/dep/ - Depression

I had a good idea for hanging. If you get a very large plastic bag you could put a noose on your neck, then get inside the bag and tie it above your head around the rope with some zip ties or something. Then you jump off from where you have fastened your rope from. You would probably need to build some sort of platform from a tree with sturdy and high branches with nothing below the branch or branches you are building your platform from. If you look up the proper way to tie the rope and do the proper calculations for the length of the drop for your bodyweight, you should have your neck broken immediately. If not, the noose should be a double tap that ensures you strangulate to death. Then the plastic bag is a triple tap to ensure you won't somehow survive strangulation because you will also suffocate. You can write "DO NOT OPEN, DEAD BODY INSIDE, CALL 911" on the outside of the bag on both sides. This way no one will be traumatized by seeing your body except professionals who have been trained for it and are psychologically ready for it.

I call this masterpiece the triple tap hanging.

>>310275
Also I should add that ideally you would call the police on some sort of recording to tell them where the body is. Give yourself at least an hour to ensure total death. This way no one will find your body other than police. The writing is just a back up in case someone discovers it before then. But I think you can do it somewhere secluded enough and at a time when no one will be around. Most ideally 1 AM or thereabouts on a Tuesday.

>>310275
wait I just realized this is logistically impossible with your hands being inside the bag. Never mind. So much for my genius idea.

>>310249
>>310274
Here we have a great example of the ambivalence of the human mind. Basically this is the essence of any discussion or cultural conflict. Completely incompatible points of view that assume opposite propositions about reality combined with opposing emotional attachments to the thing in question.

>>310249
thats fine, but you only think so because you're too much of a coward to confront your own death at this current time
if you view it a bit more 'flatly', you'll find that life is only a singular question of the process of dying, and in that sense, dying by your own hand is the only pro-active decision you can ever make, versus running around in circles waiting for something to come get you (which summarizes all the rest of being)
whether that means waiting or being pro-active are better than the other i don't necessarily think so, thats just the only difference
you just pick which ever one you're less scared of at the time

anyway >>310210 here
i got me some sturdy rope and some garden scissors that can cut them with some hassle so i am now set to practice
i tried just one knot today (the constrictor knot) and also tested the sturdyness of this steel bar in my bathroom that is at a practical height
it is rather embarrassing to go through all this instead of being more gung ho like it always feels suicidal folk are (though ive never spoken to any directly), and the burning sensation of rope tightening is not pleasant at all
also even in the short moments i spent with the rope around me i learnt that swallowing becomes painful long before its tight enough, so i wonder if continually spitting up your saliva as you go counteracts that a bit
the headache-y feeling of losing blood flow is familiar due to my experience fainting, but i imagine if it accumulates in intensity i'll enter some sort of panic still and i have yet to decide on a way to "cross the point of no return" such that that won't matter
maybe i'm missing something obvious though i will add that the "rope drop" neck break approach frightens me more than suffocation, perhaps irrationally so?

Rina was just too based.

Ok, I only visit Wizchan when I experience a breakdown. The discussion here mentioned trains and it reminded me of Blue Whale challenge. I had Rina in my memories all these years.

There are so many train tracks around here… guess that will be my way to go. This decision calmed me down - knowing I have an exit.

I will try going outside, it's a nice day.

>>310288
we don't post 3dpd here, pidor

>>310290
let's give that retard a chance

>>310288
Do whatever you want but do not post cute succubus pics!

>>310288
oh wow, blast from the past. So many dead people…not all of us made it to this day.
And life goes on…

Such a weird feeling; I don't care, but at the same time it also kind of saddens me. Or rather, it leaves a lasting impression on you mentally, so to speak. I remember I sometimes stumbled upon this guy's youtube
https://steamcommunity.com/id/Kunio_Kun

And now I see that he is dead, died last year or two years ago now.
I did not know the guy personally. But it's still sad. It is hard for me to digest that the person is no more; there's nothing.
Everything is impermanent, I guess; such is life.
Well, at least they're free of all the suffering.

So guys, I'm wondering how viable is the plastic bag method?

Video related https://youtu.be/KuIMmL4cq5c?t=192

At 3:14 in this scene where the dude drops the plastic bag over the guy's head and then zipties it, could it work if one tried to do it to themselves???

>>310351
You would do everything in your power to get it off.

Is suicide by cop a meme? Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me? I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options. Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options? I know about laying your head on traintracks but for some reason the possibility of it going wrong horrifies me, even though I know that is unlikely. I think it was some story I read a long time ago that put that in my head.

