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"that one suicide website" is an awful place. I would not recommend going there for any other reason than temporary curiosity. It is just people who moan, sometimes with over tens of thousands of messages per account how terrible life is in general and how it is such a huge tragedy that life exists in first place. I do not want to debunk philosophical pessimism in this post, nonetheless I want to point out that you should not trust an emotionally overwhelmed (severe depression) person with their judgement on a situation (like the situation of being alive in this case). The site is not evil or bad like the media reports on it imply, it's more that awful if you actually want to get better and not just pathetically moan about how bad life is. I do not want to say any names, but there is this user on said website who characterizes this whole website as a whole really well. She also complains very a lot about how life is so unjust and awful, never bothers bettering, does so in an amount of tens of thousands of posts, and she is the whole website in a nutshell.
Judging from your post, I will guess that your problem is fixable. Being a "loser who cant do anything right" is not something you have to take your one and only chance at life for.