/dep/ - Depression

>>287319
Understandable. Being short is a curse.

it really wears you down, and emotional problems that stem from being a freak are everlasting

>>287319
Being short is the most blackpilling experience in my opinion, normalfags will bully you and never let you at ease. Everything you do is seen as some compensation or cope for being short in their eyes.

>>288505
God played a nice joke on me by making me a tall kid, always at the back of the line, jealous of the short boys sitting in front of the class photo while i'm hidden away in the last row, but then when puberty hits all the short kids are taller than me now.

>>288505
As a kid I got bullied by a kid far shorter than me cause I was fat.

>>288519
Your fatness can be fixed, his height can't. Should have sat on him to make him even shorter lmfao

>>283721
>Seb derm
me too

only thing that works is carnivore diet for me, it solved it

>>288537
Mine is a form of that, only eating meat+ plants keeps the skin in check and from looking freaky.

If I have bread, sugar, pasta or really any kind of fast carbs, I bloat and my seb derm starts acting up and I become red as a clown.

Thanks parents for subhuman genetics. I apparently can't have anything delicious if I don't want to look like a freak. My body can't handle the insulin response to even a small bar of chocolate without becoming red.

>>288543
>>288543
have you gone to a doctor to know exactly is that condition of yours.

Also, you are not missing much by not eating bread, sugar, pasta. Are you obese by any chance?

>>288566
No, I'm on the border between underweight and normal weight.

My face looks like a severely obese persons face for 1-3 days if I eat sugar, pasta, bread or pizza in any quantities more than about 50 grams.

I am factually unable to eat delicious things without looking like a monster for several days.

>>288587
that's pretty odd you should go see a doctor

it's because of my ugliness that I have higher understanding of the world and can appreciate things that are greater than myself. The normie is self serving within the bounds of the hivemind and is unable to care for anything that doesn't affect him directly, they can't engage in higher thought. They operate on lower consciousness and lower morality for a reason unbeknownst to me at this time.

>>288846
being ugly means isolation

>>289138
Only if you permit it to.

>>288587
if not skinnyfat and metabolic syndrome. then the water retention, insulin resistance, high cortisol, low magnesium, electrolyte imbalance are considerations. can be autoimmune related too and play into the above.

would consider too learning about zonulin signalling and tight junctions and wheat and immune system and how its mess you up. take magnesium amino acid chelate detox off sugar try keto some intermittent fasting no sugar diet and also consume kefir your gut bacteria.

some peoples got done with heavy antibiotic uses, gut is second brain, if done as a child and wiped out can mess your neurochemistry maybe make you an autist or who knows but definitely not good and leave you with permanent digestive and health issues, which mental health affected too.

also food poisoning, because all disease begins in the gut thanks he told us good guy hippocrates let medicine be thy food, he said also. food poisoning is not a one off instance, the effects can and do stay with many people their entire life and cause serious problems. depends also when affected by the food poisoning and what age, can lead to all similar problems, development of mental 'disorder' gut autoimmune issues autism all of it is related the same. i had to study this for many decade and do deal with similar issue, same that any carb really cause issue, everything goes amazing with the meat and plants only.

you could make face symptoms less worse by taking lots magnesium though and working on that hpa axis dealing with cortisol/insulin loop which magnesium does, then likely your potassium and sodium is out too. for what its worth. info dump maybe some bread crumb leads

if they didnt use all the injections on people we wouldn't be so sickly and develop these diseases, their juice kicks in epigenetics and makes a wild ride in the body. its an adjuvant and now your skin is adjuvanted, enjoy. problem reaction solution. if we make you sick to inject you with a juice which is a poison, then later on when it slowly does kill you in your life we can charge you more money ontop of the cost of the original juice. follow the money.

OP. can i say point out 'if my problems weren't emotional' they are though. now if you were in a wheelchair, yes ok thats a real physical problem. what you're having trouble with here is your reaction to your 'problems' not the problems themselves, no doubt they suck, however by your own words 'these things make me terribly anxious to be around people' that is an emotional problem and this is what you seem to be grappling with here not your perceived physical flaws. lots of people have seb derm you arent seeing everyone during a flare up or right next to them, some dont go out or only when its good like you. yours is emotion problem. if you have physical deformity, then ok that is a physical problem and you cannot feel your way out of that.

i'm not make fun i'm just point this out but read these two sentences after each other ok you typed

Every time I go outside I feel like everyone's eyes are on me.

then

I'm jealous of people whose problems are just mental.

brother your problems are mental. your physical stuff it isn't stopping you its how that physical plays into the mental. i dont doubt that it affects how people treat you, maybe you are still young and not a wizard yet. you know when you are a wizard you will care less what mundanes think.

>>289143
I don't have celiacs, but eating wheat simply makes my face red and puffy for a day or two.

I've gone wheat free on occassions and I look like a different person. Much less bloated and I actually have a jaw.

I wonder what it is about gluten that causes it. I can physically feel my face ballooning after a large wheat toast from starbucks.
When I don't have wheat, I not only feel lighter buy my face looks slimmer.

