>>300064>What happened with that happy child?He's still there, in the worn down body of a man who turned of age around a decade ago. The bullying turned to silent judgment, but he's still working on not caring about the scowling looks thrown at him.
>I barely exist in the meatspace. I'm a ghost, a shell of my former self. Nothing feels real or right. Everything keeps getting worse.Same, but I'm fine that way. I like learning new things (video games, sports, instruments, cooking new meals), perfecting what I already know. I don't see it as self improvement because I couldn't care less about what springs normalfags into action (spite, envy). I'm on my way to becoming an impoverished hoarder once my parents pass away.
I could daydream for longer periods of time as a teen, that's what I miss the most. However, there has always been a thin shroud of sadness veiling everything.