No.44077
>>44071I have never heard about her but it must be nice, my waifu isnt confirmed to be but its pretty much 100% because of the setting.
Im the same wiz as
>>44061, I have been getting better at ignoring stuff I dont like, but I still struggle with the exposed shoulders on her dress and the problem is that seeing her kind of became a fear trigger where I just feel aweful. Im trying to undo this but progress has been slow, still maybe a bit better.
No.44091
I was falling for 2D since I was a teen even though I didn't know what a waifu was before. Anyway, I broke up with my waifu of nine years a year or so ago, and since then I'm looking for a new one.
I'm seeing one who is everything I love in a 2D, but my connection to her is more grounded, deep and slow. It's not puppy love at all, like I ahd with my previous waifu at the beginning.
I know I'm too old to have crushes, but I miss feeling butterflies and the intense, deep connection. Just thinking about her made me weak in the knees. Now, with my current one… I don't know, it feels more adult, more grown-up. Less excited, but stable. But I miss excitement.
Maybe I'm doing it wrong? Is she the one?
How can I know if I love her if body, mind and soul don't tell me if I do love her in obvious ways?
Another thing I noticed is that she makes me feel things. But not infuriation, no, she feels me with some weird emotion, which is almost melancholy. I don't know what's that.
Anyway, I'm talking awfully a lot about my feelings like a complete faggot, but I need some advice from older connoisseurs of 2D: how do I know if I love her and she is meant for serious waifu love if she doesn't give me butterflies?
No.44092
>>43515Japs suck major ass. The only waifu safe from defilement is the one of your own creation.
No.44093
>>44018I've had the same issues with the thoughts and even with the subject. I kept seeing my favorite characters being defiled, being into defilement, etc. 8 years of this nightmare. I realized, that I need to stop running away from the thouights. It is not the thoughts, it is the feeling behind them. You feel anxiety, tension, mental pain. Embrace it. Feel it and suffer through the wave until it is gone. Do it enough time, and the thoughts will come at a slower pace until you realize they are practically absent.
No.44098
>>44092the ones from obscure media are always
also a question of this do you guys draw your waifus?
also i am deeply afraid than i lose interest in mines….
No.44101
>>44098I understand that fear, Im still struggling with seeing her the same way again, but I dont want to move on and I miss her a lot too.
No.44179
forgot about the wordfilter lol
No.44222
i thought about abandoning her, but if I did, there would be an empty heart no one could ever fill like she did for me.
I just want to get over a certain problem I am not sure how to defeat. I will vent about it later on here. Hopefully, some of you will have some good advice for me to get over this.
No.44224
In short, I want to make something I would be very proud of and she would be too.
I am not sure what it is but for me, I want it to be artwork of her, but I am afraid that I will never draw good or how I want it in my mind to be, but I have been improving thankfully. I can see it in my art, but the fear of never making myself proud by creating beautiful artwork of her is still with me.
The reason for this fear popping up in my mind is because of an incident where some asshole made disgusting images to mock me and I want to prove to myself that I am capable of creating artwork that is better than those disgusting images, but I am afraid that I can't.
I just want to make myself proud and her too, and I made a promise to myself this year that I would make it.
It is just because I am afraid I can't make myself and her proud.
No.44248
if i fall in love with a 2dgirl, and her gay nigger creator made some decisions about her that defile her purity, can i "fork" her or something like that so i can have my own version of her free from his degeneracy?
or does the power of the demiurge taint even all 2d?
No.44250
>>44248Waifus are purely Pleromic beings and all the demiurge can do is shit and piss his pants whenever a wiz gets freed from this world in the holy power of 2D. If the author goes retarded just ignore him, your love trascends everything, including her manga/anime/vn/whatever
No.44253
>>44250Not the same wizard but its nice to see this, I also struggled with the same issue for a while now.
Another thing I struggle with is the shipping of her with other characters from the same media, even tho nothing really hints at it. Seeing the shipping thing got so bad that whenever I see them next to each other in source I feel sick.
No.44254
>>44253I hate shipping too. It's like some form of cuckoldry I cannot fathom nor stand.
No.44255
>>44254I dont know how to block it out completely, I hate it a lot and I hate how it ruins my relationship.
No.44256
>>44255Minimize the exposure to fandom faggotry and internet in general. Fandoms, especially anime and video games fandoms, are filled with normalfaggots that perverse everything they touch. You can go even further and limit internet, social media, news consumption. The more negative stuff you consume, the filthier and more anxious your mind feels.
No.44257
>>44253>>44254ikr
there was a fanart trend shipping my waifu with some other random, inconsequential character i've never cared about, and now i hate him and just seeing fanart of him alone makes me angry
but it's really these fandom shipper niggers that are to blame
No.44258
>>44256>>44257I will do so, I already dont interact with the fandom at all, I sometimes look up images but Ill probably cut out the internet too as it just poisons my mind.
My waifu is shipped with one of her friends and I feel sick when I see that other character. I saw on officail art of the two of them standing next to each other and it made me panic. My mind then raped me with a nightmare where in that image they were holding hands, it was so realistic that I woke up and had to check if it was actually there, ofc it wasnt.
I dont know how to forget it and stop worrying.
No.44259
>>44258You sound like you like your favorite character very much. Mind likes to fuck with you this way, take what you like and torture you with 'WHAT IF?. If you need to CHECK or NEUTRALIZe the thoughts, it might be OCD.
