>>289176we have a different perspective and frame. i don't drink, and that has nothing to do with having a reason to live, it has to do with pain-aversion. i dont want to be another 10yr older and my body in even worse condition and in pain and suffering every day because like an idiot i bought into some meme about being a lonely virgin self-destructing with alcohol. am quite certain there are malevolent people that push this narrative in order to induce others to suicide this way. its not wizardly, at all.
when vlad the impaler was sticking dirty old bloody spikes up people and leaving them there to suffer for days as they die from infection and internal wounds, those people want to die as fast as possible, because they are suffering. there is a kind of pain and existence that makes any human beg for death, you dont want to try and approach that by destroying your body.
not drinking for me is incredibly easy, because i know the consequences. lots of apprentices dont understand aging and consequences yet, they dont know disease and injury and extreme physical pain that you cannot fix and must live in a damaged shell.
ive learned from older people, it saddens me that there are people here that will read this and not learn until they are living it then they will feel dumb and be in a lot of pain at the same time. then they won't feel smart at all.
>>289184yes very difficult, thats why my approach has been to work hard on avoiding bad lifestyle habits, foods, everything from something as seemingly innocuous as exposure to chemicals, to not consuming wheat, vegetable oils, sugar etc.
i force myself to do this because i have lived the pain, so its very very easy for me to only eat basic foods that other people cannot consume. a meal for me, is a few cans of sardines and some broccoli. food is only fuel not for enjoyment i don't care. i only care to not be in more extreme pain and suffering while aging.
as a final thought, the idea of not being able to look after myself but becoming mentally incompetent from disease progression or aging is extremely worrying for me. like many wziards i wont have someone to look after me when im older, i dont have people now that is why i ended up homeless. i could end up a crazy old man on the streets, or in some nursing home being abused by succubi and unable to protect myself on a mental of physical level.
i will do everything i can to avoid that, to the extent that doing things doesnt require effort, which is why i cannot always do positive habits, but i can easily not do the bad destructive ones.