No.294492
I randomly came across the obituary of my childhood best friend's father. He ended up passing away a year after I moved and cut contact with everyone I knew. It destroyed me as that man pretty much saw us growing up. "You're always welcome, you're part of our family "
This is a big deal because when my family moved in, that man absolutely hated me due to my race and it took years for him to warm up to me.
I still remember that faithful day when me and the strange boy next door first became aware of each other. It almost feels like a dream at this point. I feel like that memory will be one of the last ones to flashback when the time comes.
No.294505
I have been thinking for years that "normalfag" wageslave is an easy way. Remember when mom you to say "unoccupied mind is the house of devil"? She was terribly right.
When you're alone you're utterly egged in death anxiety. I have spent many years wallowing in the thought of death to prepare for the moment of death. And yet in my panic attacks when I'm close to death I feel this special form of total dread in every fiber of my being like when spiritual ecstasy overcomes the mystic's body, fear of death overcomes my body. I am so helpless and infinitely alone. It's like being baptized in a sea of terror and my eyes roll back in that ancient blackness.
No.294512
>>294495Explanation on that photo?
victim of burning to death ,or just "body waste" (skin, sores, sweat, pus etc) of an immobile old guy who slowly -literally- rotted to death?
No.294514
>>294512He was hit with a nerve gas leak while sleeping
No.294515
>>294512I worked at a job doing death/suicide clean up and often the bodies aren't found for weeks, sometimes months, and just rot away. Imagine leaving piles of meat and offal on your bed for a month and then cleaning it off, that'd be what the mattress looks like after.
Lots of old people have nobody that checks on them, sometimes it takes until the power being switched off due to lack of payment before someone will bother seeking them out.
No.294518
>>294515>>294514NMV, I reverse-googled the image, it was an old japanese man that was left for like, 2 years to rot
>I worked at a job doing death/suicide what was the worst thing you saw? in terms of overall room\house, such as stashing or hoarding, or suicide method, etc? Ever saw anything spooky\paranormal?
No.294521
I think 99%+ of all human lives were basically 'wasted'. Only scientists, mystics, artists and philosophers really help make this world less shitty
No.294528
>>294518I should say I never got to see that stuff because I wasn't there long enough. But I'd hear the stories in detail about what it's like. The most I've done is wash human blood out of a room.
There's a lot of piss apparently and the bodies are usually rotten, and some of that skin and rot sticks to the couch/floor/whatever. These were normalfags doing it and they said it does psychologically get you.
No.294559
>>294528What do your colleagues thought about their own deaths?