>>63506The problem with the hobby is of course that libido is a fickle and sometimes fleeting inspiration, and when you cum then you killed your source of fun. My take on it:
1. If you have some shit stressing you that you know needs to be done, e.g. some work deadline then I find it nearly impossible to find the libido required to fap. Gotta get it done first or else the demons will live rent free in your mind.
2. There are times where you just can't just get into it, for an unknown reason, like you somehow lost your mojo. My experience is that you kind of just have to tank those days and instead enjoy lesser inferior hobbies during that time until you're "recharged". I don't know how else to explain it.
3. Obviously, when you cum, that's it and you feel completely empty. That's also something you really just have to tank, it's an inevitability. Alternatively, you _can_ actually just let it be a dry denial and that's sometimes the correct play because it lets you combo it into more hgames the next day, or maybe just an ambient feeling of horniness for a few days which can be a fun intoxicating feeling every now and then.
4. Maybe you have discovered this from first principles yourself, but after some years of playing hgames I've noticed a pattern to the types of games I like to play and in what order. The first game of the session is always a very gameplay-focused game which is a game played across multiple sessions. It was a 2nd playthrough of RJ01273529 for me recently. This gets me a foot into the door with my brain by hooking it with good gameplay as I slowly get more horny from watching sexy stuff happening on the screen yet it not being the focus. That's the starter dish. Then I get into the main course which is commonly a classical RPGM, or sometimes a unity game if it's good enough, where the gameplay and H exists both, but gameplay is easier than before and H is in more focus than before. It's a slowburn. Then, by the end of the session, it's the dessert where I have no energy and I pull out some really degenerate shlobby nukige VN where the only gameplay is pressing left click until I see boobies and I ejaculate. It's where the H is the hottest, but if I only spend all my time on VNs then I would get a) desensitized and b) cum too fast.
Regarding this:
>Whenever I goon, for the duration of the gooning I feel optimistic and get an urge to do something productive, write something, draw. However, it is a fleeting moment. This 'hobby' takes more that it gives.I haven't actually experienced this, or at least not to the same degree as you describe it, but it is very in line with what I get when I self-medicate with enough caffeine so it's obviously the dopamine correction. Interesting. I suppose I don't have any good advice other than to try and point out that you have to look at the time you spent happy as opposed to disgruntled. If you spend 8 hours enjoying life and 1-2 hours of feeling disgruntled then that's still an excellent trade, at least to me, and it for now outcompetes essentially all of my hobbies (except for programming which can sometimes just about edge it out). But I sympathize with your frustrations. It's just the least bad in my opinion.