>>310500
>Is suicide by cop a meme?
suicide by cop is possible in the US, if you search police activity on youtube there are many cases
>Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me?
great amounts of alcohol is probably the closest you can get, considering you need prescription even for codeine
>I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options.
have you considered gradual starvation? for example causing a caloric deficit every day until your body shuts down
>Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options?
killers exist but we don't have connections, there are people willing to murder for very low budgets in east europe
>I know about laying your head on traintracks
jumping from height is more safe and less traumatic

left side of my head hurts a bit, i think i gotta take the practice a bit more seriously consequence-wise
also found some resources that are intended for people that find hanged folk or those in the midst of attempted hanging/asphyxiation, got a few more details of the nature of the injury from that as well as some hints on common setups (they naturally avoid being too descriptive)
im taking it slow since this stuff is scary, next up ill be looking into tourniquet method to secure a knot

its ridiculous in its own right but this is seemingly the only thing i can do to reassure my body and give me a moment's rest, its like it wants me to convince it that i can do this once it comes down to it
ive since spoken to a fellow suicidal person too but he seems more in a ready-to-die state than a wanting-to-die state, enviable but he's a chronic pain case so it makes sense to me
my own confidence in success remains low, thats always been my personality

>>307170
Because I experience no joy, I have no hobbies I have no desires or ambitions I am completely emotionally numb I feel exhausted constantly having to get up and live is just impossible

I'm just going to decapitate myself on train tracks there's a rail line not so far from my house I haven't been outside in months and finding the energy to do it is hard but I'll wall there tomorrow and see if it's possible.

What about slitting your wrist? I like the idea of my mother finding me so maybe she can have some closure I'll just bleed in the bathtub

i hate myself and wish to die. i have no courage though so i'm too scared to end it all. survival instinct etc

>>310575
The survival instinct is by far the biggest hurdle to committing suicide.

I've seen a video of someone just straight up slicing their throat and dying shortly after, and I could never do that. I'd probably cut it abit but then desperately cover it to prevent myself from bleeding out. It's why I legitimately think it's retarded to say that people who commit suicide are cowards. There's nothing cowardly about killing yourself, you're literally doing something that goes against your own instincts, it's honestly an almost divine act of defiance.

I think people who have never had suicidal tendencies just don't understand. People like us are in a tug of war, constantly wishing to die, but never having the full guts to go through with it.

>>310614
Oh wow, you're right. I never thought about that. Yeah, now thinking about that, it does take a fair amount of courage to commit to the suicide. I guess it is a matter of perspective. People try to bend it to fit their narrative or outlook, like "he killed himself, so he is a coward", etc.

>>307310
I agree. I'm terrified of that idea, too. And it's been one of the reasons, why I did not do it so far.

it's been a month since my tinnitus started and it's really loud and feels like it's getting even worse. i know i'm a pathetic faggot for this but its really bad, and my family doesnt care, and ive gone to multiple doctors and they cant do anything. i feel really alone and i want to die but im afraid to kill myself

>>310671
Suicide or get your head checked. I had tinnitus too but it comes in random waves, it is what it is, learn to toughen up from that experience.

>>310685
how long did it take for yours to go away? mine is constant.

>>310689
Couple of days or so. Again it sometimes come back but not as bad, I try to drown out shit with music all the time. I can never live without my phone and headset or i'll be dead already.

>>309999
Fujiwara no Mokou detected.

I want to leave this as a last testament.

I'll probably wake up, delirious and in pain. In case I don't, let these words be granted some ephemeral permanence so that they might be recorded unto less reckless records.

I HATE YOU.
There aren't the words to describe my desperate hatred of your initial respite.
You thought that bringing some half-hearted joint life in your union would birth love? I don't know if I should damn your ignorance or your naivete.
And that you would cajole and trick your way into such desperate methods.
I can't blame the one that was entered into such a union at the point of 00 buckshot.

AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN GRANT HIM THE BAREST OF MERITS!
Your mind remained transfixed unto the violent and the exciting. His deficiencies didn't even leave a dent. Illiterate or not. Hatefulness. Violence.
It didn't matter.

Reliability. Sustainability. The dependency of a steady pay-check stood no chance to the tingles in your cunt!

AND I CAN'T EVEN DIE!!!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
STUBBORNESS IS BRED INTO ME!
TO GIVE IN IS POSION! TO ADMIT DEFEAT IS PURE ANATHEMA!
THERE IS NO SITUATION MORE LUDICROUS THAN THE REFUSAL OF THE BEATEN TO ADMIT DEFEAT!

AND
I
CAN'T!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!!!!
I'M STUCK PRAYING FOR AN ERRANT BOLT OF LIGHTNING!
I'M HERE WAITING FOR SOME HIGH TIDE TO SUFFOCATE ME!
I'M WAITING TO DROWN IN MY OWN BLOOD!
MAYBE I MIGHT BE MIRED IN THIS HATRED! THAT'S MY LAST RESORT! THAT I MIGHT HATE YOU UNTO MY OWN DEATH!
MY ONLY HOPE IS THAT YOU MIGHT SEE THIS PIT YOU'VE BIRTHED ME INTO. THAT YOU MIGHT BEAR WITNESS TO YOUR OWN TRAGEDIES! TO YOUR OWN CRUELTIES!

