/dep/ - Depression

When I was a child in school I intentionally made myself as uninteresting as possible because I wanted to reduce the amount of social interactions I would have to get through with others. It worked wonderfully, a little too wonderfully. I now sit here as a fully grown adult and I am completely empty. Completely uninteresting, dull, lacking in experiences, interests, hobbies, or genuine emotional reactions to things. I don't even know how to have fun. I literally don't know how.

How do I come back from that? I never make friends with people because I bore them to death because I don't have any friends or stories to tell them about my experiences living life with my friends like a normal person because I'm not a normal person, I am a recluse. I see others chatting so effortlessly with strangers and joking and making them laugh but I can barely just get through interactions with others I can't even think of what I would say to make them laugh. Nothing interesting has happened to me lately, or like in the past decade at least. I have no deep area of passion that I can talk about. I have nothing to show for my time spent as a recluse. I didn't study some languages or learn the law or how to code. I don't even have deep interest in video games or music or stuff like that because I have been depressed for so long. None of that shit can hold my interest. I am empty. There's no coming back from this right?