No.307529
I tied a slipknot with only 3 tries this time so that's something. Wish me luck wizzies.
No.307534
>>307215I'm not saying you should kill the boomer, but wouldn't at least killing him before killing yourself make more sense?
No.307548
What knot is best for suicide?
No.307570
I just wanna fall asleep in a cold dark room and not wake up or literally disappear from reality
No.307585
>>307548any is good if it holds
>>307570you still care how you die
No.307607
i have SN. bought it 4 years ago when my life collapsed. my dad (only family and friend) died of cancer. im chronically ill on top of that. doctors cant help. im in chronic pain.
i cannot delay this any further. i need to man up and swallow that shit and end it.
manning up is fucking difficult
No.307690
>>307415this kind of philosphocial nonsense makes sense when you go down the path, but not when you look at it objectively
I am not even the same person i was a few years ago, why would i be eternal?
I sure hope im wrong
No.307691
>>307690that argument stems from human inability to comprehend infinity. there isn't even a proof the world is truly infinite. why even assume that finitude can only exist as a part of infinitude? to move from one state to another the universe has to go through all the intermediate state, consciousness is most likely just a result of this movement. what is even more important is that we actually can't comprehend ourselves. what we do is merely obverse the behavioral patterns of that part of us which moves without explicit command from the consciousness. there isn't even a definition of what "i" truly means, so the consciousness isn't even truly aware of its own existence. what we call awareness of "being alive" is just a bunch of feedback loops that feed our calculations back to the entry point so we can reassess them. in low iq vocabulary it could be said as "we possess the ability to observe the previous movements of our soul". by being able to save previous states we can sort of analyze our own analysis, thus metacognition. this i think is the illusion of "i".
No.307697
>>307695but considering brain is a computer it is the most realistic answer i know. if self consciousness was real then "i" would be a solid concept instead it's very vague and many even argue that "i" doesn't exist and that ego is an illusion.
No.307698
what's with all this retarded philosophy debate itt?
i just want to kill myself
No.307701
>>307697Not the fella you're replying to but I don't think the brain can be boiled down to something as "simple" as a computer. I know this sounds woo-woo but my feeling is that the brain, like everything else in nature, has a lot of intuitive wisdom built into it. A computer is designed with a purpose within the limited mental constraints of its designers. There is a vastness, depth and interconnected-ness to things that emerge from natural evolutionary processes that simply do not map onto things made by humans. Perhaps the reason it is hard for us to pin down what "consciousness" is or "where that elusive I is located in the brain" is because we lack the language to even describe these sorts of things because we always get bogged down trying to dissect everything into atomic units.
No.307702
>>307698>i just want to kill myselfThat statement needs to be questioned because it's pretentious and presumptuous. Hence philosophy.
Now I'm with you as a pretentious and presumptuous person myself. I think it's obvious that nature and society are based on principles that guarantee suffering and I think it's obvious that any attempt to change yourself and others can never be more than marginal, temporary and superficial. Non-philosophically speaking: it was over before it began. Life sucks and will never get better unless you're a delusional npc.
Now if that's the case, it seems reasonable to assume that there is a force making it so. Do you believe you can defy that force by ending the body? Perhaps you can because that force selects those who are willing to put up it with it. That's the irony of the antinatalist desire: soon countless single men and countless single succubi are going to die without children and the world will go on with an ever increasing number of delusional npc's. Say rope-chan, do you like that thought?
No.307717
>>307702but this is the suicide thread, not the philosophy thread
idk about “defying” the force behind it by kms, but at the very least this life will end, so even if i have no absolute knowledge of whatever comes afterwards, i’m sure it won’t be a repetition
and yes, that final thought does bring me some comfort
we can’t leave this world without a smile, wiz
No.307900
>>307702while nature has some suffering built in, it's nothing like the sustained, ultra boring, slow boil which society, that is man, has chosen and imposed on itself by it's own free will.
If you kill yourself you indeed opt out of the system.
>>307717yeah I don't like people denying the finality and reality of death. reincarnation is nonsense
No.307905
>>307415>pictureAn infinite time of non conciousness doesn't feel like either infinite nor no time at all. It doesn't feel like anything because you do not exist whether it be from death or not being born. The non-existence from death is not the same as the non-existence from not yet being born. You were not "pulled out" of a death-state because you did not exist before birth. Your only plane of existence before birth is in the future, that you are "to be". But there's not yet a you. In order to say that we end up where we started you would need to say we started existing before we were born. I'm really not convinced that we exist in an infinite state of life OR death before birth.
No.308114
>>308113you won't die with these, just turn yourself into a braindead drooling retard. Why do you want to end your life?
No.308240
>>307698>i just want to kill myselfsame. would also like to die in my sleep.
No.308245
yeah would be cool to simply never wake up
No.308354
>>308113ODing often goes wrong, you might want to consider different methods
No.308450
it's weird looking back at my life now and seeing it as beautiful
when it was all boring and lonely
but now apparently every moment was beautiful lol
No.308550
>>307023>This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.if you wanna end it just buy a big tank of nitrous (or any other gas lighter than oxygen so it doesnt trigger the bodys choking reflex) hook it up to a mask and fall asleep, however make sure you got enough gas or youll just wake up with brain damage if youre lucky youre just a bit stupider afterwards if unlucky it might cripple you
>>307072>Nobody fucking cares about a homura fanart. screw you nigga the image is cute
No.308551
>>308550apparently with the exit bag method where you use a bag of plastic it is more effective, I'm not planning on doing it for the short term so I hope when the time comes somewhere in the world suicide pods are readily available, if I try to do the suiciding on my own without help I'll probably fuck it up.
