No.310904
Hesitation is defeat edition. There is no running away.
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>>309794 No.310905
Looks like my hesitation to write my magnum opus has been eradicated. Thanks.
No.310906
I def hesitated many times in my life when it mattered like getting a job when i was much younger, asking for help for mental state. Shit just pilles up and eventually you have to face it. It's hard. I don't blame anyone for running. I did.
No.310907
>>310904i grew up spoiled so i never developed any sense of urgency to do anything. even after i graduated college, i just did "nothing." Now im halfway to 36 and i rot at a desk as an overnight security guard.
this job is too comfortable to leave
No.310934
I tried way too hard on trying to befriend some people/normalfags I barely have anything in common with; it simply doesn't cut it. I always end up angry upon realizing they did things and weren't called out, or when I have to afford listening to their retarded normal-nigger takes, or when they try to act smug and end up looking like idiots.
They're basically behaving niggers and I'm the total opposite.
No.311100
I've been having mild hallucinations of voices and images for quite some time now. After a long time the entire hallucination shifts as you notice the patterns and notice it in real time.
The voices and images are still disgusting but you become less bothered by it.
No.311121
>>311011yea thats why i always stay jobbin never jobnt
No.311125
The sense of physical disintegration is intense lately. My teeth are eroding like sandstone under acid rain. The ache in my head never goes away. I often jolt awake panicked and gasping for air. It's hard to imagine living another 30 or 40 years like this.
No.311172
Anyone else feel like they live in the Boomer World Order? In New Zealand you go to the cafes and its nothing but giga rich boomers living it large on $40 breakfasts, all the serving staff are indians. Meanwhile there's like a 20% youth unemployment rate and entry level single bedroom rentals are like $400 a week. Minimum wage is $740 after tax mind you.
I feel like the only thing propping up consumer spending is the liquidation of elderly wealth. We are very poor here now.
No.311178
>>311172Dude you live in New Zealand so that's hardly going to be representative of other places - it's a given that young Kiwis have to move to Oz to find work
I'm on the other side of the planet and even I know that fact of life
No.311179
>>311172I'd rather be poor in New Zealand that poor in this shithole that also wants me dead. Cafe? Nigger I can't go out to buy groceries, the pigs and the mtnnappers lurk around the corner. Appreciate what you have you kiwi
No.311194
>>311172It's like this everywhere, old people are starting wars and sending young to die. They live in nice places, have the most wealth and could give less of a fuck about younger generation. They treat younger gens like complete incompetent shits that don't deserve anything, i'll never fucking give these assholes grandkids, fuck em all
No.311195
>>311194even though the world will not be destroyed, it has been a normal thing for a long time
after all
>i'll never fucking give these assholes grandkids, fuck em allI suspect you’re a succubus go to crystal.cafe miss
>I’m a femboy, so it’s not an issue. No.311196
>>311195>I’m a femboy, so it’s not an issue.So you are the servant of those old people in maid clothes
No.311197
>>311195Stupid faggot, I don't want sex or claim to want any, I said I just won't be giving them grandkids which I could achieve by In vitro fertilization. That doesn't require sex or me being a succubus or with a succubus.
No.311308
>>311125>>311144I suffer permanent pain too.
I've been thinking lately about how all this suffering only makes sense for some mysterious purpose in the afterlife.
Maybe the human being is completely empty at birth, the body then 'grows' a soul.
At death the Sovereign of Reality harvests the soul, and puts it in an appropiate place in the afterlife.
No.311310
>>311199goodbye my brother in wizardy…
goodbye.