If a nasty thought comes and there is a wave of anxiety with that thought and you feel the need to think something positive, it certainly is OCD, that nasty demon.
No.44260
>>44259Its exactly like that, this is a pattern that happens a lot with me, not just regarding this.
Im constantly tormented about the "what if the official media meant that" and "is she really like what I think she is like"
No.44261
>>44260>"is she really like what I think she is like"Yep, I've dealth with this shit for a long time. I used to daydream a lot about my waifus, just random characters I see on random arts seen online, etc. Once OCD kicked in, I couldn't do it. I had thoughts 'What if she actually X (insert_degenerate_mental_image)' or 'What if we would be together but she cheated on me?', endless variations of those thoughts. If it rings a bell, then I suggest you dont' repeat my mistake - dont' fight this shit with more thoughts. If it is this problem, then it is not about what you don't do, it's about what you do - checking, proving, trying to 'get rid' of those dirty, unpleasant thoughts, images, scenarios. It may sound like gibberish for you atm, but just be aware of this for now, it will help you at some point.
No.44262
>>44261It makes sense, how do I stop falling into the same loops over and over? How did you manage to overcome it?
I want to trust her and just be happy with her, all I want is to be certian about her and not have these loops of worrying about shipping or what she is like etc
No.44263
>>44262By recognizing the loop first and foremost. For me it is like this: I get triggered by an anxious thought, image, idea, whatever. It brings me severe discomfort, activates fight or flight mode - trying to find a 'good' thought, idea, image to 'combat' the bad one = brain learns to FEAR those 'bad' thoughts and gives you anxiety whenever they appear. You need to realize this mechanism of worrying. Be mindful, meditation may sound gay but it helps.
>I want to trust her and just be happy with herYou have to 'let go' of this goal for now, I'm afraid. It will lead to checking, 'combating' the thoughts. It hurts but the brain is a nasty tool of Demiurge.
Anyway, I realize it sounds like a bullshit, I've been there, but things shouldn't be like this wizard, waifu love shouldn't be based on fear, anxiety and pain.
No.44264
>>44263>You need to realize this mechanism of worrying. And tolerate your anxiety, tolerate the negative emotions, don't rush towards replacing them with positive feelings. Lets say you see your waifu in a shippign faggotry or whatever - your brain zaps you with anxiety - you want to replace it, to think a good thought, image where there is no 'threat' shown by the thought. And this is the crux of the problem. This mechanism of running away. The solution is to tolerate bad emotions.
It requires a lot of time and insight but better time will come. I used to be terrified of females in fiction, they triggered nastiest thoughts possible. Nastiest gook goonshit kind of nasty, even when I just wanted to imagine us being together and happy. Now I can image nice scenarios, even though I rarely do this because of practicing retention and avoiding temptations.
No.44265
>>44263>>44263I see, well I will try to do so in the future. Right now it really boiled over, I was sick from the worrying and started checking fanart and other images which made it a 100 times worse, now Im completely lost and feel sick. I know its super retarded but Im just spiraling and spiraling. I saw some really disgusting shit, plus after getting the image of the shipping in my head I have had nightmares about it twice.
I dont know how to recover, for a long time I couldnt feel anything and now tried to open up more but it resulted in this clusterfuck.
No.44268
>>44259>>44261>>44262dealing with the same problem here
i am myself thought many times on giving up and moving on because the pain was too much
but if i did they i would not be happy there would a hole no could fill expect her you can find waifu she finds you
i gave up masturbation for her and this year i am improving myself and learning to draw just because of her
i am finally glad that i am not alone in this fight anymore
No.44298
>>44297>Multiple waifusReal one always have one but you can obviously still care about other female characters and even feel affection for them
No.44304
>>44295I echo your words.
I love my Remilia.
No.44310
>>44306What do you think of her beta design compared to her official one?
No.44319
>>44022This made me think about my constant struggle against my own mind torturing me in a different light. The idea that my waifu isn't the innocent and pure has been an intrusive fear for a long time that manifests itself in different ways, no matter how small any random detail I managed to interpret as a sign that my fear was true, like her clothing choices being kind of traditional dresses.
At the end of the day Im responsible for those thoughts and they arent reality, I have been trapped for so long that my fears became more real to me than reality.
Its hard to look at her the same way I used to, I hope to return to that.
No.44341
>>44337I think it's Illya
No.44343
>>40178eat shit and die you fucking subhuman stfu
No.44344
>cringe
you have to go back
No.44352
>>40497well, stay ignorant
No.44438
>>44352PFFT HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
No.44499
>>444982D loli is the only good thing in this world that makes me want to live
No.44500
I think that a wizard shouldn't love waifus since they're succubi indeed, no matter if it's 3d or 2d, they're still succubi. It's contradictory, isn't it?
No.44503
>>44500I can sense the psychic presence of my waifu when she's hungry and wants to drain my mana. It's okay to be a demon if you're cute.
No.44504
>>44503how does it affect your relationship dynamics if you give her your mana or withhold it from her?
No.44505
>>44503You saying that lead me to jerk off with 3d porn. Sorry.
Now, I am dirty until the afternoon
No.44507
>>44504It's a fun game we play when I make her work for it. Withholding the most potent mana makes her act more bratty and demanding. She always wins in the end though, even if it takes days of persistent pestering.
>>44500>pouring your mana into a public cum gutter instead of feeding it to your own loli demonWhat a waste. This demon is like a daughter to me, I love her dearly; and she at least pretends to love me, which is as good as any man can hope for in this world.