No.308563
Does anyone know how likely it is in western countries to be forcefeed if you stop eating? Google gives me bullshit results.
Will they make a hole in your stomach and forcefeed you from there? Or will it be through blood? How long can they sustain this? Especially if you refuse any treatment and actively resist.
No.308564
>>308563I also read they can put a tube in your nose permanently and push food down your throat with a pump.
No.308721
I really regret postponing my attempt in april, now it's june and I'm still here
No.308726
>>308564They don't need to. They can give you enough proteins, fats and vitamins through IV injection indefinitely.
No.308808
>>308806I have experience in this. I've successfully killed myself several times via hanging. You need to read "The Peaceful Blackpill Handbook", "The Art of Not Living", and "Fun With A Razorblade by Big Gay Andrew Loomis". Once you do that you can ask ChatGPT for the best rope and height configuration for your IQ. Then you'll need to apply for a suicide license and pray to g*d that your therapist hasn't told your psychiatrist anything that would suggest you're only suicidal for a reason that SSRIs could instead cure. There is 0% chance the Demiurge will let you die if you don't hang yourself exactly as prescribed. You'll end up as a vegetable, or worse, a fruit.
No.309327
How do you set up a timed message to emergency services to collect your body? The hotline doesn't take text messages. I don't want a family member to find me. I really have no idea here; this is the only major hole in my plan.
No.309758
Does anyone here have tinnitus? This might be what convinces me to end it. I can't even focus on my thoughts. It feels like I have lost an entire section of my brain. I can't sleep.
No.309998
How likely am I to survive if I jump off a bridge 33 metres high? Could I at least lose consciousness on impact?
No.309999
>>309998Last time I jumped off a bridge, I died just fine. But it was 33.80 meters high, so your 33.00m bridge might be too short. Try it out and report back your findings.
No.310000
>>308806Don't bother with hanging, just build a charcoal gasifier and poison yourself with carbon monoxide. In a sealed room there is no chance you will survive.
No.310001
>>309758Yes have had it in my right ear for 5 years
I got wax removal done at the doctors recently and it went down by 75%
Feeling a lot less miserable
>>309758>>309758 No.310055
I just want this bullshit to end
going with partial hanging
fuck living like this
No.310085
>>308113They probably can kill you, but it would be a miserable way to die.
An OD on any of these meds is going to be death by kidney failure. Maybe liver failure first.
Both are painful and inconsistent ways to die. Especially since none of these medicines offer any kind of analgesic effect.
Any wizard looking for an effective and relatively painless way to die, I would recommend trains.
Head ON the track, at least 40 mph, preferably in a remote area at night.
Research the schedules of freight trains, look up local maps of tracks.
Quick, guaranteed, and most companies offer all kinds of goodies for the conductors who go through your death.
You just have to listen to the train's horn. It doubles as a good final measure of your commitment.
Honestly, there is no better method.
No.310106
>>310085What about robbing a pharmacy in order to achieve an opioid + benzo overdose? Smashing your head on track sounds quite painful, I imagine the extremely heavy noise before trauma.
No.310110
>>309327most common solution is a hotel room. when somebody fails to check out the next day and doesn't answer the door they'll do a wellness check
No.310161
>>310152I have fucked up ear canals, here's some advice.
Once the build-up gets to a certain point you need to go get it extracted by a professional. Call an ENT specialist, explain your predicament then request a vacuum ear-cleaning with your appointment. It's the least physically unpleasant way to have big chunks taken out.
You could also go to one of those small walk-in clinics, explain your problem, and have them flush out your ears with a water pick. It's intense and might leave your ears sore, but goddamn is it worth it. I prefer the vacuum thing, but normally only ENTs have it.
Afterward look into debrox, ask the doctor how often to use it and do it. Sounds like with your level of build-up debrox alone won't help the older, harder bits.
Sorry, Anon. Ear problems are bullshit, hope you find a decent doctor. DO NOT try to extract it yourself at this point, you could puncture your ear drum by shoving the wax plug into it, trust me when I say you really want to avoid that.
No.310164
>>310106it's nearly impossible to steal narcotics. pharmacies are aware that those drugs are very high theft risks so they're kept in a special safe which has a mandatory timer on it before it opens
if you want opioids so badly you have the balls to fucking rob a store you surely have the balls to just go downtown for 10 minutes and buy some fent
No.310197
>>310162I do and I almost attempted last month.
I hope I don't fail my coming attempt.
No.310209
>>307702im happy for you that you are this good at running away from the simple things
don't let it backfire
No.310210
>>307285going for this too, all information i found suggests a boatload of hangings succeed and it doesnt require much setup
the most fatal type of stroke, the brainstem one, comes from carotid artery blockage and they seem to only really measure the fatality rate through blockages caused by internal complications + medical care and its still up there
to me this suggests that as long as you got a spot you wont be found for a while (personally gonna aim for 24+ hours) there is basically no survival chance
the pain sounds sucky (still worthwhile to read up on and do minor chokes so you dont get caught off guard on what its like) but ofc its real threat is the panic it might induce to save yourself and the chaos that could bring in doesn't sit well with me, i'm still thinking the rest out cuz i'm playing for keeps here
No.310249
>>307023not to be mean but i think that if you kill yourself ur a pussy
No.310255
I think my appointment with death is getting closer. Being a wageslave is the worst that could have happened to me.