/dep/ - Depression

>>302665
>ad a schizophrenic crisis 6 years ago. because of that I lost 6 years of my life and also the second part of my youth.
can you elaborate on this wizzie

>>302676
was working at the factory. out of nowhere I started being paranoid and thinking my neighbours hacked all my family's devices and mine too and they could see everything we did on our phone, computers and they could see us through our tv. I didn't have visual illusion but audible illusion. I was tricked that my neighbors was mocking me and my family because of what we do on our devices (moundain shit). I went crazy and very depressed because of this and went to the psychic yard for this. I only recovered 2 or 3 years ago fully

Yeah you lost good years but an apprenticeship is like what?
2 to 5 years? You could also enroll in community college and get a degree in accounting or something.

To make up for those lost years, you could do volunteering like a few hours a month just to pad your resume. If you do a few hours a month while your getting your diploma, that will look good on your resume.

On top of that you can just say you had health issues. Almost everyone has a relative or knows of someone who had issues.

I'm in an almost similar situation as you are but I am 43 and it's too late for me.

I'm on disability. No friends. Lost contact with relatives except my mother. I've spent all my isolated, browsing the internet.

If you don't do something, there is a good chance you will end up like me. It's not fun being on disability in your 40s. People look down at you and you are unemployable except jobs like stacking grocery store shelves. I have so little social experience, I'd probably end up getting bullied.

Get out while you can.

>>302687
yes, I'll just say I had health issues if someone asks me why I wasn't working for 6 years straight.
>>302688
I was about to say that I hope it will be good for me but after reading your comment, well, I wish YOU all the hopes of the world to help you instead of me. I feel embarassed of my situation because you might suffer more than I

>>302693
You got it. Officially speaking, I've been in college for around 5 years without graduating and I'm trying to get an apprenticeship now at age 27. I will also just tell them that I had health issues. HR usually isn't allowed to ask any further than that.

>>302701
shit

i had a similar problem with college:

years = spent
diploma = haha not for wizards, for sociophages only (they would coordinate the student-related stuff in one and only CHAT full of various memery and unrelated discussions, VERY DISTRACTING)

>>303553
and the worst thing is, me mum is also a massive SOCIAL person, so every time I was bringing up the fact I hate it, she was like "silly bear, you're making things up" as if i am some half-healted LLM and not an actual living person.

A man solved schizophrenia by having a brain tumor out. An old succubus also stopped it by leaving cereals away from diet.

What have you done this far against it?

>>303553
It does not matter. They are useless and I should have dropped by 13 yrs old. Without fear.

>>303554
Then ghost her and go the way your mind needs you to go. Take care of energy and fuck anything else.

>>303753
>An old succubus also stopped it by leaving cereals away from diet.


PLAP PLAP PLAP GET GLUTEN GET GLUTE GET GLUTEN XDDDDDDDD t. her body giving her organic disease

>>302688
You are on disability bux and you can spend all your time isolated, doing what you want. Sounds like the ideal life to me.

>>302665
Same age as you but I don't have a significant problem with my situation. Been NEETing/almost-hikkiing since I was 20 so it will soon be 9 years. My only woe is that this will end sooner or later. OH well, what can you do?

>>302665
I don't have a solution for you but I am in the same boat. At least you are only schizophrenic and not also vilified / lolcow / ostracized like I am.
I can relate to you but I have no advice. I think we are fucked but maybe you are better than me and can recover into a job. I think schizophrenia can also cause CPTSD to a degree. You could watch Tim Fletcher on youtube.

Had a psychosis in 2019 and again at the end of 2020. I feel like most of my mind was taken and raped.Pieces of my being are just gone and a hole is left. I watched my family get raped and eaten in my mind and was convinced it was true. I greatly feel most of my character was destroyed and there is no hope for my life. They also told me I am going to die in a car crash and that I have no free will until then, they said my only choice is to drink alcohol and become an alcoholic. It's the one thing I don't want to do. I want to at least live with the pride in that I didn't become a useless alcoholic before I die. If I survive past the alleged death date I am going full steam ahead with recovering my life even though I am vilified and a lolcow and hated by my whole country. I get fucked with by random people, they reference retarded things I said when I was a child amongst other things which means I cannot make any friends or have a girlfriend or have a good job because they will just take it. I do not know how the fuck I have had any will to live. I survived 3 times of torture and many physical beatings and attacks as well as emotional and sexual abuse. My mind is fucked and I am a gay retard, but still I live on but who the fuck knows why I bother? I am afraid of dying because I fear a unique kind of hell for me that will be like king crimsons death from jojo or something. I am scared an no one will believe in my story, not that they should but I cannot feel understood or talk about how to solve it because people just say things like it is just in your head or you are overthinking it and what not.(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

I had a psychosis around 2017, long story short my parents sent me to the psych ward, from there they recommended a free clinic were i go to now to get an anti psychotic injection once a month, i dont mind it cause the medicine does nothing for me and besides the psychosis was a one time thing that has not happened since, i truly think my psychosis was transient and i am sane, but you try proving your sanity to these normiegroids, no one ever listens….

