/wiz/ - Wizardry

I have only grown stronger, wiser… Every year of my life permits me more of the power and will to commit a grand holocaust against my enemies. Also some of my teeth are falling out.

>>226854
My body is holding up reasonably well. It's obviously aging, but I'm not really feeling hindered by it and I've never really cared much about my looks.
Mental health is definitely worse. But I also have a lot more experience with this brain, so it's more manageable and oddly useful sometimes. Related, I don't really think that my way of thinking has changed but that experience has invalidated a lot of the assumptions I used to make, so it does produce different outcomes. I think it's for the better.
I'm kind of surprised how little my core lifestyle has changed, but I'm quicker to throw out things I don't like. Things I'm only doing out of habit or because I'm being lazy but ultimately I would prefer not to have in my life. Free will is pretty incredible once you start to use it.
So… yeah, I think it's going OK. I could be doing a lot worse.

>>226857
I feel quite similarly.

>>226855
I had the teeth thing earlier this year. Was talking to someone and bit down on something hard, like gravel, but I immediately knew what it was, but hoped I was wrong. Had to continue the rest of the conversation holding bits of teeth in my mouth until I could pull the shards out. I wonder for how much longer I can hold out going to the dentist; I hope I don't get one of those infections that go straight to your brain and kill you.


The things I have noticed are typical I think, and start becoming more noticeable once leaving your 20s for most people. The maintenance of yourself and body, things I didn't have to consider before. Poor sleep, diet and drug intake affects me more. I feel the stressors on my body more, can't shrug them off so easily now. For the first time in my life I've had to consider how I treat my body only because it makes getting through the work day even more grueling if I mistreat it too much. It fucking sucks to finally be reminded I'm slowly dying and it's all downhill from here, haha…(of course I might also say it's been downhill since I was born)

In terms of thinking, it's painful how the world looks to me now. It feels like it's all over, though I might not even be halfway done with this life yet. I mean, it's always looked 'over', but there is still a sense in the back of your mind when you're young–even if it's just false hope–that 'there's still time' and 'things could get better'. You can at least live life pretending that's a possibility. I've lost that. This feels like it. The world holds no magic for me anymore, and I've grown tired of the substances that let me suspend that disbelief very briefly. The young people treat me differently now, I've become the other.

I don't think the rest of my life has to be terrible and completely without merit, but it's strange to feel as though your best days are behind you (even as horrible as they were) when there's still so many years left…

I looked at myself the other day. It suddenly felt like I'd aged ten years in the last month. I look just like my father…it's scary.

I'm graying and balding at the back and top of my head at age 21. There are literally men age 35 who look younger than me.

>>226858
Humans aren't biologically and evolutionarily meant to feel like they have half of their life left at age 40.
Throughout history well into the 1900s it was normal to die at 45-55 as a male (and much before that in the prehistoric age).

It is fundamentally and profoundly unnatural to live to 80, 90 or 100 as a human not to mention utterly impossible for the vast majority of the population without constant, ultra-costly taxpayer funded operations and medications.

You're supposed to feel like it's over at 40. In nature you'd be a grandparent with maybe five years of watching your offspring grow up.

>>226860
Prehistoric males died generally at 13-14 due to violence, famine and warfare. Many pre-roman mass graves are full of soldiers under 15 years old with heavy stab and blunt force trauma to their skeleton and skull.

If you made it to "adulthood" you lived until a maximum of around 33. The vast majority of preserved carbon dated pre-paleolithic corpses were far younger than that.
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC5719695/

>>226860
I'm surprised that I've never come across this take before, or just come to the conclusion myself. That's an interesting way to think about it; in some way, it makes me feel a little better, thank you.

>>226861
Nice link, thanks.

I'm not sure when it started. I used to pull all-nighters and found joy in small things, whether it was watching the sunrise, watching shitty anime, reading shitty manga, I used to take joy in something, no matter how small. Perhaps a certain character was drawn a certain way that appealed to me, or the colors, or a tiny passing element of the work appealed to me, even if the rest was shit. That little detail would be enough to make it memorable. I'd be eating junk food and feel tired, but I didn't mind. It was alright with me.

Now, I sleep more and am intolerant of missing even an hour or two. I have stopped feeling joy in small things, seeing through them and remembering their meaninglessness, as they were created by depraved authors. I watch the sunrise and feel profoundly annoyed, by the light, by remembering that I'm still alive, by the fact that it's day and it will be warm (I like cold). I am intolerant of junk food, even a small spike in insulin makes me feel fatigued. I'm tired of eating at all, infact.

I guess, I'm more tired of superficial things now. I want real substance. It's sad because I could create substance using meaningless details, but that energy I am lacking now. I used to have it abundantly in the past.

My skin has improved for the better though. It's softer, smoother, colder. It used to be hot and irritated in the past. My hair is healthier, shinier. I have less dandruff. But I know all of this is happening because my skin is slowing down. In a few years, it will slow down enough that none of it will matter anymore.

One thing I am content with though, at this time, is that I get to sleep deeper than I used to. Longer and much deeper, probably 9-11 hours a day. Maybe even longer. I love traversing through the void, sometimes I see strange worlds where common sense doesn't apply. When I die, will I dream like this forever?

Moved on from the fandom stuff, it left a big hole since my entire life was about comic books, video games and anime in my 20's. Got into hipster stuff in my 30's with the moustaches and dark beers and tight pants - that era peaked 2014-2017ish.
Now I'm in my 40's, teeth falling out, and my bosses are younger than me at work. I think my goals are to line up retirement, pumping the 401k hard so I can enjoy not working in my 60's. My grandma worked until she was 80 and I ain't doing that.

Quality thread btw, enjoyed the entire read.

>>226860
This is incorrect. Humans always had the capacity to live well into their 80s, 90s or 100s. That's why most human cultures have the figure of the elder.

The early death of men in ancient times happened due to warfare, confrontations with animals or the environment, fatal accidents and disease. If a human happened to survive its environment and didn't fall ill, he could very well live into his 80s. This was not rare at all.

Modern medicine "extended lifespan" in the sense that it erradicated child mortality and solved diseases that had very high mortality rates, especially via the invention of antibiotics. The human body didn't magically turn more longevous over the span of a few centuries of medical advancements, this is nonsense.

>>226854
Terribly. I can't handle aging or the passage of time. 2017 still feels recent to me, but it was really nearly a decade ago. Life is already pretty bad for me, and I haven't been able to make it any better despite trying constantly to improve. It's only gotten worse. I have no family and cost-of-living is slowly killing me. If it's this bad now, I can't imagine how much worse it will get 30/40/50 years later. I think I legitimately only have a few years left alive, it's terrifying and relieving at the same time.

>>226858
This. One of the things about the 2000s and even somewhat the 2010s was that you could still make some kind of appeal to the future, even if it was ultimately a false hope. The "there's still time" aspect was one of the only things that kept me going, but that has ran out.

>>226872
>This is incorrect. Humans always had the capacity to live well into their 80s, 90s or 100s. That's why most human cultures have the figure of the elder.


Go on wikipedia and look up old kings and famous figures, and the age they died at. 50 is about the median, getting to your 70s is rare, your 80s super rare. And this is the elite that didn't get impacted by famine, had enough water and wood to keep themselves clean, and could afford medical care.

> If a human happened to survive its environment and didn't fall ill, he could very well live into his 80s. This was not rare at all.

They had the capacity to, but basically none did. Ever have a grandparent that had a health scare? Any one of those events would've been death in the past. If you need medication for blood pressure or diabetes or whatever, you wouldn't get that and would just die. The olds are kept alive by meds these days.

And no, the elderly weren't actually seen as revered wise men, that's a sort of modern myth. Ageing wasn't understood and was treated with suspicion, and most people treated the old with a sort of contempt if they weren't immediate relatives. There weren't really many old people around in the olden days, every village of 300-500 might have like 10 people over 70, and that's being generous.

>>226882
Spartans openly killed old people and elders because they consumed food without being able to contribute anything. There are also other cultures where the elderly voluntarily left the tribe to wither away alone.

That poster is full of shit. Nobody revered the old. They were globally seen as a burden.
The only people who consistently had value in human society were succubi of childbearing age and men who were either physically strong, physically good looking or champions in a craft or skill that took a lifetime to master.

>>226860
>Throughout history well into the 1900s it was normal to die at 45-55 as a male (and much before that in the prehistoric age)
After researching my family tree this isn't true. Nearly all of my male ancestors going back to 1600 reached the age of 65, and a fair amount of them reached 80.

>>226891
Your personal anecdote doesn't override the peer-reviewed study above which looks at global life expectancies from 6000 BC until 1850 using radiocarbon dating on remains.

I expected more from (supposedly) a wizard.
As a side note, 113 billion people have died so far. Your family tree is an extremely small speck of sand in that scheme.
Nobody claimed it was impossible to live to 60. It was globally rare though.

>>226893
>>226890
sounds like cope
I'll live to be a wise healthy elder and have fun.

>>226893
>peer-reviewed study
The "peers" being a bunch of gay retards

>>226895
I apologize, I didn't know. I'll let the nurse know your helmet needs cleaning.

>>226896
Way to dox yourself, Corbin

>>226898
thats from the tiktok of an anti science furry who is 23 years old

>>226896
Whoa, didn't know IQ distribution looks like a wizard's hat



ahaha wow

>>226902
ahem, it's called a bell distribution or normal distribution and it's the most common pattern

>>226904
Deal DOOSHNEELA, your ENCYCLOPEDIA stat may be high, but your CONCPTUALIZATION abiity is lacking.

I knew about bell curves already, but this particular distribution looks like a wizard's hat and not like a proper bell - and I have seen plenty of church bells.

>very small ingunal hernia
>tough foods are now uncomfortable to chew
Hope nothing serious happens until I am like 70 or something

>>226908
use a literal blender to make your foods minced plz