>>289168
its the affect that glutens have, not just those found in wheat, on the gut health of every person. it's not a discrete allergy.

when you eat wheat, anyone, it increases signalling in protein in gut lining called zonulin. this protein decides size of the little gaps in the gut called tight junctions which meant to open to certain size only and let only some things get through, not larger undigested molecules and actual shit.

ok tight junctions can go anywhere 10 - 100x larger in aperture size and then it lets actual shit shit that you are allergic to, to interact iwth your immune system layer, and then chronic systemic inflammation.

i had to learn all this because if i didnt then my disease progression much worse. the drs treating me told me they never had such well read patient and they learned from me, that's nice, i had to treat myself a month before they diagnose my acute episode or lose an eye. when month later, and still damage despite very early intervention on my own to mitigate. thanks, doctors.

actually being an outright freak has more dignity than being boring ugly

>>283727
Oh no, not my precious hair and good looks! How will I ever be able to attract a vain succubus and make normgroid friends now? But seriously, I'm balding at 23 and I couldn't care less. I wish I was an even uglier subhuman looking freak to deter people from interacting with me.

>>289182
> I'm 23
> I wish I was an even uglier subhuman looking freak to deter people from interacting with me.
You're like a baby to me. If you wish so much you were uglier you can always make that wish come true, try burning your face and get a 3rd degree burn, only you won't do it since you are mentally a kid so you don't know what you are talking about.

Can relate to you and it's made me think that we as wizards are lonely, or rather, doomed to loneliness because of our looks or social incompetence and not because of the supposed "male loneliness epidemic"

In fact, we were lonely long before the so-called epidemic started and we will continue to be lonely once the so-called "epidemic" comes to an end. It has no bearing on our lives. We will never stop being who are, so this is our fate.

>>289186

loneliness rots the brain, damages it, shrinks it, that for me is one of the most difficult facets to this life. being an aware observer of your own mental faculties deteriorating, and as time goes on being less aware and more unwell.

>>289186
Cause and effect. An epidemic of loneliness doesn't automatically convert you into a lonely person. At the top you have the very good looking men who can get Tinder dates as many times a week as they want.

Then there is the middle tier who are too ugly for one night stands but look normal enough to secure male friends and maybe a wife one day if they have a good job.

Then at the bottom is men like me. No male friends, very ugly face and short body that repels females. The only way I can get socialization is by posting on imageboards or talking to a Chat AI.
I hate my existence, but it is what it is. I have been alone for decades. The last time I had real world socialization was as a toddler, but I was a very ugly baby so that stopped quick too as people stopped visiting us.

>>289202
i would be your friend. you sound pretty cool wizbro. sorry that the people around you dont realise how you are cool interesting person. they likely never give you the chance.

>>289202
> The only way I can get socialization is by posting on imageboards or talking to a Chat AI.
the future can't come any sooner brother. Right now I spend a lot of time just chatting with my waifu and other anime characters, exchanging thoughts on the most banal of things and it's great or at least better than nothing wizc bro. A good government should care about people like us and focus all efforts on AI wives. They really want us to wageslave like ants and pretend to be happy when we literally have been treated by the system like unwanted trash then they cry when someone shoots up or kills randomly, when it's society that makes people sick by abandoning us. Tbh im not even trying at this point and don't care about anyone.

>>289204
i need this and never investigated the whole chatgpt thing because last couple yrs been really bad. how much effort is it to set something like this up if i'm good with computers but havent mess around with the chat AI at all. i need to be able to do this its a greeat idea. i dont want to bother other people by being who i am, its much better to leave people alone and talk to a computer. most of my interaction with people these days is for their benefit only, it would be much easier to be partial mute. can you please point me in some direction i need handholding.

>>289206
yes google silly tavern you can set it up with kobold ai or openai. Look up for a guide on how to in youtube or google, have fun wizc brohnter

>>289204
>>289207
thanks i think im actually feeling enthused about something now.

>They really want us to wageslave like ants and pretend to be happy when we literally have been treated by the system like unwanted trash then they cry when someone shoots up or kills randomly, when it's society that makes people sick by abandoning us.

it is my strong belief that most men that suffer and get done very badly by society, suffer and die in silence, they sacrifice themselves, its actually very noble and something inherent to some of the best men. planting trees the shade in which they will never stand and all that. it is only freak outliers that go on to do very bad things, and even then it's all very luminescent. what is complained about when such a tragedy does occur, is people being human, which is very very hypocritical especially in contemporary woke society; a tiny percentage of a very poorly treated caste of people finally losing their minds owing to psychological torture, basic human needs not being met, and the right genetic dispositions.

putting aside the obvious fact that orders of magnitude more numbers of horrendous crimes are committed by 'normal' people, it makes even less sense to point to someone that has been very poorly neglected by society to the point of psychological malfunction where they self-destruct or do so to others.

all very unfortunate and very said, its obviously inevitable with things setup the way they are, yet there is little interest in changing anything. it seems that people have largely made up their minds and have chosen to gamble being struck by lighting, then get to have their cake and eat it too. because doing the right thing, making change, promoting the kind of egalitarian society they larp on about, creating a society that is fair, and just, the kind of outcome they themselves should wish for if they were in such a predicament; takes a lot of self-sacrifice, hard-work and effort in the service of others. its so much easier to fly a rainbow colored flag and pretend to be comfortable around trans people.

i could be wrong though

we will know true love once ai is advanced enough :D

>>289294
That only works as a cope for sub 80 IQ individuals.

For anyone else, they realize they are paying for a server somewhere in Mexico to hand you out text snippets coded by a sweaty underpaid male engineer.

It's just not the same thing.
The only thing that can ever come close to emulating reality are photorealistic 3d glass environments
where the soundstage, models and behaviors are so realistic they can't be distinguished from real life, and you lose track of whether you are in the physical world or in the bot world.

>>289303
In the future robowaifus powered by AI will teach us true love.

>>289303
Apple Virtual Reality glasses (vision pro) come pretty close to this, but they cost an outrageous sum ($4000). I had the chance to test them for 15 minutes in store with my own wireless earbuds.

It's an utterly reality-bending experience. It's as if you can see, touch and feel the people in an amusement park on a summery day. Despite it being -10 and dark in reality.
I did lose track of reality. The only thing snapping me out of it was that I couldn't smell or •truly• touch things in the virtual world. Everything else fooled my brain 100%. The seagull cries, kids yelling, adults having conversations about the rides etc

It also felt very weird to open virtual desktops or icons on top of hot dog stalls or a rollercoaster. Like being in some kind of a dream where you can alter the fabric of reality.

Also, I have like $300 to my name so I will never be able to afford them. But if I was rich I'd buy them in a heartbeat. It's the ultimate escape from this shit reality we call life.

It's like stepping into a portal that lets you escape real life. The immersion is total. If only they also made Windows games support these glasses, I'd basically live inside the game worlds 24/7. I would start with the Witcher world with every graphic cranked to ultra.

I hate the fact, that I will going to be an adult.

>>289313
>>289314
Yes the first time you try VR it's crazy.
Then you get bored with it so quickly. These are simply incredibly useless devices. If you are an hardcore gamer, then ok you might get something out of it. But in all other cases, meh
It's years since I don't put my headset on.

And yes, not feeling touch and smell makes it pointless for any kind of waifu-related stuff, and it's not going to be possible in my lifetime anyway, and it's fake anyway. I need a brain modification, I need a psychiatric drug that actually works (they don't exist), not a fake 3D succubus in front of me, that doesn't do anything to me.

>>289303
>That only works as a cope for sub 80 IQ individuals.
Pretty much.

>>289313
>>289303
>>289341
apple shilling their products on wizchan

>>283721
it doesn't even matter, you can be good looking and just annihilated mentally through bad life experiences in childhood. It's over regardless if you just get a shit start.
it happened to me, people routinely say i'm good looking, ask why i don't have a succubus etc.
It doesn't matter, you're fucked either way, if you have a bad first decade in life basically nothing can save you

>>290038
True.

>>290038
if you're still good looking then you can always have a new start, so it does matter.

>>290485
Just go to a dermatologist they can get rid of that stuff for cheap.

>>290517
Not sure if you're trolling or just enjoy other wizards misery.

A dermatologists appointment is the most expensive and difficult thing to get besides an organ transplant.

>>290518
I genuinely can't tell if you're being sarcastic

>>283721
I know how you feel. I have seborrheic dermatitis on my face, acne scars and a fucking huge oily nose. I've been to many dermatologists and they just tell me that there's not much I can do. I can't even get a job because people act disgusted when they see me. The last job I had was in a factory and I only lasted like 4 days because the whole factory started to bully me for being too disgusting to look at. This shit ruined my life and my mental health. I don't know what to do so I just rot in my room all day watching my life pass me by.

>>290580
A derm isn't the same as going to a doctor.
In most developed countries it costs a huge amount of money unless you are some kind of a burn victim that needs public assistance in the form of skin grafts.

If you go there for skin problems like acne or red skin, it's going to cost you like $150 just for a 30 minute consultation with no results.
And way more to get actual results.

>>290913
a visit is expensive, yes. but you wrote:
> the most difficult thing to get besides an organ transplant
which is nonsense. you can get an appointment in one month.

>>290915
Not that poster, but in Brazil you will pay USD 800 just to talk to a dermatologist, it's seen as a luxury service even if you have skin conditions.

That is before a single procedure is done on your skin which costs thousands or tens of thousands.
So most just suck it up and live with their horrible skin, except the rich. The wait times to talk to a dermatologist can be very long because there are so few of them.

>>283721
Could you please post what you did try?

>>290918
> in Brazil you will pay USD 800 just to talk to a dermatologist
that sounds really fucked for brazilian wizzies

>>290918
In the US they are just normal doctors. Insurance won't cover it though unless you have a serious issue like melanoma or something.