/dep/ - Depression

>>300364
IQ literally doesn't matter, dude. Go build birdhouses or something.

>>300364
Anon, we are social animals, even the biggest hikis enjoy social interaction online, is there something you remotely like or are interested in that you can start doing?
I swear just try as many things as possible, at least you can find a hobbby

>>300367
>>300365
its just I'm a lazy nigger and I'm jaded by this

>>300369
laziness is the norm for humans, you have probably been a NEET for a long time and thus lost your attention span and self discipline thanks to rotting in front of your screens for too long, you can build discipline step by step.

>>300370
I'm still a NEET,may be 5 or 6 years now I don't know

>>300371
I am a long term N.E.E.T too.

>>300372 do you have hobbies you still practice or you're also rotten like me like >>300370 said?

>>300372
it's me, lol, i walk daily a lot for around 90 minutes, watch anime, and read a book whenever i find i interesting topic or rabbit hole, which rarely happens, i can't say i am much better than you, but oh well.

>>300364
Most things worth doing are a constant uphill battle. You could get good at maybe one thing if you grinded at it all day every day but only if you could endure the pain and monotony.

Latest thing I tried to work on was a C compiler. I got a few thousand lines of code in and then burnt out. No one's going to give me more than a few seconds of praise if I ever finish the fucking compiler and it will not advance my career. I have started countless projects over the past seven or so years and abandoned most. It's getting harder to get back up when I fail.

I have dreamed many times of apply the daoist principle of wu-wei to my life. Just doing whatever I feel like and hoping it somehow leads to positive results.

>>300374
oh it was you, I see, well at leadt you do something. all I do is browse imageboards an youtube, the whole WHOLE day, no kidding, for years now
>>300376
>Just doing whatever I feel like and hoping it somehow leads to positive results.
I also wait this to happen to me

I think Im having a internal breakdown right now

>>300377
you are barely any different than I, i don't know if there is hope for us

>>300378
I also used to walk every day years ago but for a different reason

Did you know a study was done where participants were placed in a room alone with an electric chair and, rather than be alone with their thoughts, 2/3s of participants chose to shock themselves repeatedly? You are shocking yourself every time you enter /dep/. Literally just go do something and then write about your experience. ANYTHING. NO WRONG ANSWERS. Even if you pulled the shoelace out of your sneakers and used it to learn how to make knots and what their purposes are this would be an exponentially more valuable experience to share than what you're doing now.

>>300380
I also want a job one day maybe
>>300381
I ser, thank you but Im a lazy nigger, sorry to wash away your efforts

>>300382
are not you anxious about what will you do after your parents pass away or decide to stop supporting you?
i think it should be enough of a motivation to make you lock out and work hard to improove.

>>300369
>>300371
>>300364
>sad_anime_emo_sadcore_neet_depressed_dark_succubus_literally_me_sample.png
Yuck. You really shouldn't be identifying with females if you're a grown man.


>>300376
Frankly I don't think people who pick up programming for anything besides making a platform for their own vidya have any right to join in general 'hobby discussions', especially if they're going to relay their bad experiences as if programming woes somehow apply to literally anything besides programming. The mentality needed to take up programming is so estranged to the kind of mind needed to pursue music, art, history… Any other scientific or creative pursuit really. Why did you pick up programming? What could you have possibly programmed that hadn't already been programmed before? You feeling directionless and burnt out is a consequence of the nature of programming specifically due to its restrictive nature and how everything to possibly program has already been programmed by now. You shouldn't discourage anyone from finding an interest because your particularly flawed endeavor ended up with moot results.

>>300383
I fear the day my parents won't support me but I m so scared of that I cope by living the day carpe diem because if I plan something for the future, I must get out of my comfort zone.in other words, I can't face reality, Im scared of it

>>300385
if thinking of the negative long term conesequenes can't motivate you to discipline yourself, then, honestly i cannot believe anything else will.

I thought of a way of gameifying being an aimless NEET: populated a list of twenty activities you might be somewhat interested in such as drawing, playing a video game etc. Make item #1 on the list something that seems difficult or an activity you are avoiding for some reason. Make item #20 something you would really like to do but you might feel guilty about doing it (maybe it's expensive). Now roll a 20-sided die. Whatever number the die lands on, you must do the activity for at least one hour. Keep doing this until you find an activity you don't dread doing. To make it easier, you only need to do this once per day.

>>300386
>>300387
don't expect too much from me, I'm a narrow person.

