/dep/ - Depression

You have to deal with the things that give you stress and anxiety and solve them permanently, otherwise it never goes away.

Yeah.

There's so many things that can go wrong in my life that I have to be constantly fixing things.

For example, worrying about losing my job, dealing with people at my job, worrying about unsavory people I don't like getting hired.

Another example would be worrying about my car breaking down, worrying about getting scratches and dents on my car, worrying about hitting stuff, worrying about crashing when the roads are icy or full of snow, worrying about getting a DUI because of drugs in my system, worrying about killing someone and then going to prison for 8 years, worrying about constant expensive repairs, worrying about things just stopping to work like my air conditioner. Worrying about how I would get to work if my car broke. Worrying about how I would get a new car if my car did die.

Another example would be worrying about my expensive PC breaking or just being annoying and expensive to fix and diagnose. Worrying about losing my data, having to install windows again, having to install all my programs again, having to customize it to my tastes, etc.

Another example would be worrying about my landlord not renewing my lease, so I would have to get rid a lot of my expensive tools, get rid of all my various items and such. Worrying about having to find a more expensive apartment because apartments just keep increasing in price while mine is still cheap. Worrying about my roommate making messes and being annoying.

Another example is worrying about losing access to my various accounts. Worrying about how my email provider could just delete my email if they wanted to and I couldn't do anything about it.

Another example is worrying about getting injured or hurt because I don't have health insurance.

It literally never fucking ends

>>291315
There is something you are doing, which you should stop, even if it goes against all logic.

Otherwise, there is something you do find yourself doing and you need to start, even if hurts or seems crazy from every point of wiew.

The gates of the subconscious do not kindly open theirselves alone before cowards nor clueless people.

>>291331
Indeed I don't know how normalfags can live their lives without worrying about anything, there is always something to fix, life is an endless list of problems

And in the end it doesn't even matter, when you finally learned how to survive life hits you with some terminal disease and is over.

Worried about going homeless
Worried about the person I live with dying
Worried about budget billing going up to a point I can't afford
Worried about the "clean up" bill at the end of my budget billing cycle
Worried about dying
Worried about my dental insurance not covering for all the extractions of teeth I need
Worried the dentist won't be able to help me
Worried these teeth will kill me since I read online bad teeth can
Worried about rides to the dentist since I can't drive
Worried my aunt (person who drives me everywhere) dying
Worried about what I'm gonna do when she does die
Worried about computer dying and not being able to get a new one
Worried about money in general
Worried about my psychiatrist dying/retiring
Worried I'll run out of my meds
etc

It does NOT help I have sever OCD and paranoia so this shit never leaves me alone. I can't catch a break on anything, it's one worry after another. All my days are filled with me crying and having panic attacks lately. I can't keep living like this.

>>291349
Do not obey the anxiety. Let things come.

>>291346
I fixed every single problem in my awful rental and spent 8 months of blood, sweat and tears sawing, painting, wallpapering and god knows what.

Then literally 2 weeks later my landlord dies and the place goes on sale.

I don't give a shit about anything anymore. Life clearly doesn't permit me to have nice stuff no matter how hard I work towards them.

>>291351
why would you do free labor and improvements to someone else's property? If it's awful you just move somewhere else, that's the one and only appeal of renting. Let that be a life lesson to never work to improve shit that isn't yours.

>>291357
Not him, but moving costs money and sometimes it's cheaper to improve what you have over moving somewhere new.

>>291357
It depends on circumstances. I will never, ever get a bank loan nor inherit a place to call my own.

I lucked out and got a landlord who said he wont raise the rent as long as I pay on time which I have for 8 years.
An apartment of this size on the free market would cost $600 more a month than what I pay now.

It's an absolute no-brainer to throw a few hundred into making it more habitable.