No.295825
I need to share a set of deeply\tightly connected musings: atheism, antis*x+antinatalism, and "reality shifting", misanthropist and mortality\dying.
Im a STRONG believer in "reality shifting" -not the shiftok version but the Monroe\ Transposing \Bashar\ Neville \Zeland "schools". I know they're NOT the same but they're non-shit-tok z**mers who teach this. I had been (still am?) religious but after reading Paul Almond, and other such authors, now I doubt deeply. My main reason to be religious\ pro-christianity was its huge emphasis on celibacy (catholicism) but, now I learnt from several authors one can be -and indeed, many are- anti-s*x and celibate and an atheist. Anti-natalism is about life=suffering, but I still oppose any and all forms of contraception. I think human meddling into animal breeding is a cosmic monstrosity and see ecological damage by capitalism (and also communism, soviet retards polluted half the world with really nasty shit) as unforgivable and atrociously heinous. Misanthropy and the fact of my own mortality also hold their dark, trapping fascination upon me.
NOW: As I said, Im having more and more, and more intense, lucid dreaming\OBE\ astral experiences–I believe the Empty World (an exact copy of the 2024 planet with no animals ,or humans) exists and want to go there. My main idea until now was to go as a kind of holiday ,or to perform christian religious exercises, pilgrimages, intense asceticism, etc. Now I still may be ascetic (non-masochistic, tho) but want to never return here. and die there. It pains me to a horrible, horribly intense level that my parents won't ever see me again\ I won't see them or family ever again.