Anyone else feel like their whole entire life has been ruined because of a neurological disorder? It has generally ruined my life on many scales. School was a mess both academically and socially, I wasn't able to continue college. Not being able to function without pills is so dehumanizing, extreme brain fog (even with a healthy diet and physical activity), executive dysfunction and intellectual deficiencies. I tried it all, physical activity, prayer, healthy food, and discipline. I know this is what a typical lazy person would say, but at what point does it get better??? at what point can I be as productive and as functional as the others?
I had an idea recently (while thinking about my own life) that feelings of unfulfilment stem from alien values. It may be that the life you aspire to or have been coerced into living is not the one you are best suited for.
I once heard a succubus say this (paraphrasing as it was a while ago and not in English): "When I was young, I felt that I wasn't good at anything. Then, my grandmother told me, 'You don't need to be brilliant; just live a good life.' I thought that was very nice, and I have always remembered those words."
Well, when I first heard the succubus say that, I thought, "How silly. Of course that's what you would tell a child who isn't particularly good at anything. It's a cope, like so many others." But lately, I've begun to wonder about it more, and in fact, I found myself idly wishing that someone had told me something like that when I was younger. It might be that this idea that we have to become as good or better than others is a kind of trap, and that for some people there is no need to be especially good at anything. I spent so much time worrying about stupid things like grades and reaching a "perfect future," and for what? I was overwhelmed, I had nervous breakdowns, I thought about suicide regularly and even developed health problems. In retrospect, it was all so silly and unnecessary, but because I had internalised ideas like "good grades in school > top college > high-paying job > retire at 40," I wasn't even able to consider ideas like accepting poverty (in multiple senses), being frugal and finding ways to live well that don't rely on this value system which was created for people who are not like me, and which was forced upon me when I was young.
I can only speak about my own life, and of course no one knows your situation as well as you. But, since you seem to be seeking advice, perhaps you would be better served by ignoring the talents and skills of others (to whatever extent you can) and instead finding ways to live a good life (regarding whatever is in your power to control). And don't spend too much time on imageboards. Places like this are "depression support groups" only in the sense that they support depression, not the people suffering from it. I have been forced to admit the importance of occasional "interchange" with other people, and, for the moment, sites like this one seem to be the best option I have. But, if my visits become any more than "infrequent," it does not go well, and it is so easy in our age to find better distractions than imageboards.
One's "way of thinking" is so important. If I have the right mindset, I can be satisfied just watching the wind blow the trees around. Maybe cultivating that state is what is really helpful in a life that is not destined to be excellent.
>mentally handicapped >I wasn't able to continue college That's not being mentally handicapped at all, you got into college after all. You just have low self confidence, brainfog, depression, etc. You don't find meaning to your life and you don't know who you are. It'll take time but you will get over it.
>>304761 Good advice. People need to stop worrying about living up to ideals that aren't even theirs but just got planted into their heads at a young age.
I hear cruel and tormenting voices all day, nothing really helps, it doesn't matter if I am nice or try to be more cruel than the voices, they always try to pull the same shit going to kms soon
>>304760 Pills are a workable solution. Who cares if it makes you look weak. Amisul Pride is a good anti depressant against depression and Ritalin will solve ADHD which it sounds like you have.