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>What do you live for?

realistically? i live for the internet. only thing i want to do these days. i get up and sit on my compy and just fuck around on the internet for 16 hours till it's time to sleep. that's it. everything else is just a distraction or temporary hassle that keeps me away from the internet.

the other thing i like is sleeping. night dreaming and day dreaming. i have a tulpa that gives me some comfort.

i wish i could own nothing. ownership is a burden, rich people are always miserable.

but i have to own stuff because otherwise i would have to rent it, which means i can't have it instantly whenever i most need it and everything becomes cumbersome.

if i knew how much i am hindered by having to have a place where my computer sits and where my tools are, i would have never accumulated anything besides 2 pairs of clothes, a backpack and a laptop and a bowl, a spoon, a fork and a knife.

having to pay to exist is the worst trap it is such a bad system.

>>323197

this would solve the dilemma completely. i could live on a motorcycle and have a home with all my tools with me at all times. i would not need a credit card, i would not need a bank account, i would need none of this shit and just move to the country that gives the least fuck.

it's just shit that .zip files only work in the digital.

>>323194
>>323194
> Be a fierce Nietzschean
Nietzsche was a freemasonic propagandist carefully promoted by (((Venetian))) publishing houses in the interest of further eroding Christianity within Europe. Nothing organic about Nietzsche.

> Write a world changing philosophical novel.
He even wrote his laughable "Zarathustra" novel at an apartment in Venice.

>Live for pleasure? (Freud)
Horrific charlatan whose entire body of work is an attempt at the reversal of the Catholic elevation of human nature into a nightmarish jewish world of sexual perversions and debasement. He even spoke about how he conceived himself a second Hannibal sent to conquer Rome (ie, Catholicism). His making of modern secular psychotherapy endures as a hunter's game for jewish mental health professionals.

> Live for meaning? (Frankl).

Common jewish liar, of the same line as Wisel. Where are the popularized survivors of the jewish genocides of Russians? Or where can be found a lionized survivor of the kikes' 5-year long COVID genocide prattling at length about meaning?

If these are your aspirant models of men who have followed worthy directions, I think you need to requalify your judgement.

>>323211
Lighten up wizzie

>>323218
Infantile.

>>323218
(((323218)))

>>323211
how come you didn't visit my book thread, you even know authors! rude.

>>323194
>I remember being in primary school as a little kid and being uninterested in playing with anyone. I just wanted to wander in my own thoughts and wander in the playground aimlessly. I sometimes observed the other students. Boys playing football. succubi huddled in groups talking. Not wishing to take part myself I just analysed.

i am currently reading Memories, Dreams, Reflections by Carl Jung and your description very much reminds me of him.


>Live for pleasure?
i think it is important to know how to be happy and experience plenty of it because if you don't know how to be happy then other people can make you happy to get you to become what they want you to be. they then drip-feed you happiness to control you. in this world the desire to be happy, to be loved, to receive attention are all things that are used to trap weak people, which is horrific and demoralizing and you can't save these people from being cannonfodder but you can save yourself by realizing what they don't: all the good stuff is already inside you, you just have to look for it, it is not hard to find and then you become inaccessible to the corruption and immorality and soullessness that is used to turn most people into fuel for evil.

>Live for power?
the only power is over yourself. power over others is a burden but fools who desire it get so blind from chasing it, that they never understand that it is not what they hoped it would be even if they do end up reaching it; most don't though.

>Live for meaning?
that's the only thing you can do isn't it. hard thing to do, even if you do it, there is a good chance you just don't succeed. find a way to help carry what you believe is in the interest of humanity and do it i guess. leave the place better then you have found it.

>What do you do?
improving myself to the point that when i find a way to spend my energy, i am ready to do it without delay.

>Life is so short.
yeah, time increases but i think you can slow it down a bit by resisting the draw of comfort and always remain on the lookout for new things and constantly change yourself.

>I am 31 years old.
big up yourself! i'm not quite sure what it means but i heard jamaicans say it in a enthusiastic way.

