/dep/ - Depression

the recipe for letting out repressed emotion is
- time of hardship, but with free time (not whole day of activity)
- social element (not in isolation the whole day)
- sense perception AKA present moment awareness (without this, your ego will just form a story or cling to an identity/rule/idea to prevent feelings from arising)
- complete abstinence from mind numbing activities (substance use, ELECTRONICS, binge eating, masturbation, …)

screaming/shouting at the world is not letting out repression, it's expressing repression.
this is what punk rock type teenagers and homeless people get wrong, they think flipping off a trash can is doing anything for themselves.

>>300351
Yes, drop any addiction. Doing semen retention and quit PMO. It's hard but you feel the dark night of the soul where you go through phases. I'm a month in and i get withdrawal waves, goes away, comes back. And when you are sober, you see the weak willed disgusting denegerate you were. All my life i was trying to find God, and Semen Retention teaches it's in you, your soul. Be good to yourself and take it from there.

>Does anyone ever want to just scream and shout at the world?

>ever


yes


there's a forest nearby.
I can go there and SCREAM a ton WAAAAAAAAAGH

>>302545
Wizchan 2025

Semen retention is the biggest meme. That’s just succubi worshipping to the extreme. Just do it whenever you feel lit and don’t think about it works wonders.

I find myself unable to cry despite being completely miserable and wishing to cry. Why would i scream at the world? nobody cares

>>302548
this

but - lit not just warm

>>302549
had this foe years


ironically, taking one of my supplements every day seem to work


context

5HTP pills/D3 vitamin pills/multivitamin pills

I also had Zn deficiency. Turns out a male can test himself for a lack of zinc (in a nsfw way)

>>302548
Not a meme at all but greatly overhyped and done wrong, because so many of the people practicing it have serious anxiety problems so they mistake anxiousness for "lit".

>>302788
> Turns out a male can test himself for a lack of zinc (in a nsfw way)
Not the anon youre replying to but how so? Also what form of Zinc? I take Glycinate and Gluconate, and I've previously taken Monomethionine (OptiZinc) and L-Carnosine.

All Zinc forms help my mood (lower anxiety) and energy levels, but honestly I never noticed a major difference between those four. What I noticed does make a difference is taking them together with high dose D3. What makes even a bigger difference is taking the 3 main fat soluble vitamins, A D and K together. Just beef liver + d3 and mk4 pills because there are no natural foods that have equivalent levels.

>>302793
>Not the anon youre replying to but how so?

If your goo(n) stuff is mostly yellow rather than just slightly less yellower than white porcelain of your bath… then you know you're awfully lacking Zn in your dies.


At some point, when I *tried* taking Zn, my goo was partially white and partially yellow - probably a mix of fresh and old goo

>>302793
>Not the anon youre replying to but how so? Also what form of Zinc? I take Glycinate and Gluconate, and I've previously taken Monomethionine (OptiZinc) and L-Carnosine.

It was gluconate. I think.

>>302793
So, I have both K2 vitamin pills and D3 vitamin pills. Then, I grab Zn also.
And then, I get some vitamin A also.


(also, B12 since my lent-oriented diet makes me, effectively, a half-vegan)


Hmmmm…
Thanks in advance. I'll try my best.

Tried to befriend a person. He would not listen to me at all. Friendship - screw him

Well, yeah, a lot of schoolboys used to bully me (of course they would bully a fatherless person who's too tall, they would call me "second yearer" and such.)

Good thing those bully twins aren't in my town anymore. I assume they had to move to Siberia to work some plant job…

>>304195
Basically, when Im bored and have to focus, I remeber those stinky working-class (cook's kids?) retarded kids who couldn't handle 4th grade curriculum yet had the brainz to leave a fuckton of emotional markings in my mind. I suppose they live the life I expected thm to live - gatherting scraps ant some kitchen job, "trying to survive", "it's not us being ass, it's life being ass" stuff…

>>300350
I can't really form what I feel into anything coherent anymore. It's just a misshapen undefinable amalgam.
Maybe because if it gets defined it'll be the day I've settled for suicide

I had an insight last night

see, in the "Metal slug (???number???)"'s final, the outro sequence outro, you see a guy lauching a paper plane. Said plane flies throughout all cleared levels showing some people mourninv over, well, the mooks who got killed by the playable characters..

And in the end this plane flies towards the night sky, turning into a little innocent star in the sky.

E N D

I remembered this scene.

"Maybe this is all what I wanted to be all along", I thought last night. "A little… innocent… star in the sky…" (and then it rained)