The best thing about this situation though is that i got to sign up for SSI, so i get free retard money. i dont know if you guys have a doctor but you too could possibly gain some dollary doos from seeking help

>>304819
I do get disablebux until I work

>>304788
I have talked to a dozen or more psychologists because I was mentally fucked even before the schizophrenia. I have one now who actually believes in me and is fun to talk to. It's great and I wish it for other wiz's in here

>>304777
>"…amongst other things which means I cannot make any friends or have a girlfriend or have a good job because they will just take it."
>"I survived 3 times of torture and many physical beatings and attacks as well as emotional and sexual abuse."
>"I am a gay retard"

You're a crab who wants a girlfriend. You got ass raped and admit to being gay.

So, but your own admissions, you're not a virgin, but you're on a virgin website to get sympathy for your whoring in the name of virginity. Out of all the places you could go, where people would willingly suck your cock, you decided to come here, the only place volcels have on the internet.

Are you a mod? Are you from discord? You should go back.

>>302665
>
if you are not taking any meds right now you should try cyproheptadine, a serotonin antagonist/blocker, ray peat recommends it for depression and schizophrenia

I've been hearing voices and having minor hallucinations for a year now. What I've experienced:
-being convinced I was dead and living in hell for a few days
-the voices always say disgusting things, like when I'm walking and I see a dog they say "you want to fuck that dog"
-waking up multiple times every night being convinced people have broken in my apartment
-strange sensations behind my eyes, like maggots are eating my brain
-strange philosophical and religious conversations, like going into the technicalities how so many people seem to be controlled by Satan
-complete loss of being able to be alone in my own head, constant thoughts of suicide but backing out at the last moment
I need to die one way or another soon, but each time I get the rope ready I back out.

>>305300
If you're vaxxed, then these afflictions are some of the late-stage terminal symptoms. You have two more weeks.

>>305300
eliminate all sources of gluten immediately. wheat/glutinous flour is mentally injurious to all who eat it, but specifically so to the sensitive and autistic. its causal associations with what we in modern language call "schizophrenia" are near infinite.

and no, this does not mean in wheat's absence to begin eating crappy gluten-free rice flour based packaged breads whose ingestion will cause your blood to be saturated with arsenic and mercury.

perhaps also eliminate all sources of solanine (that is all solanaceous vegetables, ie white potatoes).

take a complete well-sourced B vitamin daily (deficiencies in B1, B2, B6, B12, are each of them etiologically bound to schizophrenia).

get enough sleep always. 10 hours of truthful rest vs 8 of the same will give your brain an important advantage in restoring healthy function.

old person here.

all i can tell you is, if you re still in your 20 s or early 30s, you may think otherwise, but you re young and you have youth on your side.

dont dwell on the past. learn from it , of course, so you dont repeat it, if you can control it.

But you cant go back and un do or alter one second in the past.

And just focus on future and improvement.

>>305301
i'm not vaxxed
>>305304
I have a long history of toying around with different foods, diets and supps. the only things which really made me feel better was drinking milk everyday and vitamin C. I've also decided I will not try anything new, I've already tried basically everything.

Wizardly schizos, I need your input.
I was dragged to a shrink by my family and he prescribed me some injections, then Abilify 30 mg. He said I'm healthy, but need to deal with my depression.
But I've read that Abilify 30 mg is a lot for depression. What gives? He wouldn't tell me anything, except that I would get more injections and then hospitalized.
>inb4 stop taking the meds
I can't. My family forces me to take them and my mom makes sure I don't spit them out later.
Am I a schizo or what? What's happening???

>>305356
depends on many factors. where do you live? how old are you? why can't you just btfo your parents? e.g. how the hell could you be prescribed antipsychotics while being "healthy"? were you even evaluated? and why are your parents not explaining anything? like, wtf dude

>>305356
Please stop taking them before you lose your mind, read horror stories about these psych drugs, you will find plenty of material

>>305357
>where do you live?
Let's say I'm a thirdie
>how old are you?
Old enough
>why can't you just btfo your parents?
No, can't do. I live with my parents, their house, their rules.
>e.g. how the hell could you be prescribed antipsychotics while being "healthy"?
That's what I'm asking. Am I healthy?
were you even evaluated?
I was, but they are not sharing the results
>and why are your parents not explaining anything?
That's what I'd like to know too.

>>305363
R.I.P.

>>305356
>Wizardly schizos, I need your input.
I was dragged to a shrink by my family and he prescribed me some injections, then Abilify 30 mg. He said I'm healthy, but need to deal with my depression.
But I've read that Abilify 30 mg is a lot for depression. What gives?


1. "Horse dose", e.g. A LOT pre-emptively
2. Shock therapy?

3. The meme answer: he gets paid for prescribing LOTS of meds so he hands out meds like candies

>>305387
4. maybe your body is "tolerant" e.g. insensitive to drugs?

5. ur wizard, so giving you A LOT of Abilify wont put you into the "that feel when no gf" pool…

6. you're probably a 300lbs big dude so you probably need more VERSUS your sources hint at "normal average person" with under-40kg people and maybe schoolers included