/dep/ - Depression

It's reciprocal.

I never talk because nothing comes to my mind
And if I do get a thought, it's usually stupid or rude
And also I don't think with words, more like jumping from one object to another, it's faster than having to internally voice everything
On the internet it's different because there is time to form sentences
Can anyone relate?

>>301031
Absolutely. I've been having this issue throughout my whole life and there's just no cure for it.

>>301029
This

>>301028
Nah, people simply don't care about you. If they see you, they will just think "what a weird guy" or something similar, then go on with their lives

>>301031
It is because you don't speak, you must speak to develop the ability to speak, it's simple .-.

>>301030
>or worse, they like you and consequently demand more socializing from you
Are you trying to humblebrag?

>>301064
Wrong,specially with people you see and interact everyday

>>301030
for me personally, Im fine with a bit of smalltalk but I dont really wanna be close with somebody, sadly nobody wants to talk to me because I dont smile and never initiate conversations myself
>>301031
not really, I mean youre probably pretty young if you cant sort out your thoughts

I get it at work a lot. I've overheard a lot of conversations about me which are quite horrific. The worst part is when all the old staff leave and all the good favour you've earned with them also departs with them. They never liked me initially but over time they realized I'm a good man who won't hurt them, and they loved that and therefore loved me. I caught them slacking off, doing illegal things etc and I was just like "Not my business mate" and after that they are like AWESOME!!!. The new ones hate me despite the fact I'm a decade old vet at my work. It's exhausting

I've been told my voice sounds aggressive, even when I try to speak normally. It's insanely annoying having everything about you commented on constantly.

>People willl always hate you if you're asocial and never talk.
No, not really.

I wish I could figure out how to have a personality. People always tell me I seem sad. Really I'm just indifferent. I think I have schizoid personality disorder. I think a good way to seem happy is to make jokes, but I can never think of anything humorous or witty to say. Instead I just try to have an appropriate reaction whenever someone else says something, but most of the time that isn't enough to seem normal.

>>301309
das rite, chad gets a pass because its cool and mysterious when he does it. but when an ugly man does it he is planning to shoot up the place and must be bullied to death, because yknow, that will obviously deter him

>>301028
I think it's mostly about looks. If you look good people will like you, if you're ugly people will dislike you, no matter how you behave.