>>300772>gives me a psychological relief sort ofyes, you're EDGING. edging for that sweet relief.
start GOONING!!
the problem with suicide ideation, is that YOUR EGO LIKES IT TOO, not just your tortured soul and body.
you'll be edging and edging and your ego stops you from cooming - that would mean that the ego disappears.
when you stand on the cliff looking down, suddenly your ego is REAL quiet, and all you feel is your trembling body. leaving wizzie alone once more.
or perhaps, it comes up with the idea to go home and keep edging, figuratively and literally.
there is a way to gain PERMANENT relief.
it's time to learn about yourself.
look inward.
you HAVE to carry a light with you, when you descend down into your subconscious.
that light is present moment awareness - some light meditation, consciously breathing, or just sensing what you can sense through your skin etc.
you NEED that light as you look inward, into your thoughts and emotions.
without that light, you will lose yourself in your thoughts, and all you come up with is worthless esoteric crap.
leave everything you see as it is. do not try to get rid of thoughts or emotions.