I. AM. YOUR. SINS.
BEAR WITNESS!!
CHOKE ON THIS HELL! TAKE MY HAND AND REALIZE YOUR OWN EVIL!
THERE IS NO SAVIOR HERE. NO AMOUNT OF MY OWN MERCY MIGHT SAVE YOU.
POWERS BEYOND ME DAMN YOU TO THIS. MY BLEEDING HEART IS NOTHING COMPARED TO THIS COSMIC RETRIBUTION.
i want to forgive you. i can understand. somehow.

Cruelties upon cruelties upon cruelties upon even more cruelties.
Cycles repeated upon infinity.
It doesn't give you the right. You knew it was wrong.
You did it anyway.

I can't decide if my understanding is a curse or a blessing.
Maybe the priest that buries me will have a decision.
Ha! Don't hold your breath. You might just join me.

I wish my mercy could bleed me dry. Maybe that would be a peaceful way to die.

>>310728
Is this AI

>>310729
No.
I'm a real person. Just a little incomprehensible from all the alcohol.
It helps me. At least, I think it does.

>>310152
Hey sorry I didnt see this sooner–yah so they removed the wax by putting some drops in my ears first to soften the wax. Then they flush it out with water they gently spray into your ears. You hold a bucket next to your ears as they squirt water into your ear while the drops/wax/water all come out together and fall into the bucket lol let me know how it goes!

Does anyone remember a website that would detail suicide method statistics and how to? NOT SANCTIONED SUICIDE.
Around 2021ish I used to browse this website that detailed suicide methods and how to for each method, success statistics, etc. Sanctioned Suicide seems to be more forum discussion, but this was more a resource/wiki just for reading about suicide methods, not discussion. It was written by a guy who used to be suicidal. It was also controversial.

I originally thought it was sanctioned suicide but revisiting it, I see no such wiki like I remember and it seems more forum based. Was it SS and they just took down the wiki/resource?

>>310754
Nevermind, I found it. It was called lostallhope.com

Even if I somehow had access to the perfect method I still wouldn't be able to kill myself due to the fear of what's beyond. I wish death didn't seem so scary.

i hope there is an afterlife

>>310831
You just haven't been pushed to the brink. I'm on the verge of being able to destroy my fear of the beyond due to how bad my situation has gotten.

When life feels like Hell, the idea of an “actual” Hell loses its edge, gradually.

Just how painful can be shotting yourself in the head with an ak-47/similiar gun? I fear the time of my 'busification' approaches. I already see the faggot horsemen of my apocalypse patrolling my neighborhood seeking out victims. And I might as well be one soon.

I have a 12 gauge and ammo but I am too chickenshit. Any words of encouragement so I can actually pull the trigger?

It's depressing that if I were to kill myself it wouldn't be a dramatic climax or ending to a cinematic story. No sentimental scenes witnessed by a crowd of audience who are moved into tears, discomfort or even jeering mockery. I'll just slip the noose around my neck or pop a pill and the story just gets cut off there.

I'm tired of being unemployed, my parents are annoying and I also never go out of the house and my friends are busy with their work, for some reason when I sleep, my dreams are more real than my life or the movies I watch, for example, just now I dreamed of being a succubus in a horror movie and I was chased by two famous serial killers in the movie Jason Voorhees and Michael Myers and I was almost killed by them, I also saw in my dream people were killed and for some reason my dreams seem more real than my life every day and every day always changes, dreams are tiring, why do today's generation of children hate school even though school is where they can interact with each other and form friendships, I know my school days were bad because of bullying and I was hated and so on, but in my opinion, school is the most real thing in life, just like my dreams

is paracord a good rope for hanging? also can i have some resources on how to hang yourself properly?

Am I retarded for "brainwashing myself" into wanting to live very less years? I don't mean consuming gooning content, but rather "scientific and geopolitic" content eg; climate refugee data, incoming macroeconomic-global swayings, astronomical destructive events (eg; solar flare, etc)-and so on, etc
the counterpart is making my own life feel extremely brisk by thinking of Deep Time; cosmological, geological, Epochs of the Earth, Hominid evolution timeline, etc.

>>311110
Where does this pic come from?

>>311148
India.

I still remember how much I fucking loved the Rebellion movie, or whatever the last Madoka movie that came out around 2012-2013 was. I was so excited about the not-yet officially announced sequel. Here we are a decade and half after, and I couldn't care less even though I kind of do. I don't know, Homura represents something I'm not sure yet what… resilience? insanity through life breaking you? will to live? it cannot be pure dumb yuri, no… Anyway all I want right now is the deep sleep because there was never a Madoka, either as a person or as an idea, in my life.

Don't you dare spoiling me!

>>311110
I do the same. I'm trying to gaslight myself into suicide because I don't want to live anymore but my fear of death is too high.

>>311162
As a matter of Fact, I have even taken to extensively studying the Monarch Programming methodology to use (upon myself).

December is already so close again… I feel like this time I may be able to get the needed courage to ingest sodium nitrite, or maybe not. Let's see.