/wiz/ - Wizardry

If there's something you never received in life, like love and social connection, you're blind to it and you start believing that you simply don't have a need for it. You can't crave something you've never experienced. People are motivated to socialize because they know that it will lead to some reward, but to you it feels "alien and weird". Why have a partner? In theory, you could have sex like they do in the pornos, but isn't it easier to just masturbate? You don't feel like you're missing out on anything because you're experientially blind. It's like you never tried chocolate, so you see other humans doing all these weird things in order to get it, but for you it's just an abstract concept because you never felt it and you can't imagine receiving it from another person.

One day you might find a person or you might even imagine something approaching love and it will unlock something in you, a part that you didn't know existed, and that part will start to crave that experience that everyone has known since a young age. It will feel like anguish since it's something that's been completely unknown to you for most of your life and that you need in order to be whole, but you have no real conception of it, you're not even sure it can be found in the world, it remains an abstract concept that requires experience to materialize and heal you of your wound.

You are only a true celibate if you made an attempt and no succubi wanted you. If you made no attempts but think succubi will give you a chance you're a fakecel/tempcel not a volcel.

>>216462
This was actually a great insight, it has been ages since i've readed something that actually makes sense on this website. i'll meditate on it…

>>216469
I prefer to not give details because this is more of a vent than a bragging post. I think the very reason im not resentful about succubi is because they always treated me well, one of them asked me out. I just didn't know how to respond and what I did was slowly move away.

>I think most succubi are good people and im not gay
You're an absolute faggot if you think most succubi are good people lol

>>216470
also, yeah. i think part of the reason im this way is because both my parents were pretty "cold" people. They didnt really made anything bad for me directly, but demonstrating affection was never their cup of tea. They were somewhat rigid too

>>216471
>one of them asked me out
What exactly did she say? Because succubi do this thing where they ask the ugly guy out on a date only to laugh at them if they say yes.
If it was random and out of nowhere it was just a joke being played on you.

I'm not trying to be mean but your perspective is just the most basic viewpoint of an isolated antisocial person and you can't even know what you actually want/need or how things work if you stay like that or don't have something to pursue other than just entertainment and consuming. I'm also not saying youre a freak for living like this but I wouldn't make a philosophy out of it.

Overall you're pretty much just isolated and your parents weren't able to properly guide you socially or to show interest and affection. The parental neglect etc. made you anti social in a way. You just do what you know makes you feel good since childhood and I'm rather sure you haven't pursued much else.

Theres just plenty things that you never learn if you choose to be isolated like this, you will never properly understand social dynamics etc. which will make you believe weird things such as most succubi being good people which is complete bullshit.

Theres just a certain naivity to your posts that shows how you only preceive things from a very sheltered perspective.

>>216475
It wasn't out of nowhere. She always gave lots of signals. like being friendly, trying physical contact and looking at me a lot and asking questions, for some strange reason she was really curious about me. Im not exactly the kind of person who is good at recognizing those signals but i obviously knew something was going on. Until one day she asked me if i would be interested in dating. I immediately froze, became nervous and confused when i heard it, i dissociated HARD.. I wasn't prepared for that kind of thing, and said i would respond later, but in reality i just walked away and ghosted her. It was a pretty cowardly thing to do , but i didn't have the patience to explain the truth.


That said, i dont think this was anything special, it happens all the time, normal people are like this, we are just too blind to it because of mental illness and isolation

>>216478
> She always gave lots of signals. like being friendly, trying physical contact and looking at me a lot and asking questions
Leave this site. r9k is a better place for you.

>>216477
Thank you for understanding me.. Yes, you are correct. I regret a lot the time i wasted on trivial things because im feeling in my own skin now life taking its toll. Not focusing on a big goal was a big mistake. Also my lack of good habits and bad routine made me fucked up in the head. Its not healthy living this way, and im now starting to recognize it. The best advice i can give to younger wizards is to have a fixed ROUTINE and not run away from reality. Its exhausting trying to fix everything at this age but i don't want to end up homeless or drug addict.

>>216479
Dude, i didnt take any attitude. this is the very reason im a virgin and also the reason im here. lol

>>216478
Are you Indian or Mexican or something? Over here not even giga chads have succubi approaching them. It also never happened to me or any other virgin I know of even good looking ones.
If you don't have an aura that repulses succubi (you don't have to be fat or ugly for this) you're not volcel or wiz material.

I just HATE someone watching over my shoulder and having to answer to someone.

I want to be able to do dumb shit like eating cereal in my underwear while watching youtube videos or not shower for a week or play with lego without having to explain myself.

>>216459
You may be on the autistic/schizo side.

Not everyone here is aesthetically a monster, and I've had similar situations in life too.
Those who are virgin for other reasons might look down on us and say we don't belong.

I think we don't like how society works, how people interact with each other, how humans behave. So even though we might have sexual arousal / drive, we don't see a good environment around us that would allow for us to have sex.

Then, with time, you get more and more of an outcast / hikki and you do become ugly too, and even less interested in people than before, and the opportunities that once came up are now impossible, and you don't even care anymore.

It's a long path towards complete isolation.

Sex is not even that important, if you think that you're missing literally everything else too, including a reason to get up in the morning.

>>216462
>If there's something you never received in life, like love and social connection, you're blind to it and you start believing that you simply don't have a need for it. You can't crave something you've never experienced.

This is very true. I often think about this. I have avoidant personality disorder but I envy the schizoids like OP who don't know what they're missing out on. I was essentially fousted off on a family of normies for much of my childhood while my parents worked. Then one day their family moved to another state. That has left me with a longing for social connection my entire life that I have not been able to fulfill. My parents are the typical wizard schizoid types who aren't capable of emotional connection and I assume that's how I would have turned out too had I not been introduced to normalfags from a young age who showed me what life is supposed to be like. I will always be a failed normalfag rather than a schizoid, although the past decade or so of social isolation I think is making me more schizoid every day.