>>300387
I'll think about it tomorrow thanks

>>300377
WITCH HUNTER ROBIN MENTIONED

>>300364
Same here anon
My entire teenage years I felt like I have secret abilities that few have and all I need is the right environment for them to unpack but as soon as I entered the big world and met actually smart people I started to slowly realize that I was just a socially retarded loser.
Used to try to change that but each time I try there is this glass ceiling that I am just too lazy/dumb/drained out to break, and frankly I probably don't even want to. Now I am also getting old(almost a wizard) which means that my social ignorance and not having any real life skills are becoming a problem.
And yes, I am a NEET but I'll probably have a job soon, probably a shitty one but still. I am a sick man, a broken man. Even on internet I am boring and uninteresting.

>>300390
that's a cool anime
>>300392
our life are shit all I can say is I hope everything will be aleight for you

you're not lazy, you just didn't find anything reward in the hobbies you've tried. sometimes there is truly nothing there for you, sometimes you just didn't explore and push hard enough to get to a certain level where you start getting benefits. you seem to mainly looking for an excuse to socialize with other people, so have you tried multiplayer games? maybe you can build stuff in minecraft and chat to people, or grind in some MMO with a guild.

>>300403
I don't like voice chatting, I'm shy. I want to find my soulmate. you're right about the hobbies; I didn't find the one that will make me do it every day. I like talking to people online but only on image boards or if there's a comment section. I don't really like to talk to people in real life because when I open my mouth to say things, I say retarded things.
thats why I need a soul mate who understand my hobbies and share the same hobbies as me. in fact if I had a feiend feom wizchan, I'd be happy because we share common things.
I wouldn't say I like to talk to people but I like sharing ideas and am clingy(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

>>300405
I don't like and use shit ord, sorry, thank you for trying to help me

>>300406
ok, good luck

>>300404
>when I open my mouth to say things, I say retarded things.
let me guess, you feel like the things you say in public are never your actual intended words, and they just sort of flow out of you without meaning any of them, and you feel bad immediately afterwards.

trust the feelings - you are lacking impulse control.
start with becoming aware of your thoughts and emotions as things separate to your consciousness.
question any assumptions you make in your thoughts, and notice where in your body emotions can be sensed.

next, relax into strong emotions whenever they appear, without doing anything else about them.
emotion and thought combinations are catalysts of impulsive behavior, the antidote is becoming aware of them and relaxing into them with complete inaction.

touch the tip of your thumb with the tip of your finger. identify with the sensation as much as you might do with thoughts or emotions.
this allows you to still be there (in a stable manner) during heaps of emotional turmoil.
your emotions and thoughts are going haywire, with which you might identify with, causing you to go haywire. but when you are also the sensation in your finger tips, which are pretty constant, you no longer go haywire.

next, do things you are already doing, but consciously.
not adding any more effort than currently excerted, breathe the breath you are already breathing, and look at the thing you are already looking at.
you are now also your actions, another thing that is more controlled than thoughts and emotions.

continue questioning assumptions made in your thoughts.
this allows access to a deeper form of attitude.
while the identities and stories that thoughts spin are extremely shakey and volatile (tomorrow you will have a different identity than today), attitudes are longer lasting and are NOT thought based.

you will need to decide on an attitude for speech and communication.
>i want to be kind and conducive of peace and emotional connection
the above thing is a sentence, of which the meaning is wordless, and able to nurture an attitude.
do not be the guy who is kind, do not think about having to be kind, instead develop the ATTITUDE of it. it is wordless, like a feeling.

with this, you can finally talk to your dakimakura in a way that feels authentic.

>>300392
same
always thought I had some hidden potential, and all I have to do is wait for the right opportunities to arise
I guess we need to be a lot more proactive in life, we need a goal and regular efforts to get there
instead of being reactive and directionless, and trying to make the best of what life throws at us

>>300409
>always thought I had some hidden potential, and all I have to do is wait for the right opportunities to arise
I guess we need to be a lot more proactive in life, we need a goal and regular efforts to get there
same as you, I always thought I was special but Im not

>>300404
I noticed the anon got banned, i can tell the mods mis-understood what he said, i am trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, maybe he just meant a close platonic-friendship, he said nothing implying a sexual connection, "soul mate" is a vague term that can mean more than one thing.

>>300408
impulse control is one thing, but another is the ability to articulate one's thoughts
some people's thoughts are scattered, not naturally falling into sentences, but rather jumping from one object to another

>>300412
thoughts are never reliable, don't base your ego around your thoughts being scattered

your ego senses a painful gape (lack of social life, uncertainty of ever being able to have one) and fills it with a story or identity (my thoughts are too scattered / i am someone who is unable to articulate thoughts)

stay in the uncertainty