>>294741I know how you feel, wiz. I've been doing basically the same thing over the past year or so.
>Yet instead of exploring my potential and learning about the world I'm a slave to instant gratification.Don't feel too bad about it, the world has been twisted into a design that is meant to discourage personal growth and keep people distracted and lazy. It's meant to be very easy to fall into that trap, it becomes even easier if you're pessimistic like I am, then you keep returning to the question 'what's even the point?' Personally, I keep losing hope and drive, at which point I return to my escapism and the hope that death will come soon to release me. It's good to seek out a hobby though, or a project, anything to make you feel like you're working on yourself and accomplishing something.