>>216462
>If there's something you never received in life, like love and social connection, you're blind to it and you start believing that you simply don't have a need for it. You can't crave something you've never experienced.

It is both beneficial but also scary how we get used to things.

I've been used to not go outside, not talk to anyone but my parents, just browse imageboards and play games and eat fast food…

instead I could be traveling, visiting several different countries each year, talking to different people who can show me different perspectives and tell me about things I was not aware of, read books about people with interesting lives and on different topics expanding my horizon, visit art galleries, stage plays, exercise, learn how to make stuff, cook several different meals each week…

it's tragic to me how much years of my life I wasted like this.

>>216480
I feel similiar about my situation and I came to the same conclusion. You just gotta try to work with what you have and the only motivation might be the fear of having a rather shitty life in the future if everything fails. Sometimes I still have weird pipe dreams of things I want to do or experience as if I'm still a very young person but I'm growing more and more familiar to the fact that life is just what it is and I can't deny my obvious limitations or the time I have already lost. The fear of missing out in life (whatever that means) still haunts me at times but I guess it's just a matter of time until that fades.

I never found purpose and my parents just let me run free without much guidance except for their own limitations and flaws they projected on me. My parents are similar to how other posters described their parents and sometimes I wonder why they even had me in the first place. It feels like I was born without much of a purpose so I just got lost in all kinds of things.

>>216484
Basically you just struggle until you get numb to it and have to submit. Its crazy how pretty much all is layed out from the first few years of your life.

>>216488
>instead I could be traveling, visiting several different countries each year, talking to different people who can show me different perspectives and tell me about things I was not aware of, read books about people with interesting lives and on different topics expanding my horizon, visit art galleries, stage plays, exercise, learn how to make stuff, cook several different meals each week…
Lol you don't even understand that normies do these things just to take pictures to show off to their friends and family. Doing these things alone is not fun in itself.

>>216486
>he schizoids like OP who don't know what they're missing out on.
That's not exactly how it goes, they don't actually need that as much as you do, it's not cope. It's being emotionally different. You worded it like they're actually missing something that they would love, but when they experience it, it's not much for them, it feels "meh".

>>216488
>it's tragic to me how much years of my life I wasted like this.
You had no chance, it's not your fault. You wouldn't have actually liked traveling, etc, because your brain is not made for those things.

>>216531
>Lol you don't even understand that normies do these things just to take pictures to show off to their friends and family. Doing these things alone is not fun in itself.
You talk like this because you're one of us, but I've seen with my eyes out there IRL they were enjoying those things without using their phones. Their brain doesn't work like ours, they actually enjoy those activities. I, otoh, don't feel shit.

>>216459
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>>216488
>uhhh we should've just tried harder in life maayn we heckin missed out and wasted our timez n shieet
ok no offense but I don't get why you people come here. if you want to get into life's grinder wheel and be the uber successful rich chad you were meant to be then go ahead, that's literally what every other normgroid tries to do if you've ever bothered looking around. just please leave for any other cucked self improvement forum or something.

perhaps it never occurred to you but if life is meaningless then it's ok to not try. >>216484 >>216533
and like they said schizoids don't really care at all about relationships and people.

>>216598
Ok im leaving bye faggot

>>216598
>ok no offense but I don't get why you people come here
to bitch about our life and others life while insulting normalfags and succubi

>>216598
Im working hard on being self sufficient and exiting the rat race. This is what i regret for wasting my time.

you are missing the point, i do not regret not trying to fit in society standards at all, just regret wasting my time in things that didnt brought me personal freedom and autonomy.

You think people should just lie down and rot away?

>>216603
>You think people should just lie down and rot away?
Any effort or drive means that you're a failed normalfag who wants to have sex, there is no other possible explanation for self-preservation.

>>216605
If you think like this why havent you killed yourself yet? This is a serious question.

Even me who is aloof most of the time think that life has more to offer than sex. I have goals, i don't want to be homeless or a burden to my parents forever. You are the one who cant get sex off your mind here.

>>216606
If you need more than a PC with internet to be happy you're a normgroid. If you had goals and aspirations that were realistic as a kid that you followed through to adulthood means you're a normgroid. Most of us have been defeated by life and given up since a very early age.

>>216603
>Im working hard on being self sufficient and exiting the rat race
What?
You don't exit the rat race by wageslaving lmao, you exit it be getting neetbux or being homeless, anything but working lol

>>216459
Pffft. I am actually proud of it, in college foids came to me with taunts and showing indicators of interest for me to fall in. I didn't. They automatically got roasted about it and what else can you show me for a giant red flag if not that attitude.

>I think most succubi are good people
I pity you.

>Seeing all the lately threads of wizards complaning that they never even had chances makes me feel kinda sad in a way, not the regret type of way but idk, it just feels weird
Those are failed normies, not wizards.

>I don't know where my life is going.
So you do not even know your type and strategy at Human Design, huh? It made some great changes with me, I am not bothering myself anymore about going after a job (since knowing that such method will never work for my type).

>Im planning to go to doctor to know If i have autism or something, it doesnt bother me it just feels weird being like this, like a fate kind of thing, like i never had control of being like this in the first place
Nobody has! And it is horrible to see how quick you are to decide putting yourself into the hands of ignorant normie misguidances who will probably fuck you up with meds as soon as you let them.
Maybe holotropic breathwork has better things for you than classic normie medicine, if you may delve.