No.291592
Health - undiagnosed gastrological problems, lost half my weight, couldn't breathe normally for a year, NAFLD, IBS, schizoid personality, mixed anxiety-depression, all teeth dying, always in pain or unbearable agony or feeling like i'm dying, benzo addiction, exhaustion, inability to function, move, eat, work like a normal person, heart arrythmias, breathing problems, stomach pains, teeth pain, head pain, eyesight problems, heartburn, huge scoliosis etc. etc.
Money - after making a ton of money in crypto eventually I started losing it and giving money away due to depression and suicidal ideation, so after 2 years of psychiatry and therapy i went to the best psychiatric hospital where they scammed me out of 6 figures and said they can't help me. Rest went to physicians for normal health problems, nobody really helped, they misdiagnosed me and tried to treat non-existing conditions, spent a year going from doctor to doctor for my symptoms until i ran out of money, now i'm left with infinite tax debt. Dropped out of school at 18, can't work any normal job due to physical mental social problems and inability to do simplest things, not that anyone would hire me.
Social - my family is insane and insanely stupid, they don't care and won't do anything even if you writhe in pain in front of them, or start dying in front of them. I don't speak to them since years and I would do things to them I'd rather not write about. Never had my own room, and shared a PC with 2 forever unemployed mentally ill brothers till I was 20. Never had a chance to live or function like a normal person. Never had a single relationship, a friend, never felt love in any form for anyone in my family or otherwise. I am socially at a level of a 4 year old.
Oh, I also can't do basic chores and never learned how to function like a normal human being. And I lost all my hobbies and copes since there's no point. So why am I still here, you ask? No reason, apart from my cowardice. I first thought about suicide probably 12 years ago, drowning in my bathtub. But i quickly decided it was just a fantasy and I will do it via train. Nothing's changed, only available methods are brutal and scary and i'm the biggest coward you will ever meet in the universe. But, there is no choice. Suicide started as a comforting fantasy, then a choice, and then a necessity you beg for every day. I hope I manage to die today. There is no point in doing anything or thinking about anything or feeling anything except killing myself. I suffered for years and then endured unbearable misery for months. Nobody will read this anyway as usual. I've been alone since birth till death, nobody ever helped me or understood me or cared about me.
Have a fun life.
No.291605
I read all the thread and I want to say thank you for sharing your story. I am doomed myself and I feel less alone now.
When I go out with my parents and I see all the normalfags enjoying life while people like us are suffering greatly it makes me feel unbearable anger.
No.291624
>Have a fun life
Not happening. It's not bad in the same way as yours, so I'm some months/years away from suicide yet. And at this point I am too repulsed towards "hapi" normalfag life anyway. Hope next time it's going to be better.
No.291629
All of the problems you've listed are actually treatable. Go to the top supplement forums and grind out hours lurking, longecity is the good one
No.291635
>>291634https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2745840/This isn't my job and you need specialized subsets of knowledge a general practice biohacker won't have. Bentonite clay to clean out your gastrointestinal tract might help.
Your low intestine is where nutrients are absorbed so of course if you have dysfunction there your whole body will go out of whack. Noopept massively increases visual acuity, you'll see more vivid colors a few days in.
Headache; that might be inflammation or choline deficiency. Schizoid isn't a real disease but you could raise d1 dopa receptors with sulbutiamine. Liver, I don't know much but try milk thistle and higher dosage NAC. Teeth and body pain try bpc-157 (capsules) from limitless. Heartburt, I don't know. The dep I already posted a guide to somewhere else today, ashwaghanda, gotu kola, and SJ wort should help. Go do your work and study breh
No.291636
>>291635oh and get the apaguard toothpaste from japan to fix the teeth. BPC-157 just kills the bacteria in them
No.291719
>>291592OP, please tell what country you are from.I might be able to help you.
No.291726
If you have money, health problems can be solved, mental problems can be treated, addictions can also be by going to a help center, of course you are going to suffer great withdrawal and want to tear your eyes out, and psychiatric treatments will have quite bad effects on your organism but in everything you would be fine. It won't be easy, and you will have many setbacks along the way, but if you continue you will reach a point where everything will be fine.
>I also can't do basic chores and never learned how to function like a normal human being. And I lost all my hobbies and copes since there's no point.
Life has no meaning or reason for being, the meaning is in what we give it. And now, voluntarily or involuntarily, the meaning of your life is to suffer, and live in constant agony. It may be different, but it depends on you.
>I've been alone since birth till death, nobody ever helped me or understood me or cared about me.
You feel alone because of the rejection from your family, from "society", and your problem is not understanding that the problem is not really you or your way of being, but rather them. That's why you do nothing but comment on your problems in an anonymous forum where there are more or less people like you.
You can tell from miles away that you just want to feel accepted, in a group, or in some similar shit, but you're never going to achieve it if you can't accept your past mistakes and sins, and forgive them.
No.291753
>>291629>>291636>>291635is longecity just a meme, tho? or is it legitimate? is it related to either lesswrong or lesserwrong?
No.291754
>>291753It's the elite biohacker brain, longevity, and health forum. Do not post if you're a new guy, almost nobody goes is active anymore. Lurk the archives and know what you're looking for to get some very detailed and handy answers. About x2.5 better than reddit
No.291755
>>291719poland. you cant help me, even god couldn't, if he existed.
>>291726wow, you are a genius, just get infinite money and solve your problems. as if you missed the part where i explained im broke in debt and cant make money, in fact im in constant physical and mental pain that makes me want to blow my brains out. i wish i was born american.
and, even money doesn't always help. i had a lot of money and i was scammed out of it, doctors misdiagnosed me and tried treating non-existing diseases, etc etc. humans suck even if you pay them. you know nothing.
>>291629surely a broken life will be fixed by supplements. you should try going to church, at least praying is free and nearly as effective.
No.291756
>>291753I tried various nootropics, supplements, and pharmaceutical drugs over the years to fix whatever is wrong with me, but it never worked. I think it's because the root cause of my problems was actually caused by emotional neglect in childhood. That has permanently fucked up my self esteem and caused irreparable social anxiety and avoidance.