>>222874your problem is that you worship money. you will never be happy because your life revolves around that. you always put money first and its obvious from your post. you even ranked it:
>money>friends>educationand these are your priorities and money is the top and the most important thing for you and this is where you are wrong.
education is the most important thing but this doesnt mean going to some jew school memorizing some jew book and then being able to recite it from memory for a test to get a good goy point and a goldstar, education means self learning, recognizing patterns, logical thinking and utilizing the tools you have in the most efficient way.
also you arent as stupid as you think:
>I don't even know English and I use Google Translatethats self learning, eventually you will become good at it. thats also how I learned english.
and if you can do this, you can learn anything else. learning is always the same shit but its important that you learn things that interest you and that are meaningful to you.
so your next step should be figuring out what kinda skills you want to learn, gotta figure out what truly interests you and set yourself some goals.
once you learned some skills you will earn money and money will be no issue.
>but I do not want to suffer anymoreLife is always suffering, suffering is part of the process.
there is a lot you can do to minimize it tho.
>no futureyou dont know that and I can assure you that life can take some drastic positive twists at any time. I tried killing myself twice once in 2010 and later in 2012, 10+ years later and I'm glad I didnt succeed because things improved and now I'm comfy.
also suffering builds character.
>I was humiliated at schoolyou also need to stop looking into the past.
looking back is a waste of the present and future, looking forward is what really matters. it also doesnt matter who you were but what matters is who are you going to be.