/wiz/ - Wizardry

counter question: why leave? what problem are you trying to solve with that?

>>218965
when I am lonely, I seek interactions that aren't always available, my soul longs for another soul with whom I can interact but it isn't always available. I want to train my soul to stop craving interactions with another soul, that is the problem I'm trying to solve, you have no idea how much misery I went through because of this in the last few weeks because of this ;_;

>>218967
Know this: reincarnation is real. I love you, Anon.

>>218972
you have no idea how much i wish that was true, i would have popped my head a long time ago just to start over

>>218967
i see. you're going about it the wrong way. abstinence won't help, because what drives the craving for social interaction is simply the knowledge that you are able to get a reward (positive feedback, entertainment, sense of belonging, security etc.) by doing some specific activity. even if you go live in a desert, you will still remember how cool the internet is, and that you could look at memes and feel good, or that feeling of being part of a tight-knit group etc. it's why drug addicts can't drop the habit, even after years of being clean, they still remember what it's like to be high. it's just a mechanism in your brain and it's not a malfunction, even if it sometimes causes suffering as a side-effect (addiction and frustration about unfulfilled desires).

some of us are "lucky" in regards to social craving because we never had ANY positive social interactions in our lives and ended up as schizoids. we don't crave it because we simply don't have any positive memories that could serve as a foundation for the craving.

so, your only possibility of completely removing the craving would be to forget key experiences stored in your memory. a lobotomy could achieve that, brain damage of some kind, these usually also result in personality changes. not really achievable without great risk and costs.

the other option, you still remember how good social interaction feels, but you add new memories of rewarding solitary activities, thus you can override the craving by a stronger craving. this is also how you escape "addiction", by expanding your behavioral repertoire so that you have a diverse set of sources of reward and any single one doesn't mog the other ones. trying heroin once won't turn you into an addict, but, if your life is generally shit, it might just become literally the best thing you've ever experienced, and then there's a high chance of experiential narrowing, resulting in a fixation on a single reward source.

TL;DR - get a time-consuming solitary hobby that you find rewarding outside of online social spheres

The main error here is that the concept that interaction with other hominids will lead to enlightenment and positive outcomes is deceptive and mentally corrosive.

>>218974
why would it not be true?

>>218987
it is one thing to not remember a few aspects of your life due to brain damage, it is entirely different when your memories from a possible past life is non-existant, that rules out reincarnation

>>218964
It's an unfortunate fact of the human condition that your chimp brain simply cannot survive absolute zero interaction with other humans ever. You will go painfully insane
You need to get your dose somehow, and posting on imageboards is a sustainable minimum for those people who only get negative emotions from social interactions

I decided to delete the apps and bookmarks for instagram, x, tiktok, twitch, and discord. I was engaging with too much ragebait and it was frying my brain. It got to the point where no matter what opinion or thought I had, it felt like I was making half the population extremely angry and wanting to kill me. It felt like there was zero nuance to any topic whatsoever, no sense of neutrality to anything. I want to get away from that feeling.
Besides that the only other thing I used these apps for was for mindless coomer content. I was obsessed with the mundane daily updates of these bathing suit models who will never talk to me. Such nonsense, yet it was the first thing I looked at when I got up in the morning and the last thing before going to bed.
I don't have your problem where I'm looking to interact with someone. I'm really introverted so I only used these apps to consume content.

>>218991
nta, we receive deja vus from places we've been in another life before. Those can be used as clues. More likely to say weird shit as a kid too like when I was 5 on the way to Disneyland in Paris I said out loud I've been there before on that highway when I only been there my first time. Said it about some other places too. Then there's my high school French teacher in French class telling me I have a Parisian accent. I doubt this can be experienced by anyone who can't even fully visualize a 3D apple and hasn't a constant debate in his mind between 3 voices. I think even full blown memory can appear but only in dreams and visions. Had a dream about A German opera over a hundred years ago, I swear it's real

You need to replace those activities with other ones. I took an internet break yesterday, mostly played videogames and watched Squid Game. Today and tomorrow and every day after I'm limiting my time online to 2 hours max.

I tried to do it, I went out with my brother, and sometimes I went out alone, wandering around the city with nothing to do. I listened to the radio, and read books. I felt a need to talk to someone, since I was extremely bored. But I think the best way to burn hours is to work, you go to work 8 or 10 hours, you read for another 3 or 4, you bathe for another hour, and you finish the day.

Every day I dream of being able to leave her, and force myself to focus on doing what I mentioned to you. Because out of sheer boredom I did things I never thought I would do. With enough time, I will be able to focus on being a magnificent person.