" or a doll. Seeing stuff others dont see like desribing cracks on the floor…
>>304098 Happened to me years ago. >apply ice until pain and inflammation reduce >start exercising your wrists, lifting weights in every direction, start with half a kg, increase by little until 2kg >stretch your wrists daily in every direction >do something for the rest of your life to keep your wrists strong (or at least not too weak) It was six months of physical therapy for me until it got "normal".
I’m turning 25 next month. No wife, no house, no skills, no college. Honestly, everything feels so dull that even the idea of killing myself seems pointless. I guess I can’t even say I’m sad. I’m nothing. It feels like I’m an observer in my own life.