>My body is not where I could be.
now this is one thing i (who i am just a few years older) have been surprisingly successful in. when i was your age i did it slowly. i would always ask myself what is the worst thing i am eating and bit by bit i eliminated all the awful stuff. every so often i would question a new thing and then eat it for the last time and did improve over time. now i am fit and healthy to points few believe to be possible. there are levels of human health completely invisible to the greater public. look for it and you shall find them. i am glad i did this. i made "being healthy" a hobby of mine and BOY DID IT PAY OFF! wise choice on my part!

>My achievements are not where they could be.
i'd assume those would happen automatically the more you take your fate in your own hands and make wise use of your time. i don't really have achievements but i have learned a lot of useful stuff and i have abilities that are both useful and impressive to other people; which is a burden and hindrance more then it helps unfortunately.

>What do you live for?
i guess to be true to what i believe is good to the best of my knowledge and ability while constantly engaging in the process of questioning everything so that i can change course whenever my destination has been corrupted so i can always sail towards non-corruption and never be a fuel for corrupion.

>>323234
>yeah, time increases but i think you can slow it down a bit by resisting the draw of comfort and always remain on the lookout for new things and constantly change yourself.

didn't come out good. what i meant was time keeps flying by faster and faster but when you remain open to learn new stuff, you can slow it down. time is way more rubbery then people seem to have grasped. when i skate and i am about to fall, then time slows down to one frame per second and i have like an eternity to come up with a way how to fall down elegantly without breaking anything. true story.

I'm going to change things, or at least get close enough that it melts my wings.

>>323237
Omg it's like Icarus! And the cat's name was Icarus! I'm going completely insane!!!1!

>>323194
I'm turning 30 in a month and I wish I knew man.
I let my health decline to a ridiculous degree.
Let myself rot both in mind and body.
I'm a man of inaction and similar to you I have voyeuristic tendencies. I used to just observe people too, I liked watching, doing not so much.
I'd be fine as a spectator. Or at least that is what I tell myself.

>>323197
Feel this too. I tried getting rid of as much as I could recently. I'm burdened by a lot of digital hoarding as well. Not just physical items.
It was a great relief every time I cut out something.
One less thing to manage or worry about keeping around.



One of my childhood dreams was to someday have enough money to buy a small house in a village and have a rose garden and just chill for the rest of my life. No work.
At the time it seemed attainable. Today, not really short of a miracle.
Even if you "own" stuff you have to maintain it, things go bad, gotta buy it again and many things are extremely pricey. Imagine having to buy a fridge every 5 years if you "retired" with no income.
Or a washing machine etc.
Just sustaining yourself also comes with a bunch of recurring payments. It's a pain. The grind never ends.

Sometimes I envy pea-brained animals, but then again they too have to keep hunting for food water and shelter all the same. Constantly until they can no longer…
I was thinking that maybe shifting my dreams to saving up enough money to NEET for 5 years again, full freedom before I off myself since I'm gonna die someday anyways seems like a faraway dream.
Everything I got saved now is like half a years worth… I could do better sure, but the world is getting fucked, money getting devalued. It's like forces above just don't want to let people live.
I'm tired of the constant stress coming from the outside…

>>323287
I let my health decline to a ridiculous degree.
Let myself rot both in mind and body.
I'm a man of inaction and similar to you I have voyeuristic tendencies. I used to just observe people too, I liked watching, doing not so much.
I'd be fine as a spectator. Or at least that is what I tell myself.

have you ever listen to the cassette programm "psychology of achievement" by brain tracy? if not you have been missing out.

>>323287
>t's like forces above just don't want to let people live.

it really does feel like that but i like to think those people are even more miserable then me. i always felt these people envy me and i never envied them. the direction of envy clearly flows in my favor and i have all their envy and they have none of mine.

i still think you should get healthy and hope that a miracle happens. being healthy is nice. it doesn't make what you describe go away but it makes everything way easier.