/dep/ - Depression

if you cannot fucking open the suicide thread nearby you're not going to kys anyway so what's the point of even bothering to make a meaningful reply?

I know of at least one or two family members who died from a morphine overdose or some shit. Dunno' if either one was a suicide or some sort of accident at a hospital. All I know is that I remember looking into the cause of death of one of them and somebody wrote something about a "morphine overdose" but didn't elaborate any further.

Probably a relatively peaceful way to die compared to, say, death by potassium cyanide.

heroin OD but please reconsider

Drowning/hypothermia
Just make sure you won't get found as I did…

>>284061
worked to kill my dog. I still hate that I let my mom talk me into getting him "put down". I don't like thinking that I killed him willingly just because he was old. He wasn't in visible pain or anything he just lied around all the time barely moving. Maybe he was enjoying life and I just shot him full of heroin so that his lungs shut down.

I tried partial suspension when I was 16 but woke up clawing at my next. I actually fainted; it was supposed to work. I'm almost 30 now. I think we're stuck here man.

>>284077
*clawing at my neck*
That was the only time I was able to seriously try killing myself. I tried two more times, same method, but they were half hearted. I hope you're able to find peace, OP. Sincerely.

>>284071
:(
dont beat yourself too much about little things

Remember to take all of your clothes off before killing yourself to make it easier for dressing your corpse up before the burial.

try a melatonin overdose, dying while asleep

It's obviously SN.

Wait for old age.

>>287544
That's what OP and most "suicidal" dudes online are going to do anyway, regardless of what they post or what they read online, so, yes, this is the correct answer.

>>287572
(continue)
It's because for biological reasons, suicide is the hardest thing a human life can do, there is no way around it.

Was looking for suicide statistics in my country and the most popular was hanging. It has got more popular over the last 50 years, now accounting for 60% of male suicide deaths instead of like 35.
Hanging is popular, so in practical reviews, maybe that?

I've been thinking about hanging myself again. Had a 3-4 year stretch there where I didn't think about it, but lately I just can't take it anymore. My parents keep pretending like I'm completely normal and sometimes I pretend like I am too but I'm just incredibly mentally ill and utterly crippled. Sometimes I can get myself into a delusional state where I just pretend I will be able to handle life, but the truth is I can't and every time I try I am rudely reminded of that fact and I end up right back where I am. I should probably just buy a gun though since they are available here. I do fear surviving as a cripple in some brain damaged state from any form of suicide. That is basically a possibility. If I end up even more permanently crippled and unable to even kill myself who knows what sort of fresh hell it would be. I mean now I can at least watch anime and vape weed, but what my brain damaged capacity will be? It could just be constant suffering and constant hell where I'm not even capable of normal consciousness. I think high caliber through the side of the head would be my best shot, but even that isn't guaranteed. You want to get both hemispheres, but what if the gun kicks back or you angle it wrong or the bullet curves? Should you go hollow point maybe? But would that have the ability to penetrate the skull? This brings me back to hanging because it has the double tap built in, break the neck if you're lucky, strangle to death if not, but if you're really unlucky, you don't break the neck, you only strangle enough to end up brain damaged.

I suppose it makes sense, if I am too anxious and fearful to handle life, I guess I am also too anxious and fearful to handle death, but I don't think I can take much more of living like this. This is the ONE life I will get. I will NEVER get a redo. This is what it turned out to be. This is who I turned out to be. I can't handle it and I need it to just be over with because it's not going to get any better.

>>287575
Don't do it bro.
Hold on to what you love in this world. There will be a time when you're fighting yourself to just let go but it's not over.

I wish I could. I have nothing left in life, thats what happens when no one helps you or cares about you. but im too weak to even suicide

>>284077
Yep I'm 30 as well, We're just stuck here. I know I don't have the balls to suicide or i woulda been gone 10 years ago lmao.

>>287575
I'm in the same boat, living with my parents in my early 30's. Unfortunetly theres nothing I can do about my anxious weak persoanality and being scared of doing anything. None of this is ourfault its who we are born as.

>>287593
Things can change. The first time I went to therapy it was with someome who was kind and understood me. I was never 'right' but I remember losing all my hatred for the world,I remember feeling like I wanted to try. I've had things happen that have changed me since.

Now when I go to therapy it's like knowing nothing will ever be right again.

Ask your parents for help. You're not stuck the way you are, no matter how much it may seem like it. You can always change.

>>287594
so your change was from hate to hope to despair

>>287595
Despair is such a heavy word. I know things can change, I just cant believe in it anymore.

I feelm like I'm on autopilot at the minute because I'm not sure what comes next. I've got my family though, so I hope that will be enough.

What's an easy method that looks like an accident? Like an overdose of a common ingredient?

youll die anyways, no need to rush

>>290529
Sometimes you just can't fucking take it and don't want to wait.

>>290527
autoerotic asyphyxiation