No.293749
>>293747Same, I wish I never did bad things in the past. Now I feel like I don't deserve or should have good things in my life, I always torture myself cause of the bad things I did.
No.293752
>>293749>>293749It is a big weight, many times I would like to redeem myself, I try, but many times I fail miserably.
No.293753
>>293750I would like my brothers to be able to succeed and be great people. I want them to learn and do the things I couldn't do.
No.293984
God can help you do that. Only through God those things can be done the right way and He has great things planned for you
No.293989
>>293984What you say is true, but how do I look for God?
No.293992
>>293989You can start by praying, for example the prayer Our Father, you can go to church, you can look up priests who talk about faith on youtube, for example Fulton J Sheen, Father Spyridon helped me although he might be too hard for starters but i recommend Ascension Presents, also you can read up on the Desert Fathers, you can also ask God very directly guidance in whatever thats bothering you, followed by a honest prayer. Good luck, i know you will succeed
No.293993
>>293989Also, C.S. Lewis is a perfect writer to get you into faith
No.293995
>>293992Thank you for the recommendations. Yesterday I passed by and saw 3 churches open but I was afraid to enter. I am too far from God, my actions are not good, and at this point in the life I am closer to the devil than to him.
No.293999
>>293995We have all sinned. Make sure you state that to God in prayer, you can even say that to him in prayer right now, and say that you want to repent. Later you can go to the confession and state your sins and then over time grow in faith. You can do it! God loves you more than you can imagine, dont forget that!
No.294000
>>293999I think you are right, but I am too ashamed of my actions, I think I would spend hours and days confessing to myself.
No.294004
>>294000You should just start somewhere. Go through the 10 commandments and 7 deadly sins and test your conscience whether youve sinned in those ways. If you did, when confessing you dont need to go too much into details. Just state the sin and go to the next one. You can go through them at home and prepare what youre gonna say so that you know what to say at the confession
No.294005
>>294000Also, shame is there for a reason, it is a gift from God. If you confess the priest wont judge you, and the God also wont judge you but forgive you
No.294015
>>294009>>294014stop spreading atheist propaganda on my thread
No.294017
>>294016
Before I wanted to be a farmer, make a lot of money and not be a slave or a neet. I thought that this way I could get away from the computer, work hard, and have a better life, while making good money. But the reality is that I don't like farming, nor do I like selling things. When I had crops I had status, I could say to myself "look what you did, look what you are going to do, you have a future and a plan in your life" Now I have nothing, just money that I was able to accumulate.
>are you aware that as a wizard…
I wipe my ass with social norms. I'm not going to be condemned to a miserable job or crawl through a vagina. I don't judge to those who do, but I understand that there is no point of comparison, we play two different sports in a different league
No.294116
>>293747Why do I suck so much at final exams? I do relatively good at partials but when the moment of truth comes I shit myself. It is so frustrating, at this pace I'm going to graduate at 30 years old. There are people who find life in almost-every aspect so easy it's degrading.
No.294147
>>293753They'll find their way.
It's not your job to save them, but to save yourself and show them how its done.
No.294159
>>294116who gives a shit about that, just make sure you get a degree or skill, fuck all that pace shit. fucking society is gonna weed out anyone who isn't making 60k in the future anyways
No.294164
>>293747You don't ask a blind men how to paint. Find people who are out there doing great things and be around them.
No.294165
>>294164Those people don't want to hang out with a dirt poor autistic wizard. They hang around other people like themselves.
No.294167
>>294164I think you are right. I am a young entrepreneur, with dreams and goals, but I put them aside for silly reasons. Still, I believe that the fire still burns inside me.
>>294165Normal people are not on my level.
No.294174
>>294165mfers shooting themselves down before they even step out the door
No.294175
I hate to say it but without a strong will of your own solitude will ruin you. It's so easy to say "I will start improving tomorrow" and do nothing with no one to call you out or a role model to serve as an example. Doesn't help that on the internet you find plenty of people to relate to in their laziness.
No.294177
>>294176Do you think I care about sex? It is certainly pleasurable, but it is a fleeting and meaningless pleasure.
>girlfriend and love Having a girlfriend won't change my life, love can be beautiful, but it's not a determining factor. Apart from the fact that if the succubus is a loudmouth, has some mental problem or is simply hysterical, the truth is that she is not worth it at all.
>>294175You're right. The only thing I was consistent in was saving money and taking care of it, but many times I simply didn't feel like doing it due to bad experiences in the past. Once, while reflecting, I asked myself why I wanted to earn money, and I said "so I can stop working" then I realized that stopping working means being locked in front of the computer.
No.294179
>>294176
I'll never be loved by a good succubus or have a decent life, not a personal failing. Not meant for Omw people.
No.294180
>>294179>ill never be loved or have a decent lifeyour brain on wizchan
No.294181
>>294179An ugly, marginalized man could only be with a ugly, marginalized succubus. There are exceptions to the rule, but it is not the norm.
No.294183
>>294182
It may sound hypocritical on my part, but even though I am a violent guy who doesn't go out much, I would never get involved with someone like that. And even less with a succubus like that, I have enough with my mother and my aunts.
No.294184
Abandoned the idea of watching this anime when I knew the failed normalfag Satou fucked a schizophrenic
No.294189
>>294159To get a degree I need to pass exams.
No.294190
>>294189Exams are child's play. They're easy to fake too.
No.294192
>>294189Just study retardedly hard, learn everything and have it sucked into your soul, you'll eventually pass your exams and be certified to work to get out of wagie neet shit life.
No.294193
>>294184It's an anime for gays and succubi.
No.294805
>>294192I did that. Got degrees in the hardest and most employable fields. It did nothing for me, cant even get an interview. Over 5 years since i finished my masters. I still have massive debt from all the studying, it only goes up. Be careful what you advise. Studying is worse than pointless if you are not sociable and capable of networking
No.294807
>>294805I dont get this. I got a CS degree fulyl expecting to be stuck in the NEET cycle after graduation based on all the shit I read online. Literally the first job I applied to I got an interview and as hired that same day. $100k starting. This was back in 2017. I got my degree from a shitty university too.
There is something with you guys that make you fuck up that you gotta be unaware of. Autism? I dunno. I am NT and my interview quickly turned into me just shooting the shit with the interviewer.
No.294821
>>294807I have crippling social anxiety and probably autism.
You also must be in USA. Nowhere else is like that and especially not for that much pay. Im in a high cost of living country but there are no entry level jobs especially these days
No.294822
>>294192By retardedly hard you mean nonstop, even when you feel tired or sleep deprived?
I have these OCD-like thoughts were I spend hours doing nothing (not even procrastinating with games or stuff like that) instead of studying because I feel like I wont be able to absorb any content/knowledge, its bizarre
No.295166
>>294807>This was back in 2017The market was different back then, also no AI
No.295214
>>294807>I am NT and my interview quickly turned into me just shooting the shit with the interviewer.This is the exact power that all life relies on. I have never been comfortable like that with a stranger in my life, I cant even imagine it. As a result, interviewers dont like me and nobody will want to work with me, regardless of my technical skills. It makes complete sense; of course people want to be comfortable chatting with their coworkers instead of stuck dealing with an awkward freak
No.295217
>>293747Me too. Sometimes I think back and wonder when I lost that 'spark' if you want to call it that. At least back then there was a desire to play games and watch things. I think I might like to try to create things but I become frustrated and give up easily. Taking the tiniest possible steps feels demoralizing because that only leads to comparisons with other people who can do more. But I know there is no other way. Godspeed.
No.295225
>>295218oh it was first degree, my bad. I feel bad for him, plus he's brown, so life must be harsher with him, maybe I don't really know