Banned from everything. Rejected by everybody. And then they'll say I'm to blame that I'm schizophrenic. Shine light into darkness.(you're allowed to stay, but don't post frogs)
Oh, I believe I have something to say on the topic. You're only getting banned/rejected because you want to chime in. You create an illusion of kinship in your head, then wonder why things turn out ugly. >pepe Don't want to come off as mean, but I feel no pity towards you.
>>305060 You are criticizing me for hoping. That I'll "chime in". Right? But that I hope is an instinct that I do not control. I cannot control what I want. It is a hunger.
>>305060 Are you only informing me? I already know that expectation is necessary for disappointment. That is very trite. I am aware of it, of course. I take the risk out of desperation. You see. I do it consciously.
Am I rejected, because I want to chime in? Is it true? I know that people are disgusted by the starving. But would I be fed, if I was not hungry? No. They rejected me, even when I had not wanted them to accept me.
>>305071 I do appreciate your commiseration, anon. Thank you.
>>305072 You're having a point. I hope that I will recover.
>>305075 FYI I have never been diagnosed with schizophrenia. And I do not think I am suffering from it. Of course, the ignorance of it is one of the symptoms. I know that. However, I do not hear voices. Nor do I hallucinate. People, who are not doctors, accuse me of being a schizophrenic.
When I am feeling very desperate, then I wish I was. Sometimes I do that. Then, I would have somebody to talk to.
>>305075 I could post from my phone, if I wanted to. But what is the point? I want them to accept me. Genuinely, you know. I do not want to trick them into being with me. That is meaningless.
It is very interesting. It is them, who do not believe in objectivity. Not me. They'll tell me "reality" is, what we "agree" it is. That is to say, what they dictate me. The implication: You are only "sane", if you comply. And, if you are not "sane", then you'll not be tolerated. That is their "sanity". Tamensi movetur.
>>305077 I understand what you are saying, I have been through more or less the same, many times over and over again. If you want I can drop you my e-mail, but keep in mind that I'll never be able to give you the full extent of what you desire.
>>305076 >People, who are not doctors, accuse me of being a schizophrenic. I think they call you "schizo" simply because its getting trendy to say "[stuff], schizo", as opposed to decade-old idea to complain over "autists" or [crabs